#i have seen some ppl get pissy about this kind of thing before

[abra-ka-dammit]

Internet-savvy folks: my mom needs your help. (not $)  #longpost

This is abt to sound like some bullshit but literally when i got home today my mom was FREAKING out about it, I could see the fear in her eyes as she recounted the story.

Here’s the tl;dr: There may be now or soon/eventually a video of a man screaming at my mother on the internet, and we want to know who took it.

The long version:

My mom was driving to an appointment today when a car cut her off so close that had she not hit her brakes so hard he would have clipped her. Naturally, she honked and made a hand gesture (not the bird, like a pissy wave? She’s a New Yorker.) Clearly he saw it, and didn’t like it, because he started harassing her immediately afterwards, swerving to stay in front of her--endangering ALL the traffic, mind you, not just he and my mother. I don’t know the exact sequence of events or everything that followed, as my mom’s panicked storytelling jumped all over the place, but I’ll try to describe the things she told me as well as I can.

He drove up beside her, clearly screaming, gesturing for her to roll her window down, so she did. He starts screaming at her, fuck you bitch, pull over, i’m gonna fucking kill you, fat cow, etc. Absolutely raging at her like some rabid animal--and holding up his cell phone the whole time. Anyways she basically told him fuck off and tried to drive away. This man followed her, weaving through traffic literally TRYING to hit her car, for miles--my mom said it was probably around 20 minutes, the whole event--and every time she thought she lost him he showed back up.

Yeah, she should have called the police. She didn’t think to--I’m gonna blame fight or flight here because she was in hardcore FLIGHT mode, terrified for her safety. She didn’t even think to get his license plate number.

This man followed her all the way to the doctor’s office. She thought at that point he’d lost her, but as she got out of her vehicle, she heard him screaming, and there he was, screaming, cursing, saying he was going to hurt her, kill her, insulting her, etc.--all the while holding his phone up in front of him. Luckily, as she is handicapped, she was parked right in front of the office, so feeling a little better she gives him something like a YEAH? DO IT THEN, but he didn’t go through with his threats, thank god. I’m not sure exactly what happened between that and her shakily telling her doctors about it and having people keep a lookout around the office--but he was gone finally.

Look, my mom’s not an amazing person, she can be a bitch, but not even she deserves this. So here’s my thought: he was recording it. I don’t know why else he would be holding up his phone. I think he was looking for a specific kind of reaction, or maybe he really did intend to hurt her on camera. I don’t know why, but I also feel like she was specifically targeted for this perhaps due to her weight or age--I don’t think it’s the first time it happened with this guy. But even if it was, I almost guarantee he was recording it. And we all know what ends up happening with stuff ppl record nowadays. It ends up here, on the internet.

So what I ask is that people who see a lot of the web keep their eyes open, in case that video DOES make it somewhere up here. I’m not sure which side he was recording either, so the video could prob be one of two things:

White(?) male, young adult (my mom said “he looked 19 or 20 to me!” which probably means 25ish), dark hair in a white van of some sort. Angry, screaming out his car window, saying “fuck” and its conjugations a LOT, insulting weight, etc. Gets out of his vehicle at some point, more of the same verbally. In between times my mom heard him, I don’t know what it would contain.

Middle-aged, heavy white woman driving a blue SUV/van as a man screams and curses at her. Probably wearing glasses or sunglasses. Short/medium length floofy hair, dark and dyed with splotches of red/purplish. You might hear her NY accent depending on whether you can hear her or not and what she even said specifically. According to her, at some point when her flight turned to fight she blows him a sarcastic kiss. (I think before she enters the office?)

It’s not a matter of privacy, this is more a concern of justice, for me. This dickhead should have been arrested. We just don’t know who the fuck he is. If we see the video, we can try to trace back to who posted it, etc--and the video itself will be proof enough to rest my case for the Lawmen.

Oh--and this happened in Arizona, in case that ends up being any amount of helpful.

Like, I realize how unlikely it is that this will be seen by many people or that if this (assumed) video makes it to the web anyone who read this will see it and be like HEY, but if everyone could just keep this in the back of ur minds when ur digging through random youtube vids or w/e, id be grateful

#stupid shit #long post #im sorry but #this is so fucked up and im pissed off #i bet he runs some stupid woman harassing channel or smth #i dont like my mom much either but jesus fucking christ man there is a LIMIT #she's so freaked out tho god

[sans-mots]

captain america civil war is on netflix, my tummy hurts and it’s my day off so time to watch it for the first time since I saw it in theatres (I hated it that much tbh, still have only seen age of ultron once)

time to see it again

i like how they custom made a fancy red leather star notebook for the winter soldier’s operational codes

two white ladies wearing shades/baseball cap and drinking coffee not ten feet from each other and talking into thin air?? it would have been much more normal to have them be in a conversation, like expat friends meeting up for coffee, then they’d be noticeable but not weird. geez

steve just stole a dudes gas mask that’s hardcore as all hell. aint give a shit rogers

Nat’s stupid fckin flowy hair she would for real just have a pixie cut, or even her short bob from the first avengers if she actually fought like that all the time. wanda’s makes sense because she’s a long range combatant 

ok i get that rumlow’s mad at cap but wouldn’t his real beef be with sam because sam was the one who literally let a building drop on him

sam is literally the only normal acting person with his little drone I love him

i’m really glad that they actually showed human casualities as important and not just being like oops we blew up some random people who don’t matter like in every other action film

ah yes here’s where it turns into another avengers/iron man film and suddenly tony is the main character ( i love u but go back to your own franchise pls)

tony you do realize just because someone goes to mit that doesnt mean you should fund their project (weapons testing is a thing hmmmm)

alfre woodard being in marvel tv+movies a+++

steve looking beautiful and feeling guilty. wanda too. 

