#i cant figure out why yet

[mechanicalinfection]

My blood runs red but my body feels so cold.

#tw blo0d #tw: gore #art #digital art #fnaf #springtrap #spring bonnie #fnaf movie #this is literally one of my most longest projects #i dont know why it took so long #shoutout to raven and people who gave me the idea to turn this art very bloody #it took so long yet it's worth it #me thinks #anyways i cant figure out if it's springtrap or spring bonnie since i had the fnaf movie in mind #enjoy

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

I've been playing stardew non-stop. It's not even the new update (I'm playing on console) I just got excited by the talk about 1.6 and started a new save for the first time in almost a year lol

Tried romancing Shane for the first time and it's very sweet but also so so silly. local gay boy falls for the saddest, most pathetic guy in a 50 mile radius. more at 7

#i made valhim b/c i havent done anything with him yet besides turn him around in my head #and i figured a druid would be a good pick for the Gay Farming Simulator #i also finished the community center for the first time!! very cool very fun 10/10 #im trying to get as far as possible before 1.6 comes out on console #valhim reckladen #stardew farmer #stardew valley #stardew shane #stardew valley fanart #my art #digital art #digital artist #artists of tumblr #i wish shane didnt immediately go back to drinking once you get married :/// #at least there are implications that he's got it under control #but like. why cant he keep drinking sparkling water instead?? or joja cola??? #why is his room disgusting??? #he is still sweet though

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[highfunctioningfleshrule63]

heres this. i cant decide what kinda pinup outfit cody should wear.

#punkers gonna be in the line up too i just need to finish his pose. the codypunksethdrew polycule of messy bitches will be formulated #i dont know why i cant see seff as anything but a trashy 2000s partygirl. dont ask me why. i wanted to put cody in something americana but #i cant figure it out. aaughhiuuhh #this came abt bc one of my dearest mutuals kept talking abt drew in a cow pinup outfit #punk will of course be in the succubus outfit. just wait #my art #i dont think ill tag this accordingingly. not yet

[nerdie-faerie]

Currently thinking about the last time I met up with my college friends, and we went around the table reintroducing ourselves with names and pronouns, cus it gets like that. And every time it would come around to me, I would deflect and distract instead of answering because I hadn't actually figured it out yet. It's coming up on a year since then, I still have no idea what the answer would be

#Queer gang #it was literally this time last year cus it was the last time i went home for winter break that i saw them all #i panicked and got distracted the first time i was supposed to introduce myself despite the fact theyre the last people who would judge #but were a bunch of very easily distracted fckers so it wasnt even that noticeable that i hadnt answered at first #but then one of them realised id never actually introduced myself and i cant even remember how i changed the topic #but someone would always realise in the middle of someones story so id just redirect the attention to what we were already discussing #to buy myself time to think but i never actually came up with an answer and im stuck on a coach rn so my brain has all this time to think #and im just. its been a year since that incident its been several years since i started to think maybe my gender didnt entirely fit #but every time i try to figure it out like a puzzle like i did with my sexuality the first time i realise i dont really have an answer #its not that i feel that something else would fit better and i cant figure out why it doesnt feel right in the first place #is it because i was raised hyperfeminine despite growing up predominantly around brothers? #is it because tradition gender roles dont fit anyway when yoyre queer because so much of gender is tangled up in sexuality? #is it because im taking too much of a theoretical/whatever approach to it when i know gender is predominantly a social construct? #is it because its just not that deep and i dont care? or do i care and i just havent figured it out yet? idk

[evilsciencebox]

i remembered something i eventually wanted to make a post about and idk if its something i'm personally just looking into too much or whatever but it's just been simmering in my mind almost forgotten since march i think.

i thought it'd be kinda interesting if the time/date of the areas (past, future, etc), specifically in relation to n. gin, n. brio, cortex and n. tropy, correlated to the way they think.

n. gin's behaviour in crash 4 kinda says to me that he isn't one to dwell on the past all that much even though he definitely could considering all he's been through. His mind is on his current objective(s), whether that objective is work related or personal is irrelevant because it's about figuring out how he's going to get there and what's next.

