#i can't wait to wear it at school

[disdaidal]

I wanna thank my irl friends who follow me here and also my beloved mutuals as well as followers who still send me kind messages and try to interact with me and my stuff even if I'm bad at doing it myself.

Honestly, things haven't been that great with me lately, so... it means a lot to me. Honestly. <3

#personal #i had to make the tough decision to drop out of school last week #i didn't exactly want it if i'm being completely honest here #but certain stuff was preventing me from getting further so i knew the teachers are gonna ask me to quit over at our teams meeting #i instantly contacted my nurse about my situation. and she got me a doctor's appointment which was yesterday #where i kind of broke down a little. not because she didn't grant me the sick leave i thought i was going to get #after feeling down and sleeping terribly for weeks #but because she actually *got me*. like. she actually listened to me and figured out some stuff and told me that #what i'm going through and what i've been going through for years would make anyone depressed #so i couldn't help but cry a little because yeah. i'm so tired of never being enough no matter how hard i try #because my brain's wired a certain way and it makes me slow and kinda clumsy and inattentive at times #which. you might guess is not ideal at today's work environment. or studying-wise even #so instead of granting me sick leave (she did say we can change that at anytime though) she told me to wait for that phone call #from the unemployment office. which i should be getting tomorrow. or well. later today #and talk to them about this. to see if they can offer some solutions. or if we can figure something out #'cause i'm getting closer to my 40s and not getting anywhere and it's wearing me out and tiring me out #because i clearly can't help myself or change my ways on my own #i managed to get some work last week though. at the local youth house. one shift though but money still #but i haven't been getting those offers a lot during the past few months so it's not enough to support me obviously #so i definitely need something else. and i hope i can get help. that someone could help me #i should finally get tested for adhd next month too. i don't know if i even have it or if it's gonna change anything but #at least i'd know #anyway i needed to get this off my chest. cause i'm kinda crying a little bit even now just thinking about this whole thing #sorry

[barricadebops]

I've never seen anything written by Mindy Kaling or any show she's acted in, so when I heard the new Velma shos was going to feature Velma as a South Asian, I was excited. That was until all of the terrible things in the show and now learned of how Mindy Kaling only ever writes South Asian women as loser characters with all the same insecurities being brought up again and again, as well as her weird obsession with white men. Enough Mindy, enough with your self inserts, enough with writing the loser brown girl with the "hairy gorilla arms" that only ever takes me back to my own insecurities, enough with passing off your terrible representation as good representation just because it's representation.

#wow I just can't wait till people see how velma's written in that show and think it's okay to keep these ideas and stereotypes #fun fact: I'm extremely insecure about my own body hair. I don't wear shorts because it's against my religion but I still shave my legs #I hated knowing that when ppl in school would make fun of girls with hairy legs I would be included in that category #for a south asian woman to constantly make shows where the brown character's born-with traits are always the butt of the joke #always brought up #is so demoralizing #I thought we moved past this #it's so clear how Mindy Kaling plays for the white audience #because we south asians are tired #we're tired of it and we're tired of her #anyways that's my little rant lol #velma #velma hbo max #mindy kaling

[marisashinx]

Do you know the Yu-Gi-Oh X Twisted Wonderland fanfic "And You Thought Things Were over?" If you do, what are your thoughts on it? If you don't, are you interested in reading it?

I definitely got interested and read through the first three chapters and holy moly??? it's so much fun??? especially Jaiden interacting with the Hearstlabyul dorm members, also the bit of Vil and Rook trying to understand the physics of Yugi's hair gave me a few chuckles, it's just so entertaining to read! Kudos to the author really!

Also this is how I see Yuya wearing the shcool uniform in Twisted Wonderland!

