#i can't find somewhere for him to go

[rayssion]

Solangelo fic idea because I love them,

Soulmate au wherein once you're claimed the mark of your soulmate appears as a tattoo on your body, it might be the same place as your soulmate, it might be different. If your soulmate is a mortal then only a letter 'M' appears.

Everyone is so worked up because Will never showed his mark, some of them speculated his soulmate is a mortal, some of them argued that it could be unrequited love like his soulmate might be Annabeth but she found her soulmate so he's destined to be alone. No one knows for sure, except for his sister Kayla.

The helm of darkness? Geez who could it be? The only child of Hades out there is Nico di Angelo. Will is 100% sure that the boy despise his guts, also he heard from Kayla that the boy already has a crush, and he's not sure if the concept applies on roman demigods, but didn't Hazel have a soulmate already?

Will never shows his mark, he felt devastated especially that the son of Hades is quite distanced.

Nico tries to operate between his pitiful crush on Percy, Jason who's urging him to let go and find himself another person, and his own mark.

The little sun tattooed on the side of his torso.

Funny thing, everyone thinks his soulmate is a mortal.

#bonus if people were treating Will like he's the epitome of straightness #like Nico's mark tells him it's a child of Apollo #so he just assumes it's a girl and he doesn't like the idea #so here there a lot of shit until Will confronts him and asks him if there are more children of Hades somewhere #he answers no. not that he knows #another time Will asks him about Pluto then and Nico replies the same #“listen. I don't know what's going on but my mark is the helm of darkness. can you help me find my soulmate but please don't tell anyone?” #then cue the journey looking for Will's soulmate #Nico thinking it's a girl but also can't help himself but falls for the boy. he might be his soulmate after all #and Will just having identity crisis until he says fuck it and kisses Nico one night #blah blah blah marks exchanged everyone's happy the end #nico di angelo #william andrew solace #will solace #will x nico #nico x will #nico and will #solangelo #solangelo fanfiction #solangelo fic #solangelo fic idea #post hoo #hoo #look at me providing you guys with a happy ending

[givehimthemedicine]

never forget El isn't just touchy feely as a random personality trait, she's spent most of her developmentally critical years horribly starved of touch and warmth and love :)

and every moment of physical comfort she receives is precious to her as an antidote to some specific moment in her past when she suffered the lack of it :) and you can also see the shadow of her traumas in the ways she thinks to give physical comfort :)

and also don't forget that her trauma didn't end with the lab :) when we first meet her her traumas are drawn from lab days but by later seasons it's clear some of the traumas guiding her behavior are just... the show :) such as the crushing pressure of everyone counting on her to find Will :)

and if I spend more than 2 seconds thinking about what any simple little moment of closeness/physical affection/comfort must mean to El I will start sobbing and never stop :)

#eleven #lab feels #the max ones are heavily relevant to my fic #el is fairly into touching peoples heads during hugs in general #but her comforting max involves a lot of head stroking and i'm thinking it's because that's an old self soothing habit :( #also I realize 'its okay' is an extremely standard thing to say to a distressed person but #what if she says that to max because she remembers joyce saying it to her in the void and it making her feel better #and what do you wanna bet she held onto max's hand like that because she remembers going into the void to find will #and knowing she's his only hope and his fate is completely on her shoulders and all these people are counting on her #and then feeling will's hand dissolve in hers. and not knowing where he went or how to help him #and now she's gone in to find max and it's the same thing all over again and she's max's only hope #only this time it isn't some kid it's her best friend and the person she probably loves most in the world. and who trusts her to save her #do you know how terrified she is that max is gonna turn into smoke too. and disappear to somewhere el can't find her or help her #do you know how terrified she is that she's going to fail her #do you get what unfathomable trauma it is that she did fail her (it wasn't her fault but with her hero complex she'll feel like it is) #i will be adding to this gifset in season 5 when max wakes up #im fine (im not) #angst #mine #bestof

[ratcandy]

also I love how underwhelming kallamar’s injury looks compared to the others like… if he’s a squid those wouldn’t even be his ears, they’d be fins….. hehe I imagine narinder fucked up his inner ears and the “outer ears” are shredded due to being in the way, but it’s still pretty funny

I'VE THOUGHT ABout this a lot actually... Because in-game I mean. Well there's not a lot that shows either way how well Kallamar can hear, but you'd think - since the other all have very obvious reactions to their injuries, Leshy claiming he can't see, Heket struggling to speak, and Shamura being. Like That - he would say something? if his hearing had been so badly affected?

