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#i can only imagine how hard it is to give up sth you love and have been doing for the last 20+ years
leclerced · 3 months
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I can see Charles dating someone just for the sake of dating. Like he doesn’t really see a future with this person but he also doesn’t tell that to her. Then there’s a question about their plans from someone and he just shrugs it off with sth about himself but he doesn’t include his girlfriend in his plans. She thinks about it but doesn’t do anything because maybe he misunderstood it besides they’ve been dating only for half a year or sth like that. After another few months he falls for her hard without even realising and then I can see a whole misunderstanding about his intentions because she thinks he’s just playing with her and it hits him he loves her. After that a hell lot of grovelling cause my boy is fighting for his life there
okay i saw this yesterday and started replying and tumblr app crashed. this is too relatable to me but i am charles. picturing like a high maintenance rich girlie who knows what she wants ok. i love this and just brain rotted 1.5k about it so im adding a read more. this is a mess sorryyy
i can see him dating someone for the convenience of it. it started off really casual, hookups every now and again when he was in town. then the question he always hates hearing, the dreaded what are we? comes and he uses the same recycled answer, what do you want us to be? and then runs with whatever they say. he likes her company, he'd consider her a good friend, but he understands why she wants more than just texts when he's in town asking if she's free.
six months after that conversation, near the end of the season, he gets asked about the plans for the upcoming break and the next season. next season is definitely the priority right now. i'd like to be fighting for the championship again next year. they ask about break again and if he has plans with his girlfriend, the one who has been attending every race as of late, and he says yeah i'm sure we'll find something to do... haven't made any plans yet. i know i'll be at the factory a lot, like i said, next season is the priority, so we'll have to work around my schedule. charles doesn't realize how selfish he sounds, next season is the priority, so we'll need to work around my schedule, how disinvested in his relationship he sounds. every other racer with a partner has been talking about romantic getaways to aspen or bali, and charles sounds like he's forgotten he's spending his first christmas with his girlfriend.
she realizes though, she hears the disinterest in his voice when he talks about not working, and the way he gets excited talking about the next season. she had been excited for the break and getting to spend time with him, she wanted to go spend christmas with his family or stay at his place and have their own private celebration. she has tricked herself into thinking they'd be laid up in bed for days on end, not her sitting around while he works. she kind of backs off, she'd planned on staying with him for the last few races but after hearing the way he waves off the idea of spending time with her, she decides she'll give him the space he so clearly desires to work.
when they're in vegas, two races left to go, carlos asks him what he's getting her for christmas, and it dawns on him he hasn't thought about it. he says he's still thinking, doesn't know how much money he can spend on her, he doesn't want to over do it. it sounds like a romantic answer, like he wants to buy her a diamond ring, but he's worried he'll scare her off. the reality is, he's bought presents for everyone else in his life and somehow forgotten her.
the realization that he loves her comes when he's out shopping for her gift and nothing is right. he's thinking he doesn't know what she likes because everything he looks at, he imagines her opening the wrapping paper and being disappointed. the chanel bags he got past girlfriends wouldn't do because she loves exclusivity. she loves going with him all over the world and shopping while he works, going to lavish antique stores and buying vintage clothes and jewelry for exuberant prices. she had contacts all over the world looking for antiques she has her eye on, vintage fashion or rare scandinavian furniture made by someone with a name he can't pronounce or spell. almost everything she owns is one of a kind, or vintage fashion that she paid hundreds or thousands of dollars for. he passively thinks that's why he loves her, then stumbles back over that thought and realizes that he knows her much better than he thought, and that's why none of the gifts were good enough.
he tries buying her clothes from a designer he likes, then remembers she wears archival pieces. he goes for blankets, all women love blankets, and remembers she only likes real wool blankets (she carries one with her when she travels, because hotel blankets will not do) and the store he's shopping at doesn't carry them. she likes a very specific set of body wash, shampoo, conditioner, and lotion that all smell like mint and eucalyptus, and a signature perfume. he doesn't know the name of either. he knows what they smell like, like it's the laundry detergent he grew up with. he could recognize it anywhere, but he doesn't fancy walking up and down aisles opening bottles to smell them when it's probably a hidden luxury brand that is only sold in a single store in a different country, knowing her.
he doesn't remember her favorite song or artist, so he doesn't even think about getting a signed album or anything like he's done for other people. he knows she has an affinity for chopin and loves it when charles plays piano for him, but he doesn't know what he could gift her based on that knowledge. he tries buying her art from a gallery, but none if it seems to suit her. he knows she loves basquiat and has a painting over her bed, professionally mounted so it can't fall off when he rocks the bed into the wall. the art he peruses doesn't compare. he wanders into numerous antique shops, hoping to find some old furniture from one of the designers she admires, but he doesn't know how to spot the rarities like she does. he'd probably buy her an ikea dining table thinking it's hans olsen.
the realization that nothing is good enough for her because he loves her is confusing for him. he realizes he hadn't put enough thought into past gifts. he knows his friends and family well enough that he bought them thoughtful gifts without thinking. he would just see things and know they would love them. but with his new girlfriend, he spent the entire relationship not realizing how much he cared about her. any past girlfriend he just gifted expensive purses, jewelry, shoes. he wants to get her something that shows how much he loves her, in the same way he was looking for his mother's gift all year until he finally something he knows she would cherish for the rest of her life.
he ends up buying a painting he thinks is perfect, until he presents the canvas to her. he wanted to have it hung and surprise her with it, but she'd probably want to pick where it hangs so he hides it in her apartment until christmas day, and kind of pretends not to have gotten her anything. there's a single present under their tree, one from her to him. she tries not to think about it, in the days leading up to christmas, when she sees the blank space under the tree and wonders if she shouldn't have gotten him anything. then christmas morning they're lounging on the couch and she tries to sound casual when she asks if he wants to open his present, and he says he wants to give her hers first. he disappears into one of the spare rooms and returns with a frame facing him. he tells her to close her eyes and then open them a moment later.
he immediately thinks he did something wrong because she cries, and he's oh so carefully setting the artwork down and rushing to her, kneeling in front of her and asking if she's okay as she cries into her hands. she's still thinking about how he brushed off their relationship and said the season was the priority, then he buys her the painting that got her into art? it wasn't anything special he thought, he just reached out to a private art dealer one night and asked if they had anything similar to pieces he knew she owned. it was coincidental that it was a piece she'd been looking for since she started collecting art. he had a name that people knew, and money that people wanted, so when he made an offer, they were happy to make a deal with the ferrari driver.
i don't wanna get angsty but she tells him how she feels, how he's been dismissive, says his words from months ago back to him and says she doesn't get why he would get her a gift like that if she isn't a priority. she tells him the gift is too much if all he wants is something casual, she can't accept it if it doesn't mean anything to him because it means everything to her. and charles is like, kind of relieved, because he thought she hated it and he can totally deal with her loving it too much. he quickly assures her it means as much to him, apologizes for not being enough for her, for not realizing how much he cared about her and for not showing it the way he should have. he was so caught up in winning that he didn't realize that he had someone to come home to that made him feel better than crossing the finish line.
