#i cannot express to yall

[euqinim0dart]

Now that I have my artwork organized into my blog, I can see that I wasted 2022-2023 creating some pieces of work that were not "me", in favor of posting art that could possibly get me hired.

When in actuality, the art I create from the heart WILL get my hired and has done so. That weird dip period in my art is honestly the remnants of discouraging past voices finally leaving. With the irl naysayers gone it is now easier to create.

sooo if any of you noticed art styles changing suddenly one day and gone the next, that's why! but im getting back to consistency.

#text #I cannot express to yall just how damaging only a few people have been to my overall confidence in creating #this has been a long battle since high school too #seeing so many on tumblr and at conventions say they like my art means that those people were just being mean to me. Intentionally

[rowanswriting]

boy & girl dinner

#he’s so beefy fuck #I cannot express what I want to do rn #HES SO HOT #joseph quinn #eddie munson #yall I’m creaming

[rcarx]

#warrior nun #avatrice #personal #i cannot express how long this has been in my brain for #and I'm finally getting to it thank god #also trying to find a frontal short of jc is literally impossible #his face is 5 pixels but yall don't care right #parks and rec #sister camila #michael salvius #sister lilith #icb her name is #lilith villaumbrosia #rcarx's thoughts and prayers

[napping-sapphic]

You should make me fall so deeply in love with you that it’s embarrassing

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #and BEFORE any of yall say that ‘oh um actually love is never embarrassing’ shit— fight me #respectfully we cannot vibe #half of love for me is goinn around KNOWING that i would eat a cardboard box if it meant i could see the person i love smile at me #and it is my god given RIGHT to cringe at myself for it #also love in general is so fucking embarrassing #having the feelings doing the in love thing expressing it #it’s all EMBARASSING #the whole POINT is that the love makes me do it anyway #like if i love you enough to EXPRESS it??? like damn i love you A LOT #like obviously it’s different for everyone but this is what my post is about #and i am choosing to say in advance that NO this is not where we’re doing any of that ‘love is never embarassing’ business #let me watch someone trip and think it’s hot so my brain can go: :/ #in PEACE pls #embarassment or cringe isn’t always a bad feeling and yes i WILL die on this hill😤😤😤 #im gay and i like sleeping

[howlonomy]

Got the nmm!Clovers done, front only

I, uh, realized something about the back sprites. I don't think that there's a Geno specific back sprite for in game Clover, meaning that the whole floppy ears thing may be hard to do...

Eh, if I can somehow manage to get to the sprites then I'm sure I could get to the code and make it work. IF I can even figure out how to do it, first.

Anyways I definitely imagine FOUND YOU playing whenever nmm!Clover is running, just look at that face (or lack thereof) and tell me that it doesn't fit.

I realize that the running may be too fast to even see the ears flop back a bit in the new running frame (the first two frames are copied from the walking, and then it goes to the running, then back to the walking frame, then still and then the "mirrored" walking and so on, that's how I managed to make it look a bit fluid)

Anyways, I'll try and continue brainstorming how to get the back nmm sprite to actually work in game if I can get to that point

WAIITT THIS RULES??? i love how you added the shadows over their eyes and the fact that their ears move different in a nm sprite is SO fun and they move back a little bit??? dude you are so good at sprite animation and editing its CRAZYY

AND IT WOULD BE INSANE IF YOU COHLD GET IT TO WORK IN GAME???? ILL DIE INSTANTLY

#asked and answered #art for me #monster clover au #monster clover fanart #VAPORIZED INSTANTLY. #cannot express enough how much i fucking love seeing you do so much wrk for my silly little au…… thank you forever and ever…… #i always appreciate yall taking time out of ur days to draw things for me auagahgh

[wormarchivist]

me talking about deviser like

you will listen to a man be viscerally tortured and you will curl into yourself like the soft shell of your body can protect you. it cannot.

5/5 stars, highly recommend!!!!

#deviser podcast #op #deviser #harlan Guthrie #I cannot express how good this podcast is or how painful it was to listen to #I just sat and listened to all seven eps in a row #and like. holy fuck. I don't think I breathed for the last three episodes #good God yall #t

[themorguepoet]

Transliteration: Karpuragauram Karunāvatarām Sansarsāram Bhujgendrahāram। Sadāvsantam Hrudyārvinde Bhavam Bhavāni Sahitam Namāmi।।

Translation: Lord Shiv, who dwells in my heart along with Mata Bhavāni, one who is white as camphor, one who is the manifestation of compassion, one who is the essence of the universe, and who wears the king of the snakes Vāsuki as his necklace, I bow down to you.

#saawan #saawan is synonymous with worship of mahadev #shiv-bhavani yall #my parents #i cannot express much of what i feel for mahadev #he who drank the dreadful poison #he who is compassion personified #what can I even say in his praise that hasnt been said with better words before? #shubh teras

[bookinit02]

new chapter up now!

