bakugo x reader. i was listening to The Archer and was inspired<3
“Y’know,” Katsuki says one night, “You’re the only person that has ever really seen me.”
He says it in a tone you’ve never heard before. It’s soft, and vulnerable in a way that makes your heart stutter.
“What do you mean by that?” You ask, turning on your side to get a better look at him. The bed of his truck is made comfortable by the ample amount of blankets and pillows crammed into it, and if it weren’t for the boy beside you and the stars above you, you’d have been long asleep by now.
His fingers tap against his chest where his hands are resting. He tilts his head, long blonde lashes kissing his cheekbones when he blinks owlishly.
“Uh,” He huffs out a laugh, sounding almost caught off guard that you asked him that. “I mean, it’s exactly what it sounds like.”
He turns on his side, too, hoodie rustling against the fleece blanket he’s laying on. You’re not sure if he’s cold, or if he does it out of vulnerability, but he pulls the sleeves over his hands before expanding further on his thoughts. “You’ve never doubted my intentions. Even when I’ve felt lost in my anger or my want to be better, you’ve always been there, cheering me on. It’s like you know me better than I know me. Everyone sees me as this punk kid who only cares about being number one, and yeah, I do care about that but..I care about other people and I want to help people. It’s just l- it’s really hard for me to show it. But somehow you’ve always seemed to know that.”
He pauses for a moment, then, “You’ve always been able to see that behind all the bravado, I’m just a kid who really needs someone to tell me they’re proud of me.”
He reaches out then, grabbing your waist gently. “Come closer to me, please.”
You shift into his arms, and it shouldn’t make you this nervous being so close to him, you’ve been together since the official beginning of your second year at UA, but his vulnerability brings a sense of intimacy you’re not sure you’ve quite reached yet in your relationship. You shiver, feeling overwhelmed and delighted at all once.
“Are you cold, pretty girl?” Katsuki asks, arms tightening around you as he pulls you impossibly closer to him. You shake your head, trying to gather your thoughts.
You were sure you wouldn’t be able to articulate yourself nearly as well as Katsuki’d just done, but you manage to think of what you want to say before you open your mouth and spew nonsense.
“I think that a lot of people villainized you for a long time because they couldn’t see that through all the brashness and the harsh words that you were a very wounded person internally, and that all of the carrying on with the mean exterior was a cry for help. It wasn’t difficult to see that you needed someone to help you bear the weight of everything going on inside your head, Katsuki.”
You end your little speech with a kiss to his jawline, feeling weightless when Katsuki shifts so that your sitting with your knees on either side of his waist. He reaches up, finger tracing along the bridge of your nose before trailing the outline of your lips. “I love you, Y/n. You see right through me. I’m not sure how, but you do. You’re the only person that ever has. And I love you so much, that sometimes it’s hard to breathe when I’m around you.”
“Maybe I shouldn’t be sitting on your ribs if you can’t breathe-“
He lightly pinches your thigh, “You know that’s not what I meant.”
“I know,” You affirm. “I love you, Katsuki. It’s a privilege being able to know exactly who you are.”
And it is. Thinking back on all the times his fear of not being good enough reared it’s ugly head and all the times people only made it worse by making a joke of it but you were always there, you were always in his corner. You weren’t even sure what had drawn you to him in the first place, but like a moth to a flame, you found yourself unable to stay away. And you were glad, because while people looked at him and saw an angry brute of a boy, you saw the kid who climbed through your bedroom window at three in the morning to comfort you from flashbacks of the war. You saw the kid, who admitted how nervous he was right before he gave you his first kiss, who blushed and trembled like you’d never seen before. You saw the kid who always made sure you knew you were loved, even though it was so hard for him to express himself.
Katsuki sits up, nuzzling his nose against yours affectionately.
“Thank you,” He breathes, pressing a featherlight kiss to the corner of your mouth. “Thank you, baby. Thank you for seeing me.”
You lean into him, into his warmth.
“I always did, and I always will, Katsuki.”
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Bro, you got me OBSESSED with dormmate Sukuna (I read it all in one go)! You're so talented, god fucking dammit I love your writing!
I do have a request though but please feel free to say no if you don't like it, but I'm a thirsty bitch for some angst so could you make a dormmate Sukuna where he gets into an argument with the reader and say some mean stuff in the heat of the moment and she leaves? Like, she takes the car as leves, vanishing without saying another word and he doesn't know if she's okay or anything like that, and you can finish with some fluff idk I just had this idea while taking a shower lmao
Dorm mate Sukuna: the storm brewing
A/N: Is it even a series if I don’t randomly add angst before the confessions? 😼Thank you for the request! Hope you enjoy! <3
“Oh boy” Yuuji sighed as he exited the dorm. He knew the storm was coming, Yuuji already heard the news about Sukuna beating up one of your male friends and as he watched you make your way over to Sukuna, he knew it was best to stay out of the incoming mess.
“- you can’t just beat people up Sukuna, all he did was talk to me”
The tatted, unbothered dorm mate shakes his head. “Everyone knows he’s a fuckboy y/n, it’s not that deep”
“No he’s not Sukuna. And he wasn’t even flirting with me! He was asking about my day because he’s my frie-“
“Aren’t you the one always complaining those college boys annoy you? Shouldn’t you be thanking me?” He asks dryly as he takes a puff of his cigarette tiredly.
“No Sukuna! I won’t thank you for beating up of friend of mine!” You snap.
Sukuna is stunned into silence. Then a crease formed in his eyebrows, why were you getting so defensive? Can you not just have some trust that he did it for a good reason and leave him alone?
But that was the problem. Sukuna himself knew there was no good reason.
Only a bad reason. The reasoning of him wanting to kill any man that looks your way lately. The reason that repressing his romantic feelings for you was starting to consume whatever pieces of sanity he had left.
“Why did you do it?”
Why did he do it? Because he doesn’t know how to process his feelings for you? It confused him, frustrated him and your insistence was only driving him more mad. He needed to be alone and figure it out. Your questions started to sound like a headache.
But he wasn’t the only one going mad. Rage filled your body as you watched your dorm mate ignore you and groan as he rubbed his head instead. It’s almost as if he saw your feelings as irrelevant. If only you knew the real reason.
“Sukuna hello???”
He squeezed his eyes shut trying to cancel out your voice, it’s the last thing he needed right now. God please just stop-
“Sukuna im asking you a question!”
“AND IM ASKING YOU TO SHUT THE FUCK UP!” He roars, throwing his cigarette on the kitchen floor.
Now it was your turn to be stunned into silence.
“YOU’RE SUCH A FUCKING WHORE YOU KNOW THAT? I HELP DRIVE THOSE BASTARDS AWAY FROM YOU AND YOU COME BACK CRYING LIKE A BITCH NOW THAT YOU CANT GET THEIR ATTENTION ANYMORE” he screams.
Silence fell upon the room. All that could be heard is Sukuna heavy panting after his string of vile words. Vile words that he knew weren’t true.
You stare at the man in front of you. You don’t see your loving, manly dorm mate who you have feelings for, just a selfish, violent man. And suddenly you realised you didn’t want to be in a room with such a man.
Before you turned away, you saw the instant guilt in his red eyes as he watched a tear fall from your eyes, but it was too late.
“Y/n-“
“Save it”
And those were the last words Sukuna heard from you as you left the dorm without a word.
Sukuna slumped back into the chair in defeat at the sound of the door. What has he done?
Rough fingers pulled his dishevelled pink hair in frustration as his mind flashed pictures of your teary eyes.
Sure, he’s made you cry before, whether it was pulling your hair, or eating your food, but never heartbreak. Never that. He was supposed to be your hero, not the villain. He was tired of being the villain. For once he was just supposed someone’s beloved. But now he ruined that too.
He wasn’t going to look for you, he’s done enough damage already. He always knew he wasn’t good enough for you. Today he proved it.
To think all of this could’ve been prevented if only Sukuna understood love.
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perfectly wrong | #4 I am afraid to trust you
pairing: steve harrington x fem!reader
chapter summary: When once again Steve saves your life he sets his goal, to help and protect you, the way he wants to do it is quite…surprising.
TW: mentions of: pregnancy, domestic violence, bruises, near death experience, misscarige, blood, bleeding out, strong medicine use, suicide
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"Where the hell have you been?!" Travis shouted as soon as you entered the house.
"At work." You said without even looking at him, as quickly as possible you wanted to go to the bathroom and then just to bed.
Unfortunately, he had other plans. As you passed by he grabbed you firmly by the arm and pushed you so that you bounced against the wall.
"Bulllshit! I called your work and Buckley said she hadn't seen you there today and didn't even know you were supposed to be there!" he came closer.
You were in complete shock, the lie came out and you had absolutely no idea how to get out of it. Travis, seeing your reaction, did not hesitate and slapped you. "Are you cheating on me?! This is what you need now?! A rich fucker who would take you and that brat in, huh?!"
"N-no!" you screeched. "You know damn well that I hate him, how could I cheat on you with him?!"
He clenched his hand into a fist and swung, this time fortunately his hand landed in the wall right next to your head. "Pretty boys like him don't like sluts like you, do you understand? You are worthless, he wouldn't touch you with a fucking stick! You are mine and no one else will be able to handle you." saying this he looked straight into your eyes. He looked with contempt and disgust. For the first time in your life it occurred to you that Steve's hate-filled gaze, which pierced you to the core, didn't make you feel as awful as Travis' did now. You felt like you were beginning to believe his words, which seemed to burn into your brain. "I'm leaving, I don't know when I'll be back, when I look at you I want to puke." He said and left the house slamming the door leaving you alone.
Your eyes were burning as was the cheek he had just slapped you on. All the nerve endings in your body were crying out for help and at least the slightest relief. You wanted to cry, but the tears would not fly, everything around you seemed to be an obstacle, one bigger than the other.
Without even changing into your pajamas, you lay down on your bed and moments later fell asleep, hoping that at least in your dreams something good would happen to you.
That night when Steve came home he was accompanied by a great feeling of anxiety. On the one hand, somewhere he had always been aware that you hated him as much as he hated you, but lately he had spent more and more time wondering where this hatred really came from, going back in his mind to the very distant beginnings of high school. To some extent he told himself that he didn't care what you thought or how you felt but deep down he knew that wasn't true. Despite the fact that you weren't able to look at each other he always, even in the slightest, looked to you for approval, just like the rest of the people.
Whatever had changed between the two of you over the past weeks also made it so that in addition to your increasing need for acceptance, the thought that he was the villain in your life became heavier and heavier, quite as if it had suddenly become a heavy stone tied to his leg that was slowly dragging him down. The fact that you were refusing to let him help you was like tentacles that were just waiting to grab him and finish him off.
What could he do to help you? How could he convince you to accept it from him at all? Should he give up and leave you alone or keep trying to help you in any possible way?
These questions and his persistent search for answers made him fall asleep full of worry, just as if he sensed that something bad was happening. Something told him that this night would definitely not be one of the peaceful ones.
An uncomfortable pain pierced your body and roused you from sleep. It was getting stronger and stronger, unbearable by the second. Not really knowing what was happening, you sat up on the bed and turned on the lamp that stood on the bedside table. You looked around the room, Travis was nowhere to be found, you closed your eyes listening for other sounds indicating his presence, but you were in the house completely alone. Maybe that's better. You thought. Then you felt another stab of pain, much stronger that before. Your gaze went to the big stain of blood on the blanket between your legs.
