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bloogers-boogers · 7 months

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Omg thanks again for the yentlman + kyman comic they are really amazing 🤭

Can't wait to see the next part for both of them

Yentl making kyle look stupid is everything 😆 I love Them .

Thank you so much! 🙏

Tho, I have confession to make. I was planning on bailing this comic bc I had no plan whatsoever with it. It just started off as just an request but eventually become a thing 😭 I didn't intend for it to be a comic because I don't normally post something with out knowing where I was gonna go ahead for.

Besides that, the comic was base for a ship "Yentlman" but it doesn't feel like that. It feels more about a story where Kyle realizes too late about his feelings for cartman (which isn't far from it). However, liking Yentlman doesn't mean I'm very interested in the ship itself or know much about their dynamic besides what's been given in the pc specials and it's hard for me to keep up with a ship not being able to picture or expand more about it. And I genuinely don't feel I would because I'm just not that interested in that ship, at least not to come up with a good story for it.

As you see, I keep drawing them as a happy couple in the honeymoon phase of their relationship because that's ALL I can think of for them. Personally I just can't go for it and I'm sorry but I feel like I had to explain myself to you guys 🤧

I'm still not sure if i want to continue this comic but if u guys are interested in seeing more of it without focusing too much on the ship but on a whole different direction. I had a lot of time to think about it and honestly could see myself continuing the comic if it's mostly focus on Cartman and Kyle's friendship. Technically it's still "one-sided" and still "Yentlman" bc Eric will be with her. But instead of the romance it's a build up for kyman friendship after a harsh rejection all those years they built fell down the drain but I see them missing each other's company and typical banter. It's just hard to ignore the other's absence or act like they are total strangers when they're NOT. They care in their way and Kyle still feels the need to correct Cartman when he's being his dumb self while Cartman still needs someone to respond back or it's just meaningless.

Hopefully this explains it all and I would like to know your thoughts about taking the other route instead! C':

#one-sided kyman #eric cartman #kyle broflovski #yentl cartman #yentlman #south park

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incorrect-lord-of-the-rings · 3 years

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Lord of the Rings as Cursed BTS Images

because i am depressed so i am combining three things i like: lotr, bts, and cursed images

here is some content, y’all

Merry

Pippin

Frodo

Boromir

Legolas

Gimli

Eowyn

Theoden

Elrond

Gandalf

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more-fandon-than-friends · 3 years

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A/N:this is based on a song and it's sad, I hope you still like it though! I appreciate any comment / reblog!!

AU:Human AU

Pairing:Pining(one sided) prinxiety

TW:Major Past Character Death, Suicide mention/getting talked about, denial over death, mentions of college / school being hard, insecurities, angst/hurt no comfort, multiple mentions of Logan and Patton, one mention of Janus and one of Remus

Here a five emails Roman wrote, over five years. People change and realisations are hard.

Dear Virgil,

You are Sixteen now!!!! WOW!! SWEET SIXTEEN!!!

Happy Birthday, emo storm cloud!!!! I know we haven't talked much in a while, but Hey. What better time to reconnect than the day to celebrate you, right?

Logan has been trying soooooooo hard to get me to learn.. But like I don't need physics!

Like hello!? I'm an actor, a prince, an artist. No nerd. That's Logan.

Ugh. But now My mum starts to stress cause I need the good grade. But for what!? Argh. It's so annoying. All I want is to sing and play. Not do numbers stuff.

Well whatever, can't do much about that. And brave knights do what's best for the peasants even if they don't agree with it.

Oh! OH! Patton!! I have to tell you about Patton!

He started to learn how to bake! And he brings the goodies to school or Disney marathons! Like imagen Lion king and brownies! How great is that!? Ahhhh even LOGAN likes it.

Logan!!

Sure few things aren't perfect but puffball only started!

Well, I just wanted to chat a bit.

But just talked about me and the others! Well that's what I do I guess, talk about me.

How are you? I hope it's treating you well.

I have to go now. I will write you again

xx Roman

Dear Virgil,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Nearly an adult now! Congrats!

