#i dont want to have to sign up for a patient account when I go to the doctors office

[diejager]

Omfg pervy roommate König!!! And his poor little roommate is none the wiser to how he abuses her poor cunt every night. He does such a good job fucking his load into her that she confides in him as a friend that she’s pregnant and is super shocked!! But that’s okay, he’ll always be there for her. Now she’ll never be able to leave him. <3

Cw: forced pregnancy, NON-CON/CUB-CON, DARKFIC, pervy!önig, perverted behaviour, somnophilia, dacryphilia, breeding kink, possessive behaviour, pregnancy, drugging, tell me if I missed any.

You’re blissfully unaware of his advances, or his nightly excursions into, pumping his cum into your already filled womb and putting a baby into you. He liked how disoriented and confused you look the day after, waking up pantieless, your bedsheets crusty and dried cum sticking to your thighs. You always come to him for advice, wanting to know why you came all over yourself, leaving you covered in your own slick and cheeks burning with shame when you told him, oblivious of his gleeful eyes narrowed down at you with a hidden grin.

It goes on for a while, he feeds sleeping pills - the ones from his prescribed-bottle for his insomnia - breaking half a pill down to a fine powder and spike your bedtime drink, waiting for you to doze off, sleeping so deeply that even an earthquake wouldn’t wake you up, and he fucks you. He, sometimes, takes his time, thrusting slowly, enjoying the slow and romantic pace, feeling you wrapped around him. Other times, he goes feral, pounding and bruising you, hands manhandling you into the prettiest position to let him fuck you deeper, the head of his red, angry cock kissing your cervix brutally.

You don’t take pills or any contraceptives, letting your monthly cycle roll over and deal with the cramps with painkillers. So he’s not surprised when you come crying to him about being pregnant after going to see your doctor about your daily nausea and stomach pains. He expected you to be pregnant after so many nights of filling you up, pushing load after load of fertile cum - he takes supplements to make him more virile - into your young womb, what he didn’t put into account was the long time it took to finally knock you up, the months he spent waiting and biting the skin off his thumb until it bled to have you round and plump with his child.

You had the prettiest face when you cried, eyes puffy and lips pouty, it made his cock stir, throbbing in his pants. It drove him wild, seeing you cry and whine about not being ready to be a mother, still so young and oblivious to who the father was —you didn’t even remember the last time you fucked anyone. König spent the day comforting you, wiping your swollen eyes with high-quality cashmere tissues he bought just for you, whispering sweet lullabies to you until your tears stop - much to his chagrin - and cradled you in his lap, fingers thumbing the soft fat of your thighs, running soothing circles with his calloused thumb.

He’ll wait until the baby’s born to tell you he’s the father, he might not be patient enough to sit around and wait, but he is patient enough to know when he should and when he shouldn’t wait. He’ll care of you until you come to term. He has the money to buy you whatever you need, KorTac is the best paying PMC and he was a colonel in the past, racking up a large sum of money before he signed a contract. Your cravings, your needs, your wants and whatever else you ask, your roommate - your soon-to-be-husband - König will take care of everything.

What a nice roommate you have, no?

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[jeongbuchiki]

Thanksgiving

Kim Namjoon

🔞Warning🔞

I have to travel for work. Namjoon said to you on your video call. Words that you had heard many times before. Since yours was a long distance relationship, to both of you specially him communication was key. It's was imperative for him that you never doubted him, his feelings for your or your relationship.

He seemed bummed out. But you were patient and understanding, you knew what you signed up for when you agreed to have a relationship with him. So you tried to cheer him up. You weren't one to dwell on what you couldn't control.

So you tried to cheer him up. You weren't one to dwell on what you couldn't control. And he admired that about you.

-Hey baby. Don't worry. One day we will celebrate Thanksgiving together ok. When the time is right. Besides why label special time together when every time we are together it's special. I'll see you soon anyways so we can spend time together before we'll you know.... you trailed off your last words as the thought tugged at your heart. - Anyways I'll have my handsfull this yr. I listened to you and I'm visiting my family upstate.

And guess what, turns out a shit load of family from out of the country is coming also. So family reunion I guess hehe.

He loved when you cursed. He thought it was funny and cute. It meant you felt comfortable, free. He loved that you had no filter. So it was hard for you not , you like being proper. He loved the fact that you were you and made no apologies for it.

You and Namjoon had been dating in complete secrecy for a while now. The only ones who knew about it were the other members, and because he couldn't keep a secret from them even if his life depended on it.

This year though for more than the obvious reasons he wanted to celebrate this holiday that meant so much to you with you. And knowing you'd be spending it with your family presented the perfect opportunity. The fact that where he was traveling to was where you lived was a plus, that helped him set all of his plans in motion. He was convinced the universe was smiling down on him.

He looked away from the screen of his phone to the side, distracted.

- Baby are you ok. You seem distracted. You asked and pointed out.

- Oh yeah, beautiful. I'm sorry just thinking about that trip. I wanted to come visit you. Just dont know if I'll be able to. He played it off ice cool.

- Love I already told you it's ok. We will see each other soon. Ok. Anyways I gotta go babe I gotta work and you have to get some sleep sir. You blew him a kiss.

- Yes Ma'am. LOL he laughed. Blew you a kiss back. - I'll text you when I wake up babe. I love you. I miss you so much.

- I love and miss you more. Bye. Talk later much. You hung up and he went straight to work digging in your ig.

Using his secret account, to snoop around and figure which family member he could reach out to. That would help him execute his plan. He found a pic you posted with a cousin. Caption read "Seeing this crazy for Thanksgiving. Love you cuz. Get my bed warm for me lol. See you soon".

- That must be where she'll be staying. He thought outloud. He took the risk and reached out. After talking extensively and him explaining your cousin agreed to help. Becoming his partner in crime. Bonus fact she was army too.

He couldn't sleep.He'd been in a mood lately, and the fact that he hadent seen you in a while was not helping at all. It was no point he would be on his way to the airport in a few hours, by then you would be home. Light bulb!!! 😏. You 2 hadent had sexy time in days. He needed you. He missed your scent. Your touch. The feel Of your skin. Your kisses. Your love.

Keeping a close eye to the time. He texted you when it was almost time for you to leave work.

Incoming text [Daddy 💋😈]

- Baby girl, I really... really miss you. 💋😈

Those were his emojies for you. That was his key phrase, meaning that was your cue. It was sexy time. He was hoooorrnnyy. 😏.

Your boyfriends text shook you to your core, making your sex clench. The temperature in your body rise. You thought good thing I'm working from home today. You missed him too, and bad. Being with Namjoon was other worldly in every sense of the word. The gentleman in the streets that was a dom daddy freak in the sheets, who sole purpose was to fufills his lady's every wish and desire. To give you love and pleasure till your hearts content and your body was spent.

- Mmm Daddy 💋😈. I missed you too. I'm almost done with work and I'm home today. So I can take care of you soon. Ok. Hold on for me my love. I love you baby.

- Mmm can't wait. I love you more baby girl.

A few minutes later you were done with work. To feel good you took a quick shower and changed into his Fav nighty, nothing underneath. Chugged a glass of wine and good to go.

[Outgoing text]

- Daddy... im ready... 💋

Next thing you know you're getting an incoming call from your boyfriend.

- Hey baby girl. Mmm Damm you look sexy. Fuck I miss you. The usually serious/shy Namjoon was no more. Daddy Joon was in the house.

- Daddy missed you so bad baby girl. Mmm. His voice was deep, rough, yet smooth. Moans laced with low growls emanated from deep within his chest as he palmed and caressed his growing hardness. He was laying back in his bed. Shirtless, just pajama pants. The ones you gave him last Christmas. We'll after, which was when you were able to get away for a short trip to Seoul.

- I miss you too Daddy. Mmm. I like your pants. You giggled and you become to hot ans sexy for your own good. You smirked at him and he blushed, always so modest.

You angled your phone so that he could see everything you did and so did he.

- Mmm baby girl has on daddys fav nighty. He licked and bit his lower lip.

- And look Daddy. youhe chuckled. - Daddy your gonna have to stop working out before you become to hot ans sexy for your own good. You smirked at him and he blushed, always so modest.

You angled your phone so that he could see everything you did and so did he.

- Mmm baby girl has on daddys fav nighty. He licked and bit his lower lip.

- And look Daddy. You whispered seductively while toying with the hem of your nighty, pulling it up teasing him. Showing him just enough for him to see you had no panties on. He cursed under his breath.

- Fuck baby girl. You are so naughty. Teasing daddy like that. His hand rubbing and aggrssively caressing his now harden member. Your pussy jolted and your insides excitedly anticipated the love they would soon recieve, upon hearing his growls and grunts.

- I wish you were here daddy. You voice sounding more like a purr that made his dick twitch, and pre-cum beads leak out of the slit on his tip. - loose the pants baby. Your going to ruin them. You said to him in a soft sexy voice. His smirk sexy, naughty, dark. Complying as if under your spell, he tucked his thumbs between the hem of his pants and his skin and tugged down untill they were at ankles, then swiftly kicked them off the bed.

Being probably the hottest, sexiest shit you'd ever seen. Namjoons massive erection sprung free, standing at full attention in all its glory and all you could do was wish you were there.

Your mouth watered and he could see it.

He smiled even more.

- Wish you were here baby girl. Snuggling this cock with that tight pretty pussy of yours. Mmm fuck.!!!. He'd begun stroking himself with out realizing it. Tight, slow, hard grip. You could feel your pussy clench around nothing.

Slowly you lifted your nighty over your head and took it off toosing it to the side. Laying down in an angle where he could admire all of you, you began caressing your body.

- Mmm baby girl how i just wanna kiss, suck and bite your nipples. Kiss your body all over. His voice had become deeper His gaze dark.

With one hand you toyed with one of your breasts. While guiding your other hand to your heat. Not wasting any time. You dipped 2 fingers in your drenched pussy, and began slowly to pump in and out. He could heat the squelching sound of your wetness.

