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mimiecol · 4 months
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who do you think is the… “perviest” in aespa like ranked? 😭
ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁₊˚⋆ AESPA - RANKED
-> cw : smut , mdni !! , personal opinions, like no boundary here , exhibitionism (??) , cursing , three perv hc for each , fem!reader , nsfw twitter links embedded , wc : 500+
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1 . YIZHOU 𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅
ningning is absolutely the freakiest member, just by the way she carries herself you can tell in her own “bratty way”…if you guys are together, she’s down to do anything you claim turns you on. she’ll ask if you like certain kinks, and then subconsciously puts them in your intimate life…though if you guys have never met, she’s absolutely insane
she definitely has a mommy kink or a ma’am kink, constantly texting you throughout the day if you miss her and what you guys have…she’ll beg you to come over just to fuck wondering if whatever you’re doing actually matters. even when you guys are friends, she’ll call you mommy out of a “joke” not knowing she was genuinely serious
ning 🧡 :
-> i really miss u…wyd rn?? 11:34 p.m.
-> what time do you want to come over? 11:36 p.m.
<- ning i can’t come over, i got workkk 11:36 p.m.
-> ok. have fun ho [video attached] 11:42 p.m.
<- i’ll call off . 11:43 p.m.
she’s a true brat, she will get anything and everything she wants there’s no lie she’s spoiled but you can’t help it. she will find a way to get something, but she’s a brat by liking to get you pissed off, she’ll flirt with waiters and cashiers in front of you when you don’t give her “attention”. she’ll joke in front of you about fucking one of your best friends instead of you
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2. MINJEONG 𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅
minjeong is a down to do whatever person, she even seems like the type to cum by eye contact but i think she has a little bit of boundary, she’s like the closest to ningning she’s just more open to her partner…she probably isn’t down for a one night stand like ningning is 😭😭
minjeong has a bunch of habits, like she definitely can’t help herself when she kisses you…she constantly has to swirl her tongue over yours breathing deeply into your mouth and whimpering softly grinding into your lap, minjeong also likes to grab and stare at your chest if they’re out in the open
a big hair puller . no details needed 🧡
minjeongie 🐾🐶:
-> are u still at work?! 9:45 p.m.
<- yea :( , i won’t be out until later tonight 9:47 p.m.
-> mm okay , i was just thinking about you 9:48 p.m.
-> i thinking ab u after practice.. [video attached] 9:50 p.m.
she has self discovery moments, she probably pleases herself the most out of the group. minjeong definitely has the most toys but barely uses them as much as she would like to. when you’re busy or stressed she’ll send videos of her using a new technique or toy she recently heard about
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3. KARINA 𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅
karina can be seen as “vanilla” but only because she’s not always fond of the idea of “rough sex”, she likes to take things slower but don’t let any of that fool you. she’s a giving queen for sure, i don’t think she’s a pillow princess like the rest…she be putting the work in
as much as i love sub!idol, she’s not that sub though, she likes being in control just as much as you do-she’s just very subtle about it, favorite position is 69 idc, also a tribbing queen 😭…she’s straight to the point about anything
i don’t think she’s “pervy” as much as the others…she just likes to tease, she’s the number one of the group to constantly tease you by hugging you from behind, keeping eye contact for way too long and teasing you when she catches you staring at her chest. she likes knowing you like her chest, definitely an advocate for chest hickeys
rina 🐈‍⬛ :
-> Come upstairs 🥲 [video attached] 10:22 p.m.
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4. AERI 𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅
some of yall might be a little mad but 😭 her energy comes off as a little softer during sex so i can’t see her as being “pervy” she’s definitely sexual but pervy not exactly…
her favorite position is anything that has to do with you touching her chest, she definitely takes focus on her chest even when she wears “revealing” clothes but that’s no issue to you
i think aeri is dominant at times, she likes to provoke you a lot. she will beg in a demanding way for you to come over and fuck her even when you know you can’t…she has a very good way with words she seems vanilla but it’s the way she handles herself
aeri bb 🐞:
-> omgggg i miss you sm 6:34 p.m
<- I know , i’ll be home baby 💕 6:35 p.m.
-> you know? remind me how much you miss me [video attached] 6:42 p.m.
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a/n : i hope you guys liked this, i tried to put my own personal opinions of them…this was lowkey fun so this could be a series along with my winter fic i’ll see, i’m trying to tweak the second fic for it so i’m sorry but thank u for your patience
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narrators-journal · 8 months
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Which physical traits would hxh adult trio, and fetain, and main four (grown up, and if you can add them) like on their S/O?
I, straight up cannot think of shit in the way of strict details. So, I hope these answer well enough. I hope you enjoy, and thank you for being so patient with the answer to this.
Illumi Zoldyck
Out of everyon on this list, Illumi would have the strictest expectations for his future wife. Strong nen abilities are at the top of that list, but on a purely physical level, Illumi’d prefer a soft, feminine figure. Breeding is at the top of his priorities as Killua has shown no interest in letting them near any future children and Illumi’s the eldest. Meaning, wide, healthy hips and a full chest would be his top priority. Likely with a taste for darker, longer hair, he all around prefers his wifely options to be feminine in personality and body.
Chrollo Lucifer
On the opposite end of the spectrum, Chrollo likely cares the least about the physical appearance of his partners. He prefers to prioritize less shallow things, like a brilliant and cunning mind, a selfless streak, good heart, or useful abilities of any sort. But, as someone who grew up in a rougher area, I do feel like he’d be attracted to stable bodies. No one too flashy, but someone with a bit of weight to prove they’re able to take good care of themselves, a sign of financial security, who might have a bit of muscle and can handle themselves.
Hisoka Morrow
Hisoka, meanwhile, is neither picky, nor carefree about what his partner looks like. He doesn’t care for gender, or about chisled, defined muscles or height. Yet, his dream partner is someone with a fair share of muscle on their body. He wants a powerful lover, so he wants someone who takes good care of their body. Toned is the best description for the physical traits he looks for. He wants to see abs and powerful muscles when his partner flexes. He wants them sturdy, and able to take a hit, no toothpick elves for him. Those types are fun, as are the curvascious femmes and top heavy doritos, but he wants a well rounded lover. Strong legs, a tight torso, and powerful arms.
Feitan
Feitan is a sadist, he’s not picky so long as his sadism is met. That being said, his crème de la crème of physical looks is someone on the softer side. Not weak and pathetic, he does enjoy a fight to really fuel the sadism. But, someone with plenty of body to bite, cut, and dig into. The extra weight, in his head, ensures he can cut just a little deeper. Bruise a little darker with less fear of damaging the internals too bad. Is that mindset true? I dunno, but he’d probably think that way.
Leorio Paradinight
Leorio is the hardest one here to guess on what type he’d like. He cares the least about physical looks, he only wants a smart, ambitious partner who knows what they want and is striving to get it. He wants someone on an even footing with him in his goal to become a doctor. Weight, height, hair color, skin color, nothing like that matters to him. Have a good personality and the drive to chase your dreams into reality, and he’s smitten.
Kurapika Kurta
Like Leorio, Kurapika looks more into personality and morals then physical looks. Yet, unlike Leorio, he does have a favorite in terms of looks. If he had it his way, he seems like he’d like a partner with lighter, longer hair. He would like a softer partner, no one out and about to cause trouble, a softer place to turn to when he struggles or faces down a challenging mission for the hunters.
Gon
Gon gave no shits about physical looks in childhood, he has zero care for it in his adulthood. He just wants someone able to keep up with him and match his energy. So, someone with an active, leaner body, with muscles and stamina and low maintenance hair. He’s an active man, running around exploring and fighting, he’d like someone who can match that without caring for long hair or a few scrapes.
Killua Zoldyck
Killua gives no thought to appearance out of spite. His family claims to not be snooty on appearance, but they have high expectations for any of their kids’ partners, so Killua refuses to look at such shallow details. Chubby? Muscular? Tall? Thin? He doesn’t care. So long as his partner isn’t vain and annoying, he couldn’t care less. Save for the small things, like him not particularly liking dark haired partners due to how they look too similar to his family. It’s not like he particularly wants kids though, so he has no reason to worry about them ‘fitting in’ with his family.
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kendrixtermina · 8 months
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The Hamburg Defamation Case Update
To summarize from here:
What was ruled as defamation:
the I dare say obviously fictional 'hearsay' stories from "a friend of a friend who knew a former crewmember", such as the italian man story, the idea that they called it a 'slut parade', Till & richard arguing over some girl. Frankly it's ridiculous they even printed that. Obvious fiction, exaggeration, no one behaved like an actual human, tons of ambulances called but no one noticed?
spiking with KO drops (only ever claimed by Shelby, who was on meds that shouldn't be mixed with tons of booze, kind of caused a mass panic where people who were drunk or saw drunk people (Kayla) retroactively wondered if there may have been drugs involved - plus every single witness has confirmed the “bottles opened in front of guests” thing)
That the parties were intended primarily as sex things / to get Till potential partners or that people were deliberately gotten drunk with the intention to sexually prey on them/ that sex was expected (which is consistent with statements of loads of former party-goers on social media that they were just normal parties where he occasionally hit on someone)
What they're still allowed to write: (in the sense that it was ruled 'plausible enough' and/or 'in the public interest')
that Till may have sex with people in at least potentially questionable states of drunkenness (seems all but indisputable at this point, multiple accounts with affidavits)
that there was a 'system' where people were explicitly 'recruited' to parties with booze and some chance of later sexual contact - hm. Certainly technically true it was the case that influencers or just ppl from the metal scene in the town the concert was in were contacted on insta (also confirmed by posters here) but with that word choice allowed one wonders if it will be sufficiently distinguished from the third bullet point above. 'Inviting people to parties where there may be booze & flirting' =/= 'inviting people with the explicit purpose of perving on them'. There is booze and flirting in most parties, after all, some even have discounts for women.  the main point of row zero was ultimately to have some pretty, rocker-looking ppl standing in front of the stage so it looks good on photos, bonus points if they're influencers or something. So there's nothing per se nefarious about contacting pretty, rocker-looking ppl on insta. I suppose some might find it objectifying to put up attractive ppl as 'decoration' but they're getting free booze, backstage passes & exclusive invitations out of it so no different from being a model really.
This is all just related to the case with Till for now.
