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heartorbit · 4 months
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a mob of emus for an artstyle game on twt! ^_^
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blueskittlesart · 29 days
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Feel free to ignore this but as someone who also goes to art school, I find it really interesting how other art schools also have a “don’t date your peers” sort of faux pa. Like so many people I know (including me) refuse to date anyone else who goes to my college 😭
I wonder why that is tbh, small school thing maybe?
being so serious i didn't have anything against dating other art school peers when i first came here and i think most freshmen dont but once you have one or two art school relationships under your belt you realize why all the upperclassmen avoid dating each other like the plague
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oatbugs · 8 days
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pls i need to provide updates
#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year#and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire#and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f#friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl#acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what#are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and#friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after#everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to#invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me#i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother#and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids#so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo#any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd#and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk#THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date#w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a#few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay#scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK#like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl#like is that even doable#but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much#.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us#god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x#but it would be soooo funny#I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed#popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x#i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like#its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe
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whyohwhyohwhy · 8 months
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the barbie movie..... i just don't get it!
#barbie#hate to be a hater#it just said nothing whilst trying to say too much imo#'the kens have brainwashed the barbies!' actually made no sense like tell me how they did that greta???#and how does the america monologue snap them out of that if they're dolls who do not experience humanity#like.. only stereotypical barbie wanted to be more than an idea at the end and so how would the womanhood speech work on the others??#like. i probably dont get it because i was not a barbie girl but !! it did not say anything!!!!#like i'm happy that is was fun for everyone but stop acting like it was the answer for feminism because it simply wasn't#it was fun and funny jokes but whenever it tried to make an actual point it failed to follow through on that imo#WHY was ken the most compelling character in the BARBIE movie???#anti barbie movie#tis a shame and i was looking forward to the polly pocket movie more but the lena dunham announcement that is apparently not a joke?? lol#i didnt get the anti mattel stuff bc like yeah obviously corporations bad but i didnt get how this specificaly showed that in terms of ~art#but now i do lol. corporate movies should not try and make real world points#stick to your roots of being long ads made into a bit of fun!#the girls that get it get it and unfortunately i am not a girl who gets it i guess#also.. the ending!! was the gynaecologist gag simply a silly gag or was it a weird gender essentialist point abt womanhood??#i couldn't tell u bc most of the film felt like it couldnt decide whether to be a silly joke or an attempt at a important point tm#to clarify i 100% do not think greta gerwig meant it as a gender essentialist point BUT#i did find it weird how the end of the movie was made into motherhood/womanhood when barbie is specifically about not being a mother#and there are definitely points to be made about that and how motherhood is not bad and is often inextricably linked to womanhood etc.#the movie just didn't make any of those points imo#barbie movie spoilers#spoilers in tags
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macroglossus · 3 months
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being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED
#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right?????#this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh.#when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like#two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that#time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore#is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and#when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up#and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not#that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on#listening. if that makes sense#IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive#like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!!#idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that#im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy.#epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍
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biblicalhorror · 4 months
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The most frustrating part of engaging in any of this discourse with pro-Israel people is that they claim there's just something ineffable about "seeing and understanding" how supporting Palestinian liberation is directly calling for the eradication of Jewish people (as if that type of rhetoric isn't exactly how actual antisemitism often manifests in online spaces but that's a topic for another day)
They get through people debunking the "the land belongs to the people of Israel anyway" argument and the "LGBTQ Palestinians are safe in Israel" argument and the "Genocide isn't what's happening here so you should educate yourself" argument and when all of those points are meticulously disproven over and over they still stand with "Well, myself and your Jewish friends see the hate you have in your heart for us" and it truly doesn't matter what you say at that point because even if you yourself are Jewish they will claim that refusing to support the state, government and military of Israel is inherently hateful and bigoted, as if a religious ethnostate is some inherent human right that is being taken away from them. I know many of them are blinded by the relentless propaganda that's been around their whole lives and how hard it is to break free from a belief system that is so tied to your core identity as a human being but it is so frustrating watching people being led straight to the point over and over again and just turning around and refusing to see it.
It's also so frustrating to see people using the momentum of this movement to casually tack on actual antisemitism to these discussions, as if having Jewish people in positions of power is why the US bends over backwards to excuse the actions of Israel and not, yknow, the fact that our government directly benefits from having a military stronghold in the middle east. I've talked to some well-meaning pro-Palestine friends irl who casually use antisemetic talking points because they've ALSO bought into the narrative that Israeli = Jewish and so they blame the actions of Israel and the IDF on Jewish people's "religious values" and ignore the fact that this conflict really has almost nothing to do with religion itself and everything to do with capitalism, imperialism and maintaining the US's status as a so-called "global power".