Terrified, you wanted to get up right away and run to the phone, but the pain was so strong that you could not move from the bed. Panic began to overwhelm your common sense, fear filled your system, but as a last flash you remembered the walkie-talkie you kept in the drawer of your bedside table.
Steve's weak sleep was interrupted by someone's cry. A cry for help? Is this another nightmare?
Code red, code red, code red.
It took him only a moment to realize that it wasn't a dream, but a quiet cry and a plea for help coming from the other end of the room where his walkie-talkie lay. From the very beginning of his Upside Down adventure, he had always kept it in the same place at night and made sure there were always charged batteries in case something bad happened.
"Robin? Nancy?" Your voice was barely audible, breaking with each successive sound. "Help- p-please, Jonathan? Please, code red, please." He broke off and immediately ran to the device.
"Y/n? It's Steve, what's wrong?" he asked.
"It hurts, it hurts so bad, so much blood." you cried. "Help me, please."
"Be there in ten." he said and putting on only his shoes he ran out of the house. Disregarding traffic signs and speed limits he actually found himself in front of your house in less than ten minutes. Fortunately, the door of the house was unlocked. Without closing it behind him, he moved deeper into the house, calling your name. The smell of alcohol was all over the room, with empty bottles and shards of glass scattered in places, but that wasn't the most important thing now.
"Steve!" you said loudly with your remaining strength to direct him to the bedroom. The sight he found there terrified him, but he had no time for paralysis now, he knew that every next second could decide about your and the baby's life.
"Can you move?" he asked, running up to you.
"N-no, it hurts too much-" you replied, holding your stomach tightly, the pain was intolerable.
"It's okay, I've got you. Both of you." he replied quickly. "We'll go to the hospital, okay? I'll carry you to the car." Feeling his lungs slowly running out of air, he picked you up and carried you out of the house straight to the car all the while calming down in his mind.
Focus, Harrington. This is not the time to panic. Calm down.
The road to the hospital passed a little more cautiously than the one to your house, but still lightning fast.
"I'll go quickly to get the wheelchair and come back with it to pick you up, hold on okay? Just a little while longer." He said hurriedly and ran straight toward the hospital entrance. Hardly anything reached you at that moment, pain and fear occupied one hundred percent of your concentration, the whole outside world became one big blur and background noise. A moment later, the door on the grazing side opened with a jolt and there, in addition to Steve, appeared other nurses and a doctor who transferred you to a wheelchair. Curling up in a ball the whole time you cried every now and then whining in pain, you were unable to stop it, completely giving in to the emotions that were tearing at you.
Steve all the way to the door of the operating room walked step by step beside you, keeping his hand on your shoulder repeating that you are not alone and that everything will be fine, unfortunately the doctor did not want to let him in further explaining that because of your personal relationship he could do more harm there than help. When you and the rescue team disappeared behind the heavy white doors he was left alone in the large and quiet hallway.
For almost an hour he sat against the wall nervously combing his hand through his hair for the millionth time when nurse Judy approached him. She had a plastic cup of water in one hand and clothes in the other, which she tossed into his lap.
"I think you should change." She said, pointing to the blood stains on his pajamas. It was your blood. Blood that looked quite unreal. Tonight was like a nightmare, a vile product of his imagination from which he had no escape.
"Thanks." he replied quietly. The woman sighed and sat down next to him.
"You saved her life, Steve." she said firmly. "If you had shown up here a few minutes too late, neither she nor the baby would have survived."
"Jesus…" At the thought, his throat tightened and his vision blurred.
"Steve I know it's hard for you, but it's not over. Someone has to help her. If she doesn't free herself from her current situation the next time if she gets here it may be too late."
"Do you think it's because of him?"
"We honestly have no idea what caused the bleeding, there are so many causes, and she doesn't want to tell anyone anything."
He suddenly felt anger at you. How could you even at a time like this be so stubborn and not allow help? His clenched fist and tightened jaw did not escape Judy's attention.
"Steve." she said calmly but firmly. "Anger won't help here, the girl is going through hell, and she's clearly lost. She needs someone who will get her back on track and not drive her down a dead end street with no way out."
"How can I force her to let me help her?" helplessness could be seen in his tone.
"Forcing her to accept help can have the opposite effect, my boy."
"Then what should I do?"
"Convince her. Show that she can count on you, prove that you are capable of helping her."
"She's so damn stubborn." he pinched the bridge of his nose.
"She is scared, Steve. She's scared and hurt, which is why a huge amount of patience is needed here."
"I really want to help her," he said.
"I know." The woman sighed and put her hand on his shoulder. "Start by changing your clothes and then go to her, show that she's not alone, just be careful, she's been given some pretty strong medication, so she might be a little… unsteady."
The darkness in the room was distracted only by a small lamp near the bed you were lying on. The quiet and rhythmic beeping of the device mimicked your heartbeat, and the IV drip flowed into your veins at a slow pace. Should he be here? He had no idea. He knew he wanted to be here, it was unknown why he felt the need to be with you, but whether you wanted him to be here was another matter entirely.
"Why?" you asked without turning to face him. You were lying on your side with your head facing the window, in which his silhouette was reflected. Under the influence of the drugs you felt heavy but also numb, even if you wanted to at that moment you didn't feel a bit of strength to turn around.
"Why what?" he asked and approached you so that you were face to face.
"Why do you keep saving me?" a sob came out of your mouth, which released a whole waterfall of tears with it. "You hate me. Why do you save my life every time? I don't understand." Even your hand seemed too heavy for you to wipe your wet eyes and cheeks.
"I don't hate you." he said quietly slowly reaching his hand toward your face. "For years I thought I hated you, but the more I think about it I'm less and less sure it was hate. I don't understand either." The tone of his voice was as warm as the touch of his hand on your face. He pushed the wet strands of hair aside, took a napkin and began to clean your face.
"Why are you taking care of me?" his behavior made you even more emotional, and that didn't help stem the tears.
"Stop asking why, y/n." he whispered. This was another question he didn't know the answer to. He had always felt the need to take care of others, especially those he loved, but for the past few years he hadn't expected that you would someday be among those people as well. "Just let me, please."
You didn't know if it was a dream or if the drugs were strong enough to make you hallucinate, but now before your eyes was painted the image of a boy who almost always looked at you with hatred and loathing. This boy now had a worried expression on his face, his pale face and blackened eyes indicated fatigue, but in addition to this time you could see concern.
Is it possible that Steve Harrington cared about you? Was this concern sincere?
"I'm afraid." you said quietly. "I'm afraid to trust you."
He couldn't hide that these words hurt. He lowered his head down wanting to hide the painful grimace on his face. He knew you had the right to do so, if the two of you were in the opposite situation you would probably be the last person he would trust, both of you had caused each other so much pain that it would be hard to forget it just like that. Taking a deep breath he was getting ready to reply that you had the right to do so and try to convince again, but you began to speak further changing the subject.
"I wanted to die, Steve. Every morning I woke up with the thought that it would be better if it was all over, but today I was so scared. When it actually could have been the end-" you started crying again.
"Hey, everything is fine now, you're safe." He knelt as close to the bed as possible. He rubbed your cheeks with one hand and grabbed your hand with the other.
"I wanted to kill myself Steve. I wanted to kill myself and the baby, I'm a monster." you started to get hysterical.
"You are not a monster y/n, we both know very well what monsters look like. We fought them, together, and won. We will win now too. Look at me." He directed your face so that you were looking straight into his eyes. You noticed with a shock that they too were full of tears. "Just let me help you, we overcame the damn end of the world together, we can handle this too." he sniffed. Fatigue and nerves were winning out over self-control, more and more question marks were appearing in his head, he didn't understand anything, he didn't understand why he so suddenly wanted to protect you from all the suffering of the world despite the fact that for the past years he himself had intentionally caused you pain. Looking at you now, he could hardly restrain himself from taking you in his arms to once again become a shield for you. No matter how much something inside him lashed out to be as close to you as possible, he knew that this would be crossing your comfort zone, which was already violated enough by everything else.
He spent the entire night at your bedside thinking of various plans on how he could help you. Each one seemed better than the last however there were too many and he had too little time to do it. One thing was certain - you couldn't go back there. Holding on to that thought when you got into his car after being discharged from the hospital, he took a completely different route.
"Steve what are we doing here?" you asked when you stopped in front of a big house with a pool in the richest neighborhood of Hawkins. You weren't stupid, you knew perfectly well that this was the Harringtons' property, but you didn't know why you were here now.
"You're not going back there." he said as if he was proud of himself for coming up with the greatest idea in the whole world.
"What do you mean I'm not going back there?!" you nervously almost jerked out of the car. What the hell was he thinking?
"Welcome to your new home." his tone was nonchalant, completely as if the most ordinary thing in the world was now happening.
"Are you kidding me? I can't live with you!"
"Oh excuse me! Do you have any better idea?!" he shouted slamming the car door.
"Going back to my house?!" you exclaimed, increasingly annoyed.
"I don't even want to hear it!" your annoyance transmitted to him, thus you started arguing in his driveway.
"What is wrong with you?! You can't just make me stay here!"
"Are you sure?! Because you have two choices! Two!" he rested his hands heavily on the hood of the car and looked straight into your eyes. He was angry. "You stay here with me, where this psycho won't even think to look for you, or you go back to your place and the first thing I do is going to Hopper and reporting domestic violence on a pregnant woman!"
That's how two people who couldn't stand in the same room without arguing for more than an hour came to live together. And this was not the end of the surprises that fate prepared in your way.
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Aphmau facts I refuse to acknowledge on principal alone
(slight nsfw)
Zane being a brony
bronies not only ruined there own show but made the worst creepypasta’s back in the day. Also I have personal beef with a few of them bitches (including myself if you know you know)
Brony Zane is cringe have him collect plushies instead
2. Zane has a flat ass
absolutely lies and slander. Katelyn does though yes I’m 100% biased. She has no ass only muscle
3. Laurence’s fashion sense
I don’t even like Laurence but for fucks sakes why does he always look somewhere between a tik tok e-boy and a freshly divorced white suburban dad about to pick up his kid from soccer.
4. Zane having a crush on aph (or any of season 3 really)
This could’ve been interesting if he acted like an actual adult. Listen sometimes I like a whiny miserable little man but I don’t like a full blown 27 year old crying like a fucking baby over a girl that is already IN A RELATIONSHIP even want him. That’s not just unattractive it’s fucking weird. It’s yet another case of an interesting concept done poorly. Just because he doesn’t have any social skills doesn’t mean decorum always needs to be thrown out the window.
let’s not forget the time he literally said he want to repopulate with her. WHILE STILL LIVING WITH AARON. No I’m not kidding. What the FUCK.
5. ghost/kim
Ghost/Emmalyn is just such a bad character. She literally attempts to SA/full blown Sa’s Zane I don’t need to say anymore. And Kim is straight up just useless she does absolutely nothing to help the cast or the plot other than be a vessel. At least characters that I dislike (as people) make me feel something. Which makes me hate her more. Her character is literally nothing without ghost.
6. Jess implying Ein is a better villain than Zane.
fuccccck off. I don’t even like MCD but at least Zane made his own plans and didn’t need plot device to the tenth degree to make him hateable.
7. Mystreet/McD are in the same universe/timeline
Every time I think about the ladder half of season 6 i have an aneurism. Like every-time I rewatch with friends I forget everything that’s told to us.
8. Jess imply Melicinda was going to be endgame
This is gonna get me in get water maybe but I- I don’t get it guys. I mean at least Garrence I can’t get even though I’m personally not a huge fan. My feelings about Melissa aside- there’s nothing here. Literally nothing. Baron. The fruit is dryer than a raisin. So why Jess bought into it or tried to set it up- I’ll never know. Baiting your queer audience is trendy I guess.