Even if the lamb doesn't speak to him for him to notice, Surely he wouldn't be able to hear his own voice, at least not well? Or he'd notice it when Literally Anyone tries to speak to him?? I'm just baffled he doesn't say anything about it at all, seeing as. Well. Again. Everyone else is very blatant about it

Idk how Narinder would have fucked up the inner ear either without like Digging In There , which I suppose is possible given. Claws, but seeing as (iirc) the injuries all happened during the struggle to imprison him........ I dunno, that seems very Intentioned as opposed to Fighting Back In the Moment of Being Sent to Superhell

I mean Hey even with just his outer ears torn to shreds he would have trouble hearing, just wouldn't be completely deaf . No way for sound to be easily Funneled into the Ear, so everything would be a lot Quieter

REGARDLESS yes if he's a squid he shouldn't even have outer ears like that. Why did they choose a squid for hear no evil. Better yet why choose a worm for see no evil (if Leshy's supposed to be like. An earthworm type worm. Well those do not have eyes to begin with so there wouldn't be much to lose hSDKGJSHG)

#the bit about the injuries happening while they were imprisoning him I'm like 90% certain I heard before but I can't find it. It's going to #drive me insane. That wasn't a headcanon was it? That was said in game somewhere? Right? Am I making that up. #I dunno. a #ask #cotl kallamar

[abirdie]

Gael García Bernal in Me estás matando, Susana (2016, dir. Roberto Sneider)

(these gifs also feature Verónica Echegui)

#gael garcía bernal #me estás matando susana #ggb filmography gifs #gael garcia bernal #there's more nuance to this film than you might think from the trailer #can't find the interview now but roberto sneider said he needed to come up with a way to still have the audience kind of root for eligio #and understand why susana hadn't just left him years ago #in spite of what an asshole he is at the start of the film #and realised that casting gael was the trick that made that work #i appreciate he looks sad in all of these but it is a comedy i promise just a comedy in which he's sad a lot #it's interesting to see a mexican view of the usa captured here too #btw you would not believe the effort i had to go to to get english subtitles of this #or even spanish subtitles which would have been fine #but apparently there are no deaf people in spain because spanish region 2 dvd has no subtitles at all other than for the english sections #grrr #(and the only english-language srt file i could find was terrible) #i mean it had a us cinema release the official subtitles must exist somewhere #you're killing me susana

[traitorsinsalem]

this is a funny as fuck dialogue option for when you're playing a dead-birth-parents-rogue who just so happens to be mixed. get gathened idiot.

#succ speaks #i just think it's funny that wotc constantly has NO idea how to handle half-elves from a mixed lens. #as much as i WOULD be happy that larian devs were there to say 'hey man people can be proud of their mixed heritage' #it's just funny as fuck to me that the first time i'm seeing this line is with mo fucking gathen. #the only funnier option is 3. this bitch is withering away there's nothing sexy about him unless u ask his actual party's paladin(s) #baldur's gate 3 kind of sucks especially early on but it's worth it to me to be funny while playing with friends who know this character #'hmm. i can't seem to recall what happened to elturel.' [finished the descent into avernus adventure path. was one of the adventurers.] #'the zhentarim? i think i've heard of them somewhere' [is a zhent ardragon with specialties in legal dealings and investigations] #the running joke is that he got mind flayer brain damage after a stat scramble and cannot find the right people for the life of him #this is so funny though. imagine i just became a small local hero and some nice girl i helped one time says she'll sing a song about me #and she's like 'what should i sing about' and i'm like. 'how about my mixed heritage.' LMFAOOOOO that's so out of pocket #like my friend is so curious and wants me to choose it because he wants to know what alfira's even going to DO with that like ????

[katyspersonal]

since you've been playing elden ring, do you have a favorite npc so far?

Haha, my pace at discovering more of Elden Ring is SNAIL slow. And I don't mean moderately fast snail-like mobs in ER, I mean real life snails. xD So, my knowledge is still lacking. But with what I DO know, I think I can pick a favourite already!

This might come off as a surprise, but this...

...is...

...SELLEN!

