#how am i 19 i'm honestly so incompetent i hate myself i keep doing this for no reason and idk how to stop!!! i just constantly ghost

[galadriiel]

there is a very fine line between "alright i'm pretty exhausted and i'm way past caring about anything so i might as well use this time to email back someone i've been ignoring for weeks seeing as i'm not riddled with anxiety for once" and "i'm actually high on exhaustion and spouting bullshit and shouldn't be allowed anywhere near my phone" and i toe it almost every night but i only ever know whether i crossed it the next morning when i face the consequences of my actions

#i get so talkative when i'm tired i actually annoy myself so much i always get this sudden motivation to text like five people #and make like ten posts on here but i've learned to uh not do that because i always regret it the next day but maybe i should just #go ahead with the email because cringing at my reply in the morning is still better than stressing about it all day for another day #god i am such a mess!!!!! but it can't get any worse so i might as well go ahead with it #anyways sorry i'm rambling!!! like i said i get increasingly annoying the more sleep deprived i am honestly 90% of the personal #posts i've made on here fit into the second category hbfjdvfjd i hardly ever talk on here when i'm not procrastinating sleep #ok i'll shut up now and write the email and i'll probably cringe at it in the morning but idc!!! #angie.txt #okay update no one asked for #i did it and it wasn't even as awful as i thought it'd be idk why i was dreading it so much!!! i probably sounded really cringe #and overenthusiastic though but what matters is that it's done!!! it wasn't even af unpleasant email or anything i've just been #procrastinating replying for so long it was getting embarrassing and i was running out of time and i was so stressed about it #and every day i'd jusr internally scream at myseld about it and then pointedly not do it because i was to scared to even open it #how am i 19 i'm honestly so incompetent i hate myself i keep doing this for no reason and idk how to stop!!! i just constantly ghost #people abd then feel bad about it but get so stressed about how long it's been that i don't end up replying for like forever yikes #okay that's all i'm gonna go and actually get some sleep now bye i'm so sorry if you #actually read all of this it's probably like 90% incoherent and not worth your time

[dancing-sewer-daddy]

All of them bc i'm so bored too and i can't sleep (ily btw) ❤

ahhhh anon you lil sweetheart!!!!! *wraps you up in a blanket burrito with me* I loves you too!!!! *cracks knuckles* okie time to get to work!! 

0) Height: 5′1

1) Age: 18

2) shoe size: I’m a size 4 and a half in women’s (I HAVE TINY FEET)

3) Do you smoke? Nope 

4) Do you drink? nope

5) Do you take drugs? sugar is the only drug i need

6) Age you get mistaken for: I have a baby face and I’m super small so I’d say 14 is usually the age I get mistaken for

7) Have tattoos? I don’t have any yet

8) Want any tattoos? If i were to get tattoos I’d like something to do with butterflies because i’ve been associated with them my whole life!

9) Got any piercings? nope (I’m boring I’m sorry)

10) Want any piercings? No, because I don’t think I’d have the patients to keep it in all the time and take care of it. (I’d probably lose it when I’d take it out tbh)

11) Best friend? sherbet is always there for me when I need it. 

12) Relationship status: Single and too shy to mingle

13) Biggest turn ons: Deep sensual voices, I’m a sucker for accents, someone who can take the lead because I’m such an awkward dork I’d never initiate anything. Someone who makes me feel loved, or just does little things for me because they feel like it (I become mush when I meet someone sweet) 

14)Biggest turn offs: Fuckboys, just plain arrogant people (ugh), someone who clearly only wants sex. People who put others down or consider themselves superior. 

15) Favourite movie: IT 2017 and Step brothers (I can quote the entire movie)

16) I’ll love you if: You’re someone who is honest with me and someone who I know will look out for me. Loyalty is everything to me, and if I know I can trust you then you’ll have me forever!! 

17) Someone you miss: I won’t say I miss anyone right now because compared to how I’ll feel when my parents pass away, this will be nothing.  