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wachtelspinat · 23 days
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Heya~
I often find it very difficult to find the right words, so I apologize in advance if any of what I have to say sounds dry or wrong, but I write it from the heart, I promise🧡
I know how you feel now and how much you get lost when that realization comes along. I learn art all my life, but I don’t succeed anywhere. No matter how long I try to do it, I still keep thinking “well I’m not good enough”. To be honest it scares the shit out of me every day, because if I’ll give up here… well there’s nothing I can do for life than. When I was in school, I was desperately clung to every fandom I had as my last hope to get rid of bad thoughts and I found those two silly characters that stole my heart immediately so of course it’s weird to say but since then Overwatch has become my “home”. It was not the perfect game but it was fun until Ow2 was released. Even if my love for OW is died, I understood that Junkrat and Roadhog took a much more bigger part in my live that I could ever imagine. I thought it was stupid, like come on that’s just a characters from the old and dead game but it turns out they’re not just characters, but in a way, my family or friends that helped me go through a lot of dark times, so it’s okey to love them deeply even if they are not real~
I always wondered, why do I make art? Is it what I really like and enjoy? Is it cost all the struggles and tears? But I found you and I fall in love with your arts immediately. I could have a really bad day in university but then I remember how I just go to your page to rewatch, for only gods knows how many times, your works. I love everything about them, how you can build a perfect shape with just one line, how many expressions and ideas your works have. Your knowledge of the anatomy is just… freaking olympic🤌🏻��� you gave me the second breath in my path of an artist because looking at your works I was wondering if I ever be able to achieve such a high level and here I’m speaking not only about arts with Junkrat and Roadhog, I speak about every single one that I could find🧡 and I understood that art in general have much much more power in it that anyone thinks. It gives hope, inspiration, safety, emotions and so on~ even without knowing it, you can make another person’s life a little better.
All I wanted to say is - you are a fantastic person, highly talented and hard working. I’m sure everyone who follows your work will support every of your decision. I just wanted to say a big thank you from myself personally for everything you do🧡
hey ! i'm really sorry that it took me so long to respond, last week was just hell on earth. the sheer amount of words you put into this hit me right in the heart, and what you said made me tear up even more.
having a really hard time here to form my words, not only because my brain feels so fried, but because your ask is so sincere and i don't think i can possibly thank you enough. it's so weird, there is this constant battle in my head that everything is futile and trivial and i'm having a hard time seeing some kind of point behind my actions (not only art related). on the other hand, i know that WE give meaning to something. that it's the small things that tends to move mountains. i don't know if i'm making any sense here. point is. by telling me that - in my opinion - my irrelevant art has given you sth, if it's just a smile, new energy to try sth yourself, inspiration... you are shaking my world. and i'm grateful for that in a way i cannot describe.
and seriously, i don't know why we make art. because as you mentioned yourself it is always connected with doubts and despair. before i entered graphic design school back when i was super young i thought drawing was me. the one integral part that made me so ~special~. just to learn that a bunch of people draw, all around the world, and they often draw even better than i could ever achieve! in the last months of being in university i relied a lot on defining myself through my art again. because it immensely helped with my self-concept when everything around me just felt like i wasn't good enough. i'm kind of re-learning again that doing art is not the one thing that defines me. because i tend to heavily lean into that. it is after all the one thing i actually like about myself.
so yeah, thank you so much for reaching out. i love your art and the love you put into it, so i'm hoping that - despite the struggles we all share while being creative - you continue to draw, as so will i <3
(and junkrat and roadhog, man... yeah they're not just characters, they stopped being just characters from a game a long time ago for me. i know i'm a broken record at this point BUT their codependency and independency, the balance between grit and gross and sweet and off-kilter, sweat, tears, blood and some ice-cream on the side, begrudging and thankful - it seems stupid to me too because i know most people just see these comic relief mad max rip-offs but every time i think about their dynamics and some of the stories i've read in fan works it grips my heart and i think "holy shit i love them so. much." - i'm still not done drawing them by a long shot i think, it just feels like i've reached a dead end of some kind? because with little time at hand and even less energy left i struggle to form my thoughts into drawings. but i'm working on that. i'm working on doing some kind of tribute, like a zine with my art from 2016 up to today and some more stuff i've yet to draw (had this idea since 2022 and i've just recently learned SO MUCH about zine making and printing and i finally started putting the first files together). because that feels right, like a proper "here look at this i hope this explains why i love them so much")
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reverieaa · 1 year
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your Outlook on the loa has changed the game for me, I swear. You explain better than nevile himself. But even though i UNDERSTAND now The 4d is real, i always end up "snapping out of it'' eventually because The 3d is too overwhelming. Like i understand intelectually but i cant feel it,yk? I dont know what to do, im trying so hard to live in the 4d but i just cant :(((
You are too kind omg and the sweetest thank u sm love ❤️💐 I'm happy my posts are doing their job and helping people guide themselves a better understanding of loa.
Now onto your question. I think that first- you are trying too hard to make your manifestation "happen" by going in your inner self. You are trying to manage between 3D and 4D when you're not meant to do rhat because the "3D" is a concept, not an actual reality.
You cannot "snap out of" being in the 4D and go into the 3D because you're ALWAYS in the 4D, the whole point is that you're always the inner man reacting to the outer world. The 3D is not only a reflection of you, but it is you. Be one with it and realize it's the content of your imagination and concepts of self. This is why there is nothing but self to change.
You cannot feel it because you have not taken the time to accept being the creator, understanding how it works and accepting it are two different things. But you are always feeling. Like right now when you say " I can understand it but not feel it" you are literally feeling it to not be, I hope you understand what I'm trying to say?
This is why it's important to make your loa journey personal and custom to you. I recommend you meditate on it, give your self permission to feel safe and don't force anything because force implies that sth is not. The wish fulfilled doesn't have to be a sense of euphoria 24/7 where you have perfect thoughts. Don't ignore your 3D but go on about your day and gently remind yourself that it's only you, take it easy your desires are always with you so don't tire yourself out.
Your job is not to "make it happen" or "make sure it happens at the right time" or to " feel it hard enough ". It is to enjoy what you want and accept it as true, that is all you need.
I hope this answers you question 💕
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hajihiko · 2 years
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I love the way you drew that izuru doodle! I always thought Izuru in the anime looked too... not like he was a science experiment, but your Izuru just looks so much more realistic and it's heartbreaking but Izuru's existence is heartbreaking so. Well done you've outdone the danganronpa creators again
Question: What are your thoughts on Izuru? Like just him as a character? Do you have any headcanons about him? You might've been asked this before if so apologies ;-;
Thank you! Ive only seen that one sprite of him but it looked so....person with a wig, not very menacing
Anyway
I don't rly know anything about him, BUT i thought a lot about the deets of the whole talent thing, even talked to my rly smart friend about it
So like. We know he's constantly bored because he's so insanely capable and smart that nothing is any kind of challenge and therefore illicits no reaction. Also it's very possible that his brain just got messed with way too hard and it ruined the emotions part, one way or another (like hyper-dysthemic depression, idk if that's the word they still use but let's say I'm familiar with it).
I figure that, since nothing is a challenge, he doesn't even need to focus his talents, meaning it's either constantly running like a million computer programmes, or he just falls into the appropriate talent without needing to think about it- instinct basically, or rather, forcefully carved brain-paths.
Now bear with me I'm not a native english speaker. So when you do something often, and it works for you somehow, it opens a pathway in your brain to make it easier to access this action or thought, like sheep walking the path path over and over until it's a little grooved road. This is something people with talents of action (fighter, runner, programmer etc) definitely made in themselves, but it got artificially pressed into Izuru. So, he has these deep brain grooves that he effortlessly falls into when appropriate, because it's what all his brains are used to doing. It's extra effortless because he doesn't really care what it is, how it works, as long as it just does. His reactions might therefore be, creepily accurate in every situation, or completely inappropriate. Someone hugs him and he gives a great hug back because that's just what his body does, even if there's no emotion in it, because he's an Ultimate Babysitter or something. Or, someone hugs him and he breaks their arms, because his Ultimate Assassin talent kicked in and he just didn't care / try / have time to get out of that brain groove. And like, why would he? It worked then, it works now.
