#i hate being vulnerable

[fuckyoutommie]

just realized what this band has given me. i’m about to be really vulnerable after the cut, you’ve been warned 🤪✌🏼 i’ll tag the trigger warnings 🫶🏼

i first found Greta during a kind of traumatic time for me. i was in the middle of losing my 3rd pregnancy, the baby was 23 weeks and it was a baby i was loosely planning to keep. finding a band that preached so adamantly about love, acceptance, change, among other things, was so needed in that time. since November 2022 i’ve been able to respond to situations in my life with new, better intention. the love i’ve been listening to the last nearly 8 months has had an impact on how i look at people and has helped me respond with the love every person deserves. im not perfect but i have grown a LOT. as a person who has BPD it’s not very common you can go without medications, however, im no longer able to afford it meeeeeeaning i’ve been raw dogging life since November, and! my life is better than it’s ever been. i’ve done the work to look at how i respond to my environment and have changed that for the better.

it’s been a few months that i’ve been on tumblr now, in that time i think my capacity to love has grown exponentially! i’ve been blessed with some really beautiful people in my little corner of the internet! people i’ve met through this fandom!!!!! i had a bad time on twitter so i remember feeling nervous when i started interacting with people on tumblr. but boy!! if tumblr isn’t the exact opposite. i have filled my dash with people that are preaching the same love the band does!

im really grateful that i’ve found a peaceful place in my life. i did a lot of hard work to get to where i am! im proud of myself for choosing to respond now with love and understanding. i love all of you and all of me!

cheers to those four white men from michigan 🫶🏼

#personalpuzzle #TW #pregnancy loss #talk of BPD #this is so vulnerable #i hate being vulnerable #but im feeling grateful #love u all

[iamonlyhereforthefreefood]

I'm planning on sending my best friend a message that's like "any time you want to hangout we should even though we hung out recently" because I am so lonely. And there is a part of me that's like ugh I don't want to be desperate I don't want them to know I'm struggling but like we're friends, part of being friends is being vulnerable with one another.

#i hate being vulnerable

[bilestat]

all I want to do is hug my dad and ask him about his family and his childhood because i was only 13 when he died and I’ve forgotten so many things and I’m so scared of the day I won’t remember him anymore and I wanna talk to him about meaningless shit and watch star trek with him and play video games and drink coffee and go out for dinner together and do all of the things I know we would’ve bonded over if only I’d had more time with him and had a chance to know him as more than a child, it’s so unfair that there’s so many things about him that I’ll never know and so many things about me he never got the chance to know

#my dad was my favorite person in the world #I’m not even exaggerating #i genuinely hate my fucking life lol it’s so unfair #he’s been gone for years longer than I had with him now #i hate that so much #anyone who tells you that you get over the loss of a loved one or that grief gets easier is a fucking liar #who could I have been if I didn’t have to experience this kind of grief as a child #I’ll never know #and it sucks because I can’t go to anyone about it #i could but I can’t #i don’t want to bother or burden anyone #i don’t even want to talk to my own sibling about it because I don’t want to upset them more than they already are #i don’t want them to have to deal with my grief on top of their own #same with my mom #and I hate crying in front of people even if it’s on the phone #i hate being vulnerable #anyway I’m lightheaded now from sobbing so hard #but at least I’m starting to calm down some #and it’s a double fucking whammy because the anniversary of his death is the 14th and then my grandma’s birthday is the 25th #and I miss her so much too and can’t believe she’s been gone almost two years now #fuck the universe for making my dead have a heart attack three days after my mom’s birthday and dying five days after it #***my dad wow #parent death tw #parent death mention #grief tw #to be deleted #personal

[cuervitodeisla]

El sacrificio de la proyección (My Projection’s Sacrifice)

digitally colored sketchbook page

#self portrait #sketchbook #mental landscape #cw dead animal #crow #might make this into an actual painting idk #im scared to post this on instagram where ppl actually know me irl #i hate being vulnerable

[ktchie]

Ted Lasso is so me, I too rather die than talk about my feelings.

#like im being fr #i hate being vulnerable

[chillinonsundays]

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#i literally cried in front of my boss during an internal interview today because of how stressed out with life i was???? #what is life #so fucking embarrassing #i wouldn’t have minded if it was during a 1:1… but during the interview???? #i hate being vulnerable #but the floodgates literally opened at the worst possible time ever #talks

[lovesermon]

#vunerability #why he hate being vunerable #i hate being vulnerable #i hate my existence #i hate it so much #i hate help #no need help #i hate love

[rollerballperfume]

They should invent a type of romantic love and intimacy meant for lonely people

#without fear or rejection of course! #I hate being vulnerable #don’t wanna keep doing this

[finnafinemy]

I really hope she still feels the same the morning after

#i hate being vulnerable #god #fuck

[foreverdisneynerd]

I hate being vulnerable on main but I’m in urgent need of help.

Basically since October I’ve been in and out of urgent care with a lot of weird symptoms that aren’t COVID-19 related but involving my gut and nerves ( the dreaded tummy issues of being autistic have finally reared their ugly heads). This recent stint left me home from work for over a week, leading me to lose pay I can’t hope to lose.

I’m asking my followers and community for help with an urgent fundraiser to help me get $200 by tomorrow so I not only have the funds for upcoming car bills but groceries for the next week.

My Venmo and cashapp are below in the linktree. Anything helps! Thank you everyone so much.

