#how to get success and happiness in life

[chaiaurchaandni]

4 year old Ahmad Shabat - an israeli airstrike hit him, his parents & 4 siblings; he survived, they didn't - then they hit him & his father's relatives; he survived, they didn't - then they hit him & his uncle; he survived, his uncle didn't - both of Ahmed's legs have been amputated because of injuries. He survives.

i hope Ahmad gets to live. i hope he has a beautiful and fulfilling life. i hope he finds love and safety and comfort and success. i hope he finds happiness. i hope he heals. i hope he continues to survive. in spite of the violence, in spite of the trauma, in spite of the horror. in spite of the world.

#it feels like my heart is breaking over and over and over again #i hope this kid gets to live. i hope he has a beautiful and fulfilling life. #i hope he finds love and safety and comfort and success #i hope he finds happiness #i hope he heals #i hope he continues to survive in spite of everything #no child should have to go through even a fraction of this #never forget and never ever forgive #i remember seeing a video of him and his uncle. his uncle was speaking ab how they only have each other left. then they killed his uncle to #i am losing my mind every day #i spit on this world and everyone that has the power to stop this but wont #free palestine #palestine #gaza #long live palestine #death to israel #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #glory to the martyrs #long live the resistance

[eriochromatic]

Maybe the poison drips through

Succession 4x10 “With Open Eyes”

#succession #kendall roy #roman roy #siobhan roy #shiv roy #logan roy #tHE ENDING??? THE FINALE?? YALL.... #it was perfect but also sad but bittersweet but also poignant im #MANY THOUGHTS HEAD FULL #i honestly love how open ended it was #also i love drawing people upside down so #obligatory upsidedown post haha #they really said lets give the roy kids one happy moment and then fuck them over huh #erio art #erio stuff #i am in the camp of kendall gets therapy (actual useful therapy) #roman gets to live his life w/out burden #pls i feel so bad for shiv it feels like she took one for the team #all her brothers were free of their shackles #but ironically shiv who started as an outsider became trapped instead.. #THIS FINALE WAS JUST SO GOOD UGH

[howlsmovinglibrary]

It is truly so funny to work myself out of depression in a 2.5 year upwards crawl, reach a point where I actually like and value myself and think I may, in fact, be a treasure-

only for the academic job market to turn to me, lovingly take my face in its hands, and say "...then perish."

#tbd #this is just a silly little rant and nothing is actually wrong #but its so wild to cultivate belief in yourself and then be repeatedly told your chances at success are infindecimally small #even when you beat the odds the first time around #i've got my therapist and other people in my life being like 'don't be so pessimistic! we're supposed to be over that self-hate!" #and then for the academics to go: 'well... don't get ahead of yourself!' #its fine. i'll live and thrive and be happy whatever happens. #just actually a very funny series of social interactions to have now I'm no longer ill... #and makes me understand a little how I got so fucking ill in the first place. #academia tag

[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

🥳🎉HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM RIVERS🎉🥳

#idc how old this cutie gets... he'll always be Bizkit's baby boy #still amazes me that he was only 19 when 3DBY came out. like the talent & skill at such a young age. & to have that success that young too. #and look at how far he has come in his musical career #his melodic grooves and melodies have been enhancing the Bizkit sound since day numero uno #the quiet reserved guy with a serious exterior that melts it all away with the way he lights up on stage #not to mention he has a killer smile too #May this 46th Birthday treat you incredibly well Sammy #wishing you nothing but peace love and perfect health this next year in life and all others to come #HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM!💋 #Sam Rivers #Limp Bizkit #nu metal #SAM. I. AM. #Sammy Boy #Bass Boss #down the rabbit hole

[freebooter4ever]

i send my friend suggestions of tourist places to see in his new country (his contract was extended, lucky him!) or messages about friend of friends i have living there that he could maybe meet for fellow americans to talk to, and his response is always that he doesnt have time. and not in that exaggerated way that people do to seem busy. but in that bone tired way i recognize from him here in LA, that i recognize in myself.