Have you heard!? I got the lead role in the play! Yes! I'm gonna play Evan! WAVING THROUGH A WINDOW

AHHHH I'M SO HAPPY. like you know how I always wanted the lead role! I finally got it. And Janus finally didn't get it! Like finally as if he is that good of an actor. I deserve it I worked for it! Patton said I worked for the audition more than all school work last year probably true lol

ALSO Logan is now doing the big quizes. He won the school one and now goes national. He is such a nerd!!! But honestly it's cool! He was missing a school day for a quiz like I want that too for plays!

Well Honestly that's all that happened. Sorry that's so short! But I don't have much time next to the play!

As Patton would say:Eat and drink like you would tell your kitty to and love yourself like it, bye bye

XxRoman

Dear Virgil,

Wow. 18 HAPPY BIRTHDAY! SUCH A GRANPA THERE.

I hope you are doing well.

Sorry I don't have a present for you. I know you like flowers, roses. I know. I know. Sorry Remus did some bullshit (what's new tho) and our parents froze both our bank accounts. Can't wait to be 18 Jeez.

WELL, I look for colleges now! Majoring in Acting. Patton want to do psychology and Logan physics. WELL I guess or majors aren't big surprises to you, are they?

I think a lot about you.

Just yesterday I found the city we drew at my room wall. My closet stood there for the longest time. But OMG do you rember us 5 year Olds doing that?! We felt like the biggest artist ever. That was fun. I miss that.

Well whatever!!

I will go adventure the world next year! Can't wait for it!

Miss you

xxRoman

Dear Virgil,

I nearly forgot to write you today, sorry!

College is so stressful! I couldn't just take acting, no, the other class I had to take was a language and that's so hard. But hey now I can speak a bit spanish

In all honestly college is draining. Maybe it's just the first year. But it's so overwhelming. You always told me that about school Guess now I can feel it.

And yeah that's fucking tiring. Oof. Let's hope it's gets better. Princes go to bad times and get out even stronger!

Right?

Well I hope so. Also sorry that all of them are so short. I SWEAR I always tell myself "today I'll write more" but then everything feels so wrong to write.

I don't know how to explain it.

Hope you are good

XX Roman

Dear Virgil,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Rember when I told you that writing so many things feel wrong?

Well I figured it out.

I was still in denial.

I didn't want to touch on anything that would make it to clear that you are gone.

It's silly, I know I know.

But acting as if I'm having a very one sided, yearly email exchange is better than realising facts. You are dead. For four years now.

And I, well I couldn't, didn't want to, see it. It's easier to ignore. Ignorance is bliss and all that.

And talking about anything in more detail would make it clear, you are gone. Crazy, right?

I still struggle with college by the way. I feel like I need to always be perfect, but learning a language is so hard, I just want to major in drama.

I also haven't seen Patton or Logan in the last few weeks. The curse of different colleges. I guess that makes it harder too. You know me, I love being with my friends.

I'm a bit scared that they forget me. They nearly never talk about you, so forgetting me isn't to far away, right?

Well.. Let's hope for the best.

I really miss you, Virge.

I don't know if you ever noticed, probably not, I had the biggest crush on you. How cliché, I know you don't like them, but I do. I planned in my head that picture percent future. I daydreamed about that quiet a lot. Then the call came. Your mother called us to come to the hospital. I did come, so did Logan and Patton, and she told us the doctors are trying to safe you. From yourself, basically. You couldn't do it anymore. And killed yourself. And my daydreams too. But even though you are dead. I know that. The day dreams for what futures we could have had don't leave. From celebrities to farms on the country side.

I know I told you that already, but I miss you. I love you. I'm sorry. I feel like I should have picked up something. I day-dream about being your knight in charming armor because I failed to do it in real life.

I wish I could have helped you.

I'm sorry.

I hope you are well.

