#i feel disgusting

[skittles-the-whumpee]

WELL...

I fucking knew it...my gut told me today was going to end horribly.

The prosecutor wouldn't even take my DCFS (CPS) agent's card, the agent that said our case was set to close.

She didn't care that it was a legal substance.

She didn't care that it wasn't mine.

She didn't care that my son was discharged in less than 12 hours with nothing given but fluids.

She didn't care that I was moving things from one room to the next so I couldn't watch my son every goddamn second.

She just looked at me and said "My child wouldn't have even had the chance to eat an edible in my home."

Um...ok? What the fuck does that have to do with me, my kid, and my home?

So I have to go back there in a month with the public defender because I'm facing a criminal charge with time in prison...FOR MY SON EATING AN EDIBLE THAT WASN'T EVEN MINE!!!

That's right. My ex-wife is the one who left an edible out. I keep everything locked up. Everything. No good deed goes unpunished.

I want out of here...I'm pulling my hair because I NEED to get out of here once this shit clears. I want nothing to do with this place anymore.

#ooc venting #public defender #court #legal issues #she looked at me like I was a fucking criminal #I feel disgusting #and there's not enough water on this planet that can ever make me feel clean again #prison #rb this so it can get seen please #court saga

[leaskisses444]

FUCK WHY DO I ALWAYS LIKE THE OLDER GUYS AND I CAN NEVER CATVH FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE MY AGE OR EVEN A YEAR YOUNGER

#love life of a teen girl #i feel disgusting #i may or may not like a guy almost 5 years older than me

[l0vestrk]

I find myself thinking shamefully about them, I just can't help myself

I feel so awful but the chemicals in my brain as my heart races encourage me

#I feel disgusting #but also as if I want them to hold me so #A little roughly... like a doll #a doll that can take it #obsessive love #yancore #actually obsessive #yandere #yanderecore #obsessive yandere #lovesick #yandere vent #obsessive vent

[king-wens-king]

I AM NOT EXXAGERATING IM NOT BEING HYPERBOLIC I ACTUALLY STARTED CRYING AT THIS IM NOT DONE WITH THE EPISODE I JUST NEED TO LET THE WORLD KNOW MY EYES ARE DRIPPING ACTUAL TEARS

#TLOU #tlou #the last of us #WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME WHY AM I CRYING SO HARD #I FEEL DISGUSTING

[possibly-pasta]

i love waking up and just….. crying. for the first hour of my awareness

#it’s so fun #i feel disgusting #and i wish my bestie was here to sit with me #he’d probably let me hold his hand fora bit if i asked #i just feel useless and worthless and ugly and annoying #and like i’m becoming obsolete and irrelevant #and i really really don’t like myself right now #it’s not fun #it has spoken

[highpri3stess]

Going offline for tonight. I'm genuinely sick after seeing that post. It triggered me a lot.

And if you, as his mutual are defending him or think what he did was okay. Block me right now and fuck you.

#tw. discourse #i feel disgusting #i'm going to unfollow anyone that defends him #don't defend that fucker #and he's following a minor to top it off #i feel disgusted

[tired-radfem]

I am thinking about how my ex got me to buy children's underwear and wear them for him

#personal #pedophillia #tw #i feel disgusting

[3knecrotic]

Ugh.. why did I even put on that anklet..

#vent #i feel disgusting

[gorie-talks-a-lot]

I have woken up today and the second skin on my neck tattoo has leaked everywhere and I feel crusty and gross but I'm not supposed to take it off until 6pm at LEAST and I'm Suffering.

#i wanna rip it off my neck so bad and get the antimicrobial soap on it #just let it heal the normal way #but apparently because its blackwork it needs as much time as possible under the second skin #i feel Disgusting #theres plasma and ink all over my shirt my hug pillow and the towel i put over my head pillow #yes i have a hug pillow #life aint easy when you literally cant touch plushies so we make do and vibe #gorie is talking too much again

[helenapsent]

So the pre-defense was. But to be honest, the impressions are not so good. They're kind of ambiguous. It's kind of sad, but I fucking did it all. In short, my confidence in the teacher dropped to zero.

