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yanderepuck · 10 months

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Ikevamp au where everything is the same except the suitor falls in love with you, but you hate them.

Imagine. An otome game, but you constantly turn down the guy.

Napoleons route: what makes you think I want to be your body guard?

You: what makes you think I want to be near a panty sniffer?

Napoleons route later: wait... I think I'm in love with her

You: why won't he leave me alone.

Wait why is this actually hilarious

Mozart's route: no one likes you and no one wants you here.

You: what makes you think I want to spend my time with a man who meowed at people?

Mozart's route later: so I actually really like your company

You: I've never enjoyed being around you for a moment after you called me a nuisance.

How would you expect me to fall in love with either of these two after they both tell me they want nothing to do with me. Please explain

Leonardo's route: I'm going to drag you around the city and have you help me with things

You: please just let me be depressed in the mansion

Leonardo's route later: I've really been enjoying our time together

You: please just let me be depressed in the mansion.

Just let her do her thing. She wants to go back home with no strings attached. Make sure she doesn't try to kill herself but please don't drag her along against her will.

Arthur's route: you're a pretty little thing

You: touch me and I will scream and bite you myself. Never speak to me. Don't even perceive me.

Arthur's route later: so it all started when I was a wee lad

You: didn't I tell you to stop acknowledging me? I'm not interested in your trauma. I didn't even know who wrote Sherlock until I got here

Let be real. Most of us didn't actually know. We knew Sherlock didn't write Sherlock but we didn't know it was some crazy fairy man.

Vincent's route: you're really sweet and I think we should be friends

You: yes. Friends is nice. You seem very nice

Vincent's route later: so..I..um...I want to be more than friends.

You: learn how to have a negative emotion and stop acting like being sad is a bad thing.

The boy is honestly toxic. He's going to invalidate your negative emotions I feel it.

Theo's route: hondje! You saw my scar and so now you're going to work for me!

You: shouldn't I be the one trying to blackmail you??

Theo's route later: you're actually a really good worker and have a good eye for art. I like you hondje

You: so you like capitalism? Am I even getting paid? I didn't travel through a door just to run around the city and sell art work

I'll never understand how it makes sense that Theo thinks he can make her do things bc he assumes she noticed some random ass scar. WHAT'S WRONG WITH EVERYTHING LEARNING YOU GOT SHOT. YOU DIDN'T COME FROM THE FUTURE. THEY CAN TECHNICALLY LOOK UP HOW YOU DIED.

Why did I have a hard time coming up with one for Isaac. Ik that boy is problematic but why am I having issues

Isaac's route: HOW DONT YOU KNOW ABOUT *insert very complicated scientific theory*

You: I went to public school my dude. Mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell

Isaac's route later: she's very kind and patient. Is this what love feels like??

You: IF HE COULD SHUT UP ABOUT HIS WORK FOR 5 SECONDS THAT WOULD BE GREAT

I know once I post this I'll think of a better one for Isaac. But oh well. Boy needs to let you talk about your day.

Dazai's route: you're so cute. I'm going to adopt you as my little sister

You: you're a little weird... But I guess this is okay

Dazai's route later: so I really like you, but I need to push you away and act like I don't care because it's what's best

You: I have been here for two weeks and you've tried to kill yourself 4 times. How did you think I could mentally handle that let alone want to date you, PLUS YOU KEEP CALLING ME YOUR LITTLE SISTER

He sibling zones you up until the very end. What kind of Alabama kink do you got going on, Dazai

Jean's route: I'm not sorry that I bit you. Don't talk to me, I don't want friends. No one understands me anyway.

You: if Comte doesn't beat your ass for biting me then I'll do it myself.

Jean's route later: I think I'm learning what love is. She's helped me with so much and I want to repay her

You: he bit me and never apologized or got in trouble. Why the hell would I ever be interested in him. He's treating life like a SURVIVAL GAME

I have many complaints about Jean. But my main one is the biting and him never getting in trouble for it bc he's the favorite child.

Will's route: you found and read my note book and now I have to keep an eye on you so you don't tell anyone that I'm using this information against them to possibly get them killed!

You: sooo...you aren't writing all of this because you have bad social skills and are just trying to better understand everyone because they are all from a vastly different time period than you? Thanks for telling me your plan.

Will's route later: so I've realized the error of my ways and I'm not going to do the deed any more and I hope you can forgive me

You: LET ME OUT OF THIS DAMN VILLA

Will became a little too obsessed. Oops

Comte's route: it is my fault that you are here, so I will protect you and take care of all your needs while you are here. You'll be the daughter I never had

You: thanks! I'll work around the mansion to pass the time and get to know everyone better

Comte's route later: I know I have pushed you away multiple times but I really love you and I want to spend centuries with you

You: I have seen how bad of a parent you are and I've picked up your dirty clothes off the floor I don't think this is going to work

Comte just keeps daughter zoning you and then is like "so I love you" IS THIS WHERE DAZAI GETS IT FROM.

Sebastian's route: every time you do something wrong I'm going to flick your forehead

You: do that one more time and I swear to God I'm slapping that grin off your face

Sebastian's route later: being with you is making me miss home and consider going back to our time. I would love to go back with you and spend our lives together back in Japan

You: there's so many reasons why this wouldn't work out and staying at the top: YOU TOOK SOME RANDOM PILLS SOME PRIEST GAVE YOU. Not to mention you didn't tell ANYONE you were dying

If you're gonna fall in love with me at least tell me you're going to die in a few months.

Also not going to do the trio in this moment. Oops sorry

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp napoleon #ikevamp mozart #ikevamp leonardo #ikevamp vincent #ikevamp theo #ikevamp arthur #ikevamp Isaac #ikevamp dazai #ikevamp jean #ikevamp shakespeare #ikevamp comte #ikevamp sebastian

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ceruleanwhore · 9 months

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Since I’ve seen so much Silvio hate since his route release, I wanted to take a minute to talk about why all 3 of the visiting foreign princes make me uncomfortable because I believe in equality. Please keep in mind that I am on a break from the ikepri app rn so I have not actually played Silvio’s route, though I did read a translation of it on here previously, but I’m going to try to avoid using stuff from that.

Starting with the man of the hour, first to be released, I’d sum up my feelings about his character as “eat the rich — literally not sexually ya numpty.” He is the embodiment of everything I’ve ever hated about capitalism and the 1% and genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, it would delight me to watch him die because of how he represents that. His jangling, the way he throws his money around (the fact he has, what, 10 billion for Rio to waste on a gem at auction in Rio’s route), and, most importantly, the complete lack of any apparent morality or humanity. He demands everyone respect him because of that money (respect as in deference that comes with authority) while he throws around his bullshit bootstrap rhetoric and refuses to treat anyone at all with respect (respect as in the basic human decency kind). There’s also a seriously sadistic streak in him and so it’s not enough to be a billionaire prince, he also has to take this random woman as his indentured servant and constantly upset her on purpose and demean her to punish her for someone else’s accident.