This is also, I want to interpret, somewhat why hes so GOSH darn bored. He got so good at protecting himself from all the pain and confusion that he just cut it all off entirely; VERY common trauma response. Some of it is definitely also the surgeries and the absolutely cacophony in his brain and his hyper-understanding- that's what keeps it up- but what started it might've just been a plain and simple coping mechanism. Also feels like that's why Hajime can come back fully; a) he decided to and he's a very wilful guy and his power is being human and I love him so he just did it, b) he was able to get out of that deep deep groove, feel his entire spectrum of emotions again and activate those pathways, and is once again able to kind of access them. It'll take time and effort to get to where he was, but it's happening! There's... dare I say.... hope?
Sidenote this is all based on / inspired by my experiences with depression (as a symptom or the whole thing idk) of the active-but-emotionally-dead variant, not nearly as serious as brain surgery fuckups but nonetheless sth I can connect. Just now realized I might be more invested in this than I thought.
This one is moreso Haji-zuru, but I imagine that he'd be both very easily bored and would often just peace out in his head bc nothing is fun (should not be left alone for too long bc he'll get too deep into his blank stasis), while ALSO chasing any real emotion ferociously, just like, honing in on anything that catches his feels. Which can be nice! Feelings are somehow novel and familiar to him. But also not nice because sometimes, the feeling is a bad one. Just because it makes you feel something doesn't mean that it's good for you and others.
Also the reflexes and such. Might be a hard habit to break.
Sidenote I generally err on the nurture side of philosophy and do not understand the talent thing. Everyone is memories, memories and thoughts are basically ALL we are, how can Izuru have the active parts of the memories only and nothing else. How can he be The Ultimate Babysitter without actually taking any of that in?? He can do the actions but not access anything that shapes them and that's honestly an interesting concept. Boggles the mind. No wonder he's fucked up he's fucking me up.
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amiwritesthings · 1 year
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Happy dadfucker Friday! As the queen of soft, would you be willing to share your most fluffy domestic j/d headcanon? ❤
chinaaaaaa darling, thank you for the ask <3
alright, i don't know about fluffy but i can do soft lol
i love to imagine that right before they cross the line to whatever they are, john is so touch-starved bc let's be real, he hasn't been touched, really touched, with purpose and tenderness for so long. quick hook-ups with barflies are just about getting his rocks off and they are usually more concerned with getting off then touching him anyway, and when dean or someone else patches him up it is all very task-oriented bc there's blood and there needs to stop being blood.
so when they return from a rough hunt and john took a boot to the wrist, the bad guy twisting his weapon out of his hand, it isn't until he's in the shower trying to get the grime off his body, the dust out of his hair that he notices just how weak his wrist it, the cheap motel 3-in-1 hair and body wash slipping out of what's left of his grip just like that. and it hurts, gripping, moving, lifting his arm and yet he stoically tries to soldier through bc it's what he does.
only dean's already hovering in the door, biting at his lip bc he heard that crunch of bone and he worries, he always worries. and he tries, says, "dad," but john waves him off, grunts, "i'm fine," even while he continues to struggle and dean is just not having it bc the last thing he needs is dad slipping in the tub and splitting his head open or breaking sth else and so he just strips down to his boxers and gets in with dad and john protests ofc he does until dean snatches the body wash from him and grabs his bad shoulder and john almost buckles under the pain. "let me help you, dad," dean says and john very much doesn't want to let dean help but the water is already getting colder and what's he gonna do, this is obviously not gonna work on his own. so he bites out, "just hurry up," and gives in bc it's dean and he can trust dean to do this with military efficency as they do everthing else.
except dean is being super caring and gentle about it, traces scars and rubs sore muscles, gets his back, takes his time to get him clean and it's so overwhelming bc he hasn't been touched like this in so long and it makes his skin tingle, his nerve endings sing, stupidly makes tears spring to his eyes that he quickly blinks away.
dean's hands fall away but then they are back, lathering up his hair, gently massaging his scalp and he can't help a soft groan and dean just takes it in stride, works down to the back of john's neck before scratching back up and it's so good even if it is a little awkward to shuffle even closer to dean so he can rinse out the shampoo. but john closes his eyes and lets himself be touched and hums for dean's gentle touch, mindful of his injuries new and old, and he almost misses dean's "okay, i think we're done." john almost doesn't want it to stop but he sighs, says, "thank you," almost tags on a 'honey' like he used to do with mary.
and if they are both a little hard when dean steps out of the shower, wet cotton plastered to him front and back, well, john will just blame it on leftover adrenaline and dean's youthfulness.
(can you tell i think about this one a lot? /o\)
or on a lighter note:
dean and john using a break between hunts to just relax and go to a concert, being just normal people, a couple of guys out on the town, and they sing along off-key and get to touch each other casually, in public, like they never get to otherwise. and if during that one slow song, john pulls him close and kisses him all slow and sweet, and dean looks up at him after with that rosy blush on his cheeks and with a smile that makes his eyes crinkle, well, no one needs to know how perfect he thinks that is.
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koa-ssi · 1 year
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There's something about sub, gp dreamcatcher that i really love. Here are some scenarios i imagined one time. (There isnt one specific person to go with each member)
Jiu: phone sex, maybe, where she shows (dc member) just how hard she is. But because she's not at the dorm, she isn't given permission to.come. has to walk back home with a (very noticeable) boner :(
Sua: SUA BEING TIED TO A CHAIR, THIGHS AT FULL SIGHT. And her dick is the epicenter of it all. Poor girl sua can't touch herself and has to ask to be played with
Siyeon: bent over, in the kitchen counter. With such magnificent ass in sight, and some spanks here and there. Hair pulling, of course. The strap, or dick, fucking her too good. Whines, and groans. And so much cum.
Handong: ice play with the ice princes. It'd be pure torture to hold an ice cub just barely touching her tip. Whiney baby. Maybe some pleading of Unnie, even if its a younger member.
Yooh: the best puppy, holding herself still while she's being edged. and it only gets worse any time she moans, whimpers, whines, groans, or thrusts up into the hand.
Dami: dick print at an event, like a group dinner.. Teased relentlessly, until she almost soils herself. Has to take a 5-minute bathroom break. Of course, to go not to the bathroom, precisely. But someone, being the best angel ever decides to give little Yubinnie a hand.
Gahyeon: baby wakes up with a problem, and tells immediately. Being a good girl, she recieved a reward. The reward? Being ridden, of course.
🐺🥕
Since Koa is working at the moment, I'll answer this one (living in different time zones cuts both ways 😌) She's still working on your other ask btw, don't worry :)
Okay, so for Jiu, I really like the idea of her not being allowed to cum and therefore having to deal with her hard-on, poor baby 🥲 I can see Dongie as the one who's doing that to her hehe, I really like their dynamics in general ^^
For SuA, I can't add anything, really, 10/10, absolutely perfect idea. I guess Dadong are candidates for doing this to her 🤭
Siyeon, same as with SuA, it's such a good thought 😵‍💫 she'd definitely cum so hard when she gets her ass fucked good, dear god. Could be probably anyone from the girls who fucks her ass, Singnie just needs to be in the right mind set and she'll bottom for all of them (understandable)
The ice play for the ice princess is such a good idea too, wow! Maybe not only on her dick but also on her nipples? 👀 No matter where, she'd be hella sensitive. I guess Siyeon could have her fun trying that with her ^^
Yooh would be so subby and I love it. Although Gahyeon is more of a brat and not really dommy, Yooh is probably the only one with whom she can actually have control all the time (minus bimbo Siyeon ofc) and she'd enjoy every second of Yoohyeon being at her mercy 😌 other than Gahyeon, I guess Dadong would be the next ones that pop up in my mind for edging Yooh over and over again
Dami with a hard-on during an (official) event is sth that's probably a regular occurrence haha, especially Gahyeon and SuA just have too much fun with teasing her and turning her on, oops. I'm pretty sure one of these two (depending on who it was this time) has to help her solve the problem in the bathroom then ^^
Yep, Gahyeon is a baby and they're all weak for her, so when she comes into the kitchen to the others and says "I'm horny, someone needs to do something against it!", she'd probably get a discussion started on who gets to fuck with her this time 😂
If you feel like elaborating on one of your ideas, feel free to further enlighten us 👀😌
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valleynix · 1 year
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Another chapter is finished >:)
The way I didn't trust that Bela from the opening scene for even a mere second.
