#i dont know what this says about my luck

[gibbearish]

ive seen ppl saying smth in the wider plagiarism discussion to the tune of "don't worry anxious people, it's impossible to accidentally plagiarize!" and i feel like that lacks a lot of nuance that anxious brains like mine latch on to to just dismiss the possibility outright, as well as a lack of life experiences fueling it.

it is possible to "accidentally plagiarize" in that you can read something, forget about it, then a while later have your brain spit the ideas back out without telling where it got them. so of course you just assume they're yours and share them as such, because That's Where Most Of The Thoughts In Your Head Come From! and it both is and isn't plagiarism, you weren't /intending/ to pass someone's else's work off as your own, i'd even say in a way you were just as much a victim of misinformation as your audience. but you very much so did still resuse the work of someone else, even if you don't remember it.

but in my experience, this kind of thing also happens to a lot of people. you tell a friend a joke then wake up in a cold sweat two days later realizing the reason they didnt laugh was because they'd told you that joke a month ago. you reply to a friend's text and after sending you realized you ended it with the same exact phrase as theirs. you're writing edgy poetry and write a line you really like only to see it in a text post two days later saying youve already liked the post. like, it happens. so if it DOES happens and you're just honest and explain, people will understand. something like "oh shit im sorry, i totally have read that, i mustve forgotten and only remembered bits and pieces and just thought they were mine. thank you for letting me know and for the source" works wonders.

people know you can forget things. people won't automatically doubt your apology just because all true plagiarists say it was accidental. HOPEFULLY people can understand the nuance between a genuine remorseful explanation, and a thief who hoped no one would find out scrambling for excuses for why they did it. and those who can't, that's a them problem, not a you problem, you've taken responsibility for your actions as much as you can. they think the answer is simple, that the only thing stopping you from saying "yes i did it on purpose, i knew the whole time and deliberately copied them" is shame/inability to admit to your actions. but sometimes things AREN'T that simple, so imo ppl who are shitty to you for not following the script they made up for you in their head should be ignored

#youre allowed to make up scripts for people in fact good luck stopping yourself since thats kinda just part of how conversation works #is you try to predict how your audience will react to a certain statement #and my therapist actually encouraged me to practice run stuff i wanna talk about in sessions because That Makes It Easier To Talk About #like who cares if it's rehearsed‚ it's still the truth‚ yknow? #however that only applies to the things /you/ want to say. you are the only one aware of this script and the only one who agreed to it in #the first place which is why you plan contingencies into the script #is because you only have control over one character and can only take guesses at what the others might say #if you guess wrong and they do something different that doesnt mean /theyre/ not following the script #it means /your/ copy was a misprint and you filled in the blanks wrong. so do what good actors do and improvise. you'll get back on script #eventually. or not‚ if your guesses devolved into wildly speculative fanfiction‚ but frankly you knew going into it that #most of your script was guesswork so you should be prepared to have to make some things up on the fly #or see again: prepare contingencies #if your guesswork on your copy of the script turns out to be wrong‚ wouldnt it be sooo handy to have a second copy which follows this #version of events much better? #and if not that one‚ maybe this third? how about this fourth? etc etc etc #but really just. when guessing at what others will say. know that you are guessing and dont hold it against /them/ if youre wrong #sorry ik that wasnt super related to the post itself im just also passionate abt that #plagiarism #james somerton

[bisaster-energy]

im not even done my current kuwameshi fic and im already getting ideas about new ones...

