#i could use some help

[winchesterszvonecek]

i’m looking for someone who’s both a chicago fire fan and a supernatural fan to ask for advice on my upcoming book… it’s going to be a crossover but i’m at a crossroads (making a deal with crowley) as to what to include/where the story will go

#anyone? #i could use some help #chicago fire #supernatural

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[inhumanestruggle]

Debating whether I should buy the stray kids 2024 season's greetings or the 5 star album. On one hand I could really use a calendar, on the other hand I might not used everything from that box. I guess I could always resell and I do plan on getting the album anyway. So I guess it's a matter of is the season's greetings worth it.

#i really want the photocard set tho #i love the theme and aesthetic and design of that box #i could use some help #tumblr help me choose #stray kids #skz #ot8 #changbin #lee know #han jisung #hyunjin #bangchan #felix #seungmin #i.n

[chargetheintruder]

Still a bit frustrated . . .

I've been searching for "discount gift cards" to see if I can't stretch the last of the budget I have left and well . . . no dice. There's websites for this, but the decent deals are for BIG spenders, people who buy gift cards with triple-digit amounts on them and then sell/trade them. And this doesn't even get into some of the arbitrary restrictions MANY of these cards have. =)) It's ridiculous really.

I try. I spend a whole weekend trying to catch up and do something in the way of helping myself and neither Reddit or the rest of the internet are remotely useful. Go figure.

#personal #I'm broke somewhat #health issues don't let me leave the house and shop in-person #that makes it tricky #I will get some food and TP from Amazon tomorrow #but things are still weird and on the edge #I could use some help #I could use a donation if possible #but don't lose it if you can't or won't it's okay

[dumbledore221b]

I've really wanted to start writing my ideas out into an actual readable book/ short story/ anything. I just learned I'm not the only one who spends hours in my head daydreaming with different OC, sometimes first person or third, sometimes as a fanfic in another world like Harry Potter or Sherlock. I don't even know where to start. I want to spread my ideas and grow in my story creating skill.

*these are not my images I did not create them*

#help #i could use some help #advice #advice for writers #just tumblr things #writers on tumblr #writerscommunity #i want to write but it's so hard #maybe i should start writing about my ideas #not my art

[raspberryspace]

8/8/23 - Academy of Sciences

Thought going here would help clear my mind, turns out it made me feel like absolute shit! Anyways here are some pics of strange looking anthropomorphic airplanes and some amphibians

#pic #holy hell I am spiraling #why won’t it stop #I could use some help #therapy tomorrow thankfully #why why why #just stop overthinking! #stop caring! #stop wanting to know! #stop thinking about other people! #stop giving everyone else your 100% #just stop #why don’t people like to go to museums anymore #that’s another question to the list of overthinking #I wish more people would enjoy the silence and awe one experiences in a museum

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.

It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #like... anxiety and depression are often concieved of as simple and easy to manage... #...but that isn't the case for so many of us. anxiety and depression just have a lot more research invested into them... #...and while i wish this were the case for literally every other condition it does alter people's perception of you to some extent... #...so while this is NOT solely about anxiety or depression it includes us... #...my anxiety and depression and PTSD have *destroyed* my life. this is chronic and will probably be life-long... #...and that isn't my fault. i've done the fucking work but guess what? that doesn't account for the fact that I Am Just ILL #the least we can do for each other is to be compassionate #be compassionate to those who cannot heal. be compassionate to the people who can't manage their lives. this world is scary enough #recognize that management of symptoms is something not all of us can do - even IF their condition is labeled as 'easy to manage' #i allowed myself to feel angry that i can't heal 'normally' and that was unfair as fuck toward myself #and i NEED people to internalize this so that MAYBE this could help somebody else who is where i was #i NEED them to understand that it's okay that they are where they are - sometimes shit just doesn't turn out how you expect or want #don't beat yourself over you being a person. you are struggling enough. you deserve to rest. just rest please #and just... give yourself space