<"Might you grant my sorrowed soul mercy with a kiss from your-“
Snorting at her dramatics, you lean forward>
Cass got the dramatics and long dimples when she smiles after her mama. Confirmed.
"it is a flaw of mine to tell my daughters no. They’ve become spoiled since their rebirths"
CANNON
<“If you’d told me how much you cared for them when I first woke up, I wouldn’t have believed you. I’ve heard the rumors.”
“That because of what I do to keep myself and my children alive and well, I must be a monster incapable of retaining any of my humanity?”>
It's the way that in your writing you're basically calling out the people that say Alcina is an awful mom and abuses her kids coz "she's a villain".
"you find yourself smiling upon feeling the absolute bundle of nerves and racing thoughts that is Daniela Dimitrescu."
This is so real, I turn into a happy puppy whenever she's mentioned. I just go 😍🥰💞
"She makes herself right at home in your personal space, tucking herself beneath your blanket and resting her head on your shoulder, interlacing your fingers together as she settles"
:') my touch starved ass is dying in here bro
<“Good morning, little-“
“Don’t be sappy this early,” Cassandra grumbles.
THE WAY I LAUGHED PLEASE I LOVE HER SHE AINT GIVING BELA A BREAK
Now there's going to be a transition to sth more serious. Because damn.
I really admire Reader, that they still (somehow) function and try to make things right even though they're severely traumatised and despite all that anxiety. And I imagine it must be really hard for them. To keep it together, to go on with all the mess there's in their head bc of what happened and only they're aware of. The isolation and lack of a person they can share their worries with aren't helping either. And I imagine they feel really pressured to succeed, to keep the Dimis safe. They desperately don't want to lose them.
But all that stress they put upon themselves doesn't work in their favour. Their actions are chaotic. They're getting lost between what they think is right and what they think they should do for not to lose the Dimis' favour.
Reader's internal battles about whether sth is right or not and struggles to manoeuvre between it all make them feel real, like an average person that has a lot on their shoulders. Because a normal person would have a lot of doubts too and it'd be hard for them to cold calculate everything just to get to the desired point. People have feelings and emotions and they often get in the way.
And, Reader franticly wants to escape what they truly are, but I think if they accepted and embraced their darker side, the mutation, that would work in their favour. They're not "just a human", but it doesn't have to be an inherently bad thing.
You really put a lot of work to make every one of your characters complex, act and react accordingly to the events and make it feel like they're all alive inside their little fictional world. I love to read about them so much <3
HEHEHE >:)
*i was trying so hard to make it very... horror-y and unsettling, like something is clearly wrong but everything looks fine, yknow
*I LOVE THEM YOUR HONOR, the thought of Cass copying her mama in some capacity is so <3333
*Alcina is best mom, i don't take criticism
*THE WAY I'VE DONE THIS (and something similar) SEVERAL TIMES LMAOO. the people who say "they're abusive!! they're SAers!!" all because they kill people need some brains. being a villain does not mean you would be the literal scum of the earth
(that's why i try to make it clear none of the Dimis would ever intentionally disrespect Reader's boundaries no matter what (feralness aside) and why i make it so apparent how much Alcina loves her daughters)
*i have some good news: you're going to love the next chapter (lots of Dani content) >:) i literally love her so much pls
*PLEASE LMFAO I LOVE THEIR SIBLING DYNAMIC, Bela tries to do literally anything and Cass is just, "Ew. Stop" HAHAHSDLFJSH
*i do think it's often easy to forget that despite it all, poor Reader has been through so much in such a short amount of time, and that's bound to make them a little... unstable. and it's easy to think you're making the right choice, blinded by what you think you should be
it's something i briefly addressed in the upcoming chapter fifteen, where Reader has been so caught up in their own head that they forget just how much their knee-jerk reactions harm/affect those around them. like, the Dimis are people with thoughts and feelings too, and their devotion to making everything right has completely blinded them to what's going on when they're not around
it does get better, and you'll see why in chapter twelve? i think? they have to learn they can trust these women they're trying so hard to protect, even as hard as it may seem and as much as they may doubt the conclusions of such acts. for being as traumatized and slightly stupid as they are, though, it's certainly going to be a journey
(plus, with Reader trying to protect them from that life and what happened, it makes them think they have to bear the burden alone, not realizing how much of a strain that puts on them. telling them all their trauma, everything they've seen... it's just not as easy to do as it is to say it aloud)
i know it can get difficult reading about this dumbass making mistakes that seem obvious to the rest of us, but with everything they've been through... :')
i'm really glad you're still enjoying it, and i look forward to what you'll say for the next chapter (and the Dani scenes >:) ) <3333
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khaleesiofalicante · 2 years
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You know I had a problem with my mom, so I went to see my therapists. I thought what my mom was doing was wrong (the problem wasn't really about me, it was about her personal life, but you know how we children sometimes-unknowingly- want to meddle with our parents as much as they meddle with us) , and as a person who tries not to judge people, I was pretty sure at the time I had every right to judge. Anyway I went to her and we spoke, and there was one thing she told me that really stayed in my mind. She said:
"Imagine a 9 yo child telling you 'if I had children, I would take them to park EVERYDAY!' what do you think? You'll probably think it's funny because that child is saying what they like to experience with their own parents as the child, without knowing that it just isn't possible :) so think about it this way, you as a 19 yo girl can not ever fully understand what your mother is going through as a married woman of 44 years. Are you the same person you were at 15? No. your opinions can change A LOT during those times, so judging your mother with the beliefs of a 19 yo daughter doesn't really seem fair, does it?"
And it really wasn't, now that I think about it. What I'm trying to say is that I see people saying "I don't really want them get back together at this point" or "How can Alec is going to trust him after he runs away from everything" and I just want to say, non of us can or should put what we think, as something to make judgement based on, like how many of us have a 20 years history of love with a person? How many of us are at our 40s? (cause you must agree age really affects how you see the world, it's also shown perfectly in tlnd timelines) How many of us have experienced mental illness? Celebrity lives? Politician lives? I don't really think the number is high (if not none) so I don't think any of our judgments is really accurate
I have seen a person say "I know it's hard to talk about and he was humiliated but he shouldn't run away" and the same person saying "He acted like an asshole I agree but he was shit drunk" like we can see the same person first dismissing any excuses and then giving excuses for sth, so it's not like we can really judge without picking sides, so I guess all I wanna say is that, most people have a favorite. We are our own favorites irl that's why we always consider our own sides of stories in a fight. Or why we take our friends sides in a fight. In a fiction too people have favorites and picking up sides and our judgments of the story is heavily affected by it, so I guess if we just remember that, and the fact that you can never fully understand that character and their problems, we won't be hating on Magnus some characters that easily.
Thank you for listening to my Ted talk addfkjkjk it got longer than expected :')
I have nothing to add.
Just wanted to say I loved this. So thank you for writing it and sharing it with me.