#dont get me wrong there are lots of people on the pro palestine side who are very much aware of and vigilant against antisemitic rhetoric#but i genuinely worry about some of my non-jewish leftist friends and allies falling down some super shady pipelines because of all of this#i spend a lot of my time on my public facing social media sharing articles and graphics and whatnot about antisemitism#and how careful we need to be when calling out these atrocities and our government's complicity in them#but when one side is genuinely claiming with no evidence or argument that being against colonial occupation is just antisemitism#it makes it so hard to call out actual antisemitism within these spaces bc it delegitimizes antisemitism as a concern#i just want to scream#like. im not even jewish and i vividly remember when we had a special lesson in girl scouts about how wonderful Israel is#and they had us make little mini versions of the israel flag and they told us that israel stood for the safety of the jewish people#and i came home and i told my mom about how cool israel was#and she promptly pulled me out of girl scouts#which at the time felt unfair because she didnt explain why#but also how do you explain the horrors of colonialism and imperialism to your newly zionist 10 year old#anyway the point is that if i as a non-jewish girl scout was exposed to that kind of propaganda#i can only imagine how inescapable it must be for many american jews in the US#and i truly empathize with the amount of unlearning that needs to be done#and how hard it must be to let go of some of these ideas#but that doesnt make it any less frustrating to watch these dynamics play out on such a massive scale#and i hold so much respect for people in white jewish communities re-educating themselves and standing on the right side of history#as well as for all of the people of color and especially American Palestinians standing up and using their voices as much as they do#personal
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violentdevotion · 6 months
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wait do you have a fav boys character yet ?
i really like butcher but i feel like that's a basic answer and also the wrong answer. in another world id like frenchie but i can't get over how much i hate the actor. I love maeve theres never a moment she's on screen where im thinking get this woman outta here she's always entertaining to me. i like starlight but (and this is probably a bit nasty to say) there's smth a little uncanny valley about her sometimes where when she's talking im not listening but staring at her face trying to see what features throwing me off. I hate ashley but the actress played an insufferable character in jessica jones too and I really appreciate her ability to play The Most annoying woman you know.
centrist answer i like them all (except stormfront. hated her before i even knew she was a nazi. she was on insta live and i was waiting for her to explode and die) but my fave would have to be butcher bc i find im rooting for him the most and constantly justifying his actions. but sometimes karl urbans accent pisses me off. also black noir but he doesn't Do anything so it's hard to have him as a fave bc he's barely there.
#ameeras.got.mail#kieran tag#ik men like soldier boy so ill wait to see him do some evil disgusting horrendous thing that would make most ppl go ew he sucks but make#cis men ages 18-35 go wow hes soo cool#i like kimiko too but i dont think im allowed to say shes my fave when sometimes when shes like i dont want to be a weapon anymore :( im#mad at her and thinking get over it. i like mm but hes kinda this mother hen character and i dont rly tend to favour characters who are the#rational voice of reason like can we please get some conflict here#hughies whatever. i rly like his dad though lets go simon pegg#in the 7: homelander sucks. i find a train fun but his athlete storyline wasnt compelling to me personally bc the more i thought about it#the more i thought his superpower sucks. despite it all i find the deep kinda fun. i like that hes a scientologist.#didnt like transparent. was meh about lamplighter. didnt like whats his name sonicboom?? had a personal vendetta against that hijabi supe#we saw for like 2 seconds girl what are you doing there !!!!!! why are you playing into the diversity market !!!!#like edgar but in the way everyone likes giancarlo esposito's characters#nadia is whatever she was always meh to me even as a background character but i rly love the idea of having the superpower to explode#peoples heads with your mind i cant help but think of the xmen and think about if there was a mutant with the ability to explode heads with#their mind and that was their only ability and what a hard fucking sell that would be for xavier#(ive never read the xmen comics and have only seen some of the movies so i like to imagine charles xavier as lilo in the lilo and stitch#cartoon where every episode she would find an experiment with a unique function to destroy and would have to find it a home where it could#help instead. like yeah this experiment fattens people up and eats them lets put him in a resturant or smth#but with mutants#this mutant makes ice lets send him to a fridge company. this mutant explodes heads lets.... erm.#)