#kuwameshi #give me a sec i'll reblog later with the actual idea but like #WHAT IF UM KUWAMESHI BUT UM. PRINCESS BRIDE AU... #i also have another song fic idea but it's way sillier than the one i have on ao3 #based off you me and steve by garfunkel and oates #i got the idea cos i just remembered when yusuke got back from training with genkai the 1st time and instead of a 1 on 1 date with keiko #kuwabara is also? there? and it's just so funny to me like what. and then they're supposed to all 3 go to the movies together? #AND WHEN THEY GET THERE THE 2 BOYS DITCH KEIKO?? for a mission yeah but she doesn't know that!! #and then yusuke and keiko actually go on a date alone and it gets interrupted cos of younger toguro #and shortly after kuwabara shows up so it looks like he was bound to come across them?? #as far as a i remember the next time yu and keiko get together alone is the day he tells her to just wait and she's like im literally #not gonna wait for you <3 and it was so funny she just walked off lmaoo #anyway im trying to say i wanna make a silly little fic addressing the fact that keiko is like. pursuing her crush on yusuke #but kuwabara is kinda just. always there and it's fun she does like him but it's just awkward #planning on having her ask kuwa to maybe give her and yusuke some time alone like maybe just avoid their next outing #and kuwa is like oh damn :( ok good luck and yusuke shows up to the date and he's like woah wait. where tf is kuwabara? #keiko is like bruh. and she makes up some shit about him mentioning that he felt sick or wtv and yusuke is like ''then y are we here? #i should check on him. i dont think that guy has even been put outta commission by anything but my fist!'' and keiko just follows him #cos what else can she do. and kuwa is fine ofc and yusuke is like bro what gives i thought you were sick and kuwa is dense sometimes but he #catches on from keiko's desperate look and he's like well i got better *flexes his arm* and yu is like i knew you were too dumb to catch #a cold. and he's stupid happy that kuwa is fine and can come with them after all ''hey he's fine ya hear that keiko'' #and then keiko is watching this whole exchange eyes blown wide open and she's like actually i just remembered i have plans #you two should totally go without me tho and yu agrees so easily that it just solidifies that she made the right call #kuwa is looking back at her all confused and she gives HIM the good luck thumbs up. he gets as red as his hair and #yusuke is worried he really is coming down with something

[elegyofthemoon]

me reading through acheron's voice lines just looks like

#avil plays hsr #i got her to lvl 80 today :] #but im also out of energy reserves adkjfaslkfashlkfjhslk #i dont have good relics on her bc my luck there is Ill #and i dont have her traces up either + dont have her light cone #but man...... #its so funny i was thinking about the sorter and im actually surprised she made it to top 5/6? #but thats probably recency effect + me focusing so much on penacony and hi3 reference lmaoooo so that might be it #however after reading her voice lines im like '....ah we have a problem' (<- likes dramatic ass lines for some reason) #all i can here is the distant sounds of 'sora' and weeping (<- its me im weeping.) #im. chatty today about hsr/hi3 idk. #i dont know what i want to say but man. i sure like these games !

[spearxwind]

Thinking about the time i commissioned an artist i rly liked for something and the result was kind of really catastrophic just from the preview image in the email so i just. never opened the actual image

#i dont even know where it is #honestly ive had such bad luck commissioning art of adri that ive completely given up its like an anomaly #thunderclap #fan art my lovely followers and friends have done for me for free: literally the most swagful things ive ever seen #actual for real honest to god art i have paid real money for: worlds most inconceivably off model take #the only exception to this is when ive commissioned my friends themselves #i know this is a mean spirited post usually i dont mind like creative liberty I usually say yeah feel free to interpret my characters freel #but like. sometimes its not remotely the same character #thinking still about the uh. the art i got from [popupar twitter artist] in exchange for one of my adopts instead of them paying money #and they like. did it so off model they just made a whole new guy. the art? yeah it slaps obviously. but thats not my oc 😭 #congratulations thats the worst anyones ever done it!! #this is something i personally try not to do when i do commissions too unless very explicitely stated. 'do your own take' #and also i make sure that the sketch is on-model and the client is happy etc etc #i dont know what it is about some artists where they just go ouuhhh what if i . redesigned ur oc for u. HUH #anyway thats all i gottta say this is a weird post but i think about it a lot #before you ask no im not gonna name names. this is my own personal beef

[andrewknightley]

You know one of those guys that thinks "he is one of the good ones" and is like man every time we talk i lose more trust in you :|