uh why is vision dressed like an accountant

rhodey! but also the close up being on him for new york is ambiguous-sad that ppl died or reminded tony almost died?

god zemo. this plot was so fckin convoluted and stupid. 

th fckin sharon carter speech that didnt make any sense to say at a funeral but only served to further plot

nat+steve hugging a+++

sharon and steve are so awkward there is zero chemistry. and what a waste in an overly packed film. like honestly if they had screentested someone who really had chemistry with him it would at least be worth it

sam and steve’s matching baseball caps and aviators. zero percent subtlety

“I don’t do that anymore.” so defeated oh godddddddddddddddd

“it always ends in a fight” fckin hell

bucky using steve’s shield when its still on his arm a++

tchalla’s claws tho. also i wonder if german special forces would be firing on him if they knew he was the king of wakanda lol

TIME FOR THE MOTORCYCLE FLIP

so turned on by the motorcycle flip. just as good as I thought it would be

rhodey “Congratulations, cap, you’re a criminal” 

“dude shows up dressed like a cat you don’t want to know more?” yess sam

IT LITERALLY MAKES NO SENSE THAT NAT IS ON THE ACCORDS SIDE AND SO SMUG ABOUT IT “technically [the shield] is the government’s property” fuck that writing

“my name is bucky” <3

zemo’s plan is still way too fckin intricate

tony you literally need a suit to fight don’t fckin try to go toe to toe with the winter soldier

the looooove helicopter (lens flare, biceps)

whats with them and falling into bodies of water.

lets use 12 mins of a captain america movie to introduce spiderman... ughhhhh 

how did tony already have a suit for peter parker without knowing the specifications of his powers?

CLIIIINNNT thank you. 

the “move or you will be moved” lady yesssss

ughhhh more sharon and the kiss. WHY YOU KISSIN PEGGY’S NIECE RIGHT AFTER SHE DIE YOU NASTY

that car is not low profile, it’s old.

ummm isn’t antman a convicted felon? isn’t he supposed to like not leave the country?

ughhh nat would so be on steve’s side i hate this arbitrary assignment of her to the accords side

“barnes is mine” tchalla that’s steve’s line

“I don’t know if you’ve been in a fight before but there’s not usually this much talking” I love you sam wilson

ew vision on his fckin high horse again.

“Arrow guy” “tic tac”

ew the fcking new york talk murder me 

YOU ARE PLAYING HOPEFUL MUSIC WHEN IRON MAN’S TEAM IS WINNING AGAINST CAP’S IN HIS OWN MOVIE AND SAD WHEN CAP WINS??? LIKE I KNOW IT’S ALL MORALLY AMBIGUOUS BUT JESUS this is supposed to be CAPTAIN AMERICA: civil war (just like, a reminder, the avengers is supposed to be about all the avengers, not jsut tony)

also t’challa’s kind of an asshole to clint like damn if you wanna be friends with nat you gotta be friends with clint 

OOOO I forgot about nat letting them get to the quinjet

also why does peter parker not know star wars??? isn’t he a loser who goes to science high school???

okay and the whole rhodey thing??? vision was literally going to drop sam out of the sky which could have also potentially killed him--rhodey just got hit instead. you can be upset about it but it’s literally not sam’s fault for NOT WANTING TO GET BLOWN OUT OF THE SKY. in fact vision should have been the one apologizing but his amygdala is synthetic so waaha wawhaa

literally the only conversation steve and bucky have is in the quinjet for five seconds and they had 12mins of spiderman backstory??? smh

honestly this movie is such a mess. zemo’s plot, the whole winter soldier(s). this should have been an avengers movie(it basically is with a cap subplot) because literally NO ONE’s motivations are clear which makes it way too hard to empathize with either side. 

i wonder if you calculated all the minutes of different people’s screentime what it would be

smh i can’t believe tony fans think it’s reasonable to get mad about steve fans acting pissy about civil war when steve was basically demoted to second lead in his own film. obvs there are some unreasonable steve/bucky peeps out there but the amount of whining tony fans do is kind of ridiculous when tony has literally such an intricately written emotional arc and steve and bucky both have diddly, as I have said before IN THEIR OWN FILM. (bucky is going to be cap one day might i remind y’all)

eww yes dolores. because all steve/bucky stories must be about bucky being a ladies man. not like he had any other defining character traits, that would be like... decent writing.

ah yes the intricate unfolding of zemo’s storyline ughh spare me. 

lol those are the best security cameras ever for roadside 1991

literally zemo just told you “empires that fall from within never rise again” and you think the best decision is to give into his eeeeeevil plan? be mad, don’t be stupid

like tonys known for being a hothead but all this manpain is so gratuitous.

“he killed my mom” tony your weapons have killed hundreds of thousands of innocents and you weren’t brainwashed when you made them. if you hadn’t had multiple chances to repent, where would you be?

“my father made that shield” yeah for steve. it wasn’t a conditional fckin offer

rhodey is literally the best person. Tony Stank

i still can’t believe the fckin straightjacketed and collared wanda it makes me so mad

good thing the end credits are of shadows and rubble cuz THAT’S WHAT THIS MOVIE IS

oh right I TOTALLY FORGOT bucky’s fate is relegated to a end credits scene ebcaues he’s not goddamn important enough it seems

the white outfit tho

“let them try” thank you tchalla for being the only person who listens to reason and actually has defined principles

i really don’t hate tony he literally dominates every film he’s in so this shoudl have been an avengers or iron man film to write such an intense storyline for him. 

they literally don’t let cap emote at all. like if you look at clips of the film its just blue steel all the way--he never gets a chance to break down and be upset. not like tony does.

tony fans need to imagine if steve came into an im4 film and just became the sole focus of the film, how they would feel that their fave character’s film was usurped. 

anyways---in conclusion i still hate this movie. unlike the first two cap movies I can’t separate my critical aspect from it enough to love or even like the film. alas. 

