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slimy-vore-bog · 10 months
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WARNING: groomer in the SFW vore community (serious)
Content/Trigger warning: discussions of grooming, mention of incest, and sexual and fatal vore
I am posting to tags to try to keep people safe!
This specifically occured in the Owl House corner of this community, but everyone should be warned
I will put the rest of the post below keep reading, but for now the person I'm accussing is known as "les-the-mess" on here and "LesTheMessy" on DeviantArt (I do not remember the discord name) and she is 23/24 years of age
And lastly that a real minor has been contacted by said person and made very uncomfortable (url will not be stated for their safety)
Remember to check everything I say for yourself, if you don't believe me; I would not accuse this person publicly if I didn't consider them a real threat All except the minor's statement are available online
I am feeling sick to my stomach that this happened and I don't know how to handle this. I'm going to tell this a bit more like a story so I can get it out easier
I was on DA (DeviantArt) when I saw something odd pop up; a vore edit of Catra and Adora with Luz and Amity as prey. I looked at it, because I am always up to find more sfw safe vore creators, but it was neither safe or non-sexual
There were clearly comments engaging with the art in a sexual way and the creator didn't discourage or delete said comments and the description itself mentioned how the vore was going to end with both prey characters dying.
This person had an identical avatar and near identical username to their URL here on tumblr and I was horrified as I knew that this person had interacted with a minor despite having "minors DNI" and that already gave me a slight prickling suspicion something was wrong (later learned she has even DMed them on discord...)
They had both minors and NSFW in her DNI so I didn't have anything to go after, as they didn't have any post with suspicious stuff here or followed any weird blogs and I brushed it off initially
Her posts on DA however... Very fucking damning: almost all their edits are of minors and adults in vore or of the character The Collector (Which is a child who is also a god; he is immortal, but at the point we last see them is mentally an 8-10 year old)
Now I didn't pick the most damning thing to screenshot, as it was too gross (unbirth incest between Luz the main character, her girlfriend and Luz's mother Camila) but here is one example of one of their posts:
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Odalia/nickname Mamadalia is an antagonist of the show and an adult woman
Here is a screenshot of her account on tumblr:
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Very lousily taken, but I was too distraught to care
I contacted the minor (who I am already friendly with, since I wanted to support the growth of their blog) as soon as I deemed this person to be a threat and the minor has told me that she has indeed acted weird towards them, but it only clicked now after I shared what I did...
The minors own words when I asked for details:
"I can't remeber what we talked about exactly since I deleted my discord in a panic-
But it was first of with the collector, at first it seemed harmless, but I started getting uncomfortable when it entered into the vore Stuff, like, I dont why but it rubbed me the wrong way but I didnt say anything since it sorta felt…uneasy to say the least, and i feel stupid because i never said anything about it
She also talked a lot about digestion aswell, and when I brought up the no minors thing- she said it was because she managed and 18+ discord server and it was okay for us to talk, and I feel this is extremely important to mention- she reposted your art to me without credit, I cant remeber everything but i hope this is enough"
Now the last thing I will say I don't have much of an opinion on, because of how severe the situation is, but I wanted to include the full message (Split up into paragraphs for easier reading)
I might have forgotten some stuff, but this is all I can think of right now
Please just stay safe, stay away and block/report this person!
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blog-imtsupdates · 4 months
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week 9
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having a lot of trouble trying to get the mesh to a poly count where i can add detail. the mesh kept giving me small artifacts. after getting it so that that wouldnt happen anymore, my program kept crashing allowing me to lose significant progress multiple times over despite trying to remeber to save more frequently.
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at this point the whole file wouldnt open anymore. i had managed to export the mesh and open it in blender so i could atleast take screen shots of the progress i had made but safe to say my computer does not have the hardware to make highly detailed sculpts. I am going to try to remesh the more detailed mesh and see if i have better luck adding detail in blender. I want this mesh to be grotesque and i need detail for that.
I had re done the lower jaw atleast 6 or so times and still no luck as it kept crashig either before or during saving/exporting the mesh.
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I have had Zbrush crash upwards of twenty times, blender crashed five times and my entire computer shut down seven or more times. Ive lost track.
ive had quite a rough week, i am making progress and i keep working but its worth mention this does not help with morale.
on friday i decided to start doing "detail work" in blender using an older version of the mesh that i had remeshed to have lower poly count.
Ive watched quite a lot of videos on sculpting and all of the detailed sculpts are very high poly very quickly so i really didnt expect this to be that much of a problem. A lot of these vidoes were busts but it should still be posible to make a detailed model.
I was incredebly unhappy with how little detail i could get in and concidered painting over the normal map to just draw on the detail instead but was really worried that would take far too long and would get really confusing. (the most detailed I could get it shown here v smooth shading applied because it was horrendous)
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i kept trying to open the higher poly files in zbrush and blender because i really wanted that sculpted detail but the programs wouldnt budge and my computer crashed another two times. Until it didnt!
I dont know what i did differently but suddenly it worked again. I was so exctatic that i could finally do some proper work that i ended up working through the weekend to atleast finish up the details in the face, started the teeth, and started with some more definition on the body.
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getting to the more detailed work is great i get to refrence a coupe of folks i found on youtube https://www.artstation.com/chrismasna https://www.artstation.com/joanna_kobierska/albums/1907802 have some incredible work, im trying to do that but more vein-y. i am also refrencing the way coolio art was sculping the feet on one of his models because they are very cool and wrinkly https://x.com/Coolio_Art/status/1724144572903616535?s=20
I do feel rushed and i dont get to work in all the detail i want or the adjustments i want to make because of the limited time we would have for animation if i take much longer. the model will be mostly shrouded in darkeness so it should be ok and animation is very very important for conveying the animal and the scares so it needs time.
some more videos i watched while working on the sculpt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-QoLorR9qpY https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bgnq1jDYMmw
I have found a video on the work flow for cinematic animation
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it look liek the retoplology that is done on modles is still very high poly because its all pre rendered anyway. im still going to look into it more as i clearly dont have strong enough of a computer but maybe someone has found a solution for independent artists that want to create animations that arent for games.
this one is on weigth painting, i dont know if ill be doing that but last time i made a model i had trouble with this so this was usefull incase i do have to weight paint https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EaVG_KOKRnA also preperation for retopology and what to look out for when i get to that
and ofcouse
a cost calculation
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hourly pay / hours spent up until the midterm / mid term cost
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mashumaru · 3 years
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The Loki series makes me so happy, finally Tom is away from the Thor franchise and Waititi
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creweemmaeec11 · 3 years
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The Gift of Panic Pt#2
First part
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After a moment of silence, the villain finially spoke.
