#i drive to therapy and to school and that’s it

[some-pers0n]

My favourite thing ever about LITWTC is that it sounds completely and utterly bizarre to anyone who doesn't listen to it. What do you mean that music artist I heard on TikTok has a podcast where he and his friend talk about the apocalypse.

Anyways some of my favourite bits are

Tommy Lasagna, a fully Korean man with a thick Brooklyn accent, will own a fast food combination auto repair shop, wherein he'll mix up your order and put burgers on your tires and serve you a fistful of wires instead of fires

Will getting harassed by a ghost prostitute named Mama Doo-Wop for like seven minutes

Chris and Will stopping their car (they were driving around in this episode) and laughing at a decaying house for like five minutes

Will larping as Tom Waits for an entire episode

Leopard Planet is the only band still left in the apocalypse, wherein the lead singer and rhythm guitarist and Rock God, Zap Gorgeous, will have leopard print clothes as they play on top of a leopard pyramid

Will and Chris try getting their Wendy's order and it takes 20 minutes because the Doordash driver kept circling a graveyard

Will will save Jordan Peterson from the manosphere grease pit (where any manosphere person is greased up and tossed into a pit where they have to kill everyone else to survive) and turns him into a parrot-like pet that he listens to for hours on end

Chris Dunne Won't Go To Therapy I/II

ROLL!! THEM!! BONES!!

Bobby Sugarbones dying because the recording program closed and they didn't notice because the laptop had a picture of Chester Cheetah inflation art covering it (this was because Chris was trying to get Will into the kink so they could fuck the podcast, which is a gutter clown with that kink)

"Yes! And–"

Chris and Will spending an entire episode parked in front of a school because Will's car broke down and they were waiting for the repair guy (yes there are two episodes where they're in a car)

The Bug Woman

#sp-rambles #litwtc #life in the world to come #will wood

[figofswords]

the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

#WHAT AM I DOING!!!! #i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch #too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun #no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point #trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this #WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!! #there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time #my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me #my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job #i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time #i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again #and WHAT DO I WANT! #THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY! #I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!! #anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed #delete later #i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious) #versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected) #i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want #ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you #i miss that i want that back #whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

me, through gritted teeth and blurry tears, doing literally anything:

it doesn't have to be perfect it just has to exist, it doesn't have to be perfect it just has to exist, it doesn't have to be perfect it just has to exist, it doesn't have to be perfect it just-

#i have a breakdown trying to do anything at all because if its not perfect first time im useless at everything and shouldnt even be trying #gonna go feral #i want to turn into moss or some plant or something like a greek myth instead would be prefferable #moss isnt expected to have talent #im so mediocre at everything i do and its driving me insane 🤩🥳🥰😁😆😚 #anywayz it doesnt have to be perfect you just want it to exist #this is me in every area of my life both school and hobbies #this particular post is directed at both because i have a creative writing module and getting feedback on my writing by a teacher that #says anything less than “youre a literary genius” feels like being stabbed in the face lmaaaoo #i dont have issues i need to sort out in therapy you do #recovering perfectionist #self esteem is nowhere to be seen

[aropride]

(gripping the sink so hard my knuckles are white) (to the mirror) you must fix your heart

#text #god i dont want to go to therapy #i dont want to. do Anytbing i just want to Lie in bed and feel Sad #unfortunately 2 fix my heart i have to like. do paperwork n shit. #man ive got to fuckin. figure out shit w my school n figure out how to fill out my disability application n fuckin #learn to drive n get a doctor #and IF. they approve my disability request. then i can start working on moving out nd starting t nd all that #anf somewhere along the way i will find time yo build an altar where it swells u know.

[imthatqueerkid]

CRUSH BLOGGING DAY 365!!!!!!

#crush blogging #crush blogging day 365 #fire boy #oh my goodness it has been one hell of a year!! what started as a simple crush has grown into something very special to me #i went from listening to him stage kiss someone else from the pit band to having him be *my* first kiss #from giggling about him to my bff at the time to writing and performing songs about him with him onstage #he was with me when i got my license years after i 'should have' he was there when said bff and i fell apart he was there when i hit a deer #i was there when he started counseling and he was there when i finished therapy #he saw me get my diagnoses and start to live again #he was my first real 'i love you' #the first person ive had sex with #ive been to his family gatherings and he met my godparents #my mom calls him the son she never had. he drives my suster home after school. his sisters say i can talk to them anytime #his parents gush over me like im their own kid #it hasn't been easy. because i care so much our few 'fights' really scared me. #but ive learned a lot #idk what is coming next. but im so grateful for everything ive gotten to experience this past year. #from the couch #Spotify