Next up is Gilbert who, to me, is just plain annoying more than anything else. He and Chev never really scared me or anything with all the violence since it’s super predictable with them, so that doesn’t really bother me, per se, but the way he’s a pushy little dick in social situations pisses me off and if I were Emma I’d be dead because I would’ve yelled at him within like 5 seconds of meeting him. The hell of it’s that he’s supposed to be this master manipulator but he doesn’t seem to even be all that good at manipulation since his is so ham-fisted, he’s just a pushy asshole. My thing with both him and Silvio is that I fucking hate money and I fucking hate authority and I believe that no one, including myself, should have it the way they do, and it makes me immensely angry to watch them use those things to abuse others.

Now, I saved Keith for last because he’s actually the worst of the three in my opinion and he genuinely scares the shit out of me, and not because he happens to have DID, but because of what sort of people main!Keith and alter!Keith are.

WARNING! MENTIONS OF VIOLENCE AND TRUE CRIME

Main!Keith just strikes me as being the kind of guy who would beat his gf and eventually kill her and, every time I see him, he reminds me of the Yellow Dress assembly my high school did about domestic abuse. He seems like the shy, insecure nerd who, in the early days, would worship the ground his gf walks on and just be so grateful that she decided to give him a chance, etc., until that turns into possessive jealousy over time, which then would feed into him isolating her, turning more violent, and then maybe killing her and hiding her body in the woods. Genuinely, the last event story I read with Keith made me INTENSELY uncomfortable from the very beginning because he had these vibes and I don’t know if I’ll be able to read his story because, in my head, Emma will already be dead, basically.

As for alter!Keith, he seems like the kind of guy who would literally be a serial killer, just going off the event stuff I’ve read, plus the second prologue and other act II routes. I could genuinely see him killing with no real rhyme or reason, unlike Chev and Gilbert who are so completely predictable. If main!Keith gives me true crime vibes in a OJ Simpson way, alter!Keith is more like a David Parker-Ray sort of true crime, and they both scare the living shit out of me. I can’t tell you how uncomfortable it is seeing so many people in the fandom talk about how much they love Keith and how nice and cute they think he is when, to me, he’s one of the scariest fictional characters I’ve ever encountered, mainly because I know he’s supposed to be a romantic lead in spite of everything I just said. Silvio and Gilbert would annoy me to death but Keith would do arts and crafts with my skin and hide my chopped-up body in the woods.

#ikemen prince #ikepri #ikeprince #ikepri critical #ikepri salt

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itsbansheebitch · 2 months

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Gen Zer's (2005) Predictions for Gen Alpha (They aren't Doomed)

I have some cousins that are Gen Alpha and they're turning out well. I really think all the "they're so doomed" messaging is from a loud minority, mostly on tiktok. I disagree, so I plan to make predictions for the vague & soupy (time) generation of Gen Alpha.

This list will focus on American Gen Alpha since there WILL be a stark contrast, especially regarding school shootings.

Average to EXTREME skill with tech depending on the kids (hope STEM is ready to welcome a new wave of newcomers)

Difficulties with history knowledge due to rewritten history books, (Please be kind while they learn, they don't know the full scope of what's going on yet)

Desensitized to violence (Due to usual kid stuff, school shootings being treated as normal, and an increase in hate crimes)

A new passion for social justice (I don't mean to be a "but I have black friends" kind of person, but believe it or not, having friends in minority groups and realizing they're in danger makes you want to fist fight whoever is at fault)

TONS of memes about the "Alpha" phrasing, which trust me, will get old QUICKLY. (A bigger stretch is saying the term for a shitty Gen Alpha kid will be Omega/Beta instead of Boomer)

Unusually violent jokes & memes

Extremely dark humor

A long list of child neglect lawsuits

An increase in accents homogeneity due to watching YouTubers at a young age (I'm not joking, this has happened to me and I only started watching YT in 2nd Grade. I have the weirdest Irish, British, and midwestern, but not the state I currently live in, accents on only CERTAIN words and phrases. There definitely will be studies on this.)

A new wave of kids fighting gerymandering

Brand New Shiny Raw LinesTM from the KiddosTM that they'll probably use to roast lawmakers until they start decomosing on the spot

Kids who are NOT afraid to fight you

New unseen levels of compassion

This is a stretch, but somehow they'll manage to bring back the avocado toast jokes, either as a banter thing or as a new "Boomer" type thing.

KiddosTM will probably joke about how Millennials ruined every industry from fabric softener to identity theft to robberies. This will be (hopefully) fully joking manner and used in a [Post kiddosTM disagree with] [Reply: Well, you ruined the fabric softener industry, so you don't have a leg to stand on] type format.

Will either share you their Social Security Number or will be a brick wall online. No in between.

A increase in reading (specifically fanfiction & audio books, but will NOT be void of physical copies) but a decrease in literacy & media literacy. We are already seeing this happening.

A "you didn't fix this/you fucked it up" attitude towards older people. This isn't necessarily negative since it means they won't take ANY shit from lawmakers and will probably not have as many hangups regarding rioting.

An absolute HATRED for family channels. I waiting for these kids to break the van life kids out in a bizarre scheme of epic proportions lmao

The most indecipherable controversies you've ever seen in your life. I'm thinking at least 5 levels of knowledge and joining a subreddit will be needed to even have an idea of what's happening.

(Hopefully) a new level of understanding when it comes to accountability, people changing, and knowing what you should expect from a person when they get cancelled.

Brand new political cartoons (now made for the internet)

A new passion for the environment and recognizing one's place in it.

A new level of hatred for colonialism and mass killings

Probably at least one assassination lmao (they'll be the barista from the tiktok about the barista killing CEOs with metal straws as darts)

A polarizing divide between anti-capitalism and ancap ideas that we haven't seen since 2008 (and not as publicly in 2008, so get ready for your shit to get rocked).

Some of the best and worst takes that humanity has ever bore witness to.

New acceptance (even better than now) regarding hair (dyes and styles), tattoos, piercings, etc.

A major crackdown on systematic issues (criticism when they're young, major law & education changes when they're older)

That's all for now. REMEMBER! Do NOT treat these kids like you were treated (LOOKING AT YOU, Ms. AVOCADO TOAST and Ms. DOWNFALL OF HUMANITY GAY-MER).

Side Note: People are always surprised when I tell them I was born in 2005 and have already graduated high school (no, I did not skip grades, I was actually very young for my grade) so I'm going to apologize ahead of time for turning all the Millennials reading this into dust. Sorry, ya'll.

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magicalgirlagency · 4 months

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Student Council in some animes:

- serious, powerful, scary, responsible, intimidating

- would probably kill you if you did something wrong

- do as they please on campus, invent rules for punishing the common students

- give themselves (and allies) *special privilege*

The oc student council that's also a Magical Girls team:

- "Our motto is Don't be a dick"

- "Hey, I know you've just done something agaisnt the rules but I'm busy so try to clean up and run away before the teachers came"

- "No worries, I'm not gonna rat you out to the adults. Ye I hate the school rules too"

- "I have no f*cking idea why these are forbid here so just do whatever you want, just don't hurt anybody"

- "Support Socialism my fellow students"

- "What are you looking at me for!? Finish the damn snack and run before you got caught!"

