#i feel mildly terrified

[albino-parakeet]

I hope that despite Ben’s new towering height, he’s still as agile and scrappy as he was on the island(s).

He’s not fast enough to ever beat Yaz in a race, but he’d definitely use the environment to his advantage to cut whatever/whoever he’s chasing off.

Like Oh you know that tall guy who was with the other dude chasing you? Well he’s in front of you now.

#camp cretaceous #chaos theory #jwcc ben #i’m just rambling #did I think about this after chasing my dog around the house. Jumping over like 15 different obstacles trying to cut him off? #I guess this is considered a headcanon? #jwct #I feel like it would be funny and also mildly terrifying.

[ghostie-gengar]

it's my b-day so i get to post cringe :3

#i've been seeing this meme all over the internet and i wanted to play too lol #i feel like if neo 3 and N ever met N would be mildly terrified of them. but they'd think he's pretty chill #N would talk to little buddy and not understand salmonid speech and be like wtf how can i not hear his voice #gengar's cool art #pokemon #pokemon black and white #pokemon bw #n harmonia #pokemon n #splatoon #splatoon 3 #new agent 3 #neo agent 3 #little buddy splatoon #smallfry

[designernishiki]

kiryu sitting haruka down for a really important talk and looking nervous but deeply serious about it and when he finally speaks he gives an honest and vulnerable admission that upon much self reflection, as unlikely as it may seem, as shocking as it may come, he is, in fact, gay, and he hopes this doesn’t make her feel any distress or discomfort in-part due to the implication that he likely didn’t have romantic feelings for her mom, he did care very very much for her regardless of labels, and so on and so on. and she lets him give this lengthy emotional confession that goes on for like twenty minutes before he finally goes dead silent anxiously anticipating her response. and she’s just like. uncle kaz I really appreciate you opening up to me like this and I’m really proud of you for accepting yourself for who you are. but me and every other kid at morning glory figured this out like 10 years ago

#he’s shaking he’s on the verge of tears and she’s just sitting there like. should I act shocked? this clearly means so much to him but #i feel like saying ‘uncle kaz. its not that subtle. you were a bachelor taking care of a bunch of adoptive kids with no interest #in women whatsoever for years. i already know. most people close to you already suspected.’ is a bit anticlimactic #I think about this a lot #cause realistically she would probably be the first person to open up to about it #unless he miraculously put together through Obvious Context Clues that daigo and mine were a Thing (probably YEARS after the fact though) #and then went and asked daigo about it. which would be hilariously awkward and id pay money to see it #he’s so bad at reading the room and like. getting social cues. I feel like he’d finally get a moment where he’s alone with daigo in his #office and would strike right as daigo’s about to make casual conversation like #‘so how have you b–‘ ‘daigo-san do you like men’ #with his typical stoic intense look on his face. poor daigo that’d be mildly terrifying. also the funniest thing he could possibly do #kiryu #haruka #rambling #kazuma kiryu #haruka sawamura #yakuza #amusing follow-up to the initial idea with haruka. he eventually calms down and is relieved and whatnot and says to her kinda casually #‘I’m not sure if I’m ready to tell anyone else. except maybe majima. I’ve been able to trust him for decades with just about anything and I #know he’d never be judgmental–‘ and haruka’s sitting there like. oh god do I have to tell him. someone’s gotta tell him.

[captainofthetidesbreath]

thinking about these two moments when Spahr resists Imelda and the wording of her responses to that (2.02 / 2.13)

#You're not allowed to think Imelda says. The Trust thinks for you. *I* think for you. #How DARE you have feelings and thoughts that the Trust did not put into you. It is not your PLACE to think‚ to decide‚ to have agency. #Spahr has made some less than great (to put it mildly) choices but... he's waking up out of a life where he's never made any of his own. #Terrifying that Imelda directly tells him he's not supposed to think and that he will be punished for having independent moral thought. #Jonas Spahr #Imelda Goldfinch #Midst #Midst podcast #Midst things

[invinciblerodent]

if bloodsoaked killer, avatar of wretched villainy, fetid and rotten, a vile creature to the very core.... why kicked puppy??? why cute round eyes??? why sweet scared girl who just wants to be nice and help everyone????

(in other words it's durge time; monk styles)

(my plan is a Karlach romance, but man, if you deliberately RP as someone who is both very confused and deeply scared, there is something extra reassuring about Gale's confidence. Like I'm trying to lean into Karlach's warmth -both literal and metaphorical- being a source of comfort, and the reason for this character to be drawn to her, but the dynamic of a strong woman who knows nothing and the physically frail man with chronic pain who knows everything IS intriguing...)

