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moonit3 · 3 days

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yandere x fem reader whos super chill about being kidnapped. it goes a little something like

"im sorry, you wont get to see your friends or family ever again, all you need is me"

"...kay. you got any snacks down here?"

a chill reader? damn, i wish i could be like that…

ᯓᡣ𐭩 yanderes with a chill! reader

➽ context warnings: yandere themes (of course), past kidnapping, mentioned manipulation, gn! reader, female clothing in adeline part, rope (but not much).

➽ word count: around 680.

➽ synopsis: after realizing you won’t escape, the yandere seems happier with it.

➽ yandere! multi x reader

➽ a/n: so you haven’t specified which yandere you would like me to write, so i picked three: max, leonard and adeline as i wasn’t in the mood to create a whole new character for this one. also shoutout to @.cafekitsune for the amazing heart divider used in this post! enjoy the headcanons my dear readers! an even isn’t speak out loud, the reader is gn! in max part, m! in leonard and f! in adeline part.

MAX

➽ the walls are too thin at his place and his failed attempt to wrap your limbs to the headboard made him think that you are going to leave soon, especially after he almost forget to close the door before leaving to work. max knows he is a lost cause in trying making to stay at his apartment without escaping, but the important part is that he is trying his best.

➽ so imagine his face when he came back home to see you sitting at the couch watching some movie. he almost passed out right there, it was like he saw a ghost instead of you. he could only stutter when trying (and failing) to reprimand you into submission and when max realized that he couldn’t do much about it, he just sat next to you to watch the rest of the movie.

➽ initially, he felt like a disappointment when seeing that you easily got off from the many ropes and chains that he placed you on the bed (maybe he shouldn’t have skipped the knot class when he was a scout). however, he is extremely happy that you haven’t left him when you could easily have done when he was away.

➽ knowing that you won’t leave him, max asked if you would like to continue with your college education as long you move to his place. of course, you accepted it and a big smile grown so big at his lips. he is so happy with the love of his live living with him and he can’t wait to show you off to everyone at college.

LEONARD

➽ the security system that he has at his manor is deadly. cameras all over the place to watch you, motion sensors to catch the slightest movement of you and the highest walls around the property to prevent you from leave. leonard wasn’t playing around when making all those security measures to keep you inside, even hiring guards to stay at the entrance as an extra protection.

➽ he knows that you don’t have any chance to escape from him, leonard would torment you if you dare to voice your concerns about it. instead, you appear as you don’t care about being trapped inside his manor. in matter of fact, you are enjoying your time inside.

➽ taking long bath full of bubbles at the jacuzzi in the main suite, eating the unique meal made by his personal chefs and even requesting if he can afford your old hobbies now that you have time to do anything. and of course he can’t deny your wishes.

➽ gifting you the best supplies to help you with that hobby of yours in exchange that he will join you. leonard is wants to learn more about you and spending time doing something that you enjoy is a bonus to him.

ADELINE

➽ she dreamed of seeing you acting so sweetly and so relaxed after being taken away of society, but adeline never expected to see it happening in real life. so she becomes suspicious when you show no sign of reluctance nor fear when she tells you won’t leave her place anytime soon.

➽ now that you live under her roof, adeline makes sure to make sure to everyone who either works there or visit her that you belong to her only. now you only get to wear those dresses made of silk when someone comes over to discuss business with adeline and she always makes you wear those that have a split on the side. alternatively, if you prefer wearing pants over dresses, then she makes you silk pants and long sleeve shirt that often match her dresses always.

➽ and when there is no one around, she makes you wear the most expensive set of lingeries that she buys for you or the most comfortable nightgowns depending on your preferences. either way, adeline will make you pose for a few photos to her personal collection. one that contains pictures of you dating back to months prior you have known her…

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thedemonsurfer · 2 days

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Not me making myself sad thinking about Ruin qq

Im just! He never got a chance! He spent 50 years in his own dimension just trying to survive, not draw attention to himself while he worked on his plans to not just get rid of his Creator, but all Creators that were going to be problems.