- "Would you believe me if I said we're magical girls? No? Cool, let me transform to prove it's actually true" *immediately transform*

- "We aren't magical girls 'cause we're a chill council, dude. We are the chillest council you've met because we fight monster on a daily basis"

- "I got a duck in my coat right now *pull out the mascot* do you wanna see her?"

- "CAPITALISM IS STEALING FROM YOU! JOIN US IN THE REVOLUTION!!!!"

- "what animal do you suggest I sneak into the school? No reasons, things are just boring these days"

- "Look, [protag], I know you support the same things as we do- NO, WE DO NOT SUPPORT TYRANNY YOU FREAKING GRANOLA BAR!"

- "I get that you want to change things for the better, [Protag]. But your way of doing so isn't as good as you think it is. Evolution doesn't happen overnight, it's a quiet and slow process. Blowing stuffs up and insulting the adults wouldn't have as much effect as silently helping the youth realize the truth"

- "Lad, we bailed you out of trouble like 50 times already. THAT is anarchy. Anarchy's not just chaos, it's doing things outside the rules to ensure those around don't get hurt."

Basically, after watching Kill La Kill, I got interested in creating a full magical girl student council. Add in some chaos and SOCIALISM, and they're finished.

Finally, the Student Council will be useful for something and avoid becoming mini-police officers.

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bird-likes-to-fandom · 5 months

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what is npmd? (know what it stands for I just mean what's it about) I keep seeing posts about it but they read like the original blurb post to me. just absolute simlish. such an interesting title though please enlighten me ?

cracks my knuckles.

hello, sep <33

Nerdy Prudes Must Die is a teen slasher horror comedy musical made by Team Starkid as part of their Hatchetfield Universe. It's the third installment musical wise, though theyve done a couple seasons of a show called "Nightmare Time" that takes place in the same universe. The previous two musical installments are The Guy Who Didn't Like Musicals, which is about a singing zombie-hivemind apocalypse and a guy who really hates musicals, and Black Friday, which is about a little doll slash ancient eldritch horror, American capitalism, and love.

Nerdy Prudes Must Die is about a group of nerds who accidentally kill their school bully, and he comes back as a fucked up poltergeist to kill them all. The only way to get rid of him is to make a deal with the little stuffed animal slash eldritch horror from Black Friday and his brothers, but it comes with a terrible price.

I think it's super good! The Hatchetfield musicals are so funny but also so heartbreaking <3

I would avoid them if you dislike stage (or descriptive, in the case of nightmare time) gore, sexual themes, and/or psychological horror, though.

#bird likes to perch on the mailbox #npmd #hatchetfield #my beloved besties #i think you'd like the nerds tbh

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g0rechan · 28 days

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741-741

That’s the number you gave me when I was posting similar things like your last post.

Use it.

I love you. Ik this sounds parasocial but idc. You’re my only friend. I have no friends irl and chatting and vibing with you online has got me through incredibly difficult times for me. I was so lonely and still am, I had strong urges to commit suicide but you got me through it.

Please, use it. You’re an incredible person who’s funny and pretty and creative.

Call me a parasocial bitch all you want but I really want you to get help.

I did, I did call that number. I cried so hard and -aside from the time my dog died- it was genuinely the first time I’ve cried in such a long time.

I’ve been in such a dark place for god knows how long. It’s been so damn stressful and insane. The only thing preventing me from killing myself is friends, my art, fashion, and the events I get to attend with people. I love hanging out with friends, it distracts me from all my worries and all the bad that I know about.

I didn’t start feeling this way until I had to start adulthood with no preparation whatsoever and worry about paying bills and break my back to put a payment on my car that shouldn’t even be that ridiculously high (seriously, fuck capitalism).

And my parents tell me that I need to get over it bc I’m an adult and that stress is a part of life and that I’m not mentally ill, I’m a spoiled brat. Like WTF?! Yeah ik life is stressful, but I’m not allowed to be stressed??

I’m sure they were just as stressful as I am when they started adulthood. Especially since my mom was a fucking teenager when she had me and had to work jobs while my father was attending night school at the time since he had to drop out to support his family.

Ig they just don’t remember? Or maybe because they’re both in the upper middle class quadrant that they feel like they’re so much better than people who are struggling- Yes, I still live with them but I can’t consider myself as part of their family with how fucking irritatingly unhelpful they are.

I wanna go back to who I was as a teenager. Not caring, loving everyone… not being the bitter, angry, vindictive bitch that I am now. Before I used to be so happy when others were happy, but now whenever I get a manic episode and I see, like, idk a rich person or rich and upper middle class kids who didn’t have to grow up in poverty like I did, I feel bitter. Like, physically. I can feel it building up inside me and spewing into my mouth.

And once I get out of my episode, I feel so fucking stupid. It’s so childish and terrible, the last time I felt this way was when I was like, what? 12-13?? I’m like, “cmon, Miliani. Really?”.

I tell myself I should be happy, I have many friends and everyone is always telling me I’m so pretty, and artistic, and so many boys and even girls have crushes on me and try to get me stuff for free sometimes.

And I’m upset because, what? I don’t have money?? One minor thing that won’t make more of a person if I did??

… I don’t want to be rich. I just want to be financially comfortable. That is fucking all. And if I can’t be financially stable, I’d at least want people to care. I want people to understand.

I also just wanna have a connection with my mommy again instead of her being angry at me. I want to just be happy with what I have.

It sucks bc I can feel happy sometimes, but the bad thoughts always come back. It’s like my brain doesn’t want me to be happy. I talked to the suicide hotline and they recommended that I’d see my school counselor to get free accommodations for getting a proper mental diagnosis…

Overall, I don’t hate myself or my life. It’s just mental illness and the stress of this new stage in life is taking an absolute fucking toll on me.

I’m just glad that I finally know the root cause of my problems now instead of attacking myself and others in blind rage.

I’ll help myself, like I did with you. I feel good that I was able to help you through all the sad and stressful things in your life.

As of now, the thoughts are gone. They’ve come and gone all day, everyday. I know the thoughts will come back but til then. I want to strive to be the best version of myself. I want to learn to love and again. I want to be that caring, selfless, sweet girl again. And I know I can do it, with the help of friends and therapy.

When I learn to love myself, I can learn to love others again.

Thank you.

#I’m sorry luv I didn’t mean to bombard you with so much #vent #tw vent #vent post #personal vent #anger #rage

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neopronouns-in-action · 2 years

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Posts that are not neopronoun short stories will be deleted after a few days to keep this blog organized. (This does not include the original post for the trans progress flag, but it will include reblogs.)