[breakitoutwildbreak]

When you lose sleep just thinking about Soundwave’s thighs…

#maccadam #transformers #wavewave #shockwave #soundwave #tfe #shockwave x soundwave #transformers earthspark #Shockwave be thinking what can I do to get my hands on those hips? #Dumb fanart #I was supposed to draw them both in berth together with the minicons and their creation but I couldn’t be bothered #This is not helping Shockwave’s insomnia #He could use some appethighsers

[minty364]

DPXDC Prompt#128 Part 4

Danny could tell Jason was getting upset over the things he was telling him. He wanted to open up and tell him more about the past but it was painful. Eventually Danny might tell him the full story about how he died but for now focusing on what they needed to do from now would take priority. 

Jason took a moment to calm himself down before speaking and Danny was a little afraid of breaking the silence, “alright, here’s what we’re going to do.” Danny stayed silent waiting for Jason to continue, “I don’t like that belt, we’re getting rid of it, and then, I’m taking you somewhere safe.” 

Danny felt a little confused; it felt like Jason really cared about him even if they just met. The belt only shocked ghosts so he figured his soulmate would have little problems taking the belt off of him so he nodded his head. He was tired and even if he didn’t 100% trust Jason yet, if they were truly soulmates, Jason wouldn’t let anything bad happen to him. 

Jason reached out and gently touched the belt. It gave him a little shock and he tossed it away as soon as it was off Danny, who felt his strength finally returning. He took a few deep calming breaths, it's been quite a while since he was able to just exist without something terrible happening. He had forgotten what it felt like to have full access to his powers and ectoplasm again that the feeling felt amazing no matter what pain he was in. He could finally tap into his powers such as accelerated healing, which was already working on the damage on his chest. He was trapped within that facility for only a few months but the damage was already done. Being forced under the knife for days at a time where they treated him more like a dead body than a person had really done a number on his psyche. 

“Damn, I hated that fucking belt… Thank you” Danny finally said, Jason was silent the whole time just watching his hand where the belt had slightly shocked him. 

Jason took a few moments to process everything that happened and then sighed, “Why’d it shock me? You said it was set to shock you right?”

Danny glanced away and took a moment to think of what exactly to say next, “I’m not 100% sure actually. The belt shouldn’t shock a normal person.”

“The fuck are you then?” Jason’s sudden harsh words shocked Danny and he knew he let something slip, “... I accidentally touched it when I was you. That wasn’t a light shock like I just got.” Jason was still looking at his hands but when he looked up to see how terrified Danny was his face softened a little.

Jason took a shaky breath before speaking again, “You’ve been through enough, I… know I can be… intense, I’m just trying to figure out what the fuck is going on.” When Danny stayed silent he continued, “You mentioned ghosts earlier.” Jason paused again waiting for Danny to respond. 

Danny wanted too but he felt himself a little too scared to respond. Jason’s raised tone reminded him too much of how the GIW agents would berate him over everything. 

Jason sighed deeply and leaned back on the sofa, “alright, I won’t pry, but I think I know why it shocked me… I’m just trying to figure out why it shocks you so badly.” 

Danny could tell Jason was just worried about him so even though he didn’t want too he spoke up a little, “I know the reason it shocks me…” Danny said slowly and softly, “and I want to tell you, but I’m honestly a little scared. I haven’t had to tell someone this before and it honestly isn’t a pretty story.” Danny’s words were genuine, he really didn’t know how to even begin to explain to someone. It felt like something he shouldn’t say, not that he didn’t want too but if felt wrong down to his core. 

Jason nodded his head, “I get it, I’ll be honest, my backstory ain’t too pretty itself.” 

Honestly Danny didn’t know how he felt about that, knowing he wasn’t alone in hardships was both alarming and comforting. 

Jason nodded again, “Alright, I get it’s a touchy subject, you can talk about it when you’re ready.” 

