#i dont have a large following

[maigetheplatypus57]

Tommyinnit could announce "Sorry guys, on further reflection I think I'm just straight" tomorrow and I would support him (questioning is so valid and we respect ppl who even dabble in exploring their identity) but he could never take away the beautiful collective insanity of the last 13 hours through memes and jokes and shitposts and "OH MY GOD????" posts i love you guys and this fucking hilarious community so much <3

#maige's posts #tommyinnit #mcyt #ive gained a couple inniter followers within the last day #and now i have a whole wall of notifs full of people i can scout through to find more inniter blogs to follow and become mutuals with #i dont think i ever fully realized just how large and active this community still is until today. man. #anyways sappy time over its time to churn out like 4 annotated reading assignments due tomorrow </3

[thechekhov]

I've just had a very trying time in the comments section and I need to know.

#dont come at me about using the word 'believe' #you know what im trying to convey #no judgement I just need to have a silly little poll #and i have a large enough follower count to want to know my audience #evolution #science #biology #taxonomy

[bamsara]

are you actually cancelling the shipment of the new laptop or was that a joke?

It's a joke but. What if I did auuugh

Making big purchases like this give me anxiety to a heavy level because low key I feel like I'm wasting money and that I don't need it because Arson, even though he's clearly not meant to last a lot longer in that shell and is corrupting and losing files, is still booting up and therefore I feel like I've done this 'too early' and that I don't deserve to get the new pc

Like I KNOW I need it and it will help me immensely but. You know

#ive been saving up for about 2ish years now since arson started showing signs #and hes well past his 'shelf life' but if youve been following me for a long time you know i dont really like replacing things #until theyre practically scrap metal #theres also the thing where if you grow up without a lot of money then you develop the mindset of #'now that youve spent that money you wasted it and also theres gonna be an emergency that will happen and youll wish you hadnt' #'what if you hate the pc' #'what if it ships in broken' #'what if something else happens and it breaks when it gets here' #just anxiety anxiety #i hate making large purchases i have such fears around them #also i actaully am really attatched to arson as a character which makes me crazy but hes like the little dude in my head aka my desk

[vilsoo]

my mutuals (majority that had bigger blogs) have all been dropping like dead flies because of a toxic, pathetic writer on this app that drove all them off. rip to munsonsins, getoswhore, kazushawty, literally everyone. and those that have heen affected yet still continue to stay on this app, i hope you’re all doing fine. but these ppl were driven off all because of jealousy reasons, false plagiarism accusations, death threats, cyberbullying, you fucking name it. we lose so much good works and genuine people on here that created their own platforms for the purposes of consuming fanfiction/writing fanfiction 😐 but since they were being dragged into discourse with a certain someone on this app, it’s crazy how their followers dickride the shit out of that thing and send hate/death threats to them through anon like wowww. 😹

#( ♥︎ ) — messy talk. #tw discourse #now what i don’t fucking understand is just letting the large amount of followers you have getting into your head #becoming all egotistical and treat every innocent writer on here like they’re fucking inferior to you #you are a grown ass 25 year old woman that likes to age up minors and write some fucked up smut about them #imagine having to choose between the struggles of acting like a child or sexualizing a child???? #also #i really dgaf about the excuse of them being “fictional” like #dont be a fucking dumbass and justify that shit to me on anon #cuz all you’ll be talking to is a brick wall

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

You are literally one of the only reasons I'm still partially in the WH fandom /pos

🫡 just doin' my duty sir

#no but fr dont feel pressure to like... Stay #when the interest fades the interest fades! there's no shame in that <3 #rambles from the bog #honestly im not sure if i consider myself... In it really? #what constitutes being In A Fandom! #like... im a fan. i create. but i try not to be... Involved? if that makes sense? #i like to stay in my carefully curated corner and ignore the 'fandom' at large #its none of my business! #i just want to do my own thing and Enjoy this wonderful project! #what everyone else does is! again! none of my business <3 #dont wanna get involved dont wanna be Perceived #sometimes i look at my follower count and feel the urge to fire rent lowering gunshots #and its like... honestly i feel relief that my aus arent like??? Big? #i like that theyre casual! closed-circle! #just fun little side things that arent serious or widespread #i will continue to stay in my corner and simply have a good time #i love not being aware of drama <3 being online is so peaceful <3 block button & filters my beloveds <3