Honestly, so far I liked her the most! She gives me very strong Imposter Iosefka vibe (in the scenario if after having made enough Emissaries, the Imposter also joined with them to be several small ascended people hiding in a trench coat pretending to be one BIG ascended person…). Whereas she is still, of course, a unique and interesting character on her own! It is just this kind of a female character after knowledge beyond human plane that reminds me.

I am particularly fond of the madman/woman/person characters who want to know the eldrich truths of the universe, no matter how horrifying they are and no matter what taboos they have to break, and what they have to give in exchange. I also can respect the type of 'scientist that is not above trying their own medicine' because, again, she becomes The Orb herself xd Her sassy and blunt attitude is also very appealing for me, she is a confident character with a very certain motivation! I do also enjoy how no matter what scroll she is given, her reaction is that she is familiar with this sorcery, so she is already very educated!

I've posted my analysis how in Bloodborne, Willem and 'original' Choir (from which only Yurie remains) prioritise ascending humanity and leveling with the gods as people, whereas the Choir as it is later tries to TRANSCEND humanity, and will break any taboos, just like Mensis too. In there, I actually sympathise with Willem's side and see Choir as reckless and desperate fools. But in Elden Ring, for some reason, I actually sympathise with the ideas of Sellen (and her teachers, Azur and Lusat) more instead, whereas seeing how Caria family goes about the glintstone teachings as kinda weak. Not REAL researchers. It is very funny and I can't even explain why I am so inconsistent all of a sudden; doesn't help that Rennala herself gives strong Willem and Yurie vibe! Truly, the magic of narration can make EITHER side feel more sympathetic than the other o_o"

Also, I've learned that initially her Witch's Glintsone Crown was named Grana Glintstone Crown, but it was patched out!

I feel like developers initially did want to make Sellen as important as someone who had her own school and the crown made in her likeness was a common wear too, but it never picked up because… well, her line of studies contradicted with Caria's family agenda and restrictions too much? It is one thing to just explore rocks from space, but completely different one to try and BECOME one! But I decided to go with 'they retconned the idea' rather than with 'they obscured the idea'. I mean, how exactly people would follow this "school"? They'd just become rocks lol. It is not really studying the object when you become the object.

I also honest to god cannot recall this particular shade of green glintstone anywhere else - not in an environment, nowhere on Graven Scholars, and there are no spells or staff associated with this color. So I feel like it is artificial and created BY her; would go with theme of her experimenting with turning people into seeds of a star. Heck, maybe this glintstone also had an… organic origin, too. So it cannot be turned into a weapon (unlike staffs of Azur and Lusat that ARE made from existing cosmic material), but only serve as cathalyst for intellect and sorcery of THE caster.

Also I just gotta say, I really appreciate how in these spheres everyone is always having the both horrified and awe-full expression, but she looks really blissful and calm x) She actually gave a realistic, adequate estimate towards how much she wanted to become one with the cosmos xD Lore says that even Azur and Lusat were devastated when they witnessed it, so she is arguably MORE of a madwoman than those two. Love this about her so much.

Honorable mention: so far, Nepheli is my second favorite. Her design definitely beats everyone else's amongst NPCs yet, but also she is just really appealing character. Badass warrior with two axes with great honor and will to go on no matter what, who is also very sensitive and compassionate at heart, is in touch with her vulnerable side, grieving the fallen, strong but not invincible… It is a very good example of how TO write a strong and badass female character; the power is not to be a solid brick that never cries but to be able to connect with one's insecurities and still get back up. Her being heartbroken when her father figure turned on her was very moving, for some reason this way she feels stronger than if she just got up and kicked Gideon's ass and hated him forevermore after that. I just live for this balance of both big muscles but ALSO a big heart.

#elden ring #sorceress sellen #elden ring headcanons #(sort of? it isn't really much it is just me rambling) #(can't wait to discover a minor detail in lore that will flip everything upside down as usual lol) #going in blind with elden ring is a very rewarding experience trust me #but at the same time i feel SO helpless compared to how well-versed I am in BB! #emotions when you find and NPC dead or find a plot twist are so worth it tho xd #for the record: yes i do like seluvis and i can write an essay on this too #but from cold and rational standpoint not he is my favorite #i just appreciate him #i really love it though how in ER there is a line between magic (incantations) and science (glintstone sorcery) #how former scales with faith and latter with intellect #i needed it a lot #granted BB also has cursed pthumerian-esque magic vs COSMOS OF COURSE and eyes #but it is a bit more blurry #by the way if there IS this exact shade of green somewhere else in the game BUT her crown please show me! #i just haven't seen it nor an item! #unless i am right and it IS unique. oh boy....