The stuff that was ruled defamation wouldn't have been dismissed if it wasn't too ridiculously lacking in evidence to even consider reasonable report, and the criminal investigation will only be stricter about evidence.
So unless some wild new unprecedented evidence turns up now suddenly several weeks in, I think we can confidently say at this point: 
Roofies thing 100% debunked
the idea that it was some bordello-like thing where ppl were deliberately picked to be pressured into sexual stuff, 100% debunked.
& having drunken sex in a hotel room, whether criminally relevant or not, is something any guy can do, so definitely not 'abuse of power'. (that would be, like, making your goons restrain someone or threatening their job etc.) - the moment it's just you & him alone somewhere he's the same as any lowly mortal. (Lowly mortals, of course, can still do ordinary crimes.)
We (or rather, the prosecutors) shall see about the rest, I guess.
Regardless of particular conclusions (I don't think I'm fully decided where I fall either, yet, i dont want to form biased, emotion-based conclusions and get attached to them), at least we all gotta agree that even if they’re guilty of some stuff,  we're dealing with a very different claim and level of potential ambiguity, severity and intent.
Any sane person would consider roofies or being pressured in a locked room to be rape, but drunk (but still walking & talking) is more of a gray zone.
Most ppl would say when someone is full on incoherent or unconscious & this was outwardly recognizable it’s obviously rape but almost no one would say that about being, like, slightly tipsy, and realistically, lots of people have shitfaced sex & consider it totally normal. These are evidently situations where everyone was smashed. No one’s gonna argue that this was the world’s most responsible behavior
So it depends on details & specifics that hopefully will be brought forth by fair judges asking the actual involved people non-leading questions. 
Defamations against jerks is still defamation even if it’s, say, calling a dude a serial killer if he only killed one guy. its not about defending anyone its about truth & logic. 
Far and wide you see people reacting as if the first three points were indisputably true seeing as they have been repeated over and over in the tabloids. Death threats, vandalism, random fans being accosted for wearing t shirts, calling for boycotts of any nightclub that lets them in (ironically with Michael Jackson T-shirts for sale nearby) ... this isnt rule of law, guys. 
They even pulled Flake’s book from circulation on spotify which, like... even actual undisputed criminals shouldn’t lose the right to publish books. If there is ANY way that any citizen can be deprived of free speech, you create an incentive for that to be applied to people one wants to silence. 
You can buy books of war criminals & murderers. You can get the memoirs of OJ Simpson and the Austrian Incest Case guy, for crying out loud!  & most ppl who do that are probably motivated by morbid curiosity & wanting to know how a crazy person thinks, not any desire of “supporting” them. Understanding people is not condoning them, indeed understanding crime is how you stop & prevent crime, so this kind of censorship wouldn’t be ok even if they were guilty. 
Also don’t think for a moment that the labels, companies etc. care so much about morals (michael jackson... still on spotify), it’s about avoiding controversy for advertisers because ads & corporations rule everything and rage gets more clicks than anything. 
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nightswithkookmin · 1 year
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The belief that tae and Jungkook could be together romantically is always something I found hilarious, esp when the narrative that jungkook broke up with Jimin and is now dating tae. It doesn’t add up simply because tae and koo are so adamant on not even shipping themselves with each other.
If Jungkook or Jimin ever broke up I doubt either one of them could date another member, let alone anyone for a long time. I love tae and kook’s friendship and we see how they’re both working on mending that, and this narrative that they’re dating simply because they’re spending time together is wild because we praise jimin for being a good friend and devoting time to those whom he loves and strengthening his friendships, but we can’t praise Tae for doing the same thing without there being that insecurity that tae and koo hanging out means they’re dating 🙃.
Even if jikook are going through a rough patch of whatever I highly doubt Jungkook would turn to tae for anything more than emotional support.
Also, goldy did you get the anchor for the minimoni ship, I got the sails and the motor!. The jikook captains have suddenly stopped steering and are nowhere in sight lol 🙃
Imagine that.
Jimin is allowed to have a soulmate in Tae but God forbid Jungkook has a partner in crime in Tae- even though they knew eachother first.
Glad to see them in a place that if I wasn't so petty I would describe as resembling a healthy dynamic.
It's been a conscious effort on both part to heal and nurture their bond- something that I feel was very necessary giving how the band was coming to- wherever they are now.
Would have been nasty messy to leave things the way that it was, in the state that it was. Sope Season one was everything we theorized it was wasn't it- a moment of healing the cracks.
And just as JM had been instrumental in brokering that peace and facilitating that heart to heart conversation, I believe he's been very much instrumental in whatever dynamic we see play out.
It's what any decent human being would do.
I mean, I think I mentioned a couple times how i felt the band and members had failed Tae- Kook as it seemed none had intervened to mitigate the break down of their relationship and had just stood there and watched their relationship decend down the firery steps of hell.
I'm always of the view- just because two people don't interact don't mean there's something wrong with their relationship.
For Jikook, other than a few moments of pettiness and passive aggressiveness on both sides, I dont think there relationship on a path to the level of breakdown we saw with Tuktuk.
A prevailing theory among tuktukkers during the times their ship was going through droughts was that Tuktuk were dating and were hiding their relationship thus chose not to interact with eachother.
Of course I and many others thought that was BS because Kpop has always been the best place to hide any relationship due to the prevalence of fan service.
Two gay men walking hand in hand down the streets is unacceptable. Two gay idols walking hand in hand down the street is fanservice.
How many times have Jikook or even tuktuk used Army as an excuse for taking private pictures?
It's asinine thus for anyone to claim kpop is unsafe a space to hide a gay relationship.
Granted, whenever such gay couple hiding in plain sight and under the guise of fanservice go over board so as to create suspicions, they recoil and must do so to protect themselves and their careers.
The opposite is true for those with Solo careers. Unless they were actively coming out to let others know of their sexuality, it would be difficult for anyone to clock that they were gay in the first place and the only way one could tell is if they assumed their sexuality, stereotyped them, or stalked them-
Without the evidence of the history of BTS as a band that lived together and did everything together, a person who just entered the Fandom say in 2023 wouldn't know what JM means to JK and vice versa.
Nor should it be easy for them to ascertain the level of intimacy between Tuktuk merely by looking at their interaction on social media.
From such a person's perspective, they probably are going to assume Tae and Kook just seem much closer than say Tae and JM or JM and JK and thus might conclude- erroneously- that Tuktuk are the besties of the group or worse that Tuktuk are real.
And one might take a look at JM's account and in the surface if it assume he's closest to RM, Jin, Hobi, or Suga more so than Tae and Jungkook.
It is what it is.
But none of that is true now is it?
This phenomenon is something that i always felt most newer Jikookers didn't seem to grasp- they weren't there to see the build up of Tae kook's relationship and friendship- they only met its breakdown in in medias res and so arrogantly believed Jikook were the best friends compared to those two.
And I had to explain constantly that that just wasn't the case.
Do I think we are seeing a break down of Jikook's friendship and relationship- absolutely not. Not in the way Tuktuk broke down.
But if in deed they are real, which I believe they are, then now really is the time for them to be cautious in the way they go about things.
We are not the only ones watching them and army are not the only ones hanging around blogs like mine💀
And I don't think Jungkook or JM can hide one gay ship with another gay ship by feeding and latching on to other people and ships.
JK cannot be"hiding" jikook with Tae Kook when Tae is also entangled in another dating rumor with another popular female idol.
Like I said, I just wish those two would behave normal for once💀
By those two I mean Jikook.
They make everything weird before they make it normal🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
First they hug like Jesus is watching them, act shook when the other says anything harmless as if they gave some secret away, drop jaws when they walk into a room with hidden cameras, now they can't even like each other's posts on IG like normal human beings
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You can post on the internet you fell for a man because he is cool.
But try not to overreact over Jungkook performing at the world cup💀💀💀💀💀💀💀
Dude, like that was the world cup!!!
I would be gyrating on the floor😭😭😭😭😭
Same person you claim his sweat tastes like holy water💀
the restraints they exercise when it comes to eachother just gives them away for real💀
But as I said supra, such restraint is necessary post their Solo's.
Hobi recently posted a member and said he was trying to get fans jealous. I think they all know where the hate and vitriol stems from.
And personally, as someone who has had to read countless submissions from antis and sometimes PJMs who claim Jungkook's interaction with JM is what leads to the hate and misogyny JM faces in the Fandom- i don't blame him if he decides on exercising restraint.
We've seen them exercise restraint prior to and after whenever Hybe releases any Jikook related content or content that features mostly Jikook moments like memories 💀
And when we say JM is a private person people just don't seem to understand this concept. He really is a private individual. He loves people, supports whom he needs to support and can openly love on and dote on his friends. That's his personality.
But being private equally means being autonomous in deciding what he wants to do with his account. And this is how he is choosing to interact with Tae, Jk, and the others.
I can imagine how much it hurts them to receive hate from the fans of the people he loves. How much it hurts them to censor themselves in what they say and what they do.
There's a clip from an award show where someone tries to take a picture of Hobi and JM was in the way. He quietly moved to the side to let them have a better view of Hobi- forgetting he is a celebrity too and there were people with cameras trying to film him too or even him and Hobi as well because they ship them.
It's great that JHope is the type of person to support everybody, like everyone's post and try to comment. I think it's just the decent thing to do given the circumstances.
He tries not to let the haters of a member dictate for him how he has to interact with that member which is great.
It ties into the love all seven campaign they embarked on right before their Solos. They know they aren't loved equally.
And I think we've discussed this at length, you and I
These are men with too much free time on their hands. And for Jungkook who used to burrow his head into the sand and shun friends- he seemed to have found the value in relating to others.
Bet the phone rings once these days and he runs to picks up🤣🤣🤣
I mean he wanted to go out with friends during lock downs and all
He's been out and about reaching for humans rather than his phone- it's a good thing.
How available is JM in all this?
Dude is busy supporting his friends, fan boying over Namjoon, and coloring his hair🥺
No seriously, he's busy with his album preparation
And it's so like Jm to immerse himself in whatever thing he does. Nows just not the time to film drunken dance challenges for tiktok🙂
And by the way, if Jhope hadn't forgotten to add his dance to his compilation - I digress.
Jk is being forced to occupy his time one way or the other and I know it kills him on the down low that JM is just unavailable
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He and Tae should keep bonding over their JM withdrawal symptoms 🙂
Just like old times.
