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uncanny-tranny · 8 months

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Important tip for trans men/transmascs/whoever needs the reminder: Even if you pass as a man to cis people, you still need to have either some form of self-protection on you (e.g., mace, knives (if you can use them effectively), ect.) or know some form of self-defense. Please take it from me, you don't know what will happen out there at any given time.

You might assume that if you pass as a cis man to cis people, you will be safe from any harm. While I wish that were true, it simply isn't the world most of us live in. Please do whatever you can to protect yourself out there.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #ask to tag (genuine)#there's this idea that once you start passing as a man as a trans guy* that all your worries about attacks... disappear...#...but i'm going to be real my fears of being followed/sexually harassed/heckled/ect have increased by double...#...and i never felt the need to have self-protection before (which was kind of foolish even if i felt certain i was physically safe)...#...but honestly i think i really ought to start investing in this shit the more i pass #anyway please learn from my mistakes ♡#i talk about this a lot but it is a life-or-death level of importance to me #yes this goes for all trans people...#...i just call out other trans guys specifically because so many of us assume or are told we're immune to this type of violence

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lunarharp · 7 months

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things.. uh... Gentry era au

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i wanted to leave the first images separate but it means they're not looking at each other any more......This aint right #i was reading pride & prejudice and what if oru was like a Mr darcy type figure. yeah. sure #is miss qifrey going to kidnap the 4 poor orphan children whom he is governess to. We can all live in mr oru's estate <3 #There will always be four there will never end up just being 3 i will make it be 4 i will rescue coco in every lifetime.#have thought how qifrey is a bit like mr rochester (jane eyre) though what with keeping secrets and going blind. anyway #maybe that's just because i wrote my fic and the idea of a combination of betrayal of trust & increased disability sits heavy here #& the sadness about how fictional disability often exists alongside narrative punishment and how i fear for qifrey every day and i love him #one good thing about posting art online again is that i really had little drive to bother scribbling little comic type things just for me #then there are things i feel less inclined to draw now that im in Posting mode again. oh life is very mysterious is it not

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chryblossomjjk · 7 months

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just found out that jungkook interacts with people who aren’t me

#cold cruel world out there tsk tsk #also lil life update friends !#working full time n going to school full time n also doing extracurricular activities is really not the move #i struggle w toxic productivity and it’s really really destroyed my mental and physical health #so ive busted my behind to save up enough money #to be able to support myself on a part time work schedule until i graduate woohoo !#hoping to have more time to indulge in hobbies #which includes being on here and writing and interacting #i miss you all dearly #ty for everything #like the fact that yall still send sweet things in my inbox when ive been p inactive for like this whole year is super nice and sweet and ye #im sorry i haven’t been responding #but i read them and they do make my day and i love you #and i hope to pick things up again soon #glimpse of us is going to be a banger i fear #ive sat on it for so long that ive perfected this storyline #from metaphors to small details to foreshadowing to non linear storytelling that all forms together in the ends yep #just need to write it which is the hard part 👉👈#but im excited #this the type of story to leave you in a funk for a few days lol and im so excited to share #hope you’re all doing well #and you are also prioritizing your health and well-being #you deserve time for yourself #not even deserve tbh #it’s legit a necessity like pls #you deserve it

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squishosaur · 8 months

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hey man. i'm just saying. why would we put inexperienced teenagers with over-inflated egos and obvious emotional issues into combat classes and make them claw their way to the top of their dorms and expect things to just run smoothly. who actually thought this