I'll write you again next year, then I'm six years older than you were.

xxRoman

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toonformers · 3 years

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Part 7

Today's topic

Twinsies AU part 6

We left off on Sentinel in his high and mighty acting Magnus position, no longer happy after getting everything he's ever wanted. At first, the mech didn't know what to do. He tried training, which usually cheers him up, drinking a bit, reading, looking for a potential sparkmate. In the end, he decided to send his guards over to a small apartment in the middle class area of Cybertron, with a message for a special mecha in his spark.

Guard 1: *knocks*

Centinela: *opens door* May I help you?

Guard 2: Are you Centinela Prime?

Centinela: I don't go by that title. But yes, I am Centinela Minor.

Guard 2: You have been requested to speak with acting Magnus, Sentinel Prime. You will be escorted there effective immediately.

Centinela: Sentinel...wants to see me? *looks down kinda sad then goes back to a blank stare* The commander couldn't tell me himself?

Guard 1: He is busy in some government affairs. It's the reason why he asked for you. Sentinel Prime believes you can solve his dilema.

Centinela: Is that so? *sigh* Very well. Let's be off, then.

*In Fortress Maximus*

Centinela: *enters and salutes* Commander.

Sentinel, surprised: H-hey. I...didn't think you'd come.

Centinela: You are the acting Magnus. I couldn't say no.

Sentinel: Yes, you could. I'm just glad you didn't. *smiles* Ho-how are you?

Centinela: Well. And you?

Sentinel, sad: Honestly...heh...not good. You know how you said I gave up my life for something I would never get? Turns out you were right. I got everything i ever wanted but...it just...wasn't the same doing this on my own, compared to all the effort we did together to get our head start in our futures. I can't believe I was so stupid.

Centinela: You are not stupid, Sentinel. Just less intelligent. You were also young and power hungry. I can understand why you reached such a point of desperation.

Sentinel, sad: Don't try to make me feel better. It's not right. I was a bad friend, to both Elita and Optimus and I was a horrible brother to you. Nothing can justify what I did back then.

Centinela: You're right. But forgiveness is still achievable. No matter how bad your actions are.

Sentinel, tearful: Do you hate me?

Centinela: No.

Sentinel, angered: No? Then why does it feel like I'm talking to a wall? You're not reacting at anything I say, you've just been staring at me! What's wrong? Listen, I want to make things right, but I need some kind of way to know it's getting through instead of your analysis. Please.

Centinela: *stares blankly*

Sentinel, angered: What is it?

Centinela: You don't know.

Sentinel: Know what?

Centinela: I...I left you a message in your comm link. Did you ever listen to it?

Sentinel, sad: Honestly...no. I wanted to, recently. But I thought it would be better if we spoke like this. Instead me listening to such an old message and calling back.

Centinela: Sentinel, I reccomend you listen to it. Please

Sentinel: *actives comm link* Override 1139. Play message.

Computer: Playing. "Sentinel. I hope you're well. I wanted to speak with you, but it seems that you're busy. I wanted to let you know that Perceptor is reducing my personality to 20%. I won't be able to feel unless it's in an intense situation..."

Sentinel, shocked: What! No. *looks at Centinela* You...you didn't. You couldn't have.

Computer: "I'm sorry for what I said to you. And I forgive you for what you said to me. And that no matter how much you may hate me or how much we'll fight in the future, you'll always be my brother. And I love you, Sentinel. I love you, brother! I love you! I-I love you! *voice becomes more monotone* I...love you! I....love you. I love...you.... Goodbye, Sentinel." End of message. Goodbye.

Sentinel, crying: Tell me this isn't true. Please tell me this is some sick prank!

Centinela: I'm sorry, brother.

Sentinel, crying: Oh, Primus. No. No! What have I done! Oh no! No! *hugs Centinela* No please! Centinela! Oh Primus, it's all my fault! What have I done to you?! Oh, Centy, I'm so sorry! I'M SORRY! *sobs loudly* Please, no! Please! You have to be in there! Give me a sign, anything!

Centinela: .... *hugs back*

Sentinel, crying: Centinela?

Centinela, crying: You idiot. I told you I couldn't feel unless it was an intense situation. You're bringing back my pain!