"The last birthday present I got..." they started in a quiet, almost whispered tone, "was a bomb..."
"What!?" the hero replied in shock.
"Someone I cared about... though it would be funny to open my present before me as a joke..." they took a deep breath, "they didn't..."
Their voice cracked before they trailed off, and the quickly wiped at their face, abruptly standing up, keeping their back to the hero.
"I don't even know..." the hero replied, trailing off as well. They didnt know what to say, how to respond, what to do. What could they?
"Its fine I just," the villain started, before taking a deep, recomposing breath, "Sorry, I've never told anyone about it,"
"No no, it's okay. God, I can't even imagine..."
"Its alright, I got my revenge in the end," the villain replied, turning back toward the hero.
"Really? How?"
The villain looked at them with a confused expression, before it shifted into an amused smirk, "For legal reasons, and because I don't want to prolong my time in here, I probably shouldn't tell you,"
The hero laughed, "fair point. For what it's worth, I'm glad you got justice, even if it probably isn't the kind of justice I'd agree with,"
"Really? You think I deserve justice?"
"Of course, I think everyone does," the hero said in confusion, as if that was obvious.
The villain huffed a half laugh, giving a small smile, "I need to remember who I'm talking to,"
Both their gazes fell back to the long discarded present on the floor.
"I can take it, if you'd like, but-"
"No no, it's okay, I... I cant believe the words 'I trust you' are coming out of my mouth but I at least trust you didnt gift me a bomb,"
"I don't know if I'm hurt or flattered,"
The villain laughed again, walking over to hesitantly pick up the gift. They turned back to face the hero, holding the box with both hands as they just stared at it.
"The question still remains..." they drawled, before looking up at the hero that was still sat on the bed, "Why would you get me a birthday present?"
"What do you mean?"
"Why would you get me a gift? Why would you do something like that? For me? I dont think I'm very... deserving of a gift. Especially from you. Unless whatever is in here is some form of mockery- I mean- I guess I shouldn't assume..."
Their eyes dimmed slightly, as if they realized the only thing that could be in the box was something mocking, a heros form of bragging that they had won.
"Okay now I'm definitely hurt,"
The villain looked back up at them.
"Your my friend, I realized your birthday was coming up, so I thought back on our previous conversations, and tried to get something I thought youd like," the hero replied, moving to sit it a more casual position, "There wasnt any more thought put into it then that,"
The villain was now staring at them with wide eyes.
They blinked, seemingly trying to process what they'd just heard.
"I... have questions..."
The hero smirked, tilting their head as a prompt to continue, amused at the normally silver tounged villain being thrown so off their game by something so simple.
"Friend?" The villain responded almost instantly.
"Oh I'm sorry, what would you call this? Marriage?"
"I'd call this me tolerating your visits, whenever you decide to drop by because you've nothing better to do,"
"Maybe at first, but I've seen the way you recently light up whenever I come in,"
"Then you've *recently* begun going blind. I'd suggest seeing an optometrist,"
The hero laughed, "also, for your information, I make time for these visits, I dont just swing by cuz 'I'm bored',"
The villain squinted at that, "You... make time... for me?"
"Yes, that's what friends do,"
"I am not your friend," the villain replied stubbornly.
"Oh yeah? When was the last time you let someone hug you? I have to have passed the friend mark by now,"
The villain blushed, realizing they *had* allowed the hero to hug them, and they couldnt remeber the last time anyone else had even tried, nevermind been *allowed*.
"this is a dysfunctional work relationship at best"
The hero snorted another laugh at that.
The villain glanced down at the box once more.
Finially they knelt down onto the floor, placing the box infront of them. The stared at it for a few seconds, hands shaking slightly as they hovered over it, before taking a deep breath and tearing the wrapping off.
It was a simple brown box with a lid.
The villain chuckled under their breath slightly at that.
"What?" The hero questioned, not seeing anything funny.
"No, sorry I just-, had a thought,"
The hero raised an eyebrow at them.
"I just thought how funny it would be if after all this it turned out to be empty, but that would be cruel, even for-"
Their sentence came to a halt as the lid came off and they saw what was inside.
Now their wasnt anything incredible inside, it wasnt like they had gotten a new iphone, but there was *many* things inside.
They looked up at the hero, mouth open slightly, not even attempting to hide their shock.
The hero just smiled.
Slowly, the villain began taking things out of the box. A book of puzzles, like crosswords and word searches, a small sketch book and a pack of markers to go with them. A small puzzle, showing the picture of a fox, which was the villains favourite animal. There was also a rubix cube that was already messed up, and a set of other small puzzles. At the bottom, there were two more boxes, one much bigger then the other.
The bigger box contained the Harry Potter book series. The second, contained a small device that looked like an airpod, along with earbuds.
It was fascinating for the hero to watch the villain open their gift. One would expect a villain to be clumsy, rushed, or aggressive, ripping into their present, but they were the opposite. They removed every item slowly, delicately, like it was a peice of glass that could break, examining it with the same gentleness before laying it down carefully beside them.
When they had opened the last item, they looked back up at the hero, completely flabbergasted, jaw on the floor and eyes wide.
The hero laughed quietly, "do you like it?"
"I..." the villain sat back onto their heels from where they were kneeling, looking over the items like they were unsure what to do now, "what..."
They blinked, gathering their thoughts, "how did you...? I mean what-"
They picked up the puzzle as they spoke.
"That's your favourite animal right? A fox? Now I wasnt sure what kind of fox but-"
"How?" The villain asked, almost breathlessly, looking back at the hero.
"How did I know that? You mentioned it, once. I was talking about being a cat or dog person, and you said youd always been a fox person, something about them being 'sly and underestimated, yet smart enough to know when to strike'" they recited, making quotations in the air.
The villains jaw hit the floor again.
"That was actually one of the first things you ever told me about yourself,"
"You bothered... to remeber that...?" they muttered under their breath.
"Yep. The rubix cube is because you bragged to me once you were good at puzzles and could do one, and I didn't believe you," the hero smirked, "still don't,"
The villain huffed a small laugh, before glancing over at the books.
"the puzzle book and sketch book are just something to do, I know markers arnt ideal, but obviously I wasnt allowed to give you any pencils or pens,"
The villain nodded in understanding.
"the books are because I was talking about game of thrones one day, and you said youd always preferred Harry Potter,"
The villain smiled, and shook their head at that, chuckling, "I've never actually read them, I just wanted to disagree with you," they joked.
They both laughed.
"What's this?" The villain asked, picking up the small device with the ear buds.
