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somewhat-crazy · 2 years

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Uhm-- yea-

•Ginger, brown eyes, freckles.... I am..so short. Send help. UHM freshly 20?

•Local Non-binary with he/they pronouns, I'm Pan so I'm good with any male/female/enby/anything. Although I am physically attracted to anyone, I prefer to go for personality compatibility if Im interested in long term.

•Also they have to be cool with a Poly relationship b/c I am not getting of elderitch-bunny my beloved.

•PROBABLY have some form of ADHD and I'm prone to stimming when I'm nervous or happy. I hit things, bounce and shake my hand when I'm very excited. I chew things, bounce my leg and click/tap my pen when nervous. Im prone to getting overwhelmed by stimuli on my bad days.

•I DO NOT LIKE VERY MANY PEOPLE. I am the type to keep my mask up, hat down and headphones on. Don't talk to me I don't have the social skills to talk about anything other than art supplies and various fandoms.

•If I do like you I will be a complete attention whore though. It is a complete 180, like a dog that only likes 2 people and demands to sleep in the big bed.

•Artist at heart! I'm a jack of all trades due to my compulsive side and the internet not having EXACTLY what I want. Amazon doesn't have a certain mask? Makes it. Amazon doesn't have a painting? Makes it. I will randomly decide to do stuff and proceed to hyperfixate for 3 days.

•CINIEMATIC NERD. Yes hello I saw Marble Hornets once and decided to take a four year class on cinematic production because I thought poking a demon would be fun. But really. I'm a film nerd and I'm not allowed to sit next to certain people during movies because I froth over soundtracks and camera angles. I have photographers anxiety over 24-105mm camera lenses and leaving the camera on autofocus. It's an actual crime btw- always Manual focus: the autofocus is haunted and can't be trusted.

•I would need someone who can get excited over this really cool stick I found as we come up with ways to use it, but also someone who can slow down and just vibe with me when my brain is not having a good day.

•I need someone to Match my choatic bullshit but also take a nap because the sun sucks and people suck.

•ALSO. IM FULLY CONVINCED BEN AND JEFF ARE SECRETLY E-BOYS HIRED BY THE GOVERNMENT TO INFILTRATE BY ACTING LIKE EDGY TEENAGERS AND I DO NOT TRUST THEM.

•[spontaneously goes and sits on the roof for no reason other than Compulsion]

•Be prepared for a random questions and random times.

•I HAVE CANONICALLY GONE TO AN IHOP AT 3 AM DUE TO INSOMNIA.

•Also I adore coffee and would legitimately kill a man for it.

•compliment me and I'll punch a wall, yes this is true irl. I get very hyped up like a dog when I get complimented.

•I also tend to disassociate! It's like the opposite of sensory overload-- where the world is muffled and fuzzy. I will suddenly be at the store with no idea how I got there alive. Luckily this doesn't happen too often!

Uhm-- good luck? I feel like i ranted oh god I'm sorry- ?????

IT CAME OUT AFTER VALENTINES IM SORRY BUT HERE YOU GO LOVE

i match you with: cody !!

i probably didnt get this correct but just so you know, ILYSM HELP. you're just so cool sOBS /pos /p

cody actually also loves film and does photography as a hobby! you get drama from arguing over camera angles 😩

jokes on you, cody is the eboy hired by the government. he pretends to be super tough n cool but in reality he's so soft

he's not super good at art (except sketching and charcoal drawing gore- for some reason he's good at that) but he loves watching you do your work. if you want to decorate any of his stuff, he's always up for it!

in my au, cody is a mix between a wolf and a cat; he likes naps, bubble tea, blasting music, and is very protective of people he likes. he's someone you can talk to when you're upset and also someone you can burn down a government building with if you want

he will 100% join you in any of your weird adventures; loves all the random things you come up with and adores all the random and sometimes illegal things you guys do together ^^

#NO BUT SERIOUSLY YOURE REALLY COOL AND I WANT YOUR FROGGY GAY DADDY HAT THING VDHHDJDN #creepypasta #creepypasta x reader #creepypasta matchups #creepypasta x virus #x virus

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moderngirlmp3 · 2 years

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<33 imagine that tho. you walk outside. it's sunny. you walk straight into an oversized pixelated bee. what then how does one even react i

!!!!! genuinely so honored to be a little gay people in your phone, happy to report that you too are a little gay people in my phone, and sometimes in my computer :)

YEAH. YEAH YEAH YEAH. there is extra credit in real life,, that's so true actually. you are lit rally one of the best people. genius... beloved.