Jk: I miss Jimin do you think I should text him?
Tae: no we need to prove our worth. Stay strong. Let him come to us.
JK: but it's been two months bro
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I'm just gonna send him a thirstrap on his bday to let him know just what he is missing.
Tae: 👁👄👁
I'll remember them both in my prayers tonight🤧
Forget tuktukkers they stopped making sense in 1800
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rotworld · 9 months
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So I recently finished reading all of Griefing (despite never having read/watched mha lol). I went in already knowing it had been discontinued so I didn’t have any expectations. I was just wondering if it’d be ok to ask about stuff that had already been hinted at? Like what was the plan WhiteNoiz was talking about? And what did you mean when you said “penumbra is something of a pr disaster for pro heroes”? Feel free to ignore if you just don’t want to get into it or whatever
sure thing. answer ended up kinda long, it's under the cut.
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“the plan” refers to the upcoming ua school field trip to the sabutera public hero training seminars mentioned in chapter 16. this was the big finale event i basically planned to end the fic with. penumbra’s online friends have pieced together that they’re probably the person who went missing from sabutera. they’re getting information about the investigation from midoriya who’s getting it from all might, and there’s some concern in pro hero circles that the field trip might attract villain attention. therefore the plan was to try and use the field trip as a rescue mission. a confrontation between the league and several members of class 1-a would have happened. denki and kyoka were going to recognize penumbra because the way they move and attack has been mostly copied from games they like, including their rogue character in the mmo they play together.
penumbra is a “pr disaster” because they, and their hometown more generally, represent what’s wrong with a hero-centric society. we didn’t have all the character backstory reveals at the time i started griefing but even then it was clear that the league of villains was mostly tragedies. penumbra is another instance of someone locked out of better opportunities because of circumstances beyond their control, it’s just that their case ends up on national television so it’s harder to ignore. it only gets there because pro heroes take an interest in the case, and that only happens because it’d be a really bad look if they ignore it any longer. 
someone gets kidnapped and nothing is done about it for weeks. why? one could argue because other, more pressing things were happening. they went missing the same night shigaraki attacked hosu, and he even went out of his way to stall an investigation. but there’s something else noteworthy in that same section:
—believes her child's disappearance may be connected to the recent outbreak of villain attacks. Local law enforcement was previously unable to pursue the investigation due to fears of a copycat incident after an anonymous tip claimed Sabutera would be the next city to "experience destruction as Hosu did.” Police have been unable to locate the perpetrator of the false report, which delayed the search by forty-eight hours, and now believe the tip may have been a deliberate distraction to impede the investigation —
there is no mention here of pro heroes. the absence is contrasted with an earlier news segment in the same chapter about hosu rebuilding, where the police department is partnering with a “coalition of heroes.” there are no heroes in sabutera. there weren’t even any who came in response to the anonymous tip in case it turned out to be true. this city has been left to rot. nothing happened because no one was looking for penumbra, because people don’t look for you when you’re from a place like that. by the time penumbra’s mother can get someone to listen to her and actually do something, it’s far too late.
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Why I kind of can’t stand Sel/Bree/Nick poly
Let’s go back to my roots, time for a very opinionated several-point discussion.
Disclaimer before we start: This has nothing to do with my opinion towards poly/open relationships/anything besides 100% monogamy in general. I do not have any problem with someone being poly, having several partners, etc. (obviously as long as everyone involved is aware & okay with it too)
I just specifically can’t stand the idea of these three in a relationship together.
1. Sel and Nick. There are just a few problems.
2. Bree’s thoughts
3. Narrative
Sel and Nick
Hoo boy, where do I start with these two. First of all, we have zero knowledge about Nick’s feelings towards Sel. He trusts him, yes. He knows he’s a good Kingsmage. But romantic feelings? There isn’t even an implication. Maybe that’s just because we haven’t seen much of him since Legendborn, but seriously. It came up with Sel maybe less than a month after he was hunting her down. It would have come up by now.
Yes, the moment they reunite in the blood walk feels like it could point to that… but come on. They’ve lived together for how many years, and they’re suddenly apart? Of course it’s a massive reaction. Even if you hated that person it would be a massive reaction. You’ve felt their fear or anger with no sign of where it came from and knew the other could die at any point.
But yeah. No tangible hints that Nick actually likes Sel that way. Which leads me to my next point-If you say it’s still a possibility, you’re saying Sel lied to Bree.
“My feelings for Nicholas run deep, but not in that direction. Not anymore.”
So… explain. I’ve heard a few people saying maybe he’s just pushed it down so far he doesn’t realize they’re still there. But even then, why would he spend any effort chasing a childhood crush when Bree’s a thousand times better than Nick in every way so much kinder to him? When she’s already pretty much in love with him? When he’s sacrificed so much for her? Why try to get Nick involved when it’s honestly easier and healthier without him?
I won’t claim Nick’s abusive or toxic for using the bond against Sel. Because Sel misuses it too. Neither of them are innocent. And they’ve both hurt each other in ways they really shouldn’t have. But that probably wouldn’t stop on either end just because they’re romantically involved. Anger and an ability to uniquely hurt someone is a dangerous combination. (Not saying ‘well they’re awful and abuse each other constantly.’ It seems to be not usual for either of them. But I’m saying that when tensions run high, they’re both willing to misuse the bond to make the other one suffer.)
Bree’s Inner Thoughts
If Bree seemed to want a poly situation-or even thought anything about how she wants both of them, doesn’t want to choose, whatever-I’d be a bit more willing to accept this. But any time she considers that she has two love interests… it’s presented, even in her head, as either/or. As ‘I can have Nick, or I can have Sel, and eventually I will have to decide.’ I would pick out quotes, but I seriously still haven’t found Bloodmarked and I’m not confident enough to get those quotes from memory. Sel is really the only one who seems to consider any kind of non-monogamy, and that’s much closer to ‘open relationship’ than ‘true’ poly. (Also requires a bit of reading between the lines.)
“Do you truly think Nicholas would begrudge us this? After everything?”
So maybe Sel thinks it shouldn’t have to be either Option 1 or Option 2. But Bree still doesn’t, even after he implies Nick wouldn’t mind. Practically every scene with romantic tension between them (so basically all of them), she’s thinking but what do I tell Nick, how far is it okay to go, this is wrong because I’m already with Nick.
…And sure, you can explain that away too-maybe she just doesn’t even realize that’s a thing you can do, maybe she doesn’t know how Nick would feel about that, whatever. But you’d think if Tracy’s planning OT3, or wants it to be something we genuinely might have, there would be more than a few insinuations.
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This is gonna be a bit more theorizing about LB3. And I hope I don’t reread this after it comes out and think oh wow I got everything wrong, but let’s go. PSA that I’m fully aware my takes might be absolutely terrible and probably nothing close to this will happen, but I do love myself some theories.
I’ve already said why I think Nick is going to have some kind of rogue anti-Order arc, but that was on my deleted account (I’m so mad at myself) so might need a review: a main point was that he leaves Sel even knowing that he’s suffering w/o the protection of his Oaths, and that seeing Sel succumb after that would probably make him so fucking guilty. Yeah, maybe he couldn’t have done anything, but maybe that little bit of anchoring to humanity would have been enough to keep him from full demonia. And that taking that horrific guilt of ‘maybe I’m the reason someone very close to me is gone’ in combination with ‘my entire life has been a lie?’ I don’t think he’s even wrong to turn against the Order, and violently. Not part of the Table’s ‘revolution,’ either-just on his own.
Why do I think he’ll go rogue? Well, Sel and Bree are both pretty much isolated. Sel is physically with Natasia, but he’s either trapped inside his head (personal belief-basically he can see everything but can’t actually do anything) or just gone for now, and Bree’s with the Shadow King. Nick is-at least as far as we know for certain-with the rest of the Table. That’s a stark difference from the other two, who have pretty lonely situations.
It makes narrative sense to isolate him as well-and making it fully his choice would put him in a different place than Brel. Yeah, in some ways they both chose their exile, but something forced their hand. If Nick leaves of his own volition, he’s isolated in a similar way but such a different one. (Of course, knowing Tracy’s writing & opinions on villainizing one of the triangle this is probably going to be a search for Bree in some way, with good morals @ least at first-but he does think Erebus took her. The most logical places to assume she would be are Order-related. And he’d have a lot of time for honesty well-deserved anger to fester.)
Now that that’s out of the way…
Again, wild guesses here. But I feel like Bree will have to make a choice at some point of who to reunite with or save first. Maybe Erebus allows her to see one of them before she dies, or she is able to bloodwalk to one of them, or something. Who knows. And I think she’ll choose Sel. Not only because I’m a feral Brel shipper, even though I am, but because she doesn’t know if he’s okay. Nick can handle himself, as far as Bree knows. Of course he’ll still want to see her, and I think it’ll be mutual, but she doesn’t want her last memories of Sel to be taunting from his demon. She wants to see him again. And if after that, she ends up with not needing to choose… yeah, it’s cute that she doesn’t need to ‘give anyone up,’ but ehh. She and Sel have sacrificed for each other. She and Nick are a high school crush. (No disrespect intended for Brick, it’s adorable, I just am not a fan.)
And oh yeah. Imagine how Nick feels after watching Sel unflinchingly sacrifice himself for Bree. After you are worth all this and more. After you are the most stubborn girl I’ve ever met. After she was so so so worried about him. If he can’t tell something’s happening now-something more serious than ‘she is beautiful’-he’s actually blind. And he’s not. I don’t think betrayal is the right word… but I doubt he’s thinking nothing but sunshine and rainbows. Probably a little jealous, at least, you’d think-whether he’s open to poly or not, because he’s gotta be thinking damn y’all could have said something. And again… Bree and Sel aren’t there to explain how things actually went down. Not to even mention that we know from Lord Davis that there is… family history, I guess, of warping the truth when you’re desperate and confused.
I don’t even know what this turned into. That last bit was written at 2 am and I have zero memory of it. But to conclude, BreeSelNick is a fine headcanon. It’s a fine thing to write fics about or draw or whatever you want to do. I just think that it would be almost uncomfortable if it was actually canon. Feel free to debate, correct phrasing of certain things if I’m being an idiot, or just scream at me-
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Jared Padalecki Teases a Dark Future for the ‘Walker’ Boys: ‘It Gets Real Bad’
Damn, son. Even when you are basically sitting in a cell in captivity, Walker has it harder than the rest of us!
