#i could make this look so much better

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[shima-draws]

*insert corny ramble about how much these two and PMD means to me as a whole*

Anyway I wanted to redraw this piece so here we are

#Pokemon #PMD #Pokemon Mystery Dungeon #Piplup #Chimchar #Team Seablaze #Pip #Hikochama #Shima arts #PMD Sky #Redraw #Redraw meme #Redraw challenge #Art #Digital art #Idk man I've kinda just been stuck in an art rut lol #I used to draw SO MUCH a few years back.....whuh happen.............. #Anyway I saw this and went awwww but then I bet I could make it better now #Looking at old art is fun. Cringe inducing! But fun #shima-draws

[sesamenom]

Gil-galad Variations, featuring all the gil galad theories i've encountered.

#silm #silmarillion #gil galad #gil galad son of plothole #<- best tag lol #personally i like the maglor theory #son of lalwen is probably my second favorite? #also that would make him the 16th known finwean grandkid #the aegnor/andreth peredhel variant is interesting #also i feel like when everyone meets him in valinor/the halls finrod would just look at aegnor like :/ #finrod: 'if you were just going to ignroe my whole speech you could have at least told me so i could get birthday gifts for the kid!' #the russingon one looks very much like nerdanel lol #both the maedhros ones' hair is *just* dark enough to not cause a diplomatic incident #the elured/elurin one is really funny #like. hes 0% noldor not even related to finwe at all. like. theyre descended from different cuvienen families. they literally are 0% relate #he was raised by cirdan who is also 0% noldor #but he is somehow a better king of the noldor than like 90% of the previous ones #even funnier if hes Just A Guy #did they accidentally switch the real finwean baby? did they just grab a random kid and go 'oh well close enough'? who knows? #i think princess-faelivrin has a FAQ about the leading version of fin-galad (gil galad being finduilas)

[bunnieswithknives]

I have no idea whats going on in Amanda the Adventurer lore wise but I keep seeing her monster design in thumbnails and its so bad it pisses me off so have some foeart about it (like fanart but angry) + some process doodles

#As I said I have no clue whats going on story wise so for all I know its great #no hate to anyone who likes this game #but her monster design..... why..... #amanda the adventurer #redesign #doodles #theres so much they could have done with her but she's just so generic!!! why!! #it looks like they slapped human hair onto a rat. and she does look like a weird rat #they have so much sheep themeing they could have incorperated at least some of that #not to mention they ditched her entire color pallet?? there are ways to make a character look sickly without making them stark white #the way they did the eyes makes it look like she has rocks on her face. they dont even read as eyes because they didn't give her pupils #wont try to claim this is necessarily a better design but at least its recognizable as Amanda

[wildflowercryptid]

it's all fun and games until your goofy ass kinnie jokes actually start to bring some interesting similarities to light.

#inspired by real events i realized this in the middle of the night and i stg i could hear the glass shattering in my mind #i will admit that i haven't watched eva so everything i know about kawoshin is via fandom osmosis and their more iconic moments #the ''maybe i was born to meet you'' scene stands out a lot to me & i'm so close to redrawing it w/ kieflo #the fucking blurb about kaworu's relationship w/ shinji on the nge wikia is making me want to gnaw on my desk tho #''kaworu represents an idealized figure to shinji'' GEE I WONDER WHO THAT SOUNDS LIKE HMM #listen florian's not doing much better with basically having homura & laios on his kinnie list #i really need to watch eva at some point... i'm gonna have to look up some trigger warnings bc i know it gets rough #( i'm moreso worried about how gore heavy it could be tho ) #pokemon #pkmn scarvio #neon genesis evangelion #kawoshin #chara : florian russel cavallari #chara : kieran hinoki #tealmaskshipping #🎨 : mj draws #i'm not doing extensive tagging since this is mostly a shitpost

[lunarin64art]

That feeling when he can't stand to see you that way, no matter what you do, no matter what you say😩😭💔