#jrnlsht #i watch the lives of my friends who have Made It on social media and its like looking through glass into another world i cant relate to #theyre so happy and confident and successful and its beautiful #you know whats a funny thing about LA #so many people on the on*line da*ting apps put *successful* on their list of requirements in the people they want to date #like theres a bar of entry and if you haven't reached a certain goal post like... blue check marks on your social media or a level of wealt #then they arent even going to want to get to know you #and its so antithetical to how i was raised i cant even comprehend #and yet i see it happening to my own relationships #in pittsburgh i had friends from literally ALL walks of life from people who made even less money than me to comfortable to fairly wealthy #here my friends are almost entirely of one professional class #and i have been observing how my hyper wealthy friends self select in who they interact with to maintain this wealthy bubble around them #i dont think it's entirely intentional but its also not not intentional if you know what i mean #anyway its one of the reasons i fucking loved the talk on saturday oh my god those two were a breath of fresh air i needed so much #these smart genius dudes built their own life and instead of constantly looking up for more and more personal gain #they paused and looked at the people still desperately trying to rise #and were like if i have gotten this far why cant i help you do it too and then they DID IT they actually started helping #i think that is the true meaning of success

[schmweed]

#Gerri Kellman #Roman Roy #I love how Roman I-can't-stand-still-for-two-seconds Roy #at this INSANE time no less #is sitting placidly at Gerri's feet. not pacing like everyone else. #Roman who's always flitting in and out and around and up and down #just gravitated towards her and sat there at her feet and is just... existing. content. calm. their whole life is upside down #but she's here and he's nabbed the closest spot possible to her #and even if he can't chat because they're all listening to Logan at least he's near her and that's enough for him #sigh. <3 <3 <3 #and you know what he does when he gets up in the second gif? #now that his dad is getting on the plane? he turns around and stands there talking to her. #It'll have to be a separate post because it's blurry like the Hunting dinner background scene we got but I love it. I miss them so much! #They're on their way to their happy ending now. Roman and Gerri both had the BEST endings actually when you think about it. <3 <3 <3 #Succession #my gifs

[lyrikmumare]

"message for scorpios for what to expect for THIS SOLSTICE 😆😆" do you want to trigger my ocd so fucking badly i don't take any potential advice you're going to give me bc you're scaring me more. fucking hate future-telling astrology and divination and witchcraft pls just leave me the fuck alone

#clyde.txt #they always say the same thing too like MAKE SURE TO START GETTING A MOVE ON ALL THOSE MAJOR LIFE PLANS YOU'VE BEEN COOKING UP 😋😝 #LIKE I KNOOOOOW BUT YOU'RE PUTTING ME IN FREEZE MODE A BIT AGAINCAUSE YOU'RE SCARING ME‼‼ I HAVE OCD AND YOU'RE SCARING ME‼‼ NOT HELPING #astrology is fun insofar as guessing and assigning fictional character's signs but good lord this is just evil and not helpful to me at all #literally don't tell me what to do or make me feel like if i don't do anything i'll die and live an unhappy life forever and have bad #things happen to me BC THAT'S HOW YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL‼‼ YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO HAVE TO KMS EVEN IF I DON'T WANT TO #IDK WANT TO HAVE TO FUCKING. LIKE MANIFEST OR CHEAT THE LIFE SYSTEM yes i'm well aware i'm responsible for my own success and happiness #and i do indeed plan to do something about that hopefully sooner rather than later but also like.... i already worry enough i'll never be #happy and will just have no option other than to kms like.... like? shut up. i eat good food and pet my cats and hang out and talk to my #friends i don't need to be on the fucking grindset. but fine i'll call the stupid healthcare provider tomorrow. MAYBE #if u want me to realize my potential than how about we stop having a world and society that isn't hell 🤔🤨 how abt i don't feel valid in #feeling scared to leave the house...? 🤨🤨🤨🤨 #the problem is i feel justified with the way i feel abt the world so strongly that idk what's gonna happen that's gonna prove me wrong #and then i can't cope with it either .... which is why i need Mental Help. or epic money

[saltynsassy31]

Our aunt and uncle:

"You need to step up your game! You guys arent kids anymore!"

