#i also stopped with facebook

[macadam]

From here on out when making posts about transformers stuff I love I’m not gonna put in a footnote every time about how much other bad stuff there also is in the franchise/fandom. Cause trying to keep posts well rounded and faithful to the entire tf fandom as a whole every single time is so exhausting and also the tf fandom sucks? Additionally it’s too large. Lastly they are nothing to me. They are nothing. Why am I thinking abt the bad parts of fandom all the time when the original goal was to gush about something I really like.

Anyways I love optimus prime he has so much love in his heart

and also autism

hit post

#the tf fandom is incomprehensible #Tumblr is such a subset in and of itself #its different on twitter its different on reddit its barely recognizable on Facebook #at least 50% of it doesn't even exist online #and I'm out here trying to make all my posts approach every angle so that... what? I don't forget to mention that it's riddled with issues? #so that some vengeful anon doesn't come up to me and send an ask berating me on how actually there's a lot of militarism in transformers so #I shouldn't be gushing about how much I love the robot that turns into a gun #^example off the top of my head. this is not in reference to anything #I love talking about nuance in transformers but I also love making silly stupid loving posts about the franchise #and for some reason I've stopped doing the latter #they are both allowed to exist in my mind and on this blog. what is wrong with me #Mac mumbles

[sluttyten]

My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes

#the fear tho lmao #what am I afraid of? I have no fucking clue #this is why I’m still questioning my sexuality lol like what am I? do I even actually like guys? do I like anyone? #in an existential spiral at the moment #but honestly why do they always ask for my number #like dude just give me yours and let me make the decision when you’re not right here in front of me #but I felt bad telling him no today just because the last time a customer asked and I said yes I almost immediately regretted it #and then that didn’t work out because I thought he was too young #young* and now he still sometimes comes by and I just feel awkward about it #maybe I should turn to Facebook and see if I can find him because I have set an age limit for myself and I really don’t want to entertain #anyone younger than that #but I’m……… I know I’m like never active in here anymore #but I just needed to talk about this somewhere #because any of my coworkers would probably tell me I’m being ridiculous or they’d just seriously keep questioning why I keep saying no to #customers that hit on me and my best friend would probably also not get it #idk y’all I just needed to rant about it/talk about it #anyway I’m definitely gonna stress over this until tomorrow #and I’m gonna feel really bad if he stops coming by

[rabble-dabble]

and by the way i fucking deserved better. you came back with your hand held out and asked me to love you again like i was a fool, like you knew i wanted you to do but you forgot friendship is a two way street and i loved you deeper than you loved yourself. i heard myself in your words and i knew the answer before you asked the question because i spent a year grieving and a year growing and another two years healing and three more years forgetting and you sent me a message asking me to forgive you as if i already hadn't done so. you asked to try again and i almost became the fool that did it because once upon a time we were best friends then we weren't and i cried at night wishing you'd come crawling back to say those words to me again. and i thought of all the ways i could tear you apart with my teeth before carefully mending you back together with my sparkly glue and my shaky sowing needle.

but in reality i knew if i let you in again that i could forgive you but i'd never be able to forgive myself. i'd be looking into the past and spitting into the face of the kid who gave up everything he felt about you to become me and i needed to let you go like the sand between my cupped hands. the ocean cleans away the grit and leaves seashells in them. its a reminder that there are still things to find and cherish. i deserve to love the world and you will not be a part of it. i am not sorry for that.

#text post #rabble poem #friendship #vent #the audacity of ex best friends to message you like 'hayyyyy' #begone bitche #and also imagine my face when i find out my message to her was in the echo of the vent letter i wrote in a vent book #i could forgive her but i'd never forgive myself <- fav line btw. no i am not being normal about it #also yeah i blocked her ass she was like 'i miss youuuuuu i miss our friendshiiiip' #girl. 6 years too late what. we homoerotically broke up /queer platonically in MIDDLE SCHOOL move ON #me as i say the most fucked up writing possible. listen i deserve it i was normal about it for like a MONTH #imagine my surprise when i open my facebook messanger at work and i see her name like i almost threw away the whole damn phone #she said she couldnt stop thinking about me tho like LMAO i live rent free in ur head?? have fun with that bye <3

[batwynn]