[moeblob]

Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle

#my characters #i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah? #and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind #and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge #if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally #think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me #also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far #she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple #so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot #however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt #for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely #deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c #but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj #so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way #nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all #he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in #like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately #he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have #long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person #and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her #so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock #(fulj agrees)

[emberglowfox]

i often call my dissociation 'autopilot' because it works well as an explanation but my god do i feel like an actual robot on autopilot these days. not just because 'i'm not in control of myself' or whatever, that's normal, but because i feel like the autopilot is beginning to break down. i've been zoned out for so long that it's run out of normal behavior to reference, so it's referencing what was a shoddy replica to begin with, and that results in a lot of oddities

mostly i've been noticing myself happily responding to people without actually even looking in their direction. like my eyes and head will just lock and i'll go a whole conversation animatedly replying while looking in the wrong spot (i'm usually very good about eye contact, or at the very least looking at people). also my reaction time / processing speed is waaaay slowed to the point where i'm starting to get nervous about driving so. that's cool

#cannot figure out what the hell is going on ive been told my dissociation/derealization is largely a defensive response #but the fuck am i defending against now? im not actively in college for a few months i dont have (read: can't find) a job i do nothing 24/7 #i do not feel like a human person. and i USUALLY dont but now i really dont #what if my brain melted into schlock. that would be nice #sparks speaks #/vent #sorry new followers this is the only place employers dont check so its my silly diary <3 #block sparks speaks or vent if u dont wanna see idm

[superbellsubways]

thinking about making a sideblog for doodles or things i just dont wanna post over here for 6k+ people to see bc it can be #embarassing

#i have ideas for flavio related doodles but ik a large majority of my following do not care much about that stuff #i dont wanna force a ton of people to look at my shameless self indulgent things sometimes Fhsjskdj #Like ik its my blog but i prefer a smaller less judgemental audience sometimes ya know #ummmm lalala

[lanaevyssmoved]

Idk what discourse you are seeing I just know I’m glad it’s not me seeing it 😭 but you’re right that what I’ve seen has been sooo biowarepilled. god forbid I don’t conform to the masses in a roleplaying game 🙄 anyways I’m here for u bestie. Holding ur hand while we wish death to fandom

-fuckitwebhaal

ive had anons ask me about astarions quest and the dark parts of it in graphic detail and how i Personally feel about it.. all uncensored and very triggering, ive had them asking me if i agree with people being threatened and harassed for their opinions (on the side of agreeing with it) including asking if i think people getting astarion scar tattoos are evil terrible people who deserve hate?, ive had people try to bait me into talking about astarions racism and calling HALSIN racist and asking me to agree and comment like i'm any authority on these things as a white person, ive had people try to bait me into talking about karlach face discourse when that was everywhere, ive had people tell me im a r*tard for my opinions on astarions quest (that people can do whatever they want in the video game lol), and told to kms for the exact same opinion, AND MORE! the discourse i'm seeing be the anons in my askbox L;DKJFSDL;FKS my astarion hate and me pushing away astarion fans comes from a place of absolute fear because they've been utter terrors to me <3

sometimes i see mutuals comment on discourse they've seen or respond to baiting asks they've gotten too, and that alone tires me out, even if i completely agree with them or they're telling people to shut up and be normal. i'm just tired <3 i don't want any of it anymore

holding ur hand.. please save me

#fray.txt #ask #transprincecaspian #i get told to turn my anon off but i dont wanna lol #i just wanna be left alone i dont wanna have to read this bs #and my mutuals who receive it are usually content creators/gifmakers with XXXX followers so like #its clear it comes from a place of bait #trying to get large accounts to start shit #as a XXXX account too with this url i assume its the same for me as well