Me and @notsodailycake :

#I am an avid defender of autistic people aren't just kids or act like kids! Don't infentilise us! #But for the first time ever I just wanted to go #haha hey! I am autistic! Which mean I am permanently a child! Hahahahahahah #and dont get me wrong #they werent being mean or condecending #this was more of an encouragement #they are both very successful and rich people #and they were giving us tips on how to be super successful in life #but.....i just wanna live in a tiny cabin writing books for my fans and making just enough to be happy #i dont wanna make bank fkdkska #i wanna make joy! #salty rants

[tomwambsmilk]

This might be my most Controversial post and if you're someone who's genuinely rooting for tom and greg to have their happily ever after in canon then you might not want to read past this point. Just to be perfectly clear I do love tomgreg in both their canon and fanon forms and absolutely no shade to the unironic requited tomgreg truthers, you're the backbone of this fandom and I love your work etc. But. I'm still skeptical of an actual romantic relationship going canon and even more cynical about it actually ending well so, uh. Dead Dove Do Not Eat and all that

I think that Tom being unable to make a really definitive bold choice is intimately related to why I think canonical tomgreg would end in acrimonious divorce (at least with how the characters are at the end of season 3… obviously character development is real and could hypothetically shift the equation). Tom is the literal human embodiment of that fable about the kid who reaches into the cookie jar and gets a huge handful of cookies but then his hand get stuck and he can’t pull it out and he starts crying until someone explains to him that if he lets go all but one he’ll be able to get it out. Except he’s never realized that last part and he’s so afraid of ending up with no cookies at all that he can’t let them go and instead crushes them into dust and tries to eat the crumbs and goes “this is what I wanted actually. This is fine. This is what normal well-adjusted people do and I am Happy.”

It’s deeply rooted in fear and that’s because Tom’s other fatal flaw is being a little bit of a coward. I say this with utmost affection but he’s always hedging his bets and trying to make the safest choice. This is not always a bad thing, but sometimes you do have to make the bold choice just to learn things about yourself. (Or simply because it's the Morally Right Thing To Do but uh. We don't need to get into that right now re: Tom). You have to make a choice and sacrifice something in the process and that’s how you learn what will make you happy and what won’t. Except Tom is so afraid of being unhappy and making the wrong choice that he can never let himself do that, and that’s why he doesn’t really know who he is and what he wants and instead lets himself be defined by societal images of wealth and privilege. He likes expensive things because that’s what he’s supposed to like. He wants to be CEO because that’s what he’s supposed to want. I think if he actually became CEO he would be miserable, in part because of what he’d need to sacrifice to get there but also because being CEO means being bold and taking risks and I think that’s actually his own personal version of hell.

That’s part of why I’m skeptical of tomgreg going canon because I think leaving Shiv for Greg would be an incredibly bold move and I don’t think Tom’s capable of that. Maybe if his marriage fell apart Tom would go for Greg, but then I think he’d very quickly find himself in a “grass is greener” situation. I don’t think he would really actively choose Greg, internally, so much as stumble into that relationship because Greg is there and Greg is the person he’s closest to, and eventually this would eat away at him. That’s NOT to say Tom wouldn’t have very genuine feelings for Greg, but I think stumbling right from his failed marriage into a relationship with Greg would set the whole thing up to crumble and collapse, especially once the weight of Tom’s emotional baggage sets in. There’s going to be a part of him asking himself “do I really love Greg or was he just convenient,” and rather than making the decision to really commit to Greg and see if the relationship can work he’ll start developing an emotional affair with someone else without even realizing what he's doing, because the problem with really making the decision to try and commit to Greg wholeheartedly is what if it ends up being Shiv all over again? What if he decides to be vulnerable with Greg and open up to him and give Greg his emotional fidelity and Greg ends up letting him down?