[mormorando]

does anybody know how to manage arachnophobia? i'm physically shaking, covered in snot and tears, tired, but unable to go to sleep because i don't know where the spider in my room went

#mine #i ran for the vacuum cleaner but the spider was gone when i came back #and oh my fucjing god i cannot possibly go to sleep #i fucking screamed then i WHIMPERED out of fear just trying to step into my fucking room #i thought since i have the vacuum here anyway now i could just vacuum all under and behind my bed even though it's 2am #but i'm terrified of moving my bed #i imagine some kind of a spider nest or eggs there i'm fucking SHAKING man i don't know how to function i literally need therapy i think #this is UNMANAGEABLE i hate being so terrified i'm still crying and there's NO ONE to help me #in fact i must somehow make it without screaming if i find it again #or it finds me #because my roommate will be angry with me #i just called my father shaking and barely able to speak begging him to come to my place tomorrow and buy me some anti spider spray #or else one of those electrical devices #they scare spiders away #but like i said #i??? really mean it when i say i cried and screamed #now i'm just standing here in the cold room dreading the idea of going to bed because I KNOW if they're coming from somewhere it's THERE #jfc #i have to have my father help me #ohhh my fucking god i think i'll puke. #i literally think i need some anti-phobia therapy honestly #i can't wake up my roommate again i can't #godgodgodgodgodgod #what fucking punishment is this i can't move i am frozen to this spot anyway i move it'll be there #i don't fucking know what terrifies me so fucking much They're just little insects but i'm still frozen in spot nauseous and crying

[dylawas-reblogs]

me: yeah so we haven't had a meeting about it yet, but I asked my coworkers about past interns and why they left; chances are they won't hire me full time at my internship immediately. However, the chances of having it extended are pretty good, and I like what I'm doing, and they're going to be talking about budget in July. Sure my finances are a little tight but--

my sperm donor (only slightly exaggerated): look for a new job immediately and tell them if they won't hire you full time you're leaving. and no, I don't care if you don't find something in your industry and you have to settle for a job that will make you hate being alive even more than you already do. Also I'm going to ignore how long it took you to find this internship to begin with

me:

#dylawa rambles #dylawa rants #this man gives zero fucks about actually seeing me go into what I fucking trained to do he just wants me to make him money #i am literally sick to my stomach right now thinking about job hunting again #'i want to see you successful and happy' okay why are you still charging me rent then #why are you making job hunting even more of a traumatic experience than it already is #literally said to him 'I don't trust my chances of finding a new job within two months' and his response: 'oh well go work customer service #it took me MONTHS to find just this internship and it's a miracle it's paid at all #it's in a nice office with nice people and i have my own computer and they feed me almost daily! #i'll live another six months in this hellhole if it means I get a guaranteed post-internship job like this #is it the ideal job? absolutely the hell not #the commute sucks i don't have work from home so i can't get away with doing other shit on the side #i feel limited in what the role requires of me vs what I'd like to make #but good fuck it's better than food service or retail #but nooooo he needs me to be his little rent cash cow without him feeling guilty about it #very tempted to bail even if it means I start eating through my savings a little bit #I don't know if I can go through the daily interrogations of 'did you apply? why aren't you hearing back? it's your fault' again #i have somewhere to go but I'm trying to keep it very 'last resort' territory #A) it would make my current work commute twice as long #B) it would require completely burning bridges with my old man bc I'd have to move out in secret #not just because i don't want him to know where the people who are sheltering me live #but also because if he saw that place even if he was willingly letting me move out he'd say 'absolutely not' #because I don't trust him not to do something weird. not necessarily DANGEROUS but. weird. #I want to burn all bridges someday! #but even now that I own my car it's still not the safest course of action #I'm so sick of being stuck dawg! #dylawa vents

[eyivibyemi]

✧ I won’t really write descriptions for these, but see original post tags for explanation/commentary on the song snippet ✧

