#i dont see a future for me here

[oifaaa]

i am so curious whats your beef with tsuna hitman reborn??

What do you mean what's my beef isn't it obvious the kid never just accepts that he's gonna be a mob boss one day and it's so freaking annoying like you're telling me you are fighting multiple enemies and even go into the future and find out that your future self is the head of Vongola family and you still refuse to wise up and just accept yeah im gonna be a mob boss maybe I should stop whining about it and just get with the program like I'm sorry but getting over your refusal to be a mob boss should be end of act one plot point not still unresolved by both the end of the anime and end of the manga bc yeah I read that too oh I've never been more frustrated waiting for this kid to finally be like yeah I accept and take responsibility for my future as the head of my family but we end the series the same way we start and I'm ready to fight tsuna over it

#ask #anon #i need some progression here folks #there was very little progession in khr #like did yamato and boxer boy ever figure out they were part of the mafia ???? #i forget #but i dont think they did #also fun fact #this show never had a dub #so i think it shows the chock hold it had on me #that its the one long fight anime series i watched completely subbed #and then read the manga #bc i wanted to see tsuna win #i wanted to see him become the man we all knew #hed be one day #literally with the future episodes #but noooooooo #ahhhhhhhhhhhh

[lazycranberrydoodles]

MAILMAN - SOUNDGARDEN

BABYGIRL WHAT IF THE SINGLE PLANK PATH TURNED MY YOUTHFUL INNOCENCE INTO A TOXIC COCKTAIL OF HUBRIS AND MORBID RESIGNATION

yeah. follow for more of the character of all time XO

#verse 2: for all of your kisses turned to spit in my face / for all that reminds me which is my place #for all of the times when you made me disappear / this time i’m sure you will know that i am here #verse 3: my place was beneath you / but now i am above #and now i send you a message of love / a simple reminder of what you won’t see / a future so holy without me #its the bitterness. the references to an inferior origin. the mocking tone. the finality. #the ‘i’m bringing you down with me and the eventuality of my demise gives me power over you.’ #the spiteful continuance. OURGHHHHH #urgh yeah. ‘a simple reminder of what you won’t see/ a future so holy without me’ is probably my favorite line in reference to the yllz #my favorite song from Superunknown (album) is Limo Wreck! #but this has been on my wwx playlist for a while. and its right next to LVCRFT’s Dead Don’t Die djbdhgf #which is a banger about how awesome and spooky it is to be undead #(its like. hip hop x pop x how villain songs in musicals are always the best) #e.g. #‘welcome to my lair / put your bones in the air’ #sorry lemme just #DEAD DONT DIEEEEE (the dead dont die we just multiply) DEAD DONT DIEEEE (does this look in my eye make you terrified?) #yeah its more goofy silly post resurrection wwx. hes a multifaceted character <3 #is the curtain of talismans in the demon suppressing cave fanon or canon btw? i cannot rember where i got it from #used my yllz nenderoid as a reference 😌 #art #mdzs #cringetober 2023 #mo dao zu shi #my art #yiling laozu #yiling patriarch #wei wuxian #the grandmaster of diabolism #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #self harm tw

[mossyflowers]

I can't do this anymore just take it. Take the ace combat art. I'm going to explode

#I BET EVERYONE FORGOT I WAS AN ART GUY BEFORE I WAS A FUNNY 5 MINUTES OF FAME INTERNET GUY HUH #anyways yeah just. yeah #we'll see if i ever post the million other doodles i have. #considering cleaning up one in particular because i do reaaally like it but erbrbbrb #but yea! cipher! silly guy! he's an oc to me at this point aside from the fact i physically cannot remove him from pixy #might chatter abt him at some point because i like the stuff i can up with #dont expect a lot of art in the near future tho because um. erm. i may or may not be working on a fic that is currently over 30000 words? #if you wanna read that it's on ao3 you can look for it but i am 99% sure i will not advertise it here just because #ace combat #ace combat zero #cipher ace combat

[skitskatdacat63]

Boy King AU | Vettonso + Martian | 1.3k

There's something about putting the future emperor of the Holy Realm on his knees like this. About how easily he goes, how willingly, how obediently. What would his adoring public think if they could see him now. If they saw their beloved king pressed down like this, in the cramped space between Fernando's legs. When they realized their little boy king took it like he was a little concubine instead. 