And because he's incapable of having an emotionally honest conversation he just starts tallying everything Greg does in some mental T-chart of "he loves me/he loves me not". Meanwhile, I do think Greg would be largely taken in, at least initially, by the idea that Tom threw everything away for him and when he realizes that Tom's marriage to Shiv was going to crumble into dust on its own merits anyway he's going to start feeling like a consolation prize and start pulling away and that's going to make the whole situation worse. When the relationship finally breaks down it will be acrimonious because both of them are going to feel upset and betrayed and misled. And that doesn't even begin to factor in Tom's uglier possessive and abusive tendencies and the pressure that remaining at Waystar would put on the relationship and whatever unresolved issues Greg still has around his gay homewrecking dad. Theoretically, they could go to therapy and start working through this shit and improve as people and make it work but tbh I think that they're far more likely to cannibalize each other first and not in a romantic way.

I would love to see it though. I really would. It would be an absolute nightmare but it would be amazing television and I would eat that shit up. Jesse Armstrong are you listening to me. Jesse Armstrong answer my calls

#I hope I don’t have to turn in my shipper credentials for this one #idk why but I’ve been a bit of a tom cynic lately. I do still love him though #also hopefully this goes without saying but absolutely no shade to the people who do think sweet requited tg is a real canon possibility #more power to you and follow your heart etc #what am I but a random person putting her half-formed opinions out on the internet #to be honest for me this comes back to the whole 'succession is narratively a tragedy'. they've all come too far for a truly happy ending #bittersweet maybe. but given that both tom and greg are knee deep in their corruption arcs i do think #that its unlikely theyll go start a vegan bed and breakfast in connecticut #best case scenario tom has a sudden moment of clarity and aborts before he permanently damages every remaining relationship in his life #(which at this point is just greg) #and actually I do think that's a possibility if the kinds of hard choices he has to make going forward are too much for him and he breaks #but even then I think that he's too far gone now to be really happy. we're past the tragic climax. I think he's ultimately sealed his fate #and as we move forward he's going to feel that fewer and fewer things are actually within his control #as he starts to really suffer the consequences of his actions in the first three seasons #so I think even if he gets out it's going to be too little too late #that's typically how narrative tragedies end. especially dostoevsky and shakespeare which I know are major influences for succession #and jesse armstrong has talked about how he doesnt believe people fundamentally change. its just that their circumstances change and so #their response to the circumstances change #I could be wrong though

[lllsaslll]

I forgot Tumblr is (barely) my only safe place to vent

#i feel like im getting fucking pounded and slapped left and right today with reminders of how little my worth is #and on top ofbthe physical pain. what joy #work is treating me like an afterthought...but only bc im an entitled baby who doesnt know how to stand up for herself or communicate #my brain is so choked of enrichment & badically in survival mode that the thought of things that r suposed to bring me joy just piss me off #im too fucking chicken shit to take advantage of the dream oportunities that dropped in my lap bc idk imposter syndrome i guess #and the newest blow... #the mesures ive taken in the past to help maintain my mental health aparently have cracks in them i.e. blocking that person doesnt seem to #be enough bc i just got slapped in the fucking face with all their goddamn glory and success and ya know im so happy for them #but my brain only lets me see it as a reminder of what i could have. what i am physically capable of is i wasnt me. #with my stupid fucking emotions and my stupid fucking fear and my stupid fucking lack of knowledge. #...i love having to stop while writing this and run to the bathroom in the middle of the office bc im goddamn crying in the club. again #and i love having to just vent here bc ive used all my ~pity me~ and ~complain about my life~ cards for the day. week. month. year... #my mom was right #im ugly. no one cares. and im going to die alone.