One of the my favorite things about writing stories is that I love to make people think. Not to change attitudes per se but just to make them think and go "oh okay". I love that. It only makes me want to write more.
You are amazing. Bye!
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aajjks · 2 years
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Things suck recently. This is another one of my stupid vents to the internet as a stranger on the internet spreading their TMI about their pathetic life and I’m just here bc I have no better outlet.
Within 2 weeks since school started it feels like everything has fallen apart. I’m arguing w my friends and most of them aren’t talking to me while I’m going through the toughest time of my life rn. My family is struggling in ways more than one. The new dance crew I’m in feels so unfamiliar and I don’t have friends there. The old one kicked me out of the gc (understandable bc I’m not in it obv) but it just makes me feel so empty and like dying. The last thing I was able to see from the chat is their rehearsal video and all my teammates look so happy. It feels like every life or group that I was ever a part of always becomes happier or better without me. I don’t even have the time to cry anymore because the 24 hours of my day are half school, half dance/vocal, and half hw. I barely even have time to eat, do chores, or go on my phone like I am now and the reason I can even do that now is bc it’ll take away from my sleep time instead. everything is so much and it feels like I’m healing, hurting, and losing myself all at once. I’m trying to keep my head up and look forward to small things like updates on ur blog or just anything but when those come I barely have the time to look at them now. As a person I’ve been through a lot but this is charting as probably the worst time I’ve ever had and this time no one can help me. I can’t drop dance or vocal bc im so dedicated and I can’t drop out of school or do less hw. My childhood had always been lost growing up but now it feels like my youth has become nothing but training in the studio for a choreography I won’t even get cast in and doings mountains of work that won’t help me if I’m stuck in poverty in the future. I don’t even know who I am anymore and I’ve become insecure of every atom that makes up me.
And now the only thing I can do is be a moping, lifeless loser and complain about it like it’ll do anything. Growing up really sucks, you can probably relate to that as well. I hope you do well on your exams goddess, and take this as a sorry for all my random vents that might appear in the future too. Don’t post this if u don’t want to honestly, it’s hard to say anything abt this and u shouldn’t have to be comforting or caring to someone you don’t know on the internet. Just hope you can have less stressful days, exams really suck and I hope you can rest and take care soon. Btw I’m not super young like a primary school kid and just got hw assigned for the first time ever or sth I’ve been doing it all my life but this year it’s just sm worse.
- the 🐇 anon who said she was gonna write regular asks soon but lied
my love.. I’m not even going to lie but yes life fucking sucks. We’re struggling nonstop w/o any break or good thing in life…. God the depression that I get when I think about my future just makes me want to quit everything and sit like a pathetic loser….
It fucking hurts to feel excluded and feel like the world is better/happier without your presence, makes my guts clench so hard.
God… I can’t even imagine the level of your exhaustion… hw/vocal and dance practice for so many hours w/o any good outcome yet must feel so burdening… with family and personal issues as well…
I can relate to you…. Oh my god my mind is too not in a good place but here’s the thing I tell myself.
I have to keep trying and survive. That’s the thing.
No matter how hard it is to try to go on and repeat the same routine every single day.
And can I tell you something personally? I really really think that you’ll succeed. I really want you to keep trying… keep working hard because I just know you’re going to make it, better than anyone else…
Please don’t give up. It takes a HELL lot to achieve your dreams…. I don’t have the guts to haha but I want you to fulfill your dream!!! And become happy! ❤️
tbh you’re so gutsy to not have given up, I’m soooo proud of you and I’ll be rooting for you like a top fan ;) trust me you’re going to BE SUCCESSFUL 😋❤️
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catistakingabath · 2 years
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12/9/2022
First diary on tumblr hehe
Today is also the first day I skip class in uni because my phone died and sister didnt wake me up even though I told her to. Class started at 9:10 and if only I wasnt on my period, I would not have wake up so late TT, and if I miss one more session I will have to retake the course, so I have to be super careful. Promise myself that I will try to be 10 15 minutes early.
Yesterday I have a meeting with communication department in TEDxBachkhoa at a cf. To be honest, anh Quang said too much that I can hardly process all the information, but what I know is: we have to brainstorm ideas about the up coming pj, maybe a series of videos or sth, and I have to do the tool kit with chi Nhung, but I think that might be hard since it was similar to a booklet and it need a strong unity in the design. I hope that she is easy to work with and I will try my best not be bossy and len mat day doi dan chi cause she is 2k2.
At the end of the meeting, anh Quang did the tarot reading for us, and I found out a friend have the same name (both first and last) and the same birthday as my secondary Thao, which was so cool!! Like what are the odds of that coincidence?? And I also found out my than so hoc was number 1. Like when people found out, they were like surprised and impressed, and anh Quang told me that people with number 1 are born to be leader, either they will be very successful or they will be poor and bad as f. Yea this kinda fascinated me. At first I want to ask him the read about my love life, but since the than so hoc has sparked my curiosity, I decided to ask about my work. He said that there will be someone teach me lots of things and I will found my strength and gain my confidence. And I need to rest more and this is not the right time to begin a relationship. Idk if this is true but I will see in the near future (6 months).
Yesterday I also seen a post about this is a bad month for Sagittarius. It gave advice that whenever I am working in team, be aware of bad talking conversation about other. Try to stay out of drama and not to be involved emotionally. To be honest, it is true that I have struggle this kind of problem before. Like when you join a big group of friends, there will be some conflict between someone. I have come to a solution. Whenever they talk bad shit about others, I will only be listen and ừ and not say anything else. If they start to ask me to give thought about this stuff, I will start saying: thật ra quan điểm của em là em sẽ không đánh giá một người chỉ qua lời kể của người khác. Chỉ khi nào em thực sự tiếp xúc và trải nghiệm thì em mới đưa ra đánh giá của em để cho khách quan nhất. Bây giờ em chỉ có thể lắng nghe chuyện anh/ chị kể và tiếp thu thôi. Like, it will like i am in between. I am not totally in any side, even if it will be more convenient for me to just stand on their side, but i should seperate work and relationships and i think this is the right thing to said. The other day Han tell me that she started preparing her introduction in uni 1 month before, and i start to think thats a great idea :)) From now on, I will start imagine difficult situations like the one above, and I will think of the best thing to answer so that I will not end up troubling myself.