n. brio is very obviously caught up in the past and is what's driving him forward at this point. it's a pretty significant thing he talks about in his levels, getting even with cortex being the main one. lamenting the fact that he doesn't truly have any friends either is another.

cortex is a little similar to n. brio albeit different reasoning. he's stumbling a bit on his past failures which i'd say would be hard ignore when you have someone like uka uka to contend with, though it's not really something that holds cortex back. he even tries (fails) to fix his biggest failure by physically going back to the past.

the fact that the year for n. tropy's area is unknown suits him well imo. since time is his speciality he might not always look at things from a particular view in time but also, he's just kinda spiteful which just backfires on himself and his plans considerably no matter the angle he's looking at things from.

i'm not sure if i worded that all in the best way but it's still interesting to me.

#evil science has entered the chat #crash bandicoot #crash bandicoot 4: it's about time #n. gin #n. brio #n. tropy #neo cortex #crash analysis #i would've expanded more on certain points but im outta energy on this one lol #probably why i hadn't written my thoughts on this yet #i had more to say for n tropy but i cant figure out how to word it rip

[winterrose42]

Finding out youre agorophobic is wack bc its like, if you dont know then for me at least you just go out anyway and dissociate the whole time feel like absolute garbage and take days to recover from a small trip to groceries and finding every excuse possible to drop plans with people until they eventually stopped asking and stopped talking altogether. And now its like, oh. Is this why going outside feels like dying. Huh. And i wanna go out and do things but the thought makes me vomit for a week leading up to it and i was told oh its just being dramatic so yeah cool whatever.

Now im like, okay i actually have to get to used to going out and being around people adn put things in place for the paranoia and anxiety and plan things in advance and i gotta tell myself about it and walk myself through it everyday leading up. And im an adult so fuck everyone i will in fact be taking my headphones and a fidget and wearing my rat jacket as a security blanket in 90 degree weather thank you. I am in fact, allowed to accommodate myself and set boundaries fuck you actually.

#winter speaks #figuring out i was gaslit my whole life on more than just yhe two things i was aware if is fucking insane #i have a lot of the same problems my mom has that she fuckin caused or ignored and all my life #i couldnt have this and this and this bc youre just copying me and usinh my excuses #bitch you gave me this shit and then described what you deal eithnusing vocab i hadnt learned yet #and i connected yhe dots and eent oh and instead of you being self awate enough to also go oh you just berated me until i shut up #its really weird living in the same house as someome that gave youost of your issues. and the relationships better and you cant leave yet #but working through things and tryung yo accomodate and take care of yourself and be justifiably angry #while hiding it from the person youre living with bc all you wantbyo do is scream at them and ask them why and istead #youre asking if they want coffee bc youre making some and letting them know therell be packages next week n sorry about that #is a fucking whiplash experience and im just sitting here like °-° i wanna smash things and scream #anyway. get therapy if you can its fun

[joelletwo]

alright bye forever. hard to be sad about leaving my weekend off when i have all day thursday to look forward to translating the new natsuyuu chapter 👉🏻👈🏻

#THO IT STILL drives me crazy i cant preorder it yet. why. ill have to figure that out tuesday after work and good luck lol

[casismybestfriend]

Damn, I can’t believe it…

#finally started watching it and i caught this part haha #i couldnt figure out the best way to translate it tho #does anyone have a better translation? #‘chin’ is like the same spirit as other exclamations like shit dammit fuck etc but milder like shoot or darn #and ‘no puede ser’ is ‘it cant be’ but in english sounds old fashioned so maybe more like ‘i cant believe it’ or ‘no way #marvel #werewolf by night #jack russell #spanish #languages #my gifs #my posts #gifs #i made this gif on my phone so that’s why the quality is ugh #i didn’t even finish the movie yet i literally paused it to make this

[itsbrucey]

Sorry guys I live for three things and that's D&D, Bears, and my Ocs and I've been trying to draw my little guys more bc they make my brain BLEED

Fun little chart thing so I can just. Be free . And now you gotta look. I'm still drawing DnDads stuff too DON'T SWEAT!!!!! like here look

Glenn Wip.