"Its a little mini portable radio. I didnt know what songs you liked, and obviously, I'm not allowed to give you anything with acsess to the internet, but at least now you can choose what station you want,"
The villain sat back again, looking over everything with the same stunned, almost lost expression.
"You... remebered all those little details... and here I thought I was doing a good job at not letting anything about myself slip..."
"Oh you have been, trying to figure out what to get you was near impossible, but I managed to remeber a couple little things youd mentioned,"
They picked up the rubix cube, playing with it aimlessly, "I... don't even know what to say..."
"Well, most people would say thankyou,"
The villain shook their head, "that dosent seem like enough. I... I cant even remeber the last time someone gave me a gift, nevermind one without strings attached, and esspecially nevermind one with actual thought put into it,"
"I get the feeling you need better friends," the hero joked, trying to keep the mood light.
"Yeah well, I guess I'm on the right track, I've already got one," they replied, but couldnt bring themselves to look at the hero while they did.
The hero in question was lit up like a christmas tree, heart swelling happily in their chest.
"I hate to cut this short, but don't have long today, I'm going to have to get going, I just wanted to make sure I got to swing by today," the hero said, looking at their watch.
"Oh! Yeah, of course, you -"
"Do not have 'more important' things to do, I simply have *other* things I need to do," the hero interrupted sternly, giving the villain, who blushed, a pointed look.
"yeah, that."
The villain stood up, standing awkwardly in the middle of all their gifts, watching the hero leave through the finger print locked cell door. They approached the switch to turn on the force field, when the villain stopped them.
"Oh, hey, wait!"
"What's up?" The hero asked.
Suddenly the villain tossed something through the bars with effortless perfect aim. The hero caught it, and this time it was their jaw that hit the floor.
It was a completed rubix cube.
They looked back at the villain in shock, who laughed, giving them a real, large, and although greatly amused, no less genuine smile. The first real, true smile they'd ever seen on the villain. They couldnt help but stare in awe for a moment.
"What..?" The villain asked after a moment.
The hero shook their head to snap them out of it, "sorry! It's just, that's the first time I think I've ever seen you actually smile,"
Instantly the smile vanished as the villain steeled their features, crossing their arms and shrugging, trying to ignore the blush on their face, "yeah well, that's cuz it dosent happen often, so,"
"I'm honored,"
"Shut up,"
The hero laughed, before looking at the cube in their hand again,"this is like, actually really impressive though, that was so fast!"
The villain shrugged again, "the 3 by 3 ones are easy, the 4 by 4 or 5 ones arnt that much more difficult, the 6 and 7 ones take me a while though, 8 is an actual challenge, and I dont think I've ever done above that before,"
The hero was still staring at them wide eyed.
The villain just chuckled and shrugged at them again, "I was an outcast kid, had alot of time on my hands. Anyway, get going,"
"Yeah, right," the hero replied, tossing the cube back before flicking on the force field. They began walking toward the door, before the villain spoke out to them one last time,
"By the way... thank you... really..."
The hero smiled, "your welcome," they replied, before disappearing out the door.
The next time they visited, they would make sure to bring a 9 by 9 rubix cube, and a fox calendar.
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namiikawaii · 3 years
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Luffy x Nami: A thread Part 1
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Disclaimer: This is very long so be prepared to take some time & also if you haven't watched/read One Piece at all then don't read this if you don't want to read spoilers. Firstly I'd like to adress all the people who dont believe in a love romance in One Piece aswell as those who are against this ship or do ship Luffy and Nami with different characters: Please read the thread thoughoutly and don't jump to conclusions before you read everything. I will try to mention all of the issues that are underlying in regards to general things like love romance in One Piece and I want to consider counter arguments and create hypotheses in sight of other pairings like Luffy x Boa and Sanji x Nami (which I think are the other main ships when it comes to Luffy and Nami).   So it is important to be a little patient through all of this thread.
Let's start off with the question about love romance in One Piece... ''D: Doesn't anyone on Luffy's crew fall in love? Will there never be a tale of on-board romance? (Sanji is an exception in this case) I'm just wondering. -From Naoko- O: But they do... They're all in love...WITH ADVENTURE. (← good one)'' This is exactly the part of the SBS where Oda answered the question about romantic love in the Strawhat Crew. Firstly, this is obviously meant as a silly statement. It is definetly no confirmation but to see this as a serious statement is overexagerrating. Secondly, Oda wanted to answer this question by dodging it without nullifying it. What does that mean? He could have just simply said, there is no romance in One Piece and there never will be (this wouldn't be the first time that he would have answered a question in a direct and serious way). But no, he wanted to make sure that the audience understands that there is a difference between romantic love and romance (in an adventure) and that the Strawhats are on a journey of a romantic adventure which has nothing to do with loving each other in a romantic way. There are two reasons for that: -One Piece is a pure shonen/action Manga and it's target audience are teenage boys (at least this was the case when he made that statement, i don't know how that might have changed by now maybe) -For the other reason just imagine One Piece if there was active love romance going on...we wouldn't be near the story that we are now. Let's just say it would add so much more complications, to put it very simple (I don't want to go into that deep now). But now here comes the clue: All of this doesn't mean that Oda completely lefts love romance out. Because despite of all the points that I just mentioned there are pairings and there is also subtle (no explicite) love romance. Lets just look at the pairings, these are all pairings that I think the majorty of people wouldn't question: -Kaya and Usopp -Sabo and Koala -Shanks and Makino -Shakky and Rayleigh -Roger and Rouge -Oden and Toki
And yes none of these cases showed the love story between those people (maybe Kaya and Usopp if you really want) but THAT IS THE POINT! Only because Oda doesn't let the characters speak out ''i love you'' or makes them kiss all of the time doesn't mean there isn't any kind of romantic love connection between characters in One Piece (the kiss on WCI was an exeption though). This also doesn't mean that there is no possibilty of romance between the Strawhats. I get it that people see them as a familiy, and they truly are one. If there was romance between two of them during the story of One Piece the dynamic wouldn't be the same anymore, especially if there was a canon relationship between Luffy as the captain/ main protagonist and another crewmember. I mean we don't want to see Luffy prefering one nakama over the other. If he calls for his friends, he calls for everyone and not firstly for the person he's in love with. They are all equally as important as the others. But you have to remeber that they aren't blood-related and it wouldn't be weird at all if some of them are ending up together after the adventure of the One Piece. That's the reason why the hints that are given by Oda are really hints, not just merely coincidence.