#and is like i wish at least you knew #you arent one of the good guys at all flfkddksksks #i dont know if im the one who is gonna tell you because i just think i have better things to do with my time but i hope you notice dude #is one of those that shits on other for being mysoginist or whatever when he does worse himself and is like #wow can you believe they insinuate i might be sexist.... #and is like yeah man i can believe it #the new thing was me (gay) comenting 'wow shocking i heard this company is funding conversion camps? do you know something about it??' #and he being like 'well good luck finding people with money who are cartoonish evil 🙄' #and is like my man have 1 standar at least what are u saying ToT #this is also a company that kight offer me a job so is like wow dude are u surprised i might not want to work in somethibg like that #and im looking for verification on the info gkfkdkdkododkskskdkdkls #and he was like 'well you worked with companies founded by X or Y also bad so if you think about it' #and is like yes yes everything is evil i still dont wanna work for people who are gonna use my work to be homophobes whats not clicking ??? #cw homophobia #im gonna say it in spanish tio es que eres gilipollas i hoped you had at least 1 standar but i see Not #talks and stuff

[theygender]

The funny thing about playing BG3 right after its release is like. Usually with RPGs I obsessively look up the dialogue for every interaction to make sure I choose the Right Thing but since this game just came out those kinds of guides just... don't exist yet. Like sure I can look up general walkthroughs for different quests, but there's not any articles detailing the approval/disapproval rating for every character on each individual dialogue option like there is for, say Dragon Age, so I'm having to actually fuck around and find out for once

#rambling #my urge to research all the dialogue choices before picking anything is bc of the autism im sure #when you live a life where its very difficult for you to know the right thing to say and you often get misinterpreted #its nice to have a break in a fantasy world where you can know exactly how youll be interpreted and be confident you chose Correctly #if these resources already existed for baldurs gate i would 100% be doing the same thing rn #(even tried a few times with no luck lol) #but since they dont... im actually like. playing the rpg as an rpg for once. and im having FUN with it too #figuring out my characters voice from the perspective of what they would say instead of the outcome i want them to get #making choices with the same knowledge they have about the situation instead of acting as some sort of omnipotent puppeteer #its funny that its taken me this long to just. play a game normally ahdjsksk. and really im doing it against my will. but i like it! #this is also the first time ive actually played something right after it came out #usually i end up waiting like months or years after the hype dies down before i get into it bc i just keep putting it off #playing a new game as it comes out without like a librarys worth of wiki articles to reference is an entirely new experience for me lol #who knew it could be fun? #(AN: the answer is Everyone Who Is Normal)

[skin-slave]

I know this is prob a dumbass thing to be happy about kinda, but I had a long debate over gender yesterday with a conservative Christian bro, and at the end he said I made good points and he disagrees, but will consider what I said. Like 🥹 did I just throw a starfish closer to the water

#idk i dont need a butter cookie or anything #just its so rare to have a person actually hear what youre saying #more and more ive gotten into the habit of asking questions instead of arguing points #i gave my hair category analogy and he was like #thats nothing like gender and you know it #and i was like #ok how are they different #and he didnt have a response but its not like a gotcha its like #thats something to think about later my dude good luck #if you come up with a response and you wanna discuss it im here #hes engaged some ppl with horrible bigotry and was like #nobody will let me discuss it #and i was like you can discuss it #if you cant do it without breaking hate speech tos thats not the subject matters fault #and he was like fine ill prove it #and idk im just #everything went better than expected

[craycraybluejay]

sex and hormone therapy and killing my abusers and doing hard drugs will fix me

#who boutta fix me #its really easy those are the steps #also like turning my therapist immortal #but thats optional i dont wanna see her die tho :( #but um #*flirting* do you fw any mafias aha like do you know any hired guns yk haha like just asking #ive been out of the dating pool for awhile but when i dated i constantly was drawn to dangerous ppl #it was fun! i was like a weird protsgonist with a murderer-o-meter #i kinda hope i see my ex at an upcoming social function just so i can revel in that #i know what they did and its unlikely many others do #i just like the knowing #and networking around #which btw always network everywhere even if its not a networking event #u never ever know when someones skills or luck can be useful to you or when you can pay it forward and help someone else #capitalists dont want there to be upward mobility n ppl try to make networking sound hard #but the truth is its just meeting as many ppl as u can and being polite and friendly #and even making real friends! #also always know your worth skills wise and be able to pitch at just an amateur level #like 'hi i do art and ive been dabbling at my dads mechanic job' #is more than enough #or even 'hi nice to meet you-- you seem really cool what do you do?' #remember not to overthink and just be genuinely curious about other ppl and open and receptive to new social dynamics #and dont write off even the most drastic opportunities #if you need time to think on it just say that #anyway what was i saying #im gonna get better and if someone doesnt fix me i will fix me

[side-of-honey]

Are you gonna keep making content for imaginary friends?