#thank you for the recommendation! #i can't wait to read more and see the other protagonists #yuya saw how lilia wears his school uniform and said bet #twisted wonderland #yugioh #sakaki yuya #mari answers stuff #artists on tumblr

[unprofessionaldoodler]

part 8 of the taffy series flavor: honey lavender

#taffy series #artists on tumblr #oc #gijinka #original character #she took this picture while she was waiting for her friend to get to the concert #she better be wearing purple #but not that purple dress with the flowers on it #that is not the vibe #overall i like this one too #i wanted to make her look like a girl that you went to high school with #i'm kinda trying out a new shading style if you can't tell #i kinda like it but it still needs some work

[chaotictomtom]

just did one ear.... crochet bear beanie on its way im so close to be done with it

#it took me 3 days but i could have done it in one evening cos i only had to close it up today + make ears #and the first day i just started with 5 rows and left it like this cos i started way too late like a dumbass #but anyway i'm wearing my red and black crochet beanie inspired by one of jesse's beanie almost all the time :3 #i hope this one will turn out fine too yipee #i can't wait to get better i want to make a cat beanie for nour they used to have one back in middle school #wE KNOCK EACH OTHER FOR MORE THAN 10 YEARS it's blowing my mind #my wee bro fr fr

[goldshykitsune]

I just remembered that there are literally people at my school trying to convince the boys at my school to be femboys.

One way they try this is by claiming that all femboys have or get girls.

So the end of being single apparently is just be a femboy.

That's cool

Oh also they told a girl she could try being a tomboy for similar results of ending of singleness.

And honestly this is quite valid stuff cause like... I personally would date anyone (to certain degrees) especially tomboys and femboys.

#but I kinda wish I could ask what a pangender person would dress as then. #like... #what then? #or just do all #dress as all #until you find a successor #also yes there is literally people getting others to actually dress in feminine clothes and be femboy like #just cause they decided they can #so far they have two they have yet to convince that they are working on but since with spring break right now #it kinda stopped their progress #but I actually I wanna see this succeed and honestly if one day I go to school and every male was wearing a feminine or outfit seen as #femboyish them I literally would die. #not for bad reasons but because I'd mentally fail at succeeding in processing so many attractive people. #I already struggle #making everyone to one identifiable type of person I'm attracted to yeah I'd die #right then and there probably. #oh gosh but it'd be like such a blessing #like #.... wow #ooo! bonus points to having transgender femboys tho #... wait what about my nonbinary friend in dresses... okay honestly I've died everytime seeing them in anything. #I honestly can't even fathom looking at them most days cause I die of looking at such gorgeousness. #now they already wear dresses... and skirts and other feminine based things so now them wearing masculine or more neutral clothing... #I'd still die #honestly people hot. I die. that's it. or well people attractive in way of I'd date and I die #(I mean some people I see only as friend so they attractive to being a friend only. or adopted child kinda situation there but still #I got levels of attractiveness that aren't all I'd date or be romanticly or even sexually interested in) #(like a platonic attraction but only to them cause I see them as not dateable at the current time if ever.)

[hunsa-jars]

Aaaa hi hello howdy everyone! The chaos died down so expect the usual screeching tonight

#random squeak #the school year ending ceremony starts in 30 minutes so i have nothing better to do #funny thing is that i don't even have to be here (graduates already had this on their last exam day) #my english teacher insisted because the principal MIGHT mention the project i was part of #honestly i'm okay with it #can't wait to see the show #and like this is the last time i'm gonna wear this frickin uniform so why not :''') let's end it properly #oof i hope you guys are ready for the uncontrollable and unapologetic fnaf fixating that i've been rotating in my whole being #THE TRAILER THE TRAILER THE TRAILER 😭😭😭😭 #I'M NOT OKAY #also i'm planning to watch across the spiderverse this week that will destroy me i can feel it #hope i didn't miss too much moomtual shenanigans- i swear i didn't mean to stay away for this long

[sesamie]

your jacket looks so cool ! i always love your outfits they have so much character to them. how is your day i hope it is good

aaaa thank you!!!! this outfit is actually not done in that picture i also am wearing my yellow doc martens and all my bracelets and carrying my teddy-bear bag which roughly matches the color of the skirt. i never thought of myself as someone who liked fashion until i started buying clothes i wanted instead of clothes i thought i would look good in and now i find myself looking forward to getting dressed everyday!! my day is swell it only just started and today i'm going to the city over for a therapist appointment and also to look for a birthday present for one of my best friends whose birthday is tomorrow!! the drive is like an hour-45 so it's not immediate but compared to the 12 hour drive from wisconsin that i had a couple days ago it's hashbrowns shsjfhsj! i hope you're having a good day too and that something very lucky happens to you!!!!

