#i guess i wrote this bc i've been dealing with a lot of shit at work

[hopelesslyromanticshark]

HEAR ME OUT 🗣🗣🗣

Leo x daughter of Aphrodite

Nah cause my man would be down baaaad

Also ^ that ^ with a son of ares crushing on her 👀

I am so in love with your silly lil talented brain and your work of art 💕💐🤭

Mhuaw 💋 Mhuaw 💋

~ 🎀

⋆⭒˚.⋆ leo valdez x daughter of aphrodite! reader hcs

content: leo valdez x daughter of aphrodite! reader hcs warning: language, will make you want a leo valdez but it is sold out in all local stores bc of me author's note: SPEAK YOUR SHIT 🎀 ANON YES- i love love love this. wrote it instantly the second i saw that ask. pls, this is so cute and so y2k coded.

this mf loves love and now he’s in love with love's daughter

be so fr rn

and i just know piper is so happy they’re together bc now leo can become her real brother (in law but if you ever mention that to her she's dice you up like pineapple)

AND she didn't even need to meddle, the two getting together naturally and on their own

probably with some help from their mother but shhhh

and every time one of the older campers see leo and y/n together, they get hit with memories of selena and charlie like a truck.

every. single. time.

some of them will scrap their food into the fire and pray to the gods above that it ends better for them.

crying-

MOVING ON

(one of the older aphrodite girls gave y/n a ring that used to belong to selena that charlie gave to her. y/n hasn't taken it off since the day she got it)

I SAID MOVING ON-

so when this stupid son of ares sets his sights on y/n, everyone in his cabin basically laughs in his face

he talks something about their parents, how aphrodite is with hephaestus but gets jiggy with ares all the time, so it's in their blood or some stupid shit

this dumbass mf

leo's the type of guys to be like 'wear what you want. can i fight? oh, no. but i can talk so much shit he's gonna be embarrassed for months. this mfs will think of my ass every time they try to get with another girl."

which is how he deals with the guys trying to come after his sweetheart

"oh? you need your sword sharpened? most everyone does it themselves but if you don't know how that's totally okay and not embarrassing at all- no, i get it, the wheel is super scary to a lot of the younger kids. too many moving parts to understand, surely."

"you know, you're supposed to stay on your feet during training, right?"

"i would've thought there was at least one braincell lost in all the bloodlust, but i guess not. i've met clumps of gum under desks smarter."

oh yeah, that ares boy stays awake at night thinking about what leo's said to him. sometimes he cries but that also might have just been a rumor leo started.

the worst part is the juxtaposition of this man.

he can go from tearing into the ares boy one sec and then cooing over his girlfriend the next.

"there's nothing to be ashamed about. if you've got a small dick, you can just say that- there's my baby! hey, cariño, how's your day going? good? great! only the best for my girl!!"

he will yap about her to anyone who gives him the time of day

and also those who don't

he's in love and everyone knows but he wants to make sure that everyone knows

WILL walk around with lipstick and lip gloss all over his face and lips with no shame

"you've got something on your face."

"yeah, it's called love. if you pulled, you'd know what that's like-"

new campers are in genuine shock when it's revealed that mr grease monkey managed to pull the it girl of camp

and then they see how he makes her laugh and immediately understand

it's always those full body laughs, her head falling backwards and her mouth wide open and laughs just flowing out.

if she was standing, she is now on the floor, legit rolling

takes rotfl wayyyyy to far

try as they might, and a lot of people do try, nobody is breaking this couple up.

they're just like their parents, but doing so much better better.

what aphrodite and hephaestus wish they had.

they are and will forever be the moment

#postcards from covey ౨ৎ #all my love ౨ৎ #heroes of olympus x reader #hoo #pjo #heroes of olympus #leo valdez #leo valdez x reader #pjo fandom

[deputy-buck]

Miscellaneous Tag game

Thank you for makin this and tagging me Mar!!! @ronald-speirs

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Favorite place in the world you’ve visited?

I haven't been many places at all, and all of the places I enjoyed are neighboring states (Florida, SC, Tennessee, Alabama.) so it's almost the same as being home. I'll say Alabama, went to a cliff that my parents, aunt, and uncles used to climb and camp at all the time, idk what it's actually called but they always called it Sand Rock (take a guess what the rock is primarily made of...) it was entirely untouched when they used to go, but now there's fucking campsites and a huge pavilion there, I hate it bc the pictures my parents took made the place look so perfect and secluded, no trash anywhere. Now there's a fucking dumpster with shit leaking out of it and stupid "Beware! Cliff!" signs everywhere like no shit there's a cliff its a rock wall you idiots-

Something you’re proud of yourself for?

.... girl idk- I guess I'm proud of how regardless of the circumstances, I always stick to my morals and principles. Thanks for that one, dad.

Favorite books?

Oh!!! Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!! hmm-

One Bullet Away - Nathaniel Fick. Probably my favorite of all time, it's so well and personally written, made me cry every time I read it.

Islands Of The Damned - R.V. Burgin. I love how simply he wrote it, like he really put his authentic self on those pages and didn't try to seem "more educated" than he was because he was just a little Texas boy and I loved that about him.

Those are really the only ones I can recall details from so I'll stick with those, but I did enjoy Helmet For My Pillow - Robert Leckie a lot, I read that in the truck while waiting for my brother to get out of class,. Generation Kill - Evan Wright was also good but it read so... grade-school-y, ya know?

My To Read list is:

With The Old Breed - Eugene Sledge. Started it but couldn't continue bc it seems like he's censoring himself a bit and IIIIIIII don't fuck with that, I'll power through it eventually though.

Red Platoon - Clinton Romesha. It's by a Medal Of Honor recipient from The Battle of Kamdesh, the only reason I haven't read it yet is bc i will sob about it for days after and I'm not ready for that.

My To Buy list is:

China Marine - Eugene Sledge. I WANT TO KNOW EVERY LITTLE DETAIL OF HIS TIME IN CHINA AFTER THE WAR-

(switching to non-war books oops)

Call Me By Your Name & Find Me - André Aciman. I just want to kill myself really, I want to hurt so bad that I never recover. Both are written in first person though and I hate that shit...

The Power Of The Dog - Thomas Savage. I watched the movie first and now I need to base my whole life off of these pieces of ART like fuckkkkkkkk.

Fellow Travelers - Thomas Mallon. Uhhhhhh yeah I want to submerge myself in this series entirely. Supposedly there's an ass ton of changes from in the series from the book, like Hawk being in the Army in the show and not the Navy like in the book, and I need to know if there are Seaman jokes-

Something that makes your heart happy when thinking about it?