He pulled at his cock, which made him growl your name outloud.

- Mmm fuck baby yesss. Imagine that's my dick baby, pumping in and out of you. His voice was deep, hoarse, hungry for you. Your moans echoed through your room and out the speaker of his phone. Causing his iron rod to twitch in his hand.

- Oohhh daddy you feel soo good. You cried out as you arched your back. He tighten his grip around his cock and gasped as he continued to stroke himself.

- Shit baby girl. You feel so tight. Fuck!!! His eyes were on you the whole time. Watching the expressions on your face as you pleasured yourself and your body contorted in response. He could hear the wetness in your pussy as you pumped your fingers in and out of your tight hole, and it was driving him wild. He wanted nothing more that you be drilling into you at that moment, feeling you squirm under him as you came undone. As he spilled his seed deep inside you.

- Baby girl you're close aren't you? He moaned out in that sexy deep voice of his.

-Mhm. Mmm daddy I'm gonna c-cum. Your voice a high pitch whimper. As your back arched completely off your bed. He let out a low devilish chuckle.

- Cum with me baby girl. Cum for daddy. Let me see you spill that sweetness daddy loves so much. Mmm. Fuck. Namjoons toned stomach contracted as he felt his orgasm take over, while he continued to stroke his length harder and faster. - FUUUCCKK BABY AAHHH!! With screams and growls that were enough to wake the dead your boyfriend shot his hot load before your eyes having it land every where in his room. Painting white milky pearl streaks as his body came undone, while watching you convulse as you screamed out his name and squirted all over your bed.

- Mmm. Daddy. You better fuck my brains out the next time you see me. Damm. Lol. You panted through labored breathing as you came down from your high.

- Better count on it baby girl. Lol shit we better get to cleaning ha. He chuckled again.

- I swear Namjoon that laugh of yours is going to be the end of me lol. You smiled into your phone. And blew him a kiss. - I love you baby. Talk tomorrow , ahh later lol.

To be continued....

#bts #bts x reader #bts namjoon #bts smut #bts fanfic #bts rm x you #fanfic writing #women writers #writing #kpop smut #bts graphic #graphic content #love #sexy tease

[salt-volk]

post707883411295043585 thats part of the problem tho is yall assume that just bc stuff doesnt come out on time means theyre not working on it. as if they just sit twiddling thumbs. shit isnt slow bc they need more motivation. its slow bc they have a bare bones staff of maybe 1-2 ppl & all else is contracted work they barely have the cash for.

"right now basically nothing ever gets done" & you think adding a few dates to a list would fix that? you think they dont know theyre falling behind? that its not obvious? as if they dont already have internal set dates they aim for that just havent been shared w the userbase? 

they dont need more motivation or accountability. they need more staff & more funds. all the accountability in the world cant add extra hours in the day. you can be working as hard as you possibly can & still not meet deadline bc its just not humaenly possible w the resources you have. look at the underlying problem instead of just surface optics.

they could put dates just to placate yall. but it would be an empty gesture. theyd still be just as behind as always bc the dates are not tackling the base issue. itd be the same old shit but more to get mad abt as they still fail to meet dates you asked them to set.

some of yallve never worked on large amateur creative ventures & it shows lmao. youd be amazed how fast a few months can go by & youre only doing background shit so theres still no visible progress you can share publicly. you worked every single day but still feel theres nothing tangible enough to show for it. a few months can go by fast esp when you dont have just one job & are juggling 10 different tasks w simultaneous importance bc its just you or mayb 1 other person taking on 6 ppl worth of work. 

 just remember were all looking from the outside. theres always backend stuff goign on we never know abt. (i know. ironically im making assumption too. but its based on so much experience w these sorts of teams. dv has all the signs. plus context clues given on stream & rare times staff communicates. textbook understaffed scope creepy amateur project tbh.) 

if this were neopets or some shit own by a large company w hundreds of employees maybe itd be different. but some of yall are always gonna be miserable if you dont manage your expectations. see it for what it is instead of what you want it to be. & sometimes look at whats been accomplished. they DO get stuff done. theyre not dropping 80 updates a month, but to me it looks like they make slow steady progress. miss goals but do follow up eventually. they are literally completing tasks. & show signs of taking feedback into account. just not at the speed ppl want. 

criticism makes for a better convo topic bc negative emotional response sticks in the brain longer. but were always gonna have bias if we dont appreciate good shit too. sometimes theres an attitude like "okay cool i like this, now wheres the NEXT thing" or "great finally an improvement, now why isnt THIS other thing fixed?". moving on to the next thing so quick you dont notice the effort of whats in front of you.

but once you match dvs pace & get what postion theyre coming from its not terrible. i have plenty of criticisms from a project management perspective. but in terms of other aspects ive a more lenient view considering what theyre likely working w (esp not having a dev or anyone who codes as part of core staff. im surprised theyve been able to keep afloat this long even lmao)

you dont hold an amateur experimental musician to the same standards as an international pop star w a whole team behind them, yea? but the amateur is not inherently worse, or less worthy of support. you can still enjoy both, just recognizing theyre different things. i see the vision of the amateur & choose to support patiently knowing its got a different pace than the pop idol. theyre at different spots in their career timeline & will have their own unique issues based on that. but both can be plenty good. context matters.

  TLDR; there is much staff can do better at ofc (namely communication & interpretation of user feedback (like not knowing in the first place that "roadmap" usually implies dates -_-). but imo dates are not gonna fix shit bc lack of "motivation" is def not the core issue. such focus on the dates is thus unhelpful. i think some of yall dont get where dv is actually at & then put up expectations that are built to fail bc of that. not saying to let everything slide. but yk. appreciate the good where it happens. have patience. be aware what the underlying problems actually are & contextualize. tempering realistic expectations will make you much happier & able to enjoy the game for what it is.

or idk. i personaly used to be one of the main harsher critics so much i almost quit dv entirely & this perspective helped ME at least lmfao. now i play regularly much less stressed/angry abt it. ymmv.

#anonymous #mod yoshi #reply #dv roadmap #staff

[spicymegs]

༺☆༻ Hey there welcome to my tumblr where I post about random things like the paranormal , food , anime , music or things I enjoy and I will post vents here as well and more I’m a gamer living her dream finding friends and making memories

✧About me!!

✮⎨Name/Nickname: Megan/Meg

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Usernames Xbox Gt SpicyMrsKFC & PSN MrsFlamingRamen & Switch ID SW-0558-8128-0601

Games I play: Fortnite Overwatch DBD Etc

✮⎨Gender: Female

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✮ ⎨Age: 22

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Favorite–

✮ ⎨Favorite Game(s): Stardew Valley , Disney Dreamlight , FaeFarm

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Extra!! I have my own discord server that I enjoy to being others too we have movie nights , anime nights and chill nights there a lot tyy if you come

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If you are drama starter or only want drama !!

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Dont interact if you are here to expose others and tell me to unfollow others I’m not into the cancel culture I will block you !!

This is my safe place if you break a dni you will be blocked immediately !!

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•I do not want to be around people who can’t understand trauma or experiences or real life situations coming up !! or people invalidate any forms of trauma

•I Do not want to be around others who aren’t geniune and are very judgmental and can’t be there for others

•I do not want to be around people who use people for there own convenience or there own benefits (Like using me to make friends , or try to make or form romantic partners off my friends or people I introduce them to and create unnecessary drama

•I Do not want to be anyone’s personal therapist to come to constantly its okay a couple of times because that is what a friend is but do not make it habit. Because If you do not listen to my advice the first time then I am not going to guide into sadness and despair and watch you hurt over and over sorry that isn’t me but I am always down to give a ear.

•I do not want to be around someone who can’t be there for me when I have had there back or in general I want people who can give the same effort back I give them

•I Do not want to be around people who create unnecessary drama or air out my problems what I tell you is private and only should stay between me and you and no where else

•I Do not want to be around people who aren’t patient

•I Do not want to be around others who cant take accountability and shows clear signs of being a narcissist this is one trigger for me I am not comfortable being around narcissist traits or around narcissism

•I Do not want to be around people who debate my trigger list or my boundaries

•I do not want to be around people who use disorders to excuse themselfs from taking accountability

•I Do not want to be around others who force me to open up to them like my age , location , or my relationship and decline trying to hit on me or try to get in the mix of my relationship , Or force me to feel empathy or who are majorly controlling

•I Do not want to be around people who are forceful of there views

Trigger List (Crossing any my boundaries of my triggers you will be blocked

!ED !any forms of bullying !Loud voices

!Loud noises

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•I do process information differently so I ask for you please be patient and I can’t understand emotions so I can seem insensitive to emotions or topics

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Please read ⚠️ Symbol !!

• Insomniac and depression and anxiety and I have a Mood disorder

I am also a gamer I game to escape reality

Games I enjoy Fortnite , Apex , Stardew Valley, Overwatch 2

•Anime List

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[jrpneblog]

Old Boys Reunion

It will be somewhat of an old boys reunion at the bet365 Stadium on Saturday as North End take on Stoke City in the Championship. Off the field Alex Neil and Paul Gallagher will be in the home dug out and, potentially, on the field will be Ben Pearson and Daniel Johnson. For my money these old boys owe North End nothing as all gave good service to the club, but maybe the comments attributed to Ben Pearson on his departure to Bournemouth left a slight acidic taste in the mouth. North End travel to the Potteries in 5th place in the Championship following three wins and a draw in our first four games and on the back of a stirring comeback last week at home to Swansea City. To be honest I would take anything at Stoke on Saturday because North End have already accumulated the ten points they wanted from the opening five games up to the first international break.

Looking back to last week and a great result for North End after being a goal down at home to the Swans. The visitors played some good football and the signs were ominous when they took the lead just after the half hour. Such is North End`s spirit so far this season that we dusted ourselves down at half time and came out to give a much better account of ourselves. The substitution, bringing on Ali McCann and the formation change did the trick as first Andrew Hughes and then Duane Holmes scored the goals that gave North End the points in a game that we just about shaded on the day. Managers are often criticised when a sub or a formation change goes wrong but all credit to Ryan Lowe last Saturday as he got the tactics spot on in the second half.