Fernando's bitterness is lifted away in moments like these, like taking off a heavy cloak on a winter's day. It was hard to feel humiliated about his own situation when watching Sebastian debase himself like this. 

He always gives himself up so easily. When Fernando threaded his fingers through his thick curls. When he pulled them, and then when he pressed his face down further down into the vee of his legs.  Sebastian rubbed his cheek into the coarse fabric of Fernando's breeches and blinked up at him. Fernando had to smother an embarrassing sound; he was just like a little cat!

Sebastian quirked his lips up into an odd little smile and slightly rose up on his knees, "What's funny?" Fernando swallowed lightly and schooled his face back into being impassive, "Nothing. As you were." Sebastian simply smirked at him and let himself be pushed back down by the fist clenched in his hair. 

Fernando scoffed internally, there was only so much pleasure in putting the other man in his place when he instead acted like this, this degrading action, was his birthright. He took to ruling and indulging in carnal pleasures as if they were of equal gravity. To be privileged to hold such high station and also let himself be taken apart like this…Fernando felt embarrassed for him.

He is dragged away from his musings when Sebastian moved to settle his hands in Fernando's lap, clutching his hips over the fabric and slightly squeezing; Fernando fought against the urge to shiver. Sebastian pushed up the skirt of Fernando's waistcoat and smoothed his hands over the opening flap of his breeches.

His eyes darted up at Fernando again, a daft smile on his face. Fernando scowled at him, "What?" Seb's grin sharpened, "You could stand to be a little more gracious. This is your future emperor, and future husband might I add, kneeling for you on this dirty, depraved, derelict- ah–" Fernando tugged on his hair again and hissed, "Well then, why don't you show me how eager you are to perform your marital duties?" 

Seb licked his lips, completely unconcerned by Fernando's annoyance, and unbuttoned one side of the closure to Fernando's breeches and moved to open the other–

The door to the carriage flew open, arrival announcement dying on a wheezing breath as the servant took in the image the two kings made. One splayed across the seat, exuding power, the other kneeled, debauched, between the former's legs. 

One would be hard pressed to determine which was higher on the totem of power and titles. 

There was something gratifying about this to Fernando, about being caught. He had been humiliated enough throughout the entire courtship, what was one more thing? And, certainly, what was one more thing if he could drag Sebastian down into the dirt with him. 

"Oh Mark, don't act so abashed! It's nothing you haven't seen before, in fact, we have been in this very position not even a fortnight ago!"

Oh. Yes. That. 

It was hard to be completely pleased when he remembered how Sebastian had already spent years prior to their engagement sampling the palace's ample selection of fellow high-born men. And how all those men seemed to be completely and utterly wrapped around his little finger.

Fernando released his hand from Sebastian's hair as if it had burned him. He did not understand why he felt ashamed with Mark looking in on them like this. Fernando was the one marrying Sebastian, not Mark; Mark was just a lowly courtier who had the esteemed duty of spending practically every waking hour with the brat…something he himself was decidedly not looking forward to. 

Sebastian stayed kneeling, staring impassively up at Mark, still fiddling with the clasp on Fernando's breeches. Fernando gritted his teeth and looked up from where he was watching Sebastian's clever little hands; Mark stared back at him placidly. 

Mark's indifference made the entire situation worse. Fernando now felt as if he was not doing anything unique, not doing anything particularly new. How many other men had Mark caught Seb with in this exact position? Fernando felt like he was just another plaything of the boy king, soon to be boy emperor, except his position was forever, permanent. He was the "Kept King", the king who only kept his throne due to the whims of a boy who doesn't even understand what power is.