#ca:cw #in other news i still hate it #steve deserves better #bucky deserves better #tony deserves better but i aint use that tag #cuz peeps will come after me

[brainsnbeauty-ar]

ok some quick discourse b4 i head out for the afternoon

so i’ve seen some points abt how liz isn’t as nice as she seems blah blah blah & im here 2 tell u that’s Wrong. first i’ll list the points that have lead some to believe the aforementioned view:

1) liz (presumably) doesn’t tell peter/ned about the party, flash has to & his invite was merely to b rude or whatever .. k

2) she doesn’t “Stand up” for peter or tell flash to stop when he’s djing at the party & is doin the whole “when i say penis, u say parker”

3) when the decathlon team is headin out to the pool the only reason she tells peter is bc she catches him sneaking out, but if she didn’t catch him she wouldn’t have asked him to come .. apparently

so let’s start with one. i’m gonna go ahead & say this now: looked like the whole school was at that party, the likelihood liz has the number of every classmate is Slim, so it was probably an open invitation. meaning, liz probably told a couple of her friends & asked them to get the word out - whoever shows up, shows up & that’s that. flash obviously knew because liz likely asked him to dj – betty and the 3 others liz was sitting with in gym knew because it appears they’re her closest friends. this isn’t rocket science. BUT keep in mind that she states “ are you sure peter’s not too busy for parties ? “ which suggests she’s feelin some type’a way considering hes not coming to washington with them. she’s rightfully bummed & honestly. that’s not even as petty as she could have been with that lmao !!!!

now, to point number two. i think it’s safe to say when peter & ned show up she is surprised but like, genuinely happy they took the time to stop by. but also, she doesn’t get to talk for long bc someone in her house is breakin shit - a lot of people are there, she probably didn’t even have time to really enjoy her own party. but it’s cool, it was probably mainly for her peers anyway to allow them time to relax & rewind in a safe environment. either way, i don’t think we see liz chiding flash about being immature bc she’s probably worryin about other stuff !! if anything, later, of camera, she came to be like “yo dude, Stop” or maybe not. i don’t know. but i don’t think her actions or lack thereof were out of malice. besides, flash is a grown boy & he’s gonna do what he wants anyway. i’d like to believe she told him how immature that was but, once again, ppl are breakin shit in her house !! priorities people !! also, liz notes in the car on the way to hoco that peter was only there for a short time. she noticed that .. like she probably was looking for him to come back & chat after she had to leave & he was MIA, so ………….. :-)

NUMBER THREE .. oh my god y’all dont even know how excited i am to debunk this one lmaoooo. i just wanna start by saying that if liz was not going to invite peter or ned ( which like. why would she not - on ?? what basis ?? i doubt she’s pissy anymore abt him being flakey at this point bc he’s there & he even says to her he’s going to go study more. which is a lie lmao but she doesn’t know that ) .. anyway, if she wasn’t going to invite them bc say . idk she was only inviting Cool kids or WHATEVER, she wouldn’t have invited michelle. bc mj  IS there lmao like she’s sitting on the side of the pool with a book but like, she got the invite. i’m gonna guess liz probably sent a group text, had a time for them to all meet at the pool, & then they did. peter & ned were so busy hacking the suit they wouldn’t have been pressed to reply or didn’t even see the text. furthermore, everyone that went to the pool could have already been hanging out before hand idk ?? either way ONCE AGAIN i highly doubt this was out of malice & besides, when she did invite him she was so sweet & kind & pumped for him to join them. she probably assumed if he did come down he’d invite ned too. there’s no way she would do that to be mean LIKE why villainize her over shit that 1) the directors probably didn’t even feel the need to include 2) we didn’t even get to see liz say one word to michelle but context clues most certainly imply she did, so why isn’t it possible that some of these things occurred off screen ?

anyway that’s it lmao

#﹡ °☆⋅. one smart cookie / out of character. #i think why this bothers me sm is bc people seem to think liz's life & all actions must revolve around the male lead #which is entirely False #she doesn't !! she has a life separate of peter - & he has a life separate of her ??? #so to make her out to be lesser than bc of that is annoying lol

[xladymalice]

Swapfell Stuff - Topic “Swapfell/Fellswap” Movement - My opinion - My stuff

This is going to be a long ass post. Like really.

If you don’t bother about this movement, it’s ok. Scroll down, ignore this.

For everyone else who wants to know my opinion and statement.

I hope I don’t offend anyone. And this doesn’t got against the ones who set up the Swapfell/Fellswap Movement and their attempt on bringing back the original design.

I maybe sound somewhat pissy, my grammar is shit but I honestly don’t care.

I want to get this off my soul, so I can continue working on my beloved shit: Swapfell.

Here we go.

So.... this there is this movement around "Swapfell" and "Fellswap" going on and since I already had disputes and discussions with some of my followers, I decided to put my statement here for once and for all.

I kind of feel that I must state something about this matter, since my blog is all about Swapfell right now and this probably won't change in a long while.

