#i am incoherant

[scintillatingshortgirl19]

i think im having a stroke

#what is happening. what am i watching. where am i #anyway i am mostly incoherent but i have. a thought or two #this man is so repressed that he skipped right over the part where a guy can't handle any suggestion that he might be gay #instead our boy gregory is getting ahead of everyone (including and especially himself) #by joking about being gay and specifically about being in love with wilson #because hey! that must mean he couldn't possibly be repressed :) #he's just that secure in his straightness :) #... #...yeah #house md #hilson #house season 2 #the mistake #op

[jetsi]

Most fucked up chocolate i have ever seen

[starlightphil]

I love how we made all those jokes about Phil having a crisis when Dan was away, like needing to be babysat by their friends and killing all the plants, but we just got the lore drop that Phil actually had a mini crisis and started dying everything in the house green for no apparent reason?? Like Dan leaving truly made Phil so bored and/or unhinged he decided dying his bathmat green would be fun. Is Daniel Howell of all people this man’s impulse control? How many weird impulses has Dan successfully stopped? How many has he encouraged?

#dan and phil #phil lester #daniel howell #dan Howell #amazingphil #I spent far too long on this and I fear it is incoherent #but I am trying this whole making original posts thing #and you gotta start somewhere #meg speaks

[jeanmoreaux]

jean’s novel being called the sunshine court… the implications of that… his being denied to see the sun when he was trapped with the ravens in edgar allan… getting out of there and transferring to usc to play for the trojans in the california sun… jeremy in tkm saying ‘we have to get him some sun this summer, though! he’s a little pale to pull off red and gold right now’… jean finally gets to live in the sun. i am so unwell.

#DO YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GETTING AT #i still have not recovered from the news #my thoughts are still incoherent but if you Get It you Get It #all for the game #tsc #the sunshine court #tfc #jean moreau #aftg #1k #*​aftg

[fridayyy-13th]

i swear sometimes i think people forget that Jon's s1 skeptic act was just that—an act. it was an act!!! he believes the statements!! he's believed them since episode one! do we so soon forget that he denied the statements were real because he knew the Eye something wanted him to be scared, and he knew that was bad, so he decided to act like the statements just didn't scare him? remember, he was working with extremely limited information ("when i record the tape statements, i feel watched, like something knows i'm afraid, and i don't want it to know that"), and came up with a genuinely solid solution with what he had! not his fault that the thing watching him was a literal unknowable eldritch entity that feeds on fear, and he was just some underqualified archivist.

#sorry. saw a post and got a little angry about it #like bro! he literally tells martin in a fan-favorite conversation that it! was! an! act! #we KNOW he's believed in the supernatural since age eight! #i'm so tired of the ''lol haha jon didn't believe the OBVIOUSLY real statements but they still spooked him'' posts #i will not take this blorbo slander #leave my guy alone he tried his best. and was scared out of his mind while doing it #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #friday chats #it's like 1:30 am if this is moderately incoherent don't come at me

[carissime]

Literally no thoughts just Gojo after your wedding carrying you over the threshold of your hotel room. You’re not leaving for your honeymoon until the morning but he nearly trips on the doorframe in his haste.

“You really don’t need to carry me—”

“But it’s tradition, we need to consummate the marriage!” he insists. Within seconds his lips are against yours and he’s fumbling with the light switch, and you finally swat his hand away and just beg him to take you to the bed.

He works the zipper of your dress down, part of him sad that he’s not going to see you in this gorgeous gown again, but then it reveals your white lace lingerie and the groan he lets out is broken and guttural and desperate.

This is far from the first time he’s seen you like this, but there’s something about this moment here and now that makes it so much more intense, so much more intimate and he just never wants to let you go.

“Satoru,” you whisper, and his breath hitches.

He leans down to capture your lips in a kiss. “Shh, I know. Just lemme take care of you, like I promised.”

And when he sees the gold band on his fourth finger pressing into the skin of your hips as he sheaths himself inside of you, he nearly loses himself, sending up a prayer to whatever gods are listening that he can keep his promise to keep you safe and happy forever.

#I’m so drunk rn I’m sorry if this is incoherent #I just came home from a wedding and am feeling so sappy #also I have to be up tomorrow at 6am for work #can’t wait to be hungover 🫶🏼 #anyway marrying Gojo would be amazing #I love him and I just wanna kiss him and hold him and let him know how special he is #oh god I’m gonna be so embarrassed and might delete this when I wake up #so revel in it now I guess? #idk it’s probably not good lol #gojo x reader #Gojo Satoru x reader #gojo x reader fluff #Gojo x reader smut #Gojo Satoru x reader smut #jjk smut #gojo smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #jujutsu kaisen #Gojo Satoru #jujutsu kaisen x reader

[cornettotism]

Honestly, there's something about the sheer horror on Spock's face when he thinks he's killed Kirk in amok time that always hits me like a fucking truck.