Okay actually last week I went out to eat with the secondary class. Most of them are the boys, including Manh, and at first I didnt want to go. Tuan and Chip insisted me, but I did not changed my mind until Chip said this might be the last chance to meet Manh cause he is going the study aboard the next month. When we got there, I was so shy that I cant make myself to look and talk with Manh. Even though I wanted to know about his life, like is his old white cat doing fine, how is his girlfriend, is he excited about going study aboard, what major is he going to study, and so on. But I cannot bring myself to do that cause I such a coward and I still have feelings for him. It is embarrassing but he still appear in my dream occasionally, and how am I supposed to get rid all of my feeling if he keep doing that and there is no one cool enough in my love life?? And I hate that feeling when you are noticing someone in the corner of your eyes, and you feel that they are looking at you too but you cant know for sure cause its vague. I feel that when we at the hot pot he was looking at me, but I cant know for sure, and Chip didnt notice him for me. Anyways, the boys was nicer than I thought cause some of them were really mean in secondary school and I didnt like them at all, but somehow they are nice to me at the meeting and no one talk shit. Surprisingly, Giang who was sitting in front of me were kinda nice cause hes keep refilling the water for me even when I'm not asking him nor my cup was empty. When my chopsticks fell, Giao Linh gave me a new one without even asking. Looking back, even in secondary school, those guys were not the mean one, they just the shy-to-the-girls type of guys, be mean back when someone teased them (sr Giao Linh cause I once teased you for being short), and not rl care or help when I was in trouble, and play with the mean ones. Okay now I feel less appreciated them :) Okay but everyone have their phrases and they were still childish back then. Even though everyone said that the grown up are bad and everyone start to faking feelings to each other, and making friends is not as easy as when we were kids. However, the more I grow up, the more comfortable I feel with the surroundings. Bc my peers start to be more understanding, and they are not as mean as before, even if they did not change at all, the truth is that they still think bad of me, and they are just good at masking it, I still feel more comfortable because I am not aware of that, and I feel that I am being treated in the way I deserved. Anyways, back to Manh. After the meeting, I feel that hes not as pretty as in my memory, not as special compared to others since my peers start to be more mature. This is a great sign that I finally get to move on and stop being such a pathetic ass. Maybe meet him 1 or 2 more times will help me even more, to get rid of that pink and perfect version of him in my head, but I think it will be hard to have another chance. Lately, I also feel like I want to have a lover and shit, that I want to be loved and start listening to the kiribaku series on yt again. Now think of it, I start to notice that my phrase of desperating-to-be-loved occasionally was around september, november every years, because last year I started to addict to the kiribaku series around this time of the year. And I start wondering, if this has anything to do with the time I start liking Manh in 9th grade. Cause that is when my feeling start to blossom and have grow the strongest :/ idk 
Lately, I also been thinking about being myself. Idk maybe it is somewhat about a existence question? Like I am aware and want to moving forward, to improve myself, not only to embrace my strength that I already have, but also looking at others and learn. But, would it be like, i am just a creature thats copying others? Like it is okay to learn things like skills, or knowledge, but one of my biggest weakness is soft skills, and I intended to copy their way of coping problems to others, their way of socializing and shit. I mean, almost everyone do that and I am also doing that from a long time ago unintentionally. But like now if I intent to do so, I will copy more and more, and does that harm my inner-self? Like I will adapts traits, personalities, from person A, person B, person C, and will that make me a totally different person? And will that kill my past me, my child me? I mean, I might be dramatic but, imagine if I can meet me when I was a child, when I have adopted all of this new personalities, my child me will think that she was such a loser, that she is nothing, that she need to change to be better, and my present me will be so guilty cause I never want to feel that way, and neither does my child-me. For example, I used to have this conversation with my sister. She said that she hate to interact to other, to be involved in social occasion, like when her uni friends invited her to their wedding, or when her uni friends ask she how shes doing and invite her to cf. And I have told her that she should turn them down, because she should do it to maintain her social relationship, which might help her in the future. Until then I realized I'm not doing all this thing because I like it at my heart, I'm just doing it because I think it as an "investment", that I need to do it so my life will be somehow easy, because it is how this society works. I'm not doing all of this because of my inner-child, but it is how this society expect from me. Maybe this is not the right way to healing my inner-child, not trying to perfect myself. But seriously, I dont really know what to do. What is the way to improve myself, which is also healing? That sound kinda impossible i guess
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spacebunslewis · 3 years
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Why do my faves have to age I'm literally heartbroken </3
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bonky-n-steeb · 2 years
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I have a request for Andrew's Peter parker 🥰
A meet cute where the reader hangs out at a skate park listening to music or sth and Peter just rolls by on his board, noticing her and being mesmerized. Then he goes crazy trying to get her attention by doing tricks on the ramps and stuff but ultimately fails and kicks his board in her direction unintentionally almost hitting her and she scolds him, screaming at him for being reckless. But in the end he invites her to a cafe to make up for almost giving her a black eye.
Fluff, Angst, smut idrc 😄
ahsjsnsiegsjsyt… this is literally so cute, I’m overflowing with love.
— meet cute
summary || your and Peter’s meet cute
warnings || fluffy fluff!
I hope y’all like this!
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You gasped when the new guy almost flew into the air before landing smoothly and rolling over. You had to give it to him, that boy had moves.
You had been sneaking watching him, in between mindlessly scrolling your phone, to not look like a creep, as he performed really good, but quite dangerous tricks.
You didn’t know why, but you felt like he was watching you after every single stunt he pulled. Must be your imagination.
The guy was cute, super cute. But you couldn’t just ask any random stranger out. Also it would be all in your head and he might not be even looking at you.
Peter was trying really hard to get your attention. He could feel your eyes on him as he skated, but when he looked back, you were always lost in your phone.
When he had come into the park, he had seen you sit by and shake your head to the tune blaring in your ears, and he hadn’t been able to look away since.
He was increasing the levels of difficulties of tricks to just get your attention. He could hear your breath hitch when he just jumped off the ramp.
This time though when he looked, you were staring right back at him. His lips spread into a goofy smile and he decided to try the hardest one he knew.
You smiled back at the guy and you could see as he started rolling towards you, without breaking eye contact. It was like a trance you both were out in where you sillily looked at each other.
But that trance was broken when the skateboard slipped from beneath Peter’s legs and flew right at you. Gladly, you ducked down just in time for it to not hit you.
You saw as Peter landed straight on his ass and slipped down the slope of the ramp. Now that must’ve hurt.
You rushed over to look at him only to see him smiling up at you. “Oh my god! Are you okay?” You asked as he climbed up as if nothing had happened.
“Yeah! I’m fine.” You looked at him for a moment trying to map out any injuries. “Are you sure? You fell down real bad.” He was walking regularly as if he hadn’t just fallen down.
“Yeah yeah. I’m good.” He ran his hand through his hair and you couldn’t help but think how cute he looked while doing that.
“You know you should be more careful, right?” The worry in your tone had somehow changed to anger. His smile dropped that very instant, “I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to hurt you….”
“I’m not talking about me. The way you fell, you could’ve easily broken your hip bone. You shouldn’t be doing the tricks you don’t know how to do properly.” You said pointing a finger towards his chest.
“No no! It’s not like that. I do know how to do it. But when someone as pretty as you is looking, a boy can get a bit flustered.” He looked down at you shyly as he said.
The moment he said that, you smiled slowly and your face heated up. You ducked your head down and Peter’s cheeks were hurting with how hard he was smiling now.
“I gotta compensate for almost hitting you.” You looked up at him and it felt like you’d never get tired of staring at him. “Ohh really?” You asked teasingly.
“Hmmm… would a coffee with me make up for it?” You pretended to think for a moment before you answered, “A coffee and some donuts would surely make up for it!”
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maddu-oliveira · 2 years
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ok so i am glad you write for jason todd and also it's my first time requesting for sth lol.
so reader is a virgin and so nervous about sex because she thinks it will hurt her and jason and she have a talk about it and jason comforts her. doesn't have to be a smut i just wanna see the dialogue
⭐My Sweet Girl⭐
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warnings: +16 content, mentions of virginity and sex, the rest is just fluff
word count: 602
A/N: thanks for the request, I just can imagine Jason being cute and sweet when it comes to his loved one and just with them. This is short but I hope is what you wanted :)
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You were lying on Jason's bed playing with his hair while he had his head in your lap with his eyes closed, having peace after weeks in a mission that almost got him killed and made you really worried. Admiring your boyfriend with a smile, noticing every detail of him from his perfect curly hair to the little scars he had.
"I can feel you staring, baby" he said, making you blush hard and pinch him on the neck.
"I thought you were sleeping, J!"
Jason laughed at your reaction dodging your slaps even though he knew you wouldn't hurt him, then he held your hands over your head and hovering you with his body. A cheeky smile appeared in his face when he saw your face getting red, he started kissing your face carefully and lowering his lips to your neck sending shivers down your spine.
"How can you look so sexy and cute at the same time?" he whispered close to your lips.