As you should've noticed by now, my Swapfell design was somewhat different from the start and is now entirely different from the "popular" version that - thanks to this movement- is called Fellswap now. Since I chose Eli's design, it probably reminds of Fellswap, but it is not. That's why I am actually super annoyed by this distinction. At first I thought it's a good idea, but now I think it's kind of unnecessary to part this into two halves. It's probably causing confusion, worry and a war between fanatics and ppl with their own idea. Also... a personal reason: My fucking design is both in some way and it is still SWAPFELL.

When I joined this beautiful fandom I didn't like Swapfell at all. (Like Underswap and also Underfell, yes. I was very sceptic and annoyed by AUs first) Swapfell was just about kinky shit, "master and slave" with no character but smut issues. Underfell was the same shit, but with much more abuse, rape and some Red-fucktoy. This impression still haunts me and disturbs my image of him. Underswap issues... I've explained them to you. It was mostly that childish Blue that didn't resemble UT!Papyrus at all.

However, I've seen quite some great fanarts that got me hooked. Especially after meeting Eli's design, comics and pictures I got really, really interested in them. (It's probably thanks to them that I am Swapfell Trash rn) I wanted to know more about them, understand why they were the way they were. I really had no desire to follow the mainstream route. Why? Because I rarely do. I've avoided Undertale for a good reason when it was hyped like devil's shit.

So... on my long way of reasoning that weird behaviour (like wtf... I didn't understand why a Papyrus was this subby, weak and all "I'm so sorry!" for no reason) I had started to develop my own theories until I stumbled over "Flipping the Script" by @Angelia-Dark. The Swapfell Script is a masterpiece, trust me on this. She's a very talented writer that thinks complex, deep and has a choice of words that can make your heart break by her will. I've come to love the Swapfell Bro's finally understanding how they are supposed to work. At least for me. And I love complex, deep and especially dark shit. Even if it wouldn't have been fontcest, I would've read it. It explains a lot of shit.

So falling in love with Swapfell, I've created my own story and explanation for it. No matter how much I love Angelia's interpretation, it didn't satisfy my thirst and need for this one special AU. I wanted another Swapfell Pap, I wanted another Swapfell Sans. Basing on the origin on Swap but starting in Fell, so I can show the world how Swap turns Fell. It is, no matter how it looks like: SWAPfell.

I'll explain you why. So no one will have the fucking idea to call this Fellswap for design reasons.

Let's start with Pup. He's obviously not that guy you've seen most of the time in the fandom. My interpretation of him is a lot different and it has another reasoning which I show in SWAPFELL DAWN. It's most likely a spin-off AU... it's MY story, MY idea for them and MY interpretation of the original idea of the "name Swapfell". I didn't know the original creator (I didn't see the designs and concepts at all) at that point and I wonder, why that design was abandoned. (I'll talk  about this matter later). So yeah... I liked the design I saw by Eli and some other artists, but I wanted to do my own thing... since Pup is so different, he had to look different and it should support his general idea.

Which is a complete, dark asshole version of Honey (SwapPap). In my AU I'm showing their origin, how they live and change. So yeah, this should explain alot. And yes, I am not very fond of that "Fellswap" Papyrus, since he's too subby and boring for me. There's a lot of cute fanart, that I like very much. I'm Swapfell trash, so I cannot resist it. Still... I prefer my Pup over them.

Now Black:

This Swapfell Sans is MOST LIKELY Blue as a darker version and some different character. He has been Blue at some point in my AU. They are alike, their eyes are alike and they even behave alike.

They've been the fucking same person. It's just that Black's the fallen, dark version who survived tons of shit to stand where he is right now. I don't have to say all that much about it. I've just uploaded my colorscheme and design for my Swapfell-Bros... take a look at it, I've explained some other things about it.

As you can see... they were Swaps before, but they have this "Fell touch" on them. Especially with their lookings. It's somehow mixed. Swapfell and Fellswap were for me one thing and probably will remain one thing for me. Everyone can see it as they want. The swapfell concept is for me simply this: two Au's got mixed. It doesn't matter all that much how  and when. At first I thought it might be a good idea to distinct it, but now I think it's a hassle and probably will cause war and worry. My version looks like both and it is both.

Black is alike to Fell, but he was Blue. Pup was Honey, but now he has some Red AND Edge vibes. I don't fucking care, if someone wants to argue with me. When I joined this fandom, I basically didn't see all that much about Swapfell (more or less "Fellswap" like this movement wanna tell me) so I kind of focused on them after reading Angelia's fic. I've worked hard on them and wanted to create another impression on them and so far I've been successful.

But then... suddenly... Swapfell shot out of the ground like mushrooms and I was positively surprised how much it's loved.

And

I'm kind of annoyed that NOW everyone focuses on it, like it's been all popular and shit. 'cause I felt like it wasn't and I got told ALOT that it wasn't all that popular. Some of my followers even told me that they see me "as the creator" of it, because I give them life and a story. I'm not the creator, but I still felt honored that they started to like Swapfell. 

So... back to the point: suddenly everyone focuses on it and dig up the very first concept of it. You've probably seen it flying around... it's been there from the start and it was FORGOTTEN. Which is honestly shit, since someone worked with it quite some time. And It's always a sign of respect to state that it was there.

However. This doesn't mean that I MUST like it. I don't have to do shit. I've seen it, but I didn't feel attached to it nor did I feel like I had to mess with it. It's the creators thing, I won't touch it. Especially because the blog got deleted and who the hell knows if the creator even wants this. (Not to mention that I probably would delete all of my stuff, if it was a concept, so no one toys around with my ideas and rather does something new from this point on)

I'm seeing this from different perspectives. Like... I have also no idea how the original Underswap is supposed to look like. How they actually should behave... the same for Underfell. The fontcest part of the fandom changed tons of things. TONS. And it got also out of hand. How different both AU's would be without the R18 part. The same for Swapfell.

