#i can't handle this right now

[dteamain]

you ever just see dnf existing and realize that even the simplest relationships can form the deepest purest love one could imagine. a love so deep that even your shared cat is part of it. a love so strong that it withstands oceans and anything else inbetween. a love so pure that everyone who witnesses it can feel nothing but joy and happiness and love radiating from you

#i can't handle this right now #that snap was it for me #god i love george and dream and patches and their love for eachother #fuck dnf for ruining relationships for me i'll never have something like that

[answrs]

don't mind me over here bawling my eyes out

#I'll post pictures but I'm fucking sobbing #half of them are completely destroyed #there is literal bone dust covering the table in parts #I can't handle this right now

[roses-are-blue-1989]

ALRIGHT WHO WAS GOING TELL ME THAT MILES COULD GO INVISIBLE!?

Cause no one did, and I just punched the poor boy in the jaw for popping up out of nowhere just to say hi.

I am a disgrace to the mom friend title, I'm sorry sunflower 😭

#I can't believe I just punched a teenager #Hobie is howling and Peter is frantic #Please no one tell Gwen or she might roast me #I can't handle this right now #spidersona #oc rp #across the spiderverse

[nightblightowl]

Just some Lilith thoughts:

I do not believe for one second that Lilith is as cool and composed and effortlessly poised as some of the fandom make her out to be. Now this is just personal opinion (and I know we don't actually know much about her) Look at the man she married. Look at the child she raised. I don't think she'd be quite as CHEERY/overly optimistic as Charlie or as goofy as Lucifer. But there is no way that woman is 100% serious all of the time. She's gotta have a sense of humour. I want her to seem as graceful/regal as she appears... and I also want her to be kind of a dork. She gets flustered too, she makes faces, maybe she snorts when she laughs, maybe she makes really really bad jokes... I just like the idea that all of the Morningstars are a lil' silly in their own way. Look at them.🥺

#hazbin hotel #lucilith #hazbin hotel lucifer #lucifer morningstar #lillith morningstar #hazbin hotel lilith #and believe me I don't think this is the lilith we'll get... #we don't even know if Lilith is actually “herself” right now technically... #because I can't fathom why she'd leave her family behind #and I don't know if I can handle her just... not being as kind as maybe charlie believed.. #there's just a lot we don't know but until then... I choose to believe she was fun and fun loving

[lesbianlotties]

feeling completely normal about this parallel

#i literally can't handle this right now it was natalie it was always natalie this is insane #yellowjackets #lottienat #yellowjackets s2 #natalie scatorccio #lottie matthews #my antler queens <3

[write-it-motherfuckers]

I almost forgot to update you all, sorry Darlings, it's been a very long day.

Thankfully I do have some good news! Both Bug and Bunny are doing surprisingly well, though they are both noticeably anxious still. They will be on some medication for a few weeks that I have to give them at set intervals, and I will have to take them back in for a check up a couple of times too, but other than that, they are both doing shockingly well all things considered.

The vet staff was even kind enough to give them both a bath and help remove some of the mats I was unable to remove myself, as well as handle the injuries to their paws and mouths from the neglect they dealt with in their former home.

It took a while to get them to come out of their new carrier, but once they did, they pretty much went into hiding immediately. I was eventually able to lure them out with a promise of treats and an old documentary about birds so that I could give them more meds, and thankfully they both stayed in view long enough for me to get a photo of the two of them watching it together to share with you all! (Please forgive the mess, they think they're smaller than they are, so playtime clearly results in a lot more chaos than I was really prepared for.)

(Bug is the chonkiest boy, holy shit. Him Round.)

Once again, I'm incredibly grateful for the support and understanding from all of you, it really does mean a lot to me. I don't know if I'll be able to jump right back into posting just yet, but I will do my best to get back to it again soon.

Please stay safe Darling ones, and try to be kind to yourselves 🖤

#mod speaks #bug and bunny #long post #that unicorn is one of their favourite toys right now by the way. They like the way it crinkles and sparkles #I don't have any before pictures that I can actually share with any of you but these babies have improved in leaps and bounds compared to #before. They honestly look like completely different cats. at least to myself and the vet techs. Head vet was an actual angel #I can't talk about what's happening with the creep in anymore detail unfortunately as it has now turned into a slightly more serious legal #matter. but just know that things are slowly pointing in the right direction. #thank you again for being so kind and patient Darlings. I really couldn't have handled it if you weren't all so understanding

[screwpinecaprice]

Got my first display tab! And the first thing I tested it with is an anime Connie sketch lol.