#the reason rsa doesn't have overblots is because they understand the joy and whimsy of life and friendship btw #LIKE. why is there no school counselor?? do you know how much time & resources & effort & TRAUMA we could have saved the students &#school from if ANYONE had reached out to riddle and was like 'hey are you alright i heard xyz and i wanted to let you know...' ESPECIALLY #since TREY LITERALLY TELLS US 'oh well here's the lowdown on her trauma this is Probably what is causing this'#or if someone sat down to tell leona 'hey! i'm rooting for you in ur magift(?) game! you're my fav player!!' AND LET HIM FEEL NOTICED #or if someone approached azul as an Equal to try to stop his plans. as a friend even. BEYOND A BUSINESS TRANSACTION #or if ANYBODY BUT ESPECIALLY KALIM was like 'jamil i think you should follow your passions and do something you enjoy today!!' or AT LEAST #let him know he was appreciated as a person NOT JUST FOR HIS WORK #'i know you're doing a lot today but i just wanted to thank you for how much Effort you put into this and..' etc etc etc #ERM.. IF ANYONE TREATED VIL LIKE A HUMAN BEING AND NOT A CELEBRITY??? or even 'hey i loved you in this film i was wondering if we could #do a play together or something..!!' AND LET HER TRY A TYPE OF CHARACTER SHE NEVER GOT THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE. and sing her praises.#if anyone reached out to idia beyond a 'hey the teacher said to come to class'/'get out of your bed and come to our housewarden meeting'#or even. IF ORTHO HIMSELF was like. 'you know it's not your fault... you didn't cause all of this. not really' OR SOMETHING #or if malleus ever got to experience a small firsthand loss AND WAS COMFORTED THROUGH IT. not just quick fix via magic. not replacing. just #GRIEVING SOMETHING??????? and wasn't feared by literally everyone #um. maybe the real twisted part is that all of this tragedy was easily preventable if we had a support system in place.#but idk. twst is a highschool. there's no support in real high school either. i'd probably overblot too if i could ajdjrjfinfdndjd #twst #chatter #LONG RAMBLE SORRY #yes overblots are essential to the plot. but also. do you know how frustrating it is watching the blot build up and sitting in silence.#I'M SORRY IK IF SOMETHING LIKE THIS WAS HAPPENING TO A GUY I JUST MET I WOULD PROBABLY NOT NOTICE.. but of it was my Friend or Housewarden..#I'D ASK BRO.... I'D ASK ... UGHHHHHUUUHHHH #not that anyone would notice if *I* was about to lose it tbh #speaks volumes about our society o think #OKAY NOW I'M DONE FOR REAL

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grumpyoldsnake · 8 months

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One of these days. One of these days, I will figure out what the hell makes the tipping point beyond which either a) there’s socialization that I feel insulated from and kind of numb about and too tired to pursue, or b) socialization where the very notion of so much as expressing one (1) internal thought or emotion suffuses my whole body with adrenaline and blaring Nope instincts.

#don’t get me wrong I think I *do* feel fairly Normal about. idk. a good portion of my social interactions #enough that I can go about my daily life just fine #but the numb times and the freeze-or-flight times are always Mightily inconveniently timed #with regards to actually forming new friendships #and there’s a certain threshold of Acknowledging that I Personally Exist where it *all* becomes freeze-or-flight fffff #(it goes like this: I start to think ‘it’d be kind of neat if—‘)#(and then I consider the actual logistics of getting TO the If. and one way or another — fear or tiredness — it becomes ‘ah. right. nvm.’)#(and then if it’s a bad day I have the further thought that the If probably wouldn’t be fulfilling for other involved parties anyway)#(which is. self defeating in the extreme and a distortion and I know it. >_>)#(but it’s ALSO objectively true on some specific axis and like. mm. some nights finding that balance is hard I guess)#(on the one hand not putting myself down but on the other hand being realistic about what I need vs. what other people need)#(and the fact that there are just some types of socialization that just aren’t a good fit for me)#(and that I can’t be for or have with other folk without burning out spectacularly)#life flails #mental health flails #my stuff #complaining

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ghouljams · 10 months

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I was wondering, do Love and Liebling ever see what’s hiding under the obscuras? Do they ever know the true face of the monsters beneath the masks? Liebling got a little peek when fae!König first arrived. I’m so curious what ghost and König are really hiding 👀

I hope you have a wonderful vacation in Spain, and that you get to rest and relax while you’re there!

Liebling sees through Ghost's obscura every time he enters the shop and it scares the shit out of her every time. That said she is only seeing his mask, not his real face. I don't think she would ever get to see his real face tbh, but it's not for her to see so *shrug*. König on the other hand very much does show her his face. He's very nervous about it but she asks and he can't say no to her. (Un)Surprisingly she likes his true face a lot, mostly because it's him but König still wears his hood around her. Mostly for his own comfort.

Ghost drops his obscura for Love after a lot of coaxing, and when she complains that she meant his face not a mask he hesitantly shows her that as well. He is painfully human under his mask, desperately clinging to the fae wild but... it's there plain to see, what once was and what their children will look like. Love adores his true face, and he gets used to dropping his mask and obscura at the door when he gets home. I think the human face he shows normally is pretty close to his true face, just less. I don't know how to describe it, but it's not as much Simon as his true face is. Like with Soap I think he looks too alive, just past human, like the light on an angler fish he's enticing. But he's also scarred under the mask, and that's what I think he's hiding more than his humanity.

