#i am now a 20 year old

[marshmallowgoop]

no thoughts just Heiji Hattori (HD)

#detective conan #case closed #amv #my amvs #eye strain #heiji hattori #harley hartwell #conan edogawa #shinichi kudo #funimation english dub script #video #happy two-year anniversary to 'no thoughts just heiji hattori'! #while it's not my first amv (it's maybe my... fifth?) #it was the first one i made with davinci resolve and the amv that really got me into editing amvs for real #it's the amv that made me believe i could make amvs 🥺 #and in remastering it i deeply understood how ambitious it was! i thought i did a lot of audio mixing for 'messed up' #but that's not even close to all the audio mixing i did here--cannot believe that i did all this for my first big amv project #it took about 20 hours *just* to remaster! #which is something i've been meaning to do for a while now so i'm very happy to finally share the results! #to make this a 'remaster' and not a 'redo' the only changes i tried to make were to the source footage and audio #video now uses almost entirely hd remastered footage from my blu-rays or netflix rather than my dvds #but oh gosh was it *hard* not to touch anything else! i'd do so many things differently now #but this video will always be really special to me (and i can't believe i did it at all tbh!) #i hope seeing it in hd is fun too! i'm so blown away by all the love this vid's gotten #and that it helped increase interest in funi's old english dub is amazing and 100% what i was trying to do with it! #thank you everyone for all the support <333 i wouldn't be the video editor i am today without this vid or your encouragement for it <3333 #like the original the sources used are mostly from what funi dubbed (but mixed in hd by me!): eps 48-49 57-58 77-78 117 and 118 and movie 3 #but i also used episodes 141-142 174 189 239 263 277 291 293 345 479 491 517 and 522 #and ova 3 and tv special 6 (episode one) and movies 10 and 13 and ops 27 31 and 33 and the funi 5.2 dvd blooper for the one line lol #i'm sorry i've been so absent lately! i hope to be more active now... and there are 2 completely done amvs that i'm just waiting to post...

[skrunksthatwunk]

something he can't put into words.

#ANOTHER DAIGO POST!!!! <333 #also sorry for being like teehee yaoi dojima anyway daigo can't/probably shouldn't be close to his bio dad and latched onto this random #20 year old but Doesnt Quite recognize what is so wrong about sohei and so right about kiryu and how he should feel about either #meaning he cant fulfill his true desire (baby duck around kamurocho with his babysitter who's probably got better things to do bc people #always have better things to do than take care of him but at least kiryu pretends he enjoys it #for hours and hours and hours. some of the others ask him how he is or what he's up to at school but they don't really reach him like kiryu #does. he wants to impress him soooo bad. aughhh baby daigo you're annoying but you're also so emotionally neglected #haha latching onto mentors bc they're more involved/easier to connect to than parents haha who would do that not me ahem uh anyway #(skrunks be normal about and not project onto a kiryu + child dynamic challenge: impossible) #anyway he can't just say sohei's his father bc he's a big crime daddy but he hasn't really.. accepted? whats going on with kiryu yet either #i dont think he knows kiryu's his dad is my point #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza #dojima daigo #like a dragon #daigo dojima #ykz #i accidentally saved over soo many versions of this so i had to be like fuck it we ball. thats the final version of that panel now #gonna schedule this for later today bc i dont wanna stifle the kazumi posts but i also uh. am impatient #anyway more little daigo content he's such an ass but it makes so much sense why he's like that and he deserves a whole lotta love #also i just realized i used different name orders for kiryu and yayoi... sorry idk im just incapable of writing kazuma kiryu #uhOOPS POSTED IT EARLY NVM #yer gettin a loootta skrunk content today ig #skrunkart

[marblerose-rue]

it is my birthday today!!!

#my art #not gonna tag this for much bc i am gonna use the tags to ramble ^_^ #it is currently 12:30 am and i turn 20 today and it is so weird #this is also a special fall for me because not only do i turn 20. my fursona turns 10 #like ive had her for ten years. for half of my life ive drawn and loved her and i got to watch not only her grow but myself grow through he #granted she wasnt made until nov 25 but still. she is very important to me. she will be as old as i was when i first drew her #SENTIMENTS ASIDE i am very happy and lucky and fortunate to be where i am now and to have such wonderful people in my life #BUT YEAH TO ANSWER THE HYPOTHETICAL QUESTION where would i be in ten years. i think id still be drawing #i cant see myself doing anything else and i mean that in the most comfortable and confident way possible #i am gonna call it a night though bc i am tired BAHAHA but who would i be if i didnt post at midnight on my birthday

[arminsumi]

maybe i'm just a 20 yr old grandma but whenever i talk to people 18-19 yrs old i feel like they're on a different plane of existence to me, even if it's only a 2 year gap 💀

#like is that how everyone around me felt when i was 18?? #probs yes #i am on the 20 yr old's plane of existence now #OH GODDD I'LL BE 21 NEXT YEAR NOPENOPENOPE