Now, I know this discussion probably isn't anything new to the spirk community, but jesus christ. Every time I watch that scene, I go from "Oh my god this is so gay. How the hell did the writers and production team not look at shatner and nimoy rolling around in the sand together and go 'yeah seems totally heterosexual' " to "Oh my god. This is so fucking sad."

The pure horror and shock on Spock's face when he snaps out of the fever and realises what he's done (or what he thinks he's done) is so....AAAA

I can't even put into words how it makes me feel, it just makes me so not normal about the show and those two as a whole all over again.

He thought he'd KILLED HIM. BY HIS OWN HAND. DURING A PROCESS HE SEEMED TO BE VERY ASHAMED TO TALK ABOUT AND HE SMILED WHEN HE SAW KIRK ALIVE AND AJAJSJ-

#i go insane about spirk #day however many its been #amok time is such a good episode in general #but this scene #man. #k/s #spirk #james t kirk #s'chn t'gai spock #star trek tos #star trek #ollie rambles #sorry this is so incoherent #i am having feelings.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

he is just. so shaped. so so so So shaped.

#im Attempting some new tactics #it doesnt really show! but i am! #starting to fuck around w/ watercolor brushes... #holding him up like a little bee and saying I Just Think He's Neat! #< i jest! i think much much more about him #that i cannot share without devolving into an incoherent mess! #so. i just think he's neat :]c #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #frank frankly #im also trying... to do... (dramatic thunderclap) BACKGROUNDS #i know i know. very scary. they're still very messy #but... i like objects? i like Things? i like to look at a page and see put together clutter! #maximalism babey! #which is deadly when you're an artist methinks. but. whats one more agony added onto the rest! #it will be a while until i figure out how to Accomplish that put-together clutter.... #im still bad at colors! im trying to swim before i can walk! Yikes!

[wordsinhaled]

my ‘crowley loves aziraphale’ post needs a companion because there needs to be absolutely no doubt that aziraphale is ABSOLUTELY as gone on crowley so…

here i am just thinking about aziraphale’s “smitten, i believe…you’re being silly 🥰” and “why don’t you wait inside? you like waiting inside” (aziraphale knows what crowley likes, what makes him happy!). it’s aziraphale telling crowley he gets plenty of use out of the[ir] bookshop and it’s aziraphale making sure crowley feels welcome to come in whenever he likes and that it’s crowley’s as much as his to the point where crowley just feels comfortable making hot chocolate there

it’s the way he touches crowley so easily (hand on the shoulder in the s2 finale, arm around the waist in the graveyard support, hand on the chest and sliding down, the way aziraphale clasps crowley’s hand in both of his with such enthusiasm in 1941 when it could’ve been a prim handshake, the way their hands almost curl together when they’re dancing at the ball…)

(and that last one makes me unwell, because if their ball had been during the actual regency they would both have been wearing gloves… but at aziraphale’s ball, their hands can touch without any layer between, and he even seizes crowley by the hand to pull him onto the dance floor like he’s waited his entire life to do it)

thinking about the way aziraphale has always looked at crowley from the very beginning, soft, soft, so impossibly, unbearably soft. the way he darts little glances at him whenever he can, like he’s indulging himself in looking

thinking of the way he takes obvious pleasure in introducing crowley to people and saying they go back a long time. thinking of how when gabriel spoke about one person making everything alright aziraphale immediately thought of crowley

thinking about how we’ve always seen them dine or drink in public places but then in 1941 they’re having a private candlelit dinner, just the two of them

thinking of the way aziraphale looks at crowley at the end of the season - as crowley’s putting his glasses back on for the final time - in this earnest, intent, searching way. even in the midst of this argument he’s thinking why are you closing yourself off from me? you don’t do that anymore, we’re not like that anymore. it’s like he’s trying to read crowley’s features, like everything will fall into place if they just look at each other properly

thinking of how aziraphale touches his own lips after the kiss like he can press the memory of crowley’s mouth into them to keep forever

in short… aziraphale loves crowley so much it’s devastating

#this is fine i’m fine #good omens #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #good omens 2 spoilers #i am probably missing a bunch but i am feeling very incoherent

[chronicowboy]

obsessed with the return of buddie's fucked up, unknowing jealousy. i think that locker room scene does it incredibly well especially for the first episode because both of them are keeping pretty big things from each other that i guarantee they would have told each other about immediately minus marisol and natalia. but eddie doesn't tell buck about christopher's first date, for long enough that it's been planned and he's asked his girlfriend to help chaperone, because a subconscious part of him wants to punish buck for dating natalia. and buck doesn't tell eddie anout breaking up with natalia, which seems like it happened at least a little while ago, because he doesn't want to be single in the face of eddie's new relationship and if there's a little hidden part of him that wants eddie to think he's taken by the death doula just a little while longer well.