Maizie 💚💚💚💚 my goofy goopy gooby girl 💚💚💚💚 my baby 💚💚💚💚 my sweet little bully girl 💚💚💚💚 the light of my life and the hindrance of my life-path 💚💚💚💚 the most stressful thing I've ever had to deal with day in and day out 💚💚💚💚

also cock. yeah that makes my heart happy too.

Favorite thing about your culture?

The MEN- okay I'll be serious. I'm not exactly sure what my culture is since Southern culture is Black culture (no I won't fight anyone on this unless you've been here, experience life here, and looked into literally any staple of Southern culture and seen that yeah 99% of it is rooted in Black history) and I'm.... Ghostly- I love the sense of community and the general easy-going but also absolutely chaotic feel you get everywhere you go. Like yeah I could get called "baby" and "sugar" and "honey" by the sweet old cashier, and then right when I walk out of the store I could suddenly be helping some stranger pack a deer with ice and have blood all over my hands and arms, the polarity of Southern-ness is great.

When did you join the HBO War fandom? What was the first show you watched?

I want to say two and a half years ago, not really sure though- Band of Brothers was my first watched it back to back like four times, then Gen Kill and watched that one probably four times back to back as well, then The Pacific like two or three times back to back, and now I'm suffering through MOTA.

Have you read any of Easy Company’s books? If so, which ones were your favorite?

I have not. I don't really want to either bc I don't want to realize all the inaccuracies of the show vs the true events. Like the little things, I don't want to watch the show with distain-

Favorite HBO War character and your favorite moment with them?

Oh fuck you Mar, I can't choose!!

BoB: I cannot choose, I can't. I love so many of them way too much that it hurts. Loved whenever Johnny yelled "BULL!!" like yes bestie I would scream his name too-

GK: Poke <3 whenever he was on screen was my favorite. I think his "and all the love in their hearts, from their wives and children. And all that hate, dog. All the hate it took to blow these motherfuckers away. It's destiny, dog! White Man's gotta rule the world!" and that was the first time we saw Doc smile too, love that for them. Alternatively whenever he looks at Brad with his shark-like smile, I would FOLD if he looked at me that way.

TP: SID AND YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS MAR FUCK I LOVE THAT BOY SO MUCH I NEED HIM SO BAD. When he tore Gene a new one about why they were the ones that made it back and not all those other guys, like yes put your boy in line-

MOTA: *crickets*

Do you make content for any fandoms, if so; what sort of content?

HBOwar: Sort of? Not as of late but I have written a few fics and made a few moodboards, can find all of them in my masterlist. I'm sorta working on some TP stuff but it's so hard for me to write for that while FT is consuming my every waking thought.

Fellow Travelers: HAHHAH I CAN'T STOP- Oh I've already made so many little webweaves and edits and a moodboard, and rn I'm working on a puppyplay fic hahah

UFC: I don't make content though I kinda wish I had when I was super-super into the fighters on a personally level lmao

Favorite actor/actress and your favorite film of theirs?

I don't have one, like there's not a specific actor/actress I've watched shitty film for. I usually enjoy Mads Mikkelsen in whatever he does, Jabob Pitts is also lovely, Anne Hathaway is my If I Was Straight actress

Favorite quote/s that you wish to share with others?

"Give what you get and don't complain when you get what you give."

Random fact your mutuals/followers don’t know about you?

Mm, I don't know, I'm always cold and I hate it and will never willingly live any further north than where I currently live, also no further west than Louisiana cause fuck Texas on a personal level

If you’re a writer, do you need a beta reader (say yes so I can be your beta reader 🤭)?

I don't know what a beta reader is please explain SOMEONE-

Three things that make you smile?

Actually being on a job site regardless of how anxious it makes me, I've spent way too long doing what I do from home and not being a part of the installation process.

Hearing other people laugh, idk why but hearing anyone laugh makes me smile.

These pictures of my goofy goopy gooby girl

Any nicknames you like?

Buck is a nickname and I love it cause it's so fucking HICK like ME

List some people you love to see around on tumblr!

@ronald-speirs !! even though like none of your posts from any of your blogs are showing up on my dash?? hate you tumblr-

@ableedingpen !! BRO I WANT TO KISS YOU YOU ARE SO FUCKING AWESOME TO SEE IN MY REPLIES LIKE I GET STUPIDLY EXCITED-

@corkyviolet !! your screencaps are so fucking good and I cry at all of your edits-

@verawhisk !! we don't post the same content anymore but I do still love to see you around, V you are the GOAT

What would you do during a zombie apocalypse?

Shoot myself. No joke, I don't want to deal with that.

Favorite movie?

uhhhhhhhhh, All Of Us Strangers ripped my heart out, not sure if it's my favorite though

Do you like horror movies?

No (sorry Mar) they never appealed to me, I prefer a documentary about real fucked up and gorey events-

Tagging: anyone!!! have fun y'all!!!

#tag game #MarMar✿ #buck brawls

[rahleeyah]

“Kathy loved her”

ARE WE JOKING U EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE THAT KATHY STABLER AKA THE WOMAN WHO WAS SO JEALOUS OF OLIVIA BENSON THAT SHE MADE HER HUSBAND WRITE A LETTER THAT WAS FULL OF SHIT AFTER 10 YEARSSSS OF NOT SEEING HER liked. LIKED! Rent-a-Benson?!!!!!!!

Like OC needs to actually study these characters who existed for 12 years on SVU Jesus Christ bro

Anyways sorry to bring this negativity here but I was just so frustrated with that line I cannot.

Like I didn’t mind the total episode but just the Tia/Elliot interactions didn’t make a lot of sense to me when we consider and factor in the bensler relationship and how all that went down… idk I’m probably overreacting but sheesh man it’s not gelling for me at all this season

Anyways I love your writing and all you do I hope you have a wonderful Friday and an even better weekend!!! 💕💕

can I tell you something about the "Kathy loved her" thing that I've been thinking about a lot?