And then he gets to 'our' dimension, and while this can't be the ONLY time he's ever had the chance to have allies, it's certainly his Best chance. Especially when they don't kill him! They 'cure' him instead! Surely there's hope!

And then it doesn't

Go

Anywhere

He lived as an ally for 3 months before anyone bothered getting him repaired. He was an afterthought, an awkward annoyance.

And everyone puts such great emphasis on how they didn't trust Ruin-- but I don't think he ever was given a reason to trust THEM. And whatever tolerance or hope he had for finding allies, maybe even friends, went out the window when Moon demanded to pick through his head.

How fucked up is it, knowing you have to corrupt most of your own mind to hide your tracks, because this person for sure will never be an ally? That any hope of being able to get their help in your plan, an effective yet terrible plan, has been completely dashed?

That you're as alone now as you have been for your entire life?

There had to have been alternatives. Maybe if the home crew had been more accepting, if Ruin had gotten access to different perspectives and resources and ideas, maybe an alternative could have been found.

But those things were never an option for him. And of course he stuck with the plan even if it meant Solar would die too-- sacrificing all dimensions for the sake of one person who was only kind of nice to you is a stupid thing to do if you've gotten this far.

(Man it must have hurt to hear Solar's last comment about him be "I guess we should have killed him". Like Ruin was an afterthought of some kind, not even worth addressing directly. Solar might as well have said "I guess I shouldn't have ordered the sushi".)

And yeah i know I'm just a major sucker for accepting punishment gracefully, of the fact that he knows his actions are unforgivable and hasn't tried to argue for any reasons why he shouldn't die-- the most he's said is a small plea that his death is painless, but even then he's resigned himself to suffering. He just wants to help. He's Moon's savior complex and Sun's unshakeable focus smashed together into one.

I know in the show either he's going to sacrifice himself to help, or someone like a Creator will kill him. I don't see him acting as a direct enough threat to justify letting the good guys kill him (congrats Eclipse you graduated to good guy for this).

But man.... I just really want to see someone have been nice to him. For Moon to forgive him somehow, maybe after Solar is back? I wish he could be pulled out of the pit he's in, because there's no light at all for him right now 8(

But I guess that comes with being an Eclipse. There's no hope for you, you're just.... screwed on whatever path you end up on.

#tsams #the sun and moon show #tsams Ruin #LOOK I GOT FEELINGS HERE #comments about how you 'Hate Ruin and hope he suffers' will be ignored go make your own post

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lovebvni · 16 hours

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this community is toxic.

im not kidding. i’ve been in the shifting community since 2020? it has become more and more toxic over time.

first it was with race, then the process of shifting as a whole, now with age and consciousness.

we don’t all i share the same beliefs, i know, but can we at least respect each others opinions and not try to make age such a big topic of debate?

i didn’t want to ever have to say this, but i’m 16. i never wanted to come out with my age, or anything. this blog was an anonymous place for me — where i could simply be a being.

in this reality i’m 16. in my mha reality im 14. in my royalty dr i am 15. in my spiderverse dr, i’m 15.

and i have many MANY more realities,

combined that means i’m 60. my conscious soul age is in my 30’s.

i have not lived that long, but i know just because in my main dr, my soulmate is 15 doesn’t make me a predator because my soul age is ~36.

and im tired of the argument that it is.

once u guys begin to understand that we have a soul/conscienceness then you will understand that aging down or up doesn’t matter.

im just tired of the community policing people and not truly understanding.

now i wish you all the best, but i genuinely think i need a break. it’s becoming too toxic for me to develop and grow here.

i’ll try to keep in touch with my friends, but truly, i need a detox.

be kind, safe, and open to everything.

i love you all

xoxo, abyss.

edit : i’m also deleting all asks to do with my personal life bc why r people telling me i like sex and if i’m poly or not?? 😭😭 i’ll share what i want to share when i want to share it.

keep asking dumb shit like this, i’ll close my asks or deactivate my blog x

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lee-doesnt-knoww · 3 days

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Best Friends- Yeonjun pt.1

warnings: nickname (sweetheart, angel, princess, love),bsfs in denial, fluff(+smut coming in pt 2), reader loves being spoiled, rich!yj

a/n: first part of the yj ffc, hope you'll enjoy <3

You were laying on his bed as your best friend, Yeonjun played games, scrolling away on your phone and occasionally checking up on him as he complained about his teammates.