Jared Padalecki: I know, I know! What in the world? Who thought this was a good idea?! [Laughs]
How was it filming those scenes? Because for the most part, it’s just you and Gen…and this is not glamorous at all.
It is not glamorous. And it also wasn’t super comfortable. In the clothes I was wearing, since I’m in shorts and my running gear, you can’t put any pads on. So if you’re banging around on the ground or into the cell bars, it’s just you. And I’m getting old. I’m 40 now, so now everything hurts a little bit more for a little bit longer. [Laughs]
Yeah, you might want to quit with the running and maybe just get yourself an elliptical.
[Laughs] I think you’re right. Yeah. I’m actually going to borrow your suggestions there. I promise. I’ll send the receipt to prove it.
Now, it’s interesting the way we kind of see what your captors want out of you and this interrogation situation seems very Black-Ops.
Yeah. We find out, needless to say, that Walker has a target on him…always will and always does. You know, he’s the Ranger that makes the news. And if you were to purely just look at his file, you might think like, “Hey, he doesn’t really play by the rules. Maybe he’s anti ‘the rules,’ as well!” Even though viewers and the Walker family know that that’s just kinda who Walker is: He very much believes in what he’s doing for a living. So yeah a lot of Black-Ops stuff that we continue to find out more about as the season progresses.
So they really are looking to radicalize you in some way?
That’s what they state their goal is. They’re claiming to want something, but in true Black-Ops form, I think we might be concerned that they actually want something else and they’re just going about it in kind of a novel way. They certainly figure that Walker has done training to deal with stuff like this if the situation ever arises and so, they’re playing chess. They certainly would love to break Walker and remake him in their likeness. But if they’re unable to, then they have options, B, C, D, E, so on and so forth.
And if Option B is bringing in Liam, one can only imagine what is after that.
Correct. That’s where it really changes things. I think Walker assumes once he’s been kidnapped that you know, it’s gonna be all-hands to find him and find why he’s missing. And you know, he very much believes in his partner and teammates, that they’ll get him, He’s obviously concerned about missing his daughter’s graduation and not being there for the family and missing these big moments that he’s committed to ever since he came back from being undercover, but he knows that he’s tough and has got thick skin and can get through this. It’s when they kidnap his brother, who certainly has not had the training to deal with that kind of stuff, that’s when everything changes.
How bad does it get for the two of you? Because I’m assuming that they want you to see Liam being tortured.
Oh, it gets, it gets real bad. It gets to the point where Walker knows he has to do something and obviously he doesn’t have a lot at his disposal. He’s caged up and unable to really move around. He doesn’t have any weapons. And they always bring in multiple guys to make sure that they’re compliant, right? It gets so bad that Walker knows he’s got to do something.
They’ve been playing with a lot about the white hat theme. It’s a big part of the marketing art and we see one in this episode…so are we gonna see Walker being forced into “black hat” territory? Having to do some illegal stuff to keep the rest of his family safe going forward?
Yeah. Going forward, he’s having to toe that line that we love playing with in the writer’s room and as producers. That space where he doesn’t want to break the law outright and obviously he’s got a lot of eyes on him right now, not just with [his kidnappers] but within the Texas Rangers organization as well. And so he’s going to have to do a lot of soul searching and find out just how far he’s willing to go without compromising the people he cares about, while also not compromising his job.
I’m loving the fact that Emily is now like his true north that comes to him in times of need.
Yeah. She was always his rock. And so to some extent, he’s kind of been a ship at sea without a sail ever since he lost her. And so in these especially desperate times, I think if Walker could summon her whenever he wanted, then she’d be there the entire time. [Laughs] But she shows up in times when he really, really needs her, when he needs the person he loves and respects the most to bounce ideas off. Emily is to Cordi as Gen is to me.
And how was it getting to those super emotional scenes together again? Saying “Don’t leave me” to the woman you would say the same thing to in real life?
You know what’s funny is that line specifically was not scripted, but it’s what Sam says to Dean in the Supernatural series finale. The exact same words. So I was like, “Hey, I wanna do something here.”
Amazing. And so while you’re locked up in hellacious conditions, everyone else is at the Walker Ranch, getting to play with each other in these big brightly lit scenes. Did you miss getting to be with the rest of your cast?
Yeah! It’s like, they’re having fun, don’t mind me! I’m still over here getting tortured and y’all go joke around on set and have on-stage air conditioning. I’ll just be over here getting the waterboarded. [Laughs] They knew that Walker was not gonna miss Stella’s graduation, come hell or high water. So if he’s not there, something bad has happened.
I also need to point out that fantastic scene between Augie (Kale Culley) and Stella (Violet Brinson) that so mirrors the Walker-Liam relationship.
Oh, it’s brilliant. And we play with that a lot throughout the rest of the season. And it’s really funny because Kale, you know, he’s 17, he’s gonna be 18 in May, and is very much going through what Augie is going through. And so our writers are amazing at understanding who each person is, not just as [a] character, but as a human. And so Kale is gonna be an adult in a couple of months and he’s going through this little bit of “What do I do? What’s the best way?” as, you know, we all do. And that doesn’t just stop at 18. I’m 40 and I’m still trying to figure it all out. [Laughs]
I’m ready for like Trey (Jeff Pierre), Cordi, and Cassie (Ashley Reyes) to start working together on cases.
I know, right?!
There is such potential for a Three Musketeers situation with Captain James (Coby Bell) above all of you and in on it.
Well, well, not to say too much, but I think you might get what you want.
Sweet. Now…for Cordi’s flashbacks, we’re going to see somebody else playing you in the younger military version, right?
Yep. It’s awesome. We have a surprise in store that was a fun…I don’t know what they call it. A casting process, a fun thought exercise? It’s gonna be a great Easter egg but also, it was fun before we even got into casting to go like, “What to do?” You know, I’ve worked with hundreds or thousands of actors on Gilmore Girls, Supernatural, and Walker. And so I was like, “Okay, well who do we know? Who do I trust? And who can pull it off?” And so we have an awesome Easter egg in store.
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Abusive parents will often try to stress you out by citing the most awful and scandalous things that ‘others will think about you’ if you don’t do as you’re told, and it’s not only a pressure and manipulation technique, it’s something that will leave a long-lasting damage.
This is a method of catastrophizing and creating the environment where everyone else in the enemy that has to be pacified by a certain set of actions that might dissuade them from thinking the most horrible things, or worse, acting on those thoughts. After your head’s been filled with all of those horrifying and scary things people must be thinking of you, you will never again not be scared that it might be true, that it could draw from the truth. Being around people will be extra stressful, you’ll look for the evidence of their thoughts, reassurance that you managed to avoid the worst. That you’ll still be accepted into the society, if you manage to look and act exactly how it’s required of you.
The second thing it does, is put opinions, thoughts, and judgments of strangers before your own. It tells you that your own opinion, set of beliefs, morals and judgments, doesn’t matter as much as what will strangers on the street think of you. It sets you up for a life where you must seek approval of people who don’t even know you, who judge you on the first glance and you might never get a second chance with it. What you think doesn’t matter, making strangers like you becomes the priority.
I remember not being able to come out and see another person without immediately seeing myself thru their eyes, and jumping to the worst conclusion. It made being outside stressful, painful, and terrifying. Other people become automatically hostile and potential threats. Navigating the world becomes shameful and scary, and the only solution becomes to withdraw, to stay inside, to not socialize, to not show yourself, unless you’re showing yourself exactly the way you’re told. Which is exactly what the abuser wants.
And the truth is, the opinion of strangers doesn’t matter. The fear of being socially rejected, judged, and abandoned is being used to terrify you into isolation and obedience. Strangers, regardless of what they thought, will never have the courage to come up to you and say it to your face. Only your abusive family members or partners will do that. And the most important opinion of you isn’t the ones that strangers have, or the one your family has, it’s yours. How you feel about yourself trumps everyone else’s opinion, because nobody else has to live in your skin. Their thoughts are not the worst case scenario your abusers are trying to convince you it is, the reality is their thoughts are unknown, and it’s better to stay that way. You can’t know them, but your abusers can’t either, and trying to claim something is the way they say it is, when it’s absolutely impossible for anyone to know? Blatant lies. They’re pretending to be clairvoyant in order to manipulate you.
Strangers don’t get to dictate who you are and what you stand for, just as your abusers don’t have that right either. What you completely forget in this situation is that you are a stranger to them too, you get to form your own opinions, and you get to decide whose opinions you value. Strangers are not tools to be used to manipulate you, and they’re not people who are capable of majorly affecting your life. Any judgment from them should be kept from you, because it’s not a valid criticism of you, nor it can improve your life in any way.
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Rambling about Sherlock, Liam, and Sex
(obviously gonna include mature subjects, but this isn’t like smutty or anything, just attempts at character analysis.)
I feel like I sometimes see people perceive Sherlock and Liam as a pair of big sappy virgins who have never had eyes for anyone but each other, which is cute, but I wanna dig a little into why I think only parts of that are true. 
First off, I do think Liam has probably never had sex⁽ᵇᵉᶠᵒʳᵉ ˢʰᵉʳˡᵒᶜᵏ⁾. He’s intensely focused on his mission, and not just extremely selfless but also self-punishing. Precious, silly man probably feels guilty for even masturbating -- not because of any religious or societal views, but because it’s a private pleasure that benefits no one else and accomplishes nothing. I’ll allow that he maybe might have managed some furtive makeout sessions at Eton, but even then I doubt it, he’s always been too dedicated to his goals and probably spent all his time there actually studying. 
Sherlock, on the other hand, seems to be somewhere in the realm of ADHD or Bipolar Disorder. (It’s outdated, but I like the phrase manic-depressive for him, it just really captures the way his whole demeanor can swing drastically back and forth, especially seen during the Two Detectives arc.) He has a big heart and is actually quite sweet in his awkward, fumbling way -- but at the surface level at least, he acts selfish. He’s constantly seeking excitement, change, stimulation. While he would prefer that stimulation come in the form of mysteries and puzzles to challenge his intellect, his willingness to turn to drugs in a pinch suggests it doesn’t have to come in that form. 