Kathy loved her. El didn't say anything about his feelings about her. Kathy loved her. he is centering Kathy's feelings but no co-signing them; perhaps bc he doesn't feel the same way?

and while Kathy's connection to liv is complicated, you're right that Kathy did recognize liv as a threat. she called Elliot out for talking to liv and not her, she tells liv outright you know things about him that I will never understand and doesn't sound too happy about it, she wrote the letter. Kathy is defensive, where liv is concerned. so why would she love Tia? bestie what if Tia was never a threat.

we still don't know for sure what the deal was with Tia and Elliot in Rome; yes she flirts with him and she shows up at his door but is that because something happened, or because nothing ever did and now she thinks she has her chance? we don't know!! but could it be that while Tia was always open to something more Elliot wasn't, and he views her as a risk, a liability, but she was someone he had to work with, and Kathy liked her, and they made a decent team on the job, so he put up with it?

the Tia/Elliot interactions didn't make any sense, bc they didn't tell us any-fucking-thing. we still don't know if Elliot is still the Elliot we know, the one who would never be unfaithful to his wife, or if something happened between them, or how he feels about it. and like no we don't need to be spoon-fed anything but those are big fucking questions that I'm frustrated we still don't have the answers to. we may get them this week, but it contributes to last week's episode feeling more like a trailer for an episode than anything else. I kept waiting for SOMETHING relevant to happen, and nothing did. it didn't go anywhere and that's frustrating.

but we got more Tia coming so I guess we'll see what happens lmao

#anonymous #e.o asks #s.vu

[rinbowaman]

chapter 4 was A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont even know, i read it and had to process for a bit before i wrote this ask 

i really liked that we got to see more of their relationship and its dynamics and also a bit of heeseung and his friends interactions !! rly curious what's the deal with tiffany was that 

anyway 

what really got me in this chapter was that overwhelming almost sense of how truly possessive and obsessed hee is with  yn, surely we could see that from the start but the part when he explained the whole ‘two sides and the first time he saw her and how both of them fell for her instantly” I GASPED, it gave ME chills, bet so much was going on through her head!!!!!!!! the way ethan so daring damnn, every single intimate scene here had me :OOOO from how great it was but u know what got me THIS LINE

“....regardless of your desire to either stay or leave, you wouldn’t have a choice.”

WHAT!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT HELLO????????????????????? im so so fucking intrigued  where we gonna go from here this chapter gave so much but so little for some reason?? im so excited for the next one, godman the wait was worth it !!!!!!!!! weeeee what a ride THANK U THO this series so so so good dear ˖⁺‧₊˚ ♡ ˚₊‧⁺˖

lol love i'm so glad you enjoyed the chapter, the next chapter and the ones that follow will explain more. not gonna lie i did leave you guys on a cliffhanger so its understandable why all the questions are popping up. and tiff, you'll be seeing more of her in the next few chapters and it will all come together, but yeah, tiff is a beotch.

after i posted MGR and MRE, alot of people wanted to know more about heeseung and his ethan side, which were all based off of an original character i made up when i wrote the series, but i did enhance and add a bit more to heeseungs/ethans character in HHP so everyone can see and get to know more about him since his background was so vague in the previous arcs. there's still alot about him we dont know about, but we're at least hearing him out on his personality and his other face. if you recall the mgr/mre arcs, where it compares heeseung to dr.jeckyll and ethan to mr. hyde. poor y/n, she really didn't know what to make of it, because she loves heeseung's gentle, protective, and soft personality, but she's also attracted/intrigued but also scared of the rough, dark, and aggressive ethan side that eludes from time to time. the fact that he told her that both of them fell for her, she was in shock which is why she honestly tried to forget about convo because in a way i guess she felt uncomfortable, but knows that heeseungs (and ethan's) heart means well and that no matter how dark he can get with his other side, he would never let anything happen to her. like that moment when in the final chapter of MRE when she got a little scared of how firm he was being with her but was still protecting her from samuel.

a friend of mine recently told me ethan's vibe (based off of the original character i made up named andiy) is "yandere", which i had no idea what that term meant up until like three weeks ago, but once i researched it and, shit, i even read some yandere enhypen fics to learn more on what she was talking about, and she's right. though it wasn't really intentional to make him yandere, but after learning what yandere was, i could agree with her, he's definitely giving yandere vibes. especially when you read the next few chapters, i've been re-editing the original drafts and it gets...intense. but that's only ethan, heeseung is not at all that way, but as he stated in this chapter, he's learned to develop a balance bc he's knew ever since he was young that he had a dark side to him. and honestly, we all saw the minor switches ever since MGR, when he had moments where he was soft and gentle, but when triggered, he get instantly confrontational and aggressive.

[ravixen]

EEEEP AND FOR THE FIC WRITER ASK GAME !!! i apologize in advance if you’ve already answered some of these and i know i gave a lot bc there’s some good questions on there :O so u can choose whichever ones u want to answer :D

3, 18, 20/21 (whichever one or both), 28, 30, 39, and 44 💓

// fic writer ask game

hi, alex!! i'm drawing with friends so i will do the handwritten ask after, but here are the ones you asked for. there's too many good questions on this list! under the read more because this one's long:

3 - Are there any fics that inspired you to write what you do?

tbh, not any that i can think of right now!! but there was one haikyuu blog (now deactivated) that really pushed me to reboot this blog in 2021 with a focus on reactions rather than fics.

18 - Do you have a WIP that you keep telling yourself you’ll eventually get back to, but deep down you know that’s probably a lie?

ah...yeah, that one ot12 (ot11 now lmfao) exo series called we're the lucky ones that also included four OCs. i have so many snippets for scenes, character dynamics, love lines, multi-layer antagonists, rising stakes, etc. but the project is just too big for me. another one is a re-write of my namjoon fic frontlines, sidelines, headlines because i wrote as a self-indulgent thing at 16 years old. re-reading it made me realize that i had so many plot holes and no world building. another project that's too big.

20 - What’s your (21 - least) favorite part about the fanfiction writing process?

not really part of the writing process, but the moment when you've been away from your writing for a while and then read it again! i guess this can be considered the editing process if you haven't posted yet. i reread my writing (bad habit of editing while writing) and get tired of it, so stepping back and seeing it with fresh eyes is so satisfying. least favorite...can i say the entire writing part LOL maybe when you have a scene in mind but have no idea how to get there!!

28 - How do you deal with writing pressure (ie: pressure to update, negative comments, deadlines, etc)?

i don't :) fic writing is for me alone, so i do it whenever i feel like. no pressure to update or deadlines, except for that stressful fiction writing class that shattered my confidence. as for negative comments...yeah, i've gotten some. i get heated lol and then distract myself and ignore them. readers come and go - i gotta put myself first if i want to keep writing.

30 - Post a snippet from your current WIP without context - no more than 300 words.

not kpop, sorry lol i have 4 writing blogs:

Someone in front of him whistles lowly. "Damn, you look like shit," the newcomer says, knocking the toes of his shoes with theirs.

Brick raises his head and squints into the sun, barely making out Buttercup's grimace once she catches sight of his expression. "Yeah?" he manages as she slides her shades onto her hair. "Thanks, I tried my best to look like you."