#dndads #ocs #wips #dndads spoilers #idk how to draw Glenn so bear with me. i will figure it out. im at the trial arc again and its hitting the feelings #also my ocs!!!!! you dont fucking care but sit down let me talk /j #from right to left! Dulcie. Jamison. Caspian. Eli. Lorraine. Barren. and Anthony. #I've thought about drawing Dulcie and Eli with the Daddies before just for funsiessssss #you cant tell but Eli is a massive naga and Dulcie is an ice cream slime girl so you can figure out why i havent yet. #Caspian is also a half giant and hes like if Darryl and Henry had a well adjusted son ( normal person ) #Anthony is half vampire and no relation to the Burch kind #Barren is a ghost. weirdo. Lorraine is just a human but shesss cool and has an adiptive daughter

[karvakera]

random oc doodles I have that no one asked for 😼

#im going to write a whole essay in tags dw abt me guys #anyways haha #my oc mau never beating these gojo allegations #maybe thats why I like gojo sm I see him as my silly son😭 #I dont think ill care if this flops I just want u guys to see them I love my sillies so much #also I dont want to be strictly jjk artist so😼 watch me figure my own account out #kinda want to do trigun art too... or genshin.. I have had so many silly moments in coop #most fucked up thing is how little time I have #saw screenshots of new jjk episode AND I CANT WATCH IT (maybe saturday though) #literally did biology homework FOR THREE HOURS #OUR FIRST BIOLOGY LESSON IS TOMORROW!! WE HAVENT EVEN MET THE TEACHER YET #I think I have a test tomorrow in swedish 😨 #also my roommate broke the lamp trying to help me change the trash bag (old one had broken somehow) #I vaccuumed the floor like 6 times #I still find glass #its like glitter #its on the floor its in her hair its in the corridor its in my slippers and I even found one in my foot #oc #own character #art #digital art #artists on tumblr #guys could u tell but I hate musk so sooooo much #mau and sol #I have a pan on my shelf #theres an amogus plushie in it #I miss artfight it was so much fun #(I was fighting for my life trying to revenge everyone)

[perenlop]

One thing about my worldbuilding that isn't really important, I just think it's cute: the Pokemon anime is a TV show within the main gameverse and it's meant to educate kids about certain Pokemon while telling it's own story that's very, very, verrry loosely based on Red's journey.

#saying bc castor caught a few episodes of it and hes a fan #i take a few things from it or at least inspirations from it but for the most part its its own thing #also i think red watches the show and really likes it. hes really flattered. blue thinks gary is funny as hell #the main thing i take is the implications behind meowth's character but he's not a legit example of a pokemon learning to talk #idk if that makes sense. also humans assume that each and every pokemon speak the same language #when... its not like they cannot communicate with each other. this is where aura and telepathy kind of come in #every pokemon is capable of some form of telepathy that varies among species #but untrained- they can talk with their own species and others within that family- like canine pokemon can talk to each other #but otherwise nope. they cant really talk with one another. at least not inherently #its something a pokemon can be trained to do like extend their telepathy so that feline and equine pokemon can hear them #and it takes a LOT to learn how to do that with a human #usually caught pokemon naturally learn to do this since theyre usually exposed to a ton of different pokemon #... mayyyybe theres a quality in pokeballs that helps with that? i dont know i havent figured that out yet #also its easier to learn how to hear other species talk than it is to actually speak it #so a lot of caught pokemon can understand what their trainer is saying and ofc can hear battle commands #but they wont be able to actually talk to them #in pmd however this is all completely out the window. all pokemon understand one another and they also understand humans #bc their auras evolved overtime so that telepathy with all pokemon is natural to them #idk why that is yet exactly... i have to iron that out but these are my ideas for now #maybe it was something the legendaries did... it could also just be a side effect of pokemon growing to have their own civilizations #it is VERY weird for castor when he enters bc he hadnt learned telepathy with every type yet but suddenly bam he knows everything #and its very surreal to him to suddenly have a steelix talking to him #echoed voice

[eye-of-yelough]