(then again, that could just be me being not even just thirsty, but parched for the wizard.)

#squirrel plays bg3 #oc: mara #watching my partner play his dark urge made me want to get mine out of tutorial limbo (first tactician run; wish me luck) #she has Astarion-syndrome; looks either like a fucked up gremlin or the most vulnerable creature in existence #.... ironically enough she is very much NOT drawn to Astarion #he's... kind of scaring her I think #played all of like an hour and she seems to have the best rapport with Gale so far #very “i don't understand the thing 🥺” “very well; allow me to explain you the thing in excruciating detail! 😀” #... it does feel good though that even though i can't deny that Astarion is my favorite; it's no issue for me to not romance him #both because i'm so attached to his dynamic with Iona; and because he just Doesn't Work with my other characters #Petyr was very... “i'll fuck anything with a pulse but that's kind of a hard limit for me pal; no offense” #and Mara is “our first two conversations both involved you implying that you'd kill me with a knife. i'm sorry but i'm a lil scared of u” #“please don't take this in a mean way but you are mildly terrifying”

[astarionsbite]

*85 damage* ._.

#this was a one hit kill on an enemy with full health #and i still feel like this is on the low to average end of potential damage for him #i'm mildly terrified everytime he does this #but also he goes into all combat in the game with me bc GOOD LORD #astarion #bg3

[lesbiansanemi]

*through gritted teeth* ppl can ship whatever they want and it’s fine it doesn’t affect you ppl can ship whatever they want and it’s fine it doesn’t affect you ppl can ship whatever they want and it’s fine it doesn’t affect you people can—

#I need to stop seeing douma/akaza stuff like. now. #I’ve tried okay I’ve tried to even mildly like it and nope #I can’t do it. I cannot do it whatsoever #I JUST DONT GET IT I DONT GET IT I DONT GET ITTTTTTTR #I know it’s my thing where I viscerally dislike ships that are based on two characters #who are on the same side but STILL fucking hate each other #because literally no matter what it just feels so weird and forced to me #like they are on the same side. they have similar morals already. if they were gonna like each other AT ALL… they would #but yeah no I’m hffjdjdksk I can’t do that one anymore #and it used to be such a rare pair so it was really easy to avoid and now I’m seeing A LOT more of it and it’s getting more difficult #and I dunno part of it is the idea of shipping douma with ANYONE #like I can’t stand him being shipped with shinobu kanae or kotoha either #his canon interactions with them have just tainted it sooooo much for me #and like yeah rocks at glass houses I’m aware I’m the enemies to lovers weirdo who ships characters who keep trying to kill each other #but mannnnnn something about the idea of shipping a guy who terrified a woman so wholly she threw her baby off a cliff because that was a #better alternative to him getting his hands on her child? yeeeeaaaaahhhhh… it’s not gonna be for me folks #it is NOT a kind of power dynamic I am gonna enjoy when it’s that particular angle #the context of their relationship cannot be that removed to me #it’s just one of my person nope. can’t fucking do it don’t fucking like it kinda makes my skin crawl things #which in a way is unfortunate #cuz I actually do enjoy douma as a character a lot and I can enjoy certain explorations of him #where he actually DOES learn to be in tune with his emotions again and learn to care for someone #but I rarely see it done well #and when I see ANY of that so called ‘development’ linked to any of these ships #it’s usually just akaza or Kotoha or shinobu getting over their hatred/fear of him in way too fast and highly unrealistic ways #while douma does very little to actually develop himself he just kinda is Automatically better because someone loved him back #(in a way that’s usually out of character for everyone involved lol) #esp when any of these ships are showcased in a REALLY cutesy way like again it’s just not for me #I don’t think I can ever really jive with it #oh well. I should just block some more tags I just needed to complain a bit first lol

[taumoeba]

like not to get fake deep but there is just something about reconnecting with characters you loved as a kid when youre an adult knowing how youve changed since the first time you read it and how they will always be a part of the journey that got you to where you are today

#blah blah blah #last thing ill post today about this i just think its finally hitting me that im done with collegr and about to experience #the biggest change of my life thus far and even though its mildly terrifying i can look back on everything else ive managed to do and not #feel like its the end of the world

