#hopeful thoughts

[wafflefrie]

I once considered myself low maintenance

I never saw the point in getting my nails done only to have to do so time and time again. I kept my hair short, cutting it myself, so I wouldn’t have to brush it every day. I wore the same clothes I always did, clothes that matched everything I owned so I would never have to make a choice. But that thing I considered to be “low maintenance”?

It wasn’t.

I wasn’t.

The core to every choice I made was simply that I was tired. I couldn’t fathom brushing my hair every day when I couldn’t even brush my teeth. Getting my nails done regularly meant I had to think about the future and plan for it, at a time when I could only think about putting one foot in front of the other. My clothes were worn, but comforting, and I knew that in the rare occurrence I would do my laundry, I wouldn’t have to waste my precious energy in sorting. God forbid I owned something that needed to be ironed when I could barely get out of bed.

I wasn’t low maintenance. I was tired.

But now? Now I look forward to my trips to the nail salon. I’ve been growing out my hair and spending every morning getting it to look just so. I bought a new skirt that has to be hung up to dry. I’m not so tired anymore. I still have days where I can only throw on an old shirt and my unbrushed hair gets put up without a second thought.

But it’s better.

It gets better

Just a reflection

#hopeful thoughts #it gets better #encouragment #low maintenance #womanhood #mental health #mental illness #silly little guy #it truly does get better

[underlived]

I can always tell when I'm not doing what I should. Sadly I can't get myself to do what I should, most of the time. But surely I can still train myself, learn, and do better.

#hopeful thoughts

[sylvies-kablooie]

i do unironically think the best artists of our generation are posting to get 20 notes and 3 reblogs btw. that fanfic with like 45 kudos is some of the best stuff ever written. those OCs you carry around have some of the richest backstories and worldbuilding someone has ever seen. please do not think that reaching only a few people when you post means your art isn't worth celebrating.

#i often wonder about how many things would be considered classic or high art had they only received the marketing #how many short films that were made for class could have been the most powerful thing you'd ever seen? if you'd seen them? #“you know the greatest films of all time were never made” etc etc #but like. these works of art ARE being made. it's just enjoyed by a smaller audience with equal impact though #i think about this one furry i used to follow on insta who had the coolest worldbuilding ever. it's been years. #thought prompted by that sketch of nimona from ten years ago that was just for a character design #posted to the creator's tumblr and now it's nominated for best animated feature film at the oscars #and by the genuine emotional reaction a fan comic made me feel. how much work had gone into it. how beautiful it was to me. #idk what to tag this but i hope whoever needs to hear it does #writing #writer #fandom #fandom culture #artist

[flametrashira]

my dream as a fanfic writer is to write a story which people want to talk to me about and send asks about afterwards and discuss things the characters did and the symbolism and meanings behind certain lines and I'll be all "hehe thanks" but irl I'll be in literal tears because I wrote something that means something to someone

#I thought it was going to be Bad Pet or Bitter Poison but I don't think they resonated with people in quite the way I hoped

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

#transgender #trans history #transsexual #transphobia #Magnus Hirschfeld #holocaust #holocaust denial #book burning #j.k. rowling #jk rowling #just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :) #trans people have always existed #and we will always exist #if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit #queer history #queer #lgbt+ #lgbta+ #lgbt #lgbt history #edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month #also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it #it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs #and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had #also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2 #Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices #considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived

[alexander147797]

Sunk Ships & Pomegranates

As the sky rippled into shades of sun burnt tangerine and Georgia peach pink I stared into her copper coffee eyes. Never just looking at her but looking at the sunk ship wrecks within her pupils. Knowing that my chaotic ocean eyes have been the sole reason that have drown some of those ships. Though when the sun hits them they’re suddenly brilliant and clear, like perfectly worn sea glass.

            The longer I stare into them the faster the sun seems to set, once wrapping us in a blanket of warmth is now a cool sensation that sends goosebumps down my neck to my arms. Her once life filled eyes are now so dark they’ve become inky, almost-black, full of the depths of the ocean no man has dared to see alive. I want to dive into them, drown myself in there waters.

            She shivers and brings her hands to her arms as if to wrap herself in them to stay warm and before I realize what I’m doing I reach for her and hold her against me. I nuzzle my nose into her and she smells like pomegranate and smoke. It overflows my senses and as I try to collect myself I feel her relax against me. She makes a sound of satisfaction and I take a breath in, inhaling her scent as if it’s the last breath I take. I didn’t expect to become an addict, but here we are.