[bitfruity]

i have never been so obsessed and in love with a man before in my life

like as a teenager i liked bands and thought some members were kinda cute but NOTHING has prepared me for the teenage girl in my 20’s level infatuation i have for this man

and then he had the AUDACITY to bring another one into the mix

words cannot explain the amount of gender envy tommy gives me do i want him or do i want to be him?? i look at some pictures of him and go THATS ME THATS HOW I SEE MYSELF

#WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? #IS THIS JUST WHAT YOUR 20S ARE LIKE? #I AM DOWN BAD #i thought i skipped all this #i never understood all the girls that obsessed over celeb men #but now i get it!! #i kinda feel like i’m losing my mind #this 30 year old man is the only reason i smile #like when did that happen?? #tommy got me feeling some type of way #i cant quite explain it but he’s changed something in my brain #i am not the person i was before listening to racked #the amount of gender envy he gives me is unmatched #am i even a girl idk anymore #I AM SCREAMING INTO THE VOID #käärijä #tommy cash #fruity thoughts #i made this at 2am last night in a feverish state but i’m still gonna post it

[fauvester]

ok soooooooo on the questionable website where i watched ds9. I seemed to have skipped both The Maquis AND distant voices. oh my god. i have missed garak tennis content

#I REMEMBER SEEING A GLIMPSE OF OLD JULIAN IN ONE GIFSET... AND BEING LIKE... HUH.... #AND THEN GARAK DOING A SLICK TENNIS TRICK #me like Hmm. I don't rememebr ever seeing that. and i WOULD. #so uh. now i get to watch NEW NEVER BEFORE SEEN (BY ME) GARAK BASHIR INTERACTION?? #i am SOOOO happy for me. this is the worlds best present. new blorbo content from your 20 year old show

[cinematicnomad]

it's like a decade+ later but i really am convinced that my queer lit professor had a crush on me in undergrad and really, fuck me for not realizing i was bi earlier bc i would have pounced on that.

#she was this little butch southern lesbian #and i was OBSESSED with her #i just was dating someone and wasn't out yet and did not realize what was going on lol #sorry this is brought to you by me reading old emails with her after seeing a tweet that made me think of the situation #she literally wrote me: 'If I don't see you later have a good day. . . actually have a good day regardless of whether or not I see you' #ok dawn!! i see you!! i didn't when i was 20 but i do now!! #reading these emails as a 32 year old now i am like #'ok i can see why she had me stop by her office at 1:30AM to ask if i'd skipped a meeting bc i was uncomfortable with her for some reason' #(i did not understand it in the moment but later realized she was asking if i was uncomfortable bc i thought she had a crush on me) #(and she was awkwardly trying to assure me she didn't but also reading these emails now. YES SHE DID.) #sorry if none of this makes sense lol i'm just having a 'what if' moment rn #i have so many emails with this woman from the semester i took her queer lit class and they are all!! so!! flirty!! #i was also clearly flirting and Did Not Realize It #oh no!! baby kat what are you DOING

[trashworldblog]

i cant fucking believe seeing the owl slide after 5 years would fill me with such joy

#i am 20 years old now what the fuck #dan and phil #dan and phil games

[lesbianredhoodedmercenary]

Just once I want Outis to say "I have a son who's around your age" to Sinclair and never elaborate

#limbus company #depending on how old you think sinclair is telemachus may be older even #i can't say shit about sinclair's age because up until canto III i thought he was like 16 years old. even now i think he's only 18 #I KNOW about the “fixers need to be 20” rule. i still think sinclair is not 20 #though no matter what i think telemachus would bully sinclair if they ever met #i am never giving up on my outis girldad agenda. #she's the only one of the 4 sinners with kids in their original stories where the kid SURVIVES. #rip to linton heathcliff. yuzuki. and faust's baby #imean it's not their faults that their kids died (though. you could debate ryoshu and faust a little bit. depends on how you read it) #but.. i lost the point i was going to say here. hwatever.

[emmaswanned]

the key to that chain is in the bathtub.

--saw (2004)

#saw #saw 2004 #horroredit #sawedit #userhorroredits #dailyhorroredits #usersource #useroptional #tvfilmsource #filmtvcentral #dailytvfilmgifs #elyse.gifs #THE FUCK OF IT ALL IS THE KEY WAS IN THE BATHTUB #NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME BC THIS LITERALLY FUCKS ME UP MORE THAN THE JIGSAW TWIST #i wrote a whole text post screaming about this but i decided this was more productive #but fr not only is the key in the bathtub. the way out of the trap is literally the FIRST SHOT OF THE MOVIE #anyway. sorry to scream about a 20-year-old movie #but i am HAUNTED #are these gifs too dark to post? probably but too late i'm hitting post right now

[chernozemm]

//personal

Let me tell you that Aziraphales storyline hit me like a freight train. As someone who is at long last opening to indulging and obtaining things for the joy of it, because they matter to some little part of your soul, learning to be present in one's body and feel and the unbridled, sweet joy of wanting to grab life by the lapels and how thrilling it is to be yourself, silly, funny, heart on the sleeve, after the confines of trying to be Good by someone else's standards...crossing those boundaries is scary and uncharted but the adrenaline of breathing freely!!!