#scott pilgrims precious little life #scott pilgrim vs the world #spvtw #spto #scott pilgrim #wallace wells #lisa miller #scollace #kim pine #natalie adams #envy adams #don't rlly know if I like how this turned out but oh well;;; #hope its obvious that this is based on the song “Scott Pilgrim” which the creation the comics were inspired from #the lyrics always make me think of Wallace and Lisa's feelings for Scott every time I hear it #ofc you could also relate it to Kim especially since the singers voice kind of reminds me of her #but overall the lyrics fit these two much better since Scott never truly “saw them that way” despite how long they've liked him #and they always seem happier to see him compared to Kim #Im surprised tho that I havent yet seen anyone draw these two together now that their dialogue parallels have been acknowledged more lately #also tho I wish more people pointed out that they both got cucked by red heads LOL #and Kim and Envy actually do look really similar when scott first meets them #makes me wonder if Scott subconsciously went for Envy since she reminded him of Kim (which would be fitting given that you could argue that #Envy dated Scott because he reminded her of Todd. Since he and Scott are confirmed to be meant to be seen as similar to one another #so much so that even their first and last names rhyme #last thing I'll add tho is that while Wallace and Lisa are very similar even personality wise #the one big difference is that despite that whole conclusion on vol4 of Scott not cheating on Ramona with Lisa because he loves her #the writers apparently think it would be “organically correct” for him to have an affair with wallace LMAO #but I guess we shouldn't be surprised since Wallace and Ramona are both in the front of the official valentines art which is clearly #a deptiction of Scotts wet dream or smth (oh and you could also argue that Wallace and Lisa parallel on that art since they're both #shirtless with white socks.. which could be a reference to how lisa wears skimpy clothes for Scott and Wallace often only wears boxers #to like sexually frustrate Scott for fun or smth

[frogayyyy]

to love, is to turn back and look

star trek: the motion picture novelisation - gene roddenberry // orpheus and eurydice - frederic leighton (1864) // first love / late spring - mitski // star trek: the motion picture // talk - hozier // orpheus mourning the death of eurydice - ary scheffer (1814) // metamorphoses - ovid (translated by sir samuel garth)

#star trek #spirk #the motion picture #it's not really about him looking #it's more about him learning to choose to look #learning to give in to himself and his needs and his love #if that makes sense #i'm tired #hmm i think someone made a similar post to this a while ago actually #and i'm only just remembering now because i think i said the same thing then #sorry if it's very similar #i wish i could make gifs properly bc it would be so much better i think

[bixels]

I feel like I've seen most of what interests me in FiMFiction for the time being, so I read through some good ol' reliable Stardew Valley fanfics last night, only to realize.

Haley x Female Farmer is basically Rarijack. Rarijack adjacent.

#personal #delete later #not art #unfortunate that i'm really not into the BIG popular ships in stardew #like. i downloaded talkohlooey's character sprites for my sdv because the men just look so much better #with talkohlooey sebastian actually looks like a cute guy i'd wanna date. default seb looks like a very very specific white boy. #like. the mod of an anime community discord server. #he looks like every white anime fan i knew in high school who very intentionally tried to look and dress more asian #so unfortunately i'm not really into any of the male bachelors. They are All White. #I went after Alex at first but he's a white bread jock. #So I'm really not interested in ships with Shane or Elliot or Sebastian which make up 2/3 of the romance fics #I do think Harvey is cute he has a lot of personality and he's a sweetheart #stardew expanded has victor AND olivia which is such a fucking win. Asians fuck yeah #I usually pursue Penny. Fluttershy vibes lmao #hopefully chocolatier has some dateable men who Aren't White. #Really can't recommend Talkohlooey's sprites more. Fantastic art style AND character design direction to boot. They made Emily Not #Terrifying Looking which is incredible. #still wish you could date the milfs though who said that #i said it. i'm fessing up. why did concernedape put all these women in unfulfilling marriages with mediocre/crappy men #what are you getting at.