Sherlock is sexy, impulsive, clever, doesn’t care about society’s rules, and is constantly chasing a high of one kind or another. He’s observant and knowledgable. He definitely would know where and how to find other gay men, and he’s perfectly capable of appearing charming at least for a one-off. My guess would be that sex settles somewhere in between “a really good mystery” and “drug binge” on the list of stimuli he’ll work his way through if he’s bored. I would argue that, of all the incarnations of Sherlock Holmes that I’ve personally seen, this one is the most likely to have had sex. 
Moving into less analysis, more headcanon now: the eyes only for each other thing is still very true. Sherlock deletes his partners from his mind the morning after like he does information about the solar system. He’s not intellectually, emotionally, or even particularly physically attracted to them. They provide an endorphin rush and are then kicked to the curb with varying degrees of (im)politeness. Liam is the first person he’s ever been all-around smitten by in every aspect.
As for Liam, I perceive him as some variation of demisexual, or sapiosexual if that term hadn’t been claimed by a particular brand of douche. The intellectual connection is the key that unlocks physical attraction for him. And he’s vaguely alarmed by how much he wants, once he starts wanting. 
So how does this play out when they do start having sex⁽ʰᵉˡˡᵒᵒᵒᵒ ⁿᵉʷ ʸᵒʳᵏ⁾? Well, firstly, not having had sex, even as an adult, does not make one somehow infantile or inadequate. Liam is a grown-ass man, and a voracious learner to boot. He knows how everything works, he knows what he wants, and he’s finally allowing himself to want things. If anything, Sherlock is still the more flustered of the two because he’s not used to having the emotional and the intellectual all tangled up with the physical and it’s weird and overwhelming.
Their whole thing is reading each other, seeing each other, knowing each other; so the first couple of times things are great because they’re just running on instinct and reading cues from motion and sound and expression. Buuuut, they’re also kind of idiots. They’re only just learning to use their words. So I like to think they have some stupid bumbling misunderstandings early on: one thinking, Oh he didn’t ask for that again, must not have liked it, while the other thinks Oh he didn’t offer that again, must not have liked it, and then they proceed to both suffer over the absence of the thing for three weeks before they actually figure out talking. 
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CW: Biphobia, lesbophobia, misoginy
There’s this one lesbian/neurodivergence page on Facebook that I love immensely. She’s funny and talented, and talks about mental health, lesbian/sapphic experience, the dangers of capitalism and importance of trans inclusion, among other things.
However:
She stubbornly and repetitively keeps posting about how the split model of attraction should never apply to any identities outside the ace/aro spectrum; bisexual (homoromantic) lesbians or biromantic lesbians are actually just bisexuals who want to take up lesbian spaces, which should be completely devoid of men. “Words mean things,” and “bi-lesbians” give men more room to harrass and coerce lesbians into relations they don’t want. “Bi-lesbian” is also a transphobic or TERF identity.
She implies that pan people are just bi people who pretend to be woke, since bi and pan are “interchangeable” identities. Using pan might even be kind of biphobic because it implies bi attraction is limited to only two binary cis genders.
She claims that any people who identify as lesbian but have slept with men since (specifically to cheat on their sapphic partner) are just actually bi, and another example of bi women putting lesbians in harm’s way by pretending to be lesbian and spreading misconceptions.
She has talked extensively about this: As a lesbian, she has faced a lot of discrimination and oppression at the hands of the comphet patriarchy, and it’s really important to her to have exclusively sapphic spaces (devoid of men or attraction to them) for herself and the wider lesbian community.
However, I still don’t see why the split model of attraction can’t apply to identities outside of the ace/aro spectrum. The absence of attraction is a spectrum because attraction itself is a spectrum.
Yes, the label “bisexual” is always going to include anyone attracted to more than one gender, or gender(s) additional to their own, in any way, to any varying degree. Bisexuality, by definition, is extremely fluid. So bi-lesbians do, without doubt, fall under the bi spectrum, and they use their understanding of the (non-fluid) "lesbian" label in combination with other identities to create a more complete picture of their sexual and romantic orientation.
But why we should be against labels that further specify where people fall under the bi spectrum? Among other definitions, many “bisexual lesbians” identify as femmes who are sexually attracted to more than one gender but romantically only attracted to women; many “biromantic lesbians” identify as femmes who are romantically attracted to more than one gender, but sexually attracted to only women. Those are really useful distinctions that can help queer women under the bi+ umbrella find community and compatible partners.
I also think it’s important to note here that I’ve rarely seen similar infighting on the internet about bisexual (homoromantic) gay men, or biromantic gay men—who absolutely exist. (Incidentally, no one worries about biromantic heterosexual or bisexual heteroromantic people either, who exist as well—It’s almost as if they’re not interesting enough, or queer enough, to be part of this conversation.)
Of course, the patriarchy has designed it so that men in general are in relatively much less danger of being preyed on by women, so it’s not as urgent for us to rush to protect exclusively achillean spaces.
Additionally, the patriarchy conditions women to seek men’s attention by any means possible. Therefore, many believe it must be reasonable to worry about bi-lesbians. For example:
Maybe they’re just bi women or straight women labeling themselves that way to seek the attention of men who want to fetishize lesbians, hence directly endangering "true" lesbians.
Perhaps it’s just bi or straight women who think lesbian communities are safer (or more fun!) for them to hang out in. Still misleading men and endangering lesbians.
Maybe they’re just plain old lesbians who think that trans and non-binary femmes aren’t already included in lesbianism, so that’s why they think they must use the “bi-” prefix. Maybe they’re just transphobic TERFs!
Perhaps these women just don’t know what the terms “bi” and “lesbian” mean? We should let them know bisexuality is fluid and lesbianism strictly excludes all men, and if they still don’t get rid of their bi-lesbian label after that, then that must mean they’re not only biphobic, but especially lesbophobic as well!
So when it comes to sapphic people with complex multi-sexual/romantic identities, we must man(?)splain and gatekeep in order to “protect both bisexual and lesbian people from biphobia and lesbophobia respectively.” “Bi-lesbian” is, under every circumstance, a phobic term.
Well, here’s my hot take instead: Can we just … leave queer women alone? Let them decide for themselves what their identity is instead of assuming we know all about their lives and mansplaining their choices to them—essentially just bombarding them with our internalised misoginy? Instead of demonizing them and assuming they’re dumb and uninformed off the bat? The patriarchy is bad enough without us attacking our own.
When a person identifies as ace/alloromantic or aro/allosexual, we don’t claim that they’re putting all the aro people or ace people (respectively) in danger of being harrassed or coerced by allo people. Instead, we advocate to educate people on the split model of attraction, the nuanced complexity of sexual and romantic orientation, and the range of sexual, sensual, romantic, queer, and even platonic relations. Perhaps even more importantly, we hold perpetuators accountable for any harassment, instead of blaming other queer people.
If we can do that for the ace/aro community, it’s hypocritical to not do that for women with complex multisexual identities too. Especially since there’s plenty of women in the aro/ace umbrella that we’re already supporting without question.
Which serves as a great segue into my next point: When people try to lump any and all multisexual identities into one label (“bisexual, a wonderful and fluid identity!”), it already shows that they are unwilling to deal with the specificities of the complex multisexual (or polysexual, or bi+) spectrum.
And *cough* that kind of smells like biphobia disguised as bi+ allyship.
It’s true—Bisexuality is fluid, and so has room for preferences towards one or more genders. Because of that, it also works as an umbrella term. Pansexuality is widely viewed as attraction regardless of gender. Again, some people who identify with that sort of “gender-free” attraction may use the more general bi label, others will choose to use the more specific pan label, and both are valid. If a pan person is biphobic, then it’s simply because they’re an asshole, not because the pan label itself is “problematic”.
Similarly, a person’s relationship history (who they’ve kissed or dated or slept with) does not define who they’re attracted to. We can’t just cite that information and claim to know their sexuality. You can have relations with someone (because of comphet, or because of an infinite range of other reasons, both positive and negative) without being romantically, sensually, or sexually attracted to them in any way. Misconceptions, gatekeeping, and misoginy in regards to this is what’s already led to the whole horrible “gold-star lesbian” debacle.
It’s incredibly important that we let people choose the label(s) they resonate with most instead of slapping a label on them ourselves. This includes simply identifying as “queer”, going label-free, using the split-attraction model, and other niche labels that make plenty of ~ traditional ~ queer people pretty mad.
Identities aren’t supposed to be like neat boxes we can fit people into, even though that would make the lives of lesbians easier. (That is, if our ideal world indeed is one in which we assume we have to dumb things down for men.) I truly empathise, but if we don’t give people the basic respect to label themselves comfortably, are we really that different from the homophobes and transphobes that try to force cis-heteronormativity down our throats for the “natural order of things”? Or the biphobes that think we’re always confused and disloyal? Or the lesbophobes that think we just need to sleep with the “right” man?
Gatekeeping just for the sake of gatekeeping will always, always harm the LGBTQ+ community more than it helps us. You can advocate for exclusively lesbian or sapphic spaces without specifically cracking down on bi-lesbian identity instead of focusing first on helping, healing and providing a safe space. (Have you considered: Asking mspec women to leave exclusively lesbian spaces and find other sapphic spaces instead, instead of starting a whole debate on their label?) Trying to box queer women in clearly hurts both lesbians and bisexuals, the very two groups you claim you want to protect.
Some of these lesbian communities would prefer the term "sapphic bi" to be used instead, to maintain the sanctity of the lesbian label from any association with attraction towards men. But sapphic, like wlw, is a broad descriptor more than it is a specific sexual or romantic orientation. Very few people have historically used it as an identity, and that by default renders it less useful—though I still think there is potential there for compromise with wider use.
Still, I think identity-policing isn’t productive. It creates hostile environments for queer, and especially questioning, femmes who are heavily involved with relations with other femmes. Gender is a social construct and never had neat borders, so it’s natural that sexuality isn’t going to be so easy to define in all cases either.
This account is a safe space for anyone who wants to learn, improve, grow, and always remain kind to others. You are free to use the label that resonates with you most to the best of your informed understanding. Identities can change over time. Only you define yourself. I know it’s hard, and complicated. I support you. <3
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You know, I used to assume pretty much everything a comedian says is in character, it’s not real. I think that originally came from knowing my brother, who started stand-up thirteen years ago. In his early years, I used to go see him perform a lot, and none of his stories were true. He didn’t really claim they were true, but he also wasn’t doing character comedy or something obviously fictional like that. He was just making up shit that he thought was funny. So I assumed all comedians did that.