"Seems like you still got some bite, at least." She leans down to get a closer look, taking the chewed lollipop stick out of her mouth and pointing it towards his nose. "So who peed on your pancakes this morning?"

"Christ, you're where Boomer got that from?"

39 - answered here!

44 - Rant about something writing related.

to all the readers: pls interact!! does this count? i feel like i'm beating a dead horse since the topic's been discussed so much many times already, but i'm so ??? because like. sometimes my posts will get almost 100 likes, but so few reblogs? which means, if you're not online when i post or if you don't check my writing tag frequently, it's gone. reblogging helps so much with visibility by sharing my work with others throughout the day or at different times. this when paired with a lack of feedback overall, whether that be in the tags/reblogs, comments, or my ask box...i've been refocusing on my anime writing for feedback lol i have lots of creative outlets, so i can move wherever: writing for various fandoms, drawing, and singing.

#katalk #woozisnoots.reply

[look-a-ghost]

rant about True Detective (Season 1 vs Night Country) follows below, bc i don't have anywhere else to post this so it's going here now (it is long and incoherent so dont say i didn't warn you)

i can't think of a tv show i've been more ashamed of falling madly in love with than the first season of True Detective

i suppose i couldn't have known at the time, and it was a confluence of various things that made it as exciting/captivating/whatever as it was to me back then (i think that was probably the saturation point of my enjoyment of edgy antiheroic tv nonsense), many of those things which have nothing to do with the guy who wrote it (who seems to be coming across lately as an enormous prick)

it's slightly cold comfort to see folks attributing some of the most memorable parts of that season to other writers as well (Thomas Ligotti, Alan Moore), and obviously credit goes to Fukunaga and the actors who made the characters as memorable as they were...

it just felt in some ways like the writing was kind of on the wall in terms of the ultra-machismo, (retrospectively) high school nihilism of TD S1 and also of his novel Galveston, which I read whilst being swept up in the wave of TD fan fervor, and on the one hand it can be pretty crass to dismiss a work out of hand just because its subject matter/thematic overtones deal with edgy machismo nonsense, but in this case i guess it telegraphed the author's intent and personality rather transparently...

there were other red flags along the way in terms of Pizzo having clashed with Fukunaga on set and being petty about it afterwards... and, again, perhaps it's unfair to believe that someone's personal political beliefs are an indicator of their capacity to behave in a moral way, but it feels like in this day and age we're kind of getting to that point now lmao and i remember seeing posts about the kind of political beliefs the guy could very well have had... which again, somehow doesn't surprise me.

so the fact that he's melting down in this embarrassing man-baby fashion, and also the fact that he doesn't seem to have put out any successful work of much note well after the success of TD S1 feels a little telling? like. y'know. be a shit person, achieve shit results?

having said all of this, I am also sort of mystified by the discourse around TD Night Country. I've spent more time looking on Reddit than I care to admit in recent months, and the demographic there seems to skew quite heavily against NC. Likewise the online critical discourse seems to vacillate between glowing (respected reviewers whose opinions I've historically trusted, eg. Sepinwall, have said that NC had "the best finale in the series' history") and dismissive as well (that guy from Forbes who does a bunch of video game coverage seemed to REALLY hate this season??) and I think I personally fall somewhere leaning towards the former but not entirely? Like. It felt like a perfectly decent series of TV! It was cool! It wasn't SENSATIONAL, it didn't captivate me in the same way S1 captivated my then-20-year-old lizard brain, but it was doing some really interesting things with some really interesting characters...

As Pizz himself has already very crudely and dismissively said, it would be too easy to attribute a lot of the hate from the online, male-nerddom-leaning quadrants of the internet to simple misogyny... I do wonder if that is the entire story here though. The only way I could take it further than simply "INCEL BOYS HATE WOMEN" is that the two lead characters in NC are actually portrayed as actively unlikeable in multiple different respects, and I am not sure if something in that conscious decision to present those two characters as having repellent behaviors and choices was simply too alien for a contingent of people who are used to the boys being the edgy dark brooding transgressing antiheroes?

it would be a little weird to attribute the fan vitriol to simply brigading on Pizz's behalf as well, since he hasn't really done anything to match the level of critical acclaim in the 10 years since TDS1 was released... I don't know how many of the angry nerds online are aware of the fact that NC was made by an entirely different showrunner too, but i'm guessing it's a not-insignificant amount.

It could also be a poisoned combination of both misogyny and anti-wokeness (whatever the fuck that means); perhaps it was too big of a bridge to cross for people to stomach a show with two female leads who are partially unlikeable, at least one of whom is BIPOC, and is carrying a very clearly left-leaning message of "corporations bad, pollution bad, cops corrupt, racism/misogyny latent across society". In that way, perhaps the show came across as some kind of """""woke pandering""""" cocktail? And again, maybe the Reddit people/Forbes guy who try very hard to come across as the "reasonable" folks and not the clearly repressed/prejudiced/vitriolic sort are just unwilling to admit that they are subconsciously succumbing to these biases...

I have no idea. I don't think the show was bad enough to warrant hate from people who claim outwardly to not be affected by misogynist/anti-left tendencies, but I don't know how else to square it. It's just weird!

#me rambling

[biboyhalo]

Same anon who wrote about Q disowning dream(team) bc he's problematic and therefore Q has cut ties with dream

Concerning the qsmp/usmp thing, it's been noted that Quackity was working on qsmp for about two years whereas people noticed that dream started talking about a multilingual server during the squid craft event or afterwards. (There was a post about on here or Twitter, can't remember. It included screenshots of tweets from both parties.) Which like, who cares, at the end of the day, there's now two multilingual servers, which is great.

The issue a lot of people are having is when Q announced his server, dream's response was to go "Oh cool but I'm doing something very similar and that's gonna come out soon and I'm not copying btw :)" so instead of allowing Quackity his moment to shine, dream says like five nice words but then makes most of his tweet about him. Not only that, but to make his tweet about something very similar. It's giving tactless. (Dream needs a super professional pr team or something cuz this guy needs some help with his public image like stat.)

Also, dream claiming to be the "first" (and I completely agree with that other anon who said first is basically a trigger word at this point, and aren't there already other multilingual servers?) when Quackity already had his server up and running with actual players whereas dream is still developing his server and is still trying to recruit people. Like, if your server isn't near being completed, why mention it during qsmp's server announcement/server opening? What purpose does that serve? And also, knowing his "friend" Quackity is bilingual, why wouldn't dream ask him to join his server in the making? Unless shit was going down from before the qsmp server announcement... suspicious.

