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#i also left the church because i'm gay and they harassed me a lot
faerieemetal · 2 years
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as a lot of you may know, a big reason i started writing the stuff i write on here was so i could see myself in fanfic and to also create a space for others like me. this is gonna be long but bare with me.
a little background info about me, i am an afro-indigenous woman from canada and being black and indigenous here is kinda like a double homicide lol. anyway, i couldn't always see myself in fanfiction because whether you wanna believe it or not, most reader insert fics are catered towards skinny, cishet, able bodied, white women. i have read and enjoyed a lot of black!reader insert fics on here since i am black but i still couldn't see myself entirely. keep in mind, that didn't stop me from enjoying them. and then i started looking for indigenous/native american!reader fics for the fandoms i'm in and didn't find any. which is why it didn't surprise me when i looked for afro-indigenous!reader fics and also found nothing. so i took it upon myself to start writing my own afro-indigenous!reader fics.
now back to the part where most reader insert fics are catered towards skinny, cishet, able bodied, white women. those fics would gets hundreds of thousands of notes, which is not a bad thing at all. but then marginalized groups would point out that those fics weren't very inclusive despite the creators claiming they were because the reader was still coded as white with descriptors like rosy cheeks, porcelain skin, pink lips and flowy hair and so many more and that's just for sfw settings. poc, plus sized people, disabled people and lgbtq+ people were ignored, invalidated and gaslit until they decided to create their own spaces after being pushed out of a space that was supposed to be for everyone. and then those same white readers and content creators started complaining that we were being exclusive because we're not writing for skinny, cishet, able bodied, white women. now we're including poc, trans people, gay people, plus sized people, disabled people (blind, deaf, neurodivergent, etc.), and for some reason, these white creators and readers don't like that. and they have no shame being bigots. i have lost count of how many times i've seen poc, lgbtq+, plus sized and disabled people get hateful anons calling them slurs and saying that their faves would never date someone like them or just generally harassing and patronizing them.
this is why when someone says "write for yourself" it kind of leaves a bitter taste in my mouth because when it comes to poc, lgbtq+, disabled people, plus sized people and other marginalized groups with little to no accurate representation that doesn't fetishize us, for me it's way beyond just writing for myself. i'm also writing for people like me who may come here looking for a safe space where they can be represented and so that they don't have to feel left out and invisible like i did for so long. i still very much enjoy writing so it's not like i'm being forced to do this for the sake of other people.
white creators write something that is clearly only for white people no matter how many times they say it's inclusive and they get hundreds and thousands of notes. they will also ignore people who kindly call them out on their ignorance and hypocrisy and act like they're the victim. but a black writer will write something for black readers because they're tired of seeing the same white people coding for 99% of the fics on here and receive less than half of that attention and they're also harrased and people will call them racist while simultaneously calling them racial slurs. the irony is that they're silent as church mice when white creators make it explicitly clear that the reader is white but they're loud as hell when a black creator writes no descriptors of the reader's appearance and the only thing that tells you the reader is black are the tags.
if you have made it this far in my little 5am rant, congratulations. this is just something to think about because it's been on my mind and i needed to get it off my chest. hell maybe no one will see it or even care but i needed a minute to rant.
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