Also, I really have no idea, if the original creator even bothers with it. If they want to be mentioned or if they deleted their blog so no one would use their work and do shit with it. People wouldn't care in any way, I know that. I've seen it alot with Flowerfell. And this probably happens to the most AU's. I think it's good to show the concept, but I wouldn't force anyone to adapt it. I don't like it and I honestly don't want to mess with it. I've got my own idea that I'm working on. In addition to the concept and idea part.... I know this creator left the fandom for a long while now... the fandom matures and gets more and more AU's... why would you try to name something different now just because there seem to be two ideas? Looking at the name's alone there a tons of possibilities to interprete it.

So please don't restrict the freedom and fantasy of one's mind. Some people approached me all scared that their stuff will be now labeled in the wrong way or get hated for not following the mainstream mass. This is not even a joke, I really had discussions like that.

Feel free to do whatever you want, but respect other's opinions please. It's no fucking reason to start a war for this.

So... there is this other version of Swapfell Papyrus that I met a while ago already:

The first time I saw it, I didn't come to like it. I don't even start with Swapfell Sans. I mean.. hey... if you like it, draw it. I don't. I don't want to. And I don't feel like I have to follow anyone but myself. I looked at the concept and drawings alot, but feeling nothing, I ignored them. As I said, I don't even know if Kkoppang wants us to mess with that thing. Like Au it got out of hand, even forgotten to some degree and there as tons more reasons why I could argue now. Why am I saying this? Because I feel like this movement could be understood wrong. Or maybe I understood it wrong and get all offended suddenly. You see, I think it's a fantastic idea to tell the people "Hey, this is the original Swapfell. Try to look at it and play with the idea!". It would be nice to see some fanart to this, it would also be a sign of respect and maybe this (STRANGELY) forgotten design comes to life again. But I truly hope there won't follow this "Only this is Swapfell and the rest is not", because this is bullshit. If my and some other ideas aren't considered Swapfell anymore then no one can claim their shit as "Underswap" or "Underfell" too, since it got abstracted from the original idea alot.

Like...

TONS.

Even not looking at fontcest here that fucked up alot. And we're all sinners. I'm one of the big ones.

So, I don't know if I'm being disrespectful or not, I'm not doing that great seperation between Swapfell and Fellswap due to the reason, that it can be mixed and that everyone has their own means, ideas and beliefs like I do. I'd like to see more of the original art, but welp. I'm not doing it. I'll stick to the AU I'm working on and if this is not Swapfell, it's "Fallen Swapfell" (aka Swapfell Dawn). I am toying with dark content and shit. I'm making Swap fall. End of story.

So being an individual with my own opinion and being mostly anti-mainstream, I've decided to follow Zed into the wide, scary sea and look out for people who also share the opinion that it should be valued, if you have your own ideas and don't take part of the general hype. I'm not against it, I'm just not supporting it. And I wanted to point out a lot longer that my Swapfells are different from the rest. So I used this opportunity to make this clear.

I know this movement doesn't force anyone to do anything. I believe it's mostly to revive and honor the original design and creator... still.. it bugs me. You can’t just go there and say “THIS IS SWAPFELL AND THE REST IS NOT”, because this fucks up every other AU too, if you take it strictly. Especially with the gone creator.

But Ursik stated a important thing, so I want to name it once more for everyone: "[...] the most important thing for all fandoms: Diversity. Different people are freely to have different views/opinions aka different creations, and everyone’s work should never be limited by which is more “”popular””. "

That's why I stick to my shit.

And.

THIS is also Swapfell.

I'm quoting Zed here: "And I’m not gonna tell people who are into the fellswap swapfell distinction that they’re wrong either. I’m so happy they have another thing to get into. I’m happy the first design is getting more attention. There’s a lot about it that i do like. And that’s that."

I'm sharing the same opinion. I really, really like Zed's SwapfellPap concept, he's totally cool and he's unique. I've always been weak for unique stuff since it's something you'll remember even ages ago.

And I believe my version is also a special case. So yeah. Deal with it.

Also.... taking a look at my Swapfell version and Angelia's one... this is the perfect example of wonderful diversity in the fandom. One name: tons of stories. How different Swapfell is with Pup being the older brother and not Sans. Pup being most likely the dominant part in the relationship instead of the big brother Sans, who takes good care of Pup. We share a lot of ideas, we think alike and our Swapfell Bro's are damn alike. And yet they are so different that you would feel the difference if they stood next to each other. (Not only considering looks.)

So... never limit one's freedom on an idea and opinion. Every idea has been used somewhere before.

But...

I respect the person who started it. And if that person was still active in the fandom, I would respect their wishes and not work with their idea without their approval. That's why I won't allow anyone to write their part to the Swapfell Dawn universe except for "fan-fanart" and shit. 'cause that's nice as hell.

Oh well.... stated everything, I'm out.

