#i feel like past that its... eh

[bangcakes]

.

#personal #..... im just gonna have to be patient NDNDNDNNDD #and tbh im lucky to even be feeling this way. like i never in a million years would think this would happen to me #like JDJDJDJDJJDJD god. idk idk #we defs like. were buds at that dinner. like he was near me the whole time. like i left a lil earlier and he was right behind me NDJDJDJJDJ #got to sit next to each other.... and like. god.... idk this was like movie shit #when i got there...... it was super early okay. i get anxious about being late (and ok i also know he has a tendency to be early) #so i pull into a spot n im waiting there #this car that looked like his pulled into the spot almost in front of me #n im like is that him ????? like wouldnt that be so fucjin funny #then the light in the car goes on and im like OH IT LOOKS LIKE HIM???? but then i was like eh it could be anyone #so im like okay whatever. if its him. he'll get out eventually #so the guy gets out if the car right and LMAO IT WAS HIM AHAHAHAHAHHAHA #so i get out of my car and like theres so many cars going past us so i walk a lil ahead #and then i look back and meet eyes with him n im like #OH SO IT WAS YOU #and he was like. YA. I WAVED AT YOU #and i was like I DIDN'T SEE IT. then we talked about something else #and then i was like..... was the light on when you waved tho #and he was like... i think so???? GOD. LMAO. THIS IS WHY ITS GONNA TAKE US 800000 YEARS #so anyway. its only us two there and we're walking toward the restaurant and im like oh should we go in. n hes like ya #so we do.... and god lmao being there with him... going up to ask for our reservation. i was like WHAT KIND OF DATE SITUATION????? #LIKE IT WASNT. BUT I WAS LIKE DJDJJDJDJDJD OH THIS IS. WHAT ITD FEEL LIKE HUH. GOD. #n e way we had to wait forever for the table n for other ppl to show up. #then when we were finally sat... he was right near me. like not the chair directly in front of me. but tge one adjacent #so i got to talk to him all night !!!@ and like there were some awkward times of silence but JDJDJJD IDK. WE WERE EATING. #and like there were other people at the table too and i didnt wanna just be asking him questions NDJDNDJJDJDJ #n e way. he was cuter and taller than i remembered. he had me dying laughing at some points. i still like him so much NDJDJDJDNJDJD #im in so much trouble......... like will i ever be okay again

[nostalgia-tblr]

I started this in fucking JANUARY and at last is it done but it is over 9000 words long and a bit fucked up (because I sent them to Planet Dubcon again, oops). This is the one where Sylvie is rude, Loki is diplomatic, and the Grandmaster is absolutely going to take advantage of their obvious affection for each other.

Title: Love Is A Danger Of A Different Kind (AO3) Fandom: MCU Rating: Mature Pairing: Loki/Sylvie, Loki/Grandmaster Wordcount: ~9300 (?!!) Additional Tags: Dubious Consent, Sexual Coercion, a lot of coercion in general really, the frostmaster is dubcon the sylki is just angst-ridden, Angst, Hurt No Comfort, (well maybe a tiiiiny bit of comfort), Sylki on Sakaar, Implied/Reference Sex, Dancing, Sharing a Bed, There Is Only One Bed, Kind of dark, sylvie is rude; loki is diplomatic; the grandmaster is a terrible person Chapter Summary/Extract: Knowing how the Grandmaster has been making Loki ‘entertain’ him makes her guilt return, and as always it edges almost instantly into anger. “I’m not letting you get hurt for my sake,” she insists, hotly. He takes offence at that; “Letting me? You think I need your permission?” Sylvie pushes herself up on an elbow, as if added height would help make her point better. “Yeah, actually, I do. I never asked you to protect me from my own failings.” “You never had to,” he shoots back. “And you never will either, whether you approve of that or not.”