HUGE thank you to my supporters at Ko-fi, as that's where I got the funds. 😊😊🤗💕

Seems needed time to get used to, and I use more shortcut keys than the number of shortcut buttons on the tab; but I am already loving the it so far! My laptop, on the other hand, is not handling it too well. 😅

#I did kind of expect the laptop to act like it is right now. Which was another reason for buying a cheaper display tab to save up more on #a new laptop. #I got an Xp Pen 13 by the way! #It's looking great so far #The screen is much more closer to my face now tho. Lol #The colors come out different than both my laptop screen and cellphone. 🤔 #But I think the xp pen has too much red tint? #Anyway. I have to tuck the XP pen for the moment. Not just because I needed a better laptop. I'm in the middle of doing commissions and #can't do those while still getting used to the laptop ...while also dealing with the lag. #The laptop's power drains even faster with the display tab and it lags even quicker the more layers I add. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #Laptop can't handle it very well. #Connie Maheswaran #SU #my shiz #Xp Pen #Thank you to my ko-fi supporters!!!!!!!💕💕💕 #This was a screenshot redraw by the way. Or at least a screenshot redraw of a scene by memory. #You know the scene. #I wish I was able to make Connie look more pissed off tho. Lol #I also used the tab for a some of the sketches of my current commissions and I am so sad that I can't use it throughout the process. #It's so much easier doing the sketches with it than on the screenless tab! But it also lags. Orz

[sciderman]

For the event hosted on the ask blog, I am bit confused. Is it going to be a collection of our works or mostly targeted towards ask blog art work???

it's not a targeted collection or anything, no - it's a yearbook. it's a thing of love. you sign it. it's meant to be messy and unkempt - just a thing you throw together and scribble as fast as you can because lord knows that person has gotta get around the whole school with that book and get everyone to sign it.

you know, the whole thing made me dig out my own end-of-high-school yearbook - and oh, a lot of memories... so many people i'd forgotten all about. but all so familiar, too.

funny how time flies by, but some things never change...

if you're wanting to contribute something larger to it, you'll have to shoot me a message! but for the most part it's a messy, love-filled affair.

#holds heart #sci speaks #originally i was going to do a huge comic about wade and peter's wedding. sighs. i wrote the script up and everything and it was HUGE. but. #i really don't have the bandwidth to pull it off right now. so i thought about how to dial it down. #dial it down so it's not so much pressure on me to get a massive. massive comic done. i can't - i can't really handle all that pressure. #a sci needs to keep things light and fun and not stress out my poor fragile body. #but it was so important to me to celebrate a decade of spiderpool. and so the yearbook idea sprang to me. #there will still be a comic in there #but... prom night seems much less pressure than. wedding. #still as cute and poignant #prom is a big deal for those boys. they'll finally get the prom night they've dreamt of. #manifesting.

[librarygf]

the interview as a confessional. hm

#interview with the vampire #tw suicide #m #it's like why are you returning to this story now what is different what are you gonna say #sorry to episode 5 but i'm still so compelled by it. where are we going with this? #are we talking about abuse? complexity? love? forgiveness? responsibility? grief? #idk and i don't know if they'll handle it right but i'm still listening #but i need to know NOW like how do i respond to this episode i just can't tell

[swiftispunk]

All my favorite authors feeling so defeated is making me so so sad. I love y’all and sending you hugs 💞

i love you <3

i don't want to feel this way, i don't want my friends to feel this way. i know it's exactly what these people want but. idk. every writer on here is a human person with real feelings. we all literally just came here because we love pedro and wanted to share that with other people. and now it's...this.

idk. i'm angry and i'm sad and i'm tired. like, for all of us.

#i don't want to let you guys down #but i can't handle feeling like some kind of entity #it's so dehumanizing #i've tried so so hard to avoid bullshit and petty drama. but it just feels different now #all i ever wanted to be was a community member and a friend. that's literally it #sorry i'm just in my feelings right now but i'll be okay #ask #anon #tw discourse #i guess

[anastacialy]

i do not know how to explain to people that "transmisogyny" is the specific transphobia that trans women + transfems face (often but not exclusively at the hands of cis people), and "transandrophobia" is the specific transphobia that trans men + mascs face (often but not exclusively at the hands of cis people), and that they all come together under the umbrella of "transphobia." these are not opposing concepts nor are they mutually exclusive, to believe in one does not mean non-belief in the other. is there a simpler way of phrasing this. can i be clearer.

#i can't handle that post that's going around accusing everyone who acknowledges the existence of transadrophobia of being a transmisogynist #i want to scream i want to peel my skin off thats not how this works that's not how any of this works #in fact one might imagine that understanding the nuances of all different types of transphobia might make you a better ally to trans women! #what a shock! #to understand that bioessentialism can harm trans women and trans men and nonbinary people and and and #im so tired. the hate campaigns are horrifying and the blatant and aggressive removal of trans women + transfems blogs is AWFUL and specifi #this falls under transmisogyny! we can acknowledge and understand that #right? right! #but that in no way just makes it trans men + mascs fault?? they are NOT the (only - there are cruel people in every demographic) people #who are mass reporting innocent transfem's blogs #it's TERFs and transmisogynists #if we have the nuance to understand that not every transmisogynist is a TERF then we can understand that not everyone who #acknowledges that transandrophobia is real is. a transmisogynist?! hello?? am i alive right now. am i currently living and breathing?? #genuinely reading that post doesn't feel real. that is so far from reality i'm nauseated. #txtly #i genuinely don't know how this can be made any clearer. #i'm tired. idk

[feluka]

[Autistic] I actually appreciate it when people let me know that someone is deliberately being malicious rather than ignorant or confused.

