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#i dont know and that furstrates me the most
megumisgirl · 9 months
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PLS PLS PLS make a part 2 of gamer bf gumi 😭😭 i really love your stories and this one made me cackle
gamer! megumi x fem reader part twoooo <333
megumi's twitch was blowing up. he was trending on twitter, youtube, and all the other social platforms because of what happened last time. he had to clarrify on his channel that what happened was a mistake and people ate everything he said. from his appology to his new videos, everything. the comments were now filled with, "bring the hot girl back," "she's so hot, makes me gay," "i could let her get me pregnant," yk? usual internet stuff.
"megs, look at these comments," you said, laughing your ass off as you read them out loud. "i bet she's with him because of his big-" you snorted mid sentense, clutching your stomach as your bent forward, laughing so loudly that it echoed through the big apartment. "your fans are amazing."
megumi kept a good job at keeping a straight face, but he's the most monogomous person ever. he would get mad if a guy just stared at you, and now that they were commenting all kinds of stuff just made him even more... furstrated. "yeah." he sighed, his face burried in his phone, reading the statistic reports of his account. you frowned, crawling to him and plopping your legs on his lap that he covered with his hand, caressing your thighs with his thumb.
"is something wrong megs?" you asked, twirling your fingers in his hair, and gently massaging his scalp. megumi wasn't nesessarily the most affectionate person. it took him two months to even kiss you, and even longer to have sex with you. the most affectionate he had even been was just cuddling you when you're on your period, or hugging you when your sad. other than that, his idea of affection was sitting on opposite side of the bed while you read a book, and he played call of duty on his phone.
he sighed, looking up from his phone to meet your gaze. he just nodded, looking at his phone once again. your eyebrows brunched together as you snatched his phone. "hey!" he groaned, you placed his phone on the coffee table as you stradled yourself on his lap. his hands automatically going to your waist and resting lowly, barely touching you, just grazing ever so slightly. his chin was tilted up to meet your soft brown eyes, his jawline sharp, almost slicing through.
"what's wrong?" you asked again, your hands wrapped around his neck as he sighed into the hollow of your neck. his cheeks flushed as his lips pursed into a thin line.
"it's a bit embarassing..." he sighed, you frowned, leaning back to look at him with concern and worry in your eyes, "no no, not that kind of embarassing." he stopped again, sighing deeply before closing his eyes and looking at you again. "i just don't like how everyone is fawning over you. it makes me..." he paused, "i dont know. it makes me uncomfortable, and very furstrated. i don't mean to be rude, but you are one of the smartest person i've ever met, but sometimes, you're so oblivious it makes me laugh." you gasped, making him chuckled as he wrapped his hands around your waist tighter, "but... this... it.." he sighed, his words not forming in his mouth. "i just dont like it when people just say things about you. it's rude and impolite."
you smiled at his words. megumi was usually very mean to you during sex, more dominant and rather aggressive and seeing him like this was new and... nice.
"it's not embarassing," you said, feeling his warm breath hitting your neck as he nuzzled closer to you, "hey, look at me." you sighed, "have you been feeling neglected lately?" you asked. his cheeks darkened as his eyes widened for a brief moment before his expression went back to normal. "megumi!" you said, stretching the vowel to immitate a mocking whine which made him tsk and push you off of his lap.
"stop, y/n." he said in a firm voice, "you're making fun of me and i don't like that. i'm trying to be open here, and you're..." he trailed off, making you sigh, "i don't know." he breathed out, running his hand through his silken raven hair. you got up, walking to him and hugging him from behind, tip-toeing to kiss his shoulder.
"i'm sorry, megumi. come on, i will help you feel a little... less neglected." you grinned. he turned to look at you with a frown, you bit your lip and kissed him lightly before you dragged him to the sofa. "sit here, and come in when i call you," you instructed, "okay?"
"what are you up to?" he asked with a big grin. you had a little something planned. it wasn't something special but just enough to make the both of you happy. you decided to wear your favourite lingiere to surprise him and then you brought your phone, setting it on the tripod and turning the camera on.