It should be a really good atmosphere down in North Staffordshire this weekend with North End easily selling out their allocation of 2,608 tickets for the game. We seem to have a good recent record at Stoke with our last defeat being fifteen years ago. At the time of writing (Friday lunchtime) we still have not signed a striker to help out Will Keane, who I have to say has been excellent in the first four league games. Stoke have made quite a few additions to their squad and there is no doubt that this will be a tough test for North End. However, this is a stadium where the home fans can soon get on the backs of their players if things dont start very well. I expect the manager to make just one change to the side that started last week and that will be McCann coming in for Holmes in the middle of the Park, barring any last minute signings, of course. As I said earlier I would happily take a point but North End are on a roll so we go with high hopes of another good day on the road.

And finally this week:- a little reminder last weekend that Kian Best has only just celebrated his eighteenth birthday and as such deserves plenty of latitude from the Preston faithful. I said after the Bristol game that he is very good going forward but will have to work on his defensive duties as per the Swansea goal last weekend. Nevertheless I think the lad is a fantastic prospect and if he gets 20 games in the Championship this season that will enhance his ability and stock more than a hundred youth games could. Be patient with the lad, he is going to be a real good `un.

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MATCH PREDICTION - STOKE CITY (A) League: DRAW

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JR`s HIGH FIVES

Swansea City to beat Bristol City 11/10

A £5 Stake returns £10.50 on bet365

SEASONS STATS

Returns £30.50 Stake £20.00

Percentage profit+/-loss + 52.50%

Predictions 4 won 3 lost 1.

[fishybehavior]

girl help, I'm caught up in my own brainrot for a slowburn plasma fic au, where Jay is a fanfic writer and Kai just wants to understand what Starfarer is

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Logging into his Readdit account, Jay looked through the usual memes and updates on the Starfarer's thread. Throwing his comments and memes around. Chuckling at the weird theories and crack idea’s near the bottom. He was about to sign off and check up on some friends when an alert popped on his screen. A message from his friend, one of the mods on the board.

“Lol. check this out ur always complaining about having no one to talk to” It read, a link to a post, posted several hours before. It must’ve been buried underneath everything else.

“Looking for someone to explain the goddamn lore of this stupid show” The title stated, it explained that the poster had a little brother into the show, but they couldn’t understand any of the lore. “Looking for someone patient with internet illiterate dorks.” Raising an eyebrow at the odd description, he looked at the comments below to see that the poster was the first comment, listing ways to contact them.

“Ignore the internet illiterate comment, my stupid sister put it in and i dont know how to change it.” Jay couldn’t help but chuckle, looking at the two ways of contacting this poster he decided to do Disharmony, it was the easiest way anyway.

“eyo!! i saw ur post on readdit

im always free if u got questions about the fandom or the lore :]”

- - -

Hours later, Jay was scrolling through Rumblr when he heard the oh so familiar, yet annoying, ding of Disharmony. Sharing the fanart he was looking at, he switched over to the app, looking to see if it was his friends screaming over his new rewrite ideas. But no, it was a message from a barely familiar name, $hougun1987, the guy with the Readdit post.

“hey”

“yello, how u being? :)” Jay responded quickly.

“uhhhhhhh, fine i guess.”

Jay hummed, he didn’t want to scare him off, but the guy didn’t seem comfortable. “So u want to know more about starfarer?”

He watched nothing happen for a second, then the small writing icon appeared. Jay had set his to be a bluebird, it slowly flapped its wings as he waited for the guy to reply.

“yeah my lil bro is super into it. Loves to talk about it, but i dont understand a thing he says about it”

Jay nodded in understanding; he wanted to share the show with many of his friends too. But after the third death in the second season and the weird time travel episode that messed with a lot of the timeline, he always ended up losing them in the confusion.

“its pretty awesome ur willing to try and understand it most find it pretty duanting”

“i dont care if it is you should see his face light up when he talks about it, all I want is to understand half of what hes saying he’ll light up so much more when he can talk about it to someone” They responded immediately, Jay was shocked about the passion in his words.

“if u dont mind me asking why r u asking for someone to explain it? theres plenty of vids about it”

“You cant ask videos questions”

“Comments?”

“They all speak gibberish too Imm stubborn and suck at learning I just need a person who can go slow and can answer questoins"

Jay blinked, this almost seems too perfect. Someone who wanted all the details, and was willing to listen to him ramble about every aspect of the show he had been hyper-fixating on for almost two years now? AND was going to ask questions. . .

He couldn’t pass this up, even his own friends in the community were tired of listening to him ramble about the show.

“we’ll, honestly, my dude, this sounds like a great project id be more than happy to help if u want me” Jay responded, not trying to sound too excited.

“sounds good how about we start tomorrow? ill message u”

“Yee! what ur name btw?”

“what!?! im not giving you my name!!”

Chuckling he quickly responded, “i dont want ur name, just wanna know what to call u we’re going to be chatting for a while it’d be awkward to call u dude the whole time”

There was a pause, and for a second Jay was worried that he scared him off, but then the app dinged as he responded.

“shogun, call me shogun”

Grinning from ear to ear, Jay replied. “hi shogun, im plasma :)”

#ninjago #kjerfnklejfnc #new fic idea #kai ninjago #jay ninjago #:P #fic #:D #what id i just made jay me

[evermorehaikyuu]

hello can i request for a suna angst where y/n leaves him bc he has been acting different and she doesnt feel loved anymore so when suna when out drinking with his teammates and came home y/n took care of him first and suna was like "please dont leave me" but he wakes up alone with her stuff gone from the apartment, thank you

I know I finished a whole month of angst like almost two weeks ago but THIS, THIS THIS THIS WOOOOOO I LOVE YOUR BRAIN ANON! All of the characters are aged up.

Whatever You Do

“I don’t understand.” Suna implied as he looked at Y/N with his golden eyes. She had said something that had made him frown deeply as he didn’t think he had changed that much. Had he? Maybe he had, seeing as the person he loved said so. Then again, it could be her imagination. All of these thoughts ran through his head until she spoke up again.

“I said you’ve been acting different, Rintarou. You haven’t been home much and when you do come home, you usually lock yourself up in our room. When you come out for dinner, you never talk to me. I’m usually the one starting conversations and keeping them going. I feel like...” She took a deep breath before saying the next words, “I feel like I’m the only one carrying this relationship. I thought a relationship was where both of us helped each other out.”

Suna nodded his head in understanding and replied, “How about this, when I come back, we can watch a movie together and do whatever you want. It’s all for you. I promise.”

Y/N’s eyes lit up, but there was still that twinge of disbelief as she stared at him. Launching herself into his arms, she quickly gave him a kiss on the cheek and gave in. 

She should’ve realized that not everything was going to be well.

~

He had said that he had to run an errand and he would be right back and Y/N believed him wholeheartedly. It was funny, the lies one could believe when one was deeply in love. Y/N stayed in the apartment and waited. She waited for what seemed like an eternity and in a way it was. He was gone for five hours when it was only supposed to be, at most, one hour. 

Then she scrolled through one of her social media accounts only to see Osamu send her a message that he was on her way to her house. She frowned in confusion. It was midnight, why was Osamu coming over this late? It would only happen if there was an emergency, and last time it was an emergency, it was become Atsumu had accidentally swallowed something on a dare Akagi made and he had a pet that he was taking care of for someone else. What could it be this time?

Just as she was about to call him, Osamu stumbled in, carrying a drunk man with his arm over his shoulder. Suna was giggling as he took several steps and almost tripped over his feet. “There’s my beautiful Y/N, she’s so pretty look at her, awwww c’mere sweetheart!” 

Just from those words alone and his actions, Y/N’s heart sank. He was drunk. He had gone out drinking with his teammates. He promised. He promised me he wouldn’t do this. 

“I’m so sorry, I just found him at the bar and he looked like he had downed a bunch of drinks, so I brought him back,” Osamu said profusely as Y/N took drunk Suna into her arms and nodded gratefully.

“Thank you.��� WIth that, Osamu was gone and Y/N helped a very drunk Suna up the stairs to the bedroom in silence. He was talkative, however, as he always was when he was drunk. Quickly helping him into his pajamas, he took her hands and slurred, “Please don’t leave meeee, I don’t know where I’d be without you--oh, look, it’s a bed.”

He crawled underneath the covers and settled down, not waiting for Y/N’s answer. Either way, she wouldn’t give him her answer. She tucked him in and left the room immediately. 

Suna would wake up to a half empty apartment in the morning.

~

When the light flickered through the window shutters, Suna groaned as he felt a giant headache coming on. It would be the hangover of a lifetime, that’s for sure. Usually, Y/N would be an angel and have breakfast and aspirin ready for him. But this time, something was wrong and he could feel it as he jumped out of bed.

That did no favors to his headache, yet his eyes widened at the sight before him. All her clothes from their closet, gone. All of the accessories she had in the drawers, gone. Every piece of her in that room, gone.

She can’t have left. There’s no way, he thought as he raced into the living room, trying to locate the scent of the invisible food. There was nothing in the air. No sign that she was in the kitchen cooking breakfast. Every piece of her in the whole apartment was gone. 

All because he couldn’t love her like he was supposed to. 

Suna stumbled over to a chair, gripping it as he sunk to the floor, his other hand crawling into his hair as the realization hit him. Tears started falling to the floor without him noticing and his heart started racing faster as the reality of what he had become raced towards him like a truck. He had lost Y/N, the only girl that had been ever so patient with him down to her very core. It was only a matter of time before she snapped and this was her end point. 

Why was I so stupid, why did I think she'd actually want to stay with me?

All this time she stood her ground. He couldn't blame her for leaving. But he dissolved into tears as he locked his eyes onto a little black box near the bookshelf. The object inside was meant for her.

She'd never wear it.