#my fic #sylki fanfic #frostmaster #both pairings do bang in this story but one much less consensually than the other D: #it's not “on-screen” as such but i rated it high because of swearing and oh my god the dubcon D: D: D: #but if you're clicking on a fic tagged as loki/grandmaster i feel fairly sure that you know what you're getting into here already #idk how to tag for a past/mentioned pairing that's technically the same as another pairing but Grandmaster/Ragnarok!Loki was a thing too #ITS FUCKIN FINISHED AT LAST THO EH?!?! #when i say “it's not on screen” i mean i didn't describe it but sylvie is sitting right next to them while some of the dubcon happens D: #so like. it's not *not* on screen either really.

[kidfoundonstreets]

I DONT HAVE THE IMAGES IRGHT NOW BUT YOU UNDETRNSAD?? YOU GET ?? YOLU GET? IM MADLY I NLOV WITH YOU TIWLIGHTRCADE MY GOOD FRIEND MY COMRADEMY RIDE ROD IE

#freak to freak communication you know ? #thank u . u r the best ever <3 #i really enjoy ur rants and talkings always always.. i hope we r buried skeleton together all for meotauls #anyway matty and ahshe silluy in the way that thjey absooltuely fucking hate eahcother nad ahse has dienfitley b #locked many things out as his life froze after his family died therefore he hasnt had time to process the anger towards matty #maybe he has had anger nad bitterness towards other things but i dont feel like matty is high on his priority right now esp #since he doesnt know wher eh eis but hes still a deep rooted issue - and its not thast he hasnt accepted his familys #death exactly (thouhg i guess that is it but in other wording) its that he hasnt accepted it ending like this #he has to think about his family dead to think about summoning them back yet still i do think he does have #many delusions where they are alive and the thought of going back to them is the only thing keeping him going really #sometimes i think about how even wehn hes crossed the line and killed so #mebody hes still going on it feels like a dead corpse being raked across the floor to lose another piece of who he is once again #kid's heart #BUT THAT ISNT WHAT I WNATED TO TALK ABOUT AURGHH!! #i think that in the past maybe possuibnly you have to be another level of ill to get this far #but ashe geeneeuinly thought of matty as a good friend who was close to him etc etc but on mattys side its harder #because theres no clear intetion ill make up my own i say he did value ashe in a way but #in the end what did indeed win out was his hatred and infeoririuty towards ashe - i dont think he even wouldve goen that far #if he didnt know ashe o rmaybe he wouldve done it sooner - he would spend time with ashe normally with the thought #of how hes using him bnack in his head then go home nad the feelings would pile up pile up pile up esp since his parents #would lay the pressure on thick meanwhile whenever he went to ashes house it wa s ashining exmaple #of what he didnt hvae #and because matty is selfish. it drives him insane #i find it kinda funny how ashe got his trust broken by him leaving such a scar yet now hes #lying to people as matty was as well #i can say more but im scared.

[strifethedestroyer]

my uncle died. hm

this is the first time i've ever reached the tag limit. the last word is meant to be funeral.

#text #interesting experience #i mean it was expected he's been suffering for a couple of months now. he got a lot better at one point and everyone was like woo you're- #-gonna survive! you're not gonna be like before but you're not gonna die but eh voila he died #like a week ago he was sent to the hospital because his kidneys just failed and the doctors said nah dude he's on his deathbed. better #just die at home rather than dying in the hospital alone so they took him home and they've been waiting ever since and here we are #personally i barely know shit about the guy. he used to deliver us bread and he shook my hand once and smiled at me. radiated a good aura #but i dont know anything. dad says he really respected and loved my brother and i so ill take his word for it #but man for the past like month its all you hear about. like i dont mean this in a derogatory way i completely understand dont get me wrng #but its just death death death all around #an hour or so ago i was walking my dog with my mom and brother and i just said i wonder if uncle's died yet #20 minutes afterwards my mom gets a call that he's died. uncle was in a different room from the rest of the family so they couldnt know #exactly when he died (we went to visit at about 5 pm today and he was alive but asleep) but my parents think it must have been around when #i said that. dad's superstitious and all and says that uncle sent me a sign. like i said apparently uncle loved me a lot. im not #superstitious but i'll take his word for it - uncle sent me a sign before he died. #i feel a little bad now. he seemed like a good man. im just replaying my only memory of him - that time when he shook my hand and smiled #like smiled very brightly. he and grandma look so alike. like ofc they do they're siblings but they look so alike #im very worried for my parents and grandma though. #espechially grandma. she's been at his house almost all week becuase she knew his time was soon #when we visited today we were supposed to pick her up and bring her home and then return her tomorrow but once we arrived she apparently #said (idk i didnt go inside i just wandered outside and pspsed at cats #that she didnt want to come home becuase he was very ill. she knew man she knew. #i dont know how she's going to handle this i just hope she'll be okay we'll do what we can to help her #i hope my parents are going to be okay too. me and my mom's relationship is rocky and i dont like my dad much #my dad returned from europe yesterday to stay with us for a month and i was really not looking forward to it. i always dread his visits #like dont get me wrong i love him just like im supposed to i just dont like him very much #but nonetheless i hope they'll be okay #as far as i know my brother also didnt know my uncle very well so i dont think i have to worry about him #he and i will just have to do our best to support our family i guess #about like 30 minutes ago my parents left for uncle's house and they'll return early morning tomorrow and then go back immidietaly for the