Lee Mack has a part in his autobiography where he says before you start comedy, when a comedian says something happened “the other day”, you think it really did happen the other day. Once you start comedy, you know it really happened months ago, but they say “the other day” every night. Once you’ve been doing comedy for a while, you know it never happened at all. I was on that third stage years ago. Since then, I’ve changed my stance a bit, I know a lot of the stand-up stories that are presented as true probably did happen in some form, we’re just maybe getting an exaggerated and edited version. But they did never happen the other day – unless it’s Daniel Kitson and he says “the other day”, because he does very carefully fact check himself on that and will sometimes stop during a routine to make sure he’s accurate about exactly how many weeks ago something happened. Well enough so I’ve sometimes heard him do routines a few days or weeks or months apart, in different cities and to different audiences so he has no reason to worry about the timelines matching up because these people won’t catch his error, but he gets it right anyway. It’s airtight, something described as “three weeks ago” in one show becomes “six weeks ago” at another show three weeks later. If he's making his stories up "for the bit", that is a fucking elaborate con.
But that’s not, you know, normal. Most comedians don't do that shit. Most comedians move timelines, and any other details, around as it suits them.
I’ve understood for a while now know that most stand-up stories probably at least have a grain of truth in them, behind some editing (of the ones that are presented as true, anyway, not the character or surreal stuff). But I definitely used to think that most stuff about relationship problems isn’t true. I used to assume that if someone complains about a bad relationship situation on stage, that means they’re probably actually doing well in that department. Because why would you put that shit out there if it were honest? If you’re really having relationship problems, you don’t announce it in public. What if it gets back to your partner/sort-of partner/recent ex?
A few things made me realize that that isn’t always the case, the main one being when I heard some of the material Sara Pascoe and John Robins were doing in late 2016. That shit would have made me assume their relationship was fucking fantastic, if we apply the rule that someone would only complain about a relationship on stage if they really are secure in their actual relationship. Except that we know they had a very messy breakup just after that, because John Robins won an award for it.
Anyway, I just got back from a stand-up thing tonight. At this pub near my house, where I’ve been a bunch of times in the last few months. My brother was hosting the night, and… yeah, I can definitely confirm that sometimes, when a comedian has a breakdown on stage because of romantic problems, that shit’s real. He is having an actual breakdown. And he had a breakdown on stage. And he told the audience that his breakdown was related to a recent breakup. And that was true. Though the fact that he said it in public is unlikely to get back to her, because 1) it was a small pub, and 2) she lives in Mexico. Or possibly Scotland. Sometimes she's in one and sometimes she's in the other. Not in Canada, though. I believe that was a factor in the breakup. It was a weird situation.
I mean, he didn’t start crying on stage or anything (also, “stage” is the wrong word for the area of the pub where the comedians stand). But I think it counts as a breakdown. If I didn’t know the comedian personally, I’m pretty sure I’d have assumed the breakup wasn’t real, it was just a construct he’d created for a bit. Because he made something amusing out of it. A sort of unhinged performance where he talked about being too sad to make jokes, and he called up a couple of members of the crowd to have them talk instead, and then he created a Tinder profile live on stage and had the audience workshop it with him, and he made it quite fun. Afterward, I asked him how much of that he’d done before, or at least planned. He said absolutely none of it – he just really was too sad to make jokes, so this is what he made up on the spot to do instead. Sometimes it’s not a bit, apparently. I assume these things are always a bit, but I know the real person behind that one and it was real.
I also ended up doing a spot on this bill, and it was shit. Which is 95% my fault and 5% my brother. It was 95% my fault because, you know, I was the one up there and responsible for my own actions. However, it did not fucking help that he’d called all these audience members to right in front of the stage (the comedian area), specifically targeting ones who were least likely to enjoy his weird material, because he thought that would be funny. And he was right – it was quite funny, to the rest of the audience, to watch some people who did not look like the sort of people who’d like that shit (I’m trying to think of a polite way to say this, a way that doesn’t sound horribly judgmental, what I mean is they were well dressed and looked too cool to be at open mic comedy) get drawn into it. It worked less well when I had them five feet in front of me and they didn’t like me either.
Also, I’d been rehearsing my set over and over in my head before the gig started, I’d planned to keep doing that until I got called up, but then I got so drawn into whatever the fuck my brother was doing that I forgot all my own stuff. I stopped rehearsing, I just got so fascinated/mildly horrified/at times entertained by my brother that I forgot I had to focus on myself. So when I did get called up, my mind went blank, I could not remember a single thought I’d ever had.
I managed to recover enough to say most of my stuff, though I left some out and said some in the wrong order and kept stuttering and having to restart sentences and correct myself. I’d made all these edits to the set I did last time and I was excited to try them out, and none of that came through. I barely managed to get through the material at all, so I certainly did not manage to remember the intricacies of specific changes to the wording that I’d wanted to make. I just tried to remember what the next bit was, and then tried to say it with as little stuttering and hesitating and filler words as possible.
It felt, internally, like a complete fucking mess where I absolutely died out there. My brother told me at the end of the night that it wasn’t as bad as I thought, I got some laughs, it was obvious that I was nervous and that wasn’t good, but I did fine, I said funny stuff and people laughed sometimes, so this wasn’t dying. Which sucks, because that was my third time doing a comedy set, I think the first two went relatively well (I mean, they went all right relative to the circumstances of them being my first and second comedy gigs), so this thing called “dying” that happens to everyone who does comedy is still a scary idea that I’ve not experienced yet. Whatever I did tonight felt terrible, so if dying is worse than that – then that’s not great. Which I realize is a pretty impressive way for me to turn my brother’s positive comment into something negative.
Maybe I wasn’t that bad. I won’t know, because I recorded myself, just like I did last time, but unlike last time, I deleted the recording the moment I got off stage (out of the comedian area of the pub). I was so upset about how it had gone that I wanted to instantly delete any evidence. No one needs to know, except the people who were there. And they won’t remember, because they’ll look back on this night as the time the guy hosting the comedy gig spent all his time talking about his breakup and got audience members to come up and help him make dating profiles.
After the show I went outside and hung out with the comedians, mainly because I felt so shitty about how I'd done in my set that I knew if I went straight home I'd just be upset, thought some socializing would cheer me up.
The socializing was a bit awkward, but all right. I wouldn't go so far as to say it cheered me up, but it did make me feel less bad. Another guy who'd gone on that night, and had done relatively well, I'd thought, also admonished my brother for fucking up the energy in that gig, and ruining his set as well. My brother was sad about the breakup. The others were people I've only met a handful of times. They were all smoking (not in the pub, I joined them outside). Apparently pretty much all the comedians around here smoke, and specifically they smoke outside after gigs. I very much do not smoke, and do not love being around smoke, and even now as I lie in bed and write this about an hour after getting home, I feel like my lungs are a bit tight from all the second hand smoke I breathed in. But I'm also quite sure that's psychosomatic, and just feels that way because I hate being around smoking and now I'm paranoid that it's burned my lungs. But I did it anyway because I wanted to hang out with comedians. Some of the comedians were cool.
Anyway, that's been my night. What's up with everyone else? How are all your nights going?
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Wishful Thinking
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From the X-Files Free-For-All Prompt List: What if in Je Souhaite, it was Scully instead of Mulder that unrolled the genie from the carpet. Will she ask for what she wishes the most?
Jenn’s words hang in the air for a long moment. “Did you just say that you’ll make sure that Scully’s wishes come true?” Mulder says, gesturing towards Jenn with one hand as he approaches the women. “I’m not just hearing things?”
“You’re the one who told me to indulge, Mulder,” Scully points out with a smirk. “I might as well, right?”
He makes a face, placing his hands on his hips as he digests his partner’s words. “Alright. What’ll they be, then?”
“Genies aren’t real, Mulder.”
“Scully,” he says, acting scandalized. “How rude.”
Scully turns to the woman, arms crossed. “They’re not real, right?”
She smiles. “You tell me, Dana. Somehow I’m here and yet you didn’t book me a plane ticket.”
Scully shakes her head, beginning to pace. “This is insane. This whole week has been insane. First an invisible body, and now a genie. This is preposterous. Mulder!”
He jerks in his seat and puts his hands up. “This isn’t my doing! You’re the one who unrolled the carpet!”
“Because there was someone inside it, Mulder! It was for her safety!”
“And now you have three wishes to spend.” He stands up and approaches her, forcing Scully to look up in order to maintain eye contact. Mulder grasps her by the biceps. “Indulge. You deserve it.” He gives her a wide smile.
She gently shakes him off, rolling her eyes. “Unlike you, Mulder, I don’t believe in genies.”
“Well, you don’t need to believe in them for them to be real,” he says with a shrug, sitting on the edge of the desk. “What about world peace?”
“Typical,” Jenn mutters.
“Mulder, I can’t just wish for world peace. How are we supposed to grow and evolve if we skip the development and head to the end? Besides, the wish would probably go wrong somehow.”
“So you do believe that people’s wishes are behind the events of the case!” Scully presses her lips together to suppress a smile and Mulder sighs heavily, picking up the nearest pencil to fidget with it. “Spoilsport.”
“Every single wish anybody has ever made has only ever resulted in their lives taking a sour turn,” Jenn says, pushing away from the corner to step towards Scully. “Since you seem to be one of the few with a modicum of sense, I’ll offer you some advice: don’t make wishes for yourself. Better yet, don’t make any wishes at all. Wish your wishes away!”
“How is world peace selfish?” Mulder grouses.
Scully rolls her eyes and crosses her arms, staring him down. “It’s very egotistical of you to decide that you alone have the power to course-correct humanity, Mulder. It’s human nature to want the earth to be perfect in your vision but there’s so much that you would be getting rid of by making such a rash wish.”
“It’s not worth it, you know,” Jenn says. “They never listen.”
“I’m listening right now!” Mulder exclaims.
“Yeah, but I highly doubt that you’re taking anything that your partner is saying to heart.”
Scully turns to the mysterious woman and licks her lip; she may not believe but he’s curious. “We’ve seen some of the people you...assisted in the past. If you’ve been doing this for as long as you claim, you must’ve met some people who weren’t selfish.”