And i wouldn't be here if Oda didn't hint Luffy and Nami in the past and he will hint them in the future or even more. Let's beginn chronologically with the bond-forming between Luffy and Nami and why their relationship is special EAST BLUE SAGA -Nami was intended as a crew-member from the very beginning, even before One Piece was existing. That's the reason why Luffy and Nami saw each other in the first episode of One Piece. It was to pay hommage to Silk/Ann the heroines of the Romance Dawn Manga. (Just read into it if you want to know more) But what's important is that they were the inspiration for Nami as a character/ as the heroine.
-Orange Town: Luffy and Nami meet for the first time in the Manga Nami reveals her goal to Luffy - which is ''to buy a certain village'' (keep this in mind) Luffy tells Nami why the strawhat is so dear to him - he won't be telling anyone afterwards these details again -Nami tricks Luffy. Buggy captures him but when Nami is forced to fire a canon ball at Luffy she refuses, starts a fight against all the Buggy-Pirates and finally at the risk of her own life she burns her hands facing the pirates with her back in order to prevent the canonball to blow up Luffy (she does quite much for this pirate guy she just met) - you see that at this point Luffy did touch something in Nami's heart because when they have to escape she literally instantly fires the canonball at Buggy without hesitation. -Nami sewing Luffy's damaged hat. Since then it's always her who takes care of it if it takes any damage/ if there is something to sew in it like Ace's Vivre Card. Now I want to put in here my first hypothetical compairison for the LuBoa and SaNa shippers. Just imaging now this same situation happening between Luffy and Boa. Luffys hat is ripped apart - maybe she knows that Luffys hat is his treasure maybe not but lets imagine she does know. She will of course sew it, would probably blush and say something romantic about her doing this for him. And as a shipper this would be the most romantic thing for you wouldn't it? In reality it is Nami who precisely watches Luffy and understands the importance of his hat to him, she goes up to him and fixes his strawhat, with the only difference that it is just more natural and less lovey-dovey from Nami's part (because of course she would never act like that if she was in love with someone). I am already asking you now, which lovestory sounds more believable? -Syrupp Village: There are a few cute moments (Nami catches Luffy and cheers on him and so on...) but i wanted to especially point out that these two are are sitting/lying on the ground after the fight and Nami playes with the Strawhat, Luffy is of course unbothered. But this already shows how comfortable these two are at this point, they know each other only for a few days now. And also this image of them two talking and sitting together is a theme that continues throughout One Piece. -Namis leaves with the Going Merry, looking devestated that she has to leave ''Luffy and the others'', and Luffys reaction after Zoro says to just leave her: ''I want her to by our navigator no matter what'' (These words are enough, no comment needed and also look at Zoro's face as Luffy is stating these words) -Kokoyashi Village: Luffy already trusts and knows Nami so well that he is enraged to hear that she allegedly killed Usopp - the others are sure that she did it but Luffy insists, and even when Nami confirmes to him that she indeed sent Usopp to the ocean's ground Luffy refuses to accept it and immediatly goes to sleep. (I'm sure it's because he knew that something was wrong but he knew he had to wait for Nami to come up to him)
-The famous moment hits different (for shippers and non-shippers): Luffy giving Nami his precious strawhat! He wants to show her how much she is dear to him, his gives her his treasure because now she's his treasure too (and you can see this in a romantic way or in a platonic way but just remember that Luffy never did this ever to anybody in the past or in the future) Now i want to mention something that i said earlier: people often say that Luffy didn't care about Namis story but let me tell you something different. Luffy already knew what Nami's obejectif was (to buy a certain village) now Luffy also knows that there is a pirate called Arlong and when Nami is stabbing herself she shouts his name in devastion. Luffy is not dumb, he understood already some parts of Nami's history - later when he is in Nami's room he understands the impact even more. It is so far from truth that Luffy doesn't know Namis story, he may not know some details, but he could conntect enough points to understand Nami's pain. And my personal theory is that he didn't wanted to hear Nojikto telling Nami's story because maybe Nami wouldn't have wanted him to hear it and it could certainly be that he knew that maybe he couldn't hold himself back and intervene before Nami asked him to do so and finally rely on him! -Genzo and Luffy's conversation: just read/watch it - it is a father to boyfriend conversation (i thought so even before i shipped LuNa) So far these are the most important moments for the East Blue Saga, and of course there are other things you could mention but i just wanted to point out the key moments that really built their relationship and created the whole fundament. Since I don't know when I can continue writing on this, I am just going to show some colourspreads which contain hints in my opinion. (Like Nami being represented as a queen, or Nami holding and wearing Luffy’s hat)
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repressedgaymer · 5 years
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so my thots on the goldfinch (SPOILERS ashfdjkl)
it exceeded my expectations
oakes’ performance was absolutely phenomenal, the range of emotions he was able to showcase was amazing. i remeber first seeing him and Gasping bc he looked so..... broken. and Just like a little boy. i cant believe how Well he captured that emotion.
"it's a rembrandt" i literally screamed
ANDY BARBOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he was so funny and brought so much Literal warmth into the barbour scenes. (most of those scenes are very cold. but when it's just andy and theo...... they laugh and the colors get a little warmer.... like their chess match!!!!!!! all orange colors babey)
i also really like how mrs barbour Stayed a cold individual. she didn't come across as warm to theo until After the chess scene. i Really appreciated that detail.
the two parts of vegas made me both sad and happy. one part neglect and one part companionship with boris. both had different tones and different color schemes and i thought that was brilliant
shh potter it's only me..... yeah 🥺
larry’s death and resulting scene of xandra yelling at theo for laughing made me start crying.
the scene directly after this... the desperation, how much boris just wants to stay and how theo is so sad.... it made me start sobbing. i couldn’t stop. i wasnt able to watch like the next scene of him on the greyhound bc i was too busy hiding my face in my hands and grieving, (it reminded me too much of my own teenage years)
i could literally go on and on about how much i loved the vegas scenes. finn is absolutley amazing and i Literally owe him my life. his accent. his attitude. Give him His OSCAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i actually liked the rough edit style. it reminded me of racing thoughts and how ptsd can affect how you think and feel. i also really like how vegas with boris wasn’t cut into by future theo. it was just him and boris in this small bubble. it truly felt like it was the only peaceful part of the movie. i also really appreciated that it wasn't linear. doing it linear wouldn't have Worked for this film. at least in my opinion. it would have been Too Boring. not enough jumps and climax's. like it was Supposed to make u keep on ur toes.
i also really appreciated that the film didn’t show how suicidal young theo was. i don’t think i would’ve been able to handle it.
speaking of that... i really really really loved the poolside scene. how boris Looks at him maaaaaan, the empathy... the need to take care in his eyes. how he tells a secret and then asks theo to.
i also really like how they cut the i dont feel high scene to them laying by the pool.............. comedic gold the whole theater laughed
anytime they did drugs together i laughed because man the implications!!!!!!!!!!!!
ansel boyyyyyy i loved everything he did. he really played theo really well. that sort of mask quality. him being a cocky shit. that forced flirtatious persona when dealing with kitsey and the friendly brotherly quality with pippa when he wasn't trying to woo her
and pippa !!!!!!!!!!! i love her. the warmth she brought to the film. and the way that she talked about her trauma. telling theo i love u and i miss you but i cannot afford to risk myself like that i'm sorry. and still being so gentle with theo. something i admired. i especially loved that even tho theo cried, he still said it was okay. it felt like closure to me.