[tsunami-gem-guardian]

occasionally relapsing and visiting my lair unlogged in to see my guys #starving

#helno i feel calmer about fr now thats its been awhile #im still not super happy with staff and how theyve been publically acting and presenting with the past few months but its like. eh #auraboas backed up with the crown the banning of river to sea the catholic buttons #they all have their logic but idk #they felt kinda aggressive and not super understanding of their userbase who have their reasons to be outraged or worried or scared #cant help to notice this is all after auraboas reception went poorly after staff hyped them up pre release #but like. ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i still like dragon dress up game and dont want to fully stop playing u9pdfashiodsa #keeping true to my word and im gonna keep not playing #until april. #ive been unfollow my muts and keeping yall in a bookmark folder so i can spam follow then cause. my whole dash was dragons p much lol

[freakinhorse123]

annual shittie appreciation thread <3

@lyraissleepy literally the older sibling i never had lyra you are so cool and I appreciate you so much! One of the best people ever! Love chatting to you mate you’re awesome! Also don’t tell dick legs but he’s pretty cool too

@terrible-leviathan my spouse, my buddy ol pal, terri you’re amazing even though you lost your ass like a year ago <3 seriously though you always cheer me up you’re so great! If we ever meet up irl i am tackle hugging you you cannot escape also your cursed names for the guest stars on the shitstain squad discord are so cursed /pos! You’ve legitimately changed my life and were pretty much the first close internet friend i have had you’re amazing <3!

@fuckingfish1234 dude your art is so cool and you are so great and cool! I really enjoy talking to you mate! Also you have a hand in the cursed names of the shittie friends. It was either Genital fingers or Breasty hair that was your fault (affectionate) but genuinely you’re great to talk to and your arts are fucking awesome and i am so glad i know you i take that back what the fuck was that message fish (/j you’re cool)! also listening to you get into rottmnt was so cool

@sajdd sajdd you are so cool and awesome and we bully you slightly too much (even if you are old) complaining about the mcu occasionally with you is so much fun and watching you bully dick legs to hell and back is hilarious

@filmnoirdetective bones my boy you’re so cool and swag and you get what i mean when i ramble about dc and you’re a rottmnt enjoyer you’re so cool, i really love talking to you!

@daylovejoy seriously love chatting with you you’re amazing and you’re one of the nicest people i’ve met you deserve the world! Fucking love checking my phone and seeing a notification from you

Shitties i’d give all my internal organs just to sit in a room with you all for an hour and talk, it’s been a great year with you all and i’m so glad we’re friends <3

#robin past 7:30 #i had to heavily tone back my appreciation so as not to doxx any of the shitties #it’s been a wild year but having the shitties in it has made it 10x easier to get through #every day i get mad that i cannot hug people through a screen #sitting on call with fish that time and just chatting whilst we both worked was so nice i wanna call with you all more often #but its difficult because timezones and external factors and talking is tiring q-q #but yeah youre all great #side note i was listening to meet me in the woods by lord huron on repeat whilst writing this and it makes me 100% more nostalgic #this is honestly the tumblr equivalent of professing my love from the rooftops #i could just do this in discord but eh #i like this better because its like ‘HEY LOOK I LOVE THESE FUCKERS SO MUCH’ and it just feels nicer