[a-lonely-tatertot]

Sitting patiently waiting for the premiere to end im fine this is fine

#I MISSED THE FIRST HALF HOUR CAUSE SCHOOL THEN DRIVING #AND NOW ITS LIKE TWO HOURS IN AND TOO LATE FOR ME TO JOIN IN #SO I AM JUST WAITING NOW LIKE PLEASE END T-T #LIKE U GH I HAVE THERAPY IN LIKE AN HOUR SO EVEN IF IT ENDS SOON #IM NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO WATCH TIL LATER #IM FINE THIS IS FINE IM NORMAL #tater rambles #jrwi #watching the filtered content go bye sobbing

[davidtennantpussytulpa]

when you literally live in a world that wasnt made for you 😆🔫

#dont think im gonna get into grad school. dont know what the fuck else im going to do. #i dont want to fucking work i want to research. probably wouldnt even be able to find a job in my desired fields so what would i even be #fucking doing. and at that point how would i get there. bc i dont drive. and i dont want to fucking drive. i cant #it feels like im having a panic attack when i try. so gotta find a driving school. what if it doesnt work. what if it does. im driving to #work i dont wanna do. my friends are spread out and working and dont have any time to call. since i dont drive i dont get out of the house #except to grocery shop with my mom on weekends. i dont have anything productive to do but i cant even relax properly bc i feel like im in a #panopticon with my parents and i need to at least LOOK busy while i live in their house. so im just doing nothing all day but i want to #but i CANT!!!! and i cant even broach the subject of therapy or meds which i really think i need because like. my parents just dont fucking #believe in it or whatever. like ive really essentially told my dad i think i could be autistic and he hasnt been like oh should we find #help or anything hes just been like ok cool that surely has no repurcussions on your life #even as it was part of the fucking conversation why i dont want to drive #its just. its whatever. i feel so stuck but i dont want to move forward because moving forward just means going into a world where i have tl #work a job i probably hate and make hardly enough money to live in a shitty apartment because the economy and society are fucked #trying to experience the Wonders but i cant escape the Horrors. what the fuck ever ugh

[almonddirge]

Hearing people with speech impediments always makes me feel better about mine but I can’t actually say it most of the time because it feels like a backhanded compliment almost in the vein of “wow, fat person, I admire your ~confidence~ for posting a normal ass selfie”

#especially when they do something with their voice likes they’re a singer or voice actor or something #almond rambles #this is somewhat unrelated but I also hate that mine is associated with children #so many child characters have rhotacism and so few characters beyond elementary school age do #it makes me feel Bad and Weird #and the worst thing is I never had the privilege to go to speech therapy because who was gonna drive me there #the woman working 24/7 for me to even have food most of the time?

[karlrose]

I have a bingeing problem.

If I like something, I will binge on it.

I like a show, I will binge that show.

I like a food, I will eat nothing but that food until It makes me sick.

I like a drink, I will drink nothing else ever again (Dr. Pepper. I have a Dr. Pepper problem. I would replace my blood with it if it wouldn't immediately result in my death)

I like a song, I will binge all their music.

I like your art, I will binge that art.

I like your blog, I will binge scroll until I reach the bottom.

#i have an overindulgent personality #I used to drink nothing but coffee but I got sick because it was summer in Georgia and I was drinking hot coffee #the hole I burned into my stomach lining from drinking coffee was the final straw though #the school nurse thought it was appendicitis but it was just an irresponsible amount of coffee #actually as I'm typing this I realize it wasn't the hospital scare #I stopped drinking coffee because I got pregnant #I can risk MY life with my bad habits but I couldn't put my baby's life at risk #that would be incredibly irresponsible #other people thank their moms for the gift of life #I thank my kids for the fact that I'm still alive #I thank my mom for nothing except my insecurities and eating disorders #she was a coldhearted bitch who drank screwdrivers while driving with us in the car #And she never hugged me #or told me anything nice about myself #Now I'm overly affectionate and supportive of my kids to the point that they get annoyed with my love #BUT YOU NEED TO KNOW HOW SMART AND BEAUTIFUL AND TALENTED AND AMAZING YOU ARE AND HOW GRATEFUL I AM TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE DAMN IT!!! #I think I binge things the way I do because of my mommy issues #anything to fill the whole in my heart that should have been filled with her love #therapy has been going well...

