#i dont wanna sound like im trying to be quirky or anything...

[zeteroxx]

dni list (about time i made this):

CLARIFICATION: INTERACTING MEANS FOLLOWING, SENDING ASKS, REBLOGGING, LIKING, ETC TO ANYTHING I POST OR REBLOG. IF YOU WANNA REBLOG SOMETHING I REBLOGGED, BUT YOU FIT INTO DNI, REBLOG THE OP's POST. NOT MINE.

proshipper (im 14 ofc i don't wanna see people who are MY AGE being shipped with adults. ive already been sexualized twice, and god thats way more than anyone should have to deal with. twice was wayyyy too many times. twice doesnt sound like a lot, and thats because it isnt, and its still wayyyyyyyyyyyy too many times.)

shotacon (see above)

queerphobic (duh (also im queer))

friends with the above knowing they are those things (if you dont know ur chill, but do stop being friends with them. if you cant do that, im gonna have to block you (too nervous to keep being friends with you at that point))

racist (duh (also im asian))

friends/supporters with/of tosteur-gluteal, theokusgallery, dommarhooober

neutral on the above topics

anti-endosystem

over 20 (this one is very much so not a hard rule; idgaf about ur age if ur chill)

truscum? (idk if this is the right term but basically people gatekeeping being queer fuck off)

transautistics (for the love of god its not quirky; it sucks massive dick. being autistic sucks. fuck off if you want this shit. you only want it because you dont recognize or care about the fucking landfill of negatives, you just think "awww silly retard so cute and quirky i wanna be like that." FUCK OFF.)

a dick (duh if ur a fuckin asshole no shit i dont wanna interact with you)

keep in mind that even if you dont fall onto this list, i may block you. this is by no means a complete list. im just a 14 year old who wants to reblog art and maybe post some of its writing/creative works that it does.

anti-palestine or pro-israel (fuck the israeli government; jewish people are absolutely allowed to interact with me though. no hate to jewish people, only to the israeli government and its supporters)

also, because I'm paranoid, i wanna make something clear: if i block you, it will most likely stay that way. forever. if ive blocked you, don't try to reach out to me on tumblr. if you know my discord, thats a bit different; im okay with friends reaching out to me there. i doubt this bit will ever come into affect, but still putting it out here.

thats it i guess idfk

wow this was long

[echoesofadream]

the album really does suck ass… def the worst our of all the bts solos sadly. like i don’t even like jm like at ALL but his album is leagues above jk’s. sad

it seriously doesnt even sound like HIM like it sounds like songs by and for other artists but sung with jungkook's voice, who of course gives his all but it's still so terribly beneath him. like listening to hate you im like am I listening to Shawn Mendes right now? like my friend pointed this out but hes just too good at copying so its really like, I HAVE heard this song before and it was by fukcing Justin Bieber or ed Sheeran or who the fuck and it was overplayed on the radio the summer of 2017 or something idk. too sad to dance sounds like some shit hit song by some boring pathetic one hit wonder sometime in the 2010s like. some dull male who thinks he can sing and that being quirky and self deprecating in his music means it isnt absolutely terrible. well it is. there is no soul there is no personality this is the most generic mainstream shit thats ever been produced I believe. closer to you and please dont change are so jarring cause what the fuck did they make him sing now????? this is not HIM. I dont mean that he cant do whatever he wants or sing whatever genre he wants; I mean there is absolutely NOTHING of him in these songs, he just copied the way songs like these are supposed to be sung and he did it brilliantly because he is an amazing artist and singer but it is almost painful how little of himself thats in it.

I feel like even with the other members that didnt write and produce themselves they still got to keep their own aura. not to mention quality. FACE is straight up like a masterpiece (even tho it like personally did not impact me that deeply) and layover is very lowkey but still so very Kim Taehyung you know (and I do like layover second most of all solo projects and yes jungkooks is still my favorite bc of snty only I guess this is what they meant about being biased?). so its like. is jungkook their automatic singing machine they can just give whatever trash they want to? hes just supposed to chew it up and sing to give them cheap bucks? like did they even try?

for jungkook though I accept his choices and do not ask anything more from him, he's worked so hard on this and I am so so proud of him. im so thankful for him and his beautiful voice. I wanna end this not being a hater so

STANDING NEXT TO YOU SONG OF THE YEAR SINGER OF THE UNIVERSE BEST SINGER AND ARTIST IN THE WORLD JEON JUNGKOOK

[littlebabycrybtch]

i dont wanna ruin ppls fun or w/e but i just,,,,,,, anybody else honestly getting tired of seeing character coding essays. bc like. ppl will write some analysis on how a character is ‘coded’ as a minority and then their examples literally just boil down to 100% personal headcanons revolving around stereotypes, baiting, or just literally making something out of nothing. like. i am not personally gonna Celebrate that?? and im not gonna give some random privileged creator my praise for any one of those things???