Mark coughed, "Well," he says, "Your Majesty, I do believe you have a meeting to attend." Seb pouted at him and whined, "We were just getting to the main course," but still braced himself on Fernando's thighs and got up off the carriage floor. 

Seb pranced down the steps Mark had placed next to the carriage, miming tripping sown the stairs, snickering when his action made Mark reflexively reach out to grab him, and then playfully skipped off the final step. 

Fernando couldn't help but stare as Mark made the weirdest grimace in response, and he inexplicably felt all his mortification seep away from him. Huh. Maybe Mark is-

Seb then turned around and frowned at him, seemingly disappointed, but his eyes are deceivingly sharp, "Fernando, I regret to inform you that I have other duties I must attend to, you will simply have to wait." He then grinned up at Mark next to him and giggled as the other man stiffened when Sebastian looped both of his arms through Mark's. 

He leaned all his weight on the other man, Mark not so much as shifting his weight, "Oh Mark, won't you carry me back to the palace? I'm so very tired after all the horse riding," Seb looked up at him imploringly.

Fernando observed as Mark rolled his eyes and shrugged off the man, though notably not pulling his arm from Seb's grasp, and he got the distinct feeling that this exact scene had been played out countless times before. 

Fernando clenched his jaw as he watched Seb turn and saunter off, Mark trotting alongside him like a loyal dog. Fernando was supposed to be the unaffected one in this partnership, the unflustered one, the unconcerned one. And yet here he stood, in broad daylight, in a foreign kingdom, on the steps of a carriage with his breeches half unbuttoned and his cravat in disarray. 

He heard a cough from beside him, jolted and looked to the side. Sebastian's loyal Horse Master stood there, lounging against the side of the carriage. Fernando had forgotten who had even been driving the carriage in the first place. After Seb has let himself be pushed down, his hair still windswept from their ride together, everything else seemed to fade away. His thoughts were reduced only to how he could mess up the younger man's hair further. 

Jenson grinned at him wolfishly, and casually crossed his legs,  "First time?" he inquired. Fernando glared at him. The other man laughed openly at him, "What? He's a busy man with big prospects. You're not his majesty's only conquest, you know. Now your throne on the other hand…"

Fernando seethed, it was one thing to be humiliated by the future emperor, but to be patronized by the king's horse boy? No. It would simply not do. He closed his eyes in annoyance, pinched the bridge of his nose, exhaled, and prepared a speech about how he was not about to be talked down to by a man who didn't even have a throne to speak of! 

But when he opened his eyes again and opened his mouth to begin his tirade, Jenson was already wandering away to tend to the horses. Dios mío, Fernando was not mentally prepared to spend the rest of his life with all of these impertinent morons. 

#i love how i kept saying to people: no no i shant write any fic for this. only art. #me like two weeks later: hey guys :) #this is just: i was sitting in class and had a drawing idea but then im obv not drawing *this* in class so my brain went into narrative mod #not exactly 'baby's first ficlet!!!' but moreso ive not written in a while so i hope its alright??? #but aaahhh this was actually pretty fun!! idk i think it was bcs i was also being brainrotted by the image of seb kneeling.... #maybe ill draw it. but it felt like something that needed the context of narrative and not just oo here is a drawing! #anyways you can always ask me for a directors cut-(PLEASE PLEAE BEGGING PLEASE) #see this is why im not cut out for writing fic #its not like i dont think it can speak for itself. more that im just an overly reflective person who wants to explain all my thoughts #if i wrote fic itd really be just: chapter 1. chapter 1.5 chapter 2. chapter 2.5 #anyways i think its pretty obvious but this is before their wedding and just like peak bitterness. #well not peak. peak would be the first year- first few months of their marriage #but this is fernando who is only just realizing how naive all his expectations of seb were and getting a glimpse of his future #but mostly: mindgames and power play and: whos actually really winning? #also my god jense is literally the best chara in this au. he is vibing and basically just witnessing ye olde reality tv #mark and fernando are always in a weird powerplay with seb(even if seb isnt even consiously doing so) and jense is just free from it all #hmm now how does one go about tagging fic #vettonso #f1 fanfic #formula 1 fanfic #f1 #formula 1 #martian #sebmark #also idk why im always so concerned abt tagging when im basically just writing this for my little boy king following i have somehow formed #hahaha! it is art to me!: #catie.art. #boy king au