ANEURIN WHERE IS HIS OSCAR ??????
his performance of both soul crushing sadness and grief over hurting theo. and that happiness of doing right by theo. i wish we got more scenes with him. he was incredibly funny and incredibly charasmatic. and he just played boris so right the heart eyes the tenderness
also ansel again showing emotion with just his eyes. i really liked that we didn't see a lot of emotion from him. like feature wise. bc it made the scenes where he's genuinely sad and genuinely happy all the more unique and powerful
i Loved that we didn't get to see aubrey's face u til his OD. bc he hasn't been able to face her. and in that moment the scene erupted into warm colors and theo is crying happy tears and he's bathed in gold and it's just so poetic that she just looks at him with a sad sort of smile. Killed me
boris rescues theo...... enuf said
Really loved that at the very End we got to see what happened before the explosion. theo has only shown us the aftermath of the bomb. and the Actual Bombing before that. and then Finally. he gets this catharsis.... he finally feels the Weight of taking the goldfinch come off of him. and Then...... he lets himself remember the before. he lets himself remember the Happiness that he felt that day... and not only the tragedy. he lets himself start to Heal from it. and then we have him come home to hobie. a bittersweet ending that gives Hope for theo and redemption for him. i loved it
Overall 500/10 i will be seeing it again. and i will be buying it when it comes out on dvd. thank u and good nite
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How would you feel?
Not very attractive overall but was enough for me to be noticed by someone that was older than me in high school. I remeber like it was yesterday , we were at the ROTC classroom in a group meeting , me seating at the first chair in attention trying to keep my eyes on whoever was stating the announcement when i cought myself staying at him for a quick second but felt like long minutes , he was painting the door dark blue of the logistic room, he smiled at me and thats when i realized i was starring for the longest. Meeting was over and had to think a quick excuse to go to the logistic room just to see him closer.  All i got to say to him was hi and that was it , it was like having a brain fart, i rushed and left the room & went on to my next class. This was long time ago so i dont quite remember the details but I can still feel how he broke my heart , but not only him but other important people that turned their back on me when i needed them the most. We started to talk more & more everyday , little by little , I knew he was a sigle man now thats why i continued talking to him and allowing myself to fall for him. We then started to make out in every corner in the school , but i never got the chance to sleep with him. Just to feel his hands over me was good enough for me to fel that i was his . I felt like now is my turn to shine & be part of the population of girls that had  the luck to have a boyfriend in high school, i wants a loner anymore , a weirdo anymore at least i felt that way . I was sorrounded by friends but i never considered them mine , always a competition on everythig, who got the best cell phone, the best custom uniform, the shortest skirt, the best body, who got theur boobs or big ass on time in puberty. I knew people talked behind my back once they knew i was with him but they never told me nothing face to face. I felt in love with him so hard i cant even explained but just remember how i felt. And the fact that he didnt asked me to have sex with him was more attracttive to me. I love him for that. Once that i was convince that we were meant for each other , in a summer of my Junior year i was sitting on his lap in the second floor of the school in front of the senior spanish classroom, I saw his ex walking directly to me to ask me if she can have a moment with him because it was urgent , she aknowledge that we were dating , I looked at him waiting for his response & he stared at me & kissed me and promise it will be a short conversation with her , I agreed and let him go out of my side. I still regret that day , that time when i easily lost him , because i didnt insist to be present on their conversation. I technically gave him back to her myself. Strangely all my close friends when to em to check if i was ok , i tried to pretend that it was just a conversation between them , i was so sure he wasnt going back to her. Why would he? He was happy with me & he was misserable with her. But all of my friends had that face that they already knew what was going on but afraid to tell me . They knew how much i loved him & i was holding on on all his promisses, his kisses, his hugs, I can still smell his cologne today and I just want to scream & cry for how stupid i was for falling for him.  Today i am 29 y/o and that happened when i was 16 and it still burns my soul, I can say that has been one of the 3 worse day of my life .   I decided to look for him because it was taking so long , to my surprise they walked right pass me holding hands & he didnt even looked at me for a second. I froze . As i saw them going down the stairs and leave the school I didn’t know how to react. My ears were warmed, my whole body numb, I couldn’t even hear anything else, or think anything else but just remembering how they just pass by like I was nothing, Like he seemed happy and left me aside like a was some object that he didn’t need anymore to feed his recently broken “heart”. Why would men go through all this trouble of making you fall for them, all this energy ? all those words and the timing when to say it, how can a person be capable of that?  make you give your heart delivered to his hands and crush it right in front of your eyes and my reaction was speechless.  I didn’t want for anyone to see me how a break but it wasn’t time to go home so I ran to the back of the school building where there’s no other because no one uses those classrooms and sat at the stairs and cry, my friends found me, later on, to tell me the reason he left with her.  She was having his baby.
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easy-ambitions · 5 years
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My most used writing supplies with swatches:
Pens and sharpies:
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The Pentel Energel is one of the best writing experiences I've ever had with a pen! Its super smooth and nice to write with. I bought a three pack of these at Barn and Nobels, but I don't remeber the cost.
The Frixion pens are a good writing experiance as well. They aren't as smooth, but have a nice feel. The eraser works great and the click is satisfying and I would recomend these for something like notetaking where you might need to erase. I was gifted these, but you can buy them online (http://pilotpen.us/brands/frixion/frixion-ball-clicker/) they are on the expensive end for pens, but its not too rare to find them on sale in store or on Amazon.
I love the metallic sharpies! They don't bleed like normal sharpies and feel good to write with. The writing of the diffrent colours is completely diffrent because the colours have very diffrent formulas. The silver comes out thicker, the green ghosts while the others don't and the bronze smells a little odd. I got these at a local drug store on sale for 4 dollars. However they are normally around $8 (Sharpie Metallic Permanent Markers, Fine Point, Assorted Colors, 6-Count Permanent Marker (2029678) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07DPLQJVN/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_7TXBDb91P75EX)
The Tul medium is one I found in my house and never remebered buying. It is an adorable pen and writes amazingly and very smoothly. If you know anything about this brand please tell me!