[tieflingbi]

gallbladder-free since '23 babeyyyyy let's fucking goooooooo

#hello surgery went well #it was mildly terrifying because it was my first time getting surgery #and there is the fact that my finnish is unfortunately still nowhere near a level where i could communicate with ppl #especially in a medical setting so that had me worried #but everyone was extremely nice and spoke english wish me #the doctor even whipped out her german which threw me for a loop but was also really nice of her #the hospital gown + robe combo made me feel very jedi-adjacent #so that was fun #it also went rlly fast and i was home by early afternoon #spent most of the day napping but i had to flee the bed for a bit #the pain is not so bad? they gave me painkillers and they're doing their job #i just need to take it easy the next 2 weeks #but yea i am HYPE that this stupid bag full of the devil's gravel is finally out #also shoutout to my partner who is the best and sweetest and whom i love and appreciate the most on this planet <3

[upsidedowngrass]

i will say one of my Biggest pet peeves in one fanworks is 'liam becomes the new airy.' like im sorry i respect u and ur interpretations and ur creative interests !!! im glad ppl have fun and have ideas about post canon one, theres a lot of potential there!!!! but also the moment that i see a work have liam do this i instantly stop paying attention

#not putting this in the tag cus i dont wanna make ppl feel bad!!! #and like. i HAVE seen works that mildly explore it but in a way that i kinda like #but its just. it bothers me So Bad #like it contradicts every trait liam has ever shown in the series AND all of his motivations #'ppl qct ooc under stress!' yeah but it doesnt make ppl act in ways Completely diff from who they r... like hes still liam #at that pt hes just a whole new CHARACTER #but its like. his ENTIRE motivation is that he wants to stop anyone else from going what he went thru. will do anything to prevent that #itd literally undo what makes his entire character him at all to have him go back on that. thats literally his most prominent motivation #its SO intrinsically tied to him as a character #like yeah!!! him and airy are both isolated in that world. there are strong similiarities between their characters #but they still went theu snth DISTINCTLY different. #airy died and was isolated. liam was kidnapped and then isolated. it feels just different enough that i CANT see how #liam would just end up as 'airy 2.' their experiences may be similar but theyre still extremely different #and its like. ive said it before but i think julien is meant to serve WAY more of a parallel to liam than airy is #if theres anything i think liam would do if he couldnt get home? it would be to try and try and try #until hes just... not going anywhere #his stubbornness (and juliens stubbornness for that matter) is vital to understanding his actions. #hed never stop even if it meant he REALLY never stopped. and i think thats just as emotionally impactful #and? even if he WERE to act ooc. uh #tbh? i think hes terrified of dying. he does NOT like it. i think esp after the waiting room hed dread it bc all he knows of it #is that hell just keep dying and dying. or end up just stuck there forever #but. if he were to start rly going against his established traits. i think hed more sooner off himself than start s3 #ESP since it is his own concern for others that makes him act the most Against his own self in the entire series #when he tries to kill airy. bc he couldnt stand the idea of everything continuing #and airy doing this to more ppl. THAT is what is strong enough to make him go against his own personality #and i think its too deeply intertwined into his character for him to try to deal with isolation by kidnapping people #esp not owen. #suicide mention #ANYWAY. these tags r long #OK TO RB BTW if u want i just didnt tag it bc i dont wanna make any1 goin thru the tag sad or anything

[undergoing-mitosis]

so i bought a cheap wig for mello. and it was blonde online but then it arrived and it was fucking???? white??????? so i googled how to dye synthetic wigs and it turns out that you can use sharpies and rubbing alcohol so i did that and now my wig is literal sharpie yellow instead of blonde and i cba to buy a new one

so now im just wearing this full on leather slutty outfit with chains and a fake burn and. highlighter yellow hair. and honestly i can't decide if i absolutely love it or if it should burn in hell

i cropped myself out for obvious reasons but for reference here's the colour. it's very bright irl.

#the idea that mello dyes his hair neon yellow amuses me #he totally would the pathetic man #but also #i look pathetic #and do i want to look pathetic? well that is the question #i think if i get a proper top it'll look iconic but do you know how fucking hard it is to find a zip up (p)leather crop top in my size???? #but yes mello my beloved #i feel so slay rn #my parents are mildly terrified but eh it's fine #mello dn #mello #mello death note #mihael keehl #miheal keehl #death note #dn #thoughts n rambles

[quaranmine]

i had a really good weekend this weekend tbh i just kind of crashed a whole bunch of activities one of my friends planned since she had another friend visiting for the first time from another state. (i mean, she def invited me, but i still felt like i just kind of of Showed Up every day sldfjslkfs.) but i got to her a lot better than before, got to make friends with her out-of-state friends, met a few more cool new friends, and it was really nice :]

#i may also get invited to join one of them for a tabletop game (would be my first one) she was super excited to try and get me into it #i also found out a lot of us have super similar taste in music and stuff like. fictional characters (even if they like diff ones) #and one of the people i met was also a writer 😭 AND she knew what fanfic was and had read/written it before #i feel liek it's been 84 years since i found someone irl who Got Me like that.... #she invited me to something shes planning with a friend in two weeks where they r going to a bookstore to write together #but alas i have work and other commitments that day #i may have comitted to sending her firewatch au when it's done which mildly terrifies me but! let's do it! #i kind of established: #-several con new buddies #-several new concert buddies #-several new people whom i can trust to Relate With Me if i get insane about fictional characters #-another person love loves writing??? #amazing.