[x-nephophile-x]

You still haunt the corners of my heart

#yeah im so perfectly normal about this man and this thing that has distracted me from Starri #Aeris please do better pick yourself up ma'am #im unfortunately losing my mind about this man and these two in their past and in a maybe future and i am brain rotted- #i cannot handle him yall dont understand #ive been in love with mister ardyn izunia for 5 years do you see why im HERE!!! #gortash x durge #dark urge x gortash #enver gortash x dark urge #X: Psychosomatic Freedom #OC: Aeris Adler #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[cheriboms]

doctober day 25: cafe

idk, had a vision :P role swap au i guess ??

#back to the future #bttf #doctober 2023 #doctober #doc brown #emmett brown #erhardt brown #my arts #my sketchy wip arts #the fact that they both have dad angst. amazing #also i dont really have any idea how this au would function past this. but work with me here #...kinda wanna think on it more. we will see >_>

[crescentfool]

going to keep this vague on purpose but playing reload has reactivated brain chemicals in me that i forgot i had.

i think i'd want to make a more thought out post later, but i think my favorite thing about reload (aside from seeing minato in full HD glory) is how much it's made me think about video games as a storytelling medium- specifically with what mechanics and game design imply for characters.

there's a lot of quality of life features added to reload that help players easily enter a flow state and get immersed in the gameplay (most notable with tartarus)! which is so dope! reload has been such a nice blend of the mechanics from both FES and portable and it feels like a love letter to persona 3 fans.

there are definitely mechanics i miss from FES (minato's ability to wield multiple weapons being one of them). i can't deny that FES has some dated mechanics that don't necessarily feel fun for the player experience... but!

i think i mostly miss things from FES because i feel like so much of minato's characterization (for me) was informed by the gameplay experience and mechanics (e.g. fatigue system). obviously there's still other ways you can put together his personality (his dialogue responses), but i think game mechanics are a bit part of it, for me.

but in spite of that, i think reload is a really nice introduction to persona 3, it's so much more accessible and has a bunch of things to help make it more fun :) so far i think i'd recommend it to people :D

#persona 3 #persona 3 reload #i don't even really talk about mechanics from reload specifically here but just in case haha #lizzy speaks #im really enjoying this game. i dont want to get into specific details abt reload in a text post atm #and if i do in the future it'll be under the cut #but my god this game is giving me big brainrot #i know i tend to mostly just be like 'hehe fanart reblogging time and here is me talking about the two guys i like' #but playing reload again reminded me of how much i loved playing FES because it was so fun for me to see how FES was designed #like... every time i finished FES i'd think about how much modernsona evolved the gameplay formula and built upon it #and now every time i finish reload i think 'goddamn they've really nailed the formula this experience is so fun' #but also it's fun for me to think about the different experiences curated by both FES and reload #i don't really know if anyone would play FES anymore with reload being out but i still really like the takeaways from FES #FES mechanics may not be the most convenient for the player but they definitely help sell the narrative in ways that only a video game can #like sometimes i just think about the movies and while its a good summary of the events it feels more like supplementary material #like p3 is 80+ hours and in order to have that 6 hour movie experience there's so much that has to be condensed/removed. they hit different #sometime after i finish reload im going to make a text post about my favorite mechanics from FES and how you can read into minato's- #character from it (i don't feel like it's very original but GUYS I LOVE GAME DESIGN GAME DESIGN IS SO COOL AND INTERESTING) #anyways. i needed 2 get my feelings out there. im on august 4th rn. this game is so awesome i love experiencing minato's day to day life #and i fucking LOVE TARTARUS!!!!!! (this tower is my beloved i can just live here forever). #i love having no expectations for video games ever because then i get knocked out of my seat im having so much fun. ok bye. back to the voi