#mali talks #swapfell movement #serious topics #my opinion #you don't have to share it #I think this all is kind of unnecessary #it's nice to see how they also looked like #but #i dont know #I stick to my stuff #or else I could just quit and say that's it #swapfell topic #swapfell dawn explanations #I hope no one is annoyed by me now #you don't have to share my stuff #and you don't have to #justify your view #I just wanted to point out my personal opinion #it's not for starting a war #I just explained what I feel about this #and I thought alot about it #and I talked alot about it #I'm tired of thinking #so yeah #that's my conclusion #cya

[celestialallstars]

Episode 11: “The odds are against me but I’m gonna make it....” - Loris

FUCK YOU MATT. FUCK YOU JACK. FUCK YOU STEPHEN. FUCK THIS CAST. YALL LYING ASS HOES SUCK MY FUCKING NIPPLES

Right now, I've got a mixture of feelings. On one end, I guess the tribal showed were some people's loyalties lie, but on the other I couldn't help but feel like it was a bit much. Like everybody in this game has literally lied and like I don't know, I understood Jack and Matt's frustration but it was a big yikes to see it get so tense and everyone get worked up. Like had my laptop not shut off, I would have likely snapped tonight and I think I'm seeing the good and the bad of things right now and it's just...a mess. Not to mention the 8 man alliance couldn't get it together until the 11th hour.

Fuck. Fucking fuck. Matt is finally gone, and this time we pulled it all off to keep him until Jared fucking pulled out an idol. How did he even know it was gonna be Chloe anyways? Man. I can't help but wonder if he wouldn't have played it had Matt and I shut our mouths but I think he would've anyways. I couldn't help myself, I couldn't let him lie again in public about that I had to expose him. Now he's got no idol, he's got few allies (I think), he's totally vulnerable and I pray to god we get him in the next 2 rounds.

It just occurred to me that I had a part in the chaos tonight. Stephen was already worried about the vote, but if I don't talk to Jack/Mitch then none of the last minute plan to vote Chloe happens I feel or gains as much momentum, then half the craziness that happened tonight at tribal does not happen at all....I saved Steph but at the cost of seemingly having Jared cost his game.

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I'm really drained at the moment between the school stuff and this game and now Jared claims my name was around for this round, or at least it was Bryce's plan. It did not phase me because I already wanted to go against Bryce/Zach but now it at least gives me another reason. AS of all of the craziness, my gut told me to try and stick it out with Michael/Chloe. I believe that between Rhys/Bryce/Zach's sketchiness, Jack just being himself, and Loris, I'd rather just try things out with the others. At this point, I'm kind of over a lot of the BS that people keep trying to sell. Having that said, I firmly believe that things need to get outted tomorrow unless we attempt a full on blindside.

I keep checking my messages as though someone wants to talk to me. Spoiler alert: they don’t.

Sooooo YESTERDAY WAS A DAY!

It started off so simple, Matt seemed to be the target for the majority alliance and Michael/Chloe didn't seem very interested in keeping him around. So I came up with a scheme that I think may have tied into someone else's scheme. But I didn't know it at the time. ANYWAYYYYY...

Matt's going home, but I don't want to vote him. Why? Because I wanna strengthen my relationship with Jack, so I approach both of them to talk about things and figure out who they're voting for. Matt was very antagonistic and I figured out this is because he heard I was saying his name, which was true! I get them to say a name they'd rather have taken out, and it's Chloe. Sure. Me and Chloe barely talk tbh. So I essentially go around getting pissy about wanting to vote Chloe instead of Matt to my alliance because I need to sell it anddddddd........

They... Want to vote her out? SKDJSKDKSKSKSKSKAKSK

Ummmm this wasn't the plan! Everyone except Loris and Jared want to do it. Okay. Whatever. I'm too deep in now to flip back, sorry Chloe!

THEN JARED PLAYS THE IDOL SKSKDKDMSKSKSKSKSSM

Ok but why didn't you use that idol to save Mitch hm?

Sketchy bitch.

Soooo I hear afterwards that Zach and Bryce had a chat with Jack and Matt and apparently they might have wanted to vote Chloe anyway????? But then why let the vote be Matt for the entire day? When we all would've voted Chloe if they just said her name originally? And now Jared also has a chat with Chloe and Michael? Worst allies ever.

Idk Zach and Bryce are sketchy and I've known that since the Mitch vote. Maybe they should watch their backs in the near future ......

First off I was SO happy for Loris! It would have been nice to immunity, but I know with all of the distracting things I had for the day that I did good with the few hours I had. This makes me wonder if it will continue a trend I see in a lot of orgs where I begin to place in the top 4 a lot in the late game. Only time shall tell. Going into this tribal, I for once feel great. Making a new alliance with Loris/Michael/Chloe/Jared all the while keeping Stephen in the loop. I'll still smile and wave in the 13th, three kings, literally any other chat but as far as I'm concerned, I'm ridding my hands of that. Hope its not too early to feel good (it is)

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So I did some thinking and for a bit I had a feeling me or Bryce would get 10th. This was just because Karth came in 20th and Kori in 15th, which had to mean one of us would come in 10th and the other in 5th. Time to see how accurate this prophecy is

Day 25......... gross. So disregarding the challenge because yikes the whole game seems to be flipped on and the best part is that I don’t put myself forward as a target and Jared and Chloe are seen as this tight duo so I expect them to be targeted over myself. However chris and loris both expressed disappointment in how the game has been progressing and Bryce and zach both came to me to strategise so hopefully I’m in some sort of power position in the game however chris has pulled this before where he’s so sad he didn’t get his way and so disappointed and nothing has changed so right now my focus is on how to get myself forward in the game with hopefully more to come and Bryce will hopefully be eliminated this round.

Soooooo I had to abstain from the challenge for work but that's okay. I don't think I'm the target anyway.

The biggest news is that Jared has added onto his old group of Chloe and Michael to create a new majority. One that is planning to overthrow the old one in the near future. Based on what Chris has told me, the additions are himself and Loris.