The studio one pens are ones I got from an inking set when I was much younger. I don't know where the rest are, but these are very nice pens that I appreciate.
The bic intensity fineliners were at my local Fred Myers for $6 today and I picked them up. They are wonderful to write with and I would totally picking them up, espically if you find them on sale like I did. They make larger sets and sell smaller colour sets, but this collection was good for me, espically at the price. The red and green seem to have a diffrent formula and are more runny. (BIC Color Collection by Intensity Fineliner https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0793KHKTR/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_XUXBDb7G3S48F)
Brush Pens
I use the crayola Singature brush pens that were fairly recently released. One end is a brush pen and the other is a detail marker. The brush and detail are not the same colour, which can be a good thing or a bad thing. I got the decorative tin box of them. They are normally about $13, but I got them on sale for closer to $8 on Amazon. (And that sale is still going on when I post this!) I do have some issues with them. They write really well out of box, but I have found that my red and black have already started to become less pigmented. I tried storing them brush tip down to see if that would help, but it did not. The labels of the colours on the pen also rub off very easily and to label the colours in my swatches I had to look at the swatches already in my bullet journal. However, if you are not using these constantly and or are a beginner they are really easy to work with and feel good. They ghost on thinner paper, but don't bleed and they didn't ghost on my thicker journal paper. In addition they come in a beautiful range of colours. (Crayola Brush Markers, Dual-Tip with Ultra Fine Marker, 32 Colors, 16Count https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0722YLZTY/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_3LWBDbZQ0FS51)
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Markers
Super tips
I use crayola supertips for colouring and fake calligraphy. These are very fun to play with and come in an amazing range of colours. I got lucky and found this 50 pack on sale at Fred Myers for $5. I have heard of these being used for faking calligraphy for a while and I decided to pick them up to try and I've been having a lot of fun with it! I would 100% recomend picking them up if you get the chance. They are afordable even at full price (plus you totally don't need a 50 pack, but this was about the same price as the 20 pack at the store.) I didn't label the colours on the swatches because they aren't labeled on the markers and I had tried to match the colours to the back of the box but that was too hard and I gave up. Anyways they are currently on sale for $7 on Amazon (Crayola Super Tips Washable Markers 50 Count https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00004UFOO/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_Y6WBDbZJWSPGV)
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Crayola Silly Scents
These are very similar to the Crayola Supertips both in shape and formula. However, the cone comes to less of a sharp tip, which makes fake calligraphy slightly harder to do with these. The smells are enjoyable and fairly long lasting on the page. It fades, but it lasts strongly even after it drys and will be there very faintly for even longer. The markers themselves don't lose the smell either. These are really fun for colouring with and even when the scents get mixed together it doesnt get overwhelming or gross, which I find pretty common with most other scented products. I was unable to find the smaller markers on amazon, but Im sure they still exist if you dig slightly harder than me. However I did find the wide ones. These are more expensive than the normal markers, at $7.78, but still adorable. (Crayola Silly Scents Scented Markers, 12Count https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0727KVNGV/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_wfXBDb2B2NM65)
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Crayola erasable coloured pencils
As you can tell I really love Crayola and these coloured pencils are no exception. These come out lighter than other coloured pencils, but I kind of like that. The lead is also softer than creates a diffrent writing experiance. They erase about the same as a regular pencil. I admitiedly dont need the erasing aspect of it very often, but its a cool thing to have. I have the 10 count for $4.20, but they have 24 and 50 counts as well. (Crayola Erasable Colored Pencils, 10 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B002IXJYNQ/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_ioXBDbPNCYWM6)
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Highlighters
Sharpie
I love these! Both on pen and pencil most colours don't smear as the smear guard label on it promises. The yellow does minorly smear on top of pencil as you can tell though. However it's much better than many other highlighters. These also have these windows so you can actually see what you are highlighting while using it. The window doesn't affect the ink flow through the highlighter and they are very bright and highly pigmented. The tip also allows for both thin underlines and thick underlines. I like it much better than traditional chisel tips. I couldn't find the exact colour selection I got at Wallgreens nor do I remeber what I payed, but this three pack on amazon is $4 (which is a bit expensive, but they are wonderful) (Sharpie Clear View Highlighter Stick, Assorted, 3/Pack (1950748) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B019PGLR9M/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_dDXBDbKVQRF2V)
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Frixion erasable highlighters
These are alright. I use them sometimes, but unlike everything else on this page I wouldn't recomend them for most people. They should not be used on top of pencil because erasing off top of pencil is pretty much imposible. Erasing off top of pen is ussually okay and erasing off top of print is fairly good. Oddly enough the yellow also smears while the other colours do not once again. I would only recomend these if you are highlighting on top of text that you own. It leaves small traces even on top of text so I would not recomened it for barrowed items. They are also fairly pricy for highlighters. (At $9.24 for 3, I got them on sale for $5 and I woipd only recomend it if you are able to get them at that price or lower.) Hopefully Poilt will make a better formula and I will be able to change my mind. However, if you just want these for on top of text and the ability to erase highlights is important for you these work well enough and have very nice colours.
(Pilot FriXion Light Pastel Collection Erasable Highlighters Chisel Tip 3-pk) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0102OODZ6/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_YRXBDbMXD61ME)
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What are your favourites? Do you have any writing utensils you would like me to review? Tell me! I'm always looking for new supplies.