[beautifel]

seems like my heart does nothing but break lately

#oh my god dont read the tags. it breaks for everyone :( but on a more personal level #for my gf whos sinking deeper into something n i cant even help bc im a wreck myself but i am so so scared to lose her #still havent even been able to book a psych appointment n i rlly dont know where to go with all these ..em*tions #Guys i rlly dont understand one thing. how come one random freak whos in ur life at some point can derail a whole person like eons later #jeopardise their whole future just by crossing some lines for funz i really dont understand this #not fair not fair at all this is evil #and becasue u got unlucky someone wanted to be disgusting u have to carry the consequences #i rly still cant even say it i still cant even write it #i dont even know how . irl the only perosn i told in some capacity #is dealing with her own trauma and i hate that jsut being understanding is not enoughlike #Wow Lmao Its just Funny How it Shapes You. & U Can Never bury it forever becuz it will always catch up to you😂😂😂😂😂😂 #AND THE PAST CAN NEVER BE ERASED 😃😃😁😁😂😂😂🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔪🔪 #at least my gf has been taking steps to deal with it for.3 yrs and i just never even #LOL i feel like such a coward but the sh*me and the g**lt associated with the Thing..r so overwhelming i cant even admit it #what would i even do at the psych appointment like straight up what am i gonna say Lol #hai iam here to process something i dont actually remember probably becasue i was a child but imnot sure. n id rather #kms than tell u how i know 😂. So thats also why my heart breaks. for that little girl who was a ball of shame i guess and no matter #how much i cognitively.like rationally know its not my fault the ball of shame n guilt is still there #n it swallows me every time i vaguely start 2 think about acknowledging the Th*ng #or whatever. And thats just my end of the deal but my gf has it worse genuinely bc she remembers everything n still has to see the freak #n it went on for yrs n her family doesnt know n heres the worst thing hes a beloved family member a sweet boy with struggles of his own #well i hope he walks into traffic for doing what he did to her

[semiotomatics]

im so miserable idk why any of you follow me lol

#this has been an original post #personal spewage #i guess cause im good at pretending im not #im good at faking it #well. sometimes i am #not so much rn #anyway what im trying to say is i dont blame you for getting tired of it #im tired of it too #im trying not to say as much on here #i made a whole separate acct so i could go be miserable over there where none of you had to see it #. hell #ive got several accts where i can go be miserable where no one has to see #i just. #i want ppl to know #i want ppl to know im suffering #im tired of screaming into the void #writing things down where the only one who'll ever see it is a future me #i just. want ppl to know #sorry. #ill be better later

[hopeworth]

kishimoto might have been a mostly bad writer but he kinda went off with Breaking The Cycle as an overarching theme of the whole series

#naruto #the cycle of war and revenge that the shinobi world is trapped in from the small conflicts like chiyo’s instant hatred of kakashi for his #dad killing her kid to nagato’s whole character arc about war hurting him so and leading him to greater acts of violence #the tsuchikage and the old kages being cold military leaders at the beginning and then learning to set aside decades old grudges to look to #the future instead. #SASUKE’S WHOLE CHARACTER. GOD. need i say more. #yes i will. sasuke beginning his character arc as an avenger who will continue the cycle of violence by killing his brother. and then #turning his hatred on danzo and konoha once he sees his brother as a victim. he is naruto’s direct foil as naruto forgives everyone who’s #ever hurt him because he so desperately wants to end the cycle of hatred borne from war (JIRAIYA’S DREAM. DONT LOOK AT ME) #don’t even get me fucking STARTED on indra and asura and the uchihas and the senju and madara and hashirama. #two brothers who fought and their descendents and incarnations are fated to be locked in conflict. an endless cycle of war and violence #between yin and yang sun and moon. and because kishimoto went OFF with VOTE2 symbolism: #hashirama and madara coming so close to ending that cycle but in the end they fought to the death and their statues are built across the #waterfall from each other (the way they had been across the river from each other as kids) doing the hand sign for the beginning of kumite #and sasuke and naruto starting VOTE2 across from each other the way hashirama and madara were and ending the fight in the middle of the #river on top of the broken off hands of the statues performing the seal of reconciliation at the end of a kumite signalling the end of the #cycle of fate they were trapped in. #SOMETHIGN SOMETHING WE ARE TRAPPED IN MEANINGS THAT CIRCULATE LIKE BLOOD FR………… #ALSO the bijuu and humans being trapped in the cycle of hate and fear of each other. yeah. kishimoto really went off with The Themes here #nart.txt