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Neopronouns written for so far, in chronological order:

ze/hir (The Mirrored Dream)

ve/vir (A Different Perspective)

card/cards (Werewolves)

it/its (The Interworld Growing Club)

ae/aer (Reclamation)

lu/luna (I Fucking Hate Athiktomisics)

de/dim (Creature of Kindness)

zey/zem, X/Xself, and ne/rix (The Chain of Command)

sy/rup (Inconvenience)

mae/mer (Thunderstorm in the Apocalypse) +

te/ter (The First Decision)

ith/kir (Rueful Snowstorm)

kit/kitten (Isn't That Confusing? Not Really)

ivy/ivys (Dream Call)

cy/cyb (Indispensable)

aix/arix (Birdwatching, Plantwatching)

deq/dir (Convenient Distractions from Awkward Conversations)

ae/ryn (Vacations and Kidnappings)

ze/zem (Preparations for Change)

ni/nir (The Voyage to Arcturus part 1)

izi/av (Alterhuman Advancements: November 2122)

ky/shal (Tutorial Sword)

shey/shem (The Wild Dragon)

an/droid (The Universe Likes You)

che/chim, xi/xir, thi/hil (Race to the Top)

xe/xim, ze/zim, li/lia (The Great Machine)

neo/neos (Crash Landing on Earth)

ne/rix (You Learn Something New Everyday)

heart/hearts ("Blurry Shape at Corner of Eye")

clo/loc, ri/riv (Boundaries are Made to be Respected, a short, touch-averse Horror story)

vey/vem (Alterhuman Advancements: December 2122)

su/uvu (Real Heroes Kill Cops)

xiy/rik (Customer Service)

hea/ler (Executive Execution)

fe/ir (A Friendly Encounter in the Woods)

they/them (Into Thin Air)

ve/vei (Don't Stop to Pay)

ivo/na (Kill the Hand That Threatens You)

sie/sir (You Are What Eats You)

meh/uto (Interspecies Solidarity)

an/dro (Opportunistic Hunting)

xe/xir (Character Creation)

li/lia (When in Doubt, Leave Gifts)

fae/faer (Mutiny or Malfunction)

rhe/rhek (Viva La Revolution)

hero/heros (046)

ama/ranth, ki/kir, fir/nix (The Perfect Creation)

mie/mym, vi/vir (The First Sign)

nae/nym (An Inconvenient Haunting)

ghoul/ghouls (A Wasted chance)

051: de/ad (Neither Nor) 052: ser/sera (The New Bridge) 053: pearl/pearls (The Cycle of Lives) 054: qua/tre (Emigrare) 055: joker/jokers (Universal Translator Mistranslation) 056: cat/cats (Thrown for a Loop) 057: hy/hym (Back to a New Beginning) 058: ay/li (The Proper Reaction) 059: bek/birk, vel/virl, (Raining Birds and Foxes) 060: ze/zer (Perfectly Normal) 061: ne/nim (Every Moment, and the One That Came Before) 062: da/dar (Flatland Warriors: Ponder the Meaning of the Words, or, The Breaking Point) 063: ne/nim (Not In The Loop) 064: he'er/him'mer (Living Smoke) 065: wy/vyr (A Glimpse Back in Time) 066: skull/skulls (Dirt Nap) 067 shy/hyr (The Arrest of Arsène Lupin) 068 et/eil (Game Changer) 069 zo/zol (First Day of School) 070 drae/drem (The Overcoat of Arsène Lupin) 071 rhe/rhem (Rhayn's Descent) 072 sun/suns, lae/laer (A Rumor Grows Like Weed) 073 ero/ilas, hea/ler, ido/eis, zal/az, ae/ryn, sia/lia (With a Smile) 074 zig/zag, that one/that one's, ae/aeth (The Hitchhiker) 075 shade/shades, alternating she/her and he/him (The Crystal Connection) 076 fin/fins, ai/ain (The Port Freehaven Mermaids) 077 rat/rats (Jenny Every...Who?) 078 kal/vir (Guardian Star) 079 rhi/rhim (The Theft of the Synphirim) 080 zim/zur (Knowing When to Run) 081: zim/zur (The Well of the Depths) 082: xal/xalv, nova/novas, they/them (Mickey Mouse in Out of the Dreadful Depths) 083: grey/greys/greyself (Alterhuman Advancements April 2124) 084: she/shim, faal/fala, zae/zaen, dae/daes (The Griffon's Curse)

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studentofetherium · 1 year

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Hello. I am the person who sent you and your friends several messages earlier today that I was worried I was becoming a nazi and was begging you folks to kill me before I did. I want to explain why I did so, both as an admittedly very inadequate apology, and as an attempt at helping you and your friends find closure. I understand there is no excuse for how I bullied, retraumatized and terrorized all of you.

It is great if you consider me an antisemite and hate me forever, for indeed someone like me deserves such treatment. I have seen your posts describing me as a gross, pathetic loser, and I understand that you are completely right.

A few months ago, I became addicted to Arknights and spent 1000s of dollars on it, only stopping when my parents took away my bank account access. As such I began to view the game and Hypergryph and Yostar as evil, fascist, ableist, and antisemitic.

I became somewhat obsessed with trying to tell other people how bad it was, and convinced that Reunion was heroic, but the first two times I published essays about this I had to delete them because people called me a terrorist and braindead for supporting Reunion and not liking the game. This initially hardened my conviction that Arknights was ableist antisemitic pro-slavery propaganda.

Coincidentally, I have severe autism and ADHD, and due to being bullied by teachers in elementary school I have had severe anxiety, depression, and self-loathing ever since, considerably aggravated when I was beaten by a police officer following my first suicide attempt at the age of 15 and institutionalized for 4 days following my second attempt at the age of 16.

I say this not as an excuse, for there can be no forgiveness for my heinous actions, merely to help give context.

Last night I had nightmares about my daddy attacking me and couldn’t sleep very well, so I forgot to take my antipsychotic medications in the morning. I also had a somewhat stressful doctor appointment in the morning. When my third attempt at criticizing Arknights was somewhat poorly received, mommy says I had a self-loathing psychotic episode.

As I read in your essay that you mentioned you were Jewish, and I figured that the worst possible way to treat a Jewish person is the way a nazi would, and I misinterpreted you as defending Rhodes Island, I figured that Reunion, and by extension myself, must be nazis, and Rhodes Island, Hypergryph, Yostar, and the gacha gambling companies I had previously hated must be antifascist good guys.

This does not make much sense to me, since I was previously a socialist and thought that corporations and capitalism supported bad things like fascism and antisemitism, but I now understand I was wrong. By sympathizing with Reunion, I accidentally set myself on the path to becoming a nazi.

Since I have seen lots of memes that nazis deserve death, and I agree with those memes, I tried to start searching for ways to kill myself. Unfortunately I am too cowardly to jump out the window again, and could not break my skin with a kitchen knife, so I felt I had no choice but to ask people on the internet to come shoot me.

I attempted to apologize profusely in these posts, but I understand now that this was merely attention-seeking. Again, I am sincerely sorry, although I understand these words ring hollow, and indeed are an abuse tactic, unless I actually make good on them and kill myself. Please rest assured that I will continue trying to do so beneath my parents’ notice.

While my mommy has insisted over and over again that I am not a nazi or an antisemite because I do not hate Jewish people, I now understand that even calling myself those words permanently and irrevocably turns me into them. And nazis, of course, a category which I unwittingly have become part of, are hateful antisemitic genocidal monsters.