idk hot take but.... imo? coding isnt. even good. its not a diversity positive thing to ‘’’code’’’ a character. frankly most of the time a character isnt even fucking coded as anything, but even when thats truly the case, its not rly. representation. its half assed, its a cop out decision. it should be like. a last resort for when you Cant represent a trait, like if ur fighting censorship or smth. otherwise................ whats the point of it dude. im rly not trying to be black or white abt it but. minority rep is not the place for requiring ‘analysis’. just represent the fucking trait. if you want people to think your character is a certain thing... blatantly make them the thing. you dont make majorities play guessing games with their rep, why should i let you play me like that. i dont want your symbolism or ‘’’’’’coding’’’’’’. to me its insulting, demeaning, and does nothing for me. and thats just talking about when coding posts end up being Reasonable, 9 times out of 10... its downright eyeroll worthy. now ofc, however you choose to relate to characters is 100% fine, and you viewing their traits as relatable to your through your own minority lens is valid analysis! but its kinda inexcusable to ignore the social harm it causes to just. literally out loud pretend that blatantly coincidental or even Malicious character choices are actually intentional, and that this vague intention would mean anything truly progressive anyways, especially when once again, most of these ‘coding’ essays are written about stereotypes and baiting. coding at this point seems to be just... a fancy word for ‘a headcanon with a little extra analysis to fantasize that this was the truth all along, yaaay everybody agree with me’.

in other words.... if you try to tell me one more time about how this quirky character is autism coded, or this male character who one time said he doesnt like sports is gay coded, i am gonna fucking scream. lmao dude. no they arent. thats not real. they arent for me. they dont represent me. they were probably written by an abled cishet who isnt thinking about me at all, so im sorry, but its just too much to ask for me to pretend with you. i refuse to lower my standards that fucking far. i will Not clap for that, i will Not fake that this means anything to me just bc you want me to. and if its actually supposed to be that way, well tbh the concept would probably offend me bc based on the points given it sounds like absolute garbage rep anyways. smh. like its fine when you see stuff that way, but thats a fuckign HEADCANON ok, stop using stereotypes and baiting as examples of ANYTHING positive or realistic, and pls just go back to writing HEADCANON analysis essays instead of implying this sort of shit is intentional and progressive, unless you have CLEAR evidence thats fucking real and makes sense!! im sorry to be harsh but it makes me wanna pull my hair out lmao. idk, have fun, but pls stop and think about how it affects other minorities (and if you’re one, remember the people in your group besides yourself) when you leap from ‘this is what i think for self related reasons’, and ‘this is what i am going to publicly claim is the truth’. theres a big difference in headcanon vs coding conversations, and the problem is its way more harmful if you fuck ‘coding’ up the way a Lot of people have been.

#mandatory disclaimer that i didnt discuss racial coding bc im white and if you want to discuss that thats fine #just keep in mind nothing i said here was personally with that topic in mind bc i didnt want to to talk over anyone in that regard #and either way ive just seen a lot of specifically autism and gay coding convos that were fucked up for some reason #autism i kind of think has to do with allistics talking abt it bc yall get to have autism headcanons i stand by that but. :/// hoo boy. #but i dont get the gay coding craze. 'u cant hc captain america as bi hes obviously coded as a gay trans man' ok see in a better world sure #but like.... no. lol #the writers didnt sit down and discuss. literally Either of those possibilities. there was very likely no thought given to that at all #thereofre the amount of time and energy you are wasting arguing the Validity of Either of your claims is . unfathomable #you have... headcanons. theyre... how you view the character. and what you personally enjoy seeing them as. maybe even your own analysis #but without proof this was intentional its not even the definition of coding and if its not progressive i dont want to praise it. so... #maybe lets just fight for better rep........ #pls social media relearn the word headcanon thats all i ask xoxo

[tomatograter]

do you have any thoughts on trans girl jake? i thought their narrative and character arc on being specialized by the others, and being comfortable about themself will wrap up nicely with them ending up as a transgirl!! it defies what people expects of them, and breaks them out of the traditional idealized reoccurring masculinity theme (which jake was obviously uncomfortable with)

(what follows is my personal thoughts, i’m not laying down the word of God, i just have Thots on Jake English ALSO THIS IS A PRETTY LONG POST? IM SORRY. i promise i will include pics.) 

Jake English is a gender mimic. He’s the ‘raised by wolves’ trope, except instead of literally being raised by dog like Grandpa Harley he had a few years with Jade and then mostly nothing but the monsters at lusii island and a crap-ton of escapist media. He’s used to having a full playing field where he can indulge in unquestioned fantasy, and that comes in the form of his Indiana + Croft sexy 2000′s hero persona that is comfortable for him (and its worthy of note how one is Peak masculinity and the other is Peak femme fatale) until he has to really interact with real people with Expectations and Biases. 