#doing the fallout check format from that other post <3 #anyway this is sincere. it helps me because i constantly doubt my responses #and whether anger was warranted or not #because i genuinely can't tell from the tone whether people are being hostile or what #and obv we're all on edge right now so i tend to assume the worst and then doubt myself after #so when people explain the intent. it reassures me that my instincts were right #also trying to remind myself that i WILL mess up one day and interpret something in bad faith when it isn't #and it won't be the end of the world and i will have to handle it like an adult and be better #but constant fear of engaging because i think i will avoid screwing up isn't constructive

[nonoqy]

i feel like i didn't really say anything publicly which makes me sound maybe too harsh at times but this is where i'm at. sorry i was too lazy to retype all of this so i'm just sharing screenies of my thoughts !

#and to be clear i do believe they deserve to hear harsh words right now! in fact they need it #the backlash has already started to impact them and i think stepping away from content creation for some time could help them even more #i do not blame anyone who decides to stay in the fandom but i just can't do that myself it's exhausting #anyway i wish we can all heal from this as soon as possible and i hope george especially does a lot of thinking and works on himself #no matter what you think about the situation itself his response was just not good at all #being apologetic and empathetic to the person that is visibly hurt by your actions even if you feel like you didn't do anything wrong #is not hard at all. it's actually very easy when you're emotionally mature #and he needs to finally after Twenty Seven Years of his life learn how to handle emotions

[ghost-proofbaby]

“I love you” “it’ll pass” okay but which one is Eddie and which one is reader bc I don’t think I’d be able to handle either outcome

okay. just. hear me out. listen. listen to this idea i don't know if i could ever put myself through the heartbreak of writing. (tw: i'm bringing up the cursed thing that is eddie's canon ending in stranger things as of right now. yes. his... very, very, very long nap.)

"i love you" = reader

"it'll pass" = eddie

...and how ironic it is, for him to have insisted so many times that it'll pass, especially after the canon events of season 4. in which you are left alone, with nothing more than a memory of him, and all you can think is how it'll never pass. the love, the grief, the pain - he lied. it won't pass. even when you finally crave it to.

#im thinking big sad thoughts right now #i was going to save this ask in case i get around to writing it one day but even conceptualizing that tore my heart out #i can't handle writing the canon events very well i just start ugly crying in the corner #thank u ily <3 #mention of eddie's death? idk how to tag/tw that properly #anyways #he'd say it more jokingly and less forsaken #a self-deprecating joke that becomes a long term bit between the two of you #but it isn't very funny when he's gone and those words are all that can echo through your heart #even louder than any of the times he might have said those three little words back

[mulletmitsuya]

random tokrev rant ahead !!

when i first started this blog it was going to be for random shitposts, groupchats once in a while, and mostly tokrev analysis but i was so scared of discourse that i just chose to do the funnier stuff 😭. when tokrev was at it's peak i'd be reading 20k+ words of analysis and it was so fun!! but i felt like i couldn't word what i wanted to say properly so that discouraged me but i wish i'd ignored that because there would have been at least one person who understood what i was saying yk?

#anyway #i used to have a tagging system but i forgot so that's my bad #and the thing about discourse is that you could give a person all the canonical facts of the story and they'll still find a way to pretend #that they're right and i personally cannot handle that #i take things very seriously and someone thinking they won a argument when they didn't would make me rip my hair out #so maybe my blog not going into that direction was good for my metal health #i feel like fandom interactions always end up as fights for some reason #why can't two opinions co-exist #let's discuss and have fun why we gotta tell each other to kill ourselves😭 #like i saw a very well thought out and written theory about sanzu having autism or something along those lines #and a comment was like “stop trying to give him excuses he's a terrible villain and he's just crazy blah blah blah” #whole time this person's an izana apologist #like😐 #i love both these characters but a lot of characters in tokrev are more complicated than just a “crazy villain” #and it seems like they understand that about izana so???? #ok i'm done now i hope you guys get what i mean #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers manga #tokrev

[mrsunder]

Today has been an absolutely horrible day for me. Migraine, anxiety attack, crying, mentally Not Okay... so my brain coped with "but what if Ghost is so good at sneaking around because he can turn into a cat?" Obviously Price knows about it because he has those terrifying mom superpowers (Did you so much as think something bad? Price Knows.). Ghost is afraid of what would happen if he tried to keep it from him. Gaz knows because he is the favorite child. JK, he knows because he saw a cat sneaking around base and was going to TNR it. Ghost didn’t want to get neutered so he had to tell him. Now it’s a game (”It’s training”, sure it is Ghost) Soap finds out last because Ghost is a greedy greedy man and would go on “leave” when in reality he spent a few days as a cat following Soap around and curling up in his lap and bed. After Soap finds out he’s embarrassed (”I TOLD HIM I THOUGHT HE WAS HOT, FUCK FUCK FUCK”) but he gets over it quick when he gets human!Ghost in his bed and cat!Ghost curled up on his chest purring after the really bad nightmares that make it hard to handle human contact.

#soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #call of duty #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #i'm working on the zombie au #but right now i can't really handle too much angsty shit #so have adorable cat shit instead