#my writing #alexander147797 #writing #poetry #spilled ink #brown eyes #addiction #addicted to him #addicted to her #adict #ted mosby would be proud #sunken ships #ocean eyes #describe blue #describe brown #heart broken poet #lost thoughts #hopeful thoughts #her #she's addicting

[triona-tribblescore]

I just wanna draw them being all soft n stuff okay? :'( <333

#no like they have consumed all of my thoughts #ik im quiet here atm but im freaking out In a feral non girly totally concept way about hazbin #BEEN WAITING FIVE FUCKIN YEARS FOR THIS #AND ITS EVERYTHING I HOPED IT WOULD BE AND MORE #ahem #But yeah!! :'D #I love almost all the characters but these two always have and always will be my favs :'> #<3 #tribbleart #hazbin hotel #hazbin #hazbin angel dust #hazbin husk #huskerdust #angel dust #hazbin hotel fanart #husk #angel dust fanart #husk fanart #I LOVE THEM- *sobs grossly*

[airagorncharda]

For any followers of mine still living with parents, guardians, family, or even just with roommates and who've never lived alone and/or fully on your own terms (whether ye be 16 or 60), I have TWO pieces of wisdom for you for when you eventually do:

You WILL discover that you were wrong about some shit you felt pretty strongly about before. Maybe you never realized how often your mom ACTUALLY cleans the bathroom and it turns out she asked for help really rarely. Maybe, much as it grates to admit, putting $50 into a different savings account every paycheck really IS the ONLY way to save any fucking money. Maybe that big rolling trashcan you resented your roommate putting in the kitchen, and got in that big fight about, really WAS super convenient and now you have to buy one for yourself after they move out and take it with them. Maybe blanching vegetables so they retain their color when cooked actually DOES enhance a meal, pretty food slaps actually, and the reason you didn't think it was worth the effort is because you were depressed.

You WILL also discover new shit that works SO much better for you than everything you'd been taught. Maybe you'll discover that dropping trash off at a recycling center at your convenience works way better for your brain than getting it picked up on a set day. Maybe you'll realize you don't actually hate tofu, you just hate how your family cooks tofu. Maybe you'll love being able to walk around the house naked whenever you want. Maybe you'll find you thrive in a space with giant framed nude photography, or taxidermy animals, or fandom themed Everything. Maybe you'll realize that keeping the thermostat set like 5 degrees colder (or hotter) than is typical makes you sleep better than you ever have before in your whole life.

The point of this wisdom is: Stay humble, but also, stay excited. There's no point pretending you weren't wrong about shit you were wrong about, just eat the crow and move on. But also, there's so much to look forward to about your own space-- even more than you could ever imagine when you don't have it yet.

#my posts #my thoughts #idk what to tag this #adulting #i guess #hope #? #most of these aren't me specific but the recycling center and blanching food definitely are

[wearenotjustnumbers2]

I am so sorry and sad to have woken up to this news, Hind's body was found alongside the two medics who went to rescue her, after 12 days.

Hind was killed. And Israel continues its crimes without consequences.

#i thought and prayed for her everyday i really hoped she'd be alive #palestine #gaza #israel #important #current events #free palestine #ethnic cleansing #free gaza #gaza strip #gaza under attack #where is hind

[spibder]

made some lil sticker designs of fnaf movie human/animatronic duos :3c they r on my redbubble if u wanna stick em anywhere lols

#i hope these pairings make sense i put thought into em even tho its basic thoughts lols #fnaf #five nights at freddys #mike schmidt #foxy fnaf #foxy the pirate fox #abby schmidt #bonnie fnaf #bonnie the bunny #chica fnaf #chica the chicken #vanessa shelly #vanessa fnaf #freddy fazbear #golden freddy #william afton #springtrap #springbonnie

[apollos-boyfriend]

“the writer’s strike will impact your favorite tv show!!!1!1!”

#icarus speaks #like. yeah that’s the fucking point 😭 #i don’t want to watch a show if the writers aren’t being treated fairly. #like i thought that was the consensus. i hope shows get stalled and held back because of this #because that proves that striking DOES work and also will better the quality #cause the writers will actually be treated like people 😭

[fandom-trash-goblin]

i suppose i love this life, in spite of my clenched fist.

Time Is A Mother, Ocean Vuong // The Brothers Karamazov, Fyodor Dostoyevsky // The Cow, Ariana Reines // Ask Polly, Heather Havrilesky // October, Mary Oliver // Dead Stars, Ada Limón // Night Walk, Franz Wright// Xenotransplantation, Sam Sax // Angels In America, Tony Kushner // Birthday, Andrea Gibson (thank you @saint-garbage, i have zero idea whether they are poems or quotes for most of them, so i can't help out there, forgive me, i'm trying my best)

for @shestrying

#poetry #quotes #spilled ink #poems and quotes #spilled poetry #words #webweaving #webweave #aesthetic #poems and poetry #writing #poem #spilled thoughts #web weaving #*mine: graphics #on hope #on survival #on hope for survival

[its-tortle]

— taylor swift albums as months of the year —

#thought about adding ttpd as november #but i did not feel sure enough #also i think folklore is a mix of august/september and evermore is a mix of november/december #but i went with the later months because september is also a retrospective of summer and december includes the experience of november yknow #i hope that makes sense #and i hope my general album to month decisions make sense also #feel free to ask me about my reasoning #or fully disagree with me lmao #taylor swift #ts #taylor swift albums #tortle makes things #ts debut #fearless #speak now #red #1989 #reputation #lover #folklore #evermore #midnights

[glassrooibos]

Everything stays right where you left it huh guys

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #adaine abernant #fantasy high junior year #I loved this parallel from Siobhan #none of these guys are getting a break huh #IM ABOUT TO LISTEN TO THE NEW EP TOO #Hope nothing upsetting or unsettling happens :0) #ps I have no idea what sauce you put with strudel #I would have thought custard #but the symbolism… #THE DRAMA of a red berry sauce #I dunno guys #should I do more freshman and junior year parallel pieces? #lmk #I love you bye

[floriem]

tw: suicidal thoughts mention

transcript under the cut

08/08/2023

I really thought about ending it all, all day today. Life feels unbearable and has been for so long.