The woman nods. “I’ve met plenty. However, they’ve also all been too poor to think of spending their wishes on anything but their families and their communities. They get excited, too, and wish-happy, in a way. They wish to end world hunger, or wish that they were rich. Can’t say I blame them, but I do wish they’d heeded my numerous warnings.”
Scully shifts in place, nodding as she purses her lips. “That sounds dismal. I’m sorry you had to live through that so many times. How long have you been trapped?”
Jenn looks stunned for a moment that she even bothered to take her feelings into consideration but quickly shakes it off. “A few hundred years. I think I mentioned turnips and France?”
“Ah, yes, I remember.” Scully bites her lip and approaches the other woman. “Since I have wishes, I should probably use them. I’d like to wish for your freedom. Is that possible?” She arches an eyebrow, earnest.
Jenn flounders for a moment, brows cinched inwards and upwards. “I—I assume so. Of course, no one’s ever asked, so I couldn’t tell you for sure.” She smiles at Scully and sticks out her hand, which the other woman shakes enthusiastically. “A tip: the wishes that work better than others are the ones made out of selflessness. And are also the ones that I approve of. The best way I can describe the wish-granting process is that I’m a messenger for some cosmic being that uses me to gauge people. Although, my opinion on things only goes so far.” Scully nods along. “I want you to save this wish for last and make two others. Anything you want. It’ll work, I promise.”
Jenn’s words hang in the air for a long moment. “Did you just say that you’ll make sure that Scully’s wishes come true?” Mulder says, gesturing towards Jenn with one hand as he approaches the women. “I’m not just hearing things?”
“You’re the one who told me to indulge, Mulder,” Scully points out with a smirk. “I might as well, right?”
He makes a face, placing his hands on his hips as he digests his partner’s words. “Alright. What’ll they be, then?”
She hums thoughtfully and walks in a circle, cycling through ideas before settling on two that feel incredibly indulgent to a degree. “Okay,” Scully says, closing her eyes. “My first wish: I wish for the members of my family that They—capital T—killed to be alive. Second wish: I wish for all the ova that They stole to be replaced.” She opens her eyes to make eye contact with Jenn, who smiles and nods. “My third and final wish: I wish for you to be free.”
“Thank you,” the other woman wishes. She reaches up and plucks the gem stuck to her face off, beaming, and throws it in the trash. “Maybe I’ll see you around.” She exits the room with a confident stride, leaving Mulder and Scully in a strange, expectant silence.
“Well,” Scully starts, clearing her throat, “that’s that. We should—we should start on the report.”
Mulder raises his eyebrows at her, mouth hanging open. “Scully! You don’t even want to check to see if your wishes came true.”
“They’re not real,” she says, voice soft and wistful. “Those things still happened, Mulder. It was just—it was just wishful thinking. I really shouldn’t have indulged in your line of thinking. It—” But Scully is cut off by the door opening. A child enters with reddish-blonde hair and blue eyes that appear larger than they actually are through her black-framed glasses. “Emily?”
“I used the lavender spray like you said to, Mommy, don’t worry.”
Scully almost falls to her knees as she kneels down, bringing her hands to Emily’s cheeks. She raises her eyebrows at her mother’s antics, and after a moment, turns her gaze to Mulder, concern in her eyes.
“Mulder... Why is Mommy acting weird?”
He flounders, making his way over to kneel before her, too. “We missed you so much, Emily...”
“I was only in the bathroom.”
Mulder and Scully briefly make eye contact and she clears her throat, both of them bringing their gazes back to Emily. “Sorry, Emily,” she says, and they both stand up. “Mulder will—Mulder can—I need to make a call. I’ll be back soon.”
Scully tries to shoot the two of them a reassuring smile as she exits the office, dabbing at the tears threatening to escape. She locks the door to the bathroom behind her and grips the edge of the counter, mind reeling. After a few moments, feeling marginally more under control, she takes out her phone and dials a number she still hasn’t forgotten, even after all these years.
“Dana?”
Everything comes crumbling down at the sound of Missy’s voice on the line. “Oh my God, Missy...” Scully can’t get anything more out once the sobs start coming full-force.
“Woah, woah, woah... What happened? What’s wrong?”
Scully shakes her head, turning away from the mirror, even though she knows Missy can’t see. “N-nothing’s wrong, Missy.” She sucks in a gulp of air, exhaling measuredly. “In fact,” she sniffs, grabbing a paper towel to wipe the tears from her face and trying her damnedest to calm down, “today might be the best day I’ve ever had.”
Her sister’s silent for a moment, and Scully can imagine her face. “Dana... I actually don’t know what to say.”
Scully laughs tearfully. “Come over tonight for dinner. I’ll tell you everything then.”
“Alright. Stay healthy.”
“I will.”
She closes her eyes and breathes deeply until the urge to cry has subsided and cleans herself up before heading back to the office. Emily is sitting at their desk, drawing contentedly with some crayons Scully wasn’t aware they had, but her attention is quickly drawn to Mulder, who practically leaps up from his seat the second she enters the room.
“Did you call your sister?”
“Yeah,” she responds, looking up at him, and a grin spreads across her face, the elation so overwhelming that she wraps her arms around him. “I can’t believe it worked, Mulder.”
He chuckles against the crown of her head, squeezing her back. “Me neither.”
They part, but his hands stay on her, caressing her face and palming her waist. “Missy’s coming over for dinner.”
“I’ll be there,” Mulder assures her.
Time slows down in his embrace, and Scully pulls his face down to hers, planting a kiss on his lips. “Ew! I thought kissing was only for the bedroom!” Emily cries out, and the two laugh softly as they part.
“This type of kiss is okay,” Mulder says, turning to face the kid, whose face is covered by her hands.
She peeks through a gap in her fingers to observe them suspiciously. “Mommy?”
“It’s true,” Scully scrambles to say, nodding. “Most kisses are okay outside the bedroom.” Emily slowly removes her hands to squint at them suspiciously, but ultimately accepts their explanation, resuming her artwork. The smile falls from Scully’s face as she shakes her head, leaning it against Mulder’s shoulder. “I can’t believe it worked. How many things in our lives have changed because of this?”
“Scully...” he says reproachfully. “We’ll figure it out as we go. Don’t worry too hard—Jenn said she’d make sure your wishes went right.”
She nods. “I suppose I can trust her word at this point.”
“Exactly. No worries, Scully. There’s so many better things to do now.”
“Like bringing Emily to work with us on a Saturday?” Scully presses, arching an eyebrow.
“Apparently so. I mean, the kid seems to be having fun, so I don’t think we’re off to a bad start.”
She smiles and shakes her head again. “It’s a miracle, Mulder.”
“That it is.”
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𝐟𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨   ;    ʙᴇᴀᴄʜ ʜᴜᴛ ᴘʀᴏᴍᴘᴛ !
what are your thoughts on max & dejan’s exit last night? why didn’t you vote for them?
         “ man, was that only last night ?  that feels like ages ago. ”  frankie waits for clarification from the camera crew.  it’s true what they say — a day on the inside feels like a week on the outside. “ sorry. so much has happened in the past few days, it’s just like... the inside of my brain right now looks like you gave a child a magic marker and just let them go absolutely balls-to-the-wall wild with it. ”  last night, she’d been crying about max leaving ( but it was hay fever ), fighting with callie, and then attempting to patch things up with her. today, she can’t even think about any of that, because she was yanked out of bed at the crack of dawn and transplanted to a new villa, with six new people.  “ i wanted to vote for them, but callie wanted rhys and bash. she’s been here longer, she knows the group dynamics better, so ultimately i let her do the choosing. it hurt to see max go, but i trust callie’s judgement. ” 
how are you feeling about the start of casa amor?
        “ honestly, i’m not gonna lie, i still don’t really know what casa amor is ? it’s like, we’re taken from our original partners and given all these new options ?  why not just put them in with all of us ? ”  unless the intention is to see if their behaviour differs when they’re away, like a boys holiday to ibiza where everybody fucks a stranger. but nobody’s official at the moment, so it feels like there’s not that much at stake. “ it’s actually nice to be away from all the drama. i know some of the originals — us, not the vampires — are super depressed about the whole thing, but that’s such a buzzkill for the new people. like, they’re just trying to have a good time, don’t shit all over them because you can’t get your dick sucked. i’m just gonna go with the flow and try to enjoy it, because you never know when you’re gonna get sent home to florida. ”  
are there any new islanders that have caught your attention? who?
      “ yeah, but more in a you seem fun to hang out with way than in a damn girl way. val’s sexy, mali’s cool, layla has a good vibe. even phoebe, which shocked me, because i did cheer in high school and had a really bad experience that basically scarred me for life. you ever see the movie easy a ?  it was like that but with cheerleaders. but phoebe’s not a bitch. uh... who else ?  miles caught my attention, mostly because he blundered through his introduction. ”  frankie’s snort-laughing as she attempts an impression. “ hi, i’m... smoking hot ! ”   she’s definitely not gonna let that one go.  “ but it was actually really endearing. he’s hot, he’s made it pretty clear he thinks i’m hot, and josh said he’s into me and that i should give him a shot. jury’s still out on whether i will. ” shrugging her shoulders, she bites down on her lip. “ i’m not actively looking to get to know someone, because i’m very happy in my current couple. but if somebody stumbles into my eyeline and there’s a vibe ?  i’m not going to shut anything down before i decide it’s run its course. ”
are there any new islanders you don’t see yourself vibing with?
     “ adela, which is a bummer because she’s super cute, but i can already tell she doesn’t like me and has like a wasp in her vag about it. i don’t know if she feels threatened because the title of resident sporty good time girl has already been claimed, or if she just hates the fact that everyone wants to fuck me, but it sounds like a her problem. i’m not getting involved. take it up with the ofcom therapist, dude. ”
do you think that your head could be turned?
        frankie purses her lips, considering her answer ( which is more than she’s done for any of the other questions ).  “ honestly, not really. i think they’d have to graft really hard to turn my head. callie and i have a good thing going, i’m excited to see if it becomes more than what it is. but at the same time, it’s been four days, and i said i wanted to keep my options open so... i’m not gonna shoot anyone down on day one. if they want to put their grafting boots on, they’re welcome to — who am i to stop people from telling me i’m sexy — but yeah, i don’t know if anyone else will have that same intensity and that chemistry with me that callie does. ” 
what do you think your ‘other half’ is up to in the other villa right now? how are you feeling about them?