8. Zanvis.
I’ve seen things. Things that will never be scorched from my mind. No matter how much bleach I put on the stain. It will never leave me… god… is this why you won’t come back to us? Because of what we have rot on your beautiful earth?
(just to be clear guys I’m referring to the fanart and how Jess treated it like her version of septiplier)
I’ll put more down here if I think of anything else.
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Carry On by Rainbow Rowell (review/rec)
Genre: Fantasy
My rating: 9/10
I feel like Tumblr is well aware of these books already, but I figured it was a solid start as any.
Carry On and its subsequent books was such a pleasant surprise! Years ago, I had read Fangirl, another book by Rowell. And I loved it! I also recommend that one, but there are no LGBTQ+ characters or themes from what I remember. In it, the main character, Cath, was writing a fanfic from her favorite book series from childhood, Simon Snow. Simon Snow evidently involved a teenage boy named Simon whom attended wizarding school. Oddly, some sort of event or disaster would happen at this school every year, with Simon and his friends (but mostly Simon), being at the center of it. Simon would appear to be some sort of “chosen one”. Sound familiar?
Carry On, is the fanfic that Cath was working on. From Fangirl, we already knew that it followed Simon through his last year at wizarding school and that Cath possibly made the best enemies to lovers story known to the world of fanfiction. I actually avoided reading Carry On for a long time because I usually really hate Harry Potter fics. Not to mention that I thought it was going to be a lot like other spin-off books that end up just being boring. Eventually, out of desperation to find more queer stories, I caved, and I found out that my assumptions were absolutely wrong. It turns out that Cath really did write an excellent enemies to lovers story!
The characters are extremely relatable, and over the series we get to see how these characters develop from teenagers to young adults. I love that we also get to see how they react emotionally to the things that have happened to them as well. Unlike a lot of Chosen-One stories where the main trio can just take on challenge after challenge and make it out seemingly unfazed, it feels like Carry On pulls back the curtain on what these sorts of characters would actually be dealing with after facing huge, life-altering events. I’d like to say more here, but I’m afraid that I will spoil them!
The world of Simon Snow is also pretty hilarious. Every once in a while, Rowell will seemingly poke fun at Harry Potter’s plot holes or stupid rules. These books had me laughing when it didn’t have me in Deep Introspection Mode. What with its tongue-twisters of spells taken from nursery rhymes and the main villain being named “The Insidious Humdrum”. That being said, while Carry On perhaps has its roots in Harry Potter, it is a complete story in its own right. Instead of being about the up-and-coming Chosen One and the chaos that ensues, Carry On is more-so about how people can and do move on and grow after their world was turned upside-down. Most Chosen-One stories, and really most young adult fiction books, end with high school, and I can't tell you how much I appreciate the Rowell gave Simon and his friends a future beyond just high school. I love how she shows how at every age there are new challenges to face. Life goes on beyond high school!
Of course, I don’t want to forget the reason that these books have made it onto my blog! Where is the gay content!? The main characters, Simon and Baz fall in love, and it’s adorable. Simon doesn’t realize at first that he may be into men, so he has to have a bit of self-discovery there. Meanwhile, Baz thinks he’s pining for a straight boy who could never fall in love with his enemy and rival and hates vampires, like him. It’s like if Malfoy and Harry were to fall in love, except Malfoy actually has some redeeming qualities and proves that he’s quite nice. I feel like this comparison still doesn’t do Simon and Baz justice though. Rowell also shows the awkwardness between first loves and how it may not always be smooth sailing throughout the books. In addition, I have a headcanon that Penelope, another one of the main characters, may be somewhere on the demiromantic and/or demisexual spectrum.
If your in the mood for laughing, some crying (or both at once), discussions about change, and the feeling that you just want to reach into the books to give a hug to people that don’t exist I highly recommend the Simon Snow trilogy.
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shigaraki x kidnapped reader
tw// unhealthy relationships, possessive tomura, mentions of abuse
He doesn't like when you cry, but he doesn't like it when you get too confident either. If you're confident, you're stupid. Stupidity will wind you up in a "bad situation," most likely with your body tied up on the floor and him standing over you, scolding you for trying to run or attack him.
Of course, after a month of you here with him he's gotten a lot more lenient and patient with you through your efforts of pushing you away. He still wouldn't be too opposed to killing you if you did something unforgiveable, but he feels like it was be such a waste of what you two of brewed here together already. He's never felt so close to somebody, and the thrill of having your life in his hands thrills him. Keeps him occupied while the new members of the League of Villains drive him absolutely crazy.
"Stop," Tomura seethes as you reach for the doorknob. Admittedly, sometimes your outbursts of defiance are completely his fault. When he gets too bored or annoyed with the others, he says and/or does mean things to you for his own enjoyment, to remind himself he's still got complete control over somebody. That isn't fair to you so he understands your hate for him at times like this. "If you walk out that door you'll be in trouble. Just come sit down."
Your hand shakes around the knob, internally debating whether you should listen to him and retreat or do what your mind is always screaming for you to do; run. Just run. Squeeze past the others and through the bar door, into the open streets, and run through traffic to escape this crazy boy. Worst case, you get hit by a car and die. What would be the damage? Every day you live in this house with him brings you a day closer to death anyway, seeing as he can get pretty dodgy when he's angry.
And maybe there are times when you enjoy his company and feel grateful that this kidnapping experience hasn't left you fully traumatized or injured. When you're mixing drinks for him behind the bar and he's talking to you about his favourite video game, and you're silent. But you're listening.
None of it is worth it if this is how you have to live out your relationship. If he were captured, maybe things would be different. Or if you were both heroes, fighting crime together. Returning home to your suburban house afterward and drinking together. Laughing and whatnot. But that's not Tomura. Tomura is a villain who doesn't know how to love, nothing more. You're his pitiful victim with Stockholm syndrome.
In the time you spent thinking, Tomura had walked over to you and placed his palms on your shoulders coaxingly. You want to punch him.
"Don't touch me Tomura. I want to go home."
"This is your home. We made this deal," he slurred, narrowing his eyes and glaring at the side of your head. To see your face head on would be to sabotage himself. If he can see your tears he is that much more likely to give you what you want. If he releases you, you'll never return here. He'll never see you again.
The problem of your escape has never been what you might tell people about him. In the case that you do run and find your way back to your people, tell them all about how horrible he was to you, he will only make a bigger name for himself. If it did anything at all, it would only benefit him. He probably should let you go just for that, seeing as the League hasn't been getting too much attention since the debut and downfall of the Hero Killer.
But that would mean he wouldn't have you anymore. Nobody else will do.
"I want to call the deal off," you reply sharply, "I can't. I can't stand you. You're not what I.. You're not who I want. I'm a hero, not a villain."
"You told me you liked me."
"Before you kidnapped me! Every night I sleep on the floor next to your bed with my wrists bound by a belt! You are constantly teasing me, I'm not allowed to talk to Dabi anymore because you're so fucking insecure. Frankly, I don't want Dabi! I don't want any of you! I want my house and my cat, and my best friends. Being stuck here with you is the worst thing that's ever happened to me."
Your words have him still, but his fingers grip into your shoulders like claw clamps. The nails of his index fingers bare into the flesh of your neck just slightly. You've never been so rude to him before. He's utterly taken aback, and he's not happy about that. You called him insecure, jabbing into his skull stronger than a blade could. How dare you call him insecure!
Before he can make any more movements to throw you to the ground, you swiftly open the door and rip from his grasp to make a bee line for the door. Tomura calls for Kurogiri to stop you, but he's too slow to grab so he vanishes to locate you as fog instead. Dabi sits on the couch watching it all happen with a smug look on his face.
"About time she did something."
"I'm going to tear you apart if you say anything right now Dabi."
But he knows Kurogiri will get you and bring you back. He will. Right?
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YA Book Villain Quote Meme
feel free to edit or change pronouns for rp purposes-Inspired by the crime threads and wishlist by @silvcrflames
“Love is a conquest! Love is war!”
“It is better to have an enemy who will fight you in an open field then a lover who will kill you in your sleep.”
“I am capable of choosing my battles, so that I may win the war.”
“Everyone has darkness inside them, however hidden.”
“Fine, make me your villain.”
“I am tired of being used, hurt, and cast aside. It is my turn to use. My turn to hurt.”
“If the devil only punishes bad people, wouldn’t that make him good?”
“If I cannot move heaven, then I will raise hell.”
“To love is to destroy, and to be loved is to be destroyed.”
“Being underestimated always works to my advantage. But sometimes I find it offensive. That often makes me violent”
I belong to no one. On this night, I swear to you that I will rise above everything you’ve ever taught me. I will become a force that this world has never known. I will come into such power that none will dare hurt me again.”
Even the devil was once an angel"
“I will strip away all that you know, all that you love, until you have no shelter but mine.”
“I will do everything in my power to destroy all who stand in my way.”
“What is so great about being good?”
“Don't cry. You are stronger than that.”
Pain enhances beauty”
“Fear is power,”
“They've never found the body of the first and only boy who broke my heart. And they never will.”
“It’s the things we love most that destroy us.”
“Pain goes away eventually,Death is permanent.”
“Embellish your flaws. They will turn into your assets.”
“A good queen was a well-informed queen.”
“It is my turn to use. My turn to hurt”
“How many times have you been called an abomination?”
“Sorry, always sorry. What in the world can you buy with an apology?”
“Some of us are broken and there’s nothing you can do to fix it.”
“Ideally, a lady will have three toys at once. One to romance her, one to bed her, and one to adorn her with very expensive jewelry.”
“Maybe she truly was hideous. But so long as she could deceive everyone, what did it matter?”
“So. Tell me, little wolf. Do you want to punish those who have wronged you?”
“I would not allow myself to die in the grave I'd dug.”
“What is the point of searching for love, when love is nothing but an illusion?”
“Everything else in the world is but a sham. Death is the only sincerity.”
“But true rulers are not born. We are made.”
“In my fury, I killed him.”
I only ask for obedience. If that is too hard, I can help. It is easier to obey without a tongue, and easier to kneel without legs.”
“Some hate us, think us outlaws to hang at the gallows.Some fear us, think demons to burn at the stake,Some worship us, think us children of the gods.But all know us.”
“She had not seen the bodies, but she had seen the bedrooms the next morning, and her first thought was that all that blood would make for a very pretty rouge on her lips.”
““It was all her fault. Everything was her fault. She had ruined every moment .”
"If you had, you'd know I've already killed for love once before."
“I’ve an inclination to kill again,”
“You and I are playing a very dangerous game.”
“Already, I'm starting to forget the face of the man I killed.”
My fury heightens. Everyone. They will cower at my feet, and I will make them bleed.”
“I see him lying on the ground and all I feel is disgust.”
“So many poor and desperate, come to see me suffer in order to distract themselves from their own hungry lives.”
“That's another thing to love about me. I steal.”
“No one wants you to be yourself. They want you to be the version of yourself that they like.”
“In this moment, I am a god.”
“I will keep you, until the day I choose not to. You have destroyed and harmed all that is dear to me. In return, I want you to know what that feels like. I will not kill you. I will keep you alive. I will torture you. Until your soul is dead.”
We are so much lovelier when we fall. “
“There was once a time when darkness shrouded the world, and the darkness had a queen.”
“I've been waiting for you a long time. You and I are going to change the world.”