[galarfiend]

currently enjoying a little crisis about my future and how i can get what i want out of life without losing my parents’ support so uh them

maybe they have more in common than they know. maybe theres a difference between forgiving someone and excusing their actions. maybe enemies can become friends

#bede #hop #also you can tag this as cheeryfairy if you want #i think its sweet if its done right #my art #vent art #<i guess? #its not straight up vent art but i drew it to blow off some anxiety so #eh #ramble incoming: #i just think a lot of people dont understand the difference between forgiving someone and excusing their actions #there are definitely people who dont deserve forgiveness but i dont think that bede is one of them #idk. idk #also i feel like when ppl write redemption arcs they accidentally cut & paste a new personality. its annoying #in conclusion: everybody should go watch atla and study zuko like hes a beetle.

[thepavementsings]

#sorry in advance to baking-soda for butchering her wonderful verse #i was listening to this on a walk with my dog thinking about TURNED INTO A GIRL ALEX #it happens at the end of the 2020 season. #He calls george. trying to joke about it #'Its barely the worst thing thats happened to me this month. adding it to the tally eh george?' #but george can hear the fear and hesitation nestled behind the exasperated laugh he lets out #So george offers. He can talk to Lewis for Alex. If he wants. He's helped - well he knows about this stuff- george has heard. #alex's shaky smile on the other screen as he breathes out a thanks is enough for George to push through the trepidation as he makes the call #Of course Lewis tells him everything #but george cant hear 'emotionally meaningful' and 'sex' and 'alex' in the same sentence without feeling like his chest is being hollowed out #so he lies. says Lewis told him it has to do with life stressors. tries to ignore how his skin crawls when he suggests it to Alex #that he should see if Max is in Monaco. Swallows thickly around the sound of 'you know because of your seat' #Alex laughs unkindly. 'right. because of the seat. guess i'll try him before i leave.' #before he packs his bags and his dreams and moves back home to england. back to me. george thinks #he doesnt see alex over the winter. pretends it's because he's busy with family and training and a mercedes seat he's vying for. #it isnt until he's walking past the red bull hospitality in Spain the next spring when he sees it #Alex. standing in the doorway just tucked out of the way. arm stretched over his head to holding the frame. #he looks the same. save for the way his red bull shirt hugs his chest tighter. the puffiness of his cheeks more present #he catches george's eye from where he's been standing. nods him to the space between the buildings #his shoulders are drawn up. hands in his pockets when he shoves lightly into george's side #george's mouth feels dry with the words 'you didn't.. it didn't work?' #theres an anger that flashes behind alex's eyes before it's quickly replaced with a familiar bemusement #'no. guess you cant fuck the girl out of red bull but cant fuck the red bull out of the girl.' but theres no heat behind it #'hey. it could be worse. at least i dont have to be out there doing media with the rest of you idiots' #george barely makes it back to his motorhome before he heaves up whats left of his breakfast #there's more but only so much fits in the tags. sorry again. #george/alex

[skyllion-uwu]

Had to create a cento, or a poem made of lines from other poems. This is what I made. There's a lot of tabbing so I reflected this in the alt text by adding [tab] for each tab of spacing. Please let me know if there's a better way to reflect the spacing in the alt text. Sources listed under the cut

X Number by Chris Glomski

Bryant Park at Dusk by Geoffrey Brock

Venus Fly Traps by Yuself Komunyakaa

Charms for Love by Anonymous (Translated by Fiona Sampson)

Look to the Future by Ruth Stone

Letter to Someone Living Fifty Years From Now by Matthew Olzmann

#sky writes something #technically i arranged it but eh #sorry this is a screenshot i was worried about tumblr erasing the formatting if i copy pasted directly #i wasnt sure if i could give it a proper title. couldnt really think of one so i left it without one #further commentary usually i feel like its obvious what my poems are about but if youre not... well ill say what it is after the next 2 tag #because art is subjective and you might have a different perception than what i thought when i was making this and maybe you dont wanna kno #what it was i thought when i was writing #anyways its about questioning your gender