After some time has passed, you got hungry and decided to go eat something, walking up to him, you asked while standing next to him "I'll go make some food, you want anything jun?" he responded as he took off one of his headphones, pulling it to the side to hear you better "yeah, want me to order you something princess?" he looked at you from the side of his eye, an eyebrow raised. You were in his apartment after all, he had to treat you good.

"I'll order then, pizza?" you said as he focused back on his game "pay with my card sweetheart, treat yourself, get anything you'd like". As he said this, you smiled and leaned down to kiss his cheek "thanks junnie, I'll make sure to put it to good use" as you pulled away, you had grabbed his wallet from the desk, sorting out his card and placing the wallet back on the desk.

You walked back to his bed, laying down on your stomach, smelling his scent on the sheets. You ordered pizzas and went to different applications to order clothes, a bit of everything really, you just loved getting spoiled by him. You thought about making him a haul once everything came in, making yourself oh so pretty for him- but *hey wait! I shouldn't be thinking about that, he's my best friend...*.

You got back to reality when Yeonjun layed down beside you, he had just gone off his games and came to see what you were buying, happy to spoil you as if you were his girl. "what you got there, angel? gonna show off those pretty outfit of yours?" he asked with a smirk, unaware of what was going through your head. You handed him your phone so he could see what you had picked in your wishlist of every other app. "yeah, I'm sooo impatient to make you a haul, junnie. Thanks again really" you thanked him as you pulled him into a side hug, rolling onto your side to lay your head on his shoulder.

His head layed down on yours, keeping you close to him as he bought you everything you wanted. Being his best friend was amazing, even though you often wish you were more, you were glad to have him. He had gotten you out of many uncomfortable situations, always had been here for you and always helped you out when you needed it. You really were lucky, you thought.

You stopped daydreaming when the bell rang, after Yeonjun scrolled for at least 15 minutes on your phone, which seemed an eternity for you to think. You both got up and he opened the door, handing you the bag as he paid. You walked to his living room and placed the bag on the coffee table, sitting down on the couch, waiting for Yeonjun to get back.

You were done eating about the middle of the movie, getting up to clean your trashes as Yeonjun grabbed your wrist and sat you down, got up and said "let me do it, just enjoy the movie love, im the host, aren't I?" he cleaned everything and came back shortly after.

Once he came back, he sat down next to you, his arm wrapped around your shoulders as you cuddled.

#fem reader #smut #x reader #txt #artists on tumblr #tomorrow x together #artwork #choi yeonjun #yeonjun smut #yeonjun #smut requests #fanfic #fluff #txt post

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queertemporality · 5 months

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i have admitted a want and/or need. this is tantamount to admitting weakness. now i must go and fold my arms behind my back and contemplate the wall for the next six months

#post #i love this for me #i’ll be like ‘m-maybe we should hang out’ and then i have to go pretend I don’t have feelings for like 6 months #someone recently was like ‘it comes off like you don’t like people’ and im like huh wonder why that is #surely not my avoidant behaviors leading you to conclude that I don’t care #I do wish I could like um express literally anything without um wanting to crawl into a hole about it #like sorry! sorry I said that. I need to go become my father for a while. to cope. you know?#still obsessed with the way my one friend will be like ‘I love hanging out and talking to you’#and an hour later my brain will be like ‘she basically said she hates you and she never wants to see you again’#like can I live beyond the shadow of my mother

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moenmomentsthemoe-en · 2 months