#This was literally just off the top of my head improvising words that rhyme (as is obvious from me rhyming the word #'on' with the word.... 'on' (what's going ON my name is ON' etc. lol) but after actually thinking about it this kind of seems a little #sinister?? why is his name on the news? why is he fleeing town? makes me think of of some guy who's killed #someone or is finally getting caught for his crimes so one last stop before he flees town is he returns home to his husband (who he #calls Hummingbird sometimes I guess) and is like 'erm... tee hee.. I can't tell you why but I shall leave. farewell' etc. #also 'I guess I could show you' having a bad implication like.. yeah I COULD show you the dead bodies and evidence of my crimes #but I will spare you from that and simply let you live in ignorance (at least until you see the news at 10.. but I will be long gone by #then.. eating green beans somewhere lol).. ANYWAY.. 100% unintentional but you could actually almost read some sort of meaning #out of this one. until the green beans part ghhbjb.. I try so hard for everything to just be meaningless gibberish #that has no connection but I suppose sometimes a connection can be made. alas.. a perhaps accidentally Dark seeming song snippet #OR alternate theory. uhh... actually his name is on the news for a good reason. he donated all his money to charity and now #he's fleeing town just because he's embarassed to be publicly recognized.. a shy philanthropist OR an evasive murderer #BOTH versions of him like green beans. which is the truth? up to listener interpretation lol.. Also I #still find it immensely funny for some reason to do this lower sounding style of singing. which not that I really care about like having a #Broad Range or something since I don't think it'd even be possible to have one in my position (as someone #with zero musical/vocial training/etc.) BUT because part of what I find fun is like.. experimenting with all different sorts of sounds #and also doing choir type stuff. So then I do want to be able to sound like multiple people.. if that makes sense? I want to have a really #high voice and the a really low voice and have them sing together and it sounds like a duet or something when it's really just one person. #etc. Thus have a passing interest in learning to adopt different singing styles if I can. because then that's funny and I can do a wider #variety of things like it's all different characters or something as if all the song snippets are done by different people or etc. #(maybe just part of the nature of it being experimental). #And the low voice is always the goofiest sounding to me and very 'fake' seeming I guess #like blatantly is just someone putting on an affect or whatever but still in a kind of fun jokey way lol #beepo tag

[monstersqueen]

honestly the beast timeline and canon have pretty much the same misery/happiness ratio, but.

in canon odasaku dies at 22 (i'm guessing the age, it seems like he has the same age as ranpo in untold origins) after some of the worst days of his life, and dazai leaves the mafia and hopefully learns how to live with less despair

in beast dazai dies at 22 after a very bad life and odasaku lives on to write a book someday.

it's pretty much equivalent but no one living in canon and caring about dazai is going to choose the beast timeline. even ango ! it's pretty much a trolley problem for him - do you do nothing and keep things as they are (odasaku dead AND the kids too) or do you change the world and condamns dazai to. *gestures at beast*

#myposts #on every otehr axis beast is pretty much equivalent exchange #akuatgawa finds a way to the light but atsushi is Way More fucked up than canon and kyouka is staying in the mafia #im still not over gin telling akutagawa 'you're evil but even so i want you to live' #BUT it ends in a very hopeful manner for p much eveyrone #except dazai #i'm going to go cry somewhere this is inacceptable #bsd march 2023 not lb #like you can ask yourself 'is odasaku alive and writing worth what dazai puts himself and everyone through in beast?' #and the thing is that every version of dazai is going to say 'yes' #while everyone in canon who cares abut him OR thinks no one should do any of what he does in beast will go 'no???' #and then you can ask the question to ango who will never say yes because. nope. dazai shouldn't put himself through that #but also can't say no because how can he! say ! that a price is too high ! to get odasaku back ! #not onyl alive but free of the mafia and writing ????? #:D:D:D #...btw this whole thing was brought by me asking 'ok but WHAT is beast!ango up to?' and in general the answer is #'no idea but somehow canon!ango is going to learn of the beast!timeline and it's going to be ~~fun~~'

[twilit-tragedy]

god fucking damn my life, bro. I find a couple of ants in my room and immediately freak out. I start feeling shit crawling on me and turn on a flashlight to go look for some hidden source, already hyperventilating. And then I remember I woke up late and didn't take my morning meds. Girl, we have a balcony and my mom keeps plants there. Calm the fuck down. You like having the window open. It's FINE. It's just ants.