Sentinel, crying: Good! Tell me how I caused it. How I made you suffer! How I should pay!

Centinela, crying: You've already suffered enough, you glitch! I just want my big brother back.

Sentinel, crying: And I want my sis to feel again. *lets go of Centinela and contacts Perceptor* Preceptor, I need to speak with you. Immediately.

Hours later

Perceptor: I apologize, commander. But as I previously stated, what's been done to Centinela is irreversible. I cannot, even if I wanted to, restore her personality to it's original state.

Sentinel, angered: No, there must be something you overlooked. We...I can't just leave her like this!

Centinela: Sentinel, let it go. There's nothing you can do for me now.

Sentinel, angered: No! I'm the Magnus! I decide when we should give up! Remember when we were newborns, that we could somehow talk to each other with our thoughts?

Perceptor: *whisper* what?

Centinela: I remember.

Sentinel, angered: Well I remember I emerged out of that artificial chamber thing first, telling you to wait for me to see if it's safe, and you didn't come out until after I said it was safe. I promised I would protect you from any harm that comes to you! And if I have to save you from something you did, because of MY mistakes, so be it!

Perceptor: If I may... Sentinel Prime, you said you and Centinela could communicate through your thoughts, correct?

Sentinel: Yes. We used to talk like that all the time, but it faded away as we got older. Why?

Perceptor: Centinela, are you aware of split spark convergence?

Centinela: Yes, the ability of split spark mecha to share their minds among other things when in peril. But that only works when the convergence persists until adulthood. Me and Sentinel were children when our convergence stopped.

Perceptor: A common misconception. Split spark convergence is permanent, and even when it feels it has faded, it can be reactivated temporarily through processor stimulation.

Sentinel: Less, sciency talk, more English. What does this have to do with me and Centinela?

Perceptor: If I can stimulate you to share your mind with Centinela, I may be able to transfer some of your emotional capability over to her. Of course, as I previously stated, this process is permanent. I cannot return whatever you wish to give to Centinela. So consider deeply how much you wish to give her-

Sentinel: Easy, all of it!

Centinela: You can't, you'd become a drone.

Sentinel: Alright, then half. 50%. I'll be just like you when it's over. I'll know how you felt. Perceptor, do the procedure now, please.

Perceptor: Yes, sir.

Two hours later

Perceptor: Like last time, both of you will have two minutes in your current emotional state. Sentinel you will experience a sudden drain to 50% emotional capability, and Centinela, an increase to 70%. There is still time for you to consider, Commander, giving a lower percentage before I close your helms.

Centinela: Yes, brother. Once this is done, you will be just like how I was, emotionally.

Sentinel: What's so bad about that? Besides, you'll make better use of my emotions than I ever did. *smiles*

Perceptor: Very well. *closes helms*

Sentinel: We'll be much better after this. I promise. I'm gonna make things right.

Centinela: You already apologized to me, to Optimus. Ultra Magnus will most likely never recover from his wounds, so it's too late to confess to him. What more can you do?

Sentinel: ....I...will replace every bad thing I've done with a good one. By being the best Magnus this planet can have. I will be kind, fair and just. And you will help me get there.

Centinela: *smiles slightly* Sounds good. You sappy idiot.

Sentinel: *chuckles then laughs* *laughter fades* I...I love you too, sis. *smile becomes less noticeable*

Centinela: *big smile, sighs* It's done. You okay?

Sentinel: Yes...I feel a little weird. But I'm fine.

Centinela: Good. We'll make good use of that 50%, won't we?

Sentinel: *slight smile* Hmm. Yes. Thank you, Perceptor. You may leave. I will later publicly announce the changes I've made. And from now on Centinela will be the new head of Cybertron Intelligence. You may go to her for any information you need.

Perceptor: Yes, sir.

FINALLY I'M FINISHED! I wanna do an epilogue tho 😔👉👈

I'll do one later. For now enjoy this last segment of the Twinsies AU. Hope ya liked it, cuz I sure did!