This is where i need to talk about the alphas. It’s nearly impossible to talk about Jake without talking about how he adapts around other people, specially the ones that he truly gives a shit about. Jake selectively picks the opinions that matter to him, and these are mostly what the other alphas think. (Compare to how he speaks over Erisol, jesters around Caliborn, and mostly pumps his own self pity with Tavrosprite for compliments- If you don’t want to count the epilogues scene he has with Davekat which mostly boils down to “you might have a point, but i’m loyal to jane, so you’ll have to really convince me of politics.”)

What holds him back from dating Dirk is Jane’s opinion, and What Jane Could Think (which is in no way jane’s fault, just his overthinking) because unlike dirk’s high octane masculinity, she’s the pillar of sitcom normalcy in his life. She lives in the real world, mostly removed from the bullshit the rest of the alphas are in, and she’s written to be the ideal generic romcom youth living a perfectly picture worthy life. The disastrous conversation where Jane denies her feelings is prompted by Jake finding confirmation she’s into him via Roxy- and he immediately grows nervous of that meaning she wouldn’t “approve” him going any other way, or that it’d be weird for a boy like him. And he needs to be sure before anything else- and also every step of the way, which will eventually exhaust her because its a load of bullshit and not her responsibility.  It’s not that he doesn’t want to, it’s more that he’s afraid what others will think if he wants.

But he’s never direct about it. He just brings things up and lets people get their own opinions from it- because he’s REALLY passive about conflict and he’d rather solve things with the least amount of struggle possible, always. He just needs confirmation. And then comes this bit:

I read this bit of text in 2 ways: 1) Jake realizing pretty soon that his attractions aren’t limited to gender. & 2) Jake realizing pretty soon that gender is just a big ole scam, and that he couldn’t care less if it weren’t for outside perception of him. It’s just another performance!

Jake’s ongoing theme is that he hates being perceived (be it sexually, mentally, personally, in the sense that he abhors judgement and objectification and is afraid of being known) just as much as he gets by freely by allowing others to project whatever they want onto him- and he’s not bound to complying unless it’s shit he enjoys. He’s an indulgence chamber. He doesn’t want to be bound by rules or expectations partly because he’s sort of a lukewarm coward and partly because he thrives in contradiction. And all that sounds pretty dandy, but it doesn’t means he’s exempt from anxiety of what others think of him every step of the way and what that means to his projected image. Brain Ghost Dirk is part dirk splinter, part jake constantly asking himself ‘what would dirk do?’ because he thinks he’s not capable on his own.

and its where we get my favorite line:

“i dont WANNA be a man and i dont WANNA punch her in the face!” Maybe 2000′s action heroes who shoot first and ask questions later are, generally, sort of pretty stupid? And his fantasy can only go so far before it becomes something all too real he doesn’t want to be a part of? THIS is the line. I’ve already written about this bit before, in how Jake’s sexuality and the denial of his agency over it are traditionally a feminine narrative applied to a character desperately trying to be the quirky male lead of an adventure story. He really wants to be both. He doesn’t want to be forced to choose or to subscribe to one extreme. He wants his cake and he’s going to fucking eat it, too.

The crockertier Jane/Jake scene encapsulates everything jake wants to project, Indiana & Croft, and spins it on its head: he would rather die than be the big man hero and hurt jane (and he does die for it, later) & becoming the femme fatale means giving up what little agency he has for other people’s eyecandy benefits. and maybe that really fucking sucks? He loves these concepts but he also really hates the reality of them? That’s the concept of Jake.

But despite all that, he’s generally comfortable with his masculinity to the point of neutrality unless somebody else brings up The Norms and how he’s betraying them by not being the definition of a cishet dude. All the alphas have a very tricky relationship with gender performance, and they rely on notions of eachother. ( https ://twitter. com/hulknaps/ status/1133205821024800769?s=20 ) But Jake relies on the alphas to define him based on the moment. He adapts to different people in different ways. he switches often, because the persona he’s constructed is not solidly him, just one of many detachable masks of convenience. the aspect of transformation or characters with chameleon features is all over his intro page too, even if it starts as a red herring that he might be lord english.

Just count how many references you can make to alter-egos, transformations, ‘avatars’, multiple personalities or forms in this one page. i’ll make some of them easy: Mystique, Ghost rider, Hulk, his beloved Avatar, all rely on the concept of having fluid forms. Two of them are also blue ladies! did you know there’s a blue hulk and he’s a goofy jock? i’m going offtopic, but you grasp the idea.

I’m utterly subscribed to the idea of Jake being GNC/nonbinary/genderfluid or simply slapping a big ‘agender’ on it. I give dirk shit for always running from the gay label out of fear, but jake sort of does this too, relying strongly on not being defined and doing whatever feels best at the moment. It also fits his aspect and denizen, but those are more abstract references.

and since i dont know how to better end this bit of meta, here’s a little section of Mystique, blue lady extraordinary and one of his beloved characters. make of it what you will.