"megumiii!" you called him. your heart throbbed against your chest as you looked around the dimly lit room. the candles added a beautiful romantic vibe to the room. the sheets were clean and the room looked fairly beautiful, and with you in the center, it might as well be called heaven.
"y/n, i swear if it's something-" he swallowed his words as soon as he saw you. the seductive pose you striked was in no way shape or form seductive, to be honest, you felt funny in that position, but the outfit, matched with the light innocent make-up and loose hair. he was going insane.
"you said it made you feel furstrated that they were so focused on your girlfriend, right?" you asked, leaning in to grab him arm and pulling him onto the bed, but he just stood there. his legs encaging you, "why don't you take your furstrating out on me?" you whispered, your voice trailing up his ear, leaving goosebumps as his hands gently caressed your arm. "and show it to them." you pointed at the camera recording, and his eyes followed. his cheeks reddened as he looked back at you. he tilted your face by his fingers, placed firmly under your chin and kissed your deeply. your elbows behind you for support.
you felt his hand push you down onto the bed as he hovered on top of you. his hands slid beneath your thin lace dress, making you gasp from his cold touch, he took it to advantage and explored every inch of your mouth that was his. you pulled back for a second, taking his sweatshirt off as he panted again, his raven hair falling on his face, covering a slight bit of his flushed face. you breathed out deeply before you kissed him again, this time the kiss slower. more passionate. more intimate.
you moved your hands to trace his abs and bring his body closer to yours by pulling him with the strap of his pants. he breaks the kiss, looking at you with lust in his eyes and his mouth practically drooling at the sight of his pretty girlfriend all dressed up for him and the fact that it was recording, just added fuel to the fire. god knows, how many times he will jerk off to it.
"this is going to be a long night, sweatheart."
ending in a cliff-hanger because i like it how it is and also cuz i'm lazy. sorry for not posting a lot lately, i've been busy with my finals :( i hope u guys liked this 💗 (p.s. thank you for all the messages!!! they make my dayyy!<33 and plus also, i love the star wars memes ya'll sended 😭)
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asherlockstudy · 6 months
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i dont think rhett likes link as a person that much. the way link has been joking about how "rhett doesnt have emotions" i think reveals more about the nature of their relationship at this point. link has been pushing a lot while rhett doesnt have much to give other than what he know he "supposed" to give. dont get me wrong i think there is affection of some kind between them and the history isnt something you can just set aside and the promise of a duo is still attractive but... imo one of the reasons why link is adamant at annoying/furstrating rhett is that its one of the only clear show of emotions he can make rhett feel for him at this point. its a little in link's head sure but i do believe rhett is slowly realizing some stuff and i dont think its those "gay" feelings that people like to talk about here. i realize im reading into a lot of things but i cant help but feel this push and pull and all these prying i love you's out of rhetts mouth lately speaks to an insecurity that is a little exagerated on links side but also not entirely unfounded. i think you can still have a certain amounth of love for a person in your hearth -whether the idea of them or the history of them or an affection that lingers etc. but slowly realize you dont like the way that they are/present themselves anymore.-its hard to find interests that you both actually enjoy/share that isnt also your job(lol), intelectually engaging conversations are sparse and inequal and sometimes more frustrating than informing etc. which is a very difficult thing to handle on both sides. doesnt have to mean its an end but its just would be a lot of difficult shifts that should be taken seriously and not for granted in the name of promises. idk. this is a little strech and i normaly i dont like to do this but i cant help but feel that. ''i think im supposed to like this'' https://pbs.twimg.com/media/F8TknG0WYAAUOur?format=jpg&name=medium from rhetts new ep could be about this in parts. maybe
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I get what you are saying. It is a thought I used to have occasionally; that Rhett doesn’t seem to love Link as genuinely or that he is getting done with him. Most of the time, something happened that made me feel proven wrong.
The thing about them fighting was also significantly dramatised in the interview - not because it might not have been dramatic at the time it happened but because the interviewers clearly and humorously wanted to play it up. I personally felt uncomfortable with the mildly comedic reenactment of Rhett’s apology. I believe this should have stayed between them or that when it was between them it was definitely serious and so it didn't deserve to be a part of this youtube interview. I mean, you know it’s serious enough when Link is staring and not talking and Rhett is tearing up.