Nope!

#Ive pretty much fallen out of omori at this point #Which isnt to say that ill never make omori content again #Theres still some fanfic fanart stuff i might finish and ofc luck swap #Plus who knows i might get back into omori at some point #But imaginary friends specifically was a big part of why i fell out of omori tbh #It got way bigger than i expected and just became way too overwhelming #plus what happened on reddit REALLY upset me =_= #Thank you everyone for the support! I really am flattered that people would be interested in my au!! But it was never meant to be that big #of a thing and im sure you can understand why i’d get burned out ^^; #Maybe ill work up the courage to make a final post about the imaginary friends ideas i never got to and some art i never finished #But im kinda scared of it blowing up again -w-; idk if thats like. A prideful thing to think or something #Plus i dont want ppl following me thinking im still gonna be posting omori and then get disappointed #Anyways. If you read all that uh thanks ig? Have a cookie 🍪 #Annd if youre a fan of IF im really sorry TwT

[todayisafridaynight]

grabbing the ichi plush by the neck and death gripping it like 'good things are to come its all going to be ok good things are to come' like its a lucky amulet

#snap chats #i didnt even pre order the ichi plush but spiritually i did. good luck charm. #anyway rant time look away from here. Im At My Limit <- i say this every week #I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS WRONG <- lying. my moms home #i just feel terrible again. i feel so awful i gave myself a headache from being upset #do you know how upset you have to be to give yourself a headache just sitting and thinking #that happened when i was taking a spanish test once but i think i was just so stupid my brain actually started to hurt trying to think #i also remember being sad as hell that day tho so....... maybe it was both #everyday it feels like im sad thats so fucked up and theres nothing i can do about it #ALSO IT'S RAINING AGAIN rain never promises anything good unless you're a plant #im working but i should have this done in. idk a few hours #and then its the weekend right.... there's no limitations for sadness though brother doesn't run on a schedule #unless we're talking about seasonal depression but we know what i mean #ew im supposed to go to that con tomorrow i dont even know if i want to go anymore #i just don't want to do anything anymore ig is the vibe #idk i have a journal to whine bout all this in ╮(╯-╰)╭ squeezing ichi plush is a mood tho so im still posting #maybe if i play a lil y7 ill remember theres good things to wake up for.. #also i gave myself another headache OWOWOWOW STOP when will it end #wait let me be sad again because my dad said we'd hang out today or tomorrow #but i just know that's not happening and now im even more sad WEHHH no one loves me etc etc die #sometimes you just need a melodramatic teenager moment i think we're all due that right like once a month #ok i have to stop my head really hurts ☠️☠️☠️

[nirvanai]

having au thoughts again. mix of a yukuto lives au+ another “but what if bibi and the ryuki twins had known each other” au. in this one bibi was adopted into the ryuki family at a young age (the twins thought she was a superhero bc they saw her run through a wall while on a walk and befriended her like. instantly.) by the time she’s 18 she’s gotten an internship with ABIS thanks to her older brother who works there, and boss is the only person who pauses to wonder why she looks so much like mizuki okiura lmao

also bonus doodle of the kids

#my arts #bibi #bibi kuranushi #aini #aini spoilers #nirvana initiative #nirvanai #nirvana initiative spoilers #nirvanai spoilers #i... am starting to get Fic Ideas so i dont think i'll say too much more on details #but the twins tend to call her zuki or zuzu as nicknames #she also gets constant dress code violation writeups from the school #kuruto doesn't know what to do about it so he's just 'yea i cant stop her. good luck' #tfw oldest brother is a total pushover and other brother encourages it- #she also does know how to act all formal and polite. but she hates it #her and yukuto ditch kuruto whenever there's something formal unless he needs the emotional support lskdjfghsdfg

[arthur-r]

had a really good night. feeling a little bit sick to my stomach but what can you do

