#i am so anxious and stressed that even eating food seems like climbing mt everest

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#who would've thought debilitating anxiety would be the result of suppressing everything I feel for more than a year? certainly not me! #i am so anxious and stressed that even eating food seems like climbing mt everest #I can't do anything because everything seems horribly scary #like changing out of my pjs and into my day clothes #or getting off tumblr and getting on ao3 to read a fic #can you believe reading a 1k fic seems scary? i certainly can't. #tw // self harm #what doesn't seem scary tho is hurting myself #now that's the easiest thing possible #I don't need to change my clothes #I don't need to get out of bed #It doesn't need any mental energy #just some physical energy which I'm running out of cuz my arms are cramping up for reasons I have no idea about #also tomorrow is supposed to be a horrifically huge day in my life but I can't be bothered about it at all and I hate myself for that #sabi's words #tw // anxiety #tw // ed