People who's body this doesn't belong to STFU challenge. 👍

#stfu challenge #tw: transphobia #I still get this shit from old friends who appear suddenly and find out I'm trans like #You don't own my body because we were friends or exes like #NO ONE CARES KYLE #BE A CREEP ELSEWHERE #old friends stop looking me up on facebook please #body autonomy #Also I've always been an ugly gremlin thanks #Don't lie #also I can't even get top surgery so thanks for triggering that whole emotional mess

[tunderilona]

áron is a great name because you can always be like haha at them when you see the words 'vonzó áron' in stores

[quirkle2]

i am literally so hungry and yet i am like paralyzed in my seat. why can't i get up and go get food. why am i just sitting here while my stomach wallows in agony. i feel ill. jay be normal

#qktalks #be normal. #me when i can't take care of myself ??? girl just get up and go nothing is stopping u (it feels like the world is stopping me) #anyway sorry this started off as a weird vent post or whatever. u guys know what i miss? animal jam #i miss that game so much #i also played a lot of happy pets on facebook when i was little i've been genuinely considering making a new facebook just to play it again #but is it worth it. no. no is the answer to that #i remember when i played animal jam back when i was little and i finally got that one headdress accessory that was the craze back then #and my best friend at the time got so jealous abt it that they hacked into my account while i was asleep and traded it w their own account #and the next day i was like ''where did all my stuff go'' and they were like ''haha idk'' while wearing my fucking outfit #honestly that's rly hilarious. the fucking audacity #little me wasn't ballsy enough to go ''uhm i think the fuck not'' i was like just ''oh ......... okay :('' #but u bet ur ass if i was as confident back then as i am now ? i woulda maimed them #yes <3 over a video game. that's what kids do didn't u know <3 #god i do miss happy pets tho #that game was so fun and silly. i deleted my facebook tho all my houses upon houses of pets r gone #u could have glowing tigers!!!!! #JUST GOOGLED HAPPY PETS THE GAME GOT SHUT DOWN . OHTHIS IS HORRIBLE #will be mourning this game all night. will be crying in the shower over it #<- acting like she's not in a depressive spiral and will absolutely NOT be showering #im holding a roblox funeral for happy pets who wants to join [has never once played roblox] #anyway weird topic-less rant over goodnight <3 to all my new followers yes i am slightly strange

[elenadoeslife]

💔

#i just found out someone copied the social media page he had before the platform stopped existing #i'm reading blog posts from 2008 about me #i can't describe what's going through me right now. i want to kick. scream. cry. mourn. smile. #also found a picture he snapped of the playground behind my house and from a bench at my old school #i didn't realise how much i suppressed #the past has a weird way of catching up #update: i just sent a message on facebook to the person who set up the replica website to thank them

[oetscop]

i think one of the worst things bird facebook groups did to me was convincing me that giving your bird seeds EVER is abuse and like feeding a human child mcdonalds every day.

you wanna know what wild budgies eat? A SHITLOAD OF GRASS SEEDS! yes they eat fruit and other vegetation but their role in the damn outback is to eat as stupidly as possible so they make a huge mess and spread seeds around. if i gave my birds just pellets and veg theyd be missing important nutrients. ffs

#tongue #i stopped beign on facebook after 2018 but like its still damaging to me #i was blaming myself for dannys death for so long #like rivens eating the same diet and hes alive it was not diet #they eat lots of stuff! the seeds wouldnt do that lol #also semi related but i saw a video that mentioned single birds and their humans preening them #and i find it so funny bc riven is the clingiest bird ever he loves me so much #he spends all day on my shoulder/head or like standing next to me on the couch and shit #but if i try to preen him he will draw blood #like i cannot touch his little head even to get a fluffy off his nose of something #if i put my thumb over his toes when hes on my finger he will go apeshit

[kholden83]

Okay, nearly time to go participate in Democracy, and then democracy sausage. Although democracysausage.org says the polling place in my suburb has egg-and-bacon rolls which I am also very fond of. So I'm kind of thinking of eating the roll for brekkie, and then bringing a sausage sandwich home for lunch

And then hopefully this evening we will be free of The Coalition. Or at least Gareth Fucking Ward.