#haikyuu angst #suna rintarou x reader #suna rintarou x y/n #suna rintaro x reader #suna x reader #suna rintaro x y/n #suna angst #suna rintarou angst #suna rintaro angst #suna x y/n #suna x you #suna imagines

[purge-that-urge-rhackathon]

Spoons? What spoons?

Hi yall! Been meaning to check in for a while :3 put under a read more cuz goddamn it has been a while.

SO when last we met LOLOL or some other opener... xD

Dad

Dad’s doing as well as can be expected. His brain is more or less getting back to normal (mom says its not; I told her she’s just seeing him for the first time proper and all the cruel shit he’s saying/doing is very much in-character for him when he’s not always stoned, but thanks to therapy I have the words and stuff to communicate all that abusive shit to her now; I love him but I hate him but we’ll touch on that xD). He’s had three amputations so far and he’s developed osteomyelitis (bone infection) so he’s been doing 2hr ‘dives’ in the Hyperbaric chamber every other day to fight it up to 10 dives. I’m told its $200,000 treatment which their new health insurance is fully paying for cuz one surgery already hit the $20,000 premium (don’t even get me started on THAT fight I had to do to get them signed up so we’d still have a place to live- they don’t ‘believe’ in insurance cuz they dont know shit... lawsuits are still pending and will be for the next 2-3yrs i expect). So... yeah. Mom has stepped up with a lot of stuff and she’s better educated on it all too thank fuck.

Thank fuck for therapy

The entire time dad’s stuff has been taking place, I’ve been attempting therapy, which was never explained to me properly/offered of ‘why am i here’ sort of thing, soooo about 4months (5-6 sessions of 30min therapy) turned out to be a COMPLETE waste of time. I’m on mediCal and the clinic they assigned me to only deals with mild-moderate trauma and can only see me for max. of six months when most patients make an improvement. Asking the therapist when we’d actually get to the trauma and triggers and all the other shit I’ve been pursuing therapy for two years over resulted in some clarity and I’ve been putting off making the phone call X_X My therapist only deals with singular trauma, and she said I have complex/multiple trauma with PTSD, and there’s no possible way (in my opinion and hers as well) I’d get any modicum of ‘better’ in six months cuz I’m too damaged, so like... that’s fun to know. I’ve been living in denial about my quality of life for decades and hearing it from a professional has considerably destroyed my sense of self (as it should tbh cuz these rose colored glasses are made of broken bottles LOL). Everything about myself revolves around survival tactics so I’m kind of floundering about living in lies (cuz coming to terms with trauma you’ve convinced yourself doesn’t actually bother you too much will do that, and ‘fawning’ is apparently one of the flight/fight responses and hardcore how i’ve lived these past decades) sooooo that’s what I’m dealing with and it’s super painful to come to terms with. If you’ve ever had to eat fast-food ketchup packets cuz you’re so hungry as a child and there’s nothing else you can have and they’re free, WELP then you might have a very very small window of what my quality of life has been like (: and me and my sister just thought we were fat kids for always being hungry constantly LOL

Also thank fuck for brain medication

On the good news end, I’ve officially been medicated just over 2months for my adhd :D I’m on atomoxetine (strattera) and it’s COMPLETELY gotten rid of my executive dysfunction, I can get up in the morning regardless of how much sleep I’ve gotten, and I have much more energy and motivation to do stuff :) My medication isn’t a stimulant but works on the adrenal glands (which I suspected from various other body ailments might be the source of a LOT of my problems-- especially the chronic fatigue- and if the meds took them away, then I was right, and they did, so.... adrenal gland fixer yay!) and anyways it’s improved life a lot. It gives me goosebumps sometimes too which is funny but I’m real happy with it. If anyone has any questions, I’ve always been a loud mouth irl about my disorders in order to be visible and unashamed for others, and I’ve helped a lot of peers irl with mental bullshit and I’m always willing to pay it forward! :)

The doom and gloom stuff xD

I’m trying to get back into writing. Desperately. I spend time at night writing a couple of sentences when it’s quiet, but then I usually pass out in five minutes cuz tbh I don’t really sleep anymore and I haven’t since dad’s accident so progress on my creative endeavors is going very very slow. Lord knows I have the fucking time rn. I’ve been getting one shift a week at work since June cuz there’s NO hours, so I’m freaking out about money (i’m probably gonna open commissions again), and my life, and my age, and how I’ll never get out of fucking debt at this rate, and how I’m so fucking mentally fucked cuz I can’t do two/three jobs with my fucking adhd and shit, and I want to move out but I can’t live with other people cuz of the aforementioned trauma/distrust and it’s not like anywhere is affordable anyways in this hell country soooo. Yeah. I’m at the point of taking out balance transfers from credit cards to deposit cash into my bank account cuz i can’t fucking survive otherwise and I guess I’ll figure that out next month. I joke around but are any of you an escort/have you done that kind of work before/could I ask questions? >_> I need options. If I could sell an organ for about $25k i’d just do that but i AM desperate and I’m open to any and all suggestions for quick cash no matter how demeaning. Can’t demean someone who’s used to it all their life! :D Real talk tho i’m not kidding, if anyone could point me to some resources, DM me :|

So yeah that’s what’s up in a nutshell. Really REALLY wanna write and finish some shit... existential dread and basic survival is getting in the way of that. Bear with me though, it’s been a very very tough year but nothing has been abandoned and I’m definitely around. Just rarely have the spoons to do shit :D

#poisonjack jabbers #you'd never guess i once had a million-dollar life insurance policy would you? or a government job with perks. fuck i miss japan. #i've got 4 side hustles that bring in maybe $200 every other month/every three months and its low maintenance but it aint enough #i promise im not miss negativity i'm just burnt out and disappointed with myself that im not doing more while i have the time :\ #i'd love to go back to bartending but i can't mask anymore and most of the assholes at bars rn are unvaxxed and im vaxxed but still at risk #theres a bikini bar in town i thought to apply to but i need to lose some weight first before they'll accept me and thats hard x_x #anywho im pretty certain im gonna open fic commissions again sooooo thats something :D

[thelittlehansy]

How many things Hans share with domestic abusers ?

I just cant count the number time i read that hans remind them of their toxic abusive ex. Hans has already be link to "domestic abuser " in fanfic.  in some modern AU fanfic  i read Hans beats anna because you know...he is the villain. I also saw that there was some fanfic where Hans rapes anna and elsa 🤢 because you know....he didnt even kiss anna but he would totally do it because yeah....he is the villain.

And just people imagine the worst about what if hans succeed into marrying anna.  So lets back to one of my favorite things.

List 🤓🤓

This times how many signs hans share with abuser in the movie ? i took an article on the web about the subject.

1-CHARMING.

“Initially, he showers his woman with praise, adoration, and attention. His courtship is sweet and intense filled with phrases such as, “I can’t live without you.” He quickly pushes for an exclusive relationship or engagement.”

Yes he is charming ! There was love at first sight this is  very much possible hans said things describe above maybe he even means some of them because again...that scene when he is alone smile smitten  by anna under the boat. The only difference is that there was specific reasons about the fact that he ask quickly Anna to marry him he didn't have times the gates were going to be closed and he could said goodbye to his key to the throne this is why he propose so fast to anna. So the comparison with abusive relationship and what is describe above dont seems really honest as they was an explication to his behavior if he could have times to seduce her during a long time ,  he would have done it  i think (?) one the thing we know about him is that he is a very very patient person.

2. JEALOUS.

“He views other men as a threat to the relationship and accuses you of flirting with everyone from his brother to the mailman. “I know you are looking at him.” The irony is that he often is the one who is cheating.”

Behavior never show in the movie we dont know how he would have reacted to kristoff presence. when his show his "true colors" hans show us that he dont cares about anna and that   she is last of his worries.

X

3. MANIPULATIVE.

“This man is very intelligent. He knows how to detect your weak spots, and he uses your vulnerability and past pain to his advantage. “You were abused as a kid because you are so ugly.”

He never said such an horrible thing like what is described above but...he is smart he us manipulative he did use others people vulnerability ! So very much positive !

but again there is still these problem  about hans being manipulative ? ..who put totally in question hans manipulation in the movie toward anna and seriously put doubt about how much he actually manipulate anna.

 His smitten smile when she left also present in kids book who tell “ hans is smitten by the princess”  the fact that anna called him lunatic and not a liar in the book a  frozen of shadow. and hims admitted he did not manipulate her at all in a frozen heart

4. CONTROLLING.

He wants to know where you are going and who you are with at all times. He may check the mileage on your car or follow you to the grocery store. He often refuses to allow you to work because you might “meet someone.”

Behavior never show in the movie again once hans reveal his true colors he show us that he dont give a damn about anna.

X

5. A VICTIM.

“His poor choices are everyone else’s fault. When he loses his job, gets into a fight, or a business deal falls through, it’s always because of the other person. He is never at fault. “You make me hit you.””

Behavior never show in the movie when he reveal his true colors we dont know.

X

6. NARCISSISTIC.

“The whole world revolves around him. As the “little woman who is beneath him,” it is your job to meet his every need. He is the master; you are the unworthy slave. It’s invigorating for him to know that everyone around him “walks on eggshells.””

Behavior never show in the movie with anna or with the others people  also we dont know.

X

7. INCONSISTENT.

“Mood swings are a common trait for an abuser. One minute he seems happy and sweet, the next he is pounding his fist.”

Honestly i will not say behavior not show in the movie but more contradictory behavior hans really knows how to stay calm , tolerate frustration and Someone like that would have never succeeded  to did what hans did. I think He will act more like the duke of weselton if he had mood swings.

X

8. CRITICAL.

“No matter how hard you try you will never be able to satisfy this kind of man. He thinks nothing of degrading and verbally assaulting you. “You are a stupid, fat, disgusting tramp. You can never leave me. No other man would have you.””

