#i have a headache now im tired

[anxiously-sidequesting]

Does anyone else in this fandom have those Autism™ Moments where you have like 80 different wizard posts you want to make and are bouncing around in your head like that windows screen loader thing at the Exact Same Time and each post requires like a nuclear bomb amount of energy and creativity that you don't have because,

#i litwrally have a headache from the things i want to say but cannot because im too lazy #another teen morganthe au post. a post expanding on the ceren bartleby child post. a post about something new i found out about malorn #and then a post EXPANDING on the malorn post. a post about nolan stormgate. a post about boris tallstaff. a post about malistaire #a poll about if dyvim has any rizz canonically or not #these are like all shitty ideas i have and i have no brain juice. the words are there but I Am Not #its great being mentally ill in wizard101 because theres so much lore and shit you can work with its so fun #but then i get tired from thinking too hard im like patrick star. yknow #yknow what fuckit im making that dyvim poll right the fuck now. stop me #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts

[darcyolsson]

sometimes I forget that I operate on significantly different energy levels than most ppl my age but I'm on holiday with my friends rn and these people they do SO MANY THINGS. and get this they do them EVERY DAY. madness. people live like this?

#literally have a headache from exhaustion rn and they were like lets go for drinks! #(they walked me back to the airbnb so i could go to bed and then they went. love them) #idk its easy to forget bc i mostly live a normal life bc i am very good at managing it but #whenever im able to do a direct comparison im always shocked 😭 #ill literally be reaching the 'physically sick' levels of tired and theyre like we should go climb a mountain 🫶 #personal #actually i say i live a normal life but i do not. i literally do not i forget that sometimes #what i mean is i survive day-to-day life most of the time. lets not get too enthusiastic now

[squarebracketsmileyface]

Hi, I keep coming back, but I got another song for you!! Life After Salem by Lil Nas X is so Jay to Alex, but you can even squeeze some Tim in there too!!

NEW SONG WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Okay you know the drill, shitty lyric analysis under the thingy so its all neat and tidy before BAM me spewing a bunch of bullshit about my favorite lil guys. Also this one goes off the rails cos i just finished it with a massive fuck off migraine, so it starts out all detailed then becomes "yes song good good" pretty much lol

You're so right tho, this song is so Jay and Alex.

All of my feelings are gone I left 'em all on the floor Man, who's to blame if you don't love me no more? No, I don't mind, just take whatever you want

Shocker, Alex and Jay singing a duet.

To me the first two lines would be sung by Jay about him hiding his feelings for Alex back in college/uni, pretending he didn't like him or want to be in a relationship with him (beyond just their FWB relationship), pretending he wasn't in love with Alex for years despite knowing that he absolutely was. Probably those lines would be sung by Jay to Alex about their time in College, explaining what he tried to do with his feelings: "I left 'em all on the floor". Those lines would also probably be sung, like, after Alex has said all those nasty things to Jay in the kitchen? Somewhere around then. This is like a song for if they ever actually fucking talked to each other properly lmao.

The next line would be Alex's response, a sort of manipulative way of saying he understands why Jay doesn't trust him anymore, that he understands what he did and why it was cruel. But in that kinda "oh woe is me I'm just the worst" kinda way, yknow? Trying to make Jay go "no, you're not the worst, you're not evil, you just didn't think it's okay!" and give Alex another chance. There'd definitely be a certain level of sincerity as well though, because Alex really does realize that he was pretty damn shitty to Jay. He wants Jay not to love him anymore. He needs Jay not to love him anymore.

Then the last line is kinda both of them, but in different ways, like they'd sing it together but with completely different tones and it'd be so obvious that they're talking about different things. For Jay "No, I don't mind, just take whatever you want" is about how Alex just kinda took and took and took from him throughout their relationship, but it'd also be a kinda, like, good tone? Like Jay's convinced himself that he genuinely doesn't mind how much Alex has taken from him, he kind of likes the fact that he could give Alex that control over him etc? For Alex "No, I don't mind, just take whatever you want" would be a lot more bitter, he feels like Jay is the unreasonable one who just keep's taking, because he's taken Alex's heart (lmao cringe) and Alex was not ready to give it away to him.

Why don't you just take what you want from me? I think you should take what you want and leave Why don't you just take what you want from me? I think you should take what you want and leave

Alex. He wants Jay to have basically everything he's wanted out of their relationship just before he leaves and Alex makes sure that they don't see each other again. Jay gets to kiss Alex, they have sex in a bed, Jay sleeps over, they have breakfast together, etc.

(It is another day now and I have a headache. Thinking is hard, the rest of this is probably gonna be a mess im sorry lol.)