#homestuck #jake english #meta #i love talking about gender in homestuck i go absolutely rabid #also i love comics. did you know. i think its showing?

[dreamganronpa]

4 w/ Ibuki x Mikan? (sorry despite the fact Mikan killed her I think they could have a cute dynamic fndjksksmdkd)

hey! i really liked writing this one, the ship is really cute i didnt do them justice shdhj

its long so rest under cut

Broken Basses and Connected Hearts - Ibuki x Mikan

-

“She’ll n–never love me a-after this.”

Mikan stared in horror as she looked at the guitar that lay in pieces on the floor. Her hands began shaking, her mind flooding with how she’ll excuse the incident. Just as she started to get a hold on herself, she heard footsteps getting louder.

“Yo Mikan, everything alright?” Ibuki asked as she opened the door. As soon as she saw Mikan trembling in front of the wreck, her smile dropped. “What happened?”

-Earlier-

“Whaat?! You dont know how to play music?” Ibuki gasped as Mikan shook her head. 

“No one ever b-bothered to t-teach me.” She admitted. 

Ibuki grabbed Mikan’s wrist. “Well then I’ll teach you myself!”

Mikan was dragged into the music studio which was filled with instruments ranging from dainty piccilos to huge drums to quirky guitars. Letting go of the poor wrist, Ibuki started scanning the instruments, trying to figure out which one she would teach the nurse.

“So Mikan, what do you wanna play? Ibuki can teach you to be killer on anything you want.” Ibuki asked, putting poor Mikan on the spot.

“I-I don’t w-wanna kill anyone!” Mikan cried, knocking over a tambourine that was hanging on the wall. The crash from the instrument scared Mikan. She picked it up and put it back in its spot, her hands beginning to shake. “I’m s-sorry for the i-inconvenience.” She apologized.

“Hey, it’s not like these are my instruments or anything. And you dont actually kill people, unless you like smash a guitar on someone’s head.” Ibuki joked, smiling to try to cheer Mikan up.

“I-i’ll try m-my best!” Mikan yelled in response.

“That’s the spirit! Let’s rock!” Ibuki took down a pastel pink bass from off the wall, hit a random note and handed it to Mikan. 

It was a long process teaching the chords and fingerings to Mikan from scratch, but Ibuki made it light work with her straightforward explanations and shortcuts. By the time an hour had gone by, Mikan could produce a few good notes. Ibuki celebrated the sounds by having to pee. 

“Oops, looks like the piss demons need a feeding; keep playing while I’m gone!” She said with a wink, exiting the room.

“Wait!” Mikan wailed. “Should I put it back or n-not?” She sighed, wishing Ibuki wasn’t so spontaneous. Although a little part of her liked the energy the musician radiated, which is why she wanted to work hard to learn the bass. Its true: Mikan had fallen for Ibuki. 

Now Mikan was alone in the music room waiting.

After the hour of playing, the bass had begun to weigh Mikan’s arms down. She scanned the walls for the empty spot that the bass belonged on, but it seemed like every spot was full. Her arms trembled, desperate for release as her vision blurred with tears. 

Finally she couldn’t take it anymore and dropped the bass. It hit the ground with a loud crack as it split into several pieces. 

-present-

“Whaaat?! You mean it broke cuz you couldn’t find the hook?” Ibuki asked after hearing Mikan’s jumbled explanation. 

Mikan nodded in response, sniffling and wiping her tears on her apron. 

“Well dont feel bad. It’s not even mine after all! Monokuma probably has billions stashed away somewhere!” Ibuki hugged the nurse, joking to calm her down.

“But I w-wanted t-to learn s-so I could imp-press you!” She clung to Ibuki as she admitted why she was so upset.

“Impress Ibuki? Why?”

“Be-be-because I l-like you!”

Ibuki’s heart skipped a beat, her eyes widening at the confession. 

“Is that really why?” She asked in a whisper. 

“Mhm” Mikan confirmed. “Ah! N-now I m-made you h-hate m-me, didnt I?" 

Ibuki planted a quick kiss on Mikan’s forehead before breaking their embrace. "Of course not, its impossible for Ibuki to hate anyone! Actually, earlier Ibuki was writing a song about you, hehe” Both girls were blushing.

“D-does that mean y-you like me too?” Mikan’s tears were beginning to slow.

“Consider this an official proclamation of my love for you!” Ibuki yelled before taking a purple electric guitar off the wall. “Why doesnt Ibuki play her song right now?”

“I-Its ready??”

-

I hope you liked it! 