At 19:30, [...] arrived by train in Porto and decided the first thing he wanted to do was treat me to dinner. He didn't even stop at his house first, straight from the station to mert up with me, just because.

So, with all that spontaneity and affection in the world , we walked around [...], ate kebabs, bought plushies to hug and browsed a bookstore. Not only he decided to buy The 7 Husbands of Evelyn Hugo just because I said it was good, I looked at this book, said I loved flowers and he picked it up to add to the other one he wanted. Only after he paid he gifted it to me, knowing I wouldn't accept unless tricked into it.

I have people that make life worth living, and they're capable of gestures of kindness and affection bigger than any of my doubts. I don't know if I'll enjoy this book or not, but it will always be a wonderful reminder of that.

#recovery #tw depression #hopeful thoughts #tw suicidal thoughts

[kentopedia]

nanami kento, who hates dating, and didn’t do much of it in his early twenties. but now, he’s almost thirty, watching all the people he works with settle down, have kids, and he thinks he wants that. so he might as well try.

so satoru sets him up on a few dates — friends of friends, he calls them. and at the end of every one of the dinners, kento goes home empty, exhausted, because he knows what they want is not the same.

still; he thinks maybe he’s being a little self-destructive, maybe too picky, maybe he just got so used to being alone. with satoru’s insistence, he gives all the women another call, invites them over to his apartment.

the first time was a disaster… kento had barely set the dinner on the table before his cat had hissed at her, scratched her down the arm in a thin gash. and though it did draw blood, it was hardly enough to warrant that reaction.

he didn’t even try to stop her as she picked up her bag and left, huffing like she’d been morally offend. kento, though, could only smile to himself in amusement.

because maybe kento was a poor judge of character, a man who was secretly hoping nothing would pan out — but his cat could certainly tell the good from the bad.

it became a little game to him, after that. seeing if anyone could win his pet over, and if they could, perhaps they were the one. his darling animal was a fickle thing anyway. a bit too defensive, quick to bite anything threatening after years on the streets.

naturally, no one came back twice.

he was close to giving up, accepting his solitude because he was tired of empty conversations over dinner. but then, he ventured out over the weekend to a new coffee shop, during hours he normally didn’t spend out of his home, and met you.

though you only talked for a moment, kento felt like maybe he’d known you in a past life. a part of him thought maybe it was strange, the way he kept coming back to talk to you, catching you at the end of your shift to see if you wanted to grab a coffee sometime.

by the second date, kento started to think you could turn out to be his best friend.

by the third date, kento wondered if soulmates were real.

on the fourth date, almost two months later, an appropriate time to get to know someone when you were as reserved as kento, he invited you over for dinner. it was, perhaps, the final confirmation he needed to let himself be with you.

he let you through the door, smiling softly as you told him about the book you were reading, and hung his coat on the rack. a moment later, you stopped, distracted, hands covering your mouth in a gasp.

“kento! she’s the cutest cat i’ve ever seen, you didn’t even show me pictures!” you exclaim, and, a few feet away, crouched down. “look at her pretty eyes…”

“careful,” kento said, “she’s not very—“

but the cat approached your outstretched hand, sniffed once, before letting you scratch her under her chin, purring loud enough for kento to hear across the room.

“shes such a sweetheart, you told me she was mean!” you smiled, making a cooing noise as you threaded your fingers through her fur. “kento’s a liar, isn’t he… you’re so precious.”

a few moments later, she snapped her jaw at you in a biting motion, and you only laughed, withdrawing your hand. “alright, i get it, i won’t bother you anymore.”

though she still brushed against your legs, just as she did kento’s, and seemed to communicate some sort of message to him.

“do you want any help cooking?” you ask, tucking your hair behind your ears. “i’m a disaster in the kitchen, but—“

“sure,” kento said, his chest tightening as he blinked back at you, only in his apartment for minutes and already looking as at home there. he wondered if it was possible to fall in love so quickly. “but only if you want to.”

#this is very silly #i just wanted to get it out of my drafts #i’ve had this thought for a while but #i decided i didn’t want to write a whole drabble so now you get this #kento being inexperienced at dating & not enjoying it is very special to me #and so is him having a cat tehe #selfship coded i suppose bc reader is me but it’s not that obvious i hope #beloved kento 💋 ୧⋆ ˚｡⋆ #nanami x reader #xoxo rylie 💌 ୧⋆ ˚｡⋆ #jjk x reader #nanami x you #nanami fluff #nanami x gender neutral reader