[icewindandboringhorror]

examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

#BEGONE!!! *wizard beam blast leaving a black smoking crater in the middle of the tumblr dashboard* #I think another downside to everyone doing everything on phone apps on shitty tiny screens nowadays is the inability to really see details #of an image and thus its easier to share BLATANTLY fake things like.. even 'good' ai art has pretty obvious tells at this point #but especially MOST of it is not even 'good' and will have details that are clearly off or lines that dont make sense/uneven (like the imag #of a house interior and in the corner there's a cabinet and it has handles as if it has doors that open but there #are no actual doors visible. or both handles are slightly different shapes. So much stuff that looks 'normal' at first glance #but then you can clearly tell it's just added details with no intention or thought behind it. a pattern that starts and then just abruptly #doesn't go anywhere. etc. etc. ) #the same thing with how YEARS ago when I followed more fashion type blogs on tumblr and 'colored hair' was a cool ''''New Thing''' instead #of being the norm now basically. and people would share photos of like ombre hair designs and stuff that were CLEARLY photoshop like #you could LITERally see the coloring outside of the lines. blurs of color that extend past the hair line to the rest of the image #or etc. But people would just share them regardless and comment like 'omg i wish I could do this to my hair!' or 'hair goallzzzz!! i #wonder what salon they went to !!' which would make me want to scream and correct them everytime ( i did not lol) #hhhhhhggh... literally view the image on anything close to a full sized screen and You Will SEe #I don't know why it's such a pet peeve of mine. I think just as always I'm obsessed with the reality and truth of things. most of the thing #that annoy me most about people are situations in which people are misinterpreting/misunderstanding how something works or having a misconc #eption about somehting thats easily provable as false or etc. etc. Even if it's harmless for some random woman on facebook to believe that #this AI generated image of a cat shaped coffee machine is actually a real product she could buy somewhere ... I still urgently #wish I could be like 'IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION. YOU SEE???? ITS NOT REALL!!!!! AAAAA' hjhjnj #Like those AI shoes that went around for a while with 1000000s of comments like 'omg LOVE these where can i get them!?' and it's like YOU #CANT!!! YOU CANT GET THEM!!! THEY DONT EXIST!!! THE EYELETS DONT EVEN LINE UP THE SHOES DONT EVEN #MATCH THE PATTERNS ARE GIBBERISH!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THEY ARE NOT REAL!??!!' *sobbing in the rain like in some drama movie* #Sorry I'm a pedantic hater who loves truth and accuracy of interpretation and collecting information lol #I think moreso the lacking of context? Like for example I find the enneagram interesting but I nearly ALWAYS preface any talking about it #with ''and I know this is not scientifically accurate it's just an interesting system humans invented to classify ourselve and our traits #and I find it sociologically fascinating the same way I find religion fascinating'. If someone presented personality typing information wit #out that sort of context or was purporting that enneagram types are like 100% solid scientific truth and people should be classified by the #unquestionaingly in daily life or something then.. yeah fuck that. If these images had like disclaimers BIG in the image description somewh #re like 'this is not a real thing it's just an AI generated image I made up' then fine. I still largely disagree with the ethics behind AI #art but at least it's informed. It's the fact that people just post images w/o context or beleive a falsehood about it.. then its aAAAAAA

[magstorrn]

another thing i rly like about ac valhalla/mirage is that eivor meditates before battles (or a major kill) and basim meditates after them

#ac valhalla #ac mirage #missives #i should not overanalyse this but i will in 3 2 1 #my perspective on eivor so far is that she takes large battles very seriously but she is also acutely aware of the human cost and what #may follow as well as the likelihood of death on account of her culture #you have her discussing what awaits in the afterlife with other characters in the midst of battle #but she doesnt regret things. not that much #what's done is done and in the past #the battle is done and the cost is assessed and the world keeps turning #but basim never has that - he has so much confidence both in mirage and valhalla #'why do you have so few scars' 'i dont get hit' etc etc etc #and in mirage he also doesnt do a lot of questioning before going in for the kill #but he thinks about it SO MUCH... and obviously all of that is key to the story in mirage #idk this probably didnt warrant commentary but i am Thinking

[mejomonster]

What's so wild to me is like. Wille technically hooking up with anyone in Hillerska would've been a scandal. Simply because like. While within the student body it would've likely been fine (the same way all the girls pretty much KNOW it was really wille in the video with Simon but publically it "wasn't wille"), if his cousin August wanted to fuck up his life he could still leak info and hurt Wille. Like... Wille could've immediately gotten with Felice, and any public leaks of a video would still have led to his mom going "We need you OUT of that school and making a press statement." Or if it had leaked to the public they had the party with drugs, which is why getting Alex not to rat them out was such a big deal.