That alone would lead me to be petty so I can only imagine how Quackity feels. If I were Quackity, I'd feel like what dream is doing is purposefully hurtful and I wouldn't care too much if he was being harassed for it bc you reap what you sow. Also, this is like normal for dream no?

Another thing to point out is that announcing a server similar to what another "friend" is doing is something he could've totally avoided. Shouldn't dream be concentrating on dsmp season 2? Like where is that at? Where is this new revamped server that he had everyone rush to complete their lore for?

For the record, I'm not a dranti, I literally just don't care for him at all, one way or the other. From what I've seen, I'm thoroughly on Quackity's side. No one should be getting harassed and doxxed bc it's honestly not that serious, and even if it was, that's something for Quackity and dream to sort out between themselves. Anyone who feels coocoo enough to harass cc's and their loved ones needs to do some arts and crafts or something, pick up a less dangerous hobby bruh cuz this ain't cute

i definitely can see his side as well in this whole thing, like especially if u dont know how to tell someone who is being super rly that you dint like them anymore 😭 or that u just dont wanna be friends lmao. and then in qs head it was probably like "whatever, its not my problem he came up with this idea, i will just do what i planned to do" i guess bitterness mightve probably fueled it all like i can definitely see how q thinks hes justified in thinking dream made the problem himself and it has nothing to do with q. like i said tho if dream didnt say anything on that first day q announced his smp it would have been worse when he eventually launched it i think.

ghosting being ghosting, im a ghoster too its a problem, but there comes a time where u have to get over urself and tell the overly nice clueless guy that u dont want his flowers anymore. i think dream tried his best in an awkward situation, while quackity preferred to just say "not my problem so i dint have to deal with it" which in my personal opinion is shitty af, but some ppl wont think so 🤷🏻‍♂️

#anon #asks

[zagorodnik]

Lol even if I was a petty teen I don’t think I would’ve written a song shit talking anyone I knew online or irl bc I wouldn’t think they’d be worth it, tho I would’ve prolly said something like “exes am I right” If it seemed like a song about someone

Tho I’m surprised there aren’t more “diss tracks” out there lol (paranoia aside id think someone would have to be full of themselves to think some song is about them lol)

Yeah, I get you—I've written a couple, but I don't think I'd ever write one and publicly release it again. I'm kinda at a point where I have enough of a support system that if I need to process my feelings about something, I have someone to talk to. I don't actually remember much of 2020, so I'm not sure what headspace I was in when I wrote Adam. I just knew I wanted to improve on Eve's composition, and that January was particularly tough on me, so I ended up writing about what was going in my head.

I do think that Eve was a pettier move—I'm obviously not gonna get into details because it should remain a (mostly) private thing and it was fucking retarded of me to bring it half-public, but there was miscommunication and I guess I partially wrote it to share my side of the story to the other person (considering that we had stopped talking at that point). I remember being egged on to make it a little bit, but I think that might not actually be true and I might be thinking of something else, instead.

Then if you've been around since I was 14, you probably remember Pity Party, which. Lol. I'll give myself a pass on that one 'cuz I was 14 years old and petty 14 year old drama is just like that. I do think it was a really dumb decision on my part, but I think a lot of areas in the vocaloid community really are like that (or at least were in 2018). Of course, I am sorry for making that decision and think Zion didn't deserve whatever harassment that got him, but hindsight is 20/20, I guess. I'm not in contact with him anymore anyway and have no desire to be.

I do have all the files for all three of these songs still (I recently discovered Pity Party's files in a few disorganized places) and I do mess around with their compositions, but anything I do with them probably won't be released publicly. I'd give you a reason if I had one, but I think the biggest one is that I just don't give enough of a fuck nor do I want to have to deal with drama in the vocaloid community to that scale. Or ever, really, but I guess you can't help it when you've been in the circles I have.

#answers #my darling nonny #the vocaloid community is honestly the worst one i've ever been in #and that's coming from someone who hung out in like #tumblr sjw communities in 2016 #i'll be thankful for the good times i had but like. i'll never be active again #im certain anyone who remembers the vocaloid community back then understands and probably agrees lol #the shit that goes on behind the scenes. it's like genuinely mind boggling #i like obviously am not gonna start airing out dirty laundry but it's really weird when you realize that like #the people calling your friends (or friends of friends) out are like. right a weird amount of time #and about the weirdest things. things that seem normal while you're there but when you really start to think about it it's like #genuinely if this happened in real life or in any other community people would be like lol wtf is wrong with this person #yknow? idk #i try to remember mostly the good things because i don't want to become too like bitter a person over it #but it's really hard when you're only just now processing all the stuff you didn't realize was weird #anyway i'll stop fucking blogging in the tags now. my bad i didnt realize it was gonna be this much

[syubub]

ENERGY CHECKUP: YOONGI (again)

Now, I know I've already done an energy check up on yoon but I wanted to see how he was doing now that he's gotten his shoulder surgery!

Disclaimer time: tarot is not to be takes as fact and is my interpretation if the cards :) entertainment purposes only~

SHIT IS STRANGE (it is Yoongi though so I'm not too shocked)

So. For starters, his energy is pretty calm and chill. He's also a bit more quiet?

I wrote a note that tomorrow is exciting... idk I wrote it down and I'm not sure if its exciting for him or for us? Maybe its just a general like, "tomorrow is a good day" type thing.

Now. 11... I wrote this down and I'm not sure why though I believe that he might be seeing 11:11 on the clock or possibly that something exciting is happening for him at 11:11 (I just checked and thats in like an hour and a half from when I'm writing this down(( update i just finished writing the whole post and it is about 11 minutes away)) idk. I make no promises but I wrote it down so there you go.

I also kept seeing plants and I'm not sure if people got him flowers or plants as a "get well" type thing or maybe he's stressing bc someone has to water his plants lol

Okay. Okay. Hear me out. Black bean noodles. It popped into my head and I was told to write it down but I'm also really hungry so take that with a grain of fucking salt. (I even pictured a nice elaborate bowl that was red as well as the take out container. Yum. Send me noodles)

MOVING ON

Here's the actual reading lol. He is bored.

Thats all. Thank you for coming.

