#i am so fucking tired

[daeughterr]

IM NEVER GOING ON INSTAGRAM AGAIN

I made the mistake of reading the comments under the post of a disabled woman’s video with her baby

“Her husband does 90% of the work”

“How did you even make that in the first place?”

“Guys will literally hit anything.”

How fucking brain dead do you have to be to comment shit like that?

Someone is sharing their journey as a disabled parent and their first impulse is to ask intrusive questions about her sex life?!

I’m fucking disgusted. I physically cannot even comprehend this right now. Hundreds of years later and disabled people are still seen as a fucking spectacle!

#actually disabled #physical disability #disabled #cripple posting #cripplepunk #rant #i am so fucking tired #i’m so done #actually autistic #physically disabled #actually adhd #the ableism is astounding #ableism #ableist bullshit

[yoduro-d-aluminio]

Time to seriously work on my Thesis

#girl blogging #chaotic academia #prague #study blog #studyblr #i am so fucking tired #tired academia aesthetic

[acoraxia]

(i wrote this while sick before going to the movies and then finished it after watching a movie so forgive me if it's incoherent or whateer im laying down)

do you ever think about how Azure Lion groomed Sun Wukong from a young age into being this perfect people to act as the poster child for the Brotherhood, abandoned him at his worst, was confident he could manipulate him into working for him again and then tried to do the same with Xiaotian and Xiaojiao upon first meeting them? And that, by association, he almost groomed Macaque and you can see how his manipulation affected Macaque even into adulthood when he first met Xiaotian?

No?

Azure Lion groomed Sun Wukong, tried to groom Qi Xiaotian (and Long Xiaojiao) and heavily affected Macaque's world view on Sun Wukong.

EDITOR'S NOTE:: grooming in this case does not mean anything sexual between the characters, grooming is a common trope in media and it's commonly seen as a power imbalance and manipulation tactic (see: when a father grooms his son to take over the company by inflicting him with his own ideals)

Azure Lion has a tendency to display Sun Wukong on this high pedestal and sound very confident in how he describes him. The very first thing he says in his debut is this:

“I'm flattered, truly, but if it were not for Sun Wukong bringing us together, right? Without you, none of this would be possible. Your courage to stand up to the Celestial Host has inspired us to finally take a stand. To make a true difference in the world. And I could think of none other more suitable to lead us on our conquest than you, brother.”

notice how throughout this episode sequence Azure is spoken about like he's the leader and right in every word he says. The other adults at the table (Peng, DBK and Yellow Tusk) smile and turn to him as though he's in the right. They hang on to his every word. something interesting is the fact Macaque and Sun Wukong are talked down to like they're the younger pair of the brotherhood — Peng's insults to Macaque, the way DBK asks SWK to repeat what happened during Havoc in Heaven—

heck even the way they laugh at Sun Wukong when he's being silly is a clear indicator that they see him as... silly.

It isn't until Azure Lion speaks up that they turn to him and start seeing Sun Wukong into a new light.

Not only that but the way that Azure talks to Sun Wukong raises several red flags. He looks at all his brothers the same way (e.g when he's helping Peng during a flashback in Episode 8) but it raises so many red flags when he looks at Wukong like this.

And Wukong hangs on to his every word.

Because Sun Wukong believes in what Azure Lion is saying to him. Everyone believes him in that moment. he sounds so confident in the way he says none of this would be possible without sun wukong. It's a way to manipulate him especially considering Sun Wukong was not the one to form the Brotherhood - Azure was. Azure decided to form this trio after seeing Sun Wukong for the first time according his own flashback:

And guess what? It works. Sun Wukong was minding his own business up until that point, the only thing he'd done (if the timeline matches up correctly) was become immortal and return to Flower Fruit Mountain to train his monkey army. In JTTW at this point he would've turned into a giant version of himself, scaring the other spirit kings into joining alliances with him just from witnessing that—instead we get Azure Lion believing him to be the perfect idol for his plan to come into fruition.

Fun Fact: Macaque is the only one who looks at Sun Wukong like this during Azure Lion's little speech about him and being the rightful leader of the brotherhood.

He seems more confused and shocked than the rest of them are. Mind you, he's known Sun Wukong longer than the rest of them have.