Take it, and cut your brother's throat with it, and take back the honor of your blood.”
“You two have a bad habit of acting like fools and calling it heroic.”
“I am the nightmare.”
“The darkness bows to me, eager for my embrace. I close my eye, open my heart to the feeling, and soak in the delight of vengeance.”
“Fear motivates, more than love or ambition or joy. Fear is more powerful than anything else in the world. I have spent so long yearning for things—for love, for acceptance—that I do not really need. I need nothing except the submission that comes with fear. I do not know why it took me so long to learn this.”
“And I'm not horrified. I look at it, indulging in the darkness around me, feeding me, strengthening me, and I realize that I'm happy I killed him. Truly happy.”
“I am mostly human. But when I allow myself to use the gifts my mother gave me, I become something else. And it kills me a little inside each time I have to fight it back off.”
“If she were to see you, she would kill you.”
“A challenge and an insult all wrapped into one. My specialty.”
Sometimes you must lose everything to gain it again, and the regaining is all the sweeter for the pain of loss.”
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Damn, I remember the first time I watched FMA 03, when I was 16 or 17, I stayed up until 1 am to finish it, and today, watching episodes 38 through 42 turned me into such an emotional mess that I have to take a break lmao what happened??? My own emotional traumas, that's what happened
I'm feeling so many things again
In episode 38, when Ed and Al are fighting, Al drenches Ed in water and he says "it's going to rain!!!" and I'm like haha no don't try to pull a Mustang on me I know this episode won't make me cry and GUESS WHAT the flashback with Trisha convincing Ed to go and find Al so they can talk things out and Al looking so happy that Ed isn't upset with him anymore it's so cute I CRIED
I need -- no, I DEMAND a spin-off series where Winry and Scziezka solve murder mysteries together (I'd love to write it myself but I know I'm not nearly good enough at coming up with mystery stories lol), they're adorable I'm so happy they totally get together post CoS
Martel's death hits SO MUCH HARDER than I remembered holy shit, she and Al actually got close, we see more of her, her death is so horrific and hearing sweet sweet baby boy Alphonse cry just BROKE MY HEART I never wanted to hug an armor so badly
Scar's brother's last moments, the way he looks so terrified and desperate to protect his little brother from Kimblee and Scar being so devastated when he dies I just-- *clenches fist*
Sloth using Ed's PTSD against him that's so UNFAIR; also I was thinking that I was a bit disappointed that this anime did not include the nightmare that Ed has at some point in the manga where he sees his mom saying "why didn't you make me right" etc but this is it, this is this scene, and it's worse because he's hearing it for real, he is very much awake, he has the real voice of his mom in his ears and she's saying this to him and I'm-- *clenches fist harder*
Rose's story, I'm still so mad, she deserves all the happiness in the world
Speaking of Rose, it's so funny how the moment Al is like "I wonder how Rose is doing" the show just full on goes "Ed/Rose shipper" mode lmao, with Ed blushing while pretending not to remember her, him being so awkward when he speaks to her just before they go on their separate ways and her son just smiling and giggling when he speaks (first time we see the baby laugh, he had only been crying up until then) :') To be honest it feels a bit out of the blue to me but idk
Dante sporting Lyra's white ass in the town of brown people and speaking as if she was part of them just because she's following Rose around to manipulate her is incredibly cringe, but then again, it's Dante, she's the villain and we're already supposed to know something is up with "Lyra". But still.
Very random but Al pulling objects from or putting objects inside his armor from behind the cloth always looks very awkward lol
I used to never really care about Scar but I have learned the errors of my way as I now realize he is actually one of the best characters in this goddamn series, even with the orb of knowledge and the three arm losses, and Mangahood!Scar being much more villainized and ending up working with the military will never come even CLOSE to 03!Scar using his last bit of strength to save Alphonse to honor his love for his lost brother and take his ultimate revenge on those who murdered his people in the goal of protecting oppressed people, all of this while an epic music is playing (honestly it even feels like Ed is made to be seen as an obstacle as he tries to prevent the soldiers from entering Liore lol)
Sorry but Wrath is annoying as hell, I know that I'll probably have a different opinion if I rewatch CoS after that, but for now I hate him
We're finally entering the "Rewrite" era of the show and I had forgotten how much it rocks (Ed's hair animation at the beginning fhjkfhkdhjk)
I only have 9 episodes left but between Lust and Sloth in the upcoming episodes I'm not even sure I'll be able to watch it all in one go lol. Still excited to see more of Winry and Scziezka and remembering how much Hohenheim is absolutely useless in this x)
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FNAF MOVIE SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT DONT READ IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT YET I MEAN IT!!!!!!!
my thoughts on the movie UwU
ok first of i LOVED what they did with mike's character???? its different from the games canon (or different from the most popular theories??? i can never remember what is actually canon and whats accepted fanon) but its sooooo interesting. making him the brother of one of the victims was SO unexpected but it worked really really well. tho going into the movie with preconceived notions ab the story fucked me up somewhat bc i took so long to accept he wasnt michael afton 😣 tho i feel the movie mightve been setting fans up that way lol
on that note his brother confused me somewhat? cuz he was one of the missing children but he wasnt one of the 5 spirits was he??? maybe he was and i just didnt notice KSBSKDBSKD ill look out for it on my second watch
WILLIAM. MOTHER FUCKING AFTON. OH MY GODDDDDDD THAT WAS FUCKING INSANE and honestly seeing everyones reaction to it was SO cool. when springtrap appeared everyone screamed and clapped. when he started dying everyone screamed and clapped even louder. and when he said "I ALWAYS COME BACK" everyone LOST THEIR FUCKING MIND SCREAMING CRYING YELLING CLAPPING WHOOPING IT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD
AND THE VANESSA REVEAL????? i think thats completely different from game vanessa lore mostly bc william aftons daughter in the game was elizabeth/baby and shes fucking dead but idk vanessa lore so who knows. all i know is that it WORKED MAN i did NOT see that coming but i HONESTLY REALLY LIKED IT AND AGAIN EVERYONE IN THE THEATER LOST THEIR MINDS WE WERE ALL LIKE "WHAT?????" (edit: i saw an youtuber point out that this cant be the same vanessa from sb bc this is set in like the 90s and sb's in the future. maybe this is something like, they put two vanessas so we know that sometimes different characters just have the same name and dont get too hang up on mike smith vs michael afton lol)
i also like how they did williams character. i usually dont like purely evil 2d villains but i feel that fits afton way more than "sad scientist goes insane cuz he lost his kid oh no :(". like it just fits fnaf!!!!!!!
another thing that was completely different from the game was the animatronics. like in the game theyre "like animals" but in the movie they all seemed very, aware??? msking decisions? they def had a mind and it was cheesy sure but i also liked it. i just loved this movie. and everything about it. i went into it knowing it was absolutely not going to be 1:1 with the game so i dont mind im just so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT IMMEDIATELY STARTING WITH A JOKE ON DREAM THEORY LMFAOOOOOOOO. "SOME PEOPLE BELIEVE IT"
MATPAT? MOTHERFUCKING MATPAT ARE YOU KIDDING ME
THE EASTER EGGS!!! THE REFERENCES!!!!!! THERE WERE SO MANY AND THEY MADE ME WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY EVERY TIME OH MY GOD
im not gonna remember all of them but I WANT THE MIDNIGHT MOTORIST HOODIE
max did NOT deserve to die that upset me. she was fine!!!!!!!
also the violence wasnt anything super crazy but it was def more than i expected. also they swore
THE ANIMATRONICS ARE SO FUCKING COOL DUDE OH MY GOD I CANT BELIEVE THEYRE REAL
also golden freddy wasnt a girl in the movie. F cassidy
i like mikes character sooooo much ive said so before and im saying it again. vanessa too
THE SONG THE FUCKING SONG THE LIVING TOMBSTONE PLAYING IN THE FUCKINF CREDITS OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I CANT BELIEVE IT OH MY GOD DUDE DUDE DUDE DUDE DUDE
this one is only for the brazilians in here but i actually liked the dub? this sentiment might change after i watch the og version but it wasnt terrible. williams voice was 10/10
balloon boy was funny every single time. fuck this bitch. also the cupcake
THE ITS MEEEEEEEEEEE i wish they did more its mes BUT I SAW THAT!!!
the scene were mike calls abby to the kitchen so they could 'talk' and the aunt was there.... actually broke my heart how dare you
i missed phone guy 😭
OH IM PRETTY SURE I SAW THE FAKE DOG ANIMATRONIC PEOPLE THOUGHT EXISTED YEARS AGO???? I DONT REMEMBER HIS NAME BUT I THINK HE WAS THERE IN THE LIKE STORAGE PLACE i might be crazy tho dont quote me
i thought i wouldnt like it but i love how expressive freddy is its so funny. chica bonnie n foxy too but him especially
ok i those were all my immediate thoughts!!! i wrote this a few hours ago when id JUST gotten back from the theater and now im gonna go watch it again so bye <3
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One thing I really miss from Season 1 Jack was just how snarky he was. Sure he was a Bit of a coward as a character flaw, but he had some Bite to him that made him feel like a credible villain, even if a mostly ineffectual one. Instead of being a flat out Cowardly Mama's Boy, he sassed off about his parents always doing Dumb Parents things and throwing wild parties, snarked back at Wuya, and had an attitude beyond occasionally smarmy coward. Which would be fine if you were to develop him out of that and use that lessening of seeming threat level by making him maybe doubt his clinging to the side of evil and migrate towards good or even just neutrality. But instead it kind of feels like the narrative expects us to simultaneously believe he's both a villain with potential to have his own Evil Overlord Jack timeline and also that he's a simpering coward who's perfectly fine acting like a total stooge to other, bigger baddies.
Yeah, season 1 established Jack as a much more... human character.
He's an antisocial rich kid who's desperate for the acknowledgement of others, but also actively acts abrasively to keep them at arm's length. He's a genius in robotics and knows how smart he is. He's snarky and cocky, he knows what he wants and feels entitled to the whole world's praises, and if conquest is what it takes to show off what he has, he'll happily do it, because it means less social interaction he has to awkwardly work through.
In fact, he's prone to self-sabotaging or bristling in response to positive social situations, is avoidant of things like parties but still wants to be talked about positively, and automatically meets even polite greetings with snarkiness.
Oh yeah! Can I strut now?
First order of business when I rule the world: vaporize all mimes.
Nice place you have here, Clay, too bad about the sudden change in weather.
Oh, I'm leaving alright, and you're coming with me! (Oh really, who's gonna make me?) You are. Kimiko, meet Kimiko. Or should I say, meet your match.
(No hands.) Yeah. And no game.
You fully get why the monks are wary and unfond of him. He was a smarmy threat and he actively mocks and belittles them unpleasantly. He insults their intelligence and appearance, steals from them and actively tries to kill them, is occasionally creepy towards Kimiko. And he gets pretty frequent W's or near wins, so his threats were not empty threats. It's very clear why there's mutual bad blood.
And then there’s the thing with his parents. He didn't have a very strong negative or positive reaction to his father sending him the puzzlebox, so it's evidently not unusual to get gifts like that from his parents. He’s neither surprised nor completely uninterested. Then, he says it's lame and throws it away when he solves it.
A sort of distant relationship from an antisocial teenager trying to come into his own. The only parental figure’s gift he seemed immediately impressed and sentimental about was the helibot his villainous grandmother gave him. Otherwise, he’s not particularly desperate for presents from them.
Like the scene you mention, where he insults his parent's boring parties.