Jk

I joke. The cards give me a kind of frazzled feeling? Its the struggle of knowing hes done something good but it comes at a cost. Yoongi works. A lot. All the goddamn time. So what now? He's having this shake up thats forcing him to deal with stuff. Him having this surgery also may have brought back some less than favorable memories/ feelings that hes being forced to deal with now. Over all though he feels like its good. The 6 of wands makes me think that he's thinking of our response when he comes back. Its like he's gonna be so much more confident in himself and his dancing and he can finally move on from the car accident? It happed so long ago but he literally carried this burden with him. Its good. The wheel of fortune and is about a change and the 8 of swords is about self imposed restriction, imprisonment and over all bad/ negative feelings. I pulled the wheel of fortune first and asked what was changing and that was the 8 of swords. This surgery is helping to free him from this restricting, painful thing that may have been reminding him of the past! YES HEALING

Now. For this section I just kinda asked "whats up?" And got, easy does it, divine life purpose l, balancing masculine and feminine energies and uplift your thoughts. He may be resting but he's got his mind working on 3,000 my dude. Its the regular "yoongi is woke af" bullshit but damn. The cards say what they say. He's preparing. I'll come back to this.

Now the 7 of cups and the 3 of swords. I asked how he felt about missing out on promoting. He's heart broken with the 3 of swords. It genuinely pains him. And with the 7 of cups he might feel like there's a lot of ways this can play out and he's considered a lot of options.

I was curious how he felt about me coming into his energy so I asked him what he thought of me. Lol. These each came out separately. We got, 2 of cups, four of wands, the empress, justice, the magician, the sun and the lovers. Ha

So. To add to the mood setting my guide said "he's a drama queen" lol yeah he is.

So so so so so. I was confused? Still am a little confused but I'm like 80.9% sure that he isn't bothered by me poking around in his energy n shit. In fact my theory is that he's using this connection to his advantage? Lol sounds dumb but my best guess is that home boy sees my energy/ what I'm doing as a way to figure out his own shit? Idk maybe he thinks I'm his energetic therapist. Maybe even a matchmaker (I mean... I have been putting a lot of energy and work into finding/ connecting with his soulmate so maybe he's letting me do all the dirty work) I really don't understand but I got no further explanation.

Oki oki oki. Now. I was drawn to 2 books. The kybalion and the prophet. I asked yoon if there was any messages that we wanted to point out through the books and I got a number for each book so I took it as page numbers. 28 for the prophet and 54 for the kybalion

Take what you will from these if it calls to you. I haven't read these since I was around 13? The sentiments for each felt important to me so I'm curious what you all might think/ feel when reading these? ( I also get the feeling that Yoongi has read the prophet idk why)

Okay. At this point I was like cool, let's wrap this up but I need to talk about his pjs? Green/grey? Plaid pj bottoms don't ask me don't ask me don't ask me I don't know but It wouldn't go away so I had write it down? Help.

I had written yoongis brother down too. Theres something about him? I'm not sure what but thats all I got lol

I was very strongly told that I needed to remember 7, that its important. Got it. Worth it down.

Oki. As I was going back to the platform blah blah blah the string turned blue too. The cord is usually white or silver but it was blue so that was a fun thing and then I was like "nice. Cool. Thanks. This was awesome, get healthy blah blah" and go to leave/ end the connection but the cord wouldn't go away.

???

What.

Then the string (idk if I said but that string shit is like on the third eye? Its connected to my forehead and his too.) Kind tightens.

I'm like, "oh shit."

Listen. Usually everything is smooth and nice and I just leave.

All is well though bc my guide is like, "stop being a little bitch" so I just let it happen.

Yoon shoves me back off the edge of the platform. Why he gotta be like that?

Now. This is strange. I had dropped down into a library.

Y'ALL

I almost shit my fucking pants. Dear god.

THE AKASHIC RECORDS MY DUDE

He started walking me around until he found a blue book. His mother fucking book.

Home boy brought me to his fucking Akashic fucking blue fucking book.

I was big mad. "YOU LITTLE FUCKER! YOUVE KNOWN ABIUT THIS SHIT?" And he was like, "duh"

I've never felt more disrespect lol

Also the way the library was presented was way way way different from how it looks to me. So thats an interesting note. Looking at his book, on the base of the spine is a number 7...

Oki. Cool. I asked if I could look and he said, "Sure, when you can find your way back."

This mother fucker threw me out of a meditative state. Have you ever woken up just before you hit the ground in one of those falling dreams? THAT WAS THE FEELING.

?? I'm not sure what the fuck just happened or if it holds actual significance.

Anyway. After cursing the fuck out of yoobi I started thinking what else 7 ment.

I was specifically told to remember 7 and it was on his book. Then It popped into my head (I want to say its because I'm smart and thought of it all by myself but I think that was my guide wanting me to keep my last brain cell safe). What is yoongis life path number?

Now I don't know shot about life path numbers but imma read up on them tonight. I used a life path calculator on Google. HIS LIFE PATH NUMBER IS 7 Y'ALL.

Maybe I'm dumb as fuck but yoobi never disappoints.

Conclusion: Yoon is fine. Hes just being a yoongi and a yoongi does.

⬆️Me after this reading⬆️

⬆️ Yoongi rn playing 12D chess⬆️

#bts #bts tarot #bts reactions #bts imagines #bts rm #namjoon imagine #jin #kim seokjin #yoongi #yoongi imagine #min suga #min yoongi #hoseok #jhope #bts jimin #taehyung #jungkook #jk

[bisluthq]

I've been drowning in uni work for the past days so I've been offline until now and daaaaaaaamnnnnnnn. This totally deserves to be questioned and criticized. We can't treat famous rich people like they can only be gods or devils because there's a lot of ground in between and no one is perfect, but especially it's wrong to blindly defend these people when their actions usually have a strong impact on the cultural trends that arise in societies. This objectively looks like white rich people riding off their privilege. Lots of extremely talented people work hard for years to even get a record label contract and then work even more to even score a Grammy nomination, let alone an AOTY win. So even if you're a talented instrumentalist and songwriter/lyricist, it's just not fair to go from "doesn't have any producing/songwriting credit history, unknown in the music industry, and has never worked on a record" to "AOTY Grammy winner". There's so many levels between those two stages and people actually work very hard to expand their musical/writing abilities and the cultural impact of their work in order to get recognition from the Recording Academy, which is the highest most valuable form of recognition a musical artist can get. People are supposed to earn this type of honor through hard work and talent, not because they live with a very succesful and recognized artist and therefore have easy access to jump all the levels and contribute to their record.

