#honestly this is kinda concerning

[thesherrinfordfacility]

the thing that is actually making me giddy with the possible angst is that i really think that we are about to see the most monumental shift in not only how we saw these characters but also how they previously saw each other.

the fact that we literally now have confirmation that a) they knew each other before the fall, b) aziraphale has had heart eyes since before time began, and c) crowley... possibly not so much, completely changes the context on not just the eden scene but also all the historic scenes that followed.

aziraphale knew crowley as an angel, and knew even then when crowley was meant to be 'perfect' that crowley was maybe a bit different, always asking questions and toeing the line. maybe out of a bit of bastardy himself, or out of begrudging awe of his ability but also his audacity, or just plain attraction, aziraphale immediate takes to him. but this has meant that aziraphale has placed crowley, perhaps unconsciously, upon a pedestal. and the pedestal that aziraphale puts crowley on from that moment may have wobbled throughout their history together, but it's stayed relatively intact.

this worries me, that aziraphale may not have quite let go of the fact that crowley just isn't that person any more, maybe never was to begin with, and continues in some measure to idolise him. my interpretation of this is that yes, crowley can be a bit of a dick (because, well, obviously) and aziraphale knows this, has done since the beginning, but aziraphale continues to hold crowley to an overall moral ideal that is so firmly ensconced in aziraphale's first perception of him as an angel that crowley will never be able to live up to it. not because he isn't a nice person, or because he can't live up to it, but maybe... he just simply doesn't want to.

but the issue is that throughout the ages (including the job minisode which ive had corrected for me, so Crowley Anger is now simply simmering), crowley's actions have only reinforced to aziraphale that despite being technically a demon, he has a huge heart and is not a horrible person. bit of a bastard, but not cruel. all of this just feeds and feeds into this image of crowley that aziraphale has built of him, and when crowley has his flashes of, in fact, not being honourable or kind, this threatens to upset the pedestal altogether.

these wobbly moments - when he thinks crowley is going to kill the children, when crowley snaps at him in rome, when crowley first proposes the arrangement, the prospect that he came up with the french revolt, the holy water request, the bandstand, "how can someone as clever as you be so stupid?"... moments where just for a second, in a small or huge measure, aziraphale's faith in crowley... flickers.

and of course aziraphale has been here before, right? he's had his faith, his devotion, his loyalty tested to the absolute limit of angelic endurance. so when his faith in heaven (never lost it in god) was obliterated, well - it had to cling to something. something that wouldnt mean that aziraphale has to lose the concept of faith altogether. so we're back to the old standby of idolatry, that aziraphale's heavenly faith is replaced by his faith in crowley, this angel that despite never originally giving aziraphale the time of day, aziraphale cannot see - for all of crowley's faults and bastardy and the frustration he poses - crowley as anything less than something to be worshipped.

this is exactly why i think that one of the main points of s2 is going to be a rift between them both. obviously i haven't talked about crowley's perspective of this and maybe i will in another post, but i do think that crowley is going to do something, a bad thing for the right reasons, but aziraphale isn't going to see it like that. that crowley will do something awful to protect aziraphale, but all aziraphale will be able to see is the betrayal or the cruelty or the despair, he can't see wood for the trees, and just lose that last vestige of faith he had altogether.

i feel like once all the disillusion and disenchantment has been swept away, and they're both laid bare at each other's feet... that they may not quite like what they find. from aziraphale's perspective, that whatever crowley does in s2 might be crossing aziraphale's line in the sand, and now aziraphale is starting to see crowley as someone that is truly grey, fluctuating between doing things that are Good, and things that are Good for Crowley.

and it's not as if aziraphale was blind to this before, but instead now... he kind of finally sees who crowley is? who he has been all along? the film has lifted from his eyes. realises that love and worship are not the same thing. what he loves, who he loves, doesn't equate to worshipping it/them, idolising them. there's a very big difference that echoes down to the very core tenet of who aziraphale is and his experiences with having and losing faith, but love having remained.

so stripped of the pedestal, crowley is now just simply... crowley. a person, not an angel, not a demon. and there is the distinct possibility that aziraphale might be completely blindsided by what he finds.