We should always keep in mind all the things that are unsaid because there was a lot unsaid in this case. Link had briefly mentioned this recently, the whole sending an email about needing their friendship to be more of an actual friendship thing. He said at both occasions that there was a warning of “I can’t keep doing this if we are not gonna be actual friends”. The thing is, what was his alternative really? To mess it all up and work solo? As a YouTuber? As an engineer? As a what? This was a huge risk. Link also said he sent this email with Christy’s blessings. Something doesn’t add up. Christy isn’t crazy about Mythical but that would be a huge and tough change if this email caused a breakdown in their friendship. I wonder whether Christy’s self interests were getting in the way of the advice she would be giving in that case. Because a sensible advice would be for Link to be less absolute about it and secure that their business remained undisturbed no matter what happened to their friendship. Unless, idk, things were THAT shitty that Link 'd rather end his whole super successful career. Besides, it is bad when a friend grows emotionally distant, however when this friend is still physically close and you see him all the time and you have based all your income on him, it is unwise and very dramatic to blow it up because you aren’t as attached to the hip friends as in middle school. Welcome to adulthood, I guess. Therefore this doesn’t add up perfectly in my opinion and I would expect Christy to be more like "grow up and do your job without obsessing over Rhett's friendship" than say "You go girl, blow it all up if you are not the best of the besties again", so I once again conclude there was more that made Link felt so invested in the genuineness of Rhett’s feelings, which caused him to feel heartbroken when their friendship was getting more impersonal. The way Link implored for a big talk, for months or even years I recall, for Rhett to open up about his feelings to him is not typical of 40 year old males being friends but, then again, you could argue much of them and their arrangement isn't typical anyway. I could add to my point that in the past years they have been clearer about the frankly quite strange ways they avoided each other outside work but this would lead the answer into paths you are not interested in.
However, Link did not imply Rhett did not have emotions or emotions towards him in specific. He said Rhett does not verbalize or externalize the actually existing feelings. That's what he usually says, though sometimes it seems he is unsure of the nature / genuineness of Rhett's emotions indeed.
Rhett has fought to improve on this aspect throughout the years. It does not always work but there is effort. Sometimes it affects him quite a bit that Link thinks that. It took him some time to realize it but apparently he gave Link a massive tearful apology in which he explained he thought all along that whatever they did was them living this friendship. I don't know if that's 100% sincere but it seems he cared enough to come clean about it, apologize, improve on himself and listen to Link etc So I still think he loves Link a lot. Besides, remember how crazed and needy Rhett was towards Link during quarantine? Also, aside from that interview, Rhett is more often than not the one to whine for not seeing each other many times in a month or Link not inviting him to this or that, or not caring enough for a shared hobby or not being provisional for him as much as Rhett is for Link's sake. Therefore I think we get this idea because Link is so much more open and dramatic about his needs that makes us inequally exposed to their viewpoints and as a result we feel for Link more. But I think Rhett cares about Link a lot. Sure, he is annoyed at him often because Link can cause that to people lol but I think the good emotions and all the past and all he has with him by far overcome some exasperation that might be there. They do have different love languages, too.
As for the song, thanks for the link, I was looking for the lyrics. Had my eyes nearly drop out of my eyesockets in order to read them XD Well, it's certainly an angry song and [MASSIVE EDIT BECAUSE I MISREAD ONE WORD] it’s almost certainly about people criticising them for abandoning the faith and how it still stings.