[toytulini]

ouagh at some point i should try to post some of the multiple thousands of pictures I've taken every time i go to an aquarium huh

#toy txt post #i went thru my phone and sorted almost everything in my camera roll at some point #need to do more sorting again and also sort into narrower categories to make it easier to tag shit and then #ill be able to like. navigate my insane amount of photos on here one day #also the multiple thousands is not. an exaggeration #i seem ti take At Least 1000 everytime. i go to an aquarium #less so at the one i volunteer at sometimes just cos. its smaller and i try not to be on my phone while volunteering #ouaaaagh #i guess i should try to look into more. schooling/edu fucking cation #cos volunteering there. doesnt suck #like its a little physically demanding just cos the water is Very Extremely Cold and its like 2hrs drive away from me #but like. like i Hate interacting w ppl i dont think i could do customer service or retail BUT i love #a captive audience to infodump about sea life to #i just need a college professor that is very extremely patient w me and treats me like the fragile little baby that i am/j #i guess i need to once again seek out Fucking Therapy to wrangle with my Homework Issues #all those posts explaining how to study that were too triggering to look at ages ago. guess i need to find them lol #god. it really does feel like such a silly stupid issue i have here. like if someone else told me they had issue w this id be like #no yeah of course that sounds horrible im so sorry etc #but alas i am not so forgiving w myself like #oh yeah im apparently traumatized ig by uhhhh Being Assigned Homework. like. normal amount. it was fine and all #like i passed shit. it was extremely difficult and i barely made it in some classes but i did Get Thru It and i had like accommodations to #turn in shit late and everything but uhhhhhhh #yea #theres slightly more to it than that ig but! like. basically. that is basically. #im a huge baby who couldnt do their fucking homework and now if i see Study Tips ill start crying #which is super inconvenient cos like hey bitch you know what might help with the homework? #taking my brain out of my skull and shaking it #anyway. im way offtopic here #the point is that i have so fucking many pictures of fish #and also pictures of birds from the beach i have soooo fucking many. i should post more Photos

[liebelesbe]

ahhh yes pessimism my old friend.. you were gone for 1 day where did you go for so long I missed you (not)

#my 1 day off this week was today & I went to therapy which sucked #and tomorrow work again and on sunday driving to the Berufsschule.. #and then 5 days of school and THEN FINALLY real weekend augh #doddie redet

[wibble-wobbegong]

i have never fought with my mom before but brother i am feeling Annoyed. we are not going to be late because i leave at 7:07 instead of 7:00. school literally starts at 7:45.

#sorry annoyance with my mom is spiking #basically raising her kids for her in every way except money #and when she used to drive us we’deave even later than i normally leave bc she’s pouring herself coffee and we were STILL so early i couldnt #go into the school yet #i drive ur kids everywhere i plan your son’s birthday #your daughter gets out of an abusive home and SHOCKINGLY she’s depressed to hell and back and starts hurting herself!! but no IM the one who #has to fight for her to get put in therapy too #i had to hide thd kids and put her to bed and stand guard and call the cops for her #i got a job literally a week after she told me to get one #me when i have to explain my sister’s sensory issues to my mom so she’ll leave her alone #me after i tell my mom my brother probably needs to be put into therapy too but she wont listen to me and then she’s shocked when the doctor #tells her he has anxiety issues #who wouldve guessed #not to mention the many months long period where she straight up wouldnt feed us #like. didnt buy the groceries #were good now but at least if it happened Now id have the money to doordash us stuff #im grateful for my mom bc she’s done good things for us and doesnt hurt us but good god #rant over #sorry i ran out of my mood balancers this morning #dear diary

[haeroniel-doliet]

God that mood where you both need to do stuff and want to do stuff but both needs are vague and have too many options so you just. Do nothing you want or need to do and realize all the time you had is disappearing. A good time!!!

#haeroniel talks #forget the tag oh well #but for real. had 4 days off work and a ton of real life stuff i both have to get done and have been meaning to get done for a long time #ive pretty much only played video games and called my friends. genuinely not time wasted and i love when i get to do that #and like rn i would love to play more games and spend time with my friends like if one offers you know i never say no #but its also already getting dark and i have to go back to work tomorrow and ive not done everything i promised to have done yknow? #time doesnt feel real and i dont wanna get up even if the anxiety slowly builds to hopefully productive panic #but in the mean time im like ugghh i wanna stop laying around just playing sudoku and watching lame youtube. i wanna play something #(unclear what it is i actually wanna play too many options i kinda wanna play all of them and none huehheh) #im also very sad i havent drawn in ages and any attempt just feels shit. like maybe if i read enough fanfic thatll respark the love. #id love to post something before christmas to get me excited to draw again over the break but who the hell knows if i'll manage #and yeah still have the annoying job related/driving school related/therapy applying/other life admin that really really should be done #im just being grouchy and stuck and need to vent hi tumblr love you all kiss kiss i wish i could function better #i think maybe perhaps. ill concede that driving school and therapy arent priority (important but ive wasted ages on them already) #i think i can do work related things bc theyre sort of fun. i can use my parents help to whack through the life admin and then #maybe i can let myself spend the rest of the evening guilt free either calling my friends and/or playing or if im going totally w drawin