#good omens #good omens season 2 #ill let you in on a secret - no idea where i was going with this #but what im essentially saying is that aziraphale has this shiny picture of crowley in his head and heart #and when crowley continues to do crowley things aziraphale kinda steps back and is like #“huh... has it been this was all along?” #and if I'm wrong well honestly THANK GOD #but i feel like there is going to be a real reckoning at the end of s2 where faith and love is concerned #that the two are very different but aziraphale kinda confuses the two #anyway #good omens spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #good omens... speculation? Sure why not #not a shitpost but its good omens babyyyy #im saying theyre in somewhat of a toxic and disillusioned relationship and its likely going to (temporarily) end v badly im afraid #rhi needs to stop manifesting

[ilivelikeimtrying]

I have this thing where when something traumatic or hurtful happens I laugh it off and make a joke, or even just smile and shrug and say "Ya, bida" (Well, life), and honestly I'm gonna project that onto Ambrosius because in no way does that boy have a healthy outlet with how much anxiety he has.

And Ballister is all too aware of this, and has come to learn what each smile and laugh from his boyfriend means. The ones that are genuine, the ones that are just for the camera, and the ones that mean that something just happened/someone just said something but if he stops smiling right now he's going to have a panic attack/break down and nobody wants that. Often he laughs off the things that seemed would have caused anyone else to explode or cry, and shrugging off a lot of things that should not be shrugged off. (However, of course, when it comes to Ballister, Ambrosius will literally throw hands with anyone who tries to mess with his precious bf).

Ballister learned how to help him with this, as he knew Ambrosius was a big help to him in his own brooding time, and wanted to pay it forward to his friend, and then later, his lover.

It's harder after the wall falls though, because Ambrosius doesn't believe he himself deserves any kind of help or sympathy after everything he's done, and Ballister hasn't fully healed yet, emotionally, mentally, or physically if we're being honest, to be ready to have those conversations just yet.

What's worse is that Ambrosius is wearing a new kind of smile, one that Ballister doesn't recognize or know what it means, but he knows well enough that it's not anything positive or good.

#nimona #went off the rails there a bit #ambrosius #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister #ballister boldheart #goldenheart #honestly these two need therapy of every kind #kinda just wanted to talk about when other people point out something in your life that seems pretty bad or fucked- #and you just kinda shrug it off laughing because at this point it has become normal to you so you don't know what other emotions to express- #and you weren't really allowed to or grew up in an environment where it was alright to show negative emotions- #so you don't actually know how to regulate them except for shrugging it of or putting on a smile- #even when the people around you are growing increasingly concerned

[arsenicflame]

since we all appear to be talking about izzy 'calling the police' on stede id like to offer my silly little two cents:

its not like the navy wasn't actively looking for him anyway??????

at most, izzys actions sped up badminton catching up with stede, but its made very clear that badminton wanted Stede dead well before this, and was willing to use whatever he could to find him- whos to say jackie wouldnt have cut a deal on her own? that any other pirate thats seen them being unsubtle in a port wouldn't take the opportunity to make a quick buck over a guy who is Nobody and holds no influence that could lead to any consequences for them?

in reality izzy is probably the only person who would receive negative repercussions to selling out stede, given his personal connection with ed- any other pirate would probably have gotten away unscathed, anonymous. they likely wouldnt have even been present like izzy was. izzy had personal stakes, anyone else would have taken the money and ran

the way i see it, with or without izzy the events of episode 10 probably would have happened in some degree, izzy just expedited the timeline

#like ok. i dont exactly support izzys actions but i honestly dont see it as that big of a deal??? to our characters i mean #idk i just. its a dick move!! but i struggle to see it as any more than that #its the actions of a desperate man who made a stupid decision to get his.... ed. out of what he saw as a bad situation #whether it is or not i cant say! but you cant deny ed drastically changed in the time he was on the revenge #in a way that could be concerning from the outside #(i saw a good post kinda comparing it to your friend ending up in a cult and. yeah. excellent description from an outside perspective) #idk theres a lot of. undertones in the way people say 'calling the police' and also they always say ed too and its like. no! izzy tried to #get ed out of there! he set the navy on everyone BUT ed. and its not like the navy really cared about the crew. only stede #i am not the person to talk about why 'calling the cops' is a bad take but the posts are out there. ive seen them. #izzy did what hundreds of pirates did to save their own hide- including hornigold himself (but honestly that was worse because he actively #turned hunter. not just a guy with a tip) #also side historic note that uhh. the navy was casually in Nassau. what exactly was the situation there??? was shit occurring. w #we know it did in history #idk #nyxtalks #ofmd #izzy hands #israel hands #spanish jackie 🤝 izzy: girlbosses for selling stede out to the British/Spanish for their own gain #idk i think thats the one thing he did 'wrong' but ita still very sympathetic to me #its not like izzy dibbed in a guy nobody cared about #'hey hey ill sell you information about this pirate please let me sell you information' ' i mean i guess we are supposed to be doing that' #badminton had an active vendetta against stede and kinda seemed like. he would stop at nothing to get him??? #given. the whole 'id rather let blackbeard go and kill Stede than take a huge pirate into custody' thing