This marks the end of the 100 follower celebration! Thank you everyone for following me and requesting things if you have! (by this point im already at 125 oops this  has gone on for a while) I’ll be working on clearing my inbox a bit more then I’ll reopen requests ^v^

-Mod Ruruka

#Anonymous #danganronpa #dr2 #ibuki mioda #Mikan Tsumiki #oneshot #request #100 follower party

[savnofilter]

I need help on self care cuz depression is a pain in my booty hole. Teach me your ways on how to bite back

me getting ready to respond

okay not putting these in steps bc thats not how the human body works. but you can gladly do these in the order i put them to try a cycle if that works.

find the reason youre feeling down/off.

when giving advice to others, i often give them to really look back at the situation and just really think ab it.

let yourself be down.

now im not saying forever but just for some time, not pushing away your true feelings. this constipation can lead to stronger depression and we dont want that. so find the source, be sad. yes im saying it, grab some tissues, ball your eyes out, stay in bed. recovery is coming soon on the horizon.

write down what you are feeling/talk to someone you trust.

either works, just make youre letting it out, its all ab excepting and developing.

use affirmations/meditate/bring positive energy in.

ok im a v spiritual person so this might just be me but it really works anon (and no this is NOT religious at all). every person ive suggested has said it has helped so here it is. if you dont know what affirmations are, basically its what you send out into the universe to get your “desired results” in a sense. 

      -how to do affirmations: simply just write on paper positive things like “i am happy”, “i am thicc”, “i am the best i can be”, “i improve” etc. doing this everyday will seduce the universe/your mind and soul to really be like “hey you are so lets make it happen”. (note: if you are doing affirmations, make to not use “negative words” like [dont, never, wont], negativity will cancel out said affirmations.)

         -how to meditate: simply lay down or sit (in chair but not permitted) with your feet flat on the floor, hands on your laps, sitting up in a comfortable position. this allows you to ground yourself and gain a clear mind. while mediating, when searching for your “answer” that you are letting yourself go essentially, maintaining your focus of staying happy and content. doing this for as simple as at least five minutes a day can give you great benefits, feeling grounded and a little more free.

take care of yourself.

that sounds funny i bet lol. but this means no self harm inlcuding:

   -cutting

   -losing sleep willingly/staying up late.

   -not feeding yourself/over feeding yourself.

   -exerting too much energy.

   -drugs.

   -alcohol.

and many others, but you get the point. avoid these things as it can bring you back into the down you were in before. (getting a lil scientific here lololol arent i an intellectual) these can cause your brain to mix up signals and can result in not only your mental health and even your physical health.

eating healthy/get groovin.

endorphins in the brain s q u e a l when you excercise. this mean the feel good chemicals are now loose.nnow im not saying workout everyday, be buff like the roc or anything. excericse counts as yoga (can mix this w meditating too), jogging, walking, riding your bike, dancing, doin the dirty, ya know,,, etc.i feel like we all know that eating healthy is beneficial, but do it anon, at least try to keep a good healthy diet (nothing too strict if youre not up for it cause IM NOT I ATE A WHOLE P O T OF RAMEN YESTERDAY-) sorry digress. but im not going to tell you to drink water and that shit bc duh everyone knows that. but at least drink vItAmIn DrInKs like gatorade, powerade, etc. they have really electrolytes that get your brain pumping!

do the things you enjoy.

no im not talking ab sleeping and eating, how qUiRkY of you. draw, dance, karaoke off of youtube (dont judge me), play s p o r t s (i said the s word oops), try on the different clothes in your closet -- anything anon! if it makes you happy, do it! i dare you! be happy!

i hope i didnt go all hippie or too scary on ya anon. sorry this took long, writing essays is jus my strong suit at this point lol. share/reblog if this helps you ig and you wanna make someone else happy too. i hope youre happy anon. <3

#self care #talk to me #talk with me #send anything #ask a question #say anything

[t-underneaththeradardancing]

clear sky grace my persistent vision  w the moon - all evening easing into midnight 

ok thats the poetry part  - mosly u can prob start scrolling - its ok - really  -its jest a post performance mortem - not that i die or anything dramatic like a train wreck - the whining down to the mini must 

a crowded night - 2 song limit - spent about a minute tuning close enuff for rock and roll - sang an almost a capella open - when i do start playing its inaudible - it takes a couple minutes to find the problem - which apparently wuz me and an heretofore unnoticed mute button i must have somehow pushed it - so i just go back to where i wuz and keep going  -dramatic musical moment that wuznt  - my fingers cold rebelling - they wanna play new notes and mix keys like  almost atonal metaphors - in mostly trance w jolts of hyper real slo mo - u could kindly call it quirky - a couple times i let voice trail mix into lip sync silence - as if anyone notice - a ghost suggestion - imma playin messy not sloppy snoopy or scoobie or those brothers - half the crowd musicians played or playing later  - if nothing else im pretty sure they lissening - try to build a groove but quick like ramen noodles - ego flash i lose my place - i keep playing - feels like - almost 

a few sparks scatter  - not enough to mata hari mad hatter - i get to the patti part of slow cooked deep  - i lose the thot train - i think i mumble mostly - dont remember x acto knife - wuz there a band called shogen knife i thinks so its 2 late to fact check - uh compulsion - ok that wuz quick - its shonen knife - 80s punk girls fashion from osaka - i play some spaced out trance - wanna close strong but just do a fade instead  - say thank you to let the audience know its over - theres applause and some comments i dont quite catch that sound sincere and positively 4th st - later someone said they like the way i sound dreamy 

not my best performance by a long shot - still i take it as a compliment 

[imadeletingmysocials]