Like don't get me wrong. Joe obviously has musical formation and is skilled as an instrumentalist, that's just a fact. They were in quarantine in the same house and there were instruments (we know he plays music for fun), one day he sat at the piano and came up with a fun chorus for a song, Taylor was there and got inspired to write a song based on what she heard. Does he deserve credit for this creative contribution? Yes fair enough, he came up with the lyrics and the music. Then one other day he came up with a cool low melody on the piano, Taylor was there, got inspired to write lyrics over that and so Exile came to be. Does he deserve credit for that too? Yeah fair enough he came up with the melody. I believe her completely on this because unlike some "fans" I refuse to think she would lie about someone writing in a song, even if it's just one line.

Did he contribute significantly to the production of the album? That's definitely a possibility, he's artistic, he was there, and he even wrote on these songs. I'm not saying that didn't happen. But formally being credited for this several months after the album came out and after said album won a Grammy? And being credited only on enough to be elligible for a trophy, after it is known that said album won? Not fair or cool.

Maybe he really did contribute that much to the album (that's what the Academy's website is saying 🤷🏻‍♀️), but they both knew everyone would question this if they made it public bc there's no way it doesn't look nepotistic and that would negatively affect their campaign to win awards bc ppl would only focus on that. WB was credited on just 2 songs and ppl made it all about that🙄They didn't want this body of music and art to be overdshadowed by Taylor Swift's boyfriend being a part of it, which I kinda get bc ppl love to hate on her and discredit her and I do think her and Aaron wanted this to be about the art. And if they didn't win anything, they would've suffered that dragging (which tbh would've been a fucking NIGHTMARE) for nothing. So they "hid" his credit to avoid this being an isssue and decided he would only get the credit after the Grammys were over, so as to not draw attention to it. Well, hiding information is still dishonest and low-key unethical Taylor. I would love an explanation and even if it's the one I gave above, I would would like producer Joe to elaborate on his contributions. Unless the fucking Grammy trophy was actually a gift to him like some of you are suggesting, which would reduce this whole situation to absolutely pathetic and embarrasing. Her doing this sneaky shit for him just bc she loves him is the most dissapointing possible scenario to me. So I really hope he produced on this album as much as they're claiming he did.

What shocks me the most is how tf did the Recording Academy agree with this?!?!?! Like did she make some sort of deal with them where they knew Joe was submitted as a producer but they didn't show this information? Did she give them solid proof that he really did so much for this album and they agreed to give him the credit after the Grammys? Maybe these rich people eventually drown so deeply in their privileges that morality fades to the background. I don't speak their language, maybe this type of nepotism is normalized and aceptable to them. Dissapointing but unsurprising I guess. Maybe Taylor is a much shittier person than I thought and after this I do think it's possible that she's been consciously queer baiting to profit from a marginalized community. I really hope I'm wrong tho and I really hope Joe really worked his ass off on this album coz ewww otherwise.

~🇨🇷OG CR Anon

Good thoughts here.

#grammygate

[thevampirediariesdiary]

[1/7] HELLO! so i just had to come here bc i found your blog through your 1x19/1x20 fic on ao3, and i've also been rewatching tvd (very slowly) lately, and trawling your tags to get a fix of delena lol, but there's something i've been thinking about for yearssss but your fic recently made me think of it differently as did your posts, so i would love to hear your opinion properly... so it is confirmed that damon fell in love with elena in 1x19 during the dance, but it was always MY opinion

[2/3] that he didn't KNOW-like, consciously-that he had fallen in love with her, and i’ve often debated with myself about when he could have realised it; i think the easiest answer is that isobel saying “because he’s in love with you” is when he was like Oh Shit because he after that moment DOES become a lot more flirty with her (and in the next episode kisses “her” cheek/lips lol, romantic feelings for sure)… but the way you wrote it in in the 1x19-1x21 posts and the last a/n on your fic makes [3/7] me think that you think he WAS aware he had fallen for her in 1x19? so he was what just not sure how to deal with it? i guess i just have always wondered about this because damon’s behaviour doesn’t seem to indicate he had fallen in love and Knew about it, 1x20 damon and elena are definitely a lot closer but they’re closer because they’re trying to help stefan together so it’s natural for them to be spending a lot more time together. and he goes with alaric with some hope that he can [4/7] find a clue about katherine/he still has katherine on the brain…?1x21 damon has some of the BEST moments imho that support both sides (he knew/he didn’t know yet); he is all Elena you don’t have to see isobel if you don’t want to, we should be in there; and then the threatening of isobel’s life to leave elena alone [5/7] this is so jumbled. i guess i just want to know how you feel about this Very Important question: did he know he had fallen in 1x19 and if so WHY (and if not, was it isobel saying it out loud for the first time that made him realise?). lmfao (also sorry about the many asks…blame tumblr for that.) [6/7] ooh also a follow-up question because i would love to hear it (and bc i just watched rose last night so it’s very fresh in my mind lol): why do you think damon chose to tell elena he loved her at that moment? is it just bc she didn’t have her necklace, so he had the opportunity to do it and then walk away? it’s so romantic to me that if this is true it seems like he was bursting to tell her “i just have to say it once” like it was always on the tip of his tongue??????? [7/7] would he have told her if she had never lost her necklace…probably not, he definitely needed to know he could erase her memory of it lol… ahhh yes would love ur thoughts… anyways, sorry for all these messages again... also just would love you to know how much i love your fic it brings me such joy, i did leave a message on there (most recent one lol) but may as well tell you again it is sooooo good!!! i love how you write them so in character!! 

THANK YOU for this message!!  I’m so glad you enjoyed You’re Still Here!!  and I definitely feel you on the whole “they confirmed that x moment was when so-and-so fell in love….but like…was it?” thing, because my kneejerk response to almost everything I learn from the commentaries is “yeah right”, haha.  BUT once I got over the initial resistance, the moments they name – the MMF dance for Damon and the birthday necklace for Elena – do have a kind of internal consistency, they work.  so yeah, I do think Damon knew he was in love with Elena in 1x19.  the big things for me are his face during the waltz (awed and affectionate), his face when he walks into the room after she drugs Stefan (oddly vulnerable almost), and the line “I’ve had a no good very bad day” (if he hadn’t just figured out that he was in love with a girl he could never have, I honestly don’t know why the day would be that bad haha).  plus, the way he reacts in 1x20 when she says that he’s been punishing Stefan for letting Katherine get caught – it’s really dramatic. it’s very important to Damon, suddenly, that Elena not be deceived about him.

