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jigo-ku · 4 months

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My parents are like the worst. They are divorced for like 18 years and I can't even talk on the phone with one of them if the other one is around. They created the worst environment for me as a child and now they trigger my anxiety bc they are insecure that I don't love them enough(and yes they should be worried about that bc they have tried to destroy me. I have memory loss bc of my trauma and that scares me so much) or they are just competitive with each other.

Last night(Nye), I was at my mum's home. My cousin didn't feel very good after Nye and I ran to her to give her support. And bc of that I forgot to call my dad to wish him a happy new year(he didn't call me either, he just texted me). I went to a party after that(I had so much fun btw) So I texted him back at 7am, after I came home and I said that I'll call him when I wake up. At 12 pm, I woke up bc I needed water and I wanted to vomit. After that I slept for 2 more hours. I woke up again and I called him, he never answered.

Moments ago he called and he acted like I forgot about him and he tried to guilt trip me. I tried with all my strength(I feel exhausted) to explain to him why I didn't call... Now I have chest pains, I feel like he hates me... His wife talked to me in the same tone as him. I didn't meet them, for Christmas not even for the New Year's, but I had covid until yesterday and I wanted to have fun. Is that so bad???? Why do they always try to guilt trip me?

#sorry about that #but i feel like shit #i want to cry #i feel like a failure #i ruin everything #diary

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insom-nom-nom-niatic · 3 months

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DND FRIENDS I NEED YOU!

I'm learning and I feel like I am learning too slowly so I need some help from you all. I have never actually played a game of DND until last weekend and am continuing until everyone leaves because HOLY SHIT IT'S FUN... but I am having a hard time understanding some things now that I am at the table and not just watching Critical Role. I really thought I knew this stuff guys!

My Build:

CLASS & LEVEL: Warlock LVL3

BACKGROUND: Urchin (stupid, I know but I had an idea)

RACE: Asmodeus Tiefling

PACT: Pact of the Tome

Eldrictch Invocations

The Fiend

ALIGNMENT: ....That's a secret.

My Questions:

Do I get any BONUS ACTIONS being the Warlock that I am?

How do these spell slots work? I know I get 2 slots but... huh? I'm lvl3 and can only take up to lvl2 spells, and only have 2 spell slots? What if I do 1 at lvl1 and another at lvl2? Or 2 at lvl1? and why don't you get lvl3 spells?

Can I choose any cantrips from any class? and how many being lvl3? I know I get my racial one so THAT is the only thing I have clear there.

Should I have Dark One's Blessing? And Should I have ANOTHER spell known on top of the 4 known? (burning hands, command, blindness/deafness, scorching ray, fireball, stinking cloud)

WHAT THE FUCK CAN I DO WITH MY Book Of Shadows?

Can I do much more than Repelling Blast from my Eldritch Invocations?

Do I get anything else besides my lil Book Of Shadows from my Pact of the Tome?

#DND #dnd help #dungeons and dragons #dnd 5e #dnd 5e character #Were using Roll20 and I'm trying my best #critical role #I feel like a failure #it wasn't this hard when I planned before #tonight was my first combat and I helped a whoping 13%

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studyinginthestorm · 11 months

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please give me a virtual hug

#i'm so tired #emotions #emotionally burnt out #mentally burnt out #physically burnt out #neurodivergent burn out #neurodivergent studyblr #actually neurodivergent #honest academia #i feel like crying #i feel like im losing my mind #i feel like i’m gonna throw up #i feel like a failure #i feel like shit

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recovery-nuovame · 1 year

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My meme™️

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melodicwriter · 2 months

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I hate that even my burnout has affected my writing. I used to be able to write multi chapter fics but now all I can write are one shots:(

#writeblr #writing #writer #fic writer #fic writing #I feel like a failure

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the-better-rainbow-unikitty · 8 months

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It's my birthday today and I'm so fucking depressed. Also drunk. I can barely see but rely on autocorrect to keep my posts sane looking lol. I fucking hate birthdays. Thsi life is fake. I am asexula and aromantic and how do I tell my husbad??????? I mean he knows I'm asexual and we still fick sometimes but Ive only recetlntly realized I'm aro and I can't tell him I have probably never actually felt love in my life. What even is love. I do not know. I cannot tell him this he loves me. But what is there to love? I am but a pile of shit with depression and anxiety and chronic illnesses and laziness and fucking chornic fatogue. I want to lie down. . Low and lower we go. Happy fucking birthday to your local nonbinary disaster bless me I suxk

#slice of kitty #aroaxe #actually aroace but keeping the prev cause cool #nonbinary #i feel like a failure #i want to cry so bad but can fucking not #help #my life is a lie #g

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irbcallmefynn · 25 days

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I kinda feel like a failure of a person 👍

#i feel like a failure

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dragoon811 · 6 months

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How do you know when you are done with a relationship

#my heart hurts #I feel like a failure #i want to curl up and cry #i want to scream #I want to throw things #I don’t know what to do #what possible the future do I have anymore #I need a hug #shut up dragoon811

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alostbeautynomore · 9 months

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Depression sucks so much! I am overwhelmed and burnt out and I have noticed myself slipping back into depression for a while but I think I am fully in the depths of it now. I feel so defeated in so many ways. Hopeless. I just want to lay in my bed and not move ever. Work is becoming extremely difficult to continue. I am a people pleaser so quitting terrifies me but I truly might need to in order to actually take care of myself

Any helpful tips? Last time I had to quit my job for mental health reasons my boss was horrible to me like truly horrible. So I’m scared on what to do and how to do it and everything else blah

#recovery support #ed recovery #pro recovery #ed warrior #cptsd recovery #ptsd recovery #sh recovery #alostbeautynomore #tw trauma #mental heath support #babysitting school therapy too much #ptsd support #ed support #im starting to push support away #tw ptsd #tw depressing thoughts #i hate this #i feel like a failure

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killdaisie · 3 months

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i quit my job lol

#dear diary #i feel like a failure #but they expected me to wake up from sleeping to answer phone calls and work nonstop from the 22nd til the 2nd #and i only earned like $20 a day on average #it’s just not worth it

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multicolour-ink · 1 year

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I NEED TO SEE THE MARIO MOVIE I NEED TO SEE THE MARIO MOVIE I NEED TO SEE THE MARIO MOVIE I NEED TO SEE THE MARIO MOVIE I NEED TO SEE THE MARIO MOVIE I NEED TO SEE THE MARIO MOVIE

#man people on their 2nd even 4th rewatches????#and i have only seen clips #I'm a failure #i feel like a failure #super mario #the super mario bros movie #super mario movie #mario movie

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flockofteeth · 4 months

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having a very normal time thinking about how i'm weird & intense to other people

this is why ive gotten bitter in the past at people being like ew who wants to be normal bc like. fucking me actually

like ultimately i probably wouldn't change who i am but it's hard man. i wish i could turn it down a bit

#it me #it doesn't help that i've put on a ton of weight and i'm living in a cabin on my friends property #while other people are out there achieving things #thinking about how other people will see me is getting to me #particularly when its people in the field that i want to work in if i ever get well enough to work #i told my old superviser that i got my masters and she was delighted which was lovely but then she asked what my findings were #i don't fucking know bc i haven't been well enough to find them :(#i feel like a failure #i haven't made the progress in 2023 that i really thought i was going to ... yet again I started to work on my project and then got sicker #and didn't end up getting anywhere #i have got a bit physically stronger and i might have found a lead on how to address my overwhelming insomnia issue #but ive had too many hopes that haven't worked out to actually feel hopeful #sigh

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imabiteurankles · 1 year

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im failing 2 classes n the semester ends in a month go me