He hears Azure Lion, a veteran celestial warrior, praise his best friend and put him up on a pedestal and it confuses him. because his best friend is not like that. at least, he thinks so—but Azure sounds confident, right? he's speaking so confidently about this, so he must be right... right?

It will, eventually, lead to Macaque changing his view on Sun Wukong entirely. this is why we have shadowplay.

"That's what I believed. What Azure would have you believe."

Azure Lion affected not only Sun Wukong but Macaque in his manipulation — the timeline does not show us where Macaque went after his fall out with Wukong but the theory that he ran into the Camel Ridge Trio before fighting Wukong again works considering that line.

(Not only that but Macaque also tries to do this with Xiaotian: he introduces himself in a easily approachable way and trains him, takes him under his wing, then stomps on him the moment he stops being useful to him. he uses him to get to Sun Wukong. Xiaotian reminds Macaque of Sun Wukong and he uses similar tactics that Azure Lion used to get to Xiaotian — and it isn't until the Samadhi Fire Ritual that he realizes what he's done by being reminded of his and Wukong's fallout. He, a bystander, was also affected and influenced by Azure's manipulation.)

Additionally, Sun Wukong defends Azure Lion. He justifies attacking Heaven during Havoc in Heaven, he justifies the brotherhood's plan to go to war against Heaven—none of these plans are Sun Wukong's ideas. They are Azure's influence. In the original book, the reason why Wukong attacks Heaven in the first place is because they refuse to grant him the respect he wishes and thus Heaven is angry at him for dubbing himself the Great Sage Equal to Heaven. They ask the Jade Emperor to take care of Sun Wukong and he does—which, y'know, ends up with Wukong imprisoned afterwards. But in Monkie Kid it's all because of Azure's influence on Wukong.

Because he groomed him into being a faithful right hand man. And he is so confident in that that he gives these grand speeches and pep talks and says every perfect little line to make Sun Wukong want to follow him to Hell and back.

"When we triumph in this rebellion, the people will never live in fear. We're about to change everything. It's all because of you, brother!"

And, of course, he tries this on Xiaotian and Xiaojiao, too, when he first meets them.

When he presents himself to Xiaotian and Xiaojiao, he comes to their rescue. He already introduces himself as a savior and protagonist because he saves them from the scroll—even seemingly displaying himself as non-threatening because, while he laughs at them, he does so in a manner that's sincere and genuine. It's a goofy laugh. He's being goofy. He's playing to their good side.

It's the way he talks to them and laughs, introduces himself with such flamboyance and loudness that he mirrors Sun Wukong himself. He is such a direct influence to Sun Wukong that it carries throughout the few scenes we see of him that resemble what Sun Wukong has done with Xiaotian: the astral projection, the goofy displays of excitement, the sarcastic tones when talking about Tang, the way he greats his brothers when they are freed as old friends and all cheery and genuine.

He allows himself to be called uncy lion and romanticizes the past of the brotherhood while not elaborating on the fact he lead Sun Wukong and his brothers to a war while still blaming the aftermath and defeat of their party on Sun Wukong.

"Ah, well. The Sun Wukong isn't exactly the easiest person to get along with. He has quite a habit of keeping people at arm's length. We were young, mistakes were made... and some mistakes can't be undone."

He speaks of him in a way to spark doubt between Xiaotian and Xiaojiao and it works in the way they react to what he says. They are disheartened and Xiaojiao even mentions, later, how Sun Wukong has had a habit of keeping things to himself. I wonder why that is.

" [...] If your friendship with Monkey King meant anything to you—" "It meant everything to me." [....] "We're brothers. Nothing could ever change that."

It's the way that Azure talks to them about Sun Wukong. It's the way he still thinks he is close enough to Sun Wukong to say that nothing will change their relationship. It's the way that he tries to plant these ideas into Xiaotian's head when they first meet, because he is the Monkie Kid.