[bangcakes]

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#personal #whats literally so funny was that as soon as i saw him walk in the room last year i knew he was gonna be trouble for me #however i never knew itd be this kind n this deep JDJDNDJJDNDJDNDNDN #we are like........ way closer than i ever anticipated. im terrified that we wont have anything to talk about once school ends #i wanna say so much to him but i... theres so much school stress i just.... i dont wanna add anything extra on top for myself or for him... #hhhhhh god lmao. this time last year i hadnt even spoken to him n now im like..... in this Thing that is maybe mutual but maybe isnt #god....... this shit is so hard NFJFJJFJFJFJF #i only see him like 3 more times in the near future...... #then i gotta wait a bit.... but i dont want to 😭😭😭 #i wanna see him every week.... at least... but its probably gonna be on a month basis even IF THAT.... #god what if it all fizzles out............ #hhhhhhhhhh #im gonna try to keep it going. im just..... idk. im scared #i hope he tries to keep it going too..... #its just hard.... when its 2 ppl that like.... only talk when they need to...... try to keep in touch JFJDJDJDJDKKDKDKDK #the most we go now is a full day without talking...... like either i'll message or he will #usually its me.... but... im more talkative i guess ... IDK #all ik is that i Know hes not talking to anyone else at school LMAO #one of my friends was like.... ya dont bother putting him in a group chat .. he never answere #while im over here like.... LOL he messages me back always within minutes/seconds #and if hes offline... as soon as hes back online. #JXJXKKXKXKXKZ GOD. #n e way. see him today............ looking forward to it but also nervous 😳 #i'll be fine once i see him tho... its just the Anticipation #feel really comfortable around him LOL. never thought id say that #anyway

[harzeke]

Okay guys i have a few ideas for total drama merchandise to add to my shop before the end of this year and i would like your input. you have always been the realest after all

*: i know someone else has already made buttons with the like 'canon' vote for damien button designs but i have some funny ideas for drawing some too

#txt #i made a TD merch interest google forms a while ago but i have more concrete ideas now so #there u go.... #feel free to add any that you dont see here though! #for reference i use vograce as my main merchandise producer but i do have other options i just have exp with vograce the most #however that means i dont have a printing supplier for anything like shirts so unless you can recommend me one its nawt happening #at least for the forseeable future #unless i use like teespring or something #merch tag

[corrodedcoughin]

Now. I'm not very knowledgeable in terms of the greater ST fandom but I really believe that your singlehandedly holding up at least a small portion of the Steddie fandom. Especially with the way you always engage with other people's fan work through your tags. You share your own ideas on your blog, or add to other people's ideas, and when you can't do either of those you just ramble excitedly about stuff. That's Fandom Babe!

Thank you for your service! *salutes*

Anon I was feeling stupid about the Gareth post and here you are, rewiring my thoughts!!!

Truth be told though, I LOVE being a hype man, I adore getting excited about people posts and tags and art and edits. I want people to know how valued and important their work is!!! And how much of a difference it makes even if it’s to one person!!! Because before ST I was an outskirts reblogger who was scared to post because I thought Big Blogs were the only people posting and my ideas were pointless, there was no space for me and whatever I could offer has been done ten times before. And yeah, we are all rehashing the same ideas but it’s BEAUTIFUL because nobody’s takes are the same! Stories are told over and over again because it’s the person telling them that makes them new!!!! In whatever way they tell them!!! And I want people to know that there’s ALWAYS space for them!!! That they don’t have to be quiet and fawn over big names because fandom is for everyone but most importantly it’s for yourself to have fun!!!