Jack: Standard for my folk's parties. Snobfest a-go-go.
Ashley: So, are you Jack? the kid they're all talking about upstairs?
Jack: (Perking up hopefully) They're talking about me?! Are they calling me a genius?!
Ashley: More like "weirdo"
Jack: WHAT'S SO WEIRD ABOUT ME?!
He thinks his parents are lame and throw lame parties. He avoids parties because he’s antisocial and doesn’t do as well with people as he does with machines, but it makes him happy to know that they might all be talking about how smart he is up there. And when he hears that they’re insulting him, he doesn’t simper or shrink, he throws a furious tantrum and lashes out.
It’s a far cry from the Mama's boy who "has panic attacks when he's away from his mama for more then one day".
The later seasons feel off because he's more of a simpering lackey and doesn't even pull off any smug attitudes or land any biting insults anymore, he just... shrinks back and cries. Makes the encounters with the monks feel painfully one-sided.
Even entirely separate from the villain decay that all the Heylin character underwent and the massive flanderization almost all the characters had in season 3 to undermine their previous growth, Jack just feels like a different character.
He was always immature in a way that was well communicated, but by the end of the series, it's less "edgy teenager rebellion" and more "uncomfortably infantilized by the narrative".
He was always cowardly and cocksure with an Napoleon complex. Always the type who’s taunt an angry dog while it’s leashed only to scream and run when it broke its chain, but at some point he’s very much just a recurring joke about how pitiful he is. But the type of cowardice changes into something less teenager-who-thinks-he-can-take-over-the-world and more shrinking-violet. He’s very woobified.
And it’s sad, because for a while there was a nice opening for places where he could have gone. He had an episode where he acknowledged that he’s only evil is out of fear of failure and an internal logic that evil is sure to lose anyway so it doesn’t matter if he fails or not.
Jack could have either cemented his desire to have a reason for being on the Heylin side that’s not just that desperate fear, or he could have made the step to the Xiaolin side that every finale teases.
Ultimately they didn’t go either direction though. Like you said, he sort of ends up as just “a simpering coward who's perfectly fine acting like a total stooge to other, bigger baddies.” Especially in his ping-ponging relationship with Hannibal Bean, where he’s either trembling and begging Bean to leave him alone, or groveling unquestioningly at Bean’s brilliant evil plans before walking directly into being betrayed.
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Joker/Harley Quinn: Parenting
+ Character Analysis
Something I've NEVER bought was that Joker didn't notice Harley going missing for a year. And I'm talking about when she was pregnant. There is no way in hell that he didn't notice she wasn't gone.
I'm just saying the Joker is very observant. He's a genius. He'd notice if his favorite little Harlequin went missing. The Joker had a part in creating her, which makes her his. And I SEVERELY doubt the fact that he wouldn't notice his prized creation went missing. I think he would know, and he would have found out easily. He wouldn't let her get away from him that long, especially since he'd (in my opinion) assume she left him.
What I've always wondered is HOW he'd react to being a father. How would he react to having a DAUGHTER? What would he do with her? Leave her alone? Kill her? Track her down and take her for himself? If he decided to keep her, how would he raise her? The idea of the Joker as a father is fascinating, and I'm sure others would be intrigued to see it too.
Because it's canon that the Joker does have paternal instincts. Here are some examples:
These are just a few select examples, but it's enough to show he's capable of being a fairly decent father. He wants the best for his child. He wants his child to have the happy childhood he never had, and it honestly touched me to my very core. The fact that the Joker, the most prolific, terrifying and truly evil villains of Gotham is capable of raising a child in a normal way (at least his level of normalcy) is amazing. I want to see more of it. Because this isn't the only instance of him being a not shitty influence on kids surprisingly enough.
Probably one of, if not my favorite interaction the Joker has had with a child. He's not aggressive, there are no scare tactics, he's not rude, he's genuinely kind. He actively engages and has a conversation with him about his torture bugs and his birthday, giving him a little pep talk about how everyone is a freak to make him feel better. I also just love little weirdo kids.
Though, I don't believe the Joker would waste his time on a child who doesn't want to be evil like him. Who isn't already corrupted and dark. I think if his child wasn't like him, he'd be disappointed. I even think he'd kill said child, which is why I'd love to see him with a child that's like him. Who admires him. Who looks up to him as their hero. I feel like too many people do the trope of "I'm not like my parents, I'm good".
I'd like to see Joker with a daughter, a girl, just to see how he'd react. It's different than raising a boy, that's for sure. And I truly do not know how he'd react to a girl. I guess it just depends on the Joker, really.
But I don't just want the Joker to raise his kid on his own, I want to see Joker and Harley as parents. I want to see what their dynamic would be like while raising a kid.
I don't think we've ever had a real, proper glimpse of the Joker and Harley as parents; not even when they made Joker Jr. That was strictly to toy with Batman's mind, to break him.
I can imagine what Harley would be like as a mother. But, again, this is all my interpretation. I'd love to hear what others think about Joker and Harley being parents. What it'd be like for their kid. What kind of childhood they'd have.
I don't think the Joker would want/have the patience to raise a child (a HUMAN child) from birth to grown adult. The Joker can deal with a lot of things, but constant screaming, crying, shitting, pissing, farting, feeding/making baby food and just having to raise a baby would be hell, and he'd get impatient fast. Even if Harley was the one taking care of her. He'd wait until the kid can at least talk coherently and do things on her own. Like use the restroom. And change clothes. And eat by herself.
Harley would be beyond ecstatic when finding out he actually wants a child, and wants to raise one with her. But at the same time, I feel like she'd still be a little reluctant, because it's the Joker. Harley isn't stupid, we all know this, and I know she'd value her own daughters safety before taking her in to live with them. They would have to have a serious conversation. More serious than either of them have ever been about anything. Having a child and raising one together is a BIG fucking deal, especially since they're both one of the most wanted super criminals in the world/Gotham. Raising a kid while being in their "profession" would be hard as shit, and they both know that. But I know Harley would agree after setting some ground rules.
Harley knows exactly what would happen when/if she brings her daughter to live with them, and to be raised by them. And with a child around, I think the violence on their relationship will die down a bit, but they'd still be just as deranged and brutal as the villains they are, while still being fun. Because they would be such fun parents.
The most important thing for Joker as a father would be his kid having a "good sense of humor", which Harley fully supports. Whether he'd admit it or not, he'd grow a soft spot for his daughter, and just like with Harley, he'd resent her for that. The Joker does not like feeling affection for others. He doesn't like caring for anyone but himself. Which is the main reason he's tried to kill Harley so many times (and that is established in canon). Am I saying that the Joker would magically turn into a better person and become a good guy for his daughter? No. Lmao. The thought is laughable.
And I'm not saying the Joker isn't capable of forming bonds with others. I'm saying the bonds he forms arent healthy. The Joker isn't capable of having a fully functioning healthy relationship. Not with anybody. And that includes Batman. The Joker isn't capable of "healthy". It's just not in his nature. You know that. I know that. And Harley knows that too. Harley isn't capable of forming healthy relationships either, from what I've noticed. She always has unhealthy attachments to others, like Ivy, and Joker. Would the same go for her daughter? Not fully. What's healthy to Joker and Harley is not the normal version of healthy – especially to other parents/people in general.
Another thing is the Joker values himself above all. He is number one. And having a child, something that has his DNA in it, would awaken something in him. A realization. That's his own flesh and blood. There is a part of him in his child. She is a part of him. He made her. With another person.
Joker values his creations more than many things, but a child is a whole new level of creation. This isn't something he created by himself; this is a shared creation. And sharing a creation with someone (especially Harley) THAT big would be a huge eye-opener. Not in the way of him changing morally, but realizing that something isn't only his. It's not just a toy he gets to play with and occasionally lets Harley play with as well, this is their child. Their responsibility. Their flesh and blood combined to make a mini-version of both of them. I want to start writing headcanons and stories, of just more analyses of Harley and Joker as parents, individually or separately, it doesn't matter. Joker and Harley have both been a comfort ship of mine ever since I was little, and their characters are equally as fascinating. I want to rewrite their story, I want to make them into my own and bring their characters back to glory properly.
Thank you for reading my autistic ramblings (I am not saying that to insult autistic people, I am actually autistic and these characters have been my special interests since I was a fetus) and Im always open to discussion about Joker and Harley, or just questions about anything related to DC (that revolves around Batman [specifically Joker and Harley tee-hee] but also about Poison Ivy, Bruce Wayne, Jason Todd, Damien, etc.)
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Pepsi & Cola
Fandom: Stranger Things
Pairing: Eddie Munson x F!Reader
Summary: It's always been you and Eddie. His Cola to your Pepsi. His night to your day. You and him forever...until it wasn't.
A/N: i didn't wanna do any angst for Eddie but I'm feeling kinda bleh so here you go...
Eddie Munson Masterlist
Eddie enters the diner and heads straight to where you were at the cash register, "So, you coming tonight?"
"I tried to reason with Paul, but he said two other people called out so he really needs me here."
"Pep, it's the end of the campaign!" he whined.
"I know, I know, I really wish I could go! Besides, the more money I get from working the more I have for your graduation trip. So it'll be worth it."
Eddie pouted, "Fine. But I demand a milkshake for compensation."
You saluted him, "Aye aye, Captain Cola!" and you immediately got to working on Eddie's shake.
While you were doing that, your coworker Tanya came up beside you, "Oooouu, I see your boy toy is back!"
You rolled your eyes at her, "He's not my boy toy, Tan. I told you, he's my best friend. That's it."
"Mhm. Mhm, suuurree, but I see you two giving each other those heart eyes." she teases, poking your side.
"We don't give each other heart eyes!" you whisper yelled at her so Eddie doesn't hear you.
"Whatever you saaaaay," she sing songs her way out of the kitchen and back out to the floor.
You finished making Eddie's milkshake and grabbed a can of Pepsi for yourself. You made your way back out to Eddie, setting his drink in front of him, "For you, good sir."
"Thank you, m'lady."
He waits as you pop open your drink and you both cheers, taking a few gulps from your beverages of choice.
In between customers, you continued to chat with Eddie until he had to leave to get ready for the last campaign of the year.
He gave you a hug and hollered, "Talk to you later!" before getting into his van and driving away.
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When you heard the news about Chrissy, about Eddie, you couldn't believe it. There was no way that Eddie Munson, your best friend, was a murderer. Nope. No way.
As soon as you heard the news, you drove over to his place as fast as he could. You immediately spotted his Uncle Wayne, looking scared and concerned.
"Wayne!" you called for him, waving from behind the police tape.
He immediately rushed over to you, "Kid!" he pulled you into his arms, "Do you know what happened? Have you seen Eddie?"
You shook your head, "No. I haven't seen or talked to him since yesterday. I've been working at the diner."
Wayne shook his head, running a hand down his face, "It's bad, kid. They're saying they murdered that poor girl. But you and I know-"
"I know, Wayne," you gripped the man who was like a second father to you, "I'll do what I can to find him. I'll figure out what happened."
"I just want him safe. You make sure he's safe, okay? Let me know if you find him."
"I will," you murmur and give Wayne a hug before heading back to your car and immediately go on the search for your best friend.
Turns out things were a little bit more complicated that you thought. You ended up following Steve Harrington, Dustin Henderson, Max Mayfield, and Robin Buckley to Reefer Rick's. That's where you found Eddie...whom was holding a broken bottle to Steve's neck.
"Eddie! Eds! Stop!" you cry out.