You were so tensed up from his actions, liking it but also afraid of what would come next, closing your eyes just feeling him kissing and biting your neck. He was being delicate even though he wanted you so desperately, letting go of your hands just to put him on your waist and getting himself between your legs.
"J-Jason... I-" you put your shaking hands on his shoulders to hold him back making him look at you concerned.
"Are you okay, baby?"
"Yeah I think... Is just- just that I-" you couldn't manage to finish the sentence without feeling embarrassed.
"It's okay, my girl," he said, pulling away and sitting by your side.
"I'm sorry, J..." biting your lips and hiding your face with your hands.
"For what, my girl? You did nothing wrong" he took your hands kissing them and smiling at you.
"Because I know what you want and- and I can't give you that without being fucking scared"
Jason quickly understood what you meant by making him squeeze your hands in a loving way to make you feel safe with him. He brought one of his hands to your face, stroking your cheek and smiling.
"My girl, it doesn't matter what I want here but what you want" his voice was calm trying to show you that it was true what he was saying. "I can wait for you for a hundred years and I will still be happy just to have you by my side"
"It's just that I'm a virgin, J"
"I know, that's why I want you to only agree to try to go to the next step when you really want to and are comfortable with it" he kisses your hand again.
"I'm afraid it will hurt or that I won't be as good for you..."
"Hey hey! You're perfect for me in any way, sweet" he approached to kiss your cheek. "First time will give you a little pain but nothing that you can't handle, you're my tough girl"
"I know you're trying to comfort me but... I can't stop thinking that you have a lot more experience than me"
"It doesn't matter cause I want you to feel safe and good with me... Make your first time be perfect and next ones too" Jason smirked joking and earning a look from you that couldn't hold the smile.
"You are incredible, Jason! Thank you for understanding... I will try to not think too much about it" you peck his lips and hug him.
"Anything for my sweet girl" he kissed your forehead and you two stayed there hugging each other.
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laladellakang · 2 years
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HELLO! I just wanted to ask, could you do an imagine (if it doesn't bother you 💀), where in something alternative where Della is not using birth control and she's pregnant and loses the baby? Or where she has a pregnancy scare and then starts using contraception.
Sorry if it seems similar to a previous question TT , I hope it does not bother you 😭
okay so let’s just say this is in another alternate universe where della didn’t have an IUD installed. i chose to use the pregnancy scare one since another anon requested sth similar! (and because the other one is too sad ☹️)
WARNING! mentions of spicy stuff (obv)
“Della has been really quiet..” Niki voiced his concern to his two hyungs. “Is she okay?”
“I asked her so many times and the answer is still the same,” Jake replied. “She wouldn’t tell me but you’re right. Something’s up.”
“I asked her too but she kept saying that she’s worried about her assignments and everything,” Heeseung added.
“She looks so anxious. I’m really worried,” Niki rubbed the back of his head.
“Let’s go to her and ask what’s wrong, okay?” the three headed over to her bedroom. “What the..?” only to find Jay and Sunoo pressing their ears to her door.
The two gave Heeyunki a ‘shh’ motion with serious expressions. Sunoo also started typing aggressively on his phone.
‘Della thinks she’s pregnant,’ was what he sent to the boys’ group chat. Heeyunki’s eyes widened and Sungwon, who are in different rooms, typed a ‘what?!’
Sunjay’s eyes started to gloss over, they were trying their best to hold their tears back. ‘It can’t be any of ours,’ Jay typed next.
“No fucking way,” Jake whispered. The three newcomers immediately raced to eavesdrop as well.
“Have you told the boys?” Alice’s voice was heard. It’s clear that it was a Facetime call.
“No, I wanted to be sure first.”
“But… Delle- if you haven’t had sex with any of the boys then who?” all of the boys’ chests started to sink while some also found it hard to breathe.
“No one! Unnie! I’m still a virgin!” Jay and Jake looked at each other with confused faces.
“Then… How can you be pregnant, babe?” Sunghoon and Jungwon have now arrived as well, standing farther away from the lack of space.
Niki and Sunoo made eye contact. Did they understand the conversation properly?
“I’ve dry-humped the boys before-”
“YOU WHAT?! DELLA KANG, SOME OF THEM ARE-” some of them flinched at the sudden raise in volume.
“Shh! Alice! No! Of course not! Only the hyuppas,” at that point, Heejayke hoped that Sunki didn’t understand. “-and they came in their pants like what if it went through our underwear?”
Silence. Everyone was silent.
Alice could not believe what she heard and so did Heejayke. They wanted to laugh but they were just too stunned to do anything.
“And like! I gave them head before!” cue the facepalming.
“And you swallowed?” Alice sounded so tired.
“Yeah!”
“Lala- I-” Heeseung immediately went to type on his phone. ‘False alarm, guys. It’s just Della being.. Della,’ a look of relief washed over all of the guys’ faces.
“It’s not possible, babe. One-hundred-percent not possible. I’m sure it’s just stress and fatigue. You’re probably throwing up because of that too,” the boys slowly backed away from the door.
“I guess…” was the last thing any of them heard.
“AAHH!” suddenly her door opened in the midst of them ‘escaping.’
“How much did you hear?” Della looked at them with a straight face.
“We- we love you!” Jungwon and Sunghoon created an overhead heart in panic after no one could answer.
“Guys, your girlfriend is so cute. Can I have her?” the call with Alice was still connected.
“Come back first then maybe,” Heeseung went over to his girl to give her a hug. “You scared us.”
“Then don’t eavesdrop. I would’ve told you straight after this call,” Della pulled away, talking in her alpha-voice. “You know I’ll find out.”
“Yes. We’re sorry, Della,” they replied in unison.
“Good boys,” Alice’s groan is heard through the speaker.
“You never call me good girl anymor-”
“I’ll call you back later, okay? I love you, unnie. Good girl.”
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beomglocks · 3 years
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i was gonna request a pt. 2 for mr. choi but i just saw another anon already asked that 😌 bUt maybe yn’s mom goes out of town on a business trip or sth, so she has yn stay at the choi’s house so she isn’t home alone for a whole week, and her and soobin have to sneak around his son or sth hsjdbnd
but this is just a suggestion and honestly anything with dilf!soobin would be great 😩✋
[8:23 pm] w dilf soob
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warnings & other: some touching, does this count as exhibitionism, nvm, beomgyu is clueless, age gap, reader is legal, sexual tension?, there's a curse
you bit your lip as you stood outside the choi residence. the house you'd passed by many times to and from your way to school. you never knew what it looked like inside or who was in the house besides mr. choi but alas today was the day you would find out.
ever since soobin had visited your house for the first time, your mom had taken, what you can only describe as a liking, towards the man with the pink hair. to be fair, you don't blame her.
all of a sudden the stranger danger warnings and the "don't trust your neighbors because you never know what they're truly like" speeches flew out the window because here she was letting you stay over.
"your aunt called and she wanted me to go over there for a while. i know you don't want to come along with me and i won't force you but im also not leaving you alone so im letting you stay with someone i trust," she had said before she left.
thankfully that someone she trusted was mr. choi soobin across the street.
you knock on the door lightly. it's around 8pm which isn't too late but from what you can tell, a lot of the lights inside are off. you wonder if your mom had told soobin the plans in advance and if he was waiting for you.
the thought alone made you excited until the door swings open to reveal someone who isn't mr. choi.
"you must be y/n?" a boy who looks to be around your age asks. you nod slowly until it clicks that this must be mr. choi's son.
a part of you deflates at the fact that you won't be alone with soobin but obviously, his son would be at his house. "yep, that's me, my mom did tell you i was staying over for the week right?"
he nods in confirmation, letting you in. the house is cleaner and neater than you thought for there to be two males residing in it. the various plants and abstract art pieces around the walls give the place a more homey feel than you expected, very domestic.