on the other hand, though, the thing with Damon always is, what kind of love? throughout the show, I’m always pretty willing to give the answer, “yeah, Damon’s in love with her”.  but is he only in love with her, or is he also in love with Katherine at the same time?  does he truly love her, or is it a grasping, desperate, clingy love?  does he love her and think they could be together, or is he determined to love her from afar, for her own good?  and at the point of 1x19 I think the answers are still pretty mixed up: he knows he loves her but he also knows she loves Stefan, and so he clings to his love for Katherine as a kind of escape.  he thinks Elena might love him back when he kisses “her” in 1.22, but even then, that brief illusion isn’t enough to push out all of his old feelings for Katherine – Katherine has to totally reject him before he makes his feelings for Elena truly the guiding principle of his life.  finally, he has nothing else left, and so he can focus purely on keeping her safe and tending his love for her.

as for 2x08, I think it’s actually very intrinsically tied up with 1x19!!  before both episodes, Katherine’s been set aside in a significant way, taking her out of the picture.  in both episodes, Damon arrives at the bottom of a staircase to rescue Elena.  but where in 1x19 he knew she didn’t love him, but he still had a place in her life – her friend, her protector, her warrior – in 2x08 there’s no clear place for him.  Stefan’s drinking blood and in control, and Damon lost her trust; she runs down the stairs and into Stefan’s arms, and he’s left alone.  and Damon accepts it!  he feels all over again the devastation of losing Katherine and never having been loved by her or Elena, and still he loves Elena.  even though she hates him (she doesn’t) and he doesn’t deserve her, he finds that her “thank you” is enough for him.  compassion and gratitude from her is worth more than anything from someone else, it’s worth staying for.  he loves her, only her, without any hope of return, and he makes his peace with that.  and I think the only way he knew to let her go is tell her and then to very literally take it away, set her free even from the memory.  

I think he’d never said it before because on the one hand, she didn’t need to be told because she already knew, every villain of the week comments on it, but also because if he held back from saying it then maybe the perfect moment would come along and he’d tell her and it would mean something, she’d say it back.  he can say it now because he knows she’s not gonna say it back, and he’s okay with that. it’s still the deepest truth of his heart, and it deserves to be spoken and heard, even if it’s a hopeless truth.

it’s definitely a difficult scene to interpret, though, because he prefaces the whole thing by saying “this is maybe the most selfish thing I’ve ever said”, but then says that he doesn’t deserve her and erases her memory, which doesn’t seem selfish – and years after the fact when she recovers the memory he calls it selfish again??  which I don’t understand, unless he thought hearing it would cause her pain, which it…doesn’t seem to???  so I tend to just ignore that entire aspect of the scene.  I think this is Damon being unselfish, acknowledging his own capacity for selfishness which ruined everything in 2x01, and then rejecting it. 

this is quite a rambley answer haha.  I hope I answered everything adequately, and I hope it makes sense!

#asks #lucifermorningstars

[themegalosaurus]

Are there any soullessdean fics out there? bc it just hit me that i've never read one. In that episode of season 11 Amara did try to suck it out, idk why she stopped but it could have gone that way and now i'm just brainstorming that how that would've gone? What would dean be like without a soul?!? Someone plz write about this i NEED to know!!!!

I feel like there was definitely some chat in S11 about whether Dean was, in fact, soulless after that scene with Amara (I was trying to remember why that theory caught on and going back through some Ancient Samgirl Chat on FB I think it was because Dean wasn’t very on board with Sam’s S11 campaign to kill fewer people?! Like he wanted to get rid of some demon and Sam was like ‘no no we need to exorcise him’ and Dean was like *eyeroll* ‘oh right, new rules’ and people were concerned about that) (I guess that never manifested tho so turns out that was just Dean, hahaha). 

A soulless Dean would be interesting because we’ve already seen demon!Dean (who was basically aggro frat boy Dean, until 10x03 when he turned really nasty and personal and creepy) and Mark of Cain!Dean, who wasn’t that dissimilar in that he shared demon!Dean’s capacity for cruelty (”It should be you up there instead of her”) and enjoyment of violence for its own sake, but I guess had more of a self-righteousness to him whereas demon!Dean was more with the just not giving a shit. Differentiating Soulless!Dean from both of those might be kind of tricky, though it has the possibility to be interesting because Dean is so emotionally driven most of the time (more so I think than Sam).

In fact, I think a soulless Dean might actually find it easier to get along with Sam in some ways, because historically lots of the problems between them have been bound up with Dean’s emotional responses (Dean can’t deal with Sam’s supernatural powers because they contradict his internal image of Sam as a little boy, Dean feels wounded and betrayed when Sam works with Ruby or moves in with Amelia, Dean can’t bring himself to let Sam die because he loves him and fears being without him). A less emotionally driven Dean might be easier to talk to (he wouldn’t have the same hangups about revealing what he really thinks) and more willing to countenance alternative points of view.

Still, I think the same problem would arise as with Soulless Sam in S6, who was pretty benign until Dean started trying to re-soul him and he realised that might not be a pretty prospect. Even if Sam and Soulless!Dean rubbed along okay, Sam would be very conscious that Dean wouldn’t want this state of affairs to continue (after all, Dean made the choice to resoul Sam) and would (I imagine) go to some lengths to restore Dean’s soul. Soulless!Dean would presumably have the same issues with that as Sam did, and so conflict would arise. I guess though that depends on what has notionally happened to Dean’s soul meanwhile. A lot of why Soulless didn’t want to be ‘fixed’ was because everybody was telling him that Sam’s soul would be so damaged by what had happened in the cage it might kill him or have other serious long-term effects. If Dean’s soul had just been held somewhere safe it wouldn’t be an issue so much; though you still have the issue that soulless!Dean as a separate person would then essentially vanish. (As soulless Sam says to Bobby, ‘He’ll kill me to get that other guy back.‘.) I think Sam might be quite conflicted about that, if he and Soulless Dean had worked together okay. But I feel like ultimately he’d be on the re-souling side. 

I actually read a fic not a million miles from this idea, though it isn’t the same trope exactly - Dean had lost his memory (this was written pre-’Regarding Dean’) and woke up effectively a new person and it was about whether Sam should ‘cure’ him or not. (I canNOT remember where I read this so if you know it please hit me up and I’ll add the link!) But that was Dean POV, about working out his own relationship both to Sam and to his previous self. That’s cool but I would be very interested in a Sam POV fic with a soulless Dean, where soulless Dean was sort of engaging as a person and Sam had to wrestle with what happened to that guy when Dean’s soul came back. (OMFG that has just reminded me of another amazing soullessness fic, askance’s ‘Gentle Flesh’. It deals with some similar issues but is emotionally BRUTAL so prepare yourself.)

This was very waffly, sorry anon! I wrote it in bits and pieces during my workday, that’s my excuse.

#jess replies #soulless sam #spn meta #soulless dean #i guess