The issue is, based on what Jared has told me, that Loris wants to wait one more round before locking things down. I see why he'd want to do this. Jack could easily slip through the cracks of the impending majority vs. majority war and that puts him within reach of an easy win at FTC in my opinion.

Jack might actually go home unanimously if things keep up like this. It'd be sad, because I just really started putting work into my relationship with him recently, but it really doesn't seem worth it when, even if I save him, I'll likely be targeting him within 2 or 3 rounds anyway. Cyrena? More like, sayonara.

Of course, if last vote is any indication, this can all change in a couple of minutes! So who the fuck knows. There's still 3 hours until tribal and if I can convince the 5 in power to pull their move now I wouldn't mind it at all.

hi!! ok so like... I won immunity??? and it was a creative challenge???? I’m so shocked and proud of myself I rlly tried to snap and things went wrong but I still SNAPPED!!! and now I made single digits oh my god!!! like... 9th or above I’m so happy with but of course I’m gonna win anyways. so. I suggested an alliance with me chloe Chris michael Jared to Chris and Jared and now it’s a real thing and like.. we just need to get people to vote jack for themselves and then we can run the game perry add. That could be a serve. I genuinely feel like I’m in a rather good spot this game I don’t think anyone should want to vote me out except stephen  maybe??  jack is hard to read because I’m not sure he talks To that many people ... idk... also oh my god so I just need to survive 3 more tribals and then I can play my legacy.... and like I’ll be so proud of myself if I get to do that. both seasons I find the legacy in round one(?) and I manage to hold onto it until the final six both times ?? like.. the odds are against me but Im gonna make it....

girl idk. i feel in danger because of lack of talk. everyone wants jack out. id prefer chloe. the only votes we can get are bryce, rhys, jack and myself. loris is dumb. HE WONT idk. jareds legit playin super well and good for him but ppl needa wake up and start knockin off his +1’s so hes easier to take out in the future. but who cares. these people are gonna end up lettin like jared or chris win .. and good. i suppose they deserve it.

im just super tired. partly due to this game but partly because of irl factors... so i just cant go chaotic. its so fun but soooo draining, and its hard when everyone leaks things and jared wants to be dumb and idol. it wasnt dumb. im petty. its real dumb.

im just trying to get ppl on my side but it seems so hard NNNN so . we’ll see

My names going round again 🤠

Ever since I played the idol on Chloe (which was indeed an in the moment decision), I feel a lot better about my spot in the game.

I revealed basically everything to Chris. There was very little that I left out. I told him about the F2 with Bryce, and my motivations behind every decision so far.

Sometimes overbearing trust comes out of overbearing promises. I still need someone to have my back no matter what, so being open with Chris was necessary. I still will try my best to keep Bryce in the game. I need them to war with each other because it will be a long term buffer for me. In terms of F3 plans, I'm not sure. I have options between Chris, Rhys, Chloe, Michael, Stephen, and Loris. I wouldn't mind staying true and taking Bryce as far as I can, but eventually his number will be up and I think that will be better for my chances to win anyways.

Today I finally pulled the trigger and Chris and I put together this 5some of him, Chloe, Michael, Loris, and myself called "starpower."

I will have to be cheeky with Chris to stay in a better spot than him, because he doesn't have strict promises with Bryce as far as I know.

Tonight Jack will go home which was Loris' call. I think it's fine because either way next round Stephen will want a big target out and he needs me to make it happen. I want that target to be on Zach, because I think Zach is the current frontrunner to win, and I think voting him will suit Stephen.

With that being said, it will take a smooth game from hear on out to not be a total goat. I'll try my best.

Feeling very strange about this vote. It's another sort of last minute vote, we've all kind of agreed to do a hard reset and vote Chloe again, but now that I've seen one idol play I can't help but feel like there's another coming, and this time it'd directed towards me potentially. I think I'm gonna propose possibly splitting votes just to cover our bases, because I do feel like Jared and Chloe are now gonna want to target me for no reason other than it's convenient.

If someone idols Jack tonight I’m gonna scream 🤡

So, I wanted Chloe gone this round, because I'm scared she will just float through this game and take a spot at the end. Which is exactly what is happening this vote. People want Jack instead so here we go. Haven't been too active so couldn't have gotten the numbers. Sad times.

Hi so the vote seems to be on  jack which is a little bit anti climatic because everyone was like let’s make a move and then boom jack goes like I thot we were going after bryce zach or rhys but I guess not? Anyway I hope im not being played by bitches right now and people stick to their words. Or at least vote jared/Chloe out

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The thing that makes me most nervous going into tribal is that it makes strategic sense for Stephen not to vote with us and instead vote out Jared who’s a far bigger threat than Jack but hopefully the fear of a tie will mean that he makes it 6 and I hope he realises that I’m ok with going against Jared sksksksksk.

THIS game is so sad liek nothing i want happens ppl are just not wanting to do what i want and thats so unlike my first season KJFHDASKJ i just want total control and someone to run the game with but jared is so annoying and is trying to work with the ppl who will vote him out bc hes such a big threat like girl pls just let me have my way and i wont cut u at 4th! im still fuming over the idol play like who does he think he is playing it without letting me know thats all i ask i literally feel pathetic trying to work with him when he clearly has chris/loris/chloe interests ahead of me

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Jack is voted out 8-1-1. He becomes the third member of our jury.

Watch Jack’s exit interview take place below:

#shinebright #episode

[syntymatitahna]

Just idk venting and ordering my thoughts don’t mind me. S pls don’t interact with this post if you’re still lurking thx (it’s sorta stressful)

In a way I find it kind of funny that billdip would be the dealbreaker ship because, yeah, Dipper was 12 for most of the series but like… He wasn’t introduced to me as a 12yo. And this former friend knows this, probably doesn’t remember though.