#met seth from poolboy again today!! twice if you count each occurrence how i did the first time #so i’ve seen poolboy twice and theoretically met seth five times. i mean that’s how many conversations i had so. pretty fucking awesome #however i feel a little bit ill. cause of listening to my recording and hearing how awfully annoying i am #the keyboardists fiancé was actually standing right in front of us and so after the show he talked to us #cause me and my two friends who were there we were singing along to all the songs and poolboy is not a very famous band #so after the set was done the guy was like asking us questions and then he’s like yeah i’m actually engaged to jp from poolboy #and anyway that was really really cool in the moment. i just feel a little bit ill hearing myself talk to him? #like ‘poolboy is my fAvorite band .. ‘ ‘..my favorite song of theirs tOtal is corrections’ #i dont know. i think i’m just dysphoric and autistic so i have to feel bad about conversations when i have them recorded #but. um. i met jp dreblow’s fiancé that’s Pretty Cool. and i talked to seth and he gave me a free CD!!!! #cause i only had a $20 or a $5 and it was $10 and they didn’t have change and so he said it’s fine just take it for free!!!! #this was after i told him that they’re my favorite band and the absolute coolest and that we had seen them before back in january #and all of that. and i did meet him three times that day (shdhdf it’s a silly way to count it) but also got his autograph so. i’m really #lucking out with these interactions. secret to a dream life: have the most random guys who live in your state be your favorite band #it can’t go wrong. these guys are absolutely incredible and i have had so many random opportunities to say hi and be really excited #anyways i have a year of the weasel vinyl from the january show (with autograph) and a good orchard CD from today (free and with lyrics) #and i got a photo with seth today. i’m pretty sure what i said was ‘could i get a photo with you if that’s normal?’ and he said yeah sure #i feel like my relationship with poolboy is like. the opposite of a parasocial relationship. or like the most amplified version of that #cause i think of them as super cool unattainable celebrities but it’s like. some guy with a masters in library science who i’m probably the #first person to have asked for an autograph or a photo or anything like that. but see there’s the funny thing is that it’s both kinds of it #on the one hand i think of them as fancy fancy when they’re just some guys. but i also think of myself as The Only Poolboy Superfan which is #not necessarily true. who knows really. but they’re sure pretty freaking awesome and i sure got to see them today!!!! #anyway i’m real tired but i was really happy to see poolboy today. even though i feel a little bit sick about how i speak and sound #cause that’s not going to change. and it’s not like anyone said anything about it so i can assume they didn’t notice #i just have this creeping feeling at all times that everyone i meet is just treating me nice cause i’m too obviously autistic #like they hear what i say and they hate me and they judge me but they say well clearly something’s wrong with this kid so i’ll let it slide #but hey. some people love me. so hopefully your average stranger doesn’t hate me as much as i’m scared they might. i sure hope they don’t #anyway i had a good night it was really good i’m just being me a little bit. i hope everyone is well i’m about to go to sleep #friends only #i’ll be around in the morning this is my last tag i love you all very much and see you tomorrow goodnight

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

In my job performance review today my boss told me I need to speak to my coworkers with more tact, and consider how things might sound before I say them. Sir I'm autistic. I don't understand tact.

#he did not provide me with examples so i really have no clue what couldve prompted that #he said no one complained about me #so why do i need to speak more tactfully?? #i mean in general thats not a bad idea #accidentally told a friend hes not special when i meant to mean that hes not alone in an experience #so yes. tact may not be my strong suit. i should probably think before i speak #but i dont know ehat prompted him to say it! especially since i dont work with him often #i will not learn tact. out of spite #in fact i will be less tactful when speaking to him #why am i like this #i sincerely dont know how to speak more tactfully tho #in my head it sounds fine so idk how to fix it #but really idk why i got docked points in ny review for needing to speak to my coworkers better #im not actually salty. but im a little salty #gonna try to wake up at 8am tomorrow. wish me luck #i love yall

[strwbrymlkshake]

literalyl insane if my dumb feelings don't go away I'll have to start a normal normal rant tag for him I think –_–