What you want from me? Yeah What you want from me? Yeah

Then just Jay not really knowing why Alex has changed and why he's doing all these nice things for him, so he's just sitting there trying to figure out what Alex wants from him in return for all these nice things. (the answer to that being: alex wants him heartbroken enough to save himself)

Get yourself an Adderall Then throw me up against the wall And kick me when I have to crawl Ooh, I love it when you show no love at all You know I can be your part-time lover Our scars, they'll dance with each other I can be your part-time lover Our scars, they'll dance with each other

Okay, hear me out, this bit's about their dynamic, shocker... even tho it makes it sound a lot more toxic and abusive than it actually was. They were both mostly happy with the dynamic and neither were trying to hurt each other. They just both kinda wanted it to be a romantic relationship when it wasn't, but Alex was scared of that, and Jay wasn't gonna push it for fear of losing what he already had so far. And he'd rather have that than nothing.

"Ooh, I love it when you show no love at all" at first i thought this bit would be Jay, but now that i think about it, it's Alex to me. He liked it when Jay didn't show him any love back in college, because it made it easier to ignore his own feelings for him.

Why don't you just take what you want from me? I think you should take what you want and leave Why don't you just take what you want from me? I think you should take what you want and leave

What you want from me? Yeah What you want from me? Yeah

You're changin' You're changin' every day You played me I let you win again You're changin' You're changin' every day And you're takin' You're takin' everything

They are in fact changing, yup. Probably Jay talking about Alex, Alex changed up their usual dynamic when they got back to his house, then it turned out that all the niceness was just a way to break Jay's heart even worse. He just got his feelings played with, and he didn't really do anything to stop it, because he liked how Alex was treating him too much. Which like, fair.

#Headache is now a migraine and this has sat in my inbox for far too long already. so im just posting it #GREAT SONG MY DUDE. I am simply tired. you can make up some very intelligent song analysis stuff and pretend I said it lol #I may have set myself up for failure by doing my lil lyric analysis things cos now im like #“if i dont do that i will have failed to show i like the song and appreciate being given it oh nooooooo” which is silly but whoops #marble hornets #jay merrick #alex kralie #jaylex #marble hornets fanfic #MH sorry its locked

[givemebackmypills]

#meeeeeeeeeeeee #I've been listening to aurora's live shows on repeat for five hours...love herrrrr #I needed to read two books by tomorrow (I did it!) but I'm so tired and my head hurts again......... #I write about my headaches so often sorryyyy hahahahaha #also i want to open comission but im sooooo scared (I've been saying that for a year now) #anyway!!!!!!!!!! #we have a lot of snow outside and that's the only thing I'm happy about right now #i love snow so muchhhh + I like to draw snow #I drew this after I played ep 5 lis2

[unexpectedbrickattack]

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#chattin #i am. so tired 😭 #i didnt even DO anything i think the act of just travelling made me extremely tired #i havent made any updates or art and im itchin to do something. but comms. and money 😭 #my bday was last wednesday and i did NOTHING heehee #i had some food from a seafood restaurant ive missed alot and some dunkin donuts #bc for some reason down south dunkin is just NOT that good #and im with my sister! which is nice :) #i havent really done anything else #tmi -> but my menstrual came very early this morning and i think it explains alot of the lethargy ive been experiencing #and the headaches 😭. so even tho i had intentions to finish comms LAST WEEKEND #i am just now starting to ‘recover’. i want these comms DONE im tired of lookin at them !!!!!!! #i wanna draw so much shit #waugh #and i wanna p rank some more levels #and make my sister play the game heehee #anyway #love yall mwah 💖 i will get to asks eventually when im less busy. i have some im eager to respond to but i wanna be in a good mindset- #-to answer them #AND #i want to draw piepoe on god this pink marshmallow chumby has been on my mind so often #im even considering making the fake peppi i drew a peppiclone oc instead of the canon desigb #*DESIGN #bc i have so many thoughts about my little (big) mans

[doodlboy]

Me thinkin springtrap was hot in 2016 is rlly comin back 2 bite me in the ass rn

#new followers im so fuckgin sorry its 1am dont listen to me #ANYWAY #not the suit the fan version were they made him an actual fucked up rabbit #but now the guy in the suit [Matthew Lillard] is hot too so fuck #listen. #listen #evil rabbit man hot #im so tired and i have a headache ignore thia whole post actually #elliot rambles #shitpost #fnaf

[jorvikzelda]

onlu have 1 out of 3 balls of yarn left on the brown & beige half of my crochet blanket and then i get to move on to the blue half but the first stripe of the blue half is just a slightly colder shade of white than the last stripe of the brown & beige half which is off white and I gotta crochet 3 full balls of yarn of that