———

Jason was a little peeved but he got it, he doubted if he could keep his cool when talking about his own death and revival. He was wondering if maybe being thrown into the pits might have something to do with how he got shocked by that damn belt. Danny didn’t seem to want to talk about that and Jason wanted to know but he also didn’t want to pressure him into talking about something he didn’t want to. He was a little pissed at himself for how he scared his soulmate.

Jason was also pissed this was how they met, he wanted to be the one to pull that trigger and even though he thought it was kind of hot that his soulmate finished the job, he was also jealous he didn’t get to pull the trigger himself. Danny said he had a fear of clowns and he was determined to keep him safe.

Jason was a little bit of a romantic and he wished he had a proper meeting like most soulmates got but instead he got whatever the fuck bullshit life Danny had. 

Jason took a deep breath after realizing his thoughts were spiraling out of control. He still had to figure out what exactly was after his soulmate, romance could come after he knew how to keep him safe.

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#dp x dc prompt #dp x dc #dc x dp #danny fenton #danny phantom #poor danny #Jason didn’t mean to yell he’s just really on edge #Danny’s going to have some trauma to work through #I’m not sure where I should take this so if anyone has any ideas let me know #That goes for any of my prompts I could honestly use the help #Writing can be difficult and I’m not used to writing #all my prompts are free to use #my asks are open #I’ll go through and fix all of the links today I’m too lazy to do it right this second though

[puppyeared]

I just skimmed through the art part of your blog and holy bajeebus your LMK art is so beautiful and the headcanon ideas you come up with are so good I wanna steal em-

Kinda wanna see like a part 2 of the little angst you did between MK and Macaque a while ago. It's so interesting and I wanna see Macaque's reaction in your art style. (You don't have to of course, it's just a suggestion [idk if i spelled that right])

Thanks for reading and hope you have a good day/night!

Hope this is to your liking ^^

Part one here

#I’m sure there are some character nuances im forgetting but well 🤷🏽 #I want their misunderstanding or whatever they have going on between then come to a head. literally just going ‘wait what’ #for me I think it’s entirely possible that there was an actual fight and maybe tension leading up to that point #cause I feel like macaque is not just bitter about thinking he died to wukong but maybe some stuff that built up to that #maybe the fight was just the breaking point. maybe they’re idiots who don’t talk about it because they think they’re on the same page idk #chipper-smol wrote a cool theory abt them using macaques ‘you’re nothing’ line in s4ep1. from what I understand it could be a direct parall #parallel to when he said that to MK right before MK regained his nerve and hit macaque in the eye.. since flying bark foreshadowed monkey mk #waaaay back in season 1 (where his shadow is his monkey form in the opening) i think that could be deliberate #and they could have gotten billy to voice an entirely different line for that scene. but they reused his line from s3 #in a very specific scene with wukongs narrative foil. hm #that aside I would have liked to hear billy voice the ‘you abandoned me’ line that would have killed me. but that’s just me lol #also looking at this I should have shaded the last frame to make it look more dramatic and serious but I ran out of time :( #if anything I want to see MK try and help them get back together. poor kid tries so hard to understand people so I think it would be cool to #see that happen. that’s what I like about him.. he asked macaque why he was working for LBD instead of accusing him of dooming everyone bc #he wants to and he tried to comfort spider queen by admitting he was scared of LBD too 😭😭 #my art #myart #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #Monkie kid #lmk spoilers #Lego Monkie kid spoilers #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #lmk MK #lmk xiaotian #lmk season 4 #Lego Monkie kid s4

[voidedjuice]

Operators Whisperain and Andreana, returning together from a long mission in Iberia

#arknights #arknights whisperain #arknights andreana #basically whispys artbook page showed her having a red eye under her eyepatch and it got my neurons firing uncontrollably #like ohhhh she could also have some pseudo abyssal hunter dna in her?? hmhmhhmmmm #and then basically the two of them are both purple girls neglected by the narrative so me & a buddy of mine were chatting about the #m on discord and basically i have a new crackship now. yeah. no they havent met in canon they havent done anything in canon. at all basical #help me help us #my art #my artwork #digital art #illustration #digital drawing #artists on tumblr #anyways blease look at them i spent so much time and sanity trying to finish this