#mine #i feel so bad i havent talked to anyone except my group thats involved in my hyperfixation recently uwagh #i will try to take a break tomorrow. hyperfixation doubled with guy im kind of obsessed with creates literally no time for anything else #im still taking care of myself while being so fixated i cant move for several hours. good on me for that #anyways anyways i tried not to be deranged today. not even fathoming romance atm im just happy i get to be around him teehee #made me rly think about how hes been very chill with everything ive ever said to him even tho i am a little freak . which is uncommon #i am not daydreaming about it because itll break my fucking heart but im content for now i think :) i like hanging out with him #'im normal about him' proceeds to talk abt him on my yandere blog. #im not feeling yanderish i just dont have another place to talk abt this stuff so here it is! bon appetite #im not rly freaking out as much and im good at distancing myself from him. even tho idk if anything will happen im trying to #practice controlling my insane person feelings when around him ;-; im doing good i THINK i havent been as weird #my thoughts around him are all weird and distorted and not quite romantic (yet?) but i know that i just feel comfortable w him #im:) im happy im enjoying. watch him get a partner immediately after this and i go batshit bc that is my freakin luck #well it doesnt matter i had a good time while i could and thats what counts ig . had only a smidgen of hope anyways! but its ok #i am so jaded to romance i am going to accept whatever happens and hope its atleast funny . and he finds humor in it #n i would get to hear his horrid laugh. itd be nice. i like it its very contagious. his voice maxes my brain out in serotonin #he was messing around w me in [hyperfixation] and i really enjoyed the attention hwuwhidhekfn made me flustered #i was saying like Romantic CodedTM things to him and he was just giving indecisive responses but not elaborating . so who knows #im not fretting or anything like its fun its chill i feel relaxed !! very casual stuff am having a good time. he has beautiful eyes also. #hes so talented and knows what hes doing. and hes so freaking smart he knows so much stuff oh my god. #i keep having repeated dreams abt him its weird fjdjfjdk. normal things to say abt ur friend btw. normal #i think his fascination w [redacted] is so beautiful his memory is rly good too. im NORMAL i swear #i like to cause spectacles that are memorable and funny so he pays attention to me more. i like attention from everyone but his is esp. fun #i love my friends so much i tell them that i appreciate them everyday. i hope they know they are loved so much #i probably just love the side of himself he chooses to show n not his authentic true self bc online stuff oh well #tho i do feel if you spend an ungodly amnt of hrs straight with someone then you are bound to know them more intimately #i love doing absolutely nothing with my friends and make our own fun in boredom. reminds me of my childhood #maybe i am allowed to think abt him awkwardly patting me on the head. as a treat #this guy reminds me of a previous love interest too except he doesnt emotionally abuse me or himself and has a freaking soul #💿

[borderlinegerard]

more zoloft please

#personal #my posts #suicide and sh tw probably... #commenting on my posts all he wants but not just manning up and dming me or something... ok #honestly its whatever. besides when ive made these posts ive barely thought about him #if he wants anything to happen he can dm me instead of just waiting for me to do something #things have gotten. better and worse at the same time? #i relapsed like A Lot this week #but im making new friends and things are kinda just looking generally brighter #dont know if that says anything about me not talking to Him anymore.. but im happier #but like if im happier whats with the scars on my shoulders? #i feel a lot different now? #i guess im actually living. but its weird because a lot of the time i still want to die So Bad #so like whats this weird mix of All The Emotions #honestly one of my friends said he isnt picking sides and it kinda makes me feel like shit #because if you arent with me then youre against me. you know... #idk that part is kinda petty and Not a big deal #guess theres just a lot happenijg right mow and i dont know how to deal with it #i think things are generally better but im still in a space of. the world is good but i want to die #idk... good luck charlie

[kingcervix]

I forgot I have a doctor's app tomorrow I was like lol I just need to downplay my ocd a lot if she asks and then I thought about it too much and had to wash my hands so many fucking times. I still feel sticky

#queerhottopic.txt #I need to downplay it bc I dont need any mental health shit from actual doctors.. like yes I actually need it but its a whole tbing if I do #I was like wow my symptoms have been rlly managable lately and then I thought about what I might say and I broke out into a sweat #well. wish me luck I guess #I almost had a panic attack at the sink. I might still have one. eugh #I'm not even feeling anxious so I don't know what the panic is about. I feel so weird rn #and I know what ur thinking. this sounds EXACTLY likr the kind if thing you shoul tell a DOCTOR about #and ur rigt but it's complicated so I can't in this hyper specific situation. but I will be okay (0_o)b don't worry fellow bloggers