[evvlogetarian]

I'm just going to complain in tags sorry 😔 I should be better but...alas...

#.personal rambles #I dont rewlly vent to anyone anymore and i dont have therapy until monday but literally my body is choosing the worst tkme rn to be #in this much pain #Like I have an exam today and policy is that if u miss an exam you cant retake it and like #This class is important for graduation / taking my boards #I put on pain relief patches but the pain is so bad I woke up at like 6 and now im cjrled up crying basically #I cant fall back asleep and I got maybe 6 hours ? #Like no lecture today but we have a fucking presentation before i take my exam and i have to fucking do some tasks and shit after #and I commute to school so thats like 40 mins - 1 hr of driving to and from campus #Literally fuck me i know this is my bodys way of shutting down and being exacerbated by stress but like #Idk everything that could go wrong feels like its going wrong in my ssd stupid lkttle life #I really just want to stay home today but I cant and it sucks like #painkillers dont do shit my pain patches only do so much #Im starting to worry if jt might be cancer but thats maybe my anxiety / paranoia bc of family stuff #Idk Im just being whiny like I gotta suck it up and deal with it but literally the worst time for my body to start fallimg apart on me

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#its 6am and im awake!! (not good) #ive kind of shifted my sleep schedule to be the worst it could possibly be #yesterday i slept from 8-9am and then 11am-5pm #and thats kind of where it's settled. whoch is not good #my roommate who is a sleep scientist says thats going to kill me and i believe that because i already feel like im dying #its just so nice to be awake for sunrise tho! and i couldnt wake up this early so my only option is to stay awake to see it #i think ive seen the sunrise more in the past two weeks than ever before in my life #on a note that feels related but probably isnt- im moving in may. in two months #'but austyn i remember you moved this time last year' youre right! im bad at staying in one place!! #im moving back in with my parents because this city is expensive and i need a year to figure my life out #i didnt think i was going to make it to 18 and thats now fucking up my life #how is it fucking up my life? because i made no plans for anything past high school and instead have just been bouncing from thing to thing #trying to make a life when i thought i would be dead. so i moved and moved and moved again and now i have no money no prospects #no drive no plan no ideas no future etc #so thats all catching up to me and im gonna take a year to save up and get on my feet and reconnect with my psychiatrist and restart therapy #my psychiatrist is gonna be mad that i just went a year with no meds but its fine. just remembered i should try to set up an appointment now #okay gonna set up an appointment at 8 when they open. shes a very in demand psychiatrist. and idk if i can go back to her after a year #theyre very nice there so im sure theyll help me figure it out. so im gonna get my mental health bsck on track #eventually fix my sleep schedule maybe. idk its just a year to figure everything out but its difficult to move again #i hate moving. ive said it once ill say it again. moving kills a part of your soul. especially moving back in with your parents #just gonna be venting about this for awhile actually #maybe ill go for a walk at like 7am cuz the weather has been so nice lately i love it #ive been walking part of the way home from work because its so nice #i truly just dont want to sleep. i want to do things but i dont have the energy to do them. yknow. this sucks #anyway. gonna tey to get my life together but so far im doing pretty bad

[twitchystitchwitch]

So, maybe it is just the autism and I don't fucking understand things: but if you are told the cause for your symptoms is depression, I have one thing I want you to consider. Because depression absolutely can cause severe symptoms and hinder daily life, but there are a lot of things that immediately get marked as depression that are absolutely not, and the biggest determining factor is this:

Are you not doing things because they don't inspire passion and desire in you, or do you want to do the things but you just can't?

#char's words #i am kinda seething because i just realized that despite being so treatment resistant i was recommended #shock therapy never once did any professional i saw ask if i was having motivation or drive issues with anything outside of school #of course i had emotional issues i was in pain and isolated almost constantly #but my lack of ability to do things was because it made me sick and hurt to do thwm #there are times i sob because i want to do things so badly and i physically can't #i never knew until now that that wasn't depression