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How can you love me? Chapter 1 (part two.): Should I regret it?

Pairing: Noah Sebastian x !OFC

Warnings!: Drinking, Swearing, let me know if I need to add more!

Dividers by: @saradika-graphics

Noah and Adriana both rockstar's, both caring, both don't really believe in love.

They met as children in a park in Richmond, since Noah helped Adriana with a scrape on her knee that day, they'd been inseparable. Even though they do live together and have known each other for almost 20 years they've never even had the thought of being each others other, being their partner, loving each other unconditionally, except as friends of course. Even though they were each others first everything, first friend, first kiss, first time, first home, they would never admit their love for each other because it would ruin their friendship, and especially not now that Adriana is not looking for love and, Noah is in love with his girlfriend Chelsea, right?

Will they let each other break their glass houses or will they stay eternally quiet?

May 13 2020. Noah's POV. (scene from last chapter.)

"Yeah sure but, I could try to get here before dinner so we can all eat togeth-"

"Noah." I cut him off

"Yeah?"

"Shut up and go visit your girlfriend."

"Ok"

I was driving to Chelsea's place while listening to music and thinking 'finally gonna see her, I can just picture her on her knees suc-'

Ring ring ring.

"hello?"

"Hi baby, how are you?" Chelsea said in an almost whisper tone

"Oh hi babe, um I'm good, just driving to your place."

"Okay, do you know how long you're gonna take?" She said in a worrying tone.

"Um maybe in like 5 minutes, baby?" I said wondering why she sounded so worried. "yeah?" She shortly answered. "are you okay?"

"Oh-uh, yeah I'm fine, um Noah I'm gonna have to let you go, I'm getting a call from my mom."

"yeah that's fine, well baby I can't wait to see you and I definitely can't wait for something else." I said insinuating. "Cool, bye babe." Then she hung up on me.

Weird, she would usually respond to the dirty shit I said to her, anyway.

I knocked on her front door, waiting for her to open it. I don't know what, but something felt off about her, but maybe she could just be in a bad mood. The door swung open revealing Chelsea in a two piece pink silk pajama set, with her hair in a half up half down style. She looked beautiful.

"Hi baby" she said in a soft tone. "Hi" I said leaning in to give her a kiss. "Come in noah." She said as she pulled away, not kissing me.

What the hell is going on with her?

"Noah can we talk?" She said. "Yeah okay." I said worrying about what's to come. we sat down on her couch, she grabbed a pillow putting in up to her chest.

"Noah, I have to tell you something." She said looking at me, I could see the tears forming in her eyes. "Look noah, I love you, but... We need to break up."

"What?" I said whispering.

My heart shattered in that moment, I felt the blood drain from my body, I didn't know whether to cry, ask her why she wanted to, or just leave without saying anything. I opted for the last one.

I got up from the couch and made my way to the door, I hesitated leaving and not asking her why but I decided it was best for me.

"Noah wait!" I heard Chelsea cry after me as I walked to my car.

"Noah I'm sorry, but I have to do this, for you, for me, for us."

I briefly looked at her and told her, "after 2 fucking years there is no us anymore." I got in to my car, trying to keep it all in, and drove, and drove, and drove away, until I stopped in the back of a gas station just to sit there in silence.

Maybe she was over thinking.

Maybe she just was drunk or something.

No. Chelsea can't be over thinking she always knows what she wants, and she can't be drunk, she doesn't drink often.

I decided in my mind that she did actually want to break up, and that's when I thought.

I only have two options.

Either I, break down into tears and tell the one person I can count on, which is adri about this so she can help me, or, I drown my sorrows with alcohol. After little to no thinking I decided the second one would be best.

Chelsea's POV

What the fuck did I just do?

I just broke up with noah, and I think I'll regret it for the rest of my life well that and the other thing... He was so loving and caring, and especially he was faithful towards me all the time and I had to go fuck it up by doing that.

At home...

I need tequila. I need to get my mind off of her.

I walked into the house feeling I don't know how many emotions inside of me, I knew I was probably going to get interrogated by the guys right when they saw my eyes, so I had a plan, a simple plan, but a plan, this plan was just walk in get the bottle and walk to my room and lock the door for the rest of the night. I walked into the kitchen expecting it to be empty but there were two people standing there, Adriana and Jesse. I just wanted to avoid them asking anything so I just said.

"If Chelsea calls any of you and asks for me, don't tell her anything. Got it?" I said making my way to get the alcohol. I rushed out of the kitchen and on my way I heard Jesse scream something that I couldn't hear because I was just stuck in my thoughts.