#fundrasier #disability #crowdsourcing #urgent #medical bills #I hate being vulnerable

[hisunshiine]

Does it look like I’ve been crying?

#sigh #i hate emotions #i hate being vulnerable #this is why I don’t date

[vamprisms]

cannot stand adults who are unkind to children in any way. pick on someone your own size

#'i hate kids' is such a red flag for me like. if you don't want kids fine. whatever. me neither. but those are human beings ffs #some of the most vulnerable in our society. be kind to them

[smultronviol]

Ppl going "waaahh unpopular opinion but Alice is kind of annoying and obnoxious and I don't think I'd like be her friend irl" is so funny to me bc like.

God forbid a cast of characters be multifaceted and have actual flaws and unpleasant aspects other than "grr angsty hero" and "whoops i'm so clumsy". Sometimes character dynamics and arcs need to be prioritized above "who would i personally be niceys with irl"

2. bro just WAIT until you hear about season 1 jon lol

#the magnus protocol #tmagp #season 1 jon was obnoxious and sometimes a straight up ASSHOLE and you were supposed to find him kinda grating!!! #yes alice IS a bit annoying and too much sometimes (esp in the first episodes) and i love that <3 #like. its p obvious that she uses the over the top-thing as a shield (to push ppl away/as a defense mechanism/to avoid being vulnerable) #we see her drop the act sometimes w ppl like teddy and sam who she actually feels comfortable around (and who know and understand her) #but like. she's stuck in a job she hates and is kind of afraid of (she KNOWS smth abt the horrors and is keeping her head down to survive) #(shes obviously afraid of sam going to far bc she KNOWS its dangerous) #so yes her act gets too much sometimes and yes sometimes she crosses the line into straight up mean (esp against gwen) #(but their dynamic is a whole other can of worms) #but like. i'm pretty sure its supposed to be seen that way. the audience isnt supposed to just find her kooky funny #the facade is supposed to be dismantled by the viewer etc etc #kind of like SEASON 1 JON the obnoxious bastard!!!!!!! #like. if you ever think alice is too mean towards gwen pls listen to s1 jon again and how he speaks abt martin?? #from a position as his boss no less? ngl i wanted to throttle him sometimes #you kinda forget abt it in the later seasons and if you only engage w fandom content. but like. go back and listen to the shit #he actually says. jesus christ man. i remember kinda hating him in the beginning #and to be clear i love jon! i think hes a great character! #and like. its almost as if his early season personality and facade was an important setup for his character development #and relationships with the other characters??? #but anyway 'alice is kind of annoying' is not an unpopular opinion its literally the FUCKING POINT #and both her and jon are my sweet baby angels <3 #alice dyer #jon sims #(and obviouslyyy you're still allowed to dislike a character ppl can have their own opinions etc etc etc. i just personally find it funny)

[celluloidbroomcloset]

Little detail I missed in the "I'm your Captain!" scene are Ed's actual lines as Stede starts ordering him around:

Stede: Be...helpful! Ed: Ooo... Stede: There's a lot of things that need doing! Ed: Good, good, right, Captain, sure...

Ed is like: "This is interesting...oh. Oh. OH."

He is just so thrilled to have a man that he knows he's safe with. Was he ever safe with anyone?

#ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #edward teach #ofmd meta #gif #another reason why i hate the calico jack discourse #you think that man ever made ed feel like he was safe? #like...ever? #you think jack ever treated him like a person? #or didn't make him ashamed of being vulnerable and having feelings?

[molinaskies]

Sonic is not an indecisive character, by any means. He'll mull over something sometimes, but once he makes up his mind, it’s very hard to sway him because he lives by his way (his own way). If there is something he doesn’t agree with or doesn’t want to do, he straight up won’t do it. 

That said, a huge part of Sonic’s character is acquiescence.

Sonic is good to go with the flow. He doesn’t always need to be in charge. He doesn’t always need things to go his way or according to a plan. And most importantly, as a character who talks a lot to avoid actually saying anything, his actions really do speak louder than words.

So, what’s important to understand is that Sonic goes along with things—even things that don't always come naturally to him—not because he feels obligated, forced, or pressured, but because he’s a more willing participant than he wants to let on.

Why? Because it’s easier to let the water flow when someone else opens the floodgates.

#and more examples I can’t remember off the top of my head! #why initiate when he can simply experience without having to be vulnerable #the key is understanding the difference between sonic running away from Amy and sonic RUNNING AWAY from Amy #because he has done both for different reasons #and in one he’s playing with her and in the other he doesn’t want some spell cast on him lol #sonic gives into Amy not because she bullies him but because he actually doesn’t hate being around her #also sonic and Chris are friends yall are just mean #sonic the hedgehog #amy rose #sonamy #sth #sonic #idw sonic #sonic X #Japanese sonic X #chris thorndyke #amy rose the hedgehog #character analysis #sonic characterization #sonic character analysis #sonic characters

[ravenalla]

Snarky Din how I miss you

#the mandalorian #din djarin #sorry for complaining so much I just hate he doesn’t have the same expression or interactions like he use to #where’s the sass #where’s the charming vulnerability we got to sometimes see #The moment with Ragnar was the close but he still sounded like a robot #why does his covert not talk like real human beings aghhh drives me insane #also enough with the giant monsters #you can’t just throw in a creature when you don’t know how to do characters or a plot Favreau 😭 #the mandalorian spoilers #the mandalorian season 3 spoilers