[3lostyears]

i adore how protective nine is of rose but i also think what is regarded a lot of the time as ten not caring about or valuing rose in the same way is him having more faith in her. it’s kind of like when people complain about rose not challenging ten the way she did nine when they’re just much more on the same page in s2 because they know each other better, so she doesn’t really need to.

in theory, ten could have yelled at rose in the idiot’s lantern for not waiting for him when she confronted magpie. but he doesn’t, he loses his mind trying to save her (VERY nine) and also acknowledges that her observation was spot on. the whole “domestic approach” line gets attention but i have never really interpreted his intention as being to insult her; in some ways, i feel her reaction is a holdover from nine, who did put down the idea of domesticity (and also actively manipulated her into leaving her mum in world war 3 which never really gets mentioned).

and of course, rise of the cybermen is a parallel to father’s day. the doctor starts out harshly talking to her the way he did when he was nine, forbidding her to see her father, but then he gives in when she just looks at him. which is exactly what he does that in father’s day too of course.

like, why do you think she refuses to be sent away in doomsday, another direct parallel to parting of the ways? she’s saying she’s not a kid anymore, that she already made her way back to him once before. she can’t be protected from the hard choices anymore and she won’t be, because she understands everything that it means to be the doctor’s companion. you never see it on-screen but clearly sometime between tooth & claw and doomsday she asks about what happened before he regenerated; she has to learn that she is the bad wolf, especially when she is to continue her journey of turning into nine in s4 and making hard choices. ten wouldn’t have known that, but it’s a mark of the respect and faith (he believes! in her!) that he stops protecting her from the truth.

#ninerose is so special and i get why people may prefer s1 over s2 because it’s TIGHT #but like…there’s a reason why the romance in s1 is kinda paternal lol #nine probably would have let the devil survive to save rose #or would have needed her to yell at him to make the choice #ten said i choose delusion and being in love and was RIGHT #doctor who #timepetals #ninerose #tenrose #s2 is so much better than people give it credit for tbh #like. direct link between rose looking into the heart of the tardis and ten killing the devil #they’re both insane and they’re soulmates #and then she got stranded on bad wolf bay and KNEW she could get back. some how some day #dw meta

[delicatepointofview]

12 YEARS OF ONE DIRECTION

"We were always lucky that we had each other to share the experience with. I think we were the lucky ones. We could have all lost the plot because of all the madness that was going on around us. But we were all very good at calling each other out and we genuinely got on, were able to know each other's boundaries and suss each other out" — Niall Horan.

#harry styles #liam payne #louis tomlinson #niall horan #zayn malik #one direction #1d #1dsource #hljournal #hlcreators #stylesnews #dailytomlinson #tomlinsonedits #stylesedits #gif* #this could have looked so much better but oh well they didnt make it easier for me lol #i chose this quote because THEY ALWAYS HAD EACH OTHER AND THEY GENUINELY GOT ON <3 #there's still 50min to go in london but its the 23rd in several places so whatever i want to get this out already

[laidenbreecatchall]

It's been a good drawing day

(transcript under cut)

Character not pictured: "I'm cleaning your nasty ass hats"

Peng: "I feel so naked"

Messy silky black hat hair

Shachi: "Be gentle with them"

Sooour! (Based off Odas drawing of Laws reaction to eating Umeboshi)

(Next to a little doodle of myself) I feel grody

#one piece #trafalgar law #my art #one piece shachi #one piece penguin #hatless shachi #hatless penguin #pirates of heart #heart pirates #law ate a umeboshi btw #penguins hair was impossible to figure out. i tried so many different styles and all of them felt wrong #if or more likely when i draw him again if hes not wearing his hat i'll make his hair uhhh better #shachi looks exactly how he looks in my head #penguin not so much i may futz with his design a bit #i feel like he could be more square #also his nose seems slightly too similar to how i draw Law's #also whenever i dont know what outfit to put a character in its always button up hoodie combo

[hajihiko]

Robot, undead monster, pirate, werewolf, and Gangranauch The gaping hunger of the Darkest Night

#Fuck it I managed to slap this together lol #Sonia gets REAL ambitious about halloween and its always obscure mythology #Souda could have had a much better robot costume but he spent all his time making a functional beam gun and visor #And ran out of time and had to improvise the rest #Fuyuhiko tried other costumes but ppl always thought the eyepatch was a part of the costume so 'pirate vampire??' #Eventually he just went with pirate so he didnt have to talk to people as much #Akane is a werewolf because shes cute and I said so #I always thought her Kicking Ass sprite looked werewolf-y #Hajime is self explanatory. What Hath Humanity Wrought #Super danganronpa 2 #Danganronpa 2 #Danganronpa #super danganronpa goodbye despair #Hajime hinata #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Kazuichi Souda #Sonia nevermind #Akane owari #An art