[traaanskimkitsuragi]

i think what rubs me the wrong way about totk the more i play it is the fact that the game actively encourages a completionist playstyle (esp in comparison to botw) even though playing it in that way is absolutely a miserable experience

#like the game is really fun if youre just fucking around doing whatever you want #but for some reason the devs were like 'hmm what if we gave the players some side quests & objectives that are literal checklists' #like oh you want the froggy armor? do every single stable quest #or the quest that has you finding every well #or that one npc that literally TELLS you to get every single frog gem like. why #imagine if hestu told you to find every korok seed it would be so shit #and yet somehow they do that with other things for literally no fucking reason #or the DRAGON GRINDING for armor upgrades holy fuck thats actually hot garbage #i literally looked up how to do item duping specifically for that bc fuck that #major parts of this game just straight up dont respect the players time #i like cant figure out why its this way?? like it feels like gameplay padding #it just sucks bc there are so many things i love abt the game but then theres shit like this #& also the terrible UI and the terrible controls and the terrible combat #and its just like. in botw i didnt mind that bc it was a new game #but they seriously couldnt fix any of that stuff for the sequel? #just copy pasted it like 'eh this is good! who cares' #well the UI has some improvements but it also has some steps back so really its a net zero #really this is just reminding me how much i loved subnautica and how much id rather be playing that again which is. hm

[luciality]

DID MAPLE STOP MAKING THEIR RINGLET WIGS????????? FUCK

#i almost bought one in black back in 2018 but i spent that money on a dd of mine instead #and i figured eh its a classic a staple even. it will never disappear. #now im thinking it would look so cute with a coord and im like hm i should finally go buy it. #and btw 2018 feels like last year now 5 fucking years ago omg #and they completely redesigned their site and i cant find the ringlet wig ANYWHERE #im gonna kms if they dont make it anymore #im such a fucking idiot im gonna hop in my tardis and beat past me tf up #shut up luci

[aria0fgold]

The last reblog... Unlocked some really precious childhood memories. The nostalgia of going to the cinema for the first time with everyone from class to watch a movie we'd be writing about. I remember being so bored at first and only excited about the new place but got hooked by the movie anyway. It was the first movie I've watched in a cinema after all ehe.

#aria rants #funny how id thought to be so bored during then #but now its one of my most treasured memories #i should rewatch dayo someday #just for a trip down memory lane #also would like to see what young me liked about it ehe #since ive forgotten most of the plot anyway #i think there was a moral lesson to it #to be grateful and to care for the environment #i think that was the lesson #aiyah getting to a certain age #you really start to think about stuff in the past #especially the fun memories #starting to feel like an old woman somehow

[meringuejellyfish]

currently i like to think that maybe qifrey and alaira met during a silver night festival .. if it is true that they are childhood friends then maybe they became best friends in the whole world that night but thought they were never going to see eachother again. but then uh yeah i mean the great hall isnt that big i think. they found eachother again eventually and then 20 years or so pass and theyre still very good friends. alaira is also probably very passionate about magic and they could talk about it forever .. they just seem very comfortable around eachother even if they dont get the chance to see eachother often these days

#allisters atelier #i like them #man. when is alaira coming back #i want more of alaira and qifrey friendship but also just of her because .... we know ultimately nothing about her #who ... is she !!!!!!!!!! #growls #anyway. i think that they met and became friends when they were likee late teens maybe #but based on how alaira greets qifrey in her first appearance it seems to be implied that she is also a childhood friend like olly #''it's been some time since you last set foot on the seabed... young dissident of the great hall'' ''days long past alaira'' #in a fan translation she calls him a problem child and hes like hey that was a long time ago. im normal now (lie) #alaira apparently also grew up in the great hall now that i think about it so yeah probably childhood friends #i dont mind it they just feel like people who met when they were a little older #one thing is for sure though and its that theyve known eachother for a very very long time. and are very comfortable around eachother #i like how qifrey has uhh 3 close friends. and thats all he doesnt really go out of his way to interact with people #man they gotta invent discord for witches. qifrey and alaira have been around eachother maybe twice in the manga #and qifrey literally lives with one of his friends and still goes days at a time without really seeing him due to their schedules #and responsibilities #so sad. if they had wizard discord then qifrey could send olly pictures of brushbuddy and olly responds with thumbs up emojis #teenaged alaira and qifrey playing minecraft for 11 hours straight but also qifrey has the worst mic in the world #eh. what was this post originally about