"my name's beomgyu by the way," beomgyu smiles at you. he seems nice enough and a small part of you feels like you would be attracted to him if not for his father.
"is that y/n?" you bite your tongue in excitement as a small rush flows through your body at the sound of your name from mr. choi somewhere in the house.
"yeah!" beomgyu calls out to his dad. he leads you to the living room where mr. choi is sat watching a movie on the tv screen.
he seems to still be in his work clothes with the button down and the slacks still on him. his legs are spread open and his arms are lazily laid across the top of the couch. his hair is also messy as you can only imagine what the previous hours were like for him.
"hello mr. choi," you greet him. he looks you up and down subtly before saying hi back. "you can sit on the love seat if you want," beomgyu says as he walks past you into the living room.
you quickly walk in too, "actually is it ok if i sit on the couch?" you don't give him a reason as you can't conjure up one quick enough that would make any semblance of sense but thankfully he doesn't question it, and takes the love seat for himself.
once you settle in, you look at soobin who's already looking at you. "how was your day sir~?" you ask coyly. he smirks at the way you know how to address him. he places his hand on your exposed knee, "it's got better- now that you're here," he wants to say the last part out loud too but figures that since beomgyu is still in the room that would be inappropriate to voice.
beomgyu speaks up about how his father took the week off to work from home to watch over you both and soobin automatically detaches his hand away from you. you hold back a visible frown.
there's no way soobin agreed to have you stay over without expecting to get closer to you, well you were determined to make this week worthwhile.
"is it ok if i have a glass of water?" you ask beomgyu specifically. as expected he obliges to your command since you are a guest and his father wouldn't have gotten up regardless.
once you confirm beomgyu is out of ear and eyeshot you quickly go to straddle soobin's lap. you know it's risky but you love how he automatically holds your waist. "sir~" you purr. he leans down swiftly to catch your lips in a sweet kiss. you hum satisfied that you managed to get this out of him at least.
you grab onto his shirt to push yourself deeper into the kiss if even for a couple more seconds but he pulls away teasingly, letting you chase him. "i hope you know i didn't agree to this for no reason," he breaths.
you shift on his lap and look up at him through your lashes. "glad we're on the same page" is what you say with the movements of your body on his. you're about to lean back up to kiss him when the creaking of the floorboards saves you from your almost mistake. you practically throw yourself back to where you were previously and soobin shifts in his spot, wiping his lips from your tinted chapstick.
"water," beomgyu proudly holds out the glass to you. "thank you," you mumble, keeping your head down in slight embarrassment.
after that, the impromptu movie night for your arrival goes as you'd expect from you sitting next to soobin.
you could've cared less about whatever family movie was playing. it was hard for you to ignore soobin's subtle touches as he would slowly inch up your thigh every couple of minutes.
if beomgyu would even so much as stretch his arms, he would retract his hands as if you were a flame on the stove, afraid of being caught by his son.
as for you, you don't want to come off as suspicious but to be fair it was fairly easy for you to touch all up on soobin without beomgyu getting too suspicious, with the excuse of it just being innocent gestures.
somewhere between the middle of the movie, soobin leans down to your ear.
"by the way... i didn't mention this earlier but-" he kisses the skin right under your ear subtly. fuck. you try to convince yourself that beomgyu won't notice what's going on, simply thinking his father is whispering to you, not wanting to talk loudly over the movie.
"what were you thinking wearing this?" he says referring to your short skirt. you look down at the clothing choice and bite your lip, rubbing your thighs together. he places his hand on the couch close enough to your upper thigh that it doesn't look too suspicious, letting his fingers play with whatever part of the skirt he can reach.
you both watch his fingers lift your skirt playfully as if he could flash you if really tried but he simply teases you by lifting it a little and putting it back down and feeling the fabric. "last time i was this close to you you wearing those shorts." he hums thinking back at the first time he ever saw you. "did you think it would be easier for me to fuck you if you wore something i could easily slip my fingers into? tell me that you miss my fingers," he rambles. "i bet you must be feeling so disappointed."
at that, your eyes flit over to beomgyu who you catch staring at you for a brief moment. you can't tell what his expression means but you want to say he looks confused at the proximity between you and his father.
"is y/n ok?" he asks his dad. soobin fixes his posture to sit slightly further from you but still close enough to not draw suspicion. "yeah she didn't understand the plot so i just explained it." he says, cooly. thankfully for you, his son seems to buy it.
soobin looks over at you with a wink and smirk before placing his hands on your knee, rubbing your skin before leaving you alone for the rest of the night.
you can only look between him and his son thinking that this will be one hell of a week.
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13thdoodle · 3 years
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That ask where 31 roleswap with Dani been living rent free in my brain n i finally can word shit out jsbzbbss
Because even in canon Vlad already have the best girl Dani who loved him a lot and yet she's still not enough for him. So 31 would be even more frustrating for Vlad, cause he would look the part but doesn't act the part
Danny would run his mouth and sass you with the confidence of a teenage boy who fear no gods, while 31 would just nods and be like ok fair
He looks so much like Danny but he doesnt even share his memories, so Vlad only have a 'Danny' who loved him unconditionally and followed his every order, but not the ones he fought n shared banters and history with
31 wont look at Maddie with love because to him, that's just a stranger that his dad really madly in love with for some reason. Which is not good if u want to drag the love of ur life into ur family and have his son not interested at her at all
And even their interests would be different. Danny loves the stars and wants to be an astronaut, 31 much rather people watching. He thinks the stars are pretty but thats about it, he much rather learn about people's behaviors and why they are doing things they do than he is travelling to space (tho that also cool)
31 would do whatever Vlad told him to do, which Vlad would love, but it would never be to the amount of how Danny would do it. Because Danny already have some of the leg work on it while 31 have to start from scratch
Just.. so many things would be so wrong if Vlad keep comparing 31 to Danny, because this child is supposed to be a perfect copy not a look alike. And 31 can't even pass as Danny to the Fentons, let alone him.
And just... oh the emotional trauma this man about to lay on 31 when he reveal his plans and his perfect clone to 31. The boy would absolutely be livid.
Because he had worked hard, by good heavens 31 had worked so hard in the short amount of time he existed. He tried his best, he followed everything Vlad told him to do, and it's all wrong. Everything is wrong. He didn't make enough banter, he didn't say the right words, he should've done that, he shouldn't have done this, its wrong wrong wrong wrong. Daniel would've done that, Daniel would do this. Always compared to this Daniel he never even met and he just doesnt understand why. Why can't Vlad just see him for who he is?
....man would it be fcked up or what if Vlad was so sure 31 was the perfect clone that he named him Daniel but turns out its not but the name already stuck so 31 get to keep being compared to this other mystical Daniel and it frustrate him even more, like is this what all 'Daniel' supposed to do? what??
And then Vlad told 31 that hey ok so ur a clone and i create you but ur not fully stable so I need you to grab Danny Phantom and bring him here so I can totally fix you. Imagine how excited 31 would be like yes his dad finally rely on him on something and he wont let his dad down. Imagine how desperate his fights would be with Danny, because this is his one and only chance to prove himself to Vlad.
He would feel bad but like he have to... he have to. His one chance to earn Vlad's love for him. And it all amount to nothing. Because Vlad dont give two shit about 31, he just want perfect copy of danny, sth 31 could never be. The betrayal would be *chef kiss*
The best part is Vlad is not even doing inherently super shady shit here, he's just being a dick to this child who thought the world of him
Anyway this been livin in my head for awhile now so have at u jdhdsbbsbs
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