#sami rambles #does this make sense? probably not #but please tell me you get it #their jealousy breeds secrets!! #but i am sick and incoherent #911 spoilers #buddie #buck x eddie

[dog-teeth]

something to recognize that choosing recovery again and again is difficult work, and you are not weak for faltering

#comics #hey proud of myself for completing a multi page comic even if its not that long #i realized i tend to operate under made up rules about the art in a comic being super consistent and it limits me #so i tried letting myself be looser with it :> #i hope this makes sense let me know what u think i feel so incoherent lately #hope everyone is doing well !!! havent been v active but i just got a flatbed scanner so i should be able to post some drawings soon :O #been UNWELL super unemployed i am in the slime i am seeing the skull #digital art #autobio comics #ask to tag #self harm cw #self harm tw #addiction cw #addiction tw

[glitterghost]

Correct me if I'm wrong, but I feel like there is a particular kind of sadness (or loneliness, if you will) that ace/aro folk feel.

#asexual #asexuality #aspec #aromantic #aro #arospec #lgbtqia #am I wrong or no? #its like a sorrow on a frequency only other ace folk can detect #or say ah ha yes i feel this #this makes sense #i can incoherently ramble a feeling or a thought and others who identifying *get* it like it's a language we both speak #fluent in a common wave of ace-solation if you will #anyway just wanting to throw this out there again #i know i had a vague post similar to this that blew up but its always so hard to articulate the feeling #and maybe this will reach others that relate and agree to this that will make them feel less alone #wow these tags are messy and full of typos #lots of love to my loney ace and aro specs buddies #💜💚💜💚💜

[suncaptor]

Been trying to not bother anyone, but I am wondering if anyone could send donations. I can't pay rent today (even if I pay the half I will on credit) and more fees are adding on, and outside of some help I've barely been eating for a long time here. I'm just struggling to afford rising costs of living with constant new crises happening, and I haven't been able to get someone to take over my lease, so I can't just couchsurf. Not at all asking anyone to over extend or send me more if they've had, but if anyone could help I'd appreciate it.

(I have seen as many case managers and financial aid advisors as I can and am using every resource I can too! There's just not much where I am now.)

Paypal suncaptor

Revolut remsun

#incoherents #desperately trying to get my bank to let me use a virtual credit card to pay credit but failing 😔😔 i am just so tired of living insecurity #soooo grateful to anyone who's helped me though even if i haven't been able to use it to fix everything it matters 🙏🙏 #i wish that someone hadnt stolen my car fr #and that my apartment complex wasnt evil #things are bad #schedule #for right before my rent fees go through the roof😬😬 #q

[egophiliac]

We ARE going to bring up Captain Amelia. You have good taste! GOOD TASTE I SAY! *aka I just rewatched Treasure Planet and got hit with, "Oh yeahhhhh... that explains a lot!"*

honestly, the Meg/Jasmine/Amelia trifecta tells you 90% about me as a person. (the rest is covered by Sailor Jupiter and Sailor Uranus and, uhhh, I'll stop baring my soul to the world now)

and speaking of Amelia, this is tangential, but like -- there's one Twst comic I have been kicking at for a while where I needed an RSA sports/flight teacher and, uh, well

someday I will wrangle this stupid comic into coherency and she'll get to make an appearance (in the background of a single panel, half-obscured by a tall hat) (but I will know she's there and that's the important thing)

#art #twisted wonderland #twst oc #my plan worked i've tricked you all into looking at my anime catgirl oc #she exists to yell at some rsa boys so she doesn't really have like. a character or story or anything. sorry! #(her name is alexandria north and that is what she considers a sporty outfit. that's as far as i got) #this is the one that is mainly about silver and neige having a mutual bluebird friend and i am having terrible trouble making it not suck #which given some of the stuff i post should tell you something about how it's going so far #(it's just kind of an incoherent mess of ideas at this point. nothing specific just ~the creative process~) #maybe the rest of episode 7 will give my brain the kickstart it needs. depends on how that goes i guess #god. the next episode 7 bit drops in (probably) just a few days. #I'M NOT READY #i have simultaneously never been ready and always been ready #i exist in a perpetual state of impatience

[rochenn]

another evening spent sweating crying bleeding and pissing over 5 open wookieepedia tabs trying to get solid on how the FUCK the galactic republic gov works

#today's edition: judiciary department #i'm telling myself it's just space weimar to make it go down easier. but how do i do that #without implying that the separatists are the space ussr. because that doesn't work #i am incoherent #political thrillers suck ass to write.... im just a little guy ...........

[noisolpxe]

something so weird about walking by a group of "alt" white ppl in nyc who are wearing overpriced clothes from dollskill and feeling all their heads turn to stare at me / whisper about me when the outfit i'm wearing is just a variation of what i wear every day actually (fave black jeans, band tshirt, scuffed docs, battle jacket). this is feeding into some thoughts i have about something that happened a few weeks ago where a girl approached the group i was out with and she asked me where i bought my battle jacket and i told her the coat itself was gifted to me and i've had it for years but all the patches & pins were ones i've collected over time and sewn on / fastened on myself... she was sort of shocked and said "yeah finding one that's already made is so hard, i saw one like that going for like $200" and it took everything in my heart and soul to not just call her a poser to her face. anyways posers are fucking annoying and have a staring problem like 99% of the time

#★ #sorry this is pretty much incoherent i have a lot of thoughts but am not articulating them well