yeah :/ i know what you mean it's definitely Not Always A Vibe. but !! i actually forgot to include a tone tag there it was actually a good thing at that moment, cause there was no awkward hesitation and like. weird fumbling as i try to figure out how to literally say one sentence lmao. (sidenote did you know that they ask that stuff at the DOCTOR'S OFFICE?? they asked sexuality, which was pretty easy to dodge and just go "oh,, idrk yet" but then the Pronouns question came and i. i sat there for a good half minute, and eventually the doctor started explaining what pronouns are to me and like. ahhhh. idk why i keep telling you about all of my bad pronoun experiences :( i'm sorry)

oh i'm sorry :(( that does sound really exhausting, and i hope your friends can take the hint. maybe you could recruit a friend to help correct others? even if it's just gently, or adding on a sentence that uses they/them pronouns for you in a kinda pointed way. and as for the not telling many people bit, it might not end badly to come out, yknow? i was watching a thing a while ago, and the youtuber was talking about getting top surgery and changing your name, and doing all of these things that maybe some people won't like, but it doesn't matter. because there's always going to be some people who don't like you when you're being you, and if they don't like you when you're making yourself unhappy by trying to be someone you're not, what's the point? and they had this point that really Resonated with me. it was something along the lines of "some day, i'll be old and in a nursing home with all of these other old people, and i'll listen to their stories and be like 'these people are so cool, and they lived great lives and did stuff that they wanted to' and i'll be sitting here like 'why didn't i do that thing, or why didn't i do something that would have made me happier?'" and i'm trying to keep that mentality in my pocket when i'm Doing Things. and maybe it's just late, but i think it's just really important to be happy. and we're all going to end up old anyways, but at least we can end up old and happy, rather than old and bitter that we never did things like come out to friends, or pursue changes that would have made us happier.

!!! that's sounds awesome !!! i hope that all of your friends make you feel that way, but i completely get what you mean, and i know it already happened, so i hope it went well !! WOOO i'm so happy for you dude /gen. casual affection is so nice, and all of that sounds really lovely!!

yeah yeah yeah i see that !! casual but positive, or it could be sarcastic and minorly concerning. maybe even threatening like a "if you ever say that again i'll find you and kill you :)" yknow

MOOD. i feel like it either has something to do with internalized transphobia/Iffy Societal Constructs or a feeling of knowing yourself to the point of "when i use these pronouns for myself, at least i know that i'm talking about me, but when other people do it, it feels like they don't see me".

!!!! THAT'S SO COOL !!!! subjects that line up so you're learning one thing in one class and using and relying on that information on another. amazing. i will say that i have yet to reach calculus or physics and despite reading that three times i still have Very Little Understanding, but i will remember that for when i am taking those courses. it sounds very smart though <3

probably the :D one? because i get excited pretty easily, and especially when i'm messaging irls, i have to restrict myself from punctuating every sentence with caps, !!!!!!, or :DD. and like the :) one, you can use it sarcastically. although there was actually a period of time where i got upset when people would say "literally hate everything rn :D" because !! no !! why are you turning the pure little emoticon into something angry and sharp it's like a little child just use the. the goddamn emoji form >:( and. and i think i mentally gatekept the :D emoticon from people...

hm i have. no thoughts rn shdflksdjfx but !! did you know daylight savings ends at 2am est?? i tried to stay awake to see the clock go from 1:59 am to 1 am but then i fELL ASLEEP just passed 1:40 which is so lame now i've got to wait half a year- or, another piece of knowledge that's really random and not that useful? i tried out firefox bc there was that post talking about how google is actively tracking your data and is evil and how firefox is actually so much more secure, and bc i am very easily peer pressured- /hj but i did try firefox, and there's a Feature on youtube. it's called picture-by-picture mode, and it lets you pop out the video from the youtube browser, and you can have it play while you're in another tab/browser!! it's a little box in the corner of your screen so i thought that was pretty swag :)

"good" and sometimes i just say it really slowly and unconvincingly because ?? who actually thinks about their emotions to have a response prepared the day has been a day yknow. i forget everything that wasn't two minutes ago and you're asking how i am? /j people asking, even if it's just a formality, are very nice and i try to give it at least two seconds of thought.