#aks #it's been a long time since i wore my yellow docs #since i have to be able to take my shoes on and off very easily at my job #(to clean the kids playground gym you can't wear shoes) #so i never get to wear them to work #and i can't wear skirts to work either because of cleaning said gym i do lots of crawling on my hands and knees #don't want to flash everybody even if i'm wearing shorts shsjfhdjd #so i can't wait for school to start so i can wear my docs and skirts and all that again!!

[kittyhazelnut]

had a nice long cry over the fact that the tour I've been waiting to go to with my best swiftie friend for four years is no longer selling any tickets. almost puked a few times in the process. now I'm gonna spend the money I would've spent on concert tickets ordering delivery for chicken tenders instead.

#i turned off every twitter notification except for taylor‚ taylor nation‚ ticketmaster‚ and tom hiddleston #ive contacted the DOJ and signed a govt petition about TM's unfair business practices/its monopoly on the industry #and i plan to email my representatives over the next few days to urge the doj into investigating them #but i dont expect it to do any good. a judge ruled in their favor in the 90s and they'll do the same in the 2020s #i can't return all the rhinestones i bought on etsy for my Bejeweled costume for tour but ill return the corset i was gonna use... #... and the things i got from Michaels on Saturday. ill keep the shorts i was gonna use to make her The Lucky One outfit tho #maybe ill finally get to make and wear it when im 40 #i guess I didn't have to pick up all those extra ahifts after all :/ #im just waiting for Taylor Swift (or even her management team) to acknowledge this. I don't have high hopes that they will. #I'd like for her to add more shows but idk if i see that happening. she's already got 52 and she hasn't even announced international ones #idek if i want more shows because if i sit in the TM queue for four and a half hours and leave empty-handed again idk what id do #I really dont want to go to school tomorrow. idk how im supposed to study for my test like this #if id known when i was seven what i knew now maybe i would have picked a different favorite artist

[lwy-0009]

OH MY GOD THE DAN HENG ANIMATED SHORT IS SO GOOD!!!!!

#watched it in school and I'm shaking in my shoes #oh my god...OH MY GOD #honkai star rail #I was wearing like noise cancelling earpiece while watching it and the experiece ENHANCED!!! #can't wait to watch jp version at home

[eggmeralda]

the genetics felt so bad for what they did to my parents' first kid's looks that they overcompensated massively on the second kid's looks

#worded terribly but yeah my younger sister got all the good genes and i got none of them #like ik what even are 'good genes' what even is 'attractive' etc etc #but still the only 'conventionally attractive' thing i got was big eyes and even then they don't go with the rest of my face #thinking about how my sister's the one random people will come up to compliment in public #the one who's turned down multiple people over the years #the one who makes friends easier bc she looks more approachable #the one who can wear whatever she wants and have her hair in any style and it still looks good #and like even though i'm aroace and don't even want people to be attracted to me it still kind of #idk it adds up after 23 years where only one person has ever been openly interested in me #usually i was just the one who people would joke about fancying at school but it was fine bc i was the weird squirrel kid #like i wasn't there to be fancied i was there to entertain my friends in lessons #but yeah idk i'm just thinking about this. not even in a negative way? #kind of in a positive way bc like?? i'm starting to age #only the beginnings of it but it's kind of exciting #bc i feel like the older you get the less your appearance matters #and i've always looked old for my age so i guess i'll slowly grow into it #and i won't have anything to lose bc i've always been average looking so it's not like ''oh no i'm losing my beauty'' or anything #i've only got a few lines on my face but i can't wait to get more and i can't wait to start going grey #btw thinking about that hilda ogden quote (bc when am i not thinking about hilda ogden okay anyway) #i can't remember it exactly but when she said something about realising her face didn't suit her at 14 #she was so right like saaaaame she's so me fr fr #but yeah when i was a kid i looked like a teenager and when i was a teenager i looked like an adult and #when i was an early adult i looked middle aged and now i'm 23 and i could pass for like. idk 28 or something. which isn't too bad anymore #idk what the point of this post is i just read an article that was suggested for me about basically being the ugly friend #(My Beautiful Friend by Grazie Sophia Christie) and i was reading it like ''omg she's so real and true she gets it'' #bc it reminded me of my sister who is literally my best friend but there's always been this slight envy which i feel bad for #bc it's not even her fault but i guess neither of us can help it #so like this is nothing against her specifically it's just an example. and i've been thinking about it for the past few weeks #okay yeah i've lost whatever my point was but basically i literally cannot wait to be in my 30s and then go from there #okay whatever goodnight *proceeds to stay up for another 4 hours probably* <3<3