[heartshpedfx]

@bastardmanvibes 🥰 good luck on ur flight

#i think the meme you’re talking about is the one that’s like #our conversation would be legen- wait for it #dary #yum that feels so spicy and millennial to type out i feel like i’m dreaming of working at buzzfeed and marrying like #my graphic designer husband who’s really into magick the gathering and i’m the wifey at home #i have an english degree (which i hope to use to get into buzzfeed) BUT i’m utilizing my visual art minor #to draw stylized webcomics of me and my husband and our ~quirky~ relationship where i do yoga and then eat pizza and complain about missing #like #patches of hair when o shave my legs #i call him hubby #i rlly don’t know how these tags got away from me but these women i’m describing fr seem happy #when i was a maid i cleaned for So Many of them #and they fr were living the dream life #i’m being very liberal w the comic thing but in this scenario these comics constantly get reposted to reddit so they’re successful ish #most of the women i cleaned for just painted Ok watercolors and hung them in their overly elaborate gray and white dining rooms #anyway ik your trip will be fun. manifesting the least stress possible for you

[daandori]

seeing all your friends get more and more successful in life while youre stagnating barely off the ground is like. im so happy for you and you deserve this and im so so proud of you but also i am turning into the joker

#the talkies #like i do not begrudge their success AT ALL #im so happy to see them go far in what theyre doing and achieve all these great things #but also. when everyone is working their dream job and getting raises and doing masters/phds and buying apartments and having relationships #and i realize how far behind i am and how ill probably have to watch everyone get better n better in life while i act not miserable abt it #it sucks just a lil bit lol #kinda shitty being the only one of your friends who doesnt get to do something they love

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#sometimes i get really sad about my life you know? like. really sad about it lmao. for various reasons. #like it would be really cool to be normal. very often i just wish i was normal lmao. #but then i remember meeting this guy while i was homeless&he had everything that i late 20s/early 30s college grad would want #stable&well paying job in the field he actually went to college for #rented part of a banging a duplex that had a yard allowed dogs&was a five minute walk from downtown bar crawl area #had both one of my fave motorcycles-- an r6--&one of my all time dream cars-- a 6speed cts-v. #i presume a dating life from the tampons that were in his bathroom. #&yet. he was miserable from what i could tell lmao. &it was weird bc it was like he didnt realize that #until he met us lmao. i would be more annoyed by that. i was v annoyed by it at the time lmao. the amount of weird jealousy i dealt w while #fucking homeless+sick is disgusting&ill never forgive fucking anyone for it&a part of me will always be dead+rotted bc of it lmao. #but for him it was different in the way of. i could kind of understand it lmao. #he had come from a rough background from what i understand&was a success story. #&yet he clearly felt trapped in his own life. clearly felt like he was surrounded by things he should be more grateful for while none of it #filled the hole in him ppl like him are PROMISED success will fill. being apart of the status quo but on the good end will alleviate. #he had been in one accident&never rode his bike again. when i asked why he lied&told me the bike was unrideable bc he didnt know me lmao #&when i asked if there had been any damage past the obvious dent in the gas tank he got red+quiet+changed the topic. #he worked at some big bank&didnt bother trying to brag bc the one thing he DID know about me is that i am v anti bank+leftist lmao. #he considered himself a leftist too until he talked to me&realized he was actually v centrist in basically every view he had #&that centrism came from a desire to keep his privileges as a cis white straight man-- something that made him openly embarassed. #he used to deal thru college&when i met him he couldnt keep up w one round of dabs w me something that also obviously embarassed him. #he had surrounded himself w ppl just like him&was jarred upon meeting anyone outside of that bubble who wasnt a far right asshole. #&he didnt like what he saw about himself. &that was really obvious. #when we left his place after the brief week we were staying there he was literally in tears about how much he wanted to come. #to help&see where we ended up or whatever idk lmao. i guess im still actively annoyed by it lmao. #but i still get it on some level. when you reach the top&realize youre not fucking happy where do you go from there? #will a house do it? will moving to a different location for your same bullshit job do it? will meeting a girl exactly like you do it? #&when i want to be normal so bad it physically hurts i remember him&i think maybe things arent so bad lmao. #like it could be worse i guess lmao.

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Guessssss what time it is??