That and the fact that later, when Sun Wukong is bursting through each and every memory, he reaches Xiaotian and goes to him and tries to comfort him and say they'll get to safety soon and they just have to deal with the scroll curse—it's the fact that the moment

that pigsy

mentions Azure Lion

all of that gets paused for a moment

"Oh he says his name like that because he put him in the scroll, he shouldn't be here—" there is also the fact he's not fully blown surprised by this. he's also wary. he's hesitant. sure you can say he's surprised to hear they've met Azure Lion,

but then you get this

this is hatred. this is anger. this is not what Sun Wukong feels towards Macaque during Season 3 — he lunged at Macaque for putting Xiaojiao in danger, for putting Xiaotian in danger, for ruining his plan, and he hesitates to attack him, to deliver that final blow, his fist is shaking and Tang's interuption easily causes him to lose focus and he drops Macaque. He lets go.

THIS? This is him protecting Xiaotian. this is him not wanting Xiaotian near Azure. Xiaotian looks at Azure with wide eyes and a gaping mouth because "oh Azure's here?" but Wukong knows better.

And you cannot tell me Sun Wukong was not heavily hurt by Azure Lion's actions without looking at the way that Sun Wukong puts himself between Azure and Xiaotian immediately, how Sun Wukong tries to be a better person by putting Xiaotian's safety first, always, even if it means he gets possessed or hurt or thrown around.

You cannot tell me Azure Lion wasn't a manipulator or abuser or a person who used Sun Wukong's admiration of him against him, to turn him into an obedient follower and devoted friend, when the very first thing he does when he sees Wukong step between him and Xiaotian is sigh.

Sighs like an older mentor looking at their pupil and going "didn't I teach you better than that?"

And then he imprisons Sun Wukong.

Because he is of no use to him at that moment.

And the fucking kicker: Xiaojiao modeled her new sword after Azure Lion, then is blatantly disgusted by this when she figures out how much of a bastard he is and openly says so. Xiaotian looks distraught and confused. Because Azure admits to being guilty of using them and manipulating them. He aims for sympathy with them.

He aims for sympathy with Xiaotian.

He twists the narrative again when he and Xiaotian are alone.

He's manipulating him. He's using him.

He keeps painting Sun Wukong in this negative light. he keeps putting himself up as the sympathetic victim of it all.

"My former brother was sent to destroy us and all we had built."

and yet he still talks about Wukong as though he has a grasp on their relationship. he calls him brother. he has not abandoned that title. he still thinks of Sun Wukong as his brother and will continue to use him and his name in whatever way possible to get ahead.

Maybe it is not on purpose and Azure thinks he is being true and genuine with Xiaotian but it does not erase the fact he twists the narrative to paint Sun Wukong in a negative light in front of his successor. Because Sun Wukong and Xiaotian have a strong relationship, a bond so strong that Qi Xiaotian bursts with power and strength when he realizes Azure will not give him back to him. It's precision and control and Qi Xiaotian could wreck havoc among everyone for keeping his mentor away from him but he is so controlled and careful with his movements that he manages to not attack Azure, but throw him off balance to get him to release Azure.

All because Sun Wukong is important to him.

Because Sun Wukong was not going to treat his successor as though he were a weapon or a pawn in some major scheme like he was.

Azure Lion showers people with praise that they do not deserve nor want and does so in a way that makes the party feel either delighted to have aided with his success or horrified at the revelation. He does so when Sun Wukong brings the brotherhood together (which wouldn't have happened if Azure Lion hadn't seen Sun Wukong with his subjects that one day) and he does so when Qi Xiaotian for returning his brothers to him (which he didn't know he was doing, because Azure Lion told him he needed to defeat the curse without mentioning his friends would be released too, at least from what I can remember).

"His betrayal, his brutality. He took the only friends I had from me. I would have done anything in my power to bring them back. But it wasn't in my power, it was in yours. You saved my friends. You returned them to me. And for that, I am eternally grateful."

This is similar to what he says to Sun Wukong when he was thanking him for bringing the brotherhood together.

And then, what happens when all this manipulating and tricking does not work? When Qi Xiaotian teams up with Sun Wukong instead of siding with Azure Lion?

"After all Sun Wukong has put you through, how much he's let you down, you would still meet your fate trying to protect him?! (...) He doesn't deserve such loyalty, yet you insist on learning the hard way, just as I did! I should've never trusted the Monkey King! The False Sage, Equal to Nothing!"