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kaiemu · 6 years
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I'm honestly not sure what I'm doing wrong. Maybe I'm being once again to self centered. But i can feel ya drifting away from me. I can feel me losing my bestfriend again. I don't know what to do. I'm trying to be more avaible, I'm trying to reach out more, spend more time, try and actually help pay for things because your so fucking important to me. I don't know what to do to help, I know your not doing well, I know that and I can see it but i dont know what to do to help. I'm furstrated because I dont know what else im doing wrong. and I just want to be a fucking good friend to you because you deserve it. YOU are such a GREAT person really, your the only person i dont have to get drunk around and like im laughing the whole time. if im being to emotional i wish you tell me so i can back the fuck up. I also understand why your disapointed in me, man i totally understand cause you see me in a cycle and you just want me out of it cause you know i can't handel pain and ughhh i wish I was just better for you. I just want to be better. Ive never wanted something more in my life then to just stay friends with you. I don't know what im doing wrong. I'm trying to be get better. I just want to make you SMILE fuck. sorry/ i just never cared about someone so much, to the point where I actually want to be better for them. sigh. I just want to help you. i just don't know where to start. I would give you everything I possibly can If i knew it would help you even for a MINUTE. this isn't really about me, this is just I DONT KNOW HOW TO HELP THE ONE PERSON WHO MATTERS THE MOST AND I FEEL LIKE ANYTHING I DO ISN'T REACHING WHICH IS FINE BUT AT THE SAME TIME WHAT MORE IMPORTANT TO ME IS THAT THEY KNOW THEY ARE LOVED. because i really do. i fucking love you. i'm sorry if i was being too much again. i'm sorry I don't know how to help you, I wish you would tell me what i could do. I wish I made more money, I wish I could give you money, I want to help fix your car too. I ALSO KNOW IT NOT ABOUT MONEY AT ALL. I KNOW THAT IS LITERALLY THE LEAST IMPORTANT THING. but i just want to FEED YOU AND LOVE YOU AND MAKE YOU LAUGH CAUSE FUCK THE WORLD IS SO SHITTY AND WONDERFUL AND YOU ARE ONE OF THE ONLY THINGS IN THE WORLD THAT IS WONDERFUL AND DOESN'T DESERVE ALL THE SHITTYNESS AHHHH. /end rant
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These days i avoid taking full length pictures for the simple reason i am trying to hide my tummy. I am embarrassed half the time that 17 months after child birth i still look pregnant. Other times i veer towards anger cause i had lost all the weight just before i fell pregnant ..so what was all that hardwork for. Other times i know cause of my tummy clothes dont fit just how i want them too or i cant wear what i really want and i end up furstrated. Most of the time i am upset at the pain, symptoms and challenges i still face with my tummy medically 17 months after. But you know what .. despite it all.. i am super proud of this tummy it carried and bore me the most goergous, happy, sweet baby boys that a mum could ever ask for. It also tried its best to bear my angel babies. So to my plus size tummy, #diastasisrecti and all the challenges that come with it.. i am proud of our journey together. I am not giving up but i am done being embarrassed, upset, furstrated or angry on this journey to healing, a flat tummy and looking just the way i want to. #mum #motherhood #plussizegal #mumpreneur #carshaltonmum #postnatalchallenges #BeautyofConfidence (at Carshalton, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3jMGKVJzBA/?igshid=k77x3hd7bk83
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yea no i dont fucking get shaladin ships/sheith at all. i was taken advantage of as a 16/17 year old by a 19 year old. it was terrible. our developmental stages were far far apart and i dont understand how reliving that kind of situation could help anyone??? i wouldn't date a 25 year old even as a 19 year old like our development is still far far apart.... and like ive gotten yelled at by a bunch of shippers but hey??? i went through this i know it was bad listen to me
shaladins really don’t know how to listen to things that challenge their own comfort zone, and it’s really furstrating because they keep clinging to the same flimsy arguments that have been taken apart over and over again. it’s clear at this point that most of them really don’t care who they’re affecting by romanticizing pedophilia, it’s just not as important as their ship ig
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afibhi · 4 years
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Hiya !  So I’ve turned 28 today, life gpes on , there is a lot in me , but i dont share it with anyone , nor write it down,, sighs , I do wantto  opne up but hen i shut myslef tight . Clashes with family are on going , guess they’ll never end, but i do know the reason behind them , all of us are different , and they thing is you have to understand and communicate with other person in order to live with them, or else live will be hell or insufferable lol,  Where do I stand right now?