[griffincastle]

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#Honestly I kinda miss when forums were a thing #This is in ref to *previously reblogged* because YEAH the other social media websites are flat out boring about CODZ #The way people interact with 'fandom' has lost all it's fun #That's only the fault of social media websites- not people #You cant modify your profile anywhere - follower numbers are public and create a fake chaste system... #and they have this weird fixation with limiting interaction of person to person??? The only interaction they want is person to Content #I mean there's nuance in this too though: like saftey concerns ofc #BUT you cant write essays on why you think Dempsey's favorite color is blue bc word counts limit you- #You can't make bad art or you'll get bullied off planet earth- #Everywhere else creates a 'who cares what you think' environment if you have fun bc you don't have followers #(Important for CODZ too bc if a YouTuber has an opinion everyone else will echo it without knowing what it even means #((Like 'Jugg is a crutch perk' omg shut uppppp. Tell me what that means. You get it to survive more hits?? DUH. IT'S A *PERK*. #...anyway. that's why I'll always see tumblr as > than any other website #Despite the flaws it's the closest thing to the forum/personal website days #And weirdly enough....twitter/tiktok/insta- the creatively limiting places- are the unhinged sites...

[a-wondering-thought]

hey quick message to adults, if you're condescending when trying to teach teenagers about shit, then they aren't gonna listen to you no matter how important the shit you're saying is.

#moral of the story is that while you may have valid concerns and want to teach teenagers about those things #then dont be an asshole about it #because that. will. not. make. make. them. learn. or. listen. to what. you're. saying. #also i get the concern about safety on the internet and not really knowing who you're talking to #and learning and knowing how to stay safe on the internet is really important #but like if all you do is say that “you never know it could be a 40 year old man you're talking to” or some shit and dont actually teach us #then you arent doing jackshit to help #and it also kinda says that you dont trust teenagers judgement #which could maybe be a kinda fair concern because idk we may trust people too easily #but when you way it up #it just says you dont trust our judgement more #and like you dont think we can know its a fucking forty year old man #like almost all my mutuals are also mentally ill teenagers like myself #if a forty year old man could impersonate them that well then honestly they have my fucking respect #sam screams into the void

[pocketgalaxies]

nott: just bringing this up. you know that beau ruins every situation she's in.

beau: >:(

jester: you don't do that, beau

nott: and is horribly abrasive to talk to, and sometimes to look at

beau: *winks at her and blows a kiss*

jester: no–that's not true, you're beautiful and you're also...really nice.

beau: thanks jester :)

#jester gets honestly very genuinely concerned when nott says this stuff about beau (which is kinda often lmao) #1h40m c2e48 #text #critical role #cr2 #cr lb #beauregard lionett #jester lavorre #ship: beaujester #veth brenatto #r: beau x veth

[kindlythevoid]

As promised. Memes:

And as promised, ranting:

Okay, so, real talk, I did not actually like everything in this book, but I still fucked with it SO HARD. Like, honestly, I picked up what this was putting down (a little heavy-handedly, but done so well imho???) and the WAY IT WAS WRITTEN????

Like, I did a course on the Aeneid. And obviously it was a Roman mythos, not Greek, but DAMN, CLAIRE NORTH. I could see my translations!!! Written in the vernacular of english!!! RiGHT THERE IN THE TEXXT!!!! I GOT SO FREAKING EXCITED!!! It's just, such little things. The phrasing of a certain line. The odd usage of certain similes or metaphors that go off about people or places. The strange diversions to explain events or people right in the middle of the text before jumping straight back into the story. IT WAS SO VERGIL GUYS I SWEAR.