#thank you for the well wishes!!!!#ghoul speaks #im so fucking delayed at the airport #typing away at my big queued posts and thinking about the fae boys #this is a lot about them #a lot about Ghost #like i said in a previous post i think Ghost used to be human and was stolen by the fae #turned into a hunter for the wild court without a say in the matter #its why he lives on the fringes of fae society now #why hes so feared and why he owes Price a life debt #fae au #i could write essays on Fae Ghost

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sejjiplinth · 1 month

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domestic sejanus / marcus in d2 would’ve saved me i think

sejanus shaving marcus’s face for him when he’s too exhausted from work to do so 😞 marcus combing through sejanus’s curls when he can’t keep his eyes open in the morning 😞 sejanus having to slightly stand on his tip-toes to kiss marcus’s brow 😞 marcus kissing the top of sejanus’s head 😞 GODDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!

#typing this out on my break LMFAOOO they’ve taken over my life again i fear #i love my district 2 husbands #sejanus plinth #marcus tbosas #sejarcus

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ride-a-dromedary · 1 month

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Halsin's parents were nice people with big "I could (and would) rip you apart with my bare hands if you cross me" energy.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #i'm going to start tagging as #BG3 OCs #because that's who they are (they are real to me)#you like how i post about my ocs as though people know what tf i'm talking about? yeah #anyway they weren't cruel people in any way but they were *very* protective - han was more the quietly caculating type #where you wouldn't even see it coming and ari was the *minute* you saw her coming and she had a look on her face #you should fear for your life #that seems to be the general wood and wild elf staple - generally level headed until severely crossed #that's where halsin gets it from

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kiunlo · 5 months

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fellas it is official i am gaining weight YIPPEEE!!!! for the first time eva i am no longer considered to be underweight. i cannot fit into my underwear as well anymore cuz i am slowly but surely growing a dumpy. YAYYYYYY WOOHOOO WEEEHEEEE YEAAH MY BODY IS COOL AND AWESOME FOREVER

#ash's personal tag #positive #i am just yippee-ing not cuz i finally have a not-flat ass but because if i go through some type of medical issue #and end up losing weight as result..it won't like. kill me LMAO #i have extra fat to at least help with that now #that's been a big fear of mine: already being underweight and then going through a medical issue which causes me to lose more and then like #being in REAL trouble in regards to my health #i've also NEVER gained weight before in my life EVER until now i thought it was fucking impossible and that something was wrong with #and now i have been proven wrong. i am relieved

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22ratonthestreet · 2 years

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youll never guess what we watched w @crowned-ladybug

#dima's silly little scribbles #sonic movie #sonic movie 2 #robotnik #agent stone #eggman #i love the tags for this side of the internet its all 1 word names with absolutely no fear of typing something wrong or mixing it up #easiest tags ive done in my life #22ratonthestreet

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s1ithers · 10 months

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this might be the bleakest thing that's ever happened to me in a videogame

#i held on for 12 real life minutes hoping something different would happen.... 🙈#idk if that was more or less cruel......#cahara honey i am So sorry i got all ur limbs cut off & left u to starve to death in the flesh pit that was on me that was My Bad #i'll avenge uuu 😭#fear and hunger spoilers #f&h #god bless ppl's fucked up indie projects #i've been in such a shit bleak mood & this game has been my serotonin dispenser 100/10 #something so comforting abt type of game that acts so player-hostile it sort of warps around to black humor #tender loving care for the despair-prone #that's what darkest dungeon really got that the sequel didn't quite; i think

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an-unraveling-unknown · 4 months

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Here have my unasked for Baldur’s Gate 3* lukewarm take; Astarion is so deeply cat-coded its absurd

#Sources: Baldur’s Gate 3 and experiences with my most goodest boy (his name is William Shakespurr)#astarion #baldur's gate 3 #*because I have bodily thrown myself at it in hopes for a new hyperfixation to submerge myself in. it worked #listen. I can give you my character's deepest and darkest fears #how deeply their complicated dynamic with their sibling has carved into them to the point of instinct against rational thought #and even their favorite type of sea slug #(it changes monthly but as of current day its the leaf-gilled sea slug)#but I cannot for the life of me discern whatever their class should be and it'll probably stay that way for several months #this may or may not be because all my knowledge comes from YouTube/wiki's and I know next to nothing about dnd but thats besides the point #(all of the available party members have my heart and I would go through the worst the world has to offer for them in a single beat) /srs #baldur's gate iii