Behavior not show in the movie at all.we dont know if we cant satisfy hans or if he degrade others people and verbally assault them. Then  again he left anna at the end he didnt tell her "no man expect me would want you" but the contrary he break her heart and leave her.

he said to anna that she was desperate for love and was willing to marry him just like that which was true and also an opinion shared by both Kristoff and Elsa and the audience.

the part when he said “you are not a match for elsa” he was responding to anna.

So thats left us with only one thing the “ oh anna if only there was someone out there who loved you”. and trying to deduce that from  this line Hans will said to anna the kind of stuff describe above is....extremely exaggerated. Behavior not show in the movie

not enough evidence.

X

9. DISCONNECTED.

His main goal is to isolate his victim from family and friends so that you are totally dependant on him. “Your family causes too much trouble for us. I don’t want you seeing them anymore.”

Again behavior not show in the movie he never tried to isolated anna when he show his true colors hans dont give a damn about anna anymore. Even the argument between the sisters was not intentional on his part anna arguing with elsa was far from being his goal since him what he wanted was elsa benediction and anna behavior was the last thing that he needed and just the fact that he wants to kill elsa as we all know is in order to be king not to isolated anna from her family. 

X

10. HYPERSENSITIVE.

The slightest offense sends him ranting. Everyone is out to “get him.”

Behavior never show in the movie  there was the moment with the duke of weselton  but the duke was not even criticized Hans but anna and Hans reaction was to assure his plan.

so we only have hans responding to anna that not this is her that is a not a match for elsa during his betrayal scene. So again based yourself on that and deduce “omg he is hypersensitive” is...exaggerated. We need more evidence. So in the end we just dont know again !

X

11. VICIOUS AND CRUEL.

A significant number of abusers harm children and animals as well as a partner. Inflicting pain and intimidating others is what gives him power. “I’ll kill you before I’ll let you go. If I can’t have you, no one will.”

Behavior not show in the movie he is able to show kindness to animals as he show it with Anna horse. We dont know about hans relationship with children and his whole relationship with animals. 

X

12. INSINCERELY REPENTANT.

He will swear to never “hit you again.” But unless he receives professional help and strong accountability it’s very unlikely that he will change.

Behavior never show in the movie the betrayal scene.

X

IN CONCLUSION : , we dont know. we just dont know if Hans had a behavior similar to domestic abuser with their girlfriend/spouse and if Anna would end up in a abusive relationship with him. 

honestly (that’s  only my opinion ) but judging by his behavior in the movie , his plans , his desire i think Hans would not have been an abusive Husband but an Absent Husband only interest by his job and not his queen since the start even if he liked Anna at some point his big dream to be king is what is the most important to him.

So  again  the only thing he has in common with domestic abuser is that he is manipulative but even that...hans manipulation on anna...is put in question everywhere in the beginning of the movie...books...vidéo games where it say he has a crush on her.All of the rest we just dont know or he saw contradictory behavior.

Hans never show us to be jealous , controlling, possessive, physically abusive , oversensitive , blame others and play the victim , oR inconsistent.  and even based on the movie we just cant affirm that hans is someone that verbally insult person since he never show that behavior again in the movie.

So hans acting like a domestic abuser is as true as a headcanon for someone who will like the idea of him being one. 

We just dont know how would have been his marriage with anna. All of this assumptions about hans characters to me really as based on the fact that we compare abusing someone and someone trust and put them in the same case.  This is not any better but this is believe  are two very different things. 

 i also have read lot of time woman said " hans was nice to anna and then show his true colors" then they compare that to abusive domestic relationship. But the thing is that an abuser once he show you his true colors he began to be controlling, jealous, physical abusive , emotionally abusive. Hans once he show his true colors. he leave anna he abandon her the comparaison is not very great here since in the end Anna yes would have trust issues but did not  suffer of abusive relationship victims suffer. 

We also learn think about Hans in his backstory in the frozen Franchise so yeah we dont have confirmation this is canon to the movie but this is very much canon to the frozen franchise and officially publish and approve by disney : He was not an abusive child.  he never abuse people on the contrary he was abuse by his father and brothers both physically and emotionally.  (the majority of people dont reproduce this behavior once adult but reject it) he Hates violence and is someone peaceful. He is not controlling over person but situation. He has all his life being bully because he is not cruel  and hates his father view on social darwinism and how he treat their citizens. He is used to criticized and be called a disappointment. He also dont play the victim. again the only thing confirm by his backstory is that he can be manipulative.

so i m gonna finish that post with that gif who show us that Anna is not scared of Hans. something again that rarely or just  dont have in domestic abusive relationship in real life.

#prince Hans #Hans #prince Hans of the southern isles #Disney #Disney villains #disney villain #Frozen Hans #hans frozen #Hans westergaard #frozen

[greatnessintheemakin]

Tres DRAFTS

Tiffani Rene Canino--

Evermore dah LOV Eeeee

This is piece I'll name Tunnel Vision

Tiffani, who is she.

I don't know. Yes, you've birthed me. I cannot say you've raised me. Damage. All the havoc that's been reaped.

There's An aching searing hole. Empty nothing lifeless gaping hole.

Attempted to be filled anything but the truth. Well fuck did I do this to myself. Who's fault is it. No need to play the blame game. No winning. There isnt. This is not a board game. This is not Monopoly. This is not a game where points and being accounted for.

Ownership.

X marks the spot. Signed, dated and released.

My fucking choices were never mine. Choices I've made under the gun under pressure, under stress.

Thrown around like a damn object, no emotions attached. A fucking ragdoll purchased at 99 cent store, blindly chosen. Never paid no mind.

Who is she? A fucking shadow casted over who ever she was. Was there a consideration for me?

A human being. Breathing and barely living. Surviving at bare minimum. Years and years of my own life gone.

Wasted. Angry. I don't want to pity, you feel.

Straight running and gunning. Cock the gun and squeeze the trigger. No safety on.

Innocence. 

At such a young age I've emulated bad addictive habits. Codependent.

Birth giver, let me depend on you. Please I beg of you.

Who taught, who shown me. No pointing fingers. Shown up drunk, higher than cloud nine. Anything consumed to numb the pain I've felt.

Taken from. Raped. Drained from more than one person. Exhausted.

Where would you go when you would drop me off? Young age, 7 years or less sexual preference wasn't a choice.

A forced manner. The door my escaped. Out of my reach. Blocked by a special needs motherfucker. Seen him not to long ago, stunned to see. Imagined myself walking over to their booth, taking the chopsticks he had stabbing them thru his jugular. Watch the life leave his body. Remind him of the innocence to took from me. Have his mother watch helplessly.

No choice in the manner, return the favor.

Deep dark not so pure thoughts, run through my head.

Catered to the needs of not my own, too many times to count.

Who is she, I still dont know. So many unanswered questions. Enraged with fear, enraged with more than frustration that can be illustrated with words. Feelings, turned into to harmful actions.

Self injurious.

I'll bleed to there isn't any left. Am I alive, I've questioned. What am I doing wrong? What doesn't she love me. All lve is try to please her.

Scolded, micromanaged to a fucking T it's a job to be paid for. Oh wait it must be your job.

Get paid big bucks talk about problems with people. Is she your daughter? Why is she treated like a patient with no form of payment but distress and anger.

Anger, secondary emotion. So what is it.

Dreaded each day I would wake up for years on end. No one. Alone. An empty abyss of bullshit. it smells, flies buzzing around. It wreaks. A dark abyss awaits me in the future. I'm ready for my life to end. I can't feel anything. Numb lifeless body walking.

Heads turn when they see me. Your vanity says it all. Thick in all the right places. Proportional for your size. Long torso, thick long hair. Big beautiful bold brown eyes. She's a heartbreaker, I'll tell you.

Looking in the mirror, my reflection wasn't me. A look of disgust. Wreaks of self loathing.

Tunnel vision.

Is there a light at the end of the tunnel. Where's the path, I must walk.

Not alongside others. Alone

Alone. I can't continue theses same patterns. It's not safe. Unhealthy and unproductive.

What can I say to you mother. Birth giver.

Misery loves company. So who was I too you. I have no right to say. Blinded. Jaded. Lied to. Stolen from. Locked up isolated from any outside communication.

Tunnel vision. I could go on and on about it. No good it does. Misery loves company. Deep dark not so pure thoughts run through my head. Thinking about the what ifs. Don't know how to end it.

Burn Bridges.

Am I selfish. Just might be. Why not. Never got to be. Owe to myself. All the days the we never mind to just be. Walking on eggshells I'll never do again.

Something new and different is ahead of me. I intended to keep it that way. There isn't a solution. There isnt a problem. Tunnel vision. I'll keep walking the other direction. Shine my own light. Burn brighter all above me. No one is going to stop me. No one.

Not even you.

[yggdraunion-moved2]

questions meme! thanks for tagging me @mothclubs ^^ i fell asleep on doing it so many times...

> favorite snack: sometimes i go out for mango crepes near school. yummy

> favorite place to go on vacation: i just like going on vacation honestly! anywhere goes

> song that makes you dance immediately: shall we dance? (the len’en song). lives up to the name

> tea or coffee, what kind: both depending on my mood! tea is my comfort drink bc it reminds me of my friends... usually i get jasmine milk tea or matcha milk tea but its all good. when i get coffee its usually to stay up (even though tea also has caffeine. its the placebo effect babey) and usually i get a frappucino from this place near school! i don’t really like it when it’s too bitter so ^^;

> do you play an instrument: i know how to play the recorder flute but only technically. i wanna learn an instrument some day though, maybe make electronic music ><

> fav type of personality: tries to find humor from all around but knows when not to joke abt things! i think that is very epic of ppl

> favorite comedian: im gonna be honest i dont really know anyone. my friends are all expert clowns though

> gummy candy or chocolate: chocolate

> what did you want to be when you grew up: a writer! i still want to be a writer but also i want to make visual art... music... be psychologist... life is cool like that

> favorite physical features of yourself: my cheeks are so soft that before, i had people going to me specifically just to poke at them

> last time you watched a movie or tv show: i went out to watch spider man far  from home last week! it was pretty good i think taking into account that the mcu... is the mcu

> unpopular opinion: video games are literature!!!