Last weekend I skipped my morning meds two days in a row cuz I woke up late and I feared sertraline insomnia - which, yes, in hindsight was a bad idea - and on Sunday I had a full meltdown. Granted, also period-related, but god fucking damn it. I tore my whole room apart. I couldn't vacuum under my bed easily because of my desk's placement so I decided I was going to move furniture around and reorganize my room. On a Sunday afternoon, in the summer and with tendonitis. All cuz I saw some ants and couldn't verify with my own two eyes every corner of the room. And because I couldn't physically move the wardrobe and bookcase, I guess I took out my anxiety with the remaining furniture. And god fucking damn it, here I am again a week later.

I keep finding ants (3) running on my desk all of a sudden while I'm SITTING THERE and have no idea ("no idea") where they're coming from (engage the phone flashlight routine). I moved this bitch AWAY from the window and they're fucking HUNTING me or smth (it's 35ºC out, girl). I hate my life. And I hate that any suggestion of bugs makes me start feeling shit on my skin that isn't there. Dumb fucking brain. Anyway I need sleep and to take my sertraline asap or else.

#i can't express to you how badly I was doing last week #my mom wasn't home when I was remodeling but I was fantasizing about screaming: #''take those plants out of my side of the veranda or i'll throw them OR myself off the balcony'' #i'm not suicidal don't worry it would be for the drama of the ultimatum #and then I took my meds the next day and I was calmer lol #but this has happened before. i believe this entire formication / almost delusional parasitosis started cuz i'm allergic to mosquitoes #and as a kid who lived with 3 grown people and had no power over them to close their damn windows - I attracted all the bugs #and I couldn't sleep and I heard and felt them near me and it was a horrible time #still at 23 i can only either pass out from exhaustion or more often find and kill them before I can sleep #when I was 14 or smth our cat also got fleas and I spent the most paranoids nights of my life suffering cuz they got into my bed #last year I slept over at a friend's house for a night and brought back what must've been a SINGLE flea #I'm not kidding you when I say I quarantined my room and slept in the living room for over a month. i was panicking #(i've since started anxiety meds) #I legit feared we had bedbugs and was looking at every single outlet and corner of my bed #our cat recently caught fleas and I combed through him to pick them out every day. that experience actually calmed me down about them #but it's when you can't see them / where they're hiding that's the problem #(it also taught me to let my cat in my room and then fleas become his problem LMAO) #(cuz his long fur 24/7 is way better than my legs for 8h I've been told lol) #anyway point is I get freaky when I suspect bugs are hiding somewhere #and that they're gonna bite me and I'm going to get super itchy and not be able to sleep #i start feeling shit on my skin and yes i know that's not normal. and I have to look at it to convince my brain to ignore it #i get jumpscared by my HAIR falling on my arms girl. that's embarrassing #what i'm ANGRY about is that this is about ANTS. who want NOTHING to do with me and every to do with idk leaves and crumbs #and I KNOW they're from the veranda. but nooooo someone is dumb and skipped her meds and now she's withdrawing and freaking out. about ANTS #EMBARRASSING. #as i'm typing this i'm scratching at myself for what is most likely 1) nothing 2) my hair or 3) cat fur #i'd bring this up to my therapist but he abandoned me </3 like they all do </3 i'm gonna develop abandonment issues at this rate LMAO #so uh anyway imma finish what I was doing (lie) and go to sleep (eventually) and take my meds #and hopefully remember to mention the formication to a health professional at some point lol #i just needed to write this down as evidence of how i'm feeling rn so tomorrow I can read this and say ''wow that was silly'' mkay? kay

[bumblingbabooshka]

I don’t buy that the entire crew of Voyager would continue on in Starfleet after reaching earth, I think at least half of them quit.