My scores for E3, because apparently now i’m a dumb 4channer who thinks this /v/ meme shit matters, like it’s not gonna affect sales or anything it’s pointless as all hell [this is lenghy, but hear me out ok]

EA: 

4/10 - people will probably play the games regardless of how shitty this presentation was but... It felt pretty insulting. 

Battlefield V is probably gonna make a lot of money regardless cuz people like war games and it seems pretty well done, the more footage they have shown seemed better than their weird advertizement that made world war 2 seem very wacky, which honestly regardless if you’re a sexist neckbeard or not, seemed like a poor advertizement move. 

TinyBuild:

No one watched this lol and it was just 1 GAME and a fun cute musical that made people who aren’t strong enough to musicals die, 6/10 because it made nerds die and their song is catchy, i dont really care about their 1 game.

Microsoft:

 9/10 - I'm giving this much of a high score because I would play practically almost all of these games showcased (they’ll probably be available on PC which I’m biased for cuz I have a gaming PC), no kidding, I pretty much liked everything I saw and it was fairly straight to the point. Many gamers don’t appreciate the finer details of each game and think they’re generic but that’s just fanboys who haven’t played a single game outside of their favorites. 

Also my cousin uses those Xbox One netflix rip offs that gives you games so i’m happy for him. The presentation had a lot of diamonds in the rough games that will I will probably appreciate more over time (they might even become cult classics like Metro or Dying Light) than any of other games at other e3s. As for the stuff I won’t be playing: It’s mostly harmless so eh.

There was an abundance of trailers! It was like one after the other, pure goodness, it seems as if they left out all of the Sports games to EA to present and the only thing they showed that might not be anyone’s cup of tea was “Forza”, but honestly? I appreciate it, it seems like a good racing game even if I’m not one to buy racing games.... But the more you think about the number of good games presented, the less you’ll think about that, I mean they showed DEVIL MAY CRY 5!!! 

...The Funko Pop game made me scream though.

Bethesda: 

8.5/10  I cannot deny that these are games I will want to play regardless if they’re good or not. Sad to see nerds not enjoy the opportunity to meet ANDREW W.K. but I’m glad all of the divisions they own are making sequels to stuff I already like, so pretty much Bethesda played it safe.

Devolver Digital:

 8/10 It’s like that one b-movie film your college students made and you had a laugh with creating.

Square Enix: 

5/10 seriously, 30 minues of just trailers? Most of which we saw?? I guess it could be worse but who uses E3 screentime for mostly MMORPG deals! The new stuff was too vague to be excited about too.

Ubisoft: 

7/10 - I liked it when they made funny quirky things and their games are probably gonna be okay like usual, Ubisoft has dedicated fans that like their collectathon games they release every year, and it’s usually that one game you play when you’re bored and got nothing else, it’s okay. 

Gamers hate fun and dancing and all that stuff but I kind of find stuff like that exciting, while nerds who never went outside and who are sensitive as all hell to any representation of fun find it “cringey”. A panda dabbed, and that settles it, Ubisoft was the only E3 Brave enough to dab this year. 

PC Game Conference (it was fairly long):

I know none of you watch this one cuz y’all fake as hell but listen... Fuck you LOL, these are the type of games people actually play over 400 hours and really get people’s money. Like these are games built to last that might be on the best-selling Steam front page for MONTHS, like how Frostpunk was comfirmed last year during this conference, PC Gaming has been known for sleeper hits that nobody knows about (because the attention goes to cinematic experiences on consoles most of the time) but suddently everyone’s playing it. 

PC gaming has always been an alternative lifestyle and seeing as many people didn’t watch this one, that just proves the point that it still relatively alternative. Maybe it’s because everyone sounds dumb as fuck when saying “PC GAMER MASTER RACE” and acting like an elitist. 

The PC Gaming conference is always more of a talk show than a regular E3 which is why I respect it every year, fuck the hyperactive gamers that just wanna see flashy trailers, this one’s more SOPHISTICATED!! It feels a lot more human and less artificial. Either way, lot’s of what you might’ve expected: Simulators and Survival games you’ll probably spend 3 years playing until they make a better minecraft clone. 