> are you scared of bugs: no for the most part! if you are a flying cockroach dni tho

> cats or dogs: both... our school has a bunch of cats so i talk abt them more often but theyre both good

> does the description of your star sign match your personality: 50-50? i act like a fire sign yeah but i don't think i act like a sagittarius specifically + i dont have commitment issues id like to think

> sexiest person to you: dana zane va11halla dm me... i am in love with you

> cake or pie: pie! i only really like the cakes that don’t act like cakes... so cheesecake and uh. sans rival

> last time you read a whole book: last month, alice into the looking glass. i’m gonna finish the book thief today and then MAYBE start something else

> favorite junk food: i like chips! theres this honey butter flavor i like but most ppl think is weird... more for me

> do you like your height: it’s pretty good i think! i’m tall for someone over here but all of my friends from abroad can make fun of me for being short so it’s double jokes.

> apples or oranges: oranges

> favorite personality trait in someone: this is a repeat question but i would never pass up an excuse to lovemail. if u are a patient listener who doesnt make too big of a deal abt things love u

> do you like salad: yeah! as long as you don’t put mayo i’m good with it

> what person inspires you the most: just my friends in general tbh... also i aspire to be someone madoka kaname would be proud of. thats it really

> what song has made you cry? The Sea Where One’s Home Planet Reflects. i love touhou so much its unreal

tagging @swordmagdie @merrypanic @transboyklug @merchantsoft @slugmeatt and @boycoded for if you guys like answering this type of thing! love u

#dream diary #long post #food #bugs #insects

[steen-to-live-life]

Sooo furious

So it took my 5 weeks to get my appointment right, at a doctor I've been a member at for 4 years.

Turn up 10min early like I'm meant to, to hear shes running 50 min late. So in that time I go to another clinc to sign up, then go back for my appointment.

But then when I go to pay for my appointment I'm told I'm casual so its $30 more than enrolled patients

Lke fuk off am I paying that.. I have been a patient here for 4 years and I was when I first walked into the door today, on time for my appointment, which I've had to wait 5 weeks for. The new doctors just happened to be onto it and transferred my data into their name so now I'm no longer enrolled, and I didnt know that would happen.

I put the phone on the table (they made me talk to the accountant) and stormed out without paying at all.

Currently in the car crying because I dont want to pay that much for a stupid appointment for eczema (my appointment was also 5min) and then have to pay for the medication too. I'm angry and I have myself wound up a lot.

#i have to take dogga to the vet now too wnd i actually just wanna cry in the bath #arghhh.. why so teary?

[lovemesomesurveys]

What’s your hair like? A mess. It’s long, wavy, and a mix of my natural dark brown hair and the red that I dye it because it’s been several months since I’ve gotten my hair done and my roots are very overgrown. It also needs a trim. Is there someone you can’t help but stare at? Alexander Skarsgard. How do you feel about teenagers claiming to be in love? It’s hard for me to understand because I can’t imagine feeling that at such a young age and I kind of feel like it’s easy to get caught up in the emotions and lust due to hormones, and I wonder if they know what it really means, but who am I to say what they feel? To them it’s real, they’re the ones feeling it. Plus, I’m almost 30 and I’m not sure I even really know what it means or if I’ve ever actually been in love. I thought so, but I’m not so sure now. Are you dating anyone? If so, for how long? No. Do you believe in long distance relationships? They work for some people. I’ve never had one.

Do you have unlimited texting? Yes, even though I hardly ever text. What’s your favorite button on the keyboard? All the ones I use. Do you like your handwriting? No, it’s awful. Your biggest fear? Losing my loved ones, dying, never amounting to anything or never doing anything with my life, things getting worse or never getting better... What’s on your walls? Some posters/paintings and decals. Do you like perfume? Yeah, some. Are you a guy or a girl? Girl. Do you prefer to have girls as friends or guys? I don’t really have a preference. If we vibe, we vibe.  What’s the top thing you look for in a S.O.? Someone who is patient, understanding, caring, and kind are especially important to me. Last words you heard and from who? My mom saying “goodnight.” Why do people cheat on each other? There’s a variety of reasons.

What’s your favorite brand of pencil? I don’t have one. Do you wake up by an alarm clock? If so, isn’t the BEEEEEP annoying? Yes, but it’s not a “BEEEEEP”, it’s something I chose from the options on my phone. It’s like an instrumental song type one. The last song you listened to? I have Señorita by Shawn Mendes and Camilla Cabello stuck in my head. The person you go to for advice? If anyone, my mom. Are you one of those people who just HAS to vent to somebody in some form? No. I don’t like doing that with people. I hate burdening others with my stuff and unloading on them, so I don’t do it much. I save that mostly for surveys and Twitter. Do you have Myspace, facebook, and myyearbook? I have all 3, but only my Facebook is active. I haven’t used Myspace or myyearbook in like 10 years, myyearbook even longer, but my account still exists out there. I don’t recal using myyearbook much, I think I just signed up to check it out. How do you feel about avril lavigne? I like some of her songs. I haven’t listened to her music in awhile, though. I wonder what happened to her. Don’t you hate it when people don’t say your name right? Nah. Now and then someone will mispronounce my last name, which I don’t understand, but I don’t hate it. It rarely happens.  Have you heard of Paramore? If not, look them up. :) Yes, I’ve known of them for years. I actually saw them in concert once as well. Who’s your favorite sibling? I don’t like choosing favorites when it comes to family members. I’m closer to my younger brother. Favorite Parent? I’m closer to my mom.  What do you want to do for a living? I don’t know. :/

Do you know anyone with down syndrome? No. Does anyone you know have a birthday this week? Mine is tomorrow.  What do you think of the middle name ‘Jane’? I don’t think anything about it. What’s your favorite name in the opposite gender? Alexander. Can you keep eye contact with everyone? I find it awkward to hold it too long at once, like I’ll look away for a bit and then look back and so on. What color are your eyes? Brown. Do you curl or straighten your hair? It’s been like 3 years at least since I last straightened my hair myself. When I get my hair done my hair stylist straightens it, but it’s been almost a year since I got my hair done. :X Pro-life or pro-choice? Why? What shape is your favorite bowl? Bowl shape?  Did you know the Salvation army was a church, too? I think I’ve heard that before. I hate winter. What’s your least favorite season? Ugh, SUMMER.

Do you know the difference between a hoodie and a jacket with a hood? A hoodie is more thin/lightweight.  Do you belive in 'hating’ anyone? I don’t hate anyone. Do you like Twilight? I was really into it when the books were still coming out and then the movies, but I outgrew it. Do you know the difference between loving someone and being in love? Yes. I’m not in love with a family member, but I love them. What animal that is endangered is your favorite? Giraffes. :( How do you believe the Earth and life on it was created? God. What’s your religion? Christianity. How many fingers do you have? * 10 (dont u come @ me w that “”“thumbs”“” bullsh*t either, lmao. They'are ALL fingers) <<<< Hahah. I say the same thing. Don’t get all technical with me! What about toes? 10. Do you like your teeth? No. Do you need glasses or contacts? I wear glasses. Have you considered getting contacts that change your eyecolor? What color? It’s cool, but the idea of putting in contacts freaks me out. I also prefer wearing glasses anyway.  Do you have allergies? Yes. Have you ever made a quiz? Don’t you love it when you’re on a roll? Once, a long time ago. Like pre-Tumblr days. What time zone are you in? Pacific.  Do you wish you lived some where else? Yes. Sometimes don’t you wish you could move away and start over? Yes, but unfortunately my problems would follow me. It would be nice to live somewhere else, though. I hate this city. What’s the craziest color you’ve seen on a house? I’ve seen pink, yellow, purple, and blue houses. Do you like the name Trevor? Eh. How do you pronounce Bzoink? Biz-oink. Is Taylor Swift better than the rest of the teen singers? I’m not a fan of Taylor Swift.  What time will it be in 3 hours and 2 minutes? 7:14AM. What’s your favorite brand of cereal? General Mills, Kellogs, and Post. Do you like to read? Yes. What’s your GPA? I’m doneeee with school. Isn’t annoying when you’re friends are different around different people? Depends on how they’re being different. I did have a friend who was completely different and not in a good way. Do you want a phone with a keyboard? I have a touch screen phone. Do you go to church but you aren’t sure if you believe in God? I don’t go to church right now, but I do believe in God.  What grade are you in? I’m done with school, remember? Are you shorter then most of your friends? Yes, all of them. Do you prefer a S.O. older or younger? By how much? A bit older. Like up to 5 years at most, I’d say. I just feel like the older I get; though, the harder it’ll be to find someone. I’m almost 30, but I feel so...stunted and behind in life. Someone in their mid 30s would likely be in a much different place in life and be further ahead. I don’t know if they’d want to date me with where I am in life. Do you like popcorn? I love movie theater buttered popcorn. I also love this garlic parm seasoning I get put on it at this one theater we go to. SO good. Why does corn get chewed up but come out in the original form? Ew. Are you pessimistic or optimistic? Very pessimistic. What number do you think you’re on? I’m not counting. That was # 76. What’s your bestie’s name? Was it really? Wow. Anyway, her name is Yolanda.  What size shoe do you wear? 6 in women’s.  Do you like lollipops? Nah. Don’t you hate the texture of lotion on your skin? No. Well, unless it’s like greasy. Favorite movie? I have a lot. How many words per minute do you type? I don’t know. Do you think it’s possible to meet your bestie online? I don’t have a bestie online. Do you blog or write in a journal? This is my blog and journal. Isn’t health class annoying? I didn’t find it annoying. Who’s your favorite teacher, if any? What internet browser do you use? Chrome.  Isn’t it weird to like having butterflies? No? The good butterfly feeling is nice, like the kind you get when you’re excited or you like someone.  What’s the longest flower name you can think of? *shrug* What year were you born in? 1989. What time is it, backwards? 91:4. If you had to shorten your name to 4 letters, what would it be? Step. Sam; a femine name or a male name? Whatever. What’s the prettiest cat you have seen?  All the cats I’ve ever seen.