18) Most traumatic experience: Highschool, Daycare, and Kindergarten (it’s a long story) (if you’re curious you can always message me) 

19) A fact about your personality: I’m a really sensitive person. Like i’ll definitely go cry if someone raises their voice at me. I’ll also mull over an insult for days even though I try not too. I’ll even sometimes tear up if someone I don’t know very well is just a loud obnoxious person. If I know you though then we’re fine and I’ll be loud with you.

20) What I hate most about myself: My face, I am really insecure about my face and I’ll always cover it if I laugh or smile. 

21) What I love most about myself: My hair, like when I shave my legs barely any hair comes back!! It takes a month before the hair starts to show. 

22) What I want to be when I get older: An art teacher (highschool) 

23) My relationship with my sibling(s): I have a really good relationship with my brother, we always forgive each other after arguments (which we don’t have too often) We’re both pretty passive. 

24) My relationship with my parent(s): My relationship with my mom is good, however my relationship with my father is quite strained. He can really get on my nerves and just downright puts me down at times. 

25) My idea of a perfect date: Just chilling out together honestly. Eat pizza, watch stupid movies, beat the ever living shit out of each other on video games. I like being outdoors don’t get me wrong, but I need to feel comfortable around that person and take some time to get to know them. I’m not all that fancy. Dinner dates scare the crap out of me. 

26) My biggest pet peeves: People who chew loudly, people who constantly make you repeat yourself and then continue to ignore you. 

27) A description of the girl/boy I like: Orange hair, plump red lips, large melon forehead, piercing yellow eyes, bunny teeth, a child eating alien who’s favourite flavour is fear. He lives in the sewers but that’s all good, we all have our flaws~

28) A description of the person I dislike the most: weird orange hair, old, angry pouty lips, happens to be the American president. 

29) A reason I’ve lied to a friend: usually it has to do with not replying to a text they sent because I was just too lazy but I didn’t want to hurt their feelings. 

30) What I hate the most about work/school: The anxiety I get when I go there.

31) What my last text message says: FEED ME DAMMIT!!

32) What words upset me the most: ugly, incompetent, worthless

33) What words make me feel best about myself: “other people get anxious too”, “you’re not alone”.

34) What I find attractive in women: Strong willed, a dry sense of humour, I guess someone more dominant than me??? A firecracker!! I just really love women with confidence!! Like I have the biggest crush on Alex Vause from “orange is the new black”. I don’t know why, but I just do. *rolls away*

35) What I find attractive in men: Umm the only guy I’ve ever been really attracted too is Tom Hiddleston?? So yeah, just be like Tom and I’ll immediately swoon. Also BTS, like I’m really into more feminine men?? LIKE HAVE YOU SEEN THEIR THIGHS!?!?? *weeps*

36) Where would I like to live: In my bed. Let me stay in my cozy blankets forever please and thank!! 

37) One of my insecurities: walking. I know it sounds stupid but I seriously stress about how to walk so much like what do I do with my hands??? How do legs work?? I constantly need to hold something to feel at ease. 

38) My childhood career choice: An assassin lol. I had big plans as a kid i guess.

39) My favourite ice-cream flavour: coconut!!

40) Who I wish I could be: Let me go live the dream in Tamriel (skyrim) and be the dragonborn. I’d probably die in the first five minutes but it would be soworth it.  

41) Where I want to be right now: with @tilltheweedstakeyou watching the hobbit and eating ice-cream or something. I just really want snuggles rn ;w;💕. 

42) The last thing I ate: air. Like i’ve eaten absolutely nothing today. 

43) Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately: Tom Hiddleston!!!! My boy!!!!

44) A random fact about anything: I nearly drowned at the bottom of the pool during lifeguard training when my partners dropped the spinal board I was strapped to. My instructor immediately jumped in to rescue me!

#anonymous #answered #long post #wow this took a while to write 😂 #but thank you sweet anon #it was a good distraction #*tackles* I loves you too #💕💕💕