I walked into my room and slammed the door, I immediately just sat on my bed and started drinking. When I was sitting I heard the door open and close softly. Fuck, I didn't lock it.

"Noah what the fuck was that out there?" Adri said slightly suprised, slightly pissed. "Nothing, why?" I said trying to not make the emotions sound. "You want some?" I offered her the tequila.

"No, Noah what happened with Chelsea? Did you guys fight? Or was it something else?"

I decided, fuck it, I'll just tell her. "She broke up with me."

"Noah what do you mean?"

"No, I got to her place and when I said hi to her she asked me if we could talk, when we sat down she just said it, no sugarcoats, she just said, I wanna break up."

"well maybe she was just confused, I mean, you guys have been together for 2 years, that's a lot of commitment and maybe she was just nervous."

Yeah sure, and you're in love with me.

"nah, its fine she's just like any other girl who's dated me, they spend time making me fall in love just so then they can throw me away like some type of garbage."

"Noah, please don't say that, look lets do this, you stop drinking so the hangover isn't as bad in the morning, I will try and call Chelsea tonight and if she doesn't pick up I'll call her tomorrow, and you can get some rest in the meantime ok?" She took the bottle from my hands, and I was about to protest against her but I know she wouldn't stop until she got her way.

"I guess, sure."

Okay, well goodnight Noah I'll tell you if anything happens tomorrow."

Then she kissed my forehead softly, and I muttered a quite thank you, but I wasn't just saying thank you for her helping me with this, I was saying thank you for everything, for the love she's given me since childhood, for all the times she put up with me even when I was being a dick, for all the times she helped me when I wanted to cry, when I needed advice, when I wanted to kill myself, whenever I desperately needed her.

Noah's POV.

I kinda fucked up.

An hour after Adriana left I went to get more alcohol, I couldn't handle it so by 3AM I was really really fucking drunk. After that point I don't remember anything except me waking up to get water and in my dream I kissed a girl, who was this girl? I have no idea.

Okay sooooo its out!

This one was shorter just because I wanted to give you guys his POV in the story but the official second chapter will be out soon. And that one will have smut. The next chapter (2) will have more drama filled stuff, remember this is supposed to be a slow burn.

Tags: @xxkittenkissesxx @laurpartyprogram @starsomens

#noah sebastian #bad omens cult #bad omens band #bad omens fanfiction #noahsebastian #noah sebastian x reader

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rohirric-hunter · 13 days

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Did my taxes

Gonna go to the grocery store and buy cake. Or booze. Or both

#brain fried #BUT #the good news #i did it while cheating a hobnanigans field and it actually made the process so much easier #stopping and paying attention to something else for a moment every 5 minutes #i got it done in like 3 hours #and i didnt cry once #which is TWO records #which is shocking considering how much anxiety i have from last year #anyway heres hoping it files all right and everything goes smoothly

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deus-ex-mona · 1 month

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l e t m e i n ! ! !

#d a m m i t d to the h to the l whyyyyy did you have to increase the shipping cost by 20 bucks the literal day before the preorders shipped—#thanks to that it only shipped today auuuuuuuuuaughdjejdjdjdhd #wdymmmmmmm the package is still in the same place from 4 hours agoooooooo #auauaaaauauaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i want in s o b a d l y #s o bs the only song jp twt is talking about is last stage #i don’t care about last stage (for now) i want m e o t o ! ! !#s. s o b s. unless a surprise mv drops ig im gonna have to wait till 12am for the midnight release… 7 hours to go…#ig i’ll just skip a few hundred times and do some pushups while i wait… im lich rally bouncing off the walls here i cant even auauauauaaaaaa #this. seriously hasn’t been a good couple of weeks for online purchases for me…#first my local shipment for [insert item] was delayed bc of last week’s oddly rainy weather #and t h e n that item was apparently mislabelled and locked in shipment purgatory for the weekend (sadge)#it only arrived yesterday (sadded) though ig i should be glad it even arrived at all #and nowwwwwww. this happens. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh #idk there’s so many other things i’ve been meaning to do while i wait for the cd but. i just. can’t #this sucks i wanna be marginally more productive too heyyyyyyyyyy #i wonder how long meoto is though… hopefully between 3-5 minutes…#if the song’s like. m. ilgram t2-length im gonna cry #but ymk said that it’s her favourite song on the album so it should be good!!!! right??!!!!!!!!#ausgshhssh he l p i should really go back to. like. cleaning idol sengen pages instead or sth.#see you in a few hours for meoto tl/if they decide to drop a sudden mv or sth idk

