#i forced myself to write a bunch of stuff that i ultimately wasnt happy with

[broth-y]

i am really out here repeatedly posting ideas and saying i'm going to write things-

and then not posting any writing since june.

#aaugshsbsh #in retrospect #i should not have participated in soudam week #i love soudam week but #i forced myself to write a bunch of stuff that i ultimately wasnt happy with #the only exception is the proposal fic - i was proud of that #but the rest felt rushed #and now im in a funk and i dont want to make stuff that i hate #but i feel like i need to #i feel like im disappointing people? idk who but #i hate it #i wrote 2 things and put them online - after not showing any of my writing for like 3 years - and now i feel obligated to put more #and i want to - i have ideas - but i cant seem to put them down on the page #idk #and im venting on main lol sorry