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sillybouquetoflillies · 2 months

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i keep thinking i rly didnt go thru that much growing up, but idk, everytime i tell someone abt my life, they say i did and kinda just like sit in shock abt it. am i just internet brained or smth, or am i just dramatic?? i rly dont think ive earned a lot of the symtoms of someone who was traumatized that i have. or maybe i havent been in a safe place for long enough to process things??? i dunno. maybe someday far away in the future ill figure things out

#i let myself sit n accept that i did go thru smth.. maybe that i didnt totally remember or that i blurred out the details of n idk #i keep feeling like an imposter n like i shouldnt be feeling it. i didnt rly like how ive been acting #but like also i let a lot of stuff out of the box in my brain doing that n idk how 2 put it back or deal with it #so now i just feel like a half untangled mess with 0 stability bc in that 'growth n discovery' period i realized almost everyone in my life #wasnt someone i wanted 2 keep around #so now its rly just me n my bestie that r close n i keep everyone else at arms length #how tf did i get on rambling abt this omggg #ugh i am srsly such a mess n i cant find the root n i think thats whats freaking me out the most #i hate not being able 2 explain why im feeling a certain type of way or justify it in anyway #i just wanna feel okay n stable n be a fun person 2 be around again!!!!#i wanna be completely independent but like.... everything is so expensive n i have no interest in anything that would pay well #i wish my sw stuff would take off but i think im too messy 4 ppl 2 wanna stick around n also i dont think im super attractive unfortunately #I DUNNO #i dont have any answers atm n its freaking me out #i either wanna figure out how to be okay with not having answers or to get the answers and solve my problems #n i also dont wanna depend on other ppl 2 solve them for me #i just wanna be a whole.. well rounded person who can take care of themselves n do what i want #while also being a cute puppy thats rly rly rly fun 2 play with n is super helpful n supportive 2 the ppl it cares abt 🥰#i am so sick of these silly dumb messy fears n emotions that keep me stuck in boring ruts #i wanna go out n have my own fun n be my own person n stop being so scared of everything!!!!!#its okay if things go bad!!!! its just more stories 2 tell ppl!!!! ppl love my stories!!!! ugh i just needa put myself out there #i just needa find smth fun 2 do that keeps me around fun ppl #i just dont know what yet #concerts r fun but idk no one super interesting is touring here rn n i need smth more frequent #ok i think this ramble is ovr #im rly sry if ur reading this!!!! i love u vry much n hope ur having a wonderful day!!!!!!!!!

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winnie-the-monster · 10 months

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The more and more I think about it, the more tragic Landons story actually becomes. 😭😭😭 and I just want Landon back so badly. So he can get a better story and a chance at happiness.

#sorry in my Landon feels #I just can’t help but think about all these little things that Landon himself stated in one episode (like what type of life he didn’t want)#or things he feared and things he wanted for himself etc #only for the writers to turn around and give him to exact thing he didn’t want from himself #dangle the chance for him to possibly have the life he wants(or just come back to life period) and happiness in front of him like a carrot #to only rip it away from him in some of the worst ways possible #plus having him spent 2 seasons straight going through trauma and being torture #being bullied and mistreated by the people at the school who are his so called friends #who supposedly ‘care about him’#the same ‘friends’ who treated some of the people who came to harm them better than Landon #even lost a part of his soul and it was all for nothing #i’ll truly never be over this #landon kirby #landon kirby deserved better

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dirtytransmasc · 1 year

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An aforementioned warning, this is most likely very grammatically incorrect, language has never been my thing, so I said screw it and just went with what looked and sounded nice, cause I was not giving myself grey hairs over a fictional language. I bent rules to make this work, and if you don't like it, too bad.

as it's been long awaited, I have both a tag and official name for spider within my Ronal/Tonowari adoption au

spider's offical name is hì'i'tsyìl te fkew'weopx tonowari'itan,

hi'i'tsyil, hi'i meaning little, tsyil meaning climber, which is a reference to how he got nicknamed spider.

I had to come up with a family name, fkew'weopx, fkew meaning mighty, weopx meaning wave. I'm so creative and original right?

for tagging sake I'm just gonna use spider tonowari'itan to talk about the au, but spider's na'vi name is gonna get referenced more and more as I get used to typing it.

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