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dropthecop · 3 months

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why did my boromir post get notes i'm scared

#my roommate requested Boromir Tags Rant in the replies of that post so i suppose i will put that here #BASICALLY it all boils down (in my brain) to people hating this dude for like. getting mind controlled. like it was NOT HIS FAULT‼️#local man tries to take and use an object that specifically influences people to want to take and use it; mord at 5 #like ?????#thats the whole POINT of the ring that's the whole reason FRODO had to carry it. he was one of the few people who was super resistant to th #thrall and influence of it #boromir is Just Some Guy (i mean he's like royalty sorta-kinda or whatever but he's just human he doesnt have any special Ring Resistance)#it's NATURAL that he would be tempted #like we SAW what it did to bilbo. we saw him being possessive of it and using it more than he should etc. but when it's bilbo then #apparently people suddenly gain thinking skills and realize that he was being influenced by an outside force #but when it's boromir suddenly its a moral failing???? america explain #plus also like. he was overcome for all of 2 minutes. and as soon as he realized what happened he CRIED bc he was so disgusted w his action #NOT TO MENTION SACRIFICING HIS LIFE FOR MERRY AND PIPPIN #NOT TO MENTION THAT EVEN WHILE INFLUENCED BY EVIL RING 5000 HE STILL ONLY EVER WANTED TO USE THE POWER FOR THE GOOD OF HIS PEOPLE #NOT TO MENTION [gestures at everything to do with faramir]#like. think for 4 seconds. use your brain. would an evil man cry after realizing he was influenced into doing something bad #would an selfish evil man sacrifice his life to save 2 funny hobbits #anyway i like him #also from like an out-of-universe perspective boromir trying to take the ring shows the power of the ring. it shows that it was able to #overcome even this Good Guy Character. you are not supposed to read/see that scene and take away from it ''boromir is bad''#you are supposed to take away from it ''wow the ring is SO POWERFUL that it could even influence such a good guy as boromir''#THATS MY OPINION ANYWAY #OH ALSO WE SAW FRODO GET INFLUENCED BY IT. ngl i forgot that happened for a minute. but EVEN FRODO caved for a bit #theres a reason why boromir's death is framed as a tragedy. it's not a bad guy getting what he deserved #it's a good man who will be missed and who died too soon #do you Really think aragorn would have kissed his forehead if he was evil. come on.#AND LIKE PIPPIN SWEARING FEALTY TO DENETHOR OVER IT??? that's a whole other can of worms but AUGH. pippin..........#Absolutely Agonizing.#can't be bothered to fix the grammar mistakes in this sowwy #my post

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jtownraindancer · 5 months

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... I know you know I'm gonna say BURN GORMAN lolll that is how I came across your blog and also I remember being *very* impressed by your archive. So yeah :) You are the Burn Gorman Blog™️ to me

Me, trying to explain Burn Gorman:

Asdfghjkl for real though thank youuuuuuu ♡

Plenty more of Matchstick Man to come~

#asdfghjkl this is just where I am now I guess #also THE burn blog??? babe imma cry that's so sweet 🥺💕💕💕💕💕 thank youuuuu #i tried to find a good pic to use for this meme but this was the only one i have of burn being burn atm #burn gorman #it's not me but meme #have this grotesque monstrosity i guess ^_^;;;#(i made this in 5 minutes idk)#the burn collection #:)#man i need a tag for burn now fuck #...seriously though how the heck did i get here? I'm not complaining! just... rather confused. 🙃#shut up ace #thanks again sweetheart ♡♡♡