He fucking insults Sun Wukong. Sun Wukong who rushes in to protect Xiaotian, who shoves Azure Lion out of the way, and checks on Qi Xiaotian when he glitches out and starst to lose control of his powers.

And when he's losing against Xiaotian? When he struggles to keep up with him?

"Look what he's done to you! Reduced you to a mindless, savage animal."

Again, Macaque's obsession over Sun Wukong makes sense now. His obsession is a result of Azure Lion's doing. His obsession is what Qi Xiaotian could have been had he not known Sun Wukong for who he really is: his mentor and friend.

What gets to me is what Xiaotian says to him when he's losing:

"That's what you were pretending to be, right? To be my friend? To care about me? When really, you were just using me to get what you wanted! To turn me against my own mentor! Well, put your hand in the monkey cage and expect to get bit, son! Come on! Come on! Come on, Uncy Lion! You're the big hero, right?! Then prove it! Show me!"

It's a perfect way of snapping back at Azure for all his manipulation.

And then Azure dies.

He learns he's being manipulated for someone else. He cries and smiles and dies.

What for?

He doesn't save anybody.

He doesn't suffer consequences of manipulating people. He doesn't do anything heroic and he doesn't even save the world by sacrificing himself because Nezha is the one who seals away the Jade Emperor's powers in the end.

He's a natural manipulator.

He's not a hero.

he's a loser

#analysis #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #azure lion #lmk azure lion #lego monkie kid azure lion #ok idk how else to tag this lmao #its over 2k #i am so fucking tired #anyways #how are you guys? #me? im tried as FUCK

[roguelibrarian]

If you can't bring yourself to say one (1) positive thing about sex or romance repulsed aspecs without immediately pivoting to assuring sex and romance favorable aspecs that they're So Valid and making it about them or lecturing sex and romance repulsed people about our "responsibility" to "work hard" to avoid "becoming sex/romance negative" because we're "more susceptible to it" then how about you just shut up and not subject us to your fake allyship in the first place?

#i am so fucking tired #fuck all the way off #aro blogging #romance repulsed #sex repulsed #aphobia cw #and that's what it is. yes even if you're also aspec.

[cambion-companion]

Mephistopheles "giving" Haarlep to Raphael in order to "distract naughty son".

It's just...a really shit thing to do, obviously. It strips Raphael of agency and power to a degree.

However, Raphael turned the situation in his favor as much as he could, and took his power back.

Which is another reason I LOVE the character. He really knows how to make the best out of a bad situation.

#cambion thoughts #can you imagine your toxic dad sending you an unwelcome permanent house guest to spy on you and disrupt your plans #Raph was really like “no you serve ME” #my brain is also functioning at 2% rn #i am so fucking tired #raphael #bg3 #headcanons #or is it canon #idk anymore #haarlep #baldurs gate 3 #cambion #mephistopheles

[heartspurgatorio]

("be not afraid" motherfuckers when they)

#i am so fucking tired #cccc #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj heart #my art #cccc heart

[coldblooded-angel]

I. AM. SO. SORRY. BUT WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPEBING. WHAT THE ACTUSL FUCK IS THIS HIS FUCKING THIGHS IN THESE JEANS. THE BULGE IN THOSE SHORTS. THAT SLIVER OF SKIN IN THE BLUE BUT THEN GOING FULLY FUCKING SHIRTLESS WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK !!!!!!!

#i am so fucking tired #i can’t do this guys #what the fuck #WHY DOES HE HATE ME #I NEED HIM TO * AND * ME IN THE * WHILE * AND THEN AFTER JUST * IN THE * THEN * ALL OVER AGAIN #barry keoghan

[vinecoveredgarden]

Paraphilias are Queer because "Queer" doesn't mean "gay" - it means fucking queer. It means "Society at large doesn't like this thing and it deviates from the norm, often with negative reactions or repercussions".

Paraphilias aren't orientations any more than whether you like blonde women or brunette women is an orientation - it's an attraction, it's a preference, it's a "I like this one".

Saying "Paraphiles aren't Queer because <thing they're attracted to> aren't a gender!" is fucking stupid. Do you hear yourself?

Are trans people queer? Are aro/ace people queer? But being trans has nothing to do with sexuality! And aro/ace people don't even HAVE a gender they're attracted to (in their respective attraction types - loving aces and horny aros I see you)!