[aether-weather]

SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD

#i rise from the dead once again!! #sorry about the long periods of time in between me posting #school is absolutely kicking my ass right now and i havent had any time to draw the creatures :( #ive also just been feeling unsatisfied with my art as of late #its probably just too much time online looking at other peoples art making me feel bad about myself #even though im improving as fast as i can it doesnt feel like im getting any better #but i know from experience that that feeling doesnt go away with time #so i guess ill always see flaws in my art no matter how hard i try to get better #man. that got really depressing :/ #anyways SAGE!!! i love her she is my favorite of all time and im going to draw her so much yall dont even KNOW :D #ive got tons of other stuff planned too so watch out >:3 #i could hit you guys with 6 paragraphs of au lore any day now #sonic the hedgehog #sage robotnik #AWWWHHHGG SHE HAS HER OWN LITTLE TAG IM SOBBING #anyways #sage sonic #hatsune miku #i guess #whoof im scared to post this #or maybe im just exhausted #probably both :/

[coldshrugs]

you two keep silent and the silence gets delicious. one of you two talk and listening gets delicious. [x]

@harumeau has blessed me with the dreamiest sketches of io and estinien!!

#io/estinien #io laithe #estinien varlineau #ffxiv #these are so so important to me !! LOOK AT THEM!! #the easy touches and comfy smiles take me out #and i have to be real. that sleepy cuddle is maybe my favorite art of them ever of all time 😭😭😭😭😭 #thank you so much for taking my chaotic refs and ideas and making this!!! this compilation could not be better #i love it so much #so many details!!! HANNAH WHY?! #their hair looks so soft and SO MUCH ARM!!! #fine i'm posting this at 3am because i can't sleep and have no chill

[puppyeared]

i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed

#like we have so many ways of doing things that could help us in the long run but because we're told it requires more work we just cant #its too resource intensive. or maybe its too much to maintain. we have to overlook benefits so money can go into more important things #we teach each other to do things a certain way so it works for everyone but who was it convenient for first? what abt who it might hurt? #i have to wonder if the rules our current system uses is worth listening to or following if it doesnt have our best interests in mind. u an #me and the ppl around us.. would we be better off if i ate my meals knowing the person who grew it wanted to feed others the way they could #feed themselves? and that isnt to say we're going to be happy doing it but i guess satisfied that its helping someone instead of quietly #accepting that itll eventually go in the dumpster behind a grocery store because it stopped looking appetizing or it wasnt on sale anymore #what about building homes so we can shelter each other? what if we were satisfied with what we did because we knew it would be paid back #with kindness? isnt that what we evolved to do?? heal each others bones and tell stories and help each other?? #why dont houses come with solar panels or generators unless we find a way to make people pay to use the sun? why is our pooled money used #to fund genocides instead of education and hospitals? whose interests and convenience came first when we started this?? #i wont pretend to know the answer because i dont. but we all know we're miserable and im sorry to say that i cant see myself fighting #for a world that wont fight for me too. why do we work if we cant live from it?? why did they stop us from plucking more teeth from our #bosses until they could build more walls around themselves and then go back to underpaying us?? #im so tired. i cant even imagine making it to age 70 #yapping #vent

[aroaceleovaldez]

re: my recent Hazel posting. more of yall have got to start drawing Hazel as fat. make her chubby. make her stout. i can't keep doing this alone.

#pjo #riordanverse #hazel levesque #''omg i love your hazel'' then join me. take my hand. #i genuinely cant remember if her being fat is canon or not cause i could have sworn it was #and my friends could have sworn it was #but i have no idea where to find that in the books and cannot be bothered to look #and the fandom's fanart makes me question my memory but also. see: Frank. enough said. #but like from a character design perspective. the SHAPE LANGUAGE. the duo character contrasts. the character silhouettes. #do yourself the favor it's great i promise #man i really need to make that video about pjo char design #holds fandom gently. you could be doing so much better #i can show you the world (shape and color language and character design)