Eddie looks over his shoulder and he immediately drops the bottle, "Pep?"
You nod, "It's me, Eddie."
"Fucking hell," he murmured and he threw his arms around you, "I'm scared. I'm so fucking scared," he whispered in your ear.
"It's okay. I'm here. You're gonna be okay. It'll be okay."
And as it turned out, things weren't okay.
The police and the town were on a manhunt for Eddie. Some creature named Vecna was killing people. It was all so confusing and scary.
You could see the light in Eddie's eyes dim. Your best friend, your Eddie, he didn't deserve this. He didn't deserve to be scrutinized, villainized. Just because he didn't fit into what society deemed as normal. He'd gone through so much and he still had the heart of gold. The love and kindness in his eyes, but you see it dwindling as the time passed. As the hunt for Vecna grew closer to, what you hoped, was the end.
In the stolen RV, you sit beside Eddie. You nudge his shoulder with his, "Hey, it'll be okay. We got this. Pepsi and Cola forever right?"
He sighs, "I dunno if we'll be able to get out of this one, Pep."
You just hum in reply to him. You reach out, gripping his hand with yours, "Well, it's been quite the adventure, hasn't it?"
"A shitty ass adventure," Eddie responds with a small smirk, he laces his fingers with yours and holds on tight. Like this is the last time he'll ever get to hold you like this.
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You yell out Eddie's name as you and Dustin race to his fallen figure. You fall to your knees beside him and carefully pull him into your lap, "Eddie," you sob.
With blood stained lips, Eddie looks up at you "Guess this is the end, Pep."
"You shut up right now, Eddie. You're gonna be fine."
"Oh yeah, it's just a flesh wound...times a hundred." he gives a painful smile to you and your heart just breaks.
He then looks at Dustin, "I didn't runaway this time right."
Dustin, teary eyed, shakes his head, "No, you didn't run away. You were...badass."
Eddie gives another painful smile, "You're gonna have to watch over those little sheep for me, okay?"
"No, no you're gonna do that yourself!"
"Say you'll look after them. Say it."
"I-I'll look after them," Dustin sobs and you're sobbing with him.
"Y/N," he gurgles your name and you look at him wide-eyes. For years, Eddie's only ever called you Pepsi, or Pep. Never your actual name. Hearing it now, scared you.
"Y/N," he said again, looking up at you. With a bloody hand, he does his best to wipe away your tears, "I-I love you, you know that? I've always l-loved you," he winces at the pain, "I planned on telling you s-sooner. After-After graduation."
"You can tell me again, when we get you out of here. You're gonna get better, we're gonna clear your name, and you'll graduate."
"Seems like a lotta work," he huffs out a witty response.
You give a sniffled laugh, "Yeah, but I'd do anything for you, Eddie. It's you and me forever, remember? Pepsi and Cola," you pulled out the necklace Eddie made you all those years ago. Two tabs from a Pepsi and Cola can glued together to make a heart and strung on a chain.
"I love you guys," Eddie says and you and Dustin respond with the same sentiments.
Eddie lets out a few more, harsh, ragged breaths before his body is limp in your arms.
You whimper out, "Eddie? Eddie, please. Come on, Eddie, don't do this. Eddie? EDDIE!!"
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@nobody33333333, I finally did it!!!
Alrighty, it has taken me ages to get around to finishing all of this, because of unfortunately unavoidable things, but I am done with the semester now and so ready to spew all of my thoughts on the unsuspecting audience of poor people who follow me.
So, without further ado, I present:
Sophie's Unhinged and Excessively Hyperactive Word-Vomit "Review" of Chapter 11 of S.O.S.
Ooooh, Curtain’s evil villain motivations for tipping the boys off balance is so sinister. It’s interesting, because he is using the same tactics he used on/around Nicholas when they were children. Just. The narrative parallels.
Garrison!!
She’s so funny. Even with all she’s been through, she sees right through Curtain to his theater kid core.
(It’s still really sad, though, because she doesn’t get why he’s trying to get her opinion and he keeps forcing her)
“For someone who was fine bypassing ethical standards to rush their timeline, Curtain still put a ridiculous amount of effort into aesthetics. Not that any of this would matter if his new messengers didn’t adapt to The Whisperer.” It just hits so hard, for some reason. Maybe because you can really understand the difference of perspective between her and Curtain.
Oh!! “psychics or telepaths”, we’re getting somewhere!
It makes a lot of sense that the Whisperer tech would pick that kind of thing up!! That’s so clever, and very much something Garrison would take into account. You are so good at putting these little details into it that give the story so much more dimension and open up a lot more paths for the characters to take.
Lindsey!!! Lindsey gets a part and can do things!! I’m so excited for her :)
Aaaaand she’s got a crush on Isaac. I can’t believe you’ve gotten me extremely invested in this as soon as I got to that line. She’s so sweet, though! I’m excited to see more of her.
And you can tell Garrison is trying to be nice, even though she’s having a breakdown fifty percent of the time and doesn’t really want to deal with teenagers.
It cracks me up that they made a full model of Reynie. Why. Just, why. Did he leave some of his clothes behind? I feel like it would have been better to make one of Kate. You can’t tell me they looked at Madge and went “Yes. I am certain that Reynie, our resident soft-hearted child who’d probably cry if he saw this bird eat a live mouse, he is the one who will be most in-tune with this child. Not Kate, no. There’s no way that the girl who was raised by a circus would be the one who will volunteer to handle the actual falcon we’re about to send to them”
I’m so proud of Number Two for breaking Madge out of a terrible zoo. 10/10 No Comments, one of the best plot points I’ve seen.
Also, this Madge perspective is so cool! Omniscient narrators don’t always remember that they can do anything, but this was a fantastic usage of it.
She’s trying so hard. Madge has made no mistakes ever she’s beautiful.
MISS PERUMAL YEAH
““Oh, Hello.” replied Nicholas awkwardly, hoping that this woman, who clearly cared about Reynie, wouldn’t notice the newly destroyed dummy that happened to be wearing one of his sweater vests.” Ajasdjgadskjl What even. He’s so silly, but that is certainly not a situation you want to be in with Miss Perumal.
I’ve said it before, but the little descriptions and dialogue tags you add to the lines from the show are so good!!! Just tiny things, like calling her “the woman” and then immediately switching to “Dipika” when she introduces herself make it so incredibly amazing. You don’t have to worry at all about it being “boring” or “redundant” because people have already seen the show.
And now we’re sad again because of Milligan. I love him but he is so full of melancholy right now :(
I love how you’ve been incorporating Mr. Benedict’s tendency to just adopt every single child into Curtain’s character. He may not be going about it properly, or for the right reasons, but he’s just as inclined to take in (abduct) children as his brother.
Isaac cameo!!
The details in how you explain all of the tech, from the Whisperer to the Waiting Room, is ingenious and thrilling to read and I am loving it!!
It just repeats people’s thoughts!! It’s not really like an AI, more of an echo chamber that can project into people’s minds, that is so neat!
Of course, Reynie is able to distance himself by thinking about Miss Perumal, that is such a good paragraph.
And the Curtain/Nicholas parallels are back again!! He’s such a contradiction; He misses his brother and wants him back, but he also can’t stand when things remind him of Nicholas. Oh boy this man needs so much therapy goodness gracious.
Good job, Reynie for being cautious!!
Oh. Oh no this is one of my least favourite bits it’s just so awkward aaahhhhhhh
“The first thing Number Two had done was quickly search Miss. Perumal’s bags for weapons, which was fine with Dipika, since she knew that Number Two wouldn’t find anything (no one ever did).” This is why she’s one of the best characters ever. I did really like the book version, of course, but I also love the way they changed her into Pink Biker Vigilante Mom.
AAAHHHH YOUR WAY OF DESCRIBING HER THOUGHTS IS SO COOL. “Dipika Perumal had met people who wanted to hurt children. She had met people who hated children, who even enjoyed hurting them. She knew what that looked like in a person, you could see it in their faces. And she could see that Mr. Benedict and his companions were not those people. But just because they didn’t enjoy hurting children didn’t mean they wouldn’t use them, and it didn’t mean they weren’t up to anything nefarious.” YES. OH MY WORD SO GOOD.
Also Mr. Benedict being like “Yes, if I tell this lady that my recently discovered twin brother is behind all of this, it will definitely give me credibility. This is the best option”
There’s something about Number Two fixating on the food as a way to enter the conversation/be sure that if something goes wrong she’ll be there that rings very true to me. She anxious about this, and she wants to protect Mr. Benedict and exert some kind of control because she couldn’t keep the house from being broken into and now they’re in the woods and she can’t keep Rhonda from wanting to quit and she couldn’t keep Miss Perumal from finding them and the only thing she can control right now is the stuff she makes with her own hands and she’s scared that she’s falling behind because of all her failures and you can feel that she just needs to do something. You do a good job of portraying that.
CAN YOU PLEASE STOP MAKING ME CRY OVER THESE CHARACTERS????? FOR FIVE SECONDS???? OH MY WORD
And poor Sticky is ashamed of admitting that he’s afraid of not being wanted, like he thinks he isn’t even worth being upset about how he’s been treated.
It’s been kind of intriguing to see Curtain’s feelings about Reynie and Sticky slowly switch.
And now we’re back to Mr. Benedict’s questionable attempts to explain himself. Why on earth would she need background for the information you just dropped on her about your brother? That certainly wasn’t something to be expected.
AKJFshad;asdfg Number Two just casually going “He’s narcoleptic, it’s fine. Please continue to enjoy your food” and the way you write Miss Perumal’s reaction!! She’s so baffled but she adapts, as she does.
Oh goodness, she thinks he’s crazy. I feel so bad for him because he’s had such awful experiences with that, but also from her perspective it’s totally justified.
I love how she initially was trying to be nice and not trigger him but immediately forgoes this to yell at him about sending children into an underground secret tunnel.
HILDEGARD
NO, OH, HILDEGARD. Sad :(
“Garrison tried to believe that it was for the best. The helpers were happy at the Institute, which was more than she could say for herself.” Please, I will bake you muffins if you stop destroying me like this :((((
AND SHE KNOWS. SHE KNOWS THAT SHE’S HURT PEOPLE (And herself) IN THE PAST. BUT SHE CAN’T REMEMBER.
Oh my. He feels so guilty about how they might have hurt Milligan. And he’s so alone in that.
AND SHE KNOWS. SHE KNOWS THAT SHE’S HURT PEOPLE (And herself) IN THE PAST. BUT SHE CAN’T REMEMBER.
Oh my. He feels so guilty about how they might have hurt Milligan. And he’s so alone in that.
She knows!! She sees the button and that whole paragraph looking into how she feels about the situation and how she fought Curtain to avoid brainsweeping the children is bone-chilling I don’t know how you managed to make us feel that way when I know what’s going to happen it’s nuts how good at this you are.
Their decaying dynamic is driving me up a wall. She doesn’t get why Curtain cares about her, but she’s using it to her advantage, all the while Curtain’s still manipulating her, but he’s trying to do it in the least malicious way possible. (And he’s failing)
“the shock of Curtain realizing the situation she was imagining. A world where they were actually held accountable for what they were doing.”
Garrison’s little dive into Curtain’s weird delusions is very interesting. He really is unsettling, because he isn’t some mastermind who spends all his time distracting people from his real intentions, he’s spending just as much time trying to convince himself of what he’s telling others that he can’t see clearly anymore.
I really appreciate how you give Miss Perumal her own opinions and personality, but you keep her thoughts directed at Reynie. That’s a tough balance.