Gamers like to act as if they’re tired of Battle Royale (already? It’s a new fad it still is here to stay for a little more) but the numbers and success of it doesn’t lie that it isn’t a fad that proves itself to be highly tempting to try out for developers. Go cry to valve that they didn’t release Half-Life 3 cuz you haven’t played any other FPS game without even researching that Valve pretty much fired all of it’s developers and you’re just being annoying.

I feel as if I need to comment what I saw at this e3 cuz nobody watched, they made a mod I liked from skyrim into a fully-ass game, they’re rebooting Star Control which not a single gamer today knows of, the HP Lovecraft open world detective game also seems very good. YAKUZA IS COMING TO PC!!!!!!!!! Killing Floor 2 stuff, Road Redemption stuff, SHARK RPG, cute indie games, Jeff Goldblum was there, Wall-E with a gun in VR which seems to have promissing good vr design by Insomiac games (yes the spyro people), 2 games about Taxi driving... Like sure I think it’s a good format for story telling but.

A cell-shaded art game, star citizen is still being made, and it’s gone to the point nobody really wants it anymore even if it’s... Still being made you know? So most guys are wrong that it was gonna be canceled. After that was the technical graphic card stuff which gamers don’t have enough capability to understand, stuff like 9k laptops that SELL a lot mind you. Rich people love that technical stuff. 

A space defense sim game, Don’t Starve Sequel, Just Cause 4 detailed explanation of the engine, Overkill’s The Walking Dead gameplay which has been in development hell for years now now has a release date, I discovered Clementine’s voice actor is white... Go figure, a literal pixelated roguelike (not what you think it is, it’s Noita), 

Theme Hospital REBOOT!!!! YES!!!!!!!!! And the doctors were cute. Probably one of the funniest games presented... Followed by REALM ROYALE HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. That harvest moon clone with a cute art style is still being made: Ooblets, no release date sadly. Anno is still going, cyanide and happiness still exists? and they’re making a battle royale? lol okay. How was Hitman 2 not announced during Square Enix?? Anyways it’s here at the end, the trailer was amazing and it’s coming out this year. 

I don’t have that much strong feelings because it’s just a normal conference and not a special one you know? But I’ll give it a 8/10 or 7/10 im not sure cuz I seem to like most games and I found Frankie cute.

Sony: 

Yo usually Sony makes like a huuuuuuuge thing about their conferences (like this year they didn’t even showcase indie games) but this year they started from a church for the sake of immersion?? It reminded me a little of their first E3s during the 90s, and it almost felt like a indie gathering for musicians, I swear to god, Sony is borderline experimental trying to balance out their E3 across stages. Jeb played the banjo and people just ACCEPTED it... AND THEN someone played some JAPANESE FLUTE? aRT. It might come off as a bit arrogant for some tho.

Nerds hated it and thought it was bizzare, which is why it means it’s good. HAPPY PRIDE MONTH BITCHES. Anyways could have been a little more fast-paced... But then again when it was fast-paced it was just like: Huh? What was that? I’m a big Resident Evil Fangirl, RE2 was my childhood but ignoring that for a sec: finally, Death Stranding gameplay, remins me of shadow of the colossus but post-apocalpytic, survival horrorish and abstract sci-fi.

 Kind of feels more Metal Gear than MGSV did already Cuz Norman Reedus sounds like snake a lot more than the 24 hours guy, and because from what I’ve seen in the footage, someone acts like Otacon to “Sam”. I think most now can figure out the plotpoints of this game with what has been established. I might be a bit sad at the fact that this will be a PS4 exclusive just like Metal Gear Solid 4, which I still haven’t played fully because it’s PS3 exclusive and I only have a gaming PC. 

Also this E3 was surprisingly entirely SINGLE PLAYER, I sorta don’t believe in the “single player doesn’t exist” myth honestly, especially now. I’m not sure if that makes Sony’s E3 better or worse, maybe it needed more variation, like I’ve commented, usually they have an indie showcase which this year did not. There were few games shown but for what it was worth, it’s still interesting... But yeah just 5 games? No Spyro? (easy picking), nothing extra? I can understand why many people felt this E3 was upsetting.

8/10.

Nintendo

Here it is, the most overhyped developer of all of E3, the source of “Nintendo wins E3 by doing nothing” memes because Nintendo fans really don’t care about anything except Nintendo and then act surprised when they only care about Nintendo when they try to be a little more open-minded (and fail) even if other E3s probably make more games built to last in comparisson, cuz we gay people only care about NINTENDO YOU KNOW? Shade asside... 

I was pleasantly surprised this E3, it wasn’t just a series of okay at best releases, a strong 9/10. 

tHAT WAS WHAT I WROTE IN PREPRATION....