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#tomorrow.....................#delete later #vent #more vent in tags (it gets heavy sorry)#it is like 4am and ik theres a rule that you should never trust what you feel about your life after 3am but i feel like this 24/7 WAHA #mann i #im so fucking scared that im not a good person or friend or anything im trying so hard #i dont know why i feel hurt by things i shouldnt feel hurt by and i dont know why i keep failing to do the things i want to do or #god it probably isnt right for me to vent. i think? i dont know honestly i dont know anything #i dont know anything #i have such amazing friends and people around me theyre good people #im so tired and am so very tempted to just delete this blog delete my socials and disappear off earth or just live as a husk by ignoring al #my emotions and incapabilities and stop bothering everyone #everything is so so confusing and everything has gone to shit around me but the people around me arent at fault theyre good people #it has to be that im not trying hard enough #god i have no idea if im a good person. i dont know if a good person has this much trouble and dumbassery #i am. an adult. 18. adult. i have to be #god i wish i could have an adult to help me out but its just. its just me. its a problem i made and surely only i can figure it out

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snixx · 30 days

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Do you have someone you talk to everyday? Except family

anon why are you trying to give me an existential crisis in the middle of the day:') also. bold of you to assume i talk to my family every day jsfhdkjghjk

#EVERY day every day? idts. i do not talk to my college friends at ALL when im home over the weekends #except rarely when they text me about assignments #but i guess i talk to them every day during the working week cause i meet them every day #i guess i talk to certain mutuals pretty much every day. i think ive talked to phobicule almost every day this week #shoutout to hana and rafaela i think the past couple months ive been talking to them pretty much every day #i USED to have someone id talk to every single day even when we hadnt lived in the same city since elementary school but #that's a different story. she sucks #and i dont think we've been friends let alone best friends in like eight months now #and there were a couple of other people id talk to every day and we still do talk and i still love them as much obviously #but im just constantly drained and overworked so not EVERY day #and there are some people i wish i could talk to more but somehow have even less time and energy than i do #but i dont think we're any less close than we used to be because of that. life's just hectic we're still a call away #anon (derogatory)#<- sorry:')#im assuming you saw my college post and i dont really get why youd send this lol

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hedestroyedherimage · 5 months

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another question for americans who follow me because I'm so curious. you guys live with your friends when you're at uni/college right? like the uni will provide accommodation with people you dont know for your first year, and then you move into private housing with your friends after that?

#this is how it works in england and i assume the US too #but the amount of posts i see wishing that you could live with your friends makes me confused #like i know im at uni and having housemates like this probably becomes weirder later in life #but i live with 6 of my friends and its the best ever

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watch-out-it-bites · 4 months

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I believe I deserve a sweet little treat [He has done nothing important for the past week]

#i am so fucked #don't let them see this!#i could always go to the kitchen - Above the fridge ;-)#siiigh to have things i enjoy. the worst. ever.#i really dont wanna be god im so fucked but im so tired. and i dont want to be yelled at but i dont want to do anything #i feel like just. lying down and not getting back up. nap time. oreverrrr #i really wish i could live carefree doing whatever #guh. is it even worth it to try?#im just going to end up all. eugh.#sure. it was great last year. but uhghfhfhg so quiet and so hard and so. bluh.#i really dont wanna wake up on monday #so stressful all the time #im either stressed but enjoying and spending time with friends or stressed and alone but people are proud of me #maybe we should cut off interests for a while - it could fix hims stuff.#i wish i could focus #i dont know why so hard recently #uhhhghĥhhhhhhh #i dont think i deserve to sleep but im so tired but i need to work on things #god i want to kill myself - you can't!! youve taken too many vows to die now

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astro-gnome · 6 days

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;_;

#drining alone at the pub rn looking at old ayrton posts on tumblr.edu has me deep in some sad feelings #how tf can you miss a man you never even met? a man who was WORLDS removed from you??#i was only a poor child not even 9 years old yet when he died #living in rural america #and yet i miss him like i miss an old friend #or like im mourning a lost lover #i never knew him in this lifetime. but i wish i could have.......#he really was a special person whether you were a fan of him or not #or at least he feels that way to me