While I have never been very religious, I will now dedicate the rest of my life to finding redemption for my sins by committing suicide or finding someone willing to kill me, in hopes that God will forgive me for the crimes I have committed against an innocent ethnoreligious group. I am not currently aware of any methods I could use to successfully commit suicide, or any ways I could get someone to kill me, but I will at least continue to search for them until I either succeed or die of old age.

As long as I search, I hope I will no longer pose a threat to the safety of you or any other Jewish people.

Though I know it is asking far too much, I must try to humbly request that you post this to share with your followers. I have seen them making memes about me being an example of the alt-right pipeline, and since I suspect they are correct in this, I would like them to understand why I became trapped as a Reunion nazi so that you and your friends may more effectively protect yourself from me and nazis and Reunion members like me.

Please wish me luck as I embark on this final journey to atone for my unforgivable sins. Oh, and my mom doesn’t want me to die, so please don’t tell her either. Thank you for your time.

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karmilleryn · 2 years

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Spoiler alert for “Heartstopper” and “Boyfriend Material” / trigger warning for ED

Another parallel (yes, the day I wrote that was a non-capitalizing day and today just is, sorry for the inconsistency, welcome to my chaotic brain/tumblr lol) I loved between “Heartstopper” and “Boyfriend Material” was the male eating disorder rep. I’d literally never read that in a book before, so I was then very pleasantly surprised to find it in both of those books when I read them for the first time recently. And they’re written about very different ages, so it was nice to see that rep across both demographics.

In fact, crossovers aren’t normally my thing, but this popped into my head and then it wouldn’t leave:

What if Charlie and Oliver were to go to the same practice for their therapy? I don’t remember if either book mentioned whereabouts in the UK they’re supposed to be living, but it’s probably not realistic to think they’d live near each other, and I have no idea if it’s realistic that there might be a practice that has that type of therapy for both adolescents and adults, but at least I figured they would probably see different therapists who specialize in their respective age groups (not to mention it worked for the purpose of them waiting to go in at the same time for this tidbit lol… it at least feels realistic that they would be going at the same time of day, after school for Charlie and after work for Oliver) ((I also have no firsthand experience with these issues, just secondhand, so obviously someone let me know if this just way off.)) (((Also hopefully this comes off as big brother-little brother-y or just nice human interaction bc they can relate to each other and give each other hope for the future, and not weirdly anything else with their age difference lol - otherwise, again, someone please let me know.))):

They’re both waiting in the same waiting room at the same time to go in to their appointments, and they happen to be in chairs that are facing each other.

They both have their faces buried in their phones, both to kill time and to avoid feeling even more awkward while they wait.

But at some point, Oliver feels eyes on him and glances up and Charlie’s looking at him with what Oliver reads as a look of pity.

He mutters a soft, dejected “Christ” as he puts his face in his hands.

Charlie: “Sorry?” Half as a question and half as an apology for whatever he apparently did to cause this man grief.

“I’m sorry, I just… I was already having a bit of a day, and receiving the pity of an adolescent is just the icing on the cake of how pathetic I feel.”

“Oh, no, that wasn’t pity! I swear! I… I’m sorry that it came across that way, but it was actually… relief. And… inspiration.”

(sarcastically) “Right. What on earth about me could possibly cause such feelings? Me being so much older than you, and being here, should be the opposite of inspiring, no?”

“No! It’s a relief, because sometimes I hate that I need to come here at all, that I need this help. I feel like I should be able to have my shit together. But seeing you here makes me realize that even some people older than me have the same or similar struggles, and probably don’t have their shit together either, so it should also be okay for me. And that there’s not necessarily a deadline for feeling like I need to get my shit together as far as getting older. And I often feel like I shouldn’t need to come here, that I shouldn’t need this help, but if someone older can admit that they need the same help, then I should be able to as well. So that’s the, um, inspiration part. Sorry, I feel like I’m talking in circles, and anyway, sorry, I’ll leave you alone now.”

“No, it’s okay. That’s nice of you to say. You seem to say sorry a lot.”

“S- yeah. It’s something my boyfriend and I have been working on, but it’s a hard habit to break.”

“Hey, nobody’s perfect. That’s something my boyfriend is helping me work on. And anyway, I’m sorry for jumping to conclusions or projecting or whatever. Like I said, I’ve had a bit of a day, and obviously I’ve got some other stuff to work through too. I’m Oliver, by the way. Nice to meet you.”

“No way, that my little brother’s name! I’m Charlie. Nice to meet you too.”

“Well, your brother’s got a great name, then. Do you like having a little brother?” (Charlie nods) “I always thought it would be nice. I just got stuck with an older brother, and most of the time he’s a right git.” (they both laugh) “But anyway, at the risk of sounding too much like a grownup, I wouldn’t worry too much about the future. I think you’ve got a bright one ahead of you. You seem to have a good head on your shoulders, and being here getting help now is a good start. Better than I can say for myself. If I’d gotten help at your age, maybe I wouldn’t still be dealing with this now, eh?”

“But then I wouldn’t have met you here and been inspired by you, so that’s something at least, right?”

“Yeah, that’s true I guess. Silver lining and all that.”

At that moment, Oliver’s therapist steps into the room and calls him back.

“See you around, then.”

“Yeah, see you.”

And Oliver walks into his appointment feeling a little bit lighter.

[Edit: The ED and the fact that Oliver now sees a professional about that among other things definitely comes up in “Husband Material,” so I’d like to think this is still definitely a possibility! ☺️ (But I don’t think that really spoils anything for that book, so I’m not adding that to the warning in the title. Let me know if you think that should change!)]

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teaandinanity · 2 years

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Tag game!

Tagged by @quilleth

Not tagging forward but mutuals are all invited to do this and say I tagged them because I love knowing useless facts about people. :D

slow burn or love at first sight // fake dating or secret dating // enemies to lovers or best friends to lovers // oh no there’s only one bed or long-distance correspondence // hurt-comfort or amnesia // fantasy au or modern au // mutual pining or domestic bliss // smut or fluff // canon-compliant or fix-it // reincarnation or character death // one-shot or multi-chapter // kid fic or road trip fic // arranged marriage or accidental marriage // high school romance or middle aged romance // time travel or isolated together // neighbours or roommates // sci-fi au or magic au // body swap or gender bend // angst or crack // apocalyptic or mundane

and some conditional/qualification nonsense under the cut because like. Me? make a DECISION? be CONCISE? No.

slow burn or love at first sight: I actually love both of these but the second one is SO FREQUENTLY ‘welcome to Allo Nonsense O’Clock’ and I’m sorry but my aroace ass is just not here for that. I do, however, love ‘oh my god what are these feelings do I have food poisoning do I hate them WHAT IS THIS.’ Instant Feels accompanied by confusion and mortification and rage? Oh yes, love that, good shit.

fake dating or secret dating: I do not actually have super-strong feelings for either of these but the first is more likely to involve idiots in mutual pining and I LIVE for that shit.