Within Hillerska, in fact, even if he'd been with a boy... if it had been say one of the inner group that knows August, most likely everyone would've kept their mouth shut. Still it would be a risk, because being with a boy means scandal blackmail they can use over Wille if they want to hurt or threaten him to do something (cough August cough). But still, in the grand scheme, Wille could've probably been fine crushing on some person like Alex along with a non disclosure agreement.

But Simon. Simon and his sister Sara in particular are the outliers of the school. Sure, it would be a scandal in PUBLIC either way if anything Wille does at school (that isn't picture perfect) gets out. But Simon is partly such a Risk, because INTERNALLY Hillerska does not approve. They don't want someone who isn't elite to talk to them, sit with them, converse with them. Sara gets off slightly easier because Felice does make an effort to see her as equal, use her own status to back up Sara (and since Felice is queen bee there's no bully pushing back on it the way August tries to push Simon back down if Wille tries to treat Simon as equal), and Sara tries hard to blend in and not stir the pot. Simon gives zero fucks about blending in, about playing nice or tolerating bullying, he is himself pure and simple. And Hillerskas elite little teens don't want to be seen mixed up with a regular teen, and in particular the guy's don't want to look chummy with a guy with zero power (is it fragile masculinity? That they all NEED TO OWN MASSIVE PROPERTY to be respected by each other? need to have tangible POWER which is why season 2 Wille has a pretty easy time pushing August down since August doesn't have any). So for the guy's and their fucked up values in particular? It hurts their ego, to see how HARD they have to try just to get a speck of respect. And then to see Wille, the PRINCE who's automatically got more than they ever will (and who they like pushing down in the hierarchy on technicalities to feel he at least has to conform to be powerful too), to see Wille talk to Simon as an equal? Absolutely unacceptable to them. Even without the crush, just being Simon's friend is so unacceptable to them. Seeing Wille value Simon more then them is like throwing all the hoops they jump through and maintain in their face (much like Wille starts breaking things for August season 2). It was always going to be a massive hurdle for Wille to want to be close to Simon. Not even to the country or the monarchy, but also at a much smaller level. In their world in their school, its not a possibility that their peers can allow to exist. At least not when Wille starts school. (Though ill say Felice and Wille have done a bit at starting to dismantle that)

#young royals #lb #rant #i am too tired and sick rn but. i think theres decinitely merit in comparing Hillerska to society at large #and the elite and the power structures they enforce and self imprison tjemselves in. in order to keep down ALL OTHER people. #and how hillerska is a micro version of that. #and why simon is Such a threat. sara? she is ultimately going the route of: attempt to conform and eventually #be accepted for following the rules and sysyem and become New Money #and we know how that goes politically... #whereas simon is like... fuck the system. im just as smart. i have the right to equality simply by existing. #i dont have to change to deserve that. i WILL punch August for using me. even tho it breaks the hierarchy. #i will let a Prince (symbolic of the TOP of the elite hierarchy) go to soccer and treat him #like an equal to me. not better. no hoops to jump through. no catering to him #politically simon represents a Lot.... #and wille highlights the points as like yhe Elite who is aware the whole system is fucked up and stupid and shouldnt exist #he benefits but he doesnt want to be like Felice and help people climb WITHIN the system. #he doesnt want the system and inequality FULL STOP. so of course he sees simon as #the best moral option. simon represents what wille considers ideal and correct.

[catboydan]

anytime dnp mention ffxiv i'm over here shivering shakign with excitement like crossover? omg they like the same thing i like? in the corner of the room meme like they (phannies) don't even know phil is a mooncat and dan's catboy canonically gets no bitches