TEHEHEHEEEEE ITS ALL COMING TOGETHER…

#okay. aeryn trusts mr warlock (need to think of a name. im think Zhander for some reason) and mr warlock sells him #haven’t figured out the details of who to and what happens to aeryn yet but i do know this. #is tied to how he meets The Real Gortash. cos at this point they’ve met but i think aeryn blew him off and gort wasn’t having that. #so. he does some digging on him. finds out about mr warlock. captures him. tortures him. breaks him. #corners aeryn in an alley. ‘you’ve been ignoring me and i can’t have that. we can - we WILL. be brilliant together. #and to demonstrate my goodwill. here is the fuckhead who threw you away like you were nothing. i have broken him. for you. #do whatever you want with him anything at all. cant you see? i am so much better.’ #oh and karlach is there also he’s the one dragging mr warlock on a leash. because i love pain. #it’s their only interaction and they don’t even look directly at each other but it’s Significant. #why is gort’s ‘love’ language with aeryn gifting him slaves #anyway i LOVE this i’m chewing on it i wanna write it so bad. #your daily dose of idiocy #oc aeryn #aeryn and gortash

[redactedgender]

screaming. crying. throwing up. /neg

#dog.txt #my stupid fuck ass insurance hasnt authorized my ct scan so they fucking canceled it #so now i have to email the doc whos been helping me to figure out if she can contact and negotiate w my insurance abt this #i just want to start t man. whys this so fucking difficult. i literally have it in my bathroom already i just cant take any yet #im so tired. i dont know why insurances are like this its suuuuuuucks

[littencloud9]

STOP STOPPP IM SO CONFLICTED OVER WHAT TO SHIP IN THIS DAMN SHOW

#LIKE SHIT. THAT WAS SO CUTE. i was really against v.anijeanne at the start because of how. Weird their dynamic is #plus v.anoe was just so romantically coded i could not read their relationship as anything else #but that scene!!! of vanitas alone and jeanne being the one to come up to him!!!!!! and the HUG AW #and THE CHEEK KISS #i always wince when v.anijeanne have a bloodsucking scene because yeah it's hot but i find that to be the worst part of their dynamic lol #BUT THEN SHE WENT OFF AND VANITAS HELD HIS CHEEK LOOKING ALL DUMBSTRUCK #LIKE THAT WAS GENUINELY SO SWEET I DIED #but then theres v.anoe. who own the entire op and their dynamic is fascinating and i fr think vanitas has a crush on noe that he hasnt #quite figured out yet bc of how closed off his heart is #god. never fucking mind vanitas has two hands he can date both of them #but ARGH!!!! this is like struggling between s.skk and a.tsulucy all over again lol #i like them both but i cant picture atsushi dating both bc i think aku would not be able to stand it #same here. i dont think noe could stand it. especially cause jeanne's mark is on vanitas. i think therell be BIG jealousy issues on his end #sigh. why did i pick the most bisexual anime ever. even IM conflicted and im not vanitas #lena watches vnc

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

13 was here

#dont care how dont care why #let me figure out where in her timeline this happens #has someone written this fic yet bc it should exist #theres space between sea devils and potd #there #now two options she can take yaz. not explain anything just like. take her here #12 is here for 3 weeks before clara and missy show up thats plenty of time #or she could go alone #i think i'd have her take yaz - not dan - but then also manage to go a little missing for a bit so she can talk to 12 alone #not tell him who she is but it wouldnt be hard to figure out #she lets him try on her coat he lets her play his guitar #maybe she can come to terms with the whole clara situation a little bit. the missy situation #and then a little later maybe she cant help it and introduces 12 to yaz yaz to 12 #and 12 looks at her like. are we just gonna do this again then. we're just doing it again #and shes like no we're not #but she cant say that obviously #but she Can be very forceful that this is Yaz My Friend Yaz #unfortunately missy and clara were also exactly that. that was like the entire thing. FriendsTM #so. this doesnt communicate to 12 what she wants it to. it does manage to crush yazs hopes a little more tho so 👍 #no but like the setup here isperfect. they both think theyre about to die. they both have Complicated Entanglements #has someone written this yet