7am

Guess who's still awake?

Me

Guess who has to feed their dog in two hours, and get ready for work in five hours?

Me

And guess who has to have a camp meeting directly after their work shift? And has to actually be coherent and make a schedule and discuss their ideas and needs for the summer?

Yeah you probs got it

Guess who won't be coherent for it?

Yeah

#i just feel like shit in my brain rn #i tried to start a new knitting project but the yarn was not cooperating so its just strewn all over my floor #ive played a lot of minecraft #i started watching the unsleeping city. i fucking love it so far #and noe im watching a youtuber react th five seconds flat by lizzy mcalpine #oh yeah i listened to that whole album earlier #after googling an ex to see how happy and successful she is without me #im moving in june. i just finished unpacking from when i moved in August #i think moving actually kills a part of your soul every time you do it #i lived in michigan most of my life. then moved to illinois when i turned 18 #then a year and a half later i moved to wisconsin #now ive moved far far away from there. but it hasnt gone well. i moved in with my sibling #but i was only able to get a part time job. so im living paycheck to paycheck. incredibly not doing well #i dont like the environment here. the people are not the way that im used to #like im used to midwest nice. but here people are threatening to stab each other on the subway. its not ideal #there werent any fall colors. its only snowed twice. its just not for me. but i still did a lot of work to get here #i left everything i was used to. all of my friends. i cant remember where i was goinf with this #but my sibling and i are both struggling. so we decided to move back in with our parents for a year to save up #we're going to put what we used to pay in rent into a savings account for a down payment on a house #but right after finally unpacking i have to pack everything up again and rush back home #im just tired. so exhausted. mentally and physically. physically its gonna hit in the middle of my shift #mentally its been hitting every damn day. and i cant remember the last time i felt happy without also feeling #depressed or anxious or uncomfortable or unwanted or out of place #want to know whats happened so far? learned my best friend fucked my ex and now its not the same anymore #got a terrible ear infection. got bronchitis. one of the few friends i made moved out of the country #learned im not a beneficiary in my moms life insurance but my siblings are. learned my grandpa got engaged but he never told me #learned my parents bought a plot of land but they never told me. i think people just forget about me. or dont care that im here #i decided im gonna go no contact with my parents and grandpa after the year of living with them cuz i dont deserve this shit #anyway bye

[amochi]

I know I’ve been very “fuck this capitalist hellscape” lately in just about every way but I feel like since getting out of college and going into a full time job I just seriously cannot wrap my mind around how the collective society think it’s normal to spend most of our lives working or committing to the grind. We’re only on this earth for one life and you want me to spend it sitting at a desk for 8 hours a day just to pay for groceries when there’s things out there we only ever dream of seeing. The moon literally pulls the tides and you want me to sit at a desk, be for real

#thoughts #it’s a Monday #I think this is coming from my whole life basically been committing myself to working as hard as I possibly can to be successful #a lot by my mothers influence because she doesn’t know the word ‘rest’ if it literally knocked her out cold #so I always used to think like oh when I’m older it’ll make sense and this is just how it is #but I think part of why I’m having such a hard time getting over it is cuz I’m realizing #that NO #THIS ISNT NORMAL #WHY ARE WE DOING THIS #all those times I thought I was being lazy indulging in things that made me happy #and I was shamed for wasting time #I WAS IN THE RIGHT #I SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY #I want to grab everyone by the shoulders and shake them and look them in the eye and be like #do you understand #do you understand how fucked up this is #do you understand that bragging about spending more time at work than with your family isn’t a GOOD THING??? #I don’t know how to think ab this and talk ab this I feel like I’m going to go insane

[madddays]

i am not here a lot but i may be writing my first angsty fic that i may someday actually finish and post

#also i lvoe layover i love taehyung i want nothing but love and happiness and success and joy and the perils of a good life for him #he makes such beautiful art i want to thank him personally #me: i love your work it means everything to me #taehyung: how did u get into my house. did u make this french toast it looks delicious