#i genuinely cannot express how much i struggled with this chapter #like. it was borderline impossible and i have no idea why #but hopefully yall like it anyway😭💗 #sorry for the Lateness #this will get a whole 3 notes probably bc everyone is asleep #but still. i needed it Done #ok goodnight everyone🫶🏻 #rewrite

[crazymecjc]

“and finally, after five years of terrible mistakes that could never be unmade but could maybe one day be forgiven, yu narukami came home.” - the disappearance of goro akechi, kupowonders

#persona 4 #oof my art i guess #yu narukami #nanako dojima #disappearance of goro akechi #YALL I AM INSANE ABOUT THIS FIC #ITS SO SO GOOD #I AM GNAWING AT THE BARS TO MY ENCLOSURE #IF YOU HAVE NOT READ THIS FIC THEN YOU ABSOLUTELY SHOULD IT IS SO #SOMETHING SOMETHING MAKING TERRIBLE MISTAKES AND BEING LOVED ANYWAY #I AM GRGRGRGRGRGGRGR #CANNOT EXPRESS ENOUGH HOW FANTASTIC THIS FIC IS

[soup-for-my-family]

#i'm crying #i love martin so much #the magnus archives #tma #tma2 #oh... hello #martin blackwood #supernatural #i cannot express how good it feels to hear his voice again #wtf yall #statement remains

[tojisun]

<3

#sometimes i get so shocked that yall actually follow me 😭 like?? i cannot express how thankful i an #u all saw my mess n went ‘yea im staying’ #i love u all dearly #sun rambles

[zarnzarn]

crow, o crow, I ask you this small favour;

gorge on my body when I'm gone.

but I beg you, don't eat my eyes,

don't eat my eyes,

I yearn to see my beloved once more.

#izzy hands #edizzy #blackhands #edward teach #ofmd #ofmd spoilers #tw gore #first link is to the og second is to a cover of it that sounds amazing #also does. anyone here speak hindi. ive never seen anything get as lost as translation as this line #i cannot EXPRESS HOW IT MEANS #something something letting them take you apart as long as they let you stay #baba farid from 700 years ago is this what you expected when you wrote this lmao #anyways do yall think izzy was still holding onto hope to get back to the better times after the toe thing or- #unicorn symbolism also because what the fuck that made me so insane

[deancaskiss]

lil change officially made after weeks of soul-searching, hoping my eagle-eyed followers will notice and appreciate, love yall endlessly 💜

#i know i said i wasnt making more changes like this #but this was something i needed to do #theres a lot of deep meaning to this change #but i feel like ive annoyed yall so much with my self-discovery journey #so to my beautiful followers for supporting and loving me…. my heart is yours #and to anyone who notices the change and uses it…. I LOVE YOU #more will be explained if anyone is curious and wants to know #i just wanted to make this low key so i didnt annoy yall and bother yall #but i cannot even express my love for yall for being here for me and for continuing to support and cheer me on #love yall #mwah xoxo

[a03-anxiousandafraid]

I'll just do a D for draw and W for write to make it easy to parse! I hope you're having a good day and have fun doing these!

🌼 D, 🎀W, ♬: W, and ☁: D

Thank you so much for the ask!!! ❤ and that's perfect ty ty :)

🌼 I have a pair of black joggers that have quickly become my favorite pants for comfy time and I'm embarrassed to say I actually bought them because a fanfic made them sound comfy. BUT THEY WERE CORRECT! I also have 2 shirts I got for free from my first job that are just stupid soft and are just the coziest so I wear them interchangeably. When I draw I'm usually contorted sideways in a terribly unhealthy way on the couch and these let me be weirdly flexible. Also I am wrapped in a blanket 99% of the time as well hahaha

🎀 omg could list a lot of people hahaha Yall on here SO kind and supportive and inspire me a lot. When talking about ideas or reading other people's writing I have to say farore-or-less, deiliamedlini, and embywolf have been incredible motivators for me ❤ (and art wise I'm constantly inspired by newtsnaturethings and redundantz) --removing the @ so I don't accidentally ping everyone and annoy them haha--

♬ I am SO distractible. I am so impressed by people who can listen to themed playlists while they write because if there are lyric I CANNOT focus and write. I love putting on live bossa nova youtube videos because it's a comfortable cozy ambient that makes me feel like I'm in a coffee shop but without the extra noise and people :) "Cozy Coffee Shop" and "Relaxing Jazz Music" on youtube are two of my go-tos

☁ HAHAHA okay omg so believe it or not my guilty pleasure in drawing is to draw anthropomorphic or semi-anthro characters. Nothing nsfw, I am not talented enough for that hahaha, but I've always loved drawing animals and creatures ever since I was a kid but for years tried to force myself to draw people so as a little treat I let myself sit on the couch late at night and draw cute little cat people and D&D character ideas that have horns just because 😭

Thank you so much for these <3 I feel like yall are getting a glimpse into my scampy raccoon life hahahahaha but it's always fun to answer stuff :)

#thank you so much!!!! #ask anxious #ask game #I cannot express how much yall on here make me want to write or give me ideas #I wish I had more time in the day because WHEW I would love to be able to finally get my ideas on paper

[nymphacae]

FUTURE STUFF

#i might end up doing all of these at some point #but i want to prioritize what yall want the MOST #these will either roll out in november OR early next year #tysm again i cannot expression my appreciation for your interest and support enough

[arsonshub]

everyone else: oh man its snowing >:[ I hate snow. its horrible and terrible and cold

me: *lays face down in the snow laughing gleefully*

#yall im SO FUCKING HAPPY #WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS THE EUPHORIA I FEEL RN #ITS MY RUSSIAN BLOOD #I NEEDD SNOW IN MY WINTER #AND ITS FINALLY HERE