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tomboyyyaoi · 7 months
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o i wanted to make a post that im honestly not smart enough to actually sit down and think out but i like the way meryls trauma doesnt completely woobify her character but does still affect her, it just feels nice to see a female charcater not be completely reduced to a wet soggy mess bc of trauma but also not to (very unrealistically) just Get Over It i think trigun has a nice balance and its refreshing
#also not saying its a secret feminist masterpiece or anything (coz ive seen ppl say that and. come on) but i still think it does well-#enough to be given an appreciative nod#i mean its clear nightow didnt know what to do w milly n meryl after a certain point bc there was just. So much goin on w vash and knives#so he just has the girls do some nomad stuff offscreen until he was ready to bring them back in and yknow what i dont hate that#i think its important to note the women in trigun are fucking amazing tho like. rem meryl luida elendira even lina#and yeah millys underdeveloped but still shes so good#so im not gnna sit here and criticise nightow for being just as misogynistic as some other male mangaka bc i think he does very well#and thats not even to say the bar is on the floor like i truly believe that. i love meryl for a reason#but. ppl can we maybe stop w the 'trigun is so feminist' praise bc lets be real nightow probably just has a thing for strong women#98 anime is a little different tho i was pullin some faces while rewatching some clips.#im obvs talking abt the manga#and stampede is still not done so i wont comment too much on that besides the fact i like where its going (girlwise)#i dont usually like viewing manga thru this lense bc its not the same culture and feminism looks different in japan than it does over here#but i saw a chart. it made me twist up my face and go hrrrrnnnmmmmmnnnnmmnnm..... nnhhnnhhjnnn... mmmmmmmm#jesus i didnt mean to go off in these tags i just wanted to make another 'meryl good' post for the pile#ig im still thinkin abt that chart idk i guess it stuck w me (regretfully)#anyway point is i love meryl for a reason trigun women are great thanks nightow but im not gnna praise him for bein a feminist icon
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svnflowermoon · 4 months
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i feel so bad bc i came out to my mum two years ago and i still haven't told anyone else in my family :(
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toastsnaffler · 2 months
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everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏
#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too#things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄#jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that#having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically#and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me#despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence#and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik-#she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh#and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space#and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she-#likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man#i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them#theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road#theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill-#finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me#old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc#anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included-#bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately#also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that#im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it..#ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too#its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes#regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a#fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling#and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........#sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!!#.diaries
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fagflint · 1 month
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one thing that sucks abt like. having grown so much before im even supposed to be Grown is that like there really hasnt been time to be stupid. be silly. like ofc i Was stupid (and still can be ofc bc i dont know everything) but not in any way thats like. Free. like my parents both go to al-anon meetings (like AA but for loved ones of addicts) like thrice a week at least, and ive been in therapy for coming on 4 years. im getting in fights w my brother and going to therapy w him abt it and asking him to apologize for his shit instead of duking it out with him. its a combination of being queer+trans in an unaccepting community plus my sister blowing up our family etc etc trauma being Forced to mature early but i feel kind of robbed of being able to fuck up and be stupid and immature. like ive always just had to Be mature.