[noxtivagus]

thinking abt the fair rn n i want more oh my goddd

#🌙.rambles #esp the vikings i missed that ride so much it's been years man #I NEED IT HIGHER N BIGGER THO BCS THE FEELING OF #oh my god yk the #feeling of being high up in the air #n then. the fall #that pit in your stomach ! n the thrill is just so #it's one of my favorite feelings #got my arm a bit scraped in the inflatables n that happens every year we've had the school fair i swear #i liked my glams #wait. sorry ffxiv habit 💀 #MY FITS ! i liked mine for all days hehe #🥺 i don't have like a proper pic of the one on thurs but <33 #n then friday i was all black but i looked so cool i think n then JUST WISHED I WORE LIKE #my bucket hat n my glasses bcs days before that was what i was planning to wear but it was so hot !!!! T_T #n today i wore smth not black but yes the accessories r cute n i like blue n white too nyways hehe #uwahh i feel better rn thankfully just need to focus on yeah i'm really good at focusing on what's. yeah #i'll just walk even though my legs r dead n clear my mind n then #i'll write more of what happened yesterday n close my eyes n reflect more at night n then #write more in general. write a lot. i may write too much for me but goddamn i can't stop :^) #oh no uh #nah i'll stop this at this or i'll lose this energy i have right now. sigh #i'll just write more later but now i can rest i'll make myself rest a bit i have to

[astrxealis]

sometimes i think of scenarios in my head with my ocs and then sometimes for happy brain i kinda crossover them with my favorite medias atm and also insert myself in bcs i like being self-indulgent and yeah my brain is so fucked up that i just keep repeating the same first bits and can't get far in thinking and i end up just having my s/i ramble my thoughts and it's hard to explain but yeah but anyways it's interesting thinking about who or what my ocs would like in video games or colors or whatever because all my ocs seem to reflect a certain part of me and i can get into the psychology of that but also its hard to explain my thoughts but also anyways yeah i find it interesting thinking about who my ocs would kin

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #feel free to just ignore me oopsies i am just rambling but yeah i love my ocs so much #sorry besties you are all subject once more to my brainrots and rambles and random thoughts now that i am on tumblr rn #my brain is very interesting to me and the way i think but also i can't properly think in such a way and i find it really hard to explain #and i'm such a mess but also man i don't know and i'm going off-track and god i love vgm so much and i don't want to do homework #but anyways back to the goddamn point !!! so my oc merle. i have little crossover thoughts in my head right and i realize #he's similar with akira and then it makes sense as to why i like characters like akira and it's a little woa fr bcs #the way i imagine merle is really similar to akira actually but with a more purple color scheme (but still dark) and he doesn't wear #glasses (at least. wait. actually. i don't really know anymore) GOD my mind never stops but yeah uhm yeah #i think humans are so unbelievably interesting and it's all just so fascinating and and and #also i've awakened to the fact i really like sharks i think they're very cute! i still prefer dolphins though #people who hurt animals make me really angry and sad... i think about it and already want to cry #i have never had a pet but my grandparents had lots and it's funny how memory works. i forgot they once had a pet turtle #until something in a school group project involved my group involving a pet turtle in our storyline for something #and then i remember that past. my past. once again. and clearly even! and... yeah #but yeah... i know i will never abandon my pet if ever i do get a pet. or pets. i would never do that and i really know this is a fact with #all my heart but what's stopping me from getting a pet is that i need to take better care of myself first and learn how to take care of #pets! i think where i live there's actually an opportunity for me to do so. i'll try to see more about that. and hmm... this is a really #busy year for school. and then the next. and then tbh everything onwards from 2023 so... i don't want to put time to something #i'm not even sure if i can really make time for. but. i think i really do want a pet! a dog esp. but also a cat. but a dog esp #bcs i've always wanted one !! i know when it comes to something i really want i am very dedicated and passionate #like how i already calculated xiv expenses months before actually got the game? and planned how me and lune would do things too #and then because i want to handle money better and take note of all that i yeah and yeah and yeah im tired of typing now BYE #will now disappear again after rambling quite a lot ^__^ maybe? maybe not? who knows! #my thoughts are so. whack. wack? idk. but uhm yeah it went from ocs to sharks to pets to money and idk huh #man w some things i'm really shy about being perceived or asked about. like my ocs. egbhebgjhbjehs ;;;;; #and people being nice to me T__T sorry i rlly appreciate it but i can't really comprehend it and my coping mechanism is avoidance