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shark-kihyun · 7 years
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IM BACK AND NOTHING IS REAL???
uhhh so i just got back from the 8 hour train/bus ride from nyc.. and im gonna shit myself i miss the mx concert so much holy shitttajsdglk;as 
We waited in line from 5am through the raim and everything and.. it was actually.. surprisingly really worth it because??? i was so fcuking clOSE to the stage?? ?????????//// i was 5th-4th row at some point and i just... wow wtf is my life it was so surreal. some people were fucking AGRESSIVE THO I SWEAR TO GOD CALM DOWN. i basically got pushed to the front which was painful but at the same time glad that it happened tbh because i was DEAD CENTER and i felt like i was watching a youtube video wtffff
they actually looked fucking god like?? like seriously??????????????? they were huge... like all of them were overall bigger htan i imagined. wonho looked 100x extra beefy, minhyuks huge ass head wow love it, shownu... in person he looked so fucking good??? wow... i never really felt like htat about him (like obviously hes good looking but) until seeing him and his presence in person. also hes the #1 sweetheart? big goofy man??? waves with both hands raises his brows a lot. jooheon and im tbh arent my top favs so i didnt pay a whole lot of attention to them overall im sorry :// my focus the whole time was on him.. he.. that guy.. im pretty sure he looked at me at least once (which a single glance in my general vicinity would be enough to make me implode anyway) but he looked at me and i made a weird face as a response and he made it back?????????????? im fucking !!!!!!!!!!!!! BICHUPIJNGSAKLPONONM;KL SHUT!!! side note im really bummed i thought i had gotten the best fucking footage in cinematic history on my phone but it didnt.. fucking record.. why would it tho ig lmao. ALSO uHM while waiting in line i was at the front of the barricade inside and suddenly everyones screaming (i have really bad eyesight and didnt have my contacts withe me that dayand couldnt see who it was untlil they got closer) but fucking kihyun is walking straight towards us and im dead in the fucking front and center my jaw hanging open and i was completely frozen im not even sure who else passed by because my eyes were glued to kihyun lmaooo but it was really quick they didnt greet the fans or anything because they were just trying to get inside,  and he had a mask on and i think he wasnt weraing insoles because he was fucking tiny!!! literally so... soso itty bitty :(((
the pit was so muhc more managable this year for me like... i had a fucking blast like yeah its terrible in a lot of ways but... this iwas the best concert experience ive had/think ill ever have (unless i can see them again??shti) i felt SO good.. even though my feet have never damage and i was a rash where my bra was also literally an hour before the concert  i realized i didnt have a tampon in (my period started day bfore and was the worst its ever been) and..... somehow SOMEHOW I AM THE LUCKIEIST FUCKING BITCH!!! i cleaned up as best i could and put in a tampon obviousyl and the whole concert i was safe!! somehow!!! somehow i had no stains on my dress or anything or even cramps wtf!!! and the shine forever jacket with lights in it held together?????? even in the pit??? also i just remembered how often my dress would got tugged down enough to wear my whole fucking bra was out so that sucked but i really dont htink they could see that far down on me unless i was very very front row so im not too worried. 
i feel like everyones talked about the concert itself to know how amazing they performed, how talented they are how much good energy they had (i think they had a really good time in ny in general for the most part im really happy about that) they were s connected to the audience and sincere, but ANYWAYS EVERYONE KNOWS THIS IM SURE SO im gonna talk about the hightouch
i was near the end of the line and me and a friend were heading up and omg i was so fucking ready for once like the suspense was killing me and the walk to get there felt like an hour?? it was in a different place than bap had when  i went to ps theater before, and this spot was so much better!! and the staff werent yellig to move faster???? it was amazing. i got closer and could see jooheon from the side and omg.. i high fived him ofc and said thank you so much and he said thank you for coming, i think he reached for my hand with tboh of his, his hands were really :// comfy if that makes sense v gentle and smooth but a little but dry feeling. he looks the same but also?? different in person?? hes so thin and his face is actually kinda small but has a broad like chin and jaw. also they all looked freshly powdered and done up, and theyre skin was glowing!!! then minhyuk i said the same thing and he grabbed  both my hands and had a super pitiful puppy eye look and nodded super sincerely to where it felt almost fake hasdgjkl no but sriously i feel like minhyuk cares about the fans so much.. he seemed really emotional at the end of the concert and at the hightouch but maybe it just me. then i think shownu wouldve been next, he fucking!!! missed my hand!!! oafy old man it was pure. he folded his fingers over the top of my hand and i think around then i said ‘’get good sleep/thank you’’ or something, his hands were dry but soft. he looked different htan his stage presnece, here he looked soft and had a blank expression that was actually really cute. on to i think im was next? i said thank you and he said SOMETHING like a full sentence while smiling and nodding really dorkily but i... have no clue what it was asgjdkls im so mad i couldnt tell what he was going on about probably some forn of ‘’we really appreciate it’’ i would think im not sure? he was almost doing that weird greasy smileey thinkg where its trying to be flirty?? idk its killingme waht did he saymngsad,.. then wonho..wow his was truly glowing.. his raw chiken looking arms i couldnt believe it 100% pure organic beef his hand felt the same as shownus dry, soft big and warm :((( im pretty sure he took both my hands, like most of them tried to do that which was so unexptexted and sweet becase i wanted that but didnt want to initiate it, i wanted to be gentle and not be too much in there space but htey!! were the ones htat reached out! :(((((((( wonho did a similliar expression as minhyuk and it felt really sincere and sweet and caring. ok. now. HIM. HE. THAT MAN. i was really glad he was last, he high fived him and he held my hand in both of his and he had those ugly glasses i hate that he wears but he looked so tiny and cute especially since he was sitting and wow fucking was holding my hand in his?? i said ‘’thank you, i love you so much’’ which i really... planned on not saying because i knew how much it would suck for me to saying something like that and only get a nod in return or a thanks, but instantly!! he said ‘’thank you, i love you too!’’ ABNOLHADJVS;IOK;GADIBSPS’LJDAFS’J;GA[KLJA;kl; SHUT UP!!!!!!! he seemed so smiley and sweet and calm and his presence was so much diffrerent than i thought it would be he was so calm and calculated and witty and thoughtful and not nearly as cold or cocky as i thought he might come off as. he held my hand as i was pulling away prolonging it :(( whic i noticed like all of them did?? like i dont remeber who but someone clasped hands with me and i was already moving onto the nect person and he was still kinda of lingering it was so??? nice??? also idk if its because i was near the end but it went SO much slower i had so muhc more time durring this hightouch than the bap one i had experienced, this was so much more calm and nice and personal i wanted to cry. rgiht after i left kihyun i instantly was in shock that he said that back and started screaming with a sweet girl i met in line and we were freaking out together and again i REALLY didnt want to scream while in earshot because i didnt want him to have that satisfaciton but i couldnt help i was so excited i kinda hope now that he heard how i excited i was over him? anyways theres so muhc i could talk about but im so tired and it takes of lot of energy to relive everything and say every detail but if youve read this mess of rambling thank you!!! tell everyone you know monsta x is the best 
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greenflamedwriter · 3 years
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Good Omens AU
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“Angel-Angel! Look at me,”
takes aziraphales sholders to face him Crowleys shoulders hunched.
“We met in rome for satans sssake!” He hissed “You fed me oysters!”
Aziraphales eyebrows scrunched in confusion. Then became blank.
“No.”
Crowley stilled his heart shattering with one word. Aziraphale couldn't remember him. He’d forgotten…everything.