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skitskatdacat63 · 24 days

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#I wish you could send people a survey every month #like 'do you still like me' 'are you growing tired of me' 'am i too annoying'#i feel like deep down i know my friends like me #but i get wound up so often just questioning every interaction #and over analyzing it till it makes me feel ill #you can have a convo and it wont be the best most perfect convo in the world every time #yeah thats how it works!#but i start overthinking every thing and its so hard to rationalize myself #EVEN THOUGH I HAVE NO REASON TO THINK THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE #god i hate this #i wish i could remove the ability of self introspection #why must i question every interaction and run in circles making myself think im living in some world where i am hated and disgust people #ah man being alone at home is not good for me #i dont hate to be alone but i have too much time to think and its very dangerous #its bad bcs like i dont want to question people #like if i found out a friend thought i was losing interest in them id be so sad!#but it's impossible to think from the other perspective #instead i just start making conspiracy theories to myself abt how i am detested actually #sry i think i go on this rant every month #im lonely :(#catie.rambling.txt

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biteapple · 3 months

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the perspective of looking at new jersey apartments again makes me glad im living where im at now, honestly ... ^^ ''

#i SO wish i could hop over there though ... the price of living is SOOO high and the pay doesnt match even a little #its bad everywhere .. but new jersey's got a special kind of sickness like that because of its nyc proximity #everyone lives there and commutes to the city like 1.5hrs away for the better pay . but i just lived there lol #i feel like compared to here everything in jersey's tinged an ''old'' way ..#i dont know how to describe it but EVERYTHING from the stores to the apartments has a ''grandma's house'' feel #a ''hasn't been updated in 40+ years'' feel #and austin's so new and booming. apparently. but i agree it doesnt have that old tinge to it #the apartment im living in isnt new. but it isnt old either. it doesnt have the feel to it #i thought it was just nostalgia speaking but looking at nj apartments today was like. oh wow. its nice to know im not going crazy #this same apartment in nj would be SO SO SO much more expensive. people here complain about prices (they SHOULD. its bad)#but looking at where i was and why i HAD to move elsewhere .. i remember now yknow. this place is a luxury i could never have had in nj #which doesnt mean its good. its sad. i wish things were different. i DO .. sort of .. wish i never moved out here to begin with #but im glad im here. i feel like ... you know when a hero goes on a quest and makes friends along the way and then .. doesnt return home ..#even though the quest was supposed to be a transitory period .. yknow .. maybe im just home now #atleast awhile longer. im happy calling here home awhile longer #i do kinda miss that old tinge to it. i always said everything in nj was like .. ''tinged yellow '' .. and it really is. yknow.#i just need to put some antiques and lighting into my apartment. lol. feels just like home

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yukinyaminyato · 10 months

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day no. ? of immense anxiety: start

#i feel so bad lately.... i just wanna go home for even a couple of days but i kinda can't. no point with the prices of plane tickets.#me two weeks ago: i don't wanna go home yet. me now: god i wish i could go home soon #idk it's like im constantly abt to cry #and scared of everything. month will go by quick right i can handle it right #i have italian friends here but idk i still have these persistent feelings that i don't belong anywhere and it's the worst #you know the tiny monster living in the back of your head telling that everyone secretly doesn't like u and just tolerates u? yeah.#idk what i would do in finland either but i miss finnish summer. didn't think i'd ever say that but i really do.#maybe i just need a hug. im so touchstarved. the last time someone hugged me was over a month ago when mom visited.#my posts

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doperel · 4 months

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ventie in tags

#isnt that really wonderful having a major surgery that greatly effects your physical and mental health tomorrow and literally almost none of #your friends say anything about it to you #in the main server i talk in wirh just friends they literally didnt even respond #and went straight to talking about their lives #fucking thanks guys really making me feel seen and listened to #ive gotten more messages from my old guildmates on wow wishing me luck for surgery than i have any of my friends #and thats fucking 3 messagss #it really really huets and makes me super upset #i have literally had a fucking countdown going for this that multiple people have seen and still nothing #it honestly feels like a majority of the people i talk to could care less considering #none of them talk to me unless i initiate a conversation #i feel incredibly alone with this and i just want someone to talk to thatll listen to me #i cant even fucking get into any support groups near me because theyre all fucking dead links or dont exist anymore #endometriosis has been the most isolating experience of my life #i just want somebody to talk to thats it #im miserably lonely and i hate it #and im getting to be more and more angry and bitter about it because of the lack of care i recieve from #people who i consider friends #ever since i first got endo my friends have dwindled in number so much #if its not fucking me making the plans and going out people just do not fucking care #and the fucking people i was close with ended up using me for fucking sex and making me their therapist while dealinf with this #it feels a lot like people dont want me unless they can date me or i pay to do things with them #i legit feel like the last crumbs in the bowl

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transbee · 7 months

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having did and being online in any capacity is so fucking exhausting because you literally can't go anywhere without seeing the most heinous takes about your existence or validity it's like. can we be normal. can we please be normal and Chill for like two seconds.