The narrative tension in the details of how Dipika leaves thinking that Mr. B and Co aren’t intentionally hurting people, but should be stopped nonetheless, and she doesn’t see how badly she’s shaken him is so good!!
More Perumal backstory!!!
SQ!!!!
Oh, this is one of my favourite scenes in the show, just for the lines and the mirror shots and everything, I’m so excited to see your take
Aw yeah, this is brilliant.
Let him go to college!!!! Let him do the things!! Let him do his art!!!
He wants his dad to be proud!! He’s trying so hard to frame it positively, but Curtain’s a wacko and he isn’t going to let him :(
Let him have his confidence!! He could so definitely do it, I’m so sad :(
Garrison: “Hmm, I’m going to have a look at my readings, so I can maybe hypothesise about how I could possibly find the child” The Readings: “She was in your lab, you weirdo”
Wait. WHAT????? WHAT IS THIS, BODS????? EXCUSE ME???? I MEAN, I KNOW THIS FIC IS AMAZING AND I LOVE IT BUT WHAT????? I DIDN’T EXPECT THAT TO COME OUT OF NOWHERE AND HIT ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS
Please don’t go and put your liver in jeopardy again, Doc. I don’t think anyone can take much more of that.
AJKSFhakjsgh You always manage to come swinging out of the blue with your chapter conclusions. Goodness. I think I need to go sit down, but I still have another chapter to read and I don’t know if I can wait!!
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I'm not going to ramble for four hours, but I just feel like I need to do a little update after finishing ep 94:
Hello from the Hallowoods is finally having good times again (just in time for the season 2 finale so that something bad can probably happen), and I'm so glad :)
I love Polly, Mort, and Yaretzi running the hotel and Polly's little speech about how the floor is always sticky, etc. Also didn't Barb have to also yell at someone to put somebody else down one time? Does Zorgelleck just really like picking people up?? What the heck lol, I'm too lazy to go back and find the episode to see but I swear.
We escaped from the Dreaming Box, so that's great, except Moth who I'm a little worried about. But I have hope for Moth.
Nikignik really talks about Marolmar in every episode don't they? I remember when I started listening to this podcast and saw someone who made a "Hello from the Hallowoods as Vines" and they put Nikignik as that girl in the vine where she says "I eat cheerios because they're heart healthy, and my heart has been severely damaged. So (Marolmar) if you're out there." and I was kind of confused because Marolmar had only been brought up like twice at that point, but BOY were they right.
Don't get me wrong, I love Nikignik, but I feel bad for them every time they bring up Marolmar. Lately I just wish Marolmar was still alive so that 1) Nikignik wouldn't be a depression reference and 2) I could see if Marolmar is actually good or bad because I've been confused by that since the beginning. I want to make my own judgements about him. (even though, let's be real, I'd probably think he was good just because Nikignik loves him, but... we don't talk about that)
I just keep crying at every time Nikignik brings up Marolmar and I get concerned about myself??? Like am I supposed to be crying over Marolmar for the 100th time? Is everyone crying over him for the 100th time?
But the MAIN reason I had to rant is this:
Lady Ethel Mallory got FIRED from BotCo?!?!?! Like oh my gosh!! What is she going to do?! I'm really jazzed up about this lol, but I honestly don't really care what happens to her as long as she doesn't come into the outside world and bother my characters (except that I do care because she seems like she might have an interesting backstory, not saying I like her or anything but gosh dang this is going to turn into another Rick Rounds for me isn't it, I swear the villains in this podcast I'm so interested in for some reason, why can't I just hate them like everyone else lol)
ANYWAY. Lady Ethel Mallory is free, and I am afraid.
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Negan’s Wives
I’m like, a villain supporter through and through, I don’t really give a fuck what a bad guy has done, murder away and I will cheer you on etc, and Negan is very much included in that, but I’ve always been iffy on his wives situation and I know a lot of people bring it up as a reason why he’s irredeemable so I want to figure out how I feel about it.
During my recent re-watch I basically paid extra attention and took note of various moments related to his wives and general attitude towards sex/consent. I know this is an old conversation, but I need to talk about it to get my thoughts out so here we are.
Parts of this post mention rape and coercion so tread carefully if those topics are likely to upset you.
I don’t know the best way to format this post so I’m just going to go through each moment I noted down first
(1) 7.03, 7mins in
(Dwight notices a pregnancy test)
SHERRY: It’s negative.
DWIGHT: Well, maybe next time.
(2) 7.03, 12mins in
(Negan offers his wives to Dwight as a reward)
NEGAN: Pick whoever you want, as long as she says yes.
(3) 7.04, 16-18mins in
(Negan is at Alexandria and asks about Maggie)
NEGAN: Widows, especially ones that look like that, they are special. I love ‘em. Right after their husbands go they are just.. empty inside. But usually not for long.
NEGAN: A damn tragedy, that’s what this is.... I was gonna ask her to come back with me. Oh, I know what you’re thinking, how could I have a shot, guy that just bashed her husband’s head in? You’d be surprised. boy, people, they-
(I don’t actually end up using this quote in the post anywhere, but I cba with going through and changing all the numbers so it’s staying here)
(4) 7.07, 10mins in
(Carl shoots up the sanctuary)
NEGAN: Damn, I am not gonna have time to screw any of my wives today.
(5) 7.07, 17mins in
(Amber, one of Negan’s wives. cheated on Negan. She knows he knows and is sat crying, seemingly terrified about what’s going to happen)
NEGAN: Amber, baby, you know I don’t want anyone here that doesn’t wanna be here, right?
AMBER: Mm-hmm.
NEGAN: So if you wanna leave and go back to Mark... you can. But what can’t you do?
AMBER: Cheat on you.
NEGAN: That is exactly right. You can’t cheat on me. There’s plenty other gals who would love to take your place, and there’s a few job openings that I can think of. You want to go back to Mark and your mom? Hell, I’ll put you all on the same job.
AMBER: No. I’ll stay. I’m sorry.
NEGAN: You know what that means, right? You know what that means, right?
AMBER: Yes. I love you, Negan.
NEGAN: Oh, of course you do, darlin’. I don’t know why you’re crying. It’s all gonna work out aces for you.
(6) 7.07, 27mins in
CARL: Are all of those women actually your-
NEGAN: Wives? I always wanted to screw a whole bunch of different women. I mean, why settle for just one? Why follow the same old rules? Why not make life better?
(7) 7.11, 30mins in
FRANKIE: You saw Amber last night. She just drinks and cries. She didn’t want this. We signed up for it. It’s better for us. She had to. Her mom needed meds. She can’t work. Amber thought... that she could live with it. She can’t.
(8) 8.05, 29min in
GABRIEL: Carl told us about your wives. The women you pressure into marrying you?
NEGAN: Every one of those ladies made a choice.
(9) 8.12, 36mins in
RICK: You use people to bring you food, to sleep with you, to protect you.
(10) 11.22(?), ??mins in
EZEKIEL: Melting people’s faces with irons, coercing women into marrying you, slaughtering my own people. That shit I have not forgotten.
Now for some rambling. I’ve put it into sections as much as I can.
Did Negan sleep with his wives?
I sometimes see people say they don’t think Negan had sex with his wives at all but from these quotes we know that’s canonically not the case. He makes a comment to Carl about screwing his wives (4) and then mentions how he’s always wanted to screw multiple women (6), implying that now that he has multiple wives, that’s exactly what he does. And of course there’s Sherry’s pregnancy test (1), which is the most concrete proof of all.
I’m sure some people would say, ‘Well maybe he’s lying’ but I think, while it’s feasible that a character like Negan would lie about something to sound impressive or whatever, I think going down the ‘he’s lying’ road is a slippery slope and kind of just an easy way to explain away something you may not like. You could also say Sherry may have been cheating with Dwight which is why did the test and not because she had been sleeping with Negan but again, I don’t think that is implied anywhere so it’s, in my opinion, a dumb road to go down.
Consent
Negan makes it clear in a couple of scenes that consent is important and he has zero tolerance for rape. He tells Dwight he can get with one of his wives but only if they say yes (2) and there’s a scene I didn’t include in my quote list where he literally murders a guy for attempting to rape Sasha.
Did they choose to be his wives?
While Negan having a bunch of wives and making it so that being his wife makes life easier for you is morally questionable, there are multiple times where he says they’re there because they chose to be and not because he forces them to be. He tells Amber he doesn’t want anyone there if they don’t want to be there (5), and he tells Gabriel they all chose to be there (8). Frankie also tells Eugene that her and Tanya signed up to be his wives because it’s better for them (7).
I think Amber and Sherry’s cases are definitely where it’s the most morally messed up. With Amber, we know her options are either be Negan’s wife or let her mum die, as without being Negan’s wife she would have no way of getting meds her mum needs (7), and going by her interaction with Negan (5) and the fact she literally would rather die than be his wife (7), she’s clearly not happy. With Sherry, we know that the reason she agreed to be Negan's wife was to stop him from killing Dwight after they ran away. So while Negan is right about them technically having a choice, when the choices are be this man’s wife or let your mum/partner die, is there really a choice?
Which wives does Negan sleep with?
Since we know Negan sleeps with more than one of his wives (6), and we know his rules on consent (2), I think it’s fairly simple to deduce that while he definitely sleeps with some of his wives, he probably doesn’t sleep with all of them.
Amber clearly doesn’t like Negan at all and is only his wife because she wants meds for her mum so I don’t think she would ever be willing to have sex with him and since we know his rules on consent, I don’t think they ever sleep together.
In my opinion it’s fairly possible that he sleeps with Tanya and Frankie, which may seem ridiculous because of the fact they literally wanted him dead but I just get the vibe that they wouldn’t be against it despite their dislike of him. Their general attitude towards him, while they definitely hate him, is a lot more, idk, relaxed(?) than, say, Amber who is seemingly terrified of him, spends all her time drinking and is so unhappy with her situation that she wants to die. So yeah, I think it’s possible they would be down to sleep with him despite their feelings about him as a person.
Sherry is I think the only wife we know that he for sure has slept with (1) which I think is interesting and potentially messy because we know Negan’s rules on consent and we know that Sherry absolutely hates him and loves Dwight. So why would she say yes to sleeping with him?
Her attitude imo lies somewhere between Tanya/Frankie and Amber. She clearly hates him/the situation and gets out of there as soon as she can, but she doesn’t seem scared/broken in the same way Amber is. She gets on with things and in the scene where Negan talks to Amber about Amber’s cheating, Sherry seems kinda willing to stand up to Negan a bit and talk back to him. I find their dynamic interesting tbh.
With Sherry what it comes down to for me is the fact she loves Dwight. As far as we know, Tanya and Frankie don’t have partners who that can’t be with because of their marriage to Negan so them saying yes to sleeping with him isn’t as odd to me as Sherry saying yes, because I wouldn’t have thought she’d do that to Dwight. So that just makes me think that the reason she’s slept with Negan is out of fear or because she thought it would make Dwight’s life easier if Negan had that up on him, idk, something like that.
And also obviously, while imo it’s possible Tanya and Frankie would to sleep with Negan because they were okay with it, it is also a possibility that they would agree more out of compliance/fear rather than enthusiastic consent.
Amber remains the only wife that I for sure don’t think he would sleep with because of just how much of a mess she is and how Negan would be very aware that a yes from her would be a yes out of fear whereas with Tanya and Frankie (and also Sherry but like I said, the existence of Dwight makes it weird to me) seem like if they were saying yes out of compliance/fear, they would be able to keep it together and hide that they don’t really want to be sleeping with him.