#should probably tag this 'personal' or something #NSW votes #Ward's other sex offences were not widely known at the time of the indecent exposure incident #so I was inclined to give his 'sleepwalking/painkillers' excuse the benefit of the doubt at the time #I was mocked on local facebook for this even as I said didn't vote for him and never would #The Libs dumped him and are running a new candidate so I think he'll lose the seat even if they get back in #also maybe ableists will stop acting like his disabilities and being a dreadful person are somehow connected

[ff2-soda-pop]

i miss my friends :(

#we have a movie on and thats great and all but also we did that movie in theater and now i miss my friends- #AND I MEAN IK I HAVE CONTACT INFO. I HAVE THEM ADDED ON FACEBOOK. I AM THE ONLY THING STOPPING ME FROM SAYING HI. #but also i just. idk i miss Seeing Them yknow???? #also i mean. i do need to actually say hi and also get over my. facebook-specific anxiety maybe- #but still i miss seeing my friends.... #vent

[pallases]

ohhhh my god i hate instagram

#STOP SUGGESTING PEOPLE I KNOW. stop it #it’s not connected to my facebook it’s not connected to my contacts and it’s not even connected to the same email as facebook anymore bc i #just created a whole new email to try to separate it. and it still does it #i Do Not want ppl i know irl linking it to me. good god is that so much to ask for #personal #also even though it’s not ‘connected’ to my facebook (which i know since it keeps prompting me to connect it) it knows what my facebook is #i get that it’s owned by facebook. but PLEASE

[gibbearish]

namewise how do we feel about zane/zayne

#i like that its short esp the first one i like four letter names #i like that its only one syllable and i like that it has a ~weird letter~ #i just dunno if it fits ive been stewing on it for months and i cant tell if i actually like it enough to be it yknow #i feel like it kiiiinda makes sense especially when i have the green on the left side of my hair (been too lazy to dye it lately) #it just feels kinda weird too tho like. maybe a little pretentious if that makes sense? #plus theres multiple characters i like with that name one of which i latched onto HARD in middle school (ninjago zane) #so im unsure if i actually like the name or am just associating it with those characters / am doing it for fandom reasons?? #which i want to steer away from truth be told i have a weird uncle named dave so whenever someone used it for me #my brain would bypass homestuck (literally the reason i picked it) and remind me of my weird uncle (just some guy #who i had to threaten to unfriend so he'd stop sending me six trillion facebook game requests) #and who i then unfriended like a year later anyways #and it also has now been permanently ruined by the 2015 trans boy named dave jokes because it would be entirely accurate #idk. idk idk idk

[silverspleen]

My batshit fucking insane conservative nurse coworker who once used slavery as an argument that abortion access should be up to the state's discretion and not a universal right: You know you shouldn't be wearing your mask everywhere, it's going to hurt your immune system. >:(

Me, a girl who eats expired food off the apartment floor that she cleans exactly once a year, touches random bugs outside, and just randomly sticks her fingers and hands in her mouth without even thinking of washing them first: No, no I think I'll be ok.

#girlie I think my immune system will be ok I think I'm exposing myself to germs JUST fine with it on #I just... you know... don't SPREAD those germs to ppl because I wear a mask and disinfect my hands before touching someone in clinic #but on my own time good god I am gross #I had to train myself to stop chewing on pens once I started in the hospital bc u dont know where they have been and that shit is HARD #she posted the states rights thing on a facebook post of mine and I was SO shocked #also like.... SLAVERY. REALLY????? DO YOU WANT TO BRING IT BACK OR SOMETHING THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU #like christ have some respect for the generations of people who were literal property and killed? don't bring that on my fukn facebook post #m'am we had an entire civil war about how slavery should not be left to the state's discretion #the dragoon diaries #she is SO fucking crazy

[temper-temper]

Life update: Just gave away one of my flight jackets from Vietnam. Gave it to a fella who was over there on the USS-America who always wanted one but never got one. Told me his gonna show it off to the guys at the VFW- I’m so excited for him

I still got mine (which fits me much better anyway) and a replica A-2 design along with an older army jacket (58), so I wasn’t loosing much compared to what he was gaining. Good start to the day 😌

#mod talks #crypkit #I’m a Facebook mom now #also last night bf and I were talking and I stopped my dog from eating something I gave to my cat #and bf was like why and I said kitten would come back for it #ant was super surprised when kitten did cuz I was right #I just know my sons it’s ok #lol