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seventh-district · 2 months

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#it is 5 hrs past my bedtime and i am awake listening to Two Hearts by Dermot Kennedy on loop and crying over Rotating Shifts. again.#i couldn’t resist the urge to read the latest chapter any longer but i knew when i did i’d get like this #so Why did i wait for my period to roll around. i have made. a silly decision lmaooo #i’ve complained abt it before but i’m conflicted about how much more sensitive it makes me #my nightmares usually don’t make me cry but oh i was a Wreck this morning #so why i picked tonight to read the fic that always makes me cry is beyond me #i have never met a fic before that had me in such an intense emotional grip #and it’s fucking hilarious bc it’s not that intense of a story!! like yeah there’s been devastating parts but i’m out here having to-#-take a break every single chapter bc i’ll read one line that hits my inner child like a truck and i have to take a minute to recover #but the whiplash this fic gives me is so fucking funny and the range in the storytelling from comedy to tragedy is just.. *scream-cries*#it has my favorite characterization of Sun and Moon that i have ever seen #this chapter wasn’t even that sad i’m just Making myself sad about it #but on another level it also makes me sad in the sense that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to write something that good..#all that i want out of my writing endeavors is to make one (1) person feel as strongly and as much as RS makes me feel #and i don’t know if i can do that. i don’t know if my writing has what it takes bc i can’t even describe exactly what it is #i don’t think it’s a science that can be replicated. things either connect with someone or they don’t #the way Sun goes from worryingly innocent ‘wdym we can’t invite strangers to live with us?’ ‘wdym we can’t adopt an adult that needs help?’#to fucking. tearing an animatronic in half in a fit of protective rage and blocking access to all dating apps to prevent you from-#-finding anyone else bc he’s your Special Friend and he can’t have his Daydream falling for anyone else!! no no!!#it’s not a new concept but i eat it tf up when Sun is actually the one you should fear the most #like no i don’t think he’d hurt Reader but i dread to think of the things he would do For them #the back and forth between childlike innocence and terrifying intelligence possessiveness and physical capability is just mmmmm 100/10 #and don’t even get me started on Moon. or i Will start crying again #he’s like yeah dumbass of course i’m gonna save you every time some POS man tries to **** you. of course i will you fucking crater-head #but i will complain at you about it the Entire way home and then i will steal your fucking toilet paper and pack you a raw egg for lunch #because i hate you 🖤 but Sun loves you and we would both kill for you 🖤 also i drank all of your chocolate milk 🖤 also i hate you :)#anyways i am paraphrasing obviously and dear god i hope no one who actually reads RS sees this bc i do not want my 2am ramblings taken as-#-any kind of Official Thoughtful Analysis of the story ok pls pls pls let me be insane abt my favorite fic without having to be articulate #i just have so many fucking FEELINGS about them. i am unwell.#i’m not even tagging this i’m just hitting post and going to sleep goodnight

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clerk427 · 3 days

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Tags rant

no general theme i just want to yell about stuff

will delete later i think

Upd. I am doing better but won't delete it because archiving purposes and I like to reread stuff like that as diary entries and think "haha what a feeble minded fool i was"

#i think i am now extremely unhappy with my art #all i do is doodle or draw stuff for college that i don't really like #and i mean #it's fun and all #but i don't feel like it's art #and i think i started dreading doing full rendered art #because it will take so long and i need to make sh*t in 5 minutes #i don't know if it's an adhd thing or i'm just impatient i don't know i don't #and i'm sad my faith hyperfixation is fading away because it was so fun #i want to draw john but i don't know what to do w him anymore #i was never good with fanart #fanart is so freaking difficult how do people come up with good ideas all the time #all i can think about is oc stuff but it's almost never pretty and #i don't knowwwwww i am dreading i'll have to work with art #why did i think being a designer is a good idea i want nothing to do w it #i am so afraid of the future i am afraid i will have to work till the day i die #it's scary i am scared i want to do nothing i am tired for no reason at all #i have no idea where to even... live?#i should save up and try to leave this God forsaken country #but i am mortified of living on my own #i am just #i'll be fine i'll cry for a bit and everything will get better #but i am not very happy rn i'm sorry #that's about that i'm really sorry i am just scared #I WANT TO FEEL GOOD FOR MORE THAN 5 MINUTES AT A TIME PLEASE

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ladysqueakinpip · 1 month

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not me lying wide awake at 5:30am on a sunday on my day off bc after almost a full year I finally FINALLY realized the implication of the end of remember them from the cyclops saga