There’s also at least two other wives that we know nothing about so I can’t say if I think he has slept with them or not. I’d just say that if he hasn’t sleep with Tanya or Frankie then he probably does sleep with those unnamed wives, because we know he has slept with multiple of his wives (6), with Sherry for sure being one of them.
Other Characters
Gabriel mentions Negan’s wives who he says Negan ‘pressures’ into marrying him. Negan corrects him and says they all have a choice (8). I do think in this case Gabriel is wrong here about the pressuring. There doesn’t seem to be any pressure/force to marry but like I said before, mainly with Amber and Sherry, it’s also not as simple as, ‘Yeah, they chose this and are happy to be married to him’.
The next instance is Rick saying Negan ‘uses people to sleep with him’ (9), which, yeah, depending on how you look at things, like which of his wives you think he sleeps with and if you think they say yes because they want to or because they are scared/feel like they have to, Rick is correct.
Rick obviously isn’t saying that because he has tons of insider info (like about who chose to be there, specifically which wives Negan sleeps with, etc), all he knows is what Carl told him which is probably just, ‘Negan has a room full of wives, he says he sleeps with multiple of them, they don’t all seem too happy to be there,’ so I wouldn’t take Rick’s comment as like, concrete proof that Negan sleeping with his wives is categorically him ‘using’ them, but yeah it makes sense why Rick would say that and I don’t think we can concretely say he’s wrong.
The third time we get a mention of Negan’s wives is after, from what I remember, nearly three full seasons of his wives not being brought up at all. Ezekiel calls him out for ‘coercing women into marrying him’ (10), which yeah, he’s not fully wrong about.
I think the use of the word ‘coerce’, meaning ‘the practice of persuading someone to do something by using force or threats’, really only comes into play for Sherry and Amber because when the choice is be Negan’s wife or let a person you love (Dwight, Amber’s mum) die, there isn’t really a choice and that, despite the fact Negan isn’t specifically saying to them as a threat, ‘If you don’t marry me, I will kill these people you love’, is still close enough to a threat to probably be considered coercion. There might be a better word to explain it because coercion doesn’t feel like it hits it quite right for me but idk, that’s the only word I have so.
Other than it’s made pretty clear that all wives have a choice and he doesn’t threaten to hurt them, they can leave if they want to. Sure, they would be going back to a not as good life, but their choosing to not be Negan’s wives, as far as we know, wouldn’t have as big consequences as it would for Sherry and Amber.
Redemption / How it was handled
If you personally cannot forgive Negan for the way he treated his wives then I think that’s fine but I do think it’s pretty shitty of people to condemn those who are able to forgive him and believe he’s been redeemed. It’s very clear through S9, 10 and 11 that he’s changed a lot from his days at the Sanctuary and in my opinion, while I do think his wives could/should have been brought up more and we should have seen him acknowledge that it was fucked up, he has been redeemed from it.
I kind of see the lack of mention as more of an issue with how the show handled his wives more than with Negan himself, which I know some people will say is me just trying to make the fault not lie on Negan which, if you think that then fine, but that’s not what I feel I’m doing.
S7/8 Negan is pretty clear and says multiple times that those women all have a choice while not acknowledging that for a couple of them, the choice is marriage or the death of a loved one. He also has a clear no rape policy but brags about sleeping with women who hate him and may not actually be happy to sleep with him.
I can and do believe that Negan has grown from those Sanctuary days but I think it was very cowardly of the show to not give us some scenes where Negan is talking to someone about how looking back he knows that agreeing to marry because the other option is death of a loved one is not a choice and then either make him state that he was lying about sleeping with his wives and maybe even go as far as to say the pregnancy test thing was to get a reaction out of Dwight or have it be true that he slept with some of his wives but idk, make it clear he knows that there was a awful power imbalance there and there’s not really a sure way of knowing if they said yes because they wanted to or because they were scared/felt like they had to.
In conclusion
I basically was figuring out my thoughts on this situation as I writing this post up and now that I’m at the end I think I’ve come to the conclusion that while I can see, and agree, that some of the wife stuff is very gross, I think people are sometimes dramatic about it but also the show doesn’t handle it in a very good way so I can see why people either don’t feel he was redeemed well or don’t feel he was redeemable at all. Because, in order to figure out my thoughts on it all, I’ve literally had to make this long ass post, and analyse the few moments we have to make sense of it all. It’s just a mess they could’ve avoided by either being clear somewhere in S9-11 that Negan recognises it was messed up or by just.. doing things differently from the start.
So yeah, I think because of the set up of being Negan’s wife meaning you have a better life, Negan coerced, for lack of a better word, a couple of his wives (Sherry, amber) into marriage because their worse life would have resulted in people they love dying. But for wives like Tanya and Frankie, I don’t think he coerced them.
and in terms of redemption, I believe he is redeemed because I think from the way his character is now, there's no way he would do something like that again but I do think it was a misstep on the show’s part to not make it clear that he not only wouldn’t do that stuff again but also sees that it was wrong to do in the first place and he doesn’t have that same ‘well they mde their choice’ mindset as he did in the past.
Feel free to send me asks or whatever about this post, I’m down to hear if you agree, have more to add or want to share your POV, but, yknow, I know this topic is a rough one within the fandom so try and do so without being nasty idk
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I love your writing so I have a headcanon I would love SOOO much! Thank you for your time. SO. Y/n has a mermaid quirk where they turn into a mermaid when they touch water. The problem? Their tail is made of gold. And LOV and other villains always try to track her down for money. She gets caught in a trap and is stuck in water and is crying and Izuku comes save them. He offers that they move into his dorm to hide while he tutors them for education and they fall love.
— His Secret
Izuku x reader
TW: None
Note: I wasn't sure exactly how you wanted this, so I wrote it to where the reader is essentially just hiding out and living in his room with him, I hope that's okay😭🤞🏾 enjoy love💖
⇶ You struggled for what felt like an eternity to get out of the trap, all to no avail as it was too tight around your tail
⇶ You screamed for help, knowing your cries would be drowned out under all the water
⇶ You were starting to give up, accepting your fate that you'd stay down there until you eventually met your demise
⇶ Until you saw a boy with green hair and freckles, dive into the water
⇶ He seemed to be unaware of you, until you desperately called out to him, making him immediately swim down with no hesitation
⇶ He quickly freed you from the trap, and hauled you from the water as you thanked him over and over
⇶ He looked over you for any extra injuries besides the one from the trap
⇶ The boy offers to take you back to his school, UA or even the nearest hospital for treatment, only for you to say no
⇶ Naturally, he asks why and you briefly explain your situation to him
⇶ He agrees to not say anything to anyone, but he couldn't just leave you. So he takes you back to his campus where he dries you off and treats your wounds as best as possible
⇶ Of course, after drying you off he pieces together how your quirk works, but before he starts analyzing, he went to tend to the wounds on your legs, still bloodied and open from the trap
"By the way," The green haired boy started, has he secured the bandages on your leg. "We never got each other's names. I'm Izuku Midoriya, and you are...?"
"I'm Y/n L/n." You told him. He smiled up at you, and gently tapped your leg to let you know that he was finished.
"So, Y/n, you said you don't have anywhere you can go right?" Izuku asked you.
"No, not really. But I could find somewhere if it's too much trouble for you, you already saved me so it's the least I could–"
"Oh, no no!" He interrupted you, and began to correct himself. "I meant that, y'know... if you really need to I could keep you here. You could just stay in my room! And even if someone did find you, I think people would be understanding."
The 'think' part of his sentence concerned both of you. But, your options were more than narrow. And, staying with him was probably safer than hiding out somewhere in the city.
⇶ You agreed to stay with him, and you both began to formulate plans on how exactly you'd stay hidden during your time with him
⇶ Of course, you couldn't leave the room. You couldn't open the door for anyone, especially since he had a key to his own room. But on any occasion that he didn't, the two of you came up with a special knock
⇶ Fortunately, during school hours you were able to roam mostly free from the room, and could go to the bathroom and washroom. But outside of school, you normally had to wait till night time when most people were asleep.
⇶ After getting the hang of how to stay hidden but still be able to do the things you need to do, Izuku proposed studying to you
"Well, you're my age right? You've talked about school before too, so, maybe you could study some. Y'know, so you don't get behind in school and your situation can feel a little more normal?"
⇶ Since you had been around him for a few weeks now, it didn't surprise you that Izuku kept all the journals he used while in school
⇶ And of course, they were detailed and organized, so even harder concepts were pretty easy for you to understand
⇶He became your tutor in a way, explaining concepts that you couldnt quite grasp and even giving you more examples than what was just in his journals
⇶ And sometimes when the two of you were bored, he'd use his old quizzes to quiz you
⇶ Maybe it was because you were spending all this time with him, or even because he was the only person you were spending time with, but eventually you saw him in a light that wasn't just what was essentially your caretaker
⇶ Day by day, you grew all too aware of his breath fanning over you, and his curls brushing your face as he leaned over your shoulder to explain a math equation to you
⇶ Or how he'd find ways to keep you from feeling like you were trapped in the four walls of his room
⇶ Or how he'd consistently bring you any food that you mentioned you liked even a little
⇶ And not to mention how since you were forced to sleep in the same bed, the way he'd often drape a heavy, toned arm over you in his sleep, tugging you towards him in his unaware state
⇶ And the more you acknowledged it, the more it drove you insane
⇶ But, despite you feeling like you were too aware of it for your own good, the fact that Izuku was being driven just as insane was unbeknownst to you
⇶ Your scent flooded his nose in the best way possible everytime he leaned in to help you on your makeshift school work, and he could swear he's never smelt anything better
⇶ And though he felt terrible that you had to be holed up in his room all the time, being able to come back to you at the end of everyday was something he'd never get tired of
⇶ Oh, and of course there was the way he'd end up getting himself flustered, waking up in the morning to find you, snug against his chest, sleeping soundly
⇶ His arm was usually draped over you, keeping you there, and most times Izuku honestly didn't want to let go
⇶ But there were other occasions where he'd find you clinging to him on your own, and he almost felt sad when he had to gently pry your hands off of him
⇶ Over time, your relationship did grow into something more
"Y/n, I'm back." Izuku announced, after shutting the door.
"Welcome back, Izu." You told him, moving your attention from the TV to him.
He walked up and smiled down at you, before bending down and planting a kiss on your cheek.
"How was your day, love?"
⇶ You both looked forward to the 'welcome home kisses' at the end of day
⇶ And after you had caught up on all the work he had given you, your study sessions were spen together, usually curled up on his bed under a blanket or you sitting on his lap while at his desk
⇶ Izuku and you also became a bit reckless with staying hidden
⇶ Since his dorm was on the second floor sometimes the two of you would carefully come down from his balcony and walk around campus a bit
⇶ But, you'd have to have a hoodie on, and cover your face and walk with your head down since there were cameras around
⇶ But you never complained, especially since they were normally his hoodies
⇶You almost got caught on a few occasions, but were quick to either head back to Heights Alliance or come up with a lie
⇶ Now that the two of you were together, Izuku felt increasingly bad about having you in his dorm most of the time, even if you were there voluntarily
⇶ You assured him that it was fine, since this was probably as best as your situation could get, and he was making it all the more better for you
⇶ Of course, the routine did get tiresome most days, but when you were able to spend time with him when he was done with classes, there was never a dull moment
⇶ In a way, you were a bit of his secret, and as much as he would love to be able to parade you around campus, he was happy to have you at all
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