[collegeoflore]

:’)

#z plays bg3 #oc. ieriyn #anyway freecam my beloved #ieriyn feels. idk how he feels about this honestly. shocked? stunned? mildly terrified? #ieriyn has always felt like he was a walking bomb waiting to go off due to his wild magic but well. gale takes it to a new level. #he’s. idk. everything is terrifying and so much rn but i do think he realizd when gale was like #‘send me away if you must’ that he absolutely does NOT want to do that. #r. see how it shines

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

something I’m thinking about at 7:52 in the morning is how I used to struggle so much with burnout & general stress in my writing—every writing session used to be some pathway to a new type of exhaustion, mostly because I hated everything I did! liked this sentence? well tough because this chapter’s arc is confusing. liked this dialogue? well tough because I’m deleting this thing & starting all over again until it’s good enough. sometimes it’s hard to track how far you’ve come as a writer, but wow, now I look back & I wonder what would’ve happened if someone had sat me down three years ago and said “hey, you can hold two things at once: that you’re unhappy with whatever you’re doing AND you’re still trying regardless which is a good thing” because me at 18 took writing so personally & couldn’t handle even an ounce of “failure.” I wrote myself into holes that way! and it’s wild to me that I can cut to now and see how I can talk myself through a “panicked” drafting moment—it’s not even a big deal anymore to me—but I only got there through constant gruelling reminders that it’s fine to have fun in my writing and I don’t need to be perfect all the time. I’ve written so meaningfully in just one year & I keep wondering when I’m going to burn out because usually I’d get 2 weeks of “good writing time” before things went bad for months, and that hasn’t happened to me yet. I’ve been suspicious but then I wonder if I’ve found a process over these last few years that prioritizes gentleness & joy & rest to the point where writing isn’t this exhausting thing anymore. and it makes me excited for the next three years!

#yesterday when I was drafting I went ‘oh THIS beat again??? the one I’ve written forty times already and probably shouldn’t write again???’ #BET #just didn’t give a fuck lol #a lot of this struggle in 2020 was not being confident as an editor to be fair #so maybe the last 3 years the reassurance has come from knowing I can work on this shit later again #AND also that it’s fine if I do work on it & it still doesn’t work #like don’t get me wrong writing is still hard sometimes #but now instead of the stalls feeling like hell crashing onto the earth itself #I’m like sometimes just mildly annoyed lol #this is also why a career in writing terrifies me #I enjoy writing because I LOVE it #it’s harder to do that when you’re worrying about all those other factors #but lol I’ll cross that bridge when I get there

[sleepyzllover]

Doodles that i couldnt be bothered to add an extra watermark into. Im thinking steampunk kzsc 🤨🤨🤨

#i drew this at the dentist's office #have i ever mentioned im fucking terrified of the dentist #ok not terrified but my experience at the dentist is never good #why are dentists such cold and unfeeling creatures ???? #and god. the dental clinic #walls and door when u first enter. painted bright green #the wall u stare at while they are poking metal tools into your mouth. striped #there are framed boomer memes on the wall. theyre either corny as hell or mildly terrifying #bright light above me also has a reflective surface so i can see my crusty ass lips. i avoid looking at it and stare at the damn wall bc #i cant look at the dentist either that would be weirf #the dentist in question is a short old lady in hot pink scrubs. she holds neither disdain nor empathy for me #apathy at my pain as i tense every muscle in my body the millisecond i feel pain #dental clinics should be considered a circle of hell #genshin impact #sleepy.art #genshin #genshin impact fanart #kaedehara kazuha #kazuha #scaramouche #kazuscara

[technicolorxsn]

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#theres a person who frequents my notes a bit whos username never fails to scare the shit out of me </3 #its a combination of two names of people i range from mildly scared of to fucking terrified of </3 #and i know theyre not either of those people but GOD #tempted to soft block them but i also dont rly want to bc idk #guess it feels mean or something