#In my mind these people definitely stay: Janeway / Tom / Harry #I think B'Elanna / Seven / and Chakotay are toss ups but in my mind B'Elanna and Seven eventually do their own thing soon after #B'Elanna would be like 'Hey Seven guess who quit Starfleet again!' and Seven would be added as a party member #I truly do believe in the freelance engineer/explorer B'Elanna with very special guests lifestyle #but that's also bc I'm simply not a B'Elanna/Tom Paris shipper v_v in my canon they are just co-parents. And also Tom gets with Harry #but then Harry breaks up with him too and it's devastating for a while but Tom finds someone eventually and then Tom enters every room #with B&H in it like 'Oh look out babe - I think that's my ex!' (very loudly as a joke) and they're all pals #I don't know Chakotay well enough to determine what he'd do but I most often picture him like: #'No. Fuck that. I like Voyager's crew but Starfleet can kick rocks.' and as soon as he's pardoned for whatever crimes he just fucks off to #live a quiet life somewhere...just doing his own thing....which is totally not being a political rebel :) definitely not breaking laws :) #Tuvok semi-retires for a time to stay at home with his family and then teach but he has a long life to live and I think he'd probably #still be very connected to starfleet v_v #Tuvok says he's going to retire 'for a time' and Janeway's like 'you better not mean 60 years like the first time.' #I know EMH is doing shit but I can't help but imagine B'Elanna keeping him on her like one of those travel companion fairy characters... #not for any character-driven reason but bc it's funny #B'Elanna Seven and the EMH going on adventures...totally not helping Chakotay do anything against very dumb laws #Tom Paris & B'Elanna Torres co-parenting but not being together works well for me because of both their childhood issues #B'Elanna not being able to be with Tom as a romantic partner but NEVER abandoning their daughter & Tom being like a single father but also #a good dad to Miral which he never thought he'd get a chance to be - I just like it v_v #Oh also about the Harry breaking up wtih him thing - I think Harry definitely had a crush on Tom on Voyager but after returning to earth #they slowly realize they work better as friends and with more....options...sometimes you feel less romantically into someone #Harry: What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic. / Tom: He means playboy. This man broke my heart v_v <- they're paling around #sometimes a happily ever after with someone is just being able to keep them in your life - even if you're not dating or married #sometimes family isn't nuclear...sometimes family is your ex-wife and her maybe girlfriend and your daughter and your ex-boyfriend and #that borg child your ex-wife's girlfriend keeps tabs on and your boss and an entire crew you used to serve with and NOT YOUR GODDAMN DAD! #NEVER HIM! #anyway I'm done rambling now thank you;;

[lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar]

#showaddywaddy #always and ever #pebble mill #1980 #did i not post this????? #i can't find it #did i forget #all this time #when did i make this #at the beginning of this month or something #buddy's smile is going to make me melt and maybe catch on fire a little bit #and the way malcolm looks at him and a smile is slowly forming on his face too omg i love them #they're #SO CUTE #okay so this one goes #trevor > rod > buddy > malcolm > romeo > russ > dave #and then al is somewhere behind dave but you can't see him because i can only fit so much into one gif #and i was doing this for buddy and malcolm being the cutest friends ever #but then i liked how it slowly drifts across all of them #so #yes anyway #my precious boys #omg i have a few more i forgot to post #WHY DIDN'T I #showaddywaddy gifs

[decimateddreams]

just going to. say stuff in the tags :)

#fun vent post because i found out something. very interesting (negative) irl :l #anyway can you imagine being someone's casual 'friend' and then going and them making a bet with their friend about your sexuality?? #well. that happened! to me 😐 what is going through this guy's brain to make him wake up in the morning and do that. what the actual fuck #he also confessed his 'feelings' a few months back despite knowing i am Not into men 😔 #and today! i found out apparently he's been doing that to any '''''girl'''' he can talk to since he broke up with his girlfriend of 3 years #it gets even worse 🥰🥰🥰 turns out he also assaulted someone else in my class. he gets no consequences. of course. #so! fun information to find out during a random morning! #i can't just tell Everyone either so i needed to say it all SOMEWHERE so tumblr <3 thank you for listening to my messed up school drama </3 #agh. #vent tw #c.txt

[machidielontheway]

i’m quite angry right now but it’s gonna tilt into Sad any second

#3615 my life #grief :( #not over him i really don't care and haven't in a while #but there's still good things i'm gonna loose #i'll find them somewhere else or in a different manner #but This One will still be lost :( #i will take time tomorrow to really think cleanly about it #but there is one thing that is a point of no return that i can't accept #like they've (he) really gone to take us by the nape and put our face in the ground #so i'm pretty sure i won't go back #it'll be just for emotions management

[detectiveconnor]

thinking about the time i asked connor how he would respond to amanda coming back, and threatening to seize control if he didn’t do xyz for her, and the way - after a beat - his response was: “Do it, then.” seize control. go ahead. he’ll wait.

thinking about connor calling bluffs and making dares and cutting to the truth. gosh, i love him

#fine i can't find it so HERE is the same post again it's identical to another post on my blog somewhere #but i can only find it through google and a ripoff tumblr site #so here is the same post again. #about connor #yeah this was the one i was thinking about it wasn't quite ''beg'' but the thought is the same #Go Ahead. Make Him.