#personal #text #survey #surveys

[boymeetsweevil]

bts as boyfriends

a/n: tbh this was basically a list of things i just had swirling around in my head and its basically a continuation of my moments w/ bts and sleepovers w/ bts

Kim Seokjin

Squishes your cheeks together in his big ol’ hands because he can and because he thinks you look cute that way

Is highkey a fan of having matching stuff, but not full-blown couple outfits

thats where he draws the line >:|

Created a separate instagram account just to document the meals you guys have together on your date nights

Dumb (but cute) snapchats of him doing that fast yelling thing he does but he just tells you how much he misses you rly aggressively

also spams you with selfies and videos from other members’ accounts

Pets names hmmm

prefers to call you Doll 

yeobo seems too serious (its what his parents call each other)

Sweetie/Honey makes him feel like an old woman

On your one year anniversary he gave you a 5000 dollar watch but presented it in a box wrapped in printer paper that had his face printed all over it that he made in Microsoft word with some of the editing crew’s help

all of his gifts get wrapped this way 

Jin Is scary serious when you take a selfie together

“Babe, this isn’t the angle--quick lets move over here so we can still catch the light” ***proceeds to sprint ahead of you to some random spot where the lighting is optimal and hurry u over like “ >:( cmon the sun is setting” ***

Is not your typical PDA type, will do weird things just to embarrass you

puts his hand in your back pocket while you’re in the starbucks line and smiles when you give him incredulous side eye

rests his phone on your head to mock you for being shorter than him

Links arms with you like old lady gal pals while you’re walking because he knows you HATE IT

fake moans when you swat his arm for being weird and embarrassing

you shushing him and ending up just glaring because he has no shame and there’s an old man glaring at u on the subway

You can bet he tests out recipes on you!

some of ur most romantic nights have been when you come over just casually but the whole house smells like food he’s been tweaking

you sit at a stool by the kitchen island and he comes by with like 8 different sauces you need to try and noodles to test for texture

He is the type of boyfriend that thinks its funny to gross you out

he eats food the fell on the floor just to piss you off

will kiss u while he’s chewing gum :(

touches u with his bare feet  :((((((

Min Yoongi

Is less bold but NEVER lacking with his affection

Likes to take walks in any weather

E.g. Loves when its rainy because then you have to huddle close because he INSIsts on sharing an umbrella

E.g. Will even walk in the winter/end of fall because he likes to share mittens and scarves - this is the closest thing to cheesy you will ever get with him

Isn’t the type to send selfies

if he does, its just of his shoes of the day with an ironic caption like “rate my fit and i’ll follow back” 

Readily accepts all of your selfies, though

Upgraded his phone 2x just so he could have the extra storage to save all your photos

a lot of them are blackmail worthy, which is the reason for saving them half the time

Yoongi Is a champ when you get drunk

will hold your hair back

lets you spit your gum out into his bare fucking hand before u hurl and will not flinch 

rejects all of your lewd propositions, but may record you and play back your whiny drunk voice the next morning to make you reconsider taking shots next time (PS u dont ever reconsider)

he likes home dates too, obvi

usually you schedule naps at his place because everything about his bedroom is better than yours

mattress is huge and the perfect firmness

sheets are higher thread-count 

can sleep with his hand up your shirt all he wants because he doesn’t have any roommates at his own place

pillows are always cool to the touch BUT

he might schedule dates at your place if he’s been away and just wants to bury himself in your smell. Speaking of...

...Yoongo is a smeller

he is always smelling you, loves how you smell

He smells your hair while zoning out waiting for his americano to come out when ur at a cafe

He’ll wrap himself around you from behind and sniff your neck idly while he plays candy crush on your belly while u try to cook dinner

Nicknames vary on his mood/your behavior

brat - for when you’re being a brat duh

kid - default, all purpose and a little mocking

your last name when he’s feeling rowdy

your first name when he’s emotional

Jung Hoseok

Hobi always runs full force at u when he sees you even if you’ve been in each other’s faces all week

Whenever he’s bored and you’re nearby he’ll moonwalk around you

You love to watch him practice but you also hate it because if you make eye contact he’ll come over and try to pull you in to teach you

He’s tried to teach you to dance dozens of times and you never get any of his choreo

usually it ends in him maneuvering you into a slow 2 step

which then always becomes a tiny makeout session

but honestly so many other random activities you do together turn into makeout sessions because tbh hob is a bit of a greaseball

this means that half the time you’re ignoring him pawing at u and making cheesy jokes during inopportune times 

the other half of the time ur dragging him by the collar and looking for an empty room to take him into because u dig him and his cheesy horndog antics

He’s also lowkey highkey a dudebro

crowds you because he wants to chest bump and ur like “-.- again?”

kept trying to get your secret couple greeting to be that little surfer hand thingie he does with tae sometimes and u said no because neither of u are 8 anymore

likes spontaneous dates, so usually you’ll text him wyd and if he’s free he’ll just answer ‘coming to get u now’ and then you sigh and slip on your shoes and wonder when you’ll be able to have a date where its not 10:30 at night and you’re not wearing sweats and ur not going out just to go eat some chicken by the Han

You utilize all your privileges that you have dating him to visit Mickey

any time there is a break in the guys’ scheduling you say you want to visit mickey

He lowkey hates those days because you just lie on the floor next to mickey and eat the snacks his mom puts out and COMPLETELY ignore him

u and his sister take turns petting mickey and telling embarrassing stories about hob while he sulks in the corner

he gets revenge by taking 20 pics of ur back and doodling horns on ur head and spamming u with them

Probably would call you a bunch of weird things as a pet name

ducky, peaches, cutie, hotpot, captain etc.

sometimes calls you sweet thang but only when its after dark and he’s trying to make moves

Hobi is the type to always want idle touch but its not exclusively sexy u kno?

if you’re watching tv together he’ll have an arm slung over you

if you’re out to dinner, he gravitates towards booths so he can press his shoulder against yours

if you’re chilling in bed you HAVE to be rubbing his arm or else he’ll give you the most ridiculous pout [its so cute tho :’C ]

Thinks you’re the funniest person alive, is always laughing at stuff you said whether if was supposed to be a joke or not

which means he does that deep hiccuping giggle all the time and you just :’))))))

He’s so patient and let’s you test out all your new skin care products on him because he likes having your hands on his face and the way you talk softly half to him, half to yourself while you talk about what you’re doing

maybe its ASMR lmao

Kim Namjoon

The first thought you had after you started dating was that you could touch his dimples any time you wanted

so naturally you do

he has long since gotten used to you just touching them while he’s driving, reading, listening to music, just existing

the first time you did it he was just talking to you about something and when he felt your finger nudge his dimple 

Joon: “I feel like if we visited in the spring we could go frog catching and maybe then we could-----*you jam your finger into his dimple*

You: and? what were you saying?

Joon: uhhhh I forgot :0

a fan of couple outfits but not in the same sense Jin. its more like he likes to plan your outfits

he gets really excited when he thinks of something you would look good in and always gets really bashful right before he shows it to you because he wants you to like it

he has great taste and is very observant of u and ur style so there has never been a time where he has planned an outfit for u and u looked less than amazing

same for photos, he takes really good artsy photos of you all the time

thats what 80% of dates with him are

walking through the city at night so he can take a picture of you with the city scape behind you

or going to those instagram-able cafes in the city during their slow hours so he can pictures of your coffees and you sitting next to a pastel neon sign that says like Love Hurts or something edgy like that

taking photos like that one girl and her bf who travel alot on ig, u know the one

but u never actually manage to get a good shot like that because ur always like ‘joon my arm hurts why dont u be the girl’

He’s in general big on googling popular activities and getaways and making a big deal of documenting it 

as a result: he’s been working on a scrapbook and he thinks you don’t know but you and all 6 other members and even Bang PD know about the scrapbook

he gives it to you on your anniversary and even though youre expecting it, you cry

he takes photos of that too and it goes in the one for next yr lol

He calls you baby of course

but not in an exaggerated/pronounced way

it comes out super naturally and he says it more than he says your actual name

u better Get used to just turning around and catching him giving you that one soft smile he does with his whole face 

“is there something on my face?” 

“no, just enjoying the view <3”

Always wants to make your plate when u visit his home, and always ALWAYS gives you too much food

going there and realizing that maybe its a family thing as you watch his mom heftily scoop vegetables onto his dad’s plate while his dad looks on in worry about where he’s going to fit it

Using Joon’s lap as a pillow!!!

he can read and stroke your head while you snooze

him humming off key because he thinks it helps you sleep

Park Jimin

Before you started dating, Jimin seemed like the guy that everyone loves because he’s effortlessly cool and charming

And he is even after you start dating BUT

He is also a little praise monster and lives for your compliments

Jimin takes advantage of the fact that you are obviously enamored with him and will do things to fluster you on purpose

runs his hands through his hair because he knows you can’t look away

gets unnecessarily close to tell you things because he knows you get goosebumps when he whispers in your ear

plays chicken with you all the time

slow looks at u until u squirm

HE’s a menace

but also reminds you of a bumblebee

Jimin loves to go to see the latest comedy movies and those are always fun

Not because the movies are actually that funny (lowkey he has really bad taste in comedy movies), but because he will LOSE IT in the middle of the theatre and end up slumped over the armrest just laughing his head off

Cue the high squeaky laugh where he can’t even see the movie screen anymore because his eyes are squeezed shut :3

After the movie he always tries to retell funny scenes like

“And then *laughs* did you see the part where the guy *laughs* *laughs more* and then he *dolphin noises*

“Yeah, Minnie it was funny”

He always wants you to come to the gym with him because he gets an unnecessary amount of motivation from those gym couple accounts on instagram