#HEADS UP: this accidentally turned into a huge rant/vent feel free to get the hell out el oh el #i try reallly hard not to talk about it too much here because you can. offhandedly mention the mere concept of did or osdd or any #dissociative disorder and its like. people will not shut up about how its not real or how its people being delusional or kids being cringe #like. can we go. two seconds without treating people with mental disorders like a spectacle. please. you dont have to have a ''take'' on it #idk and i also avoid online did communities bc theyre the most exhausting spaces you can ever be in and theres constant fighting about #literally anything and everything. like. maybe i would like to find a space to meet other people with similar experiences to my own.#and we dont get that!! we literally cannot get that. and this goes for a lot of mental health related stuff but like my god #and im very lucky to have other people i know in real life who also have did so i can in some amount have that support system (hah.)#but it is EXHAUSTINGG that people cannot go literally a day without saying something stupid about systems #or i can be following someone for years and unprompted they will saysomething heinous thing about did and hide it behind something like #get a load of how weird and cringey kids are getting online these days.#and CHRISTT thats a whole OTHER issue i REALLY dont wanna talk about because it has its own whole set of nuances but like jeeeesus #is it really so hard for people to grasp that brains when exposed to traumas at a young age will be affected by it in weird ways.#idk man ive been seeing a lot of offhanded disregard for systems recently and it's so normalized and it's starting to get to me i guess #i wish people could just go well this is something i dont understand and dont need to have an opinion on and move on with their lives.#what the hell ever this is all to say having did has impacted my life in a lot of complicated and intricate and hard to explain ways and it #sometimes painful and awful but other times is an incredible experience and ALSO. most IMPORTANTLY !#i should be able to make jokes about BEING FRIENDS with SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG!! in REAL LIFE!!!#and not have to deal with SUICIDE BAIT IN MY INBOXX BECAUSE OF IT!!!#WHATEVERRR !!! RANT OVARRR I HAVE NOODLES TO MAKE AND EAT #.... WITH my friend SHADOW!!!#.txt #and btw this isnt about anyone ik here so dont worry im not upset with any mutuals etc etc and all that.#in fact i love getting the chance to chat about it n it can be fun to teach stuff to people who know how to like...be normal about it LOL #<3

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girl-bateman · 5 months

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Crazy how many kids grow up afraid that someone else will find out abt their parents substance abuse issues when it is something that literally affects 1 in 8 families.

Crazy how many kids grow up feeling lonely and misunderstood while there are likely several other kids in their class going through the same thing.

Crazy how many kids grow up isolating themselves and lying to others for the protection and comfort of parents whose job it should be to protect them.

#obviously this is somewhat generalising bc everyone handles substance abuse differently #but for every single person ive spoken to whos been through the same thing i have growing up #the statements above have been painfully accurate #anyway it makes me so profoundly sad thinking abt how much energy i wasted constructing a world of lies to protect my dad #which like ? protecting him from what? the judgement of my friends? i think he can live with that #i was so embarrassed abt it when i was a kid- i thought the whole world would fall apart if ppl found out #but like why? that shit has nothing to do with me. he embarasses himself. im not to blame for his actions #i remember doing a school project in 8th grade and my friend made a joke like 'dont worry my parents arent alcoholics'#and this boy was like 'no. dont worry. my dad is an alcoholic so i dont judge you'#and im still not sure if he was joking too ? but it didnt feel like a joke #but i still wish i could have reached out and said something. or just acknowledge each other in some sort of shared pain #idk. i still think abt him #hope hes doing good. he was a sweet kid :) my mom rly liked his mom lol

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