#z talks #not horse game #I am having a ridiculously bad anxiety night and I was like. crochet will fix me. so now I'm working on my blankie #and changed into comfy clothes #still anxious as hell but at least I'm not on the verge of hyperventilating anymore #I've yawned twice and I'm starting to feel more tired than anxious that's usually a sign that the worst has passed i think #oh yeah. ohhh yeah. the headache is coming on. we're coming out of it folks B) #anyway blankie is going well. it is soothing #when im done i think i might order some more yarn and make a nice frilly border #thinking maybe some glittery yarn tbh

[apersonwholikeslotus]

so anyway diagnosing with google obviously isn't completely reliable but I need to find something that I can pull up to try to convince my dad to let me go to a doctor; and uh, I was reading about fibromyalgia? and it said it mostly diagnosed in adults but the symptoms typically start much earlier so i went "oh, i wonder when"

11-15.

The symptoms of fibromyalgia, all of which I have, typically start the same time all my stuff did.

Hm

Hmmmmmmmmmmm

#honestly by this point I could just wait until im 18 to go #but i'm just reading the symptoms and am having a moment of all of these together are an actual thing #the headaches and back pain and my terrible anxiety feeling so fucking tired all the time not matter how much i sleep #i don't know anything about doctors because my dad refuses to take us to them more than we absolutely have to #and I was always nervous to say anything at yearly checkups about my back bc my dad usually wrote it off as being not that bad #headaches have been contributed to my glasses being too heavy but even with the lense thinners and a lighter frame they haven't stopped #idk #i very well could be being dramatic #but i don't think i am? #apersonwhotalks #sorry i'll shut up now

[pepprs]

it’s yom kippur now and im not supposed to eat anything until sunset tomorrow but ive had a headache all day and rn its fucking SPLITTING but im 5 hours into the fast and i don’t know what to do. eating something would probably make me feel better but it’s yom kippur and i don’t have a longstanding ailment that would prohibit me from fasting or whatever it’s just i woke up with a headache that has gotten worse throughout the day and now the fast has started but it’s the worst it’s been all day. idk what to do. i need to eat something but i can’t

#purrs #i feel bad having any other thoughts other than like. atonement on this day but imso stressed i didn’t do my homework all weekend bc #yesterday i had horrible cramps and today i had a horrible headache and i was holding out for it to get better and it didn’t and now im #going to be in HELL fasting tomorrow bc not eating or drinking already *gives* me a headache idk what it’s going to be like when I already #have one and i can’t just take pain meds bc we don’t have any 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻 im absolutely fucking miserable #food #definitely not getting written in the book of life for saying this 😻✌️ but im so tired of there being a struggle every day. like every day s #something happens and i can’t make a decision that i know will be best for me because im scared of what others who are more powerful will #think. and in this specific instance it’s god and my mom. most of the time it’s just my mom. and im just so tired. i can never do what i #know is best for me because the timing is never right. lol #like can i please not have a horrible headache on the holiest day of the year when im not supposed to eat anything. can i please have a win. #anyway my homework is due tomorrow at 4:30 and ive done nothing to work on it at all whatsoever so i won’t even be able to observe the h #holiday anyway bc i’ll be doing that homework stressed and hungry and dealing with a horrible headache. can’t wait!

[silenthillbunni]

🖤👻🏰🩹

#sooooo i really can't stand living like this any longer. i'm going more and more insane each day and im losing hope and the will to live #i hate every single aspect of my life. and that's not just bc im negative or whatever. it's bc i have mental + physical health issues #i have chronic pain. i constantly keep having new health issues. headaches. muscle tensions. racing heart. heavy body and constantly tired #i dont sleep. i sleep 2 hours then wake up. sleep 2 more. repeat. my sisters havent talked to me this entire year. i have no friends #im poor and one by one all my things stops working and i cant afford to get new ones. i cant afford dental care. i have AWFUL posture #spend my whole life in my bed and my soul dies and rots day by day #ok i went on an unintended tangent. point is i have nothing in my life that works or is good. maybe a couple of things but thats not enough #i hate myself sm for being pathetic useless worthless stupid incapabable incompetent lazy avoidant #i cant keep going like this!!! i cant stand it + my mom is talking abt moving (w one of my sisters) so i literally cant keep being like this #my mom's tired of me and tells me to become independent. i hate myself for being 24 and still being a fkn child. but it scares me bc idk #how to be an adult???? i love my mom but she never really taught me how. and i had to be old when i was a kid so now im just stuck #this got too long guess i just needed to vent abt this >.<

[orcelito]

Omfg I never actually posted about this but just like 2 days ago I realized that no it is Not normal to experience lightheadedness near daily when I've gone just a little too long without eating

I looked it up and apparently lightheadedness/dizziness CAN be a part of fibromyalgia (which I think I have for a number of different reasons), so like. It all makes sense.

