#i guess i was a fairly gender noncomforming child

[theotherace]

it did not properly register to me that i was a "girl" until i hit puberty, and let me tell you, that was quite the rough awakening, lol.

#rambles #personal #not atla #i guess i was a fairly gender noncomforming child #i remember that i didn't want to play girls or women when my sister and i played with playmobil and shit #specifically bc i thought my voice didn't sound like a girl's? #and so i always played boys bc that was like ... the only other available thing #this wasn't any 'i don't feel girl enough' or 'i want to be a boy' #it was just ... 'well i don't think i'm a girl so i guess i'm playing at being a boy' #but without actually thinking that #and honestly shit should've clicked much sooner lol #and since i've come to the conclusion that i'm agender it doesn't even bother me to be referred to as a girl #or woman now i guess i'm 21 #because yeah i'm closer to that than to being a guy and also it's familiar and also i don't care anymore bc i know who i am now #gender is ridiculous #a scam honestly