Fun fact: I cried while writing this haha

Part 5

Part 4

Part 3

Part 2

Part 1

#transformers animated #transformers #tfa sentinel prime #sentinel prime #tfa oc #tfa au #tfa perceptor

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misterbitches · 3 years

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some thots. having a bad time so this is rougher than usual. oh well

....

i guess he really does know hiim best cos if that was my mans (man specifically cos if anyone else did that id take it more srsly) i would be like oh my god ur singing me a love song? i would love it but i woudl SCREAM in embarrassment. UNLESS it was a really deep love song that's about us dying together.

like i want to eat ur skin type of thing (drain u nirvana) lmaoa but i really like this song it reminds me of that velvet underground song (the only one i know cos of juno lmao) and nico or whatever 'i'm sticking with you)

my adhd would be out of fucking control i had to spend my time listening to this looking around i kept getting distracted by a tissue and thinking "wow this song is nice but i wish it would end bc i am getting distracted" and lo and behold i paused it and i have to pee and i know it's gonna take forever to undo this

ok about 12m later i turned it back on and they kissed and then he bit the corn then that night li chen also lost his virgin teas after watching gay porn and being like "hm interesting" and he'll be like "i see, ur dick is not medium sized"

i'm honestly gagging i cannot at this 12 year old marrying his mom

beautiful theyre beautiful

ayea you fucking psycho we do too because he was 17 and we had to witness it (or well, other people did cos i didnt watch the show even tho wayne song is [BEEEEEEEEEEEEEP BEEEEEP BEEEEP] and i want him to [BEEEEEEEP] and ppl even liked it which is fine like i get it in theory but they put this in my eyeballs so i'm gonna make fun of it bc it's fuckin DUMB lmao like i can't I CANNOT and he said "u were so persistent" BITCH UR 30??!?!???!?!?!?)capi hve it on mute and i tried to get a screencap of li chen and mu ren like together and not just his face but i cant find the timestamp and seeing their faces as they get married is literalyl traumattizing i'm like scremaing at my screen going "HE'S 5 HE'S 5 HE'S 5" and every time theyre like "we acn live forever together" like no bitch ur bones rae creaking

also is the officiator white? if anyone knows why or if that's common i'd love to know more. EDIT: HE ISN'T I JUST THOUGHT HE LOOKED LIKE MOBY FROM THAT ANGLE

anyway here

i'm almost done with this fucking bullshit and i am in a really ould mood and usu they make it a bit better but imo it's kind of....annoying i guess balancing all these story elements and introducin gother couples (even in the periphery) since the story in itself can't focus. i feel like all in all the time spent with these two is a lot more limited and we get the feel for the rship because of their chemistry as actors, irl chemistry as friends and colleagues, and hopefully being happy and working on a good set. so it isn't the strength of the writing or production.

for some reason they get like less dynamic ways of being together which i think is part of their charm, they do things their own way, but the writers really should have substantiated this more. it's really just the way everyone in the show has managed to deliver these AWFUL story lines and production decisions (like seriously who the fuck was on costume? lighting?)

like maybe hot take but all the moments that are cringe and insane in the show are not pleasant, per se, because they aren't thought out clearly. so they're not a joy to watch in the normal sense but the actors are good enough to pull it off. i didn't cringe at the talks they had because it felt like actors like acting these lines out instead of us being embarrassed for it and you CAN TELL theyre embarrassed.

this is a huge kudos to the casting director and the actors and whatever crew that actually did a good job. i don't particularly like watching bo xiang and his grandfather husband not because of the content but because i feel like, to me, they're so awkward even though they have chemistry. i don't have that issue with xing si and his rapist brother boyfriend because watching them is actually really pleasant, it's intimate. this isn't to do with the story though because when it hits you how devoid this other person is and how stupid the situation is it changes (for me, for me, for me, this is all my opinion think whateverrrr u want im not telling u 2 ok!)