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Re: me having a lifelong crush on the wife from norbit. Why were we supposed to sympathize with norbit. HOW were we supposed to sympathize with him
#you want me to sympathize with the guy whos trying to cheat on his sexy hilarious wife who would turn anyone who was mean to her#loved ones inside out?? you want me to feel bad for him for having my dream girl??? die#theyre in their 30s or 40s and his wife is still killing it in a new (clearly effort filled and expensive) outfit every day?#like yeah shes mean. she was mean when he married her she didnt get more or even less mean. he knew what she was like#bc shes 100% honest about who she is!!! you want me to feel bad for him for marrying a woman out of self pity?? and staying with her bc he#sucks too much to divorce her so she can be with someone whos right for her????#im sorry its been like 16 years and im still mad. like that lady norbit was into (do not remember her name) was nice iirc and didnt do#anything wrong and if he hadnt been like. a married man of like 10 years there wouldnt be anything wrong w it besides him being like#one of those guys whos like heem heem self pity im just a little guy and my life is bad but bc i have no agency :(#like bro we all have agency. it came free with your humanity#i never stopped thinking abt how that movie framed rasputia (the wife) as a jealous mean spirited woman for...trying to stop#her husband from cheating on her like....come ON#women dont win!!! in the 2000s women lose!!! women dont even get to lose in accurate and realistic ways they just die and sob#in ways that are clearly written by men!!!!!#im angry bc im thinking about carmela soprano again. thinking also about that video where the lady talks about how hot conservative 20 yr#olds defend a system that treats them like property bc theyre 'hot property' and the system gives them inherent value over other women#but then when they get a scary diagnosis their husband leaves them for the 24 yr old at his office who doesnt need emotional effort#carmela should have killed her entire family and run away to italy to live in a tiny village making vinegar with furio for the rest of#their long happy lives you cannot change my mind#the kids suck AND take after tony. i want carmela to LEAVE#tony almost got a pass for being non homophobic towards vito (new babygirl number 1) but the way everyone else was homophobic#was so funny that he loops back around into being dislikable for not gay bashing vito#that said im not including vito in this post bc thats a different thing but GOD i want him to fall in love w the pretty antique shop guy#and open a shop together with him and get two of those crusty white dogs affluent gay men love#GIVE VITO LOVE. MY BABYGIRL VITO
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someoldfires · 11 months
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my tomshiv x mitski thesis is as follows: shiv about tom is Goodbye my danish sweetheart, tom about shiv is I want you, and they are both Me and my husband about each other
#tomshiv#succession#shiv is actually in love with tom but cant handle it about herself truther.#exhibit a bitey. exhibit b her trying to repair them somehow in the last ep after the balcony fight#i dont like you (lying) i dont care (extreme lying)#her actual true emotions if she could express them would basically be#THERES NOBODY BETTER THAN YOU IT TOOK ME A WHILE TILL I KNEW BUT YOU KNEW FROM THE START IT WAS US DIDNT YOU#SO I DONT BLAME YOU IF YOU WANT TO BURY ME IN YOUR MEMORY IM NOT THE GIRL I OUGHT TO BE#verbatim#as for tom:#’i want you / i hold one card / that i cant use / but i want you’#and ’i found you / i found the door / but when i stepped through / there was no floor’ regarding the cheating#being revealed on their wedding night#and as for me and my husband. i love that song i do try to fit it into every unhealthy relationship dynamic im obsessed with#but i think it works so well for both of them i think they both feel overlooked and irrelevant#shiv because of her gender within her family and tom because he is an outsider in the family and bc of his class#and they found some kind of ally in each other and they both stepped all over each other trying to get to the top#trying to be logans favorite#but in some way they both felt seen by the other one#when he walks in i am loved i am loved#also the inescapability of it all the divorce that never seems to take hold#’so i bet all i have on that furrowed brow and at least in this lifetime we’re sticking together’#god
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tbos-main · 1 year
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i love u guys btw. like this story would not at all be what it is now without you i mean that so genuinely. you ask questions that i never thought of and it's led to the worldbuilding being so thorough and fascinating. your ongoing enthusiasm has motivated me through several crises where ive tried to convince myself this story isnt worth anything. seeing you love tbos makes me love it all the more
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cosmo and wanda i wish everyone who interprets the plot of steven universe in bad faith as “being friends with space nazis” goes to hell no matter what
#shut up pandora#su#steven universe#while i would have made the main characters be more uncomfortable with the diamonds genocide tendencies#(which they probably would have done if they didnt get canceled by cn for being gay)#steven universes message has been and always will be about family#the diamonds are your homophobic grandma who goes on about how she just wants the best for you aka to not date girls#she hates everything you are but she loves what you represent#and while its perfectly valid to cut someone like that off like steven does in the movie and future#irl relationships are always more nuanced than hurr durr grandma is evil lets throw her in a wood chipper#steven universes message is encapsulated in the last song of the original show#where people who hate you for your identity are not owed your compassion#nor do you need them to love and respect you#but everyone has the chance to change their mind#and youll be open to giving them a second chance#its an optimistic take on bigotry that not everyone agrees on and its okay#but you dont get to accuse this whole ass jewish person of sympathizing with nazis just because you dont agree with their life philosophy#also uh if you look at the diamonds as actual authorities it also tracks bc in case you havent noticed#every politician hates at least some maginalized identities#and if you refuse to kiss up to them they literally will not put in any effort into helping you make the world a better place#and yes sometimes you do need governments to help you#basically steven universes philosophy is be gay do crimes#cut off bigots but keep an open mind if they change for the better even if you dont forgive them#work with politicians even bigoted ones for widescale positive change bc sometimes thats the only realistic way to do so#and then cut them off and spend time with your gay found family and sing about your feelings
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