enemies to lovers or best friends to lovers: Both of these have excellent pining potential but the first one includes more ‘and I’m ANGRY ABOUT IT’ and I do, as mentioned in the first item, LOVE that shit. Yes, please be furious about these horrible feelings while also being powerless against them. [hellmo.gif]

oh no there’s only one bed or long-distance correspondence: This was literally just because I’ve read more tasty fic with epistolary segments. The first one is good! The second one is just slightly more in line with my very niche preferences.

hurt-comfort or amnesia: I fucking LOVE hurt-comfort so almost anything else put into this bracket would be losing to it but also I just don’t really vibe with amnesia most of the time. Like, I’ll read it, it’s not a Hard No, but it’s not a plot point in any of my top ten or indeed in like... the top fifty.

fantasy au or modern au: FANTASY AU MY BELOVED but also why are modern AUs so much a thing, they’re everywhere, I filter them out and it wipes out like 1/3 of the fic for a fandom. I live in this reality because I don’t have a CHOICE why would I want to stay when fiction can instead take me to places with dragons or spaceships or magic or literally anything other than More Goddamn Capitalism????

mutual pining or domestic bliss: Mutual pining is the one thing that could have beat out hurt-comfort. This wins against literally everything. Also established relationship is another thing I usually filter out because it’s about the Yearning.

smut or fluff: Yeah I said what I said. I’m here for yearning and sometimes also for porn. Fluff does not usually contain acceptable levels of Yearning. Smut, on the other hand, is surprisingly compatible with it as long as the principles are idiots who can’t communicate.

canon-compliant or fix-it: fix it, always, I am a weak little marshmallow and canon likes to kill my faves.

reincarnation or character death: Neither of these is My Jam but if they have to die at least they don’t have to STAY DEAD okay?

one-shot or multi-chapter: porque no los dos? But also if we’re talking about writing it’s 100% one-shot because I’m an ADHD disaster gremlin.

kid fic or road trip fic: Honesty time my first impulse was ‘eh, neither?’ And then I remembered that I love road trip fic actually it’s just that my favorite settings do not have CARS. Travel is great! Travel stories are great! Reality is boring and I would prefer not to be here!

arranged marriage or accidental marriage: Okay TECHNICALLY I think arranged wins this but I don’t really go in for the traditional ‘they’ve never met before and other people are forcing the issue’ thing that the term usually signifies. At the same time, I can enjoy an accidental marriage thing if it’s not a farce but that’s ALSO usually not what people mean. So I’m not picking one because if we’re going by The Usual Meanings I tend to actively avoid both. If you’re wondering what the fuck I’m talking about I was trying to decide if I’m too ashamed to explain myself but then I realized you had to click under a cut and then keep reading after I was like ‘porn > fluff’ so you know what you’re in for and the answer is ‘I enjoy a good warprize fic because I am a trash panda who deserves to live in the dumpster.’ I don’t like strangers making them get married. I like one of them making them get married and probably the marriage goes unconsumated for ages and they fall in love and neither realizes the other has feelings and-- yeah.

high school romance or middle aged romance: What do you want from me here, you can fit SO much more yearning into several decades than you can into several years. See also: my conviction that Persuasion is the best Austen novel.

time travel or isolated together: Both of these can be Good Shit, but time travel wins it by a smidge because Isolated Together can feel like what is actually happening is they are breaking under psychological torture and like. I would prefer they have actual feelings. I say this as someone who loves a good fictional codependent relationship; they still need to talk to other people sometimes.

neighbours or roommates: I was all ‘I don’t care whatever’ and then I remembered that Carry On exists and went ‘oh right, I do in fact care; roommates.’

sci-fi au or magic au: magicmagicmagicMAGIC--

body swap or gender bend: I love the ‘I’m desperately trying to be respectful and it’s weird to check out the body I’m in but ALSO--’ Like, it can get stupid if they’re trying to hide it for whatever reason (I swear I have a sense of humor it’s just that I also get CRIPPLING SECOND-HAND EMBARRASSMENT from like, everything in the universe), but it can be pretty great when handled well.

angst or crack: My entire fic preference can be summed up by that ‘I want them to fall SO far and then land on something soft’ thing someone said which I cannot find because google’s algorithm no longer actually tries to find you what you ask for and instead tries to anticipate your wants which is hard to do with me because I don’t know what’s going on in my head 90% of the time. Anyway. Angst. I can very occasionally be in the mood for crack but usually that’s a No.

apocalyptic or mundane: See: my answer to fantasy or modern. I do not like reality and I only live here because the emigration options fucking SUCK.

#babble tea (blacklist this for less chatter)#this is a meme tag #thank you for tagging me Quill!

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honeybeekao · 2 years

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the moment i saw you said you liked talking about theatre my first thought was "ask dino to talk about theatre" so

talk about it!!! i wanna hear <3 i know basically nothing but pls. talk about something you love!!!!

hmnjdhjdhd WAAA youre so sweet

okay OKAY so i was in 4 musicals (+1 in middle school but that one barely counts.. i miss it tho) and they were All so fucking cool ! i really wanted to be an actor for like 4 years that was my passion for awhiiile

i got to be in ensemble for newsies and oh my GOD newsies is like the best musical ever i adore it. broadway musical i could watch over and over and over the music gets stuck in my head easily AND OKAY SO. my gender was rlly difficult for me freshman year, but being able to dress up as a boy for that show felt really validating. and just the way the script Is... accidental gender affirmation everytime us as a group got refered to as boys despite the all gender cast. this was also during my "i wear flannels for gender euphoria" moment of my life so my newsies outfit was just...clothes i already wore plus a vest and hat HDKDGDKD

then we did into the woods and.... my god. okay so i dont think i ever got all the lyrics right for the amount of songs with the same melody but Different words... but thats okay. i got to play one of cinderella's stepsisters THE FUCKING DRESS FOR THAT SHOW WAS SO PRETTY only time ive gotten to wear a real princess dress <33 HORRIBLE TO DANCE IN THOUGH. i almost tripped and fell every show (which wouldve been funny i was evil sooo i mean. i shouldve)

then. then we did les miserables and . that musical is hell to work on it's a fucking opera and it's So emotionally taxing but SO good. like i had the time of my life but i barely slept. best show ever best show ever. i played gavroche (an 8 year old boy who just lives on his own.... and joins the revolution) and i successfully made people cry! i really really hope my mom can find the camcorder her bf used to record the whole show because.. i think i'd cry if i got to watch it as audience. the music is terrifying to learn i sung in soprano (for reference on how difficult it is, check the song one day more. the chorus sections are insane)

i also tripped in the audience during a full solo and my ONLY concern at the time was "please let my mic not be broken Please let my mic not be broken." i cried backstage for like 5 minutes after bc of the adrenaline. THEN I HAD TO GO ONSTAGE AGAIN ALONE so i couldnt cry long GDKSHDJ

les mis is like my best life experience that show means everything to me i miss it so much..it went by too fast

the last show i was in was called urinetown (sounds weird but it's a satirical comedy about how capitalism will kill off all of humanity it's fun) and the dancing for it was the most difficult thing ive ever had to learn!