You go in your big t-shirt and shorts and he goes in a similar outfit 

It always ends up with u watching him because again he looks good when he lifts weights and does squats

he likes the attention too 

Calls u cutie

but thinks its funny to sometimes address u as his favorite anime villian’s name ur always like hmm time to go now

He’s a feeder kinda like joon

YOu can’t ever eat anything by yourself, he always wants to cut things for you, spoon feed you 

he’s very caring

This means he also is super attentive when ur sick and will bring u soup and play cards in bed and always refresh ur water and bother u about taking medicine

Kim Taehyung

Everything with Taehyung is beautiful and u feel beautiful with him which is so amazing and crazy at the same time

He is a big cheerleader for u he loves everything u do

You made a badly folded origami and he shouted cute and was so genuine and got it laminated somehow and keeps it as a keychain accessory

He’s always showing you things

like some of his favorite classical art pieces that he’s saved pictures of on his phone

sometimes he tells you about how he can’t wait to plan the perfect trip to europe with u so u can visit some of his favorite pieces face to face

Always showing u his new (and old) favorite songs and movies

some of ur dates are going to see old films or foreign films at this one really hip theatre in the city

he bought a gramophone a little while back before u started dating and he loves to play records for you and lie with you on the floor and show u  the best parts of the song with his hands in the air

He has a fancy camera too that he uses to document “special moments”

when u asked him how come he always uses it to take picture of u then he was like everything with u is special and u had to tackle him and cover his whole face in kisses because he cant just say things like that without facing the consequences

He keeps a journal where he doodles in the margins and writes songs and poems that only some people have seen like yoongi or jimin

he tried to draw you once and it came out looking a little strange but he’s still learning and u love him for it

He also gets soo sooo excited when you show him your favorite things

u dont do it as much because they dont seem as cultured or pretty but u show him a movie from ur childhood that u still watch once or twice a year and his eyes were huge the whole time and he was so glad to watch it with you

Calls u Jagi because he likes what it means and its truly accurate

U guys are just on the same wavelength and he really appreciates that u dont find him weird or quirky or overly pretentious even

u finish each others sentences and can predict moods pretty well its a little scary for the guys to watch u talk to each other in half sentences and know what the other means

When u first met, it was through Joon because he thought u guys would click and he was super nervous and worried because a lot of ppl don’t really GET him

Maybe at ur blind date a song came on in the restuarant u were in and it was a song he really liked

and then u were really shyly like “it feels like when you find a really special spot in the woods that nobody knows about” and hes like

“yeah, it really does” and then goes home and writes ur name 20 times in his notebook before getting the courage to call u about a 2nd date

Jeon Jungkook

You already know what it is with this kid: MEME CENTRAL

seriously ur texts are like 80% reaction pictures you downloaded off the internet that just get cycled over and over again because they’ve started to replace certain common phrases and emotions

Yoongi tried to jack JKs phone once and read the messages out loud to the members to try and embarrass him and he actually couldn’t read the last 24 hours of messages because it was literally all pictures/emojis

JK thinks ur laugh is the best sound he’s ever heard and is always trying to bring it out

he makes so many weird faces

those also become memes in the chat

he does so many exaggerated moves from choreo just to get u to crack up

does random weird things with his voice at inappropriate times to get u to choke

Like Jimin he is a praise monster

he wants u to think he’s impressive because he thinks ur very accomplished and cool and he’s still very much the young shy boy he was before joining the band.

Does flips because he knows u love it and won’t leave u alone until u confirm that u are in fact watching

JK: “Hey, hey, watch this LOOK are u looking?”

YOU: “Yes oh my god what?”

JK:*Does a backflip*

YOU:.........DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDEEE WTF ITS LIT IN HERE

JK: *internally* i can die now

Get ready for some next level cuteness OMG

the little nose scrunch will become the most frequent thing

u will be ruffling his hair and it’ll tickle so he’ll scrunch his nose and u’ll just explode its amazing

The BABY SMILE every time its been a while since you’ve seen each other

You’ll practically tackle him and he loves it and spins u around a little too fast

Those big sparkly eyes that he has?????

prepare for those when its his night to cook but he doesn’t feel like it and says he wants to order pizza for the billionth time

You can’t say no to him ever

gaming is not your thing but he will rope you into a 3 hour Fortnight tutorial because u love him

Not really big on pet names, or like any names for that matter

but he will use your actual name for when he wants ur undivided attention

Is scared that you think he’s immature so sometimes he’ll try to go a day without making a joke and then its ur job to try your hardest to crack him up

this is good because ultimately u also love his high pitched loud laugh 

#bangtan bookclub #bttnetwork #btswriters #hyunglinenetwork #networkbangtan #bangtan #bts fanfic #bangtan fanfic #bangtan imagines #bangtan scenario #bts scenarios #bts imagines

[spacexmagicxandxsheepxbleats]

I’ve decided to open 10 commission slots.

//: The deadline to sign up is this Friday (4/12/91) at noon CST (central standard time).

All of the details and some art examples are below the cut ~

$3.00 is the going rate and I’ll only be taking payments through my Ko-fi account.

Per Ko-fi I can’t really do NSFW... NOW, will I not do NSFW? Prolly not... I’ll open that sack of fun at a later time ~ With that in mind, these ten will be SFW so I can have things to display on Ko-fi other than drawings that I did 3-4 years ago ಠ_ಠ (I have more recent work but none of its really done done because of the shit storm that was work...)

Now, please understand the following guidelines:

The sketch will be of One character... OC’s are 110% welcome!

Head shot or full body (your choice).

No colour and No S U P E R fine detail or shading.

The image will not be digital. Meaning: It will be pencil on paper and I will be uploading the best possible photo I can take because I’m a pos with out a scanner... _(┐「ε:)_

Because they aren’t digital, I’ll ask for patients in getting them done. N O R M A L L Y I can get such a sketch done in a day, but I haven’t been drawing as much as I used to because of my exworkplace (c" ತ,_ತ) so I’m a little rusty/slow...

** IF you have the image digitally altered PLEASE let me know and link me to it/sent it to me, I’d LOVE to see what’s done with it (*^◯^*)

What I’ll need from anyone interested:

I. Need. A. PM. Not. A. Comment. On. This. Post.

WE DO NOT HAVE TO BE MUTUALS AND YOU DONT HAVE TO FOLLOW ME （╹◡╹）♡

If it’s an OC I need as many details as possible (aside from colours obviously lol) If you have a face clame, let me know who so I can lurk (๑╹ω╹๑ ) If you have a pose in mind, feel free to drop examples! Other wise I’ll just kinda do what ever comes to mind (*´-`)

If you want a specific character, let me know so again, I can lurk lol Same with poses, drop me examples (I’m a pretty visual person when it comes to this kinda thing) or I’ll just do what hits me ~

P A Y M E N T: I quit doing commissions online a few years ago because people weren’t paying for them. In the beginning I did a ‘on good faith’ approach and that bit me in the buttocks.... then it turned into people skipping out half way through... I’m sure things have changed but, I’m still skeptical... so what Id like to do is this: I’ll make a running list or Queue of the requests. As I get them done, I’ll pm the client and ask for the donation to be made. As soon as it’s confirmed that it’s gone through I will send up to four photos of the drawing: two close ups and two full sketch :(；ﾞﾟ'ωﾟ'): I don’t want to take payment upfront because I know some people have been scammed with the promise of a commission before and I don’t want that kinda paranoia on your end...

Depending on how this goes I may do couples, I may do detailed works and I’d be willing to open NSFW at different rates, think of this as kind of an introductory promo thing...?

PLEASE P L E A S E reblog this post for me <3 even if you don’t plan to make a request, please share it ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

^ Clothing wouldn’t be coloured in btw this is a personal piece lol

#Im just a raccoon #ten commissions at 3 bucks a pop will help me pay for Muninn's vet subscription #meaning all his exams will be free #neuter? Free #all of his core/required shots? free #if he requires surgery? Covered #gets sick? you got it #covered #the vet I go to requires 35$ a month to keep my cat son in the club ~ #its a good club #$35 bucks a month = $420 a year #neuter alone is like #two hundred something #each exam costs 65$ #medication? depends on what it is but its all covered for $35 a month #If this takes off I can get Gizmo in the same club #I'd have to make 70$ a month for both of them #; w ; commissions will help #if you can't make a request please just reblog for me ~ #that helps just as much and I appreciate any help possible

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medical professionals on here be like “its actually NOT illegal for me to blog abt how fucking terrible my patients are all the time! so long as its not “identifiable” im all good!” 

when A: you’re absolutely playing with fire. if people end up being able to recognize that patient, you’re out of a job. even if you dont post the name

B: people who see your posts who arents medical professionals are going to be paranoid whenever they are receiving care because theyre going to be fucking afraid you’ll talk about how disgusting their bodies are for thousands of people to read every day or about how delusional and terrible they are for being mentally ill. 

like, we read that shit. and we’re then terrified to speak up when it happens. i still dont like talking to my doctors about a lot of my trauma because it doesn’t matter how many papers i sign i still think in the back of my head “what if they go on reddit or facebook or even fucking tumblr and talk about how their patient was stupid and let themselves be abused. im an idiot and they’ll just insult me” or “i can talk about that hallucination/delusion even though it really scared me because its too stupid and irrational. they’ll laugh at me behind my back and call me a stupid psycho bitch.” 

C: you’re being super fucking unprofessional in general. even if you’re not breaking the law, and someone figures out your stupid social media account? they will probably make it very clear they dont want you taking care of them because you cant be trusted to keep your fucking mouth shut about sensitive information. i get we all meet assholes on the job but really some of the shit i see some of you post about perfectly innocent ppl who are also not exactly having a good time (the vast majority of ppl in a hospital are, guess what, in a lot of pain/very sick! shocker i know) is so.... vile lol. you’re taking care of sick ppl. sure if a patient smacked you with a magazine or harassed you vent abt it but dont do shit abt how ‘whiny and bitchy’ they are getting off their fucking pain meds. these are people who are NOT in positions of power over you, YOU are in a position of power over them. take that into consideration.