    “ oh man, callie is gonna be so pissed about this. i’m just hoping she takes this as like, a good opportunity. obviously you get tested in the real world. people will hit on me, people will hit on her, sometimes we’ll want to explore that, and we’ll have to navigate that as a couple if this is going to work. ”  all of that’s true, and it doesn’t help that probably six out of six bombshells will be attempting to whistle careless whisper against callie’s snatch, but frankie has faith. “ selfishly, i hope she isn’t currently dry-humping some random from michigan, but i don’t put it past the bombshells not to lay it on like war paint. callie’s the fittest girl in there, she’s got a good heart, and she’s popular with viewers. i wanted her enough to steal her, so why wouldn’t they ?  i just hope she decides that i’m worth the trouble of sticking around. ”  
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SURPRISE BITCH THREE LIVEBLOGS IN ONE DAY!! this time it’s the first part of ch3′s daily life :3
-we missed the end of day nine! maki strangled kokichi, and then we cut to the next day where he takes everyone to her lab. i presume they talked maki down and then all went to bed.
-maki’s assassin cloak is sick i will not be taking questions
-”kokichi...you learned that from the motive video, right? monokuma said everyone’s ultimate talent at the beginning of their video. ryoma knew maki’s true identity because he had her motive video...and, because you saw that-” “hm? i knew the whole time. given my position, i’d obviously know before any of you, right?” “your “position”?” “oh...don’t worry about it. that was a lie.” alright, given he’s been claiming maki kills people since ch1 and this is like...the fourth time he’s said he’s already knew, i feel ok saying he’s lying about this being a lie. what’s most interesting to me, though, is the comment about his “position” - more material for my season 52 sacrifice kokichi pinboard 👀?
-”gonta, you should stand back. nothing good ever happens when you try to help.” K O K I C H I. look i understand that gonta’s version of help is mostly to fling himself onto the sacrificial altar, and also that being openly nice to anyone = being fucking murdered by the mastermind in kokichi’s head, but none of this changes my desire to WRING HIS FUCKING NECK-
-i wish monodam’s revolt against monokuma had been more of a Thing instead of a one-chapter joke. bald monokuma is funny tho.
-”but...i’m glad i’m an average citizen. if i ever had a reason to live as strong as kirumi’s...or if i ever lost everything important to me like ryoma did...if anything like that happened, i probably would’ve just cowered in a corner somewhere.” yes, yes you would.
-”kirumi...she, too, had her own exceptional beauty. a crime that was bold, yet calculated...a battle against the truth...brutally killing others for her beliefs...unfeelingly sacrificing the few for the many...and her attachment to life and determination to live! her attempt to escape was so very ugly! it was pathetic! pitiful! wretched! but it was beautiful! i had never before seen such beauty in a human being before!” SIR JUST SAY SHE’S PRETTY LIKE A NORMAL PERSON YOU ARE SCARING THE HOES. (and me!!)
-kiyo’s lab has six floors, which maybe doesn’t make sense with the layout of the rest of the school but is still absolutely sick. i’d be shaking with glee too!!
-[but...who brought all this stuff here? i suppose there’s no point thinking about it. nothing in this place makes sense.] you Could get mad about how this is an infuriating and out-of-character thing for a detective to think, and about how shuichi’s protagonist role prevents him from being the kind of proactive character we see him being in ch1, OR! or you could join me in my “the vr helmets they’re wearing literally force the v3′s characters brains to skim over things that don’t make sense, like buildings appearing out of nowhere and sentient robot bears that can teleport” theory and save yourself the trouble. (i will do whatever it takes to make this game make sense and you cannot stop me. it’s the only way i can stay sane).
-the gold katana is a cute easter egg, and another hint that the mastermind is a fangirl.
-”you don’t have a lot of confidence in yourself, do you, shuichi?” “...what?” “you lack self-esteem...and because of that, you doubt your strength. you seem more confident than before, but i can tell you still question yourself. ...well!? i’m right, aren’t i!? i can tell when my sparring partner is burdened by doubt!” “...you might be right.” “you know what works real good at lifting all that doubt!? neo-aikido!” for one glorious moment, my dream of tenko training shuichi was real, and it took the form of her flipping him onto his back so hard his vertebrae probably shattered <3
-kiiruma maintenance scene sure is a Thing That Exists! shuichi is traumatized and so am i.
-something very funny about all the reward items being slotted into/used on something to open new areas, except for the hammer, which shuichi uses to just go fuckin ham on a glass wall. (monodam even says later it was meant to be a puzzle!) it’s not damaging school property it’s ✨stress relief✨
-FTE time! they picked tsumugi! i love how genuinely angry she gets when shuichi tries to say she isn’t plain. you can take her dignity, her position, even her life...but you can never take her gimmick.
-i may not be the biggest maki fan, but watching her fucking CRUSH shuichi and kaito in training always makes me giggle. 10/10 scene. (also, shuichi does almost 200 pushups??? isn’t this only his second training session!?)
-and that’s the end of day ten! see you next time :]
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Dude croc has receipts. The main issue on radblr is some lesbains claiming that bi women who date men deserve any and all abuse they get because "well you could have picked a woman." Meanwhile aristocats crazy ex girlfriend has taken over her account without permission! Abuse is inherent to both sexes, just more prominent in men. No one deserves abuse, and saying bi women deserve it is biphobic. Why is there such a huge divide here? I'm so thankful irl I've only found solidarity with my lesbian sisters. But on here....half the time it feels like bi women are viewed even worse than straight women who date. Because we should pick women. There is such a thing as biphobia, no one is claiming its as bad as lesphobia or homophobia, but it would be nice if radblr could maybe listen to bi womens struggles a little more openly without just jumping to us "deserving" what we get.
from what ive seen a significant portion of the women who say that about bi women ARE bi women. or even het women. but they’re always assumed to be lesbians and then lesbians are framed as crazy victim blamers over what is at most 2 or 3 lesbians on the entire platform. meanwhile there’s significantly more women on here shitting on lesbians and arguing heterosexual women have no kind of privilege over lesbians and that actually lesbians are the privileged class among other blatantly homophobic shit. u argue that “no one is claiming it’s as bad as lesbophobia or homophobia!!” but yes that’s literally what rantingcrocodile does. you claim “she provides receipts!!” but actually when u click on her link spams a lot of it is twisted out of context or downright questionable based on the results provided (eg: the study arguing iirc that woc have better health outcomes than white women despite this being repeatedly shown to not be true by many other studies) or that one study she linked where it says lesbians earn even better than het women, alluding to some sort of lesbian privilege. she even straight up said she thinks lesbians can/do oppress bi women but when u try to confront her on it she’s like “i didn’t say that but i did but no i didn’t <3” nvm how often she will go after bi women over any little disagreement, the same way im sure she’d go after you if you said to her that you don’t think biphobia is on par with homophobia. or if you’re a bi person who merely says biphobia is a form of prejudice not oppression. or that time she equated lesbians to incels for talking about how hurtful it is when our partners treat us as 2nd best to men or leave us to be with men bc they “want to be normal / want to have kids / want to make their parents happy” etc. yes no one deserves abuse and yes women in relationships with women can face abuse too (i know this firsthand cmon now) and it’s difficult to find lesbians that argue otherwise to begin with. regardless rantingcroc is full of shit and fr rabid. i can’t give her the benefit of the doubt after she wrote a 20 paragraph rant to a 10 word sentence i wrote, blocked me, then claimed i blocked her, and then took that as an opportunity to lie that im an antisemite that lies about being poor for attention. she��s gonna act holier than thou while being that blatant of a liar and lesbophobe and yet y’all will clap and praise her regardless bc u aren’t looking at the content of what shes saying and how she treats ppl. try challenging her on anything and ull see it for urself ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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dgcatanisiri · 2 years
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Setting aside the anger I have at how blatant the misogyny is surrounding the treatment of Amber H*ard in the trial...
I do worry about all of these abuse survivors who are latching on to him, and how... I legit do believe him to be the abuser in this scenario, at least partially BECAUSE he not only is the one playing the “perfect victim” for the cameras, but he’s also the one who’s pursued this to the point that this is a RE-litigation, after losing a defamation suit in a country where the laws surrounding defamation are a lot more strict. Meaning that a judge in the UK looked at the claim “he’s abusive” and came back with the conclusion “this is not an inaccurate description of his behavior.”
So like... The thing with abusers is that, unless they make an active effort to change their behavior, which, IF it comes, a big if there, generally has to come after hitting rock bottom, something that it’s hard for a person at the level of celebrity that we’re talking about here to really get to, they’re likely to repeat these patterns over time. So what happens when his next partner ends up on the receiving end of abuse? And, to all these people rallying to his banner, if and when he does reveal his true colors in the future... All these people who are quick to compare THEIR abuse to “his”... What’s it going to do to them when they are presented with the evidence that they were siding with the abuser? Worse, are they even GOING to take the time to think about this fact?
Because, really, who believes that any apology will EVER come to her for this? For that matter, I even worry that the judge and jury who are looking into this are afraid that, because of the publicity surrounding this, they’re going to be afraid to rule against him.
That’s not justice.
Princess Weekes on YouTube did a recent video that talked about the blatant misogyny of this trial, and I highly HIGHLY recommend you take the near-hour to pay attention to the whole thing. Notably, she takes the time to debunk the talking points of H*ard as the abuser in this and just... It honestly scares me that we are so blind to the fact that we live in a culture, in a society, that ONLY accepts abuse victims who are dead. “If she breathes, she lies.” The SECOND there was even the possibility of doubt of her side of the story, it became wholly a lie and he was the poor, innocent victim of things.
Y’know, I have heard multiple YouTubers who I’ve watched bring up that they have a story or multiple stories about people who they could bring these kinds of claims against, but they won’t do it, because they don’t want this public circus that just destroys people. And, because of the fact that it takes so little to make the public turn around on the victim and claim they’re doing it for attention, that they’re slandering someone’s good name for fifteen minutes of fame, they rightly fear that backlash.
I wish there were a way to solve this. But this really isn’t something that can be solved. Not by any individual action. It can only come if everyone stops, looks inside themselves, and changes their behavior. And I can’t help but think that if it were that easy a thing to do, we wouldn’t even have gotten into this situation in the first place.
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