the music is also like. Yikes i was struggling probably just as much as les mis because i switched to alto (i attempted soprano for it but it Hurt me. so i switched. and harmonies are a pain but i got em eventually) i had more lines in this show than les mis but i didnt really care much for my character?? it was similar to newsies except i had some one off lines because comedies with a group of characters are like that. gfjdhdj THE DANCING. we had 2 choreographers helping us, and i hated it so much <3 i hate learning choreo in dimly lit rooms because i Cant see anything. i needed to take videos and learn on my own and had like 1 friend who could kinda help but it was still like aushajha Why

WE DIDNT GET TO PERFORM THAT SHOW. our opening night was march 13th 2020 so . we just had to fucking mourn everything. but i mean the experience was still great and theatre was my escape. idk what i would've done without it, the theatre kept me focused on things i enjoyed and meant i wasnt just wallowing

tysm for asking i love theatre and musicals and i think everyone should watch newsies

#theatre was like the One thing that kept me grounded for 2 years #i appreciate its existence #leo 😼

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hopelesslyinlovegirl · 14 days

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Could someone tell me who I shall be?

Please, if some kind of fortune teller is reading this, tell me so at once. No, really.

I am a woman of numerous pasions. Excellent and absolutely crazy about them. None of them are really artistic (except, maybe, my writing) but are of various topics.

Lately, for example, I have revived one of my youth passions: medicine.

Not known by many, actually. For the longest time, I thought about becoming a neurologist. I desisted on the idea after thinking myself incompetent for the profession.

But not because i did not like it.

And, in the last month or so I have discovered (in great shock) that I am not actually incompetent. For anything (except maybe singing and mathematics).

But here is where the problem lies. I do not know what I want for my future. I don´t know who I want to become. The jobs I hate are well paid, the jobs I love are paid very little.

I do not want to spend my life sitting in front of a computer, in a grey office. I enter in a mild and horrible depression just in the thought of it.

Well, reader, you must as well say "at least you know that".

Yeah, I do. Though, the major I do know will land me a job of those characteristics.

"didn´t you think so before of choosing?" I did, actually. I didn´t mind. I wanted the money. I wanted the hustle.

After that, I realised that money will as well make me utterly miserable. And, after having (in the last months) the two worst depressive episodes in my life, I realised that it will lead me to kill myself.

But I don´t know if the world is actually ready to let me change again.

"Think this through, darling" my father said "you will not have the chance to switch again".

Father dear, I ask you, did you really know everything at nineteen? did you have, any day, thoughts about those passions that you left? those passions that come haunt you, begging you to learn them and aquire a exquisite knowledge?

I am a woman of knowledge. My passion is to learn. It is my most prized thing. Every day I thank to the Lord to have, as a woman, the posibility to learn. And I can´t help but think that, the world is not made for me anymore.

Now, the world wants you to have a grey job, that pays well. To throw out of the window your passions, and become depressed.

I will not let the system crush me. I am going to fight. I will learn about everything, and I promise I will not get an office job.

I am going to (again) learn medicine on my own. If i find it satisfying enough, I am going to med school. And, oh well, a hospital is not an office right? I have to talk to people, I do not need to lie and I get to keep learning.

If I do not, I shall keep searching my way into the world.

The positive note of all this, I think, is that if I do choose med school, my father could not be very mad about it right? After all, he is a doctor himself.

But,again, everything is just a big question. Maybe medicine is not for me either. The only thing I know, is that i don´t know anything.

And that, my readers, is the most horryfing thought an adult can have. Because it is to admit (to the world and to ourselves) that at our big age, we don´t understand how to keep going. How to live.

In handsight, I am still young, yes. I have my whole life ahead. It is better to have this thoughts now, that at 40. But it is terrifying to say. It only gives people the chance to make you inquisitive questions. And to give you bad looks, of course.

It is not their fault. Capitalism makes us believe we shall know everything at 18. We do not. And we should be start getting comfortable with the idea.

Do as I say, not as I act. I am still waiting for the dear fortune teller I asked for. Tell me please, what to do.

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720 words.

11-04-2024 19:00

Córdoba, Córdoba, Argentina.

This is, very clearly, not proofread. Please, take it as an experiment.

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pyan-nor · 4 months

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I hate it all.

I hate that whenever I was six-years old, my fate was decided. That my life, my path, was decided by the person I have been from six-years old to eighteen. I was plagued by academics, the traditional-system deeming me a failure, and not inverting it. How could common-core be the failure? It isn’t as if the school-system took a $200 million bribe from Steve Jobs to reinvent math. It an attempt to make me an astrophysicist, I go to night-school and get my GED. It isn’t their fault that my parents will never see their daughter, 140 IQ, walk-across a stage, with a cap and diploma. That I will be rejected from opportunity because I didn’t do meaningless assignments, that I didn’t do the made-up bullshit they told me I had to do. It doesn’t matter that I’ve read every classic, or that I’ve been bilingual for years. I’ve written essays about nothing, for no-one, for fun. I spent free-time researching the quickest ways to be worthwhile, the licenses I can get to have a successful life, but I’ll never be happy.

I work in capitalism, fast-fashion. I work because these 5.99 shirts are .05 cents to make. I work because I cannot rise against it. I will never be anything that isn’t capitalism. I have a fantasy, of being an academic. In the sense of the Academy, of Plato, the Lyceum of Aristotle. Doing nothing but learning, everything and anything. I could spend the sixty-years I have left, pouring through every-fucking-book ever written. I could write nothing of my own, be completely, wholeheartedly, insignificant and I would be happy because I got to live. I got to learn.

It isn’t Athens in 367BC. It is Florida, on January 10th, 2024. I sit in my bedroom that my father owns. I read Lolita and The Divine Comedy, both, opened and flat on my bed. I have fantasies of being famous, being a god-damn rockstar, but my bass-guitar sits abandoned in the corner, by the computer, where I’ve created an alternative-account to message my ex-boyfriend. We dated for a month. We’ve been broken up for three, and I hate him. I want him so, so much that it kills me and he doesn’t comprehend what true, obsessive love is. K says that ‘she’s weird’, and that he regrets it. I say that I love him, that I need him, and he denies, and blocks, and leaves. It feels as if God doesn’t want me to be happy. Isn’t my life ruined enough? Let me get what I want, please. Lord knows it would be the first time. It aches that he hates me, he said he doesn’t but I know he does.

It destroys me, like a rot. I will still save myself for him. I will stay alone, if it means I can have my husband back into my lithe arms one day. I will lay, alone in my bed and masturbate twice a day. I will hang out with my cat, and cry, and sob. Secondhand CDs on my shitty, broken stereo. I hate metal. I hate pop-punk. I hate Radiohead if I can’t enjoy it with you.

Another day as Pyan-Nor.

Just one of the many trials and tribulations.