I know "he" is just a fictional being, a composit of two writers, a script, an actor's interpretation of it and the filter of someone making a 1s gif. But if I can believe I too can have that little radiant glimmer in my eye and be utterly loveable for my silly antics, then I'll take that crutch.

#ok to reblog #its been 5 years since my last fandom time #i moved countries got a masters moved in with my girlfriend #been doing therapy (it shows) and i finally feel firm ground under my feet #and life sstill sucks sometimes #but for the first time in a lifetime i am looking forward and saying “i cant wait to meet me when im 30 #when im 50 when im old“ #rich coming from a kid who reached their mid 20s and was rudely slapped in the face with the fact that they will in fact live another year #and they need to start uh como se dice uhhhhh HAVE A PLAN??? #uh yeah poured my heart out a bit but i needed to say it #glad to be alive now im gonna -with delight- make it everyones problem :)))))

[yourheartinyourmouth]

a fucking MITZVAH out of nowhere!!!!!!!

a dear friend’s parents are offering to give us 3K to get the car repaired. fucking. a big pile of money fell into our laps. oh my gods. because they have more than they need and they are happy to share it, because to do is a mitzvah, a good deed, and they’re the kind of people who like to help.

i’m fucking crying i was telling husbeast earlier that unless a big pile of money fell into our laps we were SOL, and then….a big pile of money fell into our laps.

Khaire Hermes, Friend of Man!!!!!!

#it’s not perfect but it will more than do!!!!! #now hopefully the car you know…can be repaired #it’s over 20 years old and in VERY bad shape #it’s a pt cruiser and we have sunk enough fucking money into this thing to buy an actually halfway decent car #if it takes the whole 3K to repair it that will be like 9k sunk into this stupid thing #but we’ve never had that 9k all at ONCE to be able to buy a better car #a lot of it has had to be borrowed and paid back over time #yes yes a car loan but hey guess what!! poor people don’t usually have credit scores good enough for that #or if we do we get predatory loans that are literally impossible to pay off #so #nah #i am honestly hoping the mechanic says the thing is dead and we need a new car and they give us 3K to just buy a different car #hopefully one that isn’t made entirely of rust and garbage #seriously do not ever buy a pt cruiser they are the WORST

[needylittlegirl]

theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍 #any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy

[vulcanette]

today spending an idyllic snowy day off packing up the Christmas decorations, having a lovely breakfast, watching the snow come down… I went out and took the snow off the car just in case…

went and salted the stairs and pathways outside my house because I worry about my elderly neighbors falling down… (I live in a complex and the maintenance guys came with the mini plows already and did the walkways, I just worry too much)

working on putting up my winter window displays with snowflakes and icicle lights!! ❄️

#home decorating can be an addiction I see that now #also I am not one of those overconsumption girlies. some of my decorations and ornaments are literally 20-30 years old LOL a #and I use the same things year after year 🤣♥️ I love my things. I get excited to unpack them and put them up every year #personal #a small diary entry

[uwulouis]

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#ok i will say smth abt it bc im a little pissed hehe #and verito is not answering my texts so now u all have to hear it #im not self absorbed enough to believe i know what's best for phoebe or if she planned it or not or whatever #the way she announced it seems she's pretty excited so good for her #but honestly some of the takes i've seen on here... #people in their middle/late 20s calling this 19 year old girl an idiot #saying that she must not know the difference between her vagina and her urethra #that louis must be soo disappointed and that he didn't pay and expensive school for her to get pregnant (????????) #do u guys hear yourselves what the actual fuck #ofc teen pregnancy is an issue worldwide but is this really the hill you're gonna die on?? that it's all the girl's fault bc she's stupid?? #u sound like a 50 yo congressman wtf is the actual matter with you #people i've seen joking about how long until her bf leaves her... #i literally encourage u to seek help it is not normal to lack empathy in this way and to be so cruel to a person who has #literally done nothing to you #also louis can pay for whatever school he likes he still doesn't have the right to decide over his little sister's body?? do u guys #hear yourselves be so real with me rn #also how do u even know he's upset?? #tfw some of u think u know louis.. it's insane #i literally am in shock at some of the things i had to read today #i really hope you are not in any field where people come to you for help #especially girls especially young girls #you guys are insane lmao #that's all <33 #shut up laura

[invisibleoctopus]

anyone else get kinda shitty vibes whenever bloggers on here talk about people in their 20s like "god you guys are so fucking 19 years old" and how sometimes it just seems like a thinly veiled jab at neurodivergent/disabled adults not being at the "correct" stage in life

#le p2iigh #i get the feeling sometimes people talk about ppl who are 'mentally still 17' or whatever as cringe #are doing so because now its recognized as ableist to just straight up say some disabled person in their 20s needs to act their age #so these people whose tumblr career is picking guys to make fun of. they have to get creative with it #anyone else getting these vibes or am i just being a crazy 25 year old whos actually an 18 year old because i have cringe brain problems