so truly kudos to this cast. idk if i'm misremembering here but imo the most cast appropriate series in this was crossing the line and close to you. one is a decent atmosphere and execution (yes even with that brother story line, notice the major key differences though because that's a sincere false equivalence. they try to execute power imbalances soooo badly and then fail every time but here's one meant to shock too and it was just likelmao ok girl?)

it may not make sense to say either in a writing way or for the character to do it but i believe that whoever the characters these people are supposed to be especially those super not well written on the page still get that message aacross (yong jie's actor is a good ex. not sure if i should ccongratulate him for having the worst job on earth and the worst character and his character is flat but. ostensibly they should let their actions speak for themselevs but what they do is they back themselves into a ccorner with unsuretyabout their characters or a dilemma that pops up they just want to excuse it. well guess hwat u couldnt do enough legwork. but to some extent the disposable side couple works here on a um "our eyes see them and get it" way

also to me it seems like they chose this story just to have this specific wedding. like it's a timely topic and i'm pretty sure like another provision? (correction? idk) was made WRT taiwanese same-sex marriage so it's topical but it isn't like a "papa and daddy" situation where they're interacting in it and there (for ex: the pride parade) and there being like real life terms and consequences. here it seems like they were like ah yes wedding ah yes dumb couple from modc bc we kiled off the other one sooooo (then outsource them to life love on the line u__u) then hamfisting in some fucking message which is funny bc

- despite the hints peppered in and the clear attraction they both acknowledge ur like ~not gay just him~ even tho...i mean i just. again they dont read over what they write i don't think considering. but wahtever.

- the only gay dude (verbally said) is with his rapist brother with an awful power dynamic oh or IS a rapist (gao) (or his brother but i think it was just a "im a psycho so it's him" thing unless they said it. in which case idc cos i wasnt paying attn but that's also not great) or i guess the wedding but like....that's also a ridiculously inappropriate and dumb relationship taht it's built on. i mean i don't really see much respect her so i dont particularly want to hear abt gay weddings being important when they didn't even utilize it in the story beforehand and have we ever. this is a huge indication to me that it was a reverse engineered chosen story beforehand (if it was one) or thought of

soooooo

so reversal of that....it didnt give us enough time to breathe with these two at all but for both of the actors they can capitalize what's on the page and the writers didn't. like their dynamic is very i give/you give like taking car eof each other etc that's why

again, no artist worth their salt will ever say their work meant nothing. that's a cover up. i'm sick of lazy production and then getting away with it claiming being subversive or attacking an issue by not doing anything. we show crazy shit all the time but it has a POINT and ur point is "i like the gays" then girl.....i mean it's not great

but the acting really carried it. i have a feeling if this series continues it might continue to use more experienced actors cos maybe the budget goes up but they also have less inhibitions now when it comes to acting. i like the way li chen expresss himself and teng teng too. i like anson a lot and there's some angles that did not do any favors and i think eh has to get more control of his body movements (bc he's SO LARGE and thin) but he wasn't bad at all and there were real human tears. of course i, personally, favor charles tu. he has more control over his body because he has...less to work with and he's a bit bigger and he was really great in this role. he's a himbo a bit of a meathead but you like him. you like them. there's some things i think they had them say and do that they wouldn't let happen if they stuck to the characters and the story (mainly liking that dumb idiot rapist)

what i notice is that the reprehensible actions people criticize others for in the show and in real human life lalways gets turned around. teng teng being surprised that this boy's grandfather boyfriend met him when he was a junior in high school and he's 12 years older and him apologizing for being shocked and then whatshisface going "ur better at it than most people" and then the convo about gao with whatshisface and then rapist brother comes to pick him up. they are admonishing gao but thinking that rapist brother is noble for doin gwhat he did (and oh rapist brother shows up) like the hypocrisy and the decisions are immense. so now it's like "guys see he's a great guy" like girl STICK TO SOMETHING but whatever so i live in this universe where muren and li chen do everything right and have lots of different interesting fun seex with all their friends. i would write this but i cannot i am dying

#history 4: close to you #history 4 #li chen x mu ren #a thot

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