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theostrophywife · 9 months

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okay for fluff prompts with Eris I would love to see something where Eris is touch starved and desperate for affection from his mate/significant other

like you wanna be loved.

author's note: i've been listening to a ton of ed sheeran lately hence this request being inspired by this song.

eris vanserra never learned how to be soft.

for his entire immortal existence, he was taught that affection was synonymous to weakness and to crave such things were beneath a future high lord. even after beron's demise, it was still hard for eris to admit that he desired that connection just like everyone else.

eris didn't realize how starved he was of affection until the first time you touched him. it was during the day of his coronation, in the great ballroom of the forest house. a crowd had gathered to see the high priestess place the rosewood crown upon his head. despite the fact that he had plotted and schemed his way into this exact moment for centuries, eris was terrified.

what if he was a terrible high lord? what if he failed his court? what if his greatest fear came true and he turned out to be exactly like his father?

eris would've spiraled into his thoughts had he not felt your fingers intertwining through his. the warmth of your hand anchored him to the present and his heart squeezed in his chest as he found you smiling up at him. the mating bond hadn't snapped yet, but at the back of his mind, eris had always known.

it was you. it had always been you.

"you're going to be the best high lord the autumn court has ever seen, eris."

"how can you be so sure?"

you tilted your head, brushing your thumb over his knuckles. "because i believe in you."

you had spoken with such conviction that it chased away all of his doubts. as he assumed his responsibilities as high lord, you became his constant. you were the anchor that brought him back to the present.

when he found himself frustrated during tense council meetings, you were there to squeeze his hand underneath the table. when he forgot to eat while toiling through the court's budget, you curled up on the couch with him, resting your leg atop his lap as you shared freshly baked bread and strawberry jam. and when the nightmares came, he let you hold him all through the night, focusing on nothing but the soft cadence of your breath and the warmth of your arms around him.

"you're always taking care of everyone," you said softly, brushing the hair out of his eyes. "it's okay to admit that you need to be taken care of too. let me be that for you, eris."

eris blinked, drinking your words in. he didn't think you realized what this moment meant to him. you were giving him permission to be vulnerable. you were teaching him that desiring love wasn't weak. in fact, it might have been the bravest and strongest that eris had ever felt.

vulnerability was uncharted waters, but for you, for his mate, he was willing to dive in headfirst. slowly but surely, your mate let you in and eris felt the sunlight of your love fill the dark corners of his calloused heart. before he could talk himself out of it, eris reached for you.

eris had kissed others before, but it had never been like this. his hands shook as he cradled your cheek. when your eyes met, there was such tenderness in his gaze that your chest tightened at the sight of him. his expression was raw and unguarded, like he was holding his heart in his hands and offering it up to you.

when his lips touched yours, eris felt like he had finally come home. your kisses were soft and tender, full of pining and yearning. he gently cradled your face and the thought that he was holding his entire world between his hands struck him just as you sighed in satisfaction. eris held you like he was afraid you might disappear. he kissed you again, long and deep this time before pressing his forehead against yours.

"you have to know," eris murmured, his voice full of passion and emotion. "surely you must know what you mean to me."

you smiled as tears blurred your vision. "i may have an inkling," you teased. "but it wouldn't hurt to hear you say it."

"i love you," eris said plainly as though he was reciting the infallible truth. as though his love for you had always been and will always be long after the world ceased existing. "i love you in a way that i never thought myself capable of. i love you as surely as the rising of the sun. i love you because you taught me that i could."

the tears fell as you looked up at eris. before you met him, love had always seemed like a vast concept that you would never be able to grasp, but now the word itself seemed inadequate to describe the gravity of what you felt for him.

"i love you too, eris." you placed his hand over your heart. "i love you so much that i don't think there's enough room in my heart to contain it."

eris closed his eyes and released a breath he hadn't even realized he'd been holding. "i think you're my best friend."

you smiled in return. "i know you're my best friend and the love of my life."

"and the love of my life," eris repeated. "and every other life that i've ever existed in."

that four letter word—love. it hadn't been enough to describe whatever this was between you, but there was another that could. you and eris felt the exact moment that golden thread snapped between you.

mate.

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riddled-fingers · 4 months

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ah fuck its one of those days

#PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELP ME #im fine #sable screams #i crave the sweet release of death

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doomsdaybby · 5 months

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there ain’t no fucking way that joseph quinn is going to be at a convention FIVE MINUTES FROM MY HOUSE whilst i’m 4,000 miles out of the country there’s no way there’s no way there’s no way there’s no way there’s

#I crave the sweet release of death #like i’m actually inconsolable rn #and I got upset missing out in london #but bro is gonna be on my doorstep #joseph quinn

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nolassolace · 11 months

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Kill me

I took my meds this morning instead of before bed like normal cause I've missed a few days.

Now I'm stuck at work with the worst fucking migraine and nausea to the point I'm camping out in the bathroom Incase I vom.

#personal #emetophobia #cymbalta #lamictal #fuck you guys #chronic migraine #i crave the sweet release of death

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ominouspositivity-or-else · 11 months

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hell is the inside of my head when it hurts real bad

#fuckin hate migraines #i crave the sweet release of death

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disasterdrvid · 2 years

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girls when they have ants

#i crave the sweet release of death #on my fucking windowsill!!!!! next to my bed!!!!!

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darkfaethedestroyer · 2 months

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I'm convinced Tik Tok is a godless place because I just saw a thirst trap for Larry the cucumber on there to the song save a horse ride a cowboy and it's definitely made me question my life choices now

#thanks for coming to my ted talk #larry the cucumber #thirst trap #tiktok #what is this #i crave the sweet release of death #i'm so tired #why is my life like this #pls end my suffering

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sustainedscreaming · 3 months

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if anyone wants to know how life is going, I only have enough energy to get out of bed at 1 pm, shovel snow, and then go back to bed immediately after.

#i crave the sweet release of death

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cruddylizard624 · 4 months

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Can someone please give me a lobotomy ?

#heartbreak #i need a lobotomy #live laugh lobotomy #i'm fucking tired #tw depressing thoughts #given up #over it #i crave the sweet release of death #actually mentally ill #2024 is off to a great start

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panbaguette · 6 months

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Whether you read it or write it, the fanfic brain rot is real.

#pls help #haven’t slept in so many days #I crave the sweet release of death #my brain is rotting #what do

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