#that song has one of the most powerful ending crescendo sequences ive heard in maybe all of musical theater #so it. always felt incomplete after ALL that buildup during the I AM THE INFAMOOOUS #only to just drop to SILENCE. no music. no fanfare. just ODYSSEUS!#he doesnt even really sing it he just sort of... shouts it #and then its followed by the faintest sound of ocean waves #its poseidon. listening. THATS why athena said DONT #poseidon heard that declaration and came back to get him later #😬#i just looked up the lyrics for ruthlessness too and poseidon basically spells it out 😂#ive only listened to that song once or twice tho and i guess i wasnt too focused on the words #anyway i relistened to the songs on friday and theyve been rotating in my mind like a 7/11 hotdog #the whole cyclops saga especially is just.... so so good #they truly dont make music about bashing peoples heads in like they used to #the first 3 songs of the saga especially... oof #how they blend one into the other back to back and end up making like a 10 minute narration of events #the whole thing is so bone chilling #it gets my heartrate up lol #PLUS the theme of pain and vengeance bring more pain #EVERY time polyphemus says 'what gives you a right to deal a pain so deep'#and when odysseus says 'what good would killing do when mercy is a skill more of the world could learn to use'#rocking back and forth sobbing crying #remember them the next time that you DARE choose not to spare! remember them... remember us... remember me!#cant wait for everyone to turn their back on this musical in 5 yrs #like they did with hamilto.n #hamilto.n never stopped being good actually #yall are just embarrassed about being weird fanatics over people who rly existed

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supermarketcrush · 1 year

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girls when they finish watching dead poets society

#im unwell im so unwell #ok spoilers for anyone who hasnt seen this movie look away. im please at myself for predicting how neil would die #bc i only knew one of the boys would kill himself but from like the first 5 minutes i gathered it had to be neil then i think #during the play i thought he should shoot himself with a gun lo and behold #um well i feel shivery i have literal goosebumps. i want to text my best friend to never kill herself i want to cry #but also yall lied to me this movie isnt that gay. well it is gay but not because of neil and todd #its gay because its a movie about a group of people who are passionate for and live for the arts and poetry and literature and thats what #makes the movie gay. NOT ethan hawke and robert sean leonard's identical faces #i also thought it would be more sinister ie mr keating would be more like julian morrow from the secret history but no. so there is that #overall yeah this was totally worth procrastinating my editorial work #+ one last thing . when neil said i was good i was really good my hands flew to my face like oh he did that #he foreshadowed the foreshadowing and am i a huge sucker for this kind of thing #ok. ramble over goodbye im gonna go cry now #🫀

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nagihonos · 1 year

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finally got around to watching dragon ball super hero and

#okay db haters look away 😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️#this movie was SO good like it was corny as hell but idgaf i had a fun time!!!!!#gohan using special beam cannon as the final move maybe made me cry a little whos to say?#i like pans little character arc also as an avid pan supporter this movie made me so happy #the only downside was no marron or bulla honestly #everyone was here and had a fun little role. goku and vegeta (love them #only show up for like 5 minutes total and have a post credits scene where vegeta wins in a fight against him #this movie was just fun dragon ball stuff and i hope they continue this tone for the series #i think ill read the trunks goten mini arc now omg #also loooove that krillin is like 'hey remember when u got really big at the world martial arts tournament' and piccolo went 'oh yeah 👍'#*gets really big*#also idk if im just out of the db loop but love the new gohan entomologist lore!#also any krillin/18 content is a win for me!#actually the real downside was the continued propaganda of blue haired trunks. you will never get me to like it <3 #also i didnt think id like dr hedo and the gammas but i did! they were fun!! ofc gamma 2 died tho. black racism 🫤 (i watched the dub)#sorry i just needed to get my thoughts on this movie out #anyway this movie just proved that gohan needs to be the main character :)#i just cant get over him ending cell max with fucking SPECIAL BEAM CANNON im crying and screaming not the kamehameha or masenko like!!!!!!#like i know piccolo taught him masenko but theres just something abt sbc okay👍#im so normal im so sane

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antarcticajoy · 7 months

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I HATE being put in charge of things, but damn if my strategy didn't work so well that 28 doors were fixed in 5 hours the day before this children's hospital opens

#no i did not schedule it for then and this shit was laughably mismanaged #like everything the office people could fuck up they did #and i worked a miracle #and didnt even get a thank you or good job #just for frame of reference for doors it usually takes like 30 minutes to do one #at least #so 28 in 5 hours is an insane amount #im so good at my job to bad i fucking hate that kind of work #i just want a pat on the back like #i was asked to do the impossible told i was in charge of it and was kneecapped and still fucking did it with time to spare #and my back hurts so bad #and i have a headache #and im starving #can i please get some appreciation or acknowledgment or like good karma?#can something really good finally happen to me because nothing good has happened to me in 2 months #and im so tired #not to be pathetic but im gonna go cry now im exhausted and alone and unappreciated

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pepprs · 1 year

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not to keep liveblogging the retreat but it’s over now (it has been for most of the day). i cried so much today and it was amazing. im so sad and so happy and so relieved and so tired and so proud