forget and remember the same time? or forget one time and remember another? maybe sixth grade, although i would much rather have the rest of the world forget that time, instead of just me. maybe earlier in the pandemic? where we were kinda Suspended in a State of Time, and outside was. Going. but inside it was kinda nice, i think. i'd like to remember texting and video calling my friends, and getting to watch the sunset in my pajamas, and doing my hw and listening to music, and getting to meet people via tumblr, but i don't want to remember how lonely i would feel, or how much i argued with my siblings, or the general fear coupled with a lack of motivation. but i think i would overall want to remember rather than forget. and !! i am probably more puns (name puns in particular, i love finding clever ones and just. laughing to myself even though it's so stupid) hsdlkfj :D

if you could remember and forget one time in your life, what time would that be and why? would you rather forget it entirely or remember all of it? do you have any seasonal habits? are you usually cold or hot? are you a "pick out clothes the night before" person, or a "figure it out in the morning" person? something that bothers you about how other people text/message?

sidenote: i listened to upside down on repeat while i answered this, and it is one of the Most Songs. so nice and vibey,, 14/10 would listen to at sunrise when it's just a bit windy and cool, not enough to make it uncomfortable, but enough that you're yawning and pulling a blanket or sweatshirt around you and lying down on the couch <3

sidenote sidenote: this is. Really Long. i'm sorry i really don't know how to type in a concise and consolidated way and still attempt to convey my emotions :/ - 🌵

i. i have no excuse for taking this long to answer this im so sorry.

wait they asked sexuality at the doctors office??? that seems. weird. shouldnt they just ask if you're . yk. active? whatever. and oh my god the doctor was EXPLAINING PRONOUNS to you??? im... im sorry thats kind of hilarious and also so stupid sdfkjsdlkfjs. also dw you can always tell me about this stuff i wanna hear about it !! im sorry u gotta deal with all of it tho :(

"we're all going to end up old anyways, but at least we can end up old and happy" OKAY. i. okay okay okay i. yeah yeah yeah. you're. so right. i'm not ready to come out to my parents but. i think i am ready to do more Things!! i'm getting my ears pierced and maybe getting a haircut and also i might dye my hair :) and it'll all be okay :)

yeah exactly!!! if i accidentally use she/her for myself it's like okay. i'm still adjusting to it but i recognize and validate my own identity regularly so i still know myself. but with others it just feels like they still see me as a Girl. and i don't love that.

no SO true of u to gatekeep the :D. that is a pure and happy thing!! the other emoticons can be used for sads and angries!! keep the happies happy >:(.

omg omg that youtube feature sounds SO cool . then you can do multiple Things !! at once!!! that sounds so !!! fun !!!!!

NO SO TRUE. i literally. forget everything thats not like. four seconds ago it's a problem /lh. but yeah ppl randomly asking that stuff is nice its like oh hey u thought of me <3

oh.... yes yes yes. exactly. quarantine was definitely a Time and. there are so many different aspects of it and everything is just so. complicated and interwoven.

hmm.. if i could remember one time in my life it would be. when i was a young child!! i wanna remember being young and loving everything and thinking everything was so new and cool and i want to remember learning how to read and discovering everything and holding my sisters and not understanding everything and not wanting to!

if i could forget one time in my life... god uh. there was this terrible thing in elementary school where i hid from all the adults and almost didnt get picked up bc they all almost left the school and i wouldve had to stay overnight bc my parents forgot to pick me up. that was bad and i still lowk have nightmares so. forget that pls </3

idk tho. forgetting is scary because there are always important lessons from everything, right? i don't want to make the same mistakes just because i don't remember making them before.

oooh seasonal habits? yes. depression /j /lh. no umm. lemme think i guess . yeah i dont think so ? hmm not sure my brain is not very thoughts rn

oh apparently i am always warm like my hands are warm and stuff but i typically feel kinda in the middle? like when it's cold i feel hot and when it's hot i feel hot but at random points i'll feel really cold. it's weird lmfao.

oh my god i am SUCH a figure it out in the morning person. i would love to pick them out beforehand but i wake up early anyways and i get so tired at night so... nah. also it all depends on my mood in the morning.

hmm. okay i dont know why but. it REALLY bothers me when ppl use some emojis. like. idk. just some of the happy face ones and some others they just are very Off. also capital letters in the beginning of sentences. ick. also when ppl do not respond to my enthusiasm with equal enthusiasm :(

what's something that bothers you about how other people message? something you're excited about this winter? favorite and least favorite part about school? does it snow where you are and do you like the winter weather?

sidenote response: god yeah it's literally the BEST song. most song ever. also dw dw i cant be concise either <3

#plu answers #radio silences #🌵anon

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