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#i hate me why am i like this
fucklife101 · 1 year
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No one understands how much I hate myself. I hate myself so fucking much I can’t even look on the mirror without feeling absolutely disgusted. I want to die.
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g0cryab0ut1t · 8 months
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I am so fucking sick of myself
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unknownthouughtss · 11 months
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I don’t want to die
But I’m not really living
I’m just surviving
-n.l
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happysongturtle · 8 months
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I constantly wonder if tonight will be the night I finally run out of tears to shed. 😥
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sisinator · 6 months
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why is yearning for death so painful
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sadcat228 · 1 year
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Gone for a while...tried to get better....got worse....somehow hate myself more? Neat trick...
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okaydumbribbontwat · 1 year
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I feel like I'm not living my life for myself.
Like everything I've done was either for my parents or against them especially my mom and when I think about it, everything that I want to achieve that aligns with their pictured life for me I don't want to do anymore I don't want to hear their praise cause then it feels like I didn't do it for myself and out of my own wish and like plans for my life, also feels patronizing.
But everything that I want to do that I know they wouldn't approve of or just like give me a side eye glance a "why would you do that for" I'm so terrified to do, then it feels like I'm tearing down the bridge between us and I have so many aspirations that I'm just scared to share them with them, too scared to be laughed at, to be judged, to be ostracized by my own parents.
And I know that part of growing up is outgrowing some relationships or just witnessing that they change. And I know that's ultimately a good thing, you can't run away from it, it's going to happen whether you like it or not but god damn why does it hurt so much.
Fenix something or other
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pearlh3art · 1 year
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I keep telling myself, “I don’t really like him it’s just the idea I like.” But he’s on my mind 24/7, when I see another couple I image the us. He doesn’t even know I exist and I continue to yearn for him. He makes me go insane, I like him too much and yet I have no chance with him.
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brokens0oul · 2 years
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Why does healing takes forever ?
Why is it harder than getting worse ?
Why do I want to be notice and at the same time I just want to be forgotten ?
Why do nobody notices ?
Why am I pushing them away ?
Why do I feel nothing and everything at the same time ?
Why do I love being sick ?
Why do I hate being like this ?
Why am I like this ?
Why can’t I be me ?
But who’s me ?
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owvibes · 2 years
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od pon zaczynam, trzymajcie za mnie kciuki kochani <333
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fucklife101 · 9 months
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I am so disgusting.
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fellforstudentloans · 5 months
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Tw cw
I’m so happy but I wish I was dead
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When you finally wake up to reality and realise how much of an attention-seeking, weak, pathetic, cry-baby you've been your entire life, and how everyone around you knew it, but you convinced your delusional ass that they didn't think that way about you.
When you look back on all your decisions, how you acted, and how you were treated, and finally realise there was always something very wrong with you and everyone knew it, they just tried their best to not say or show it.
When you realise you have never acted like a normal person would in certain situations.
When you've known these things your whole life, you just never fully acknowledged them until now, because the truth hurts.
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dem0n-d4yz2 · 8 months
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This pain is sucks this voice is sucks WHY I CAN'T JUST BE HAPPY????? WHY I CAN'T ENJOY MYSELF??? WHY I HATE ME??? I just want new pills I just want to take this fucking pill and this pain this thing just fucking go away
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happysongturtle · 9 months
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Know what's more exhausting than pretending to be ok?
Trying to convince everyone else you're fine.
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