[hitwiththetmnt]

moot @beannary! some au comp support from the sidelines

->Based on this post<-

#good luck in the competition-I give you paper towels for support #Alis has good intentions but bad execution:} #may I trouble you with some help dear friend? that stab wound looks like it could use some paper towels #tmnt au propaganda #my art #tmnt spitfire #tmnt separated au #thank you tumblr for breaking and making my blog/likes/followers wig out BUT WE PUSHED THROUGH FOR THE HOMIES #art 4 others

[freaky-flawless]

Dead Tired Honey Swamp

Shout out to @deuces-stone-cold-style for the nightgown inspo!

#monster high #monster high fanart #monster high g1 #honey swamp #dead tired #finished this a couple days ago but couldnt post it #cuz my laptop battery decided it had had enough and finally went caput on me #i have a replacement coming within a i cant really draw until then and im super bummed about it #anyway this drawing was funny #i kinda hated it but thought if i could just add some color that it would help #and it did i love her #shes one of my most detailed mh designs so drawing her is always a doozy #i wanna design a dt wydowna to match because they are ghoulfriends #also sorry the nightgown isnt that accurate to the actual reference #i dont think honey is particularly a lace ghoulie which is why i went with the wispy plant fringe #and i really dont like drawing floral patterns i just used the csp presets 🥲 #i know the dt dolls come with little accessories but she gets a blankie #and i couldnt fit the sleep mask because i refused to get rid of the bow on her bonnet #id in alt #my art #sabz art

[spoopup]

UM. heres this. my hand hurts

#tgaa 2 spoilers #tgaa spoilers #tgaa #the great ace attorney #asoryuu #kazuma asogi #ryunosuke naruhodo #ive been working on this all day i could not do anything wlse until i finished this. Help me #i think u can tell i was getting tired near the end i had a vision makimg this i hope. i at least got it through Smiles #lalala they haunt my mind! #i first thought of this while looking for paint for my walls and was listening to skyfall and was like. holy balls #<- and ive been thinking of it since i got a rush of motivation to do it today. I needed to share this #i love rambling in tags sorry LOLL #my art #(i need to get some app for making animatics etc because i keep using procreate with 37483 layers for the frames im worried its gonna explod #e)

[megacarapa]

i found this post and had to make it with them immediately

#mine #dr stone #drst #sengen #senku #gen #hyoga #senku is that motherfucker who cant say i love you back. but he finds other ways #i spent too long thinking about who should be the third guy here #i felt like a lot of characters could potentially play that role in certain circumstances but it still didnt really fit them #i made a first draft where the third guy was kohaku bc its super easy to find an angry screencap of her #but then got so offended at myself for making that bc she is NOT like that she loves love #then i thought it would be funny if it was ukyo but its impossible to find an angry pic of him #then i looked back at the original image and saw it was darth vader and was like. #oh yeah no duh i should be using hyoga GSHSBSFNA #anyway if anyone here knows about..... sigh. lego star wars i guess #id love some help to find the source of this bc it would be funny as a video too gdhgfj #anyway i love the 5th panel. how chewbacca is just there

[asavt]

"Please enjoy the freedom I deny to myself don't have"

#What it Means to Dream #fnaf au #fnaf oc #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf sun #fnaf puppet #fnaf nightmarionne #Mimi #Maria #The usual for Maria would be send out Mimi with Helpi to get him anything necessary #usually just helpi when the things he needs are small #I imagine that after a while of having repaired the DA #Maria starts to send them with Mimi outside #so they get to see what they did not while in the pizzaplex and get them used to it #since well #Maria did get them outof the burned down building to spite the company #and also because he thought he could get some extra help #Mimi has its own set of tasks to do #my art #digital art #fan art #art