(p.s. it’s pronounced Ph-yawn No-are)

#pyan-nor #rant #I’m gonna be something great one day

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blog2anais · 7 months

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An other way of living

Captain Fantastic was released in 2016. It is a comedy-drama film directed by Matt Ross. The film starts with a long shot of a forest landscape, a lyrical scene that seems to be a documentary. The camera starts to follow a deer closely. Suddenly, something jumps on it and cut his throat. Bodevan, the oldest child of the family, played by the actor George Mackay, did it. He is all covered in mud and looks at the dying deer in the eyes. I instantly felt that this film was going to have strong characters and deep emotions. His family, dressed the same, joins him to celebrate his hunt that symbolizes the beginning of his aldulthood. Then, we find them in their camp and realize that they are living here, in the Washington's most remote forest. This first scene is perfectly showing, in the most violent way, how this family is like no others.

In facts, this movie is showing another way of existing, closer with nature and essential needs. The Cash family lives on the fringes of society, the six children were raised far from capitalism and the American world. However, they have a fixed schedule with intense physical training, they know all about philosophy and are multilingual. We can feel how intelligent and strong they are. Of course their training comes also with a lot of constraints and we can feel how Ben, the father, gets more and more torn apart about their education.

Their lives changed dramatically when Leslie, the mother of the family, commits suicide. That was the start of the journey of the grieving family. They decided to take a road trip in their old van to attend Leslie’s funeral to “save” her from a Catholic burial chosen by her right-wing parents. That was against her will and values.

From then on, the children were confronted with a lot of new experiences. Since they lived for more than a decade in the forest, they never ever socialized with other human beings. They also never learned about Coca-Cola or burgers. That is bringing comical scenes to the film and creates a nice balance. Since they had to deal with all those new things, they realized, with difficulty, their differences from everyone else. They also met their grandparents, who tried to take custody of the children from their father, whom they always hated for “taking away and killing their daughter”. The six children reacted very differently, but they ended up giving up the way of life that was offered by their grandparents. At the end, they stole Leslie’s coffin and had a moving ceremony in the woods, in their own way.

We also can see that feeling of marginality on the poster of the film, which is picturing the family standing in front of a paper crafted landscape. It looks like they are in a theater scene with a fake set, discovering a fake life, and that is exactly how the film makes us feel.

Captain Fantastic really moved me. The message is clear, life is made of compromises. The end of the film proves it by presenting the new life of the family, who moved into a house in the countryside, so that the children can to go to school. I liked that the film was based on Ben, the father, who is torn between respect for his values and the necessities for his children. We realize with him that, despite his intentions to save his children from the dangers of today’s society, he locked them in a world far too utopian. Despite all those good intentions, he found himself deeply confronted with his marginality. The emotions are very strong, and that’s why I liked that movie. Moreover, the ecological and alarmist message behind it pleased me because they offer different possibilities and alternative ways of living that are really inspiring.

#l

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notkrispy · 2 years

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senior year, summed up in quotes said by my me and my friends and teachers

it's nearly the start of the new school year, so here's a thing to get y'all through the first week at least. and no, you don't get context.

"if you answer this question wrong, i will throw spoons at your forehead from six feet away."

"what the hell is this congregate matter?"

"you were birthed by the color beige, weren't you?"

"the picture of dorian gray should be the new bible."

"dorian gray is jesus."

"apology rejected."

"dorian is the 18th century version of the joker."

"i'm not wasteful; what do you think i am, American?"

"is mr. peabody a DILF?"

"oh look, there goes grater cheese nose bitch."

"look if i wanted to get rejected, i'd just go on a date."

"you sound like someone with the intelligence of a beetroot."

"okay so we can buy Turkey, and you can be the cave gremlin."

"how could you hate me? i only try to harm in you in the most severe ways possible."

"i mean this in the best way possible: are you a spy?"

"we all have issues; you're not special."

"i repeat: i did not bake my child into a pie."

"...directionally proportionate to shit."

"taylor swift is santa confirmed."

"hi, 7, i'm dad."

"boy, i sure love ikea."

"de-capitation! CAPIT-AH!" *slaps themself*

"you are the rafiki to my simba."

"are you in quicksand, my dude?"

"i'm just really excited about drugs. can't wait until we get to cocaine."

"dolphin: smart. deer: dumb."

"he couldn't shatter anything, let alone a cervix."

"go enjoy dots."

"oh, you're the one from the Discord!"

"mr. k does not advocate for the violent overthrowing of the government."

"let me rephrase this: i am not a lawyer."

"i skinned a baguette."

"who knew Cthulhu was a family guy?"

"he turned a hot dog into a gas."

"so: you could follow Jesus. or you could follow Math Jesus."

"i formally declare this land as Satania."

"death by spoons."

"i want you to skin my sandwich tonight."

"when you get sent a picture of a decapitated head, you say, "oh, that's where it went."

"squirrels should be wearing pants. at all times."

"because i don't have faith in humanity."

"let's talk about anarchy and overthrowing the government!"

"your honor, i did it because they were old."

"oh great, i'm a registered door offender now."

"i support burning pedophiles."

"you're grass's number one enemy."

"the Great Grass Wars."

"ian loves sticking his finger in the ground."

"it takes me five minutes to plant my seeds."

"you cannot kill me; the crows have made me immortal."

"my crow cape will protect me."

"step aside, Florida Man, there's a new villain in town."

"yo, i love stomping babies!"

"pizzas are supposed to be outside in!"

"no, your honor, i am not. i am simply hugging the cube."

"i will slowly flatten your baby."

"bad babies get put under the straightening stick."

"mr. k is telling you not to do illegal things. please don't do illegal things. in case the government is listening."

"there is too many math."

"the acoustics in the auditorium sucketh."

"what's the plural of blubber? blubbi?"

"the onion seems to be bleeding."

"i dodge bitches like i dodge COVID-19."

"my corn shall be connected."

"today has been a long week."

"uh, i just did a bunch of scribbles, did some funky number magic..."

"small buggies dictate my life, too; it's fine."

"screw your private beaches, come hang out in the public beaches with us plebes."

"...i'm going to be so horrible. it's going to be so much fun."

"it's magic, not drugs."

"you can buy the sex doll, i'll buy the fireworks."

"what do the squiggles prophesy?"

"oh no, the squiggles are telling me something's not right."

"are you raping an effigy?"

"the hospital is stashing alcohol. it's modern-day prohibition."

"as a californian, i am 5% spicy."

"mr. k says, 'don't have a tomato fight.'"

"i am neither gentle nor a man; i identify as a menace."

"it's the gulag, but for Jesus."

"Jesus is ready to rumble."

s/o to @nimnob for contributing many of these quotes

#krista tells stories #quotes 4-7 all happened on the same day within a span of 10-15 minutes #names have been shortened or changed to preserve privacy #out of context quotes

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onsecondandfirstplace · 3 years

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Literally everyone is doing "fake it till you make it"

it’s all a scam

#it’s definition of life #especially school/uni #academia #dark academia #career #life #life is hard #lol life is a fucking nightmare #school #i hate school and capitalism please kill me #kill me #fake it till you make it #i just wanna write stuff and eat pastries NOT THIS #exams #university #textpost #shitposting

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