BUT THEN???? IT WAS JUST THAT??? NO PRIME 4 NO ANYTHING LIKE JUST 3 GAMES BASICALLY? (maybe there was 5 games but eh) I mean smash is good.. It’s pretty much just an update of the last smash, every character is REALLY FUCKING GOOD BUT.... JUST THAT? jeez.. Like, the only stuff I wanted from it was Mario Party and Smash... Okay maybe that 1 Mecha game. Also I guess fornite is now on Switch but I can play that anywhere else really.

I guess a 7/10 is all I can give to just Smash, if there was a little more I’d give it a 9/10 for sure but... ehh Just Smash? jeez, fuck... i MEAN I kind of get it, Nintendo doesn’t do “e3″ normally, they usually do 1 big game at E3 and then wait a couple of months to do that little seasonal announcement thing they do across the year, ugh.. Okay. Yeah I guess i shouldn’t have expected much. Still isn’t it weird that Miyamoto was in Ubisoft’s E3 but not this one??? what!

Anyways

#e3 #i'll post that image at the end individually #long post #Sony #Nintendo #Bethesda #Microsoft

[leeoliver]

4, 8, 10 mal

(character descriptions)

4. their laugh

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8. their interactions with their significant other(s), if they have them

mmm GAY…theyre gross and cutsey and pdaish (jesawyer arcade “im here im queer get over it” post.png) and always wanna hear abt each others day. they both read like voraciously and have mile long lists of books (and movies, which hc arcade loves) for each other to read and then discuss. when mal starts getting into all the big mt tech they work on that together. also a lot of cooking mal loves cooking. also just while traveling together its pretty much 90% mal: im gonna do this thing arcade: dont do that youll die mal: i did it and i didnt die but im hurt please fix me (like in that fic i started but cant finish!!)

more general/non malarcade centric mal rlly believes in quality time when hes dating someone (i tried to find the name for this type of thing in an online love language quiz but then i saw a “what men really think of you” quiz in the related section and fell down a playbuzz hole and forgot) like he signs up for couples pottery and dance classes and stuff he LOVES fun quirky date ideas

10. their interactions with an enemy/rival

im gonna do this twice bcos i feel like enemy and rival are separate so under the cut

mal was like…really fucking top tier at the mojave express except there was another person who was also on the top tier and honestly the two of them had beef for the history books…her name is juno and ive got an au where shes courier six but the two of them are just like…workplace drama from hell but its unclear how much of it is legit and how much of it is because they both enjoy having a sworn nemesis. also worth mentioning juno (her last name is enríquez shes evil karma mr house ending and i adore her) is ulysses’ second cousin.

theyre both just like. super petty and catty around each other and junos witty as fuck shes one of th only ppl who can trip mal up wrt withering remarks and ALWAYS competing for the good jobs and employee of the month trophies (which mojave express TOTALLY does) to the point where the reason mal got together w his (now ex) boyfriend hamlet was bcos hamlet handled courier assignments and mal wanted juno assigned to shitty jobs

at the same time tho they aggressively support each other bcos work would be boring if they werent always trying to one up each other. when someone at the office is terrible enough to unite the two of them in being pissed off (like eating the last coffee donut) they stand by the watercooler and shittalk them in spanish and everyone else just goes thirsty bcos theres no way ur getting past them w/o ur outfit, hairstyle, and major life choices being secretly berated

this whole section makes it sound like mal is…really fucking mean but honestly i just feel like there are some ppl who u just like. get bitchy when ur around? like my old best friend and i were just. like we were really nice people separately but we got together and were just horrible. it was kind of like that.

also juno was rlly good friends w quick but took mals side in the (SUPER public) breakup, which brings me to…

Richard “Quicksilver” Holmes, whom mal refers to as “Quick Dick”, “Quicky Dicky”, or “Stupid Fucking Hell Shit Fuckass Bitch Hate Him Hate Him Hate Him” another express courier, mals ex boyfriend. the two of them were really famous for repeatedly getting caught having sex in the supply closet and an incident where mal slapped quick across the face during work hours in the middle of the employee lounge when he found out he was cheating.

they dated for two and a half years. quick was seeing another guy who didnt even know about mal for two years of this, and then cheating on both of them with a whole string of other dudes throughout the whole thing. like this guy is a shitbag.

anyway so neither of them got fired or quit so. it basically just divided the whole workplace u had ppl who were on team quick (quick had a really solid group of friends) ppl who were on team mal (juno, anyone w emotions, etc) and ppl who literally did not care (most ppl, which mal isnt willing to admit). mal wouldnt talk to quick or acknowledge anything he said to him, and at the very beginning he wouldnt touch anything that quick had been the last person to touch. and it was like this for. like a solid four months before quick found alternate employment opportunities and left to pursue them. so yeah, like, pre benny pre caesar pre mr house quick was #1 on mals shit list

#lee answers #malarkey wu #thanks wolf... #mal being horrible (the feature length film)