(i haven't had to translate the greek myths sorry guys and I read the odyssey so many years ago in english many apologies am working off what I got)

And, like, as I said, it was very heavy-handed as it backhanded the greek poets for ignoring the women but, like, she was right??? It was insane guys. It was absolutely insane. And everyone was so nuanced and had personalities and hopes and dreams and backstories and at points I was worried she was going to sacrifice the guys to further the women??? Which, like, I understand the irony, and obv couldn't super fault her for it, but she ended up balancing everyone out so well??? Like the guys were in the background instead but they were still all unique and had different priorities and shit.

Just, this whole book was such a breath of fresh air. Damn.

#as a believer in odypen tho I am a little concerned with how the trilogy is gonna go #but i dont think i can blame her #and honestly i'm not a hundred percent sure if its bc it was thru hera's eyes and if there was a biased narrator #WHICH IS SUPER COOL IN AND OF ITSELF #and obv as a major pjo reader I was eyeing hera with hella suspicion #but obviously this is someone else's interpretation of hera and i honestly kinda fucked with her #like i didn't super like her all the time but she was a damn good narrator #like i didn't like clytemnestra a whoooole bunch like hera but also yeah i could absolutely respect her #like shit this book SLAPPED #I still get so fucking excited about the actual writing itself #it was such a cool blend of classical-writing and just straight up british slang it was so much fun to read fr fr #would recommend if you like feminist books and/or classic greek retellings #i'd have to research to see if any of the things happened in the background of the odyssey or some shit #but overall its a really neat read i think #just yelling into the void #ithaca #ithaca by claire north #meme time #hera #the odyssey

[cureblogging]

Gonna say something potentially controversial:

I think Heartcatch suffers from the Up phenomenon in that people remember it as an excellent, if not flawless masterpiece when it actually has One (1) excellent, if not flawless moment in the beginning and is otherwise nothing special.

#pretty cure #babs' musings #precure: heartcatch #i remember sitting there watching 4 episodes at a time and asking myself “so when does it get as Great as people say” #i admire how different it is in tone and style to other seasons. it really stands out in that regard! #but that doesn't make it automatically better (or worse) than other seasons #it was funnier. #but the story? really underwhelming imo #the only notable part about the plot was the very first scene that set the intrigue and mystery of Yuri's character #but what they deliver on that front was extremely disappointing for me #and all the other characters get pretty mid arcs as well #Tsubomi has anxiety about not being good at anything. nothing comes of that besides one or two insults from the villains. #Itsuki has to crossdress in order to continue the family business because her brother has vague illness #that's never confronted in any satisfying way. it just sorta fades away once she decides she likes being a girl #Erika's insecurity regarding her sister is honestly the most engaging of these arcs and that's because I have a little sister #I suppose I set my expectations too high for that season. but people call it The Best Precure Season when it's not even in my top 3 so far #and that's kinda concerning for me going forward #suite is also proving to be a huge bore for me. extremely artificial season going through the motions of the franchise #Hummy... save me. Hummy. Save me Hummy #I really don't want to struggle through 13 more unremarkable seasons in the hopes of recapturing the magic of Futari Wa and Fresh #argh. i hate not liking things #sorry for the rant in the tags.

[musiclover2732]

we don’t know what goes on behind closed doors and y’all know i don’t like to speculate on celebrity relationships because we only get what they want us to see and all but i will say that Travis Kelce’s behavior last night was a huge red flag to me. like throwing the helmet at the Christmas game was one thing but to not only scream til he was red in the face at Andy Reid but also to physically shove him was immature and unnecessarily violent. there are ways to express that you wanna be on the field and ways to express that you think you could’ve done the play better without laying your hands on another person. like player on player fights while still being annoying and immature are at least fair cuz they’re all big guys and wearing protective gear but to go after your coach like that over something so minor. like i too was pissed that Isiah Pacheco dropped that ball but they said he was already apologizing to the team about it and it was so early in the game that it was fine. Travis’ reaction was so over the top and so out of line, like at the end of the day you made it so far already and it’s also just a goddamn football game. it was just not a good look in general but also kinda worrying cuz i’ve seen guys get mad like that over general minor things and it has never boded well for when they had disagreements with their partners so really hoping that what Travis and the others are saying is true and that this was a one time, heat of the moment type thing and he’s gonna get that anger in check so next time something like this happens there won’t be another outburst.