I have turned into a mess, i mean i’ve always been a mess, im trying to fix it .since past few years , in oder to achive certain goals, yes i have to mainatain my schedule  break the walls, build by you , break the barriers, lift the wings and fly , i m not my mother , i m me , i am a different person, , you know what is the most hardest and rewarding ? working on oneself ,once that’s done , rest is easy ,  For now i can ficus on things i   have contorl over, and fix those. fretting over things i have no control over is useless fretting
yes i will write a self help book insha’Allah , I will leave a good legacy in this world  and yes, it isnt that i dislike cooking , it is just i dont like to repate things over and over again , it furstrates me , i need twist and turns , and am fed up with mom’s same old behaviour, now i dont bat an eye lid on what she says , kidding , i do bat an eye lid lol I do show  To display a subtle emotional reaction, such as consternation, annoyance, sadness, joy, but actually i react, i dont like her, she hasn’t understood me , khair whatever. but i should let the hate develop or grow in my heart , it is harmful for my hereafter , allah like clean heart and allah is seeing myheart right now, and i dont feel at ease when i hold grudges, ah ... i do need to learn emotional intelligence, last year i had few goals , this year i didnt write down any ... sad, but ... will continue later insha’Allah , toodles for now 
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preslawsblog-blog · 5 years
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Teamwork
I didnt have any specific role in the team project. Usually im a good team worker and i can see weather to take the leader role or just to be more passive depending on the other team members. In my case two of my mates were really active and i decided to be the passive one because is never good when there are too many ideas mixed. Of course i was giving my opinion but it was all about them weather to take my advice or not. I know that in the head of everyone theres a different design and is just best to stick to one of them instead to mix them and have eventually a mess. In the beginning i was having many ideas but we end up sticking with luckas's idea so i decided to abandon my thoughts and to try thinkin on his basics. So in the beginning there were no roles but eventually i decided to be just a suggestor and advisor instead of pushing my opinion and arguing with others or distracting the overall project. I was having some good ideas with the logo but unfortunately i couldnt suggest them to my team because i wasn't in the UK. I gave my ideas to a friend to deliver them to my group but there was a miss understanding and they didn't get it. And when i got back here the team had already chosen a great logo and i see that was a mistake but i learned from it and i made sure that every other time the team was together i was with them to support and give opinion. I didn't miss no other team meeting and i tryed to be always available weather in the group chat or when they need sth. I did planed some of the group meeting and. Supported the good ideas. That were given. I suggested the idea with the scanning camera and a few corrections on the overall design on the map like colours, unnecessary view ports and stuff like that, i came up with the name and supported the construction as well as a few of the view ports. I also tryed to communicate with everyone and I'd say that at some points i was the link between everyones relations because there was Luckas who was doing the most of the work and Sarah who was supporting him always, i was trying to please everyone and try to get into their mind to see what they wanted to do and improve it,there was that team member that nobody never saw and i don't even know his name and Iara who was really concerned about the fact that Lucas wouldn't listen to her suggestions because he wanted to kinda do everything by himself and not to have a deal with that anymore. I do appreciate the fact that he did really a lot for the project but Iara felt ignored by Luckas's behaviour and there was that point where she got really upset and during the team work she left. I wrote her immediately that im sorry for our behaviour and if she comes back we would listen to her ideas. But she didn't replay until the next time i saw her. Basically thats what i meant when i was saying that i dont want to push my ideas and distract the others luckas was already doing a great job and i wouldn't like to prevent that. Next time i saw Iara i talked to her about what happened and we got to the point where we just have to take everyone's opinion in consideration. She told me about her issue with Luckas's behaviour. I talked to him later and explained whats the problem. He said that it is ok but next time we started working together the same problem appeared again. Luckas was kinda rushing everything too much and Iara got furstrated again. Basically luckas was doing everything his way and Iara was used to that. I was trying to adapt and i was ok with whatever they decide. I was working with her and luckas was in the other room when she told me about her issues with the way Luckas wanted to do the app so i went to him and told him again to change the problem. After that it was all right. Im happy that i helped with that problem. After that we were working better and everyone was giving feedback. There was a point where i lost a track of whats actually going on cause during the holidays i couldn't see them and we didn't have any meetings so eventually i suggested to have a final meeting so that everyone be sure that is all ok but Luckas said that he had done all the work and its all ready so theres no reason to meet. He uploaded all the stuff in the group chat and that was all. Eventually i think that we did well although we had some problems. I think that i was a good addition to the group. The only think i didnt like was that i was insisting on making a group selfie but nobody wanted. 
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