[cat-26]

Guess who got her Master's degree today! Woohoo

(I honestly wasn't planning on walking, since I'm getting a PhD, but one of my friends is graduating and leaving, so we made it a group thing. It was very fun!)

#now i have 2 cap and gown sets from my school #can't wait to add the big phd robes. those ones i'll be very proud and happy to wear #grad school chronicles

[sluttyten]

🥶

#i can't tell if my bedroom is actually so cold #or if my hands and feet are absolutely freezing due to my anxiety #but i'm going with anxiety bc like im wearing a sweatshirt and sweatpants in my bed with flannel sheets #and a thick comforter and another blanket on top of it #the thermostat says my house is 72 degrees but my feet have felt like icicles all day #but im also pretty sure they're sweating which is a little tmi #but im currently stressing over jury duty so 😗✌️ #googling what kinds of things i might be asked so i can try to figure out answers that won't get me selected #which is difficult not knowing what kind of trial it's going to be #just hoping i give off enough anxious and biased vibes that i don't get selected #like my social anxiety has been hitting for the last few hours #i can call in a few hours and find out if i even have to show up and that alone is driving me insane #i can't do anything right now other than research this stuff #like i want to write or finish watching this show i've been watching but i can't enjoy anything right now i can only think about this #it's like the other night when i got the summons in the mail and literally didn't do anything with the rest of my day #was reading something earlier about waiting to be selected for jury duty and my heart was pounding and i was imagining it #and like thinking about how i'm definitely gonna feel like i'm going to puke tomorrow im gonna be so shaky #i haven't felt like this in like 5 years since i was last in school and had to worry about public speaking or big projects #like they gave me such bad anxiety i get so hot and red and like get a little buzzy in my ears... yknow casual things #so earlier i was freaking out thinking about how they select the jury foreman which i absolutely 100 percent cannot do #i can't speak up in public even when it was in front of a classroom of people i've known for years #i couldn't bring myself to speak up and ask questions or say thoughts for a discussion (to the point where i failed a project once bc of it) #but i've never been diagnosed with any form of anxiety by a doctor or anything like that so I don't know if i even have an anxiety disorder #but just like based off of a lot of things i've noticed over the years and the way that i'll like focus on a thing that's causing me stress #to the point where it's debilitating and i can't do anything except freak out about it #i'd say i've got something going on.... like back when i had that promotion offered to me at work and i literally cried in my room stressed #about the pressure of the position which i then only held for a few months bc i can't handle the social aspect of it #anyway i've ranted enough now i'm going to go and try to do like anything.... finish writing maybe

[buwnii303]

Oh god I have school tomorrow

I'm gunna be a freshman D:

#fin shush #low-key scared if there will be cool people #and failing school #and getting lost cus my highschool is like three storys tall #I FORGOT TO DO THE SUMMER HOMEWORK THING FUCK #AHHHH I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MY FRIENDS THO #I HOPE THE TEACHERS LET ME WEAR MY HEADPHONES FOR SENSORY ISSUES :((( #WHAT IF IM GUNNA BE A ANOYING FRESHMAN #I DON'T WANNA BE ANOYING