#val comes out of hiding #MMOs aren't their thing so I was so surprised when they first talked abt it #i also feel like i have a Duty as the Resident FFXIV Expert in this community to explain shit #and yes each race in ffxiv has two subraces with different background/histories and colour schemes #phil is a Keeper of the Moon guaranteed and I thiiiink dan is a Keeper of the Sun #called mooncat and suncat respectively in the community #mooncats are small groups that live in the Twelveswood and are often outcasts for not following the Elementals' will #(which the elementals will Nuke the Place if they dont' get their way btw. Not a Joke) #so mooncats are often bandits and gridanians + twelveswood residents are kinda racist :/ #suncats meanwhile are very widespread and have large clan-like communities! #they've got a main sire/dad who is F'irstName Nunh who has a ton of wives and lots of daughters. some sons too but fewer #the sons are all called F'irstName Tia unless they start their own clan and become a Nunh :3 #so lorewise dan's catboy gets no bitches. #sure you can name your catboy Soandso Nunh but an adventurer is the definition of Not a Nunh #since a Nunh would be managing clan affairs back home and not Out in the World Doing Shit #also that screenshot would've been taken pretty early in their playthru - the gear is early ARR

[yugiohz]

I won't publish the ask becuase i was asked to keep it unpublished but i still want to reply so:

i agree that i should have worded my post better even if it wasn't meant to be taken seriously so I'll keep that in mind :) language matters and I apologized for whoever i hurt

i still think it's difficult to talk sth like this out, especially when it's just anonymous messages and again, I'm not disagreeing with anything that was said but it's still not that easy to talk this out properly when there is no partner/opposite

like i guess it makes sense that my mutuals and friends didn't read it in bad faith and defended me, but it's also a justified reaction to criticize what i said, which is why i apologized in my final post (just in the tags but i meant it lol)

i have nothing else to say except that I'm def keeping this whole thing in mind :-)

dont rbelog etc im on my laptop i cant disable reblogs

#sth like this happens rarely on this blog so its whatever but i wish ppl would just reply with their blogs on dm me i dont biteee wallah #its much easier to try to communicate and listen to each other in good faith if u have a name or blog #even if thats still not a real identity but i guess u get what i mean #but i also understand that that might put u on the spot as u said this blog unfortunately has a large following so i understand why people #prefer anonymous and unpublished messages i dont wanna drag this out either #just wanted to let you know i read it and i took it to hear uwu #i guess i was irritated that my oomfs read my post in good faith but i cant expect that of random ppl online that's on me #i keep forgetting this is a public site and im a stranger to u guys so next time i will be more careful :)

[floorpancakes]

its about perspective dont look at me

#LISTEN #we used to be a real country #i say knowing tsuba was always the favoured sister series #but COME ON NOW.... #i suppose they both got iconic spots #they should make clamp in wonderland 3 that is just douwata #im joking i love the variety but i want to eat up more holic content yum #unless the holic content is a weird plot twist in rei or something #if the continuation after all that hiatus time ends up being a tsuba fetch quest or making watanuki clow im going to start #punching people #and hitting clamp with large hammers #i love clamp but i have one eye open at night imagining the things that could go wrong with rei #it has to be said #this isnt what this post was about OOPS #xxxholic #i know 99 percent of the few clamp fans there are left are tsuba mains #and that it has always been this way #dont question my actions its ok be not afraid #its clamp i have beef with lol #but also clamp r so cool #but also i have beef iwth them #such is being a clamp stan #twitter repost #rambling dont mind me #**meant to say 99 percent of the holic fans are tsuba mains #makes me feel kinda awkward cause im not a fan of tsuba altho im down to give it another try later #and i feel. mixed feelings as to clamp has handled their connection #especially cause it feels like holic is the 'losing side' and was always less favoured #but thats old news by now it just makes me nervous to bring that up now i actually follow a lot more fans Lol

[suddencolds]

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#delete later #really want to write some oc fic #but i know that a large proportion of people who followed me followed me for gen/shi/n content so i'm not sure if there would be #any interest :') i hope to write more g/ensh/in one day if #i feel like i can find characters i have a good handle on again #but i really want to write original fiction again #it's been so long since i've been excited about writing something for myself #i guess i feel a sort of pressure writing fanfic to get the characters to feel 'believable'/'recognizable' wrt canon #and it's sort of paralyzing sometimes because i get anxious about the writing quality/over if my interpretation is 'good enough' #and that sucks the fun out of writing #i just want to write something entirely for fun where i dont have to be hard on myself #it's just kink fic anyways :( i think somewhere along the line i forgot it was supposed to be fun