“No- no I-” Aziraphale glanced down “I met you…in a garden.” His eyes brightened like a storm cleared over his face
“You said that went down like a - a lead balloon.” Crowley stopped breathing as Aziraphale babbled away of their years together looking fond his eyes shining and small smile “We had crepes! And we saved the world together and then,” here his eyes narrowed as crowley wondered what stupid thing he did in the past that made aziraphale look at him like that, like he might smite crowley then and there.
Until his eyes flickered towards the angels his hidden wings fluffing in aggitation and crowley realised te animosity was not directed at him, it was aimed at the angels.
“You.”
His voice was low woth unadultred rage.
He sounded disgusted like a customer said they were going to buy his collection of oscar wilde books and use them as coasters.
In shorf, the arch angels were royally fucked.
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Forget me (Not)
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Crowleys eyes lowered watching the fidgeting hands of aziraphale his words blurring into noise as Crowley watched cooly.
Was this some elaborate trick? Even sk when Aziraphales face remained stoic the same observation and intelligant eyes taking in every detail the hands betrayed him.
“Is there, is there nothing you could do?” He sounded very put out.
as he watched the angel converse with the (apparent) anti christ.
“It was worth a try, thank you adam for everything” he turned “Come on dear boy.” His hand outreached and crowleys eyes flashed behind the shades as aziraphale almost touched his hand.
Crowleys eyes followed the movement reacting without thinking. Not to shy away or accept the gesture just expressing and awarness by following the movmet and then, the hand retracted.
Aziraphale moved on as if it didnt happen. Instead moving back to himself and clasped it in front of him.
“Its back to the bookshop I’m afraid- a call upstairs- no no they wouldnt answer or even care...maybe we could retrace your steps crowley what do you remember.”
Crowley tilted his ead and gazed at aziraphale steady.
The angel began to flush and becone more flustered “Oh, right of course you dont remember anything.”
(He was taken back to his home when he learned miracles and aziraphale looked sad)
“Ah I guess you dont need ne anymore since you can handle yourself- oh would you need some protection? Hell fire can destroy angels although I’m not sure how to aqquire it at the moment.”
“Aziraphale- your tambling. I’ll be fine.”
Aziraphale didn’t look happy to be off woth him.
“But the last time you were alone you got amnesia!”
“I’ll be fine angel.”
“Isn’t it one sided?”
“I-sorry?”
“Sounds like crowley did all the heavy lifting he agve and gave and you couldnt even run away with him- its as if you dont even like him back.”
“I do!”
“Have you told him?”
“I-” aziraphale stopped, had he?
Had he show any evidence that he liked crowley back?
Aziraphale brushed his lips together. Crowley always saved him- the bastille, the church armegeddon.
He couldnt even tell crowley where the anti christ was. The demon trusted him and he had never thought to return the favour.
Crowley brushed against him then presses in against his back aziraphale hand trembled against the cup and crolweys hand laced through his “Steady.”
Aziraphale almost turned.
“Crowley!” Crolwey tightened his hold keeping aziraphale still, his breath close to his ear.
“Aziraphale.”
The angels heart beat stuttered, was his body exipring damn, not as of heaven can give new ones…
“Angel, Who am I to you?” Crowley asked and finally let aziraphale turn around.
Aziraphale puffed up his chest looking rumpled -
“why your my friend of course I can’t we can’t-”
“Why?”
“Because you dont remeber! Its not fair on you I’ll be taking advantage of you.”
“What if I don’t remembera what if I’ll mever remember anything of our past?”
Aziraphale looked so heartbroken it was a doubt his mind but came to light it hurt his core.
“Angel- I’m sorry-”
“No, no My dear boy I should hear it I shouldnt ignore. it is a possibility.”
Crowley looked unsure and aziraphale hated it more.
If there was a chance the angel was tricking him this proved without a doubt.
Aziraphale loved him.
“Angel, think of the brightside- i lost my memory and I still love you, least that hasnt change.”
Aziraphale stiffened
What
You- you’ve never said I couldnt assume that you theres no possibility that what if you didnt and you remember it would be awkward.
“I imagine it’d be more than awkward.”
“I-i cant! I cant take advantage of you- I’m not doing it.”
“You really are the worst crowley you lie to everyone.
Aziraphale fumed “How rude, crowley isn’t like any of you demons he’s better than that!”
“Angel-” crowley sounded strangled.
“Hes annoying he’s loud he tries to hit pedestrians and hedgehogs and even turned paintball guns into real guns and he’s the most wiliest and cunning and brilliant...sweet and caring...a- and none of you could hold a candle to him even without his memorys he’s better than you.”
The other demons glanced at crowley.
“Well, well done for corrupting an angel.”
“You’ve lied to him long enough crowley.”
“Be silent you-”
“Angel” Aziraphale turned and Crowley had his hand outstretched “Stop I wanted to tell you I couldn’t find the right time.”
“Tell me?”
The demons smirk curled.
“Crowley’s amnesia faded weeks ago.”
Aziraphale brow furrowed and Crowley looked away ashamed.
“I- no, it.” He blinked looking back on the week first feeling betrayel and hurt. Why would crowley not say anything? Why play with his feelings-
“Isn’t it one-sided?”
Aziraphale felt so stupid and hurt- but he couldnt voice that here. Not with an audiance.
“Angel?” Crowley sounded worried aziraphale was silent too long.
Aziraphale turned his eyes betraying nothing.
“Get in the car Crowley, take me home this instant.” Crowley gulped while the others demons laughed.
“Angel I’m sorry Indodnt mean it-”
Aziraphale internally grimaced this was going to play much worse aziraphale stomped away and predictably crowley will follow and he did oelasing.
“Angel- Aziraphale please!”
Aziraphale noticed the other demons follow and scowled.
“This is none of your buisness!” His wings outstretched into the corporal plane and the demons hesktated.
Aziraphale reached into his locket and retrieved a flask “Dont think I wont use this.”
Hasturnscoffed “Your bluffing.” Criwley glanced at him as if he were stupid.
Aziraphale smirked predictibly “I an an angel with my own authority I can and have blessed thks flask with holy water, want to find out?” He began to undo the tarten flask and the others schrried away.
Once settled he levelled his gaze at crowley.
“Get in the car.”
“My dear I’m not mad.”
“Bollocks.”
“No I understand why you did it, I was always happy with what our relationship
Was I never realised you may have been waiting for me, fir me to be honest. The blame was on me-”
Aziraphale goanced up tears in his eyes “Im just so relieved you have your memorys back.”
“Angel.”
“I missed you
“I missed you too.”
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