[scantilycladplatypus]

you ever miss your best friend and realize those days are gone and what hurts the most is just not having someone that truly understands you there anymore

#maybe its my fault for being the closest with the people I've been in a relationship with #just miss people who would hold my hand and feel safe #even all the ones who hurt me #in the end i cherish those moments so fucking much it honestly out weighs any hurt they may have put me through #which i think is the part thats impossible for me to explain to people #I'll mention some of the eh people have done when I've been in a relationship #and they are like yo thats fucked up #okay yeah but i felt safe being me around them and honestly that will always mean the world to me #honestly if you read all of these thanks for letting these not just disappear into the void #hope you're feeling okay and are somewhere in life that would make your past self proud

[arolesbianism]

Thinking abt the random card au again. Why must it go so crazy hard I miss it sm

#rat rambles #random card au #no matter how far I drift from my bndori and sekai peak days the random card au keeps hitting me like a truck every now and then #it just scratches an itch that I havent been able to satisfy since my cr days years and years ago #I wouldnt say the random card au has super similar worldbuilding to my old cr stuff as that was much more large scale #but it still has a similar appeal to me I think #I think its the building entirely new worldbuilding based off of designs and general vague starting concepts and bringing them all together #that gets me invested as it feels so satisfying slotting it all together and then actually getting to play out the story in this new web #I loveeeee jumbled webs of worldbuilding and characters that all tie together in a way that makes it almost impossible to completely #seperate one cast of characters from another #I love the feeling of a world with a bunch of intertwining plots like that even if it makes it near impossible to format a normal story #like my cr stuff was just so much man I still miss it sometimes even if I hate cr itself #Ive become a much better story creator too now so I know I could make what I had so much better nowadays and I already like my old stuff #it just makes me all the more sad that I went so crazy hard on worldbuilding for a franchise that sucks ass </3 #it may have been two of the worst years of my life but Ill also never reach that worldbuilding high again I think #oh also it made me actually start the slow slow process of getting more ambitious with my art and doing more digital stuff #rly thats the biggest reason the random card au pains me so since I wanna post stuff for it but man do I not wanna draw anyone from it #first of all human characters so already eh but also Id have to adapt the cards theyre based on into a design I can actually draw #so as much as I wanna make a billion random card au animatics I cant even bring myself to draw them normally #you see olivia and jackie are easier to draw because I just made shit up for their designs and as such made their designs very simple #but I cant just make shit up for bndori and sekai characters they actually have designs and hair that Id have to adapt to my style it sucks #I just wanna draw doggy arisa is that so much to ask for (yes yes it is I dont wanna figure out her hood) #also rip mygo yall will probably never get in but who knows maybe one day Ill have my second bndori era and then y'all will get in #its rly just the fact that they likely wont have enough cards to properly add them for another few years #especially if that other band also gets in if that happens neither are getting enough cards until the servers shut down lol #like I Could just pick and choose but thats boring #kinda ruins the point of the au y'know? #like tbf Ive cheated in the past by reroling two and limiting my options with several sekai characters #but thats just because at the time most sekai characters had almost no usable cards for this au and the two I rerolled were also unusable #like Im sorry but I couldnt just add normal ass hagumi and masking it wasn't happening

[rubys-domain]

wait

WAIT

I DID IT

I FC'D MOONLIGHT DISCO

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !! #FINALLY #OH MY GOD #you have no idea how many times i replayed this song during its event #and i could never get a combo past b #but now i got it bitchhhhhhh #it's amazing too cuz i was just kinda going through the motions this time around and had zero expectations #like “eh this day has nice songs ig i'll do this day for those damn starries” #and i felt like dealing with beat spam today so i did that. i got a horrible combo in the previous song too #i feel like throwing a party over this lmao that's how happy i am at this