It's like. The teacher had a problem with one website. There I was reviewing the course design of an English teacher who positioned herself as "I teach English for adults". But for adults they meant people in their 20s and older. And a picture of a young woman in a jacket and corset top ( such are popular now)

And the teacher nagged, like, "it'll be like an 18+ red flag." But there's nothing past there, why isn't she looking at the other screenshots with the same girl where she's in the same jacket but with her shoulders covered?

Then she said it was like my site wasn't ready. First of all, it's fucking ready, but I only have two unfinished blocks to finish and that's it.

And then she was like, "You're going to come to my classroom and work every day" (like we agreed).

And… She made me DOWN. In terms of: she said that her confidence in me is "low" because I did not pass her at most three things: I have not passed the report on the pre-diploma practice (somehow everything is so mixed up in one that I forgot about it), the term paper on the same subject and practice on video. Then she also nagged at the designation of illustrations like: "we write figure 1,2,3- -Not the abbreviations: fig. 1.12 or fig. 1.16." For a second, they sometimes abbreviate captions in print.

In short. Unpleasant shit. I got 70% of my work done, like they said. But like I don't think it's 70. I did 95.

I just want to go to bed and cry from the stress. Why the fuck did I go to all this trouble to get nothing? Why did I stay up until 6 am and was all shattered because of panic, to then hear that the finished diploma can be passed before the holidays and that "I can not write a diploma," although I did it on the basis of the example, which threw me herself instructor? Just why???

I didn't get any approval in my direction. More precisely, it's not bad and not good, it's normal and I am happy about it. But just, it is extremely unpleasant to observe that even in spite of my dislike of her, I try to keep a good relationship with her, I'm not a conflicted person!

And she ends up acting like a stomach ulcer again, just being mean, trying to crush you, although if she is your teacher she has to help you somehow? What am I saying, though, she has her favorites and scapegoats, just like everyone else…

#helen thinks #When I came home from college I cried from impotence #It felt like I had tried for nothing but maybe not I have no idea #Then my mom started to get on my nerves and put me in a completely unnecessary rush to turn in my debts #I slept the rest of the day and will sleep again #I feel disgusting #they drank all my enthusiasm out of me #I don't know how to deal with everything anymore #I guess I'll just go back to sleep

[mysticaidenanimatez]

Just me venting, that's all. Gotta let it out somehow.

If someone else was feeling sad earlier or currently, then it's wrong for you to vent. If you vent, you'll just be seen as an attention seeker for trying to "put the spotlight on you."

So then what do you do? Just don't vent to anyone. Just sit there and silently cry it all out. Or, even better yet, bottle it up until you can't handle it anymore, and everything just spills out like a tipped over cup of water.

#not art #not tspud related #not tsp related #not bbieal related #vent post. #vent post #tw vent #vent #venting #i feel like shit tbh #i feel drained. #i feel disgusting #i feel empty

[strang3n1ghts]

I need more attentiveness, trust and love from people but that's like gross and pathetic so

#ew im human and i have human needs :( #i feel disgusting #like i deserve the worse and im horrible and gross im trash #im worthless #i should be not alive

[starvinganorexic]

"I will restrict better tomorrow" is what I've been saying the past few days and haven't. I miss when I would eat <600 for a whole month straight even tho I was miserable. but I hardly felt food guilt. ik im in recovery but I feel so bad. I've been trying to make myself purge (without success). I need to lose as much weight as I can before the 4th cause I'll be hospitalized then. can someone give me tips on how to be back in your honeymoon phase??

#st4rv1ng #4norexi4 #ed not sheeren #tw restrictive ed #tw ed descussion #ed rant #tw ed but not sheeran #ed not ed sheeran #bul1m14 #anorexic #ineedhelp #i feel disgusting