Posting can be scary and I still get scared of hitting the post button so if I can lessen that anxiety in people in any way I WILL!!!!

Anon you are a true community Angel, it’s people like you that keep fandoms going and I cannot thank you enough for gracing my inbox, let me applaud you and share yoir kindness in my little corner.

#anon #I just …idk babe you made me feel less ridiculous thank hou #DONT get me wrong I know I’m small fry in this fandom but I just want people to know they can post and have fun regardless of following!!! #posting is scary but together we can make it less scary #also I get so very worried that I’m obnoxious in my reblog tags especially when shouty #but I just love seeing everyone’s work and don’t know how to convey my emotions otherwise #I mean irl I’m very quiet so this is like a release for me idk it feels like my heart #is free to oscillate wildly when I come online #like I know I e been blocked by people on here and it’s probably due to the tags and I am genuinely sorry #I just don’t know how to get to the line between saying nothing monotone tagging and keysmashes #this is all to say thank you for being a genuinely nice person anon and I hope to hype you up in the future #keep #that’s right I’m keeping this one

[seariii]

I need a little pick me up *stares at the food app* but everything is so expensive....

#i took a shower i watched some videos and checked up and... now i feel so exhausted... #i guess it finally caught up with me... i havent really even interacted much... wish i... nono its okay. i did a lot #i want something cold and sweet... i want chocolate but tapioca is too expensive and i dont have something to make the drink with.... #and we dont have enough sugar to make the pearls anyways.... #i am scared of friday... im scared of Thursday night.... im scared of the future... *gets notification* #... hey at least people are happy... thats nice... people are happy and living in the present. im so proud of them #if you read till here i have a small plastic brain do you wanna see it? #im emotionally okay im just really tired a tapioca or something like a smoothie could help but everythings too expensive... #seari talks

[danidoesathing]

found these in the Night We Met lyric video. hm

#DAMN WONDER WHAT THAT MEANS #the French translates to exactly what you think it does #probably not the first one to find these tbh but im still excited. IM new to this leave me be #I love the hints of future albums/storylines in these videos #its really neat and encourages the audience to do some fun detective work #mentions of Z'Oiseau jasper and hontanx years before the movie #no clue when the movie was filmed but damn this is pretty early for all that #also pretty sure the actor for Buck here (Daniel Wilkenson) is the same on in whispering pine's version of Dead Man's Hand #so when the hell was THAT filmed #tbf I THINK it might have been the same clip shown in the strange trails teaser. just the full version they filmed #but since Johnnie's face is all blurred and Johnnie's face is literally the only part we see in the teaser. so yeah #now. what does that mean that its shown on an in universe television show that has the same actor/car/general look as that clip? #I. I dont know. but its cool! #lord huron #dani speaks #also. confirmation that vide noir takes place in 1967. sweet #thats the year I already mentally picked out for it for writing. so thats cool also

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#txt #tw #dont read this and i may delete but i just need to say it #i do think about dying a lot #like i dont want to be here lol #people suck big time #everyone here is so nice and lovely and supportive #but you arent physically near me and i guess thats what i need #idk #and i cant just message randoms with all my personal shit all the time #unless i can? idk #the main reason i wont kms is cause my dad wouldnt be able to handle it hes lost too much #i think hed prolly follow suit #and i cant have that #plus other things like my pets etc #but what is the fucking point lol #i know eventually ill move on etc #but the world sucks man #it sucks #i have a good life but my brain sucks and i ruin everything and no one sticks around and i am just a fucked up friend and partner and i dont #see myself getting better #if i told my psych i think about this id get sent off and i think that would make me worse #i just want the future back that i thought i was going to have #that was ripped away from me without warning #no conversation #nothing #and he gets mad at me when i bring that up?????? #yeah its so fair you kicked me out etc but im the bad guy for airing my feelings #fuck everyone tbh haha #im just done