(I mean the point still stands that I don’t really find shipping billdip or the like to be like all that morally reprehensible anyway even if i totally understand why ppl would be uncomfy with it and they’re absolutely allowed to be and choose their company accordingly)

But yeah, she knows, maybe doesn’t remember, that I read a bunch of billdip fic before ever watching the series. I don’t think I even looked the characters up first.

Like I was hanging on IMVU and got to talking with some guy who mentioned shipping billdip, talked about it a bit and linked some aged up shipping art

And I was like “lol that seems like something I could dig”

And I guess it was a while later that I was bored enough to go looking for fic.

I didn’t watch GF until I started thinking that I really wanted to know the backstory, I believe. By that time I’d already read several fics.

So yeah. But idk. It’s true that I don’t find whatever like sebaciel shipping or something, especially morally objectionable? But also, I don’t care about ships with like preteens – I mean this in the sense of, I’m not interested in them in a way that when I hear about one I get curious. I’ve seen sebaciel and ereri and stuff like that mentioned a lot in tags in ship hate and ship posi posts due to having hanged out in the billdip tag a lot when i was actively shipping it, but i barely even know what they are… Like… Is sebaciel from that black butler show? And ereri is from snk i think? Maybe???

So i think it’s entirely possible that if I had seen GF before reading fic I wouldn’t have shipped it.

However… It’s also entirely possible that I would have shipped it even seeing the show first! I mean honestly… Bill is so fucking juvenile… And small… And not an adult human (or near-human? humanoid? organic humanoid? I’m not sure where the “too close” line goes for me but Bill’s a fucjing triangle that’s definitely far enough)… Like… It’s a bit like how I can ship Bob/Sunstreaker even tho it’s technically bestiality and if they were a human and the human’s pet instead of robots I’m pretty fucking sure shipping them wouldn’t even cross my mind lmao

But if someone else is shipping like sebaciel, my view on it is still “you do you, I don’t really care”. I just don’t give enough of a damn to really be bothered. Presuming the shippers really do have pedophilic feelings, shipping sebaciel is still the better option. So I don’t care.

Like, urrh, yes a child predator could use something like that to groom a child but not having skeevy shipping content doesn’t mean they’re out of means. It just means others might be out of less harmful outlets? I doubt all shippers who don’t age up are pedos anyway, just like not all incest shippers feel incestuous desire. (By far, probably.)

I don’t even get where in the tits the assumption that i’d involve myself with pedos even comes from like thanks for the vote of trust, seems like i really am untrustworthy because it always comes down to people being incapable of giving me the benefit of the doubt and taking things I say and reblog in good faith.

Not that it really surprises me. I know I’m unreliable so *shrug emoji*

It was the same last time, with, let’s just call him V. “I’m gonna give you the chance to explain yourself!” Fuck that, I shouldn’t have to constantly defend myself to you just because you have no faith in me. That’s not my problem. The whole situation was stressing me the fuck out. So while I could have explained, I refused to. And that was the end of that, more or less. I’m still somewhat salty about it all, clearly.

This is why I said Kitty is one of the best people I’ve had the privilege of meeting. She doesn’t make me feel like I’m friends with a fucking district attorney.

During the last year I’ve, honestly, started to think I’d like to contact V again, but I still have too much strong negative feelings about a lot of things so it’s better I don’t. Maybe in a couple years. I mean, I feel better about it all now even tho I’m still salty. So maybe in a couple years it’ll be fine. We’ll see.

I miss brainstorming with him. It was the best thing, and he got so into shipping my OCs too (or at least gave me that impression) and it’s still something that makes me feel confident in having fun with my characters even if some people would think they’re mary sues.

So yeah, uh, very mixed feelings about that lmao.

Siiiigh. Honestly the probably worst (or best?) thing is that every time this happens (a friendship breakup that wasn’t because of the other being super racist or ableist or just generally a shitty FUCK) I realise that I have in the past done the same thing that this time was the problem (for me).

With Mely I constantly hassled her about what she posted and reblogged. It wasn’t that I didn’t have faith in her, it was that she wasn’t as SJ-y as I was and it showed sometimes because she said things that I thought were just SJ 101 Things You Shouldn’t Say, Or Even Think, Really (lol). But I still hassled her constantly, which I can imagine was very stressful. It’s no wonder we drifted apart and she eventually just stopped talking with me.

And over the last few days I realised that I was very judgemental-like over one thing V liked, and it seemed to be important to him, like shipping is to me. Well… At least I’m learning.

I really should take the matter up with someone whose opinions on the thing V liked have more value than mine, really figure out where the issue lies. I can’t really think it’s inherently bad, it would wipe away too many things that seem quite harmless? Not that I think liking it is morally reprehensible anyway, just that some aspects are problematic (‘have problems’). But the way I see it it’s more the terminology than necessarily the trope itself? Like, the terminology thing seems pretty straightforward.

But yeah I should take myself by the nape and stop being a damn wuss. So what if I get a pissy response or get called a freak again. That just comes with the territory, I guess. I just kinda wish I could use a sideblog for sending asks rather than my main, because if the blogger sets the table for recreational bullies like wwc and that other blog the name of which i forgot did, i’d really rather it wasn’t my main they’d come to. This blog is too personal. Suppose that’s my mistake for making my main my personal.

Or for having an about like that.

#kalmo talks #kalmo virtual diary #sooty does the whiny thing #sure i have anon off #and submissions off #and messages only from ppl who've been following me for 2 weeks