Being a Paraphile is Queer because it goes against what society deems "acceptable". This doesn't make a paraphilia an attraction - it just makes it Queer.

You can be the most fucking cishet motherfucker alive and still be Queer for being fucking GNC. Not bisexual, not ace or aro, not agender or non-binary, just not preforming your gender "correctly". In the same vein, you can be the most allocishet on the planet and if you've got a paraphilias, congrats! You're fucking Queer!

#''being a paraphile isn't queer because-'' shut up #shut up right fucking now #go stand in the corner and think about what you did #propara #rq safe #rq #I am so fucking tired #I haven't even been here that long and I'm tired #this goes for disability and ND too I just didn't have room for your guys in the post

[jade-kyo]

I’m actually so disappointed in this whole movie release of RvB19

It’s a show. With episodes. That release weekly. I was actually so looking forward to having that unique fandom experience of waiting each week for new episodes and theorizing and making content interacting with the fan base as episodes aired one last time. But now there’s no way you’re gonna be able to go into any fandom spaces without getting spoiled by those who watched the movie release. Like what’s even the fucking point of doing the weekly releases? Actually fuck this. It’s so stupid. Like it would be perfectly fine if they did it AFTER all the episodes aired cause then it’d basically be the same as the complete seasons and that’s cool but no- the movie release is dropping the same day as episode one. Honestly fuck that. I’m gonna watch the weekly episode releases as god intended. It’s a show. One that I’ve loved so dearly for almost 8 years. I’m gonna treat it as a fucking show.

#i am so fucking tired #and livid #rvb #jadey speaks #red vs blue #can’t fucking wait for this show to end so I can never look at rooster teeth again #I don’t even know if I’m gonna stick around for camp camp at this point #and 7 episodes is fucking ridiculous but that is it’s own can or worms

[rabbithaver]

PLEASE stop demonizing people with cluster B disorders

we are like a thousand times more likely to be abused than be abusers! but no one believes us when we try to get help! because us being victims of abuse doesn't fit the popular narrative that "people with personality disorders are always manipulative, abusive liars who only care about themselves"

you CANNOT be anti-ableism and still armchair diagnose known abusers as having BPD or NPD. you CANNOT call yourself an ally to abuse survivors and then tell people who have cluster B disorders that we're abusive. you CANNOT be a good leftist and push us out of survivor spaces

#i am so fucking tired #terin.txt

[yoduro-d-aluminio]

I know excellence is a trap but I have a validation kink

:|

#alternative girl #chaotic academia #girl blogging #prague #i am so fucking tired #tired academia aesthetic #excellence or sth #excellence is a trap but i have a validation kink #i need to study in beautiful places or else i wont focus #study blog #studyblr #studyabroad #study aesthetic #sticky notes are supposed to work i guess #study at home

[fortheloveofexy]

stepping away for a while. fics are on indefinite hiatus until i come back. queue will run for a while til it's out.

bye.

#sorry yall #im just too worn thin and too burnt out to be here rn #this week has been Hard and im really struggling #and frankly im sick of fandom bullshit #sick of feeling like i cant say or post anything without being eaten alive #sick of getting random hate from people #sick of being mocked behind my back #sick of rude comments and messages and assholes arguing under my posts #I am so fucking Tired #and i just dont have it in me to keep posting and working on things when its like this #its just not fucking worth it

[illusionaryish]

#scotus #usa #supreme court #affirmative action #brett kavanaugh #i am so fucking tired

[jjunhui]

hearing that ice cream trucks in gaza have been turned into refrigerators for dead bodies is incredibly dystopian in the absolute worst way possible.

#palestine #death tw #i am so fucking tired

[deadanarchist6669]

the voices won

#monster energy #meme #lord of the rings #nursing school #college #I am so fucking tired

[snovyda]

The Oscars: We are apolitical! We can't allow any reminder that Ukraine exists!

Also the Oscars: (give award to a documentary glorifying a russian white supremacist)

A true achievement for the russian "opposition", they can proudly go back to doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to actually fight their fascist regime, but now they're going to be even more obnoxious about it.

#i am so fucking tired #so so tired #oscars #navalny