Fuckin fibromyalgia. It's the source of like 95% of my physical problems, I swear. Every Damn Thing can be traced back to it. What a pain.

#speculation nation #'what a pain' haha get it bc chronic pain #frankly speaking the chronic pain part of it isn't the Worst. it's only a few times a month that i get my arm and leg aches #(though sometimes ill have bouts that last longer. like in january i think when i had arm aches for over a Week) #then again my rib cartilage inflammation is a permanent thing. my ribs Always are fucked up. #and i dont know 100% that it's bc of fibro but this condition has been linked to fibro and it didnt go away with anti-inflammatories So #in the end the pain isnt my biggest concern for treating my fibro. aside from the frequent headaches. i Would like to counter those. #what i really need is help with my chronic fatigue and weakness spells #i hate how fragile i feel so much of the time. bc im NOT weak. for my size im actually surprisingly strong. #but im quick to tire and if i push myself too hard then im practically bedridden #i will literally get symptoms of sickness if im too fatigued. including nausea and coughing and headaches #all fixed after ive gotten some rest. so im not Actually sick. #im tired and fed up with how finicky my body is and how i have to eat on time always or i'll be threatened with passing out. #havent passed out Yet but ive had some times where i end up Having to sit bc i get tunnel vision and my scalp is prickling #and it feels like my brain is squeezing and i know i Have to sit down Right Now #idk. there are many things like this. and i am sooooo tired of it. #i want a fibro diagnosis so i can actually get some help for the things that make life so hard to live. #im not depressed im just chronically fatigued. and so very tired. #give me some Energizing Meds or smth. help me please 😭😭😭 i hate living like this 😭😭😭😭😭 #i wanna be able to do things without being bedridden for the rest of the day 😭😭😭😭 please 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[bsaka7]

just tried tailwind for the first time this is kinda gross but if it works i guess i can get behind it

#im so tired of this headache im literally trying anything #my mom is now telling me she's concerned about my headaches cuz i said i have them 40% of the time #i mean i ran 7mi so it's not like i don't need the recovery juice i just feel like SHITTTTTT #Tetrapod runs #Sort of

[intertexts-moving]

literally it is such a not good day. tbh.

#so fucking tired and i HATE sinus headaches and im stuck here for another hour now because we only have one car. #ugh.who give a shit dude atleast i have a kitycat curled up next 2 me im going to fucking. eat cookie dough icecream & reread #the nearest accessible percy jackson volume... -__- #txt

[screamingay]

i really do need a new job last night i sobbed for like 20 minutes straight after knocking over a bowl with a bit of old soup in it

#the stress is just. getting to me #all the little frustrations and inconveniences and decisions and circumstances have been adding up and like. i have a headache #i don't know what to eat. everyone needs me for something and i love them and i want to do things but im so tired #i never call out or come in late to work and i do what im supposed to do and i don't take lunch breaks because theres no time to #and i still make the same 15/h as everyone else and i still dont buy enough groceries because butter is four dollars a pound now #and whenever i buy meat neither of us can prep it for the freezer before it goes bad. i barely get enough protein anymore #but im alive. yknow. im here and im still in love and i dont live with my parents. sometimes i dream the kitchen i work in gets shut down #and we all get fired and part of me is so relieved #im braver than i think most of the time but i dont wanna be. i wanna be a housecat. i wanna bake lemon bars and roast potatoes

[roses-and-elixir]

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#todays the first time in months that ive come back home from work and just cried #everythings been building up #and my chest feels so heavy #i just feel so bleugh #and now i have a headache too #honestly i feel like im shutting ppl away too and just 😔 #im so exhausted #so so tired

[skunkg1rll]

i get so tired talking to ppl :( i have to mask the entire time nd just.. pretend to be normal. nd today it was so hard to keep it up and i was so low energy. i hope she didnt notice it too much. i mean, she's not judgy abt that but i hve to be careful abt it bc ppl dont like me if i dont have anything to give skskksks. well. it wasnt all bad, it's always nice to just sit and talk to her for a while. she's a kind person plus she's not my mom or sisters sksksk.

#i am so tired now omgosh #that took me out completely #i took the tram met up w her. sat w her while she ate sushi #then we walked to the library nd sat and talked for a while #then i went to a store on my way home #everything took around 4.5hrs #and im exhausted!!!!!! and i have a headache #she had a psychology lecture after we hung out and im like #wow normal ppl live like that?? im so scared bc idk how i'll ever have a normal life