#it’s just a little bit of a red flag is all #if it was just the helmet or yelling it’d be one thing #but the shove crossed a huge line and was very concerning #it put a damper on the whole night honestly #and then he went and did all his victory screeching and just kinda looked like an ass #like i know andy said they talked about it #and now even brady has weighed in and said sometimes the moment takes you to a bad place like that #but it still painted him in a bad light for me #but all seemed well at the after parties so i’m probably just being worried and projecting my own fears from past experiences #travis kelce #nfl nonsense

[crappyyuki]

You know the drill.

Zenonia!

I have a problem.

Aha. Ha. Yeah. Another Regret and Chael drawing. I love em. Sue me, I guess.

I love dad Regret with all my heart and I just love their dynamic, okay? Literally most of the flashbacks were about Chael asking for his advice. And aside from them having the best father-son relationship ever, the protag actually has a dad, a good dad. An adoptive dad but a dad nonetheless. How could I not love that? Best dad in RPG'S since 2011.

They are literally the main reason why I'm still in the Zenonia fandom and why I'm still waiting for the global release of Chronobreak even with it just being a standard MMORPG than Zenonia. I. Just. Want. Them. To. Be. Happy.

It has its flaws, sure, and plenty of plot holes like in Zenonia 1 why is Sun still alive in the Evil Route when its impossible for her to survive that attack or why the fuck did Dupre not tell Sun about Regret and vice versa or in Zenonia 3 did Regret know about Frey being Celine or did he just forget that Chael was an angel and just told him he was human but dammit the only flaw that matters is that they can't be happy together :(

And if Gamevil won't give it to me then I'll make it myself.

I want more Zenonia content :(

Oh. And don't let the cute sleeping baby face fool you. He cries all the damn time. Hence Regret's eyebags.

Regret loves him regardless :)

Here's the other versions!

I was trying to make a manga aesthetic. I hope I did it right.

#zenonia #regret and chael #again #bruh #i dont regret it #i will will this father and son duo to life with my barehands #they dont look alike now :) #because chael should look like his mom without the long luscious hair #he got his hair from temir but it kinda looks like regret's hair lmao #when hes older he tries ro copy his dad's hairstyle so they look more alike #regret thinks that thats cute but is also slightly concerned #shouldnt chael age slower since hes an angel? #thats why he looks like a toddler in zen 3 when in actuality hes probably 13-15 #regret should too honestly but i just headcanonned that he adooted chael at age 22 and is currently 36 in zen 3 #it fucks up the timelime so much but what else is new? #i just cant imagine him being 53 guys #sure he has the genes to look young but cmon! #i cant make him suffer for a whole 22 years! #hed have alcohol poisoning by then #wait actually #hmmmm #i'll think abt it more but rn hes 36 #blue eyed regret #it suits him #and i like to think its a subversion to blue being good and red being evil #but then again regret isnt evil #hes just built different #with chaos inside him i guess #he does get red eyes on zen 4 tho

[egg-emperor]

if I block you how about you don't continuously take screenshots of my blog to post elsewhere to complain about what you wouldn't even see if you didn't block evade. you're doing nothing but drawing attention to and admitting your unhealthy obsession

#what is wrong with this asshole lol why are they allowed to be so obsessively hateful over me online it's kinda concerning honestly #I'd report their acc on this other site but the staff probably fucking sucks #this is the person who kept sending suicide and death threats too

[clevervonskelli]

I can take them making the Crosby/Landra thing explicit (even when keeping it vague would have been very doable and truer to his own memoir) but him pushing her about what she actually was doing was annoying. The call we'll see next week is fine, but whining about it in a pub instead of just being like "haha pretty sure my badass former-roomate is a spy, crazy times we live in, ammirite?" rubbed me the wrong way.

#idk it hit me less as concerned friend/fwb and more 'as a man attached to you i need to know what you're doing so tell me' #which isn't the vibe from the real dude or the character so far #Croz a we know & love him would be like 'you'd tell me but you'd have to kill me? of course ma'am. btw thank you for paying attention to me #like im not happy about them making the relationship explicitly romantic or explicitly physical #I think he still considered it cheating in his own mind no matter what the circumstances #BUT that should objectively be the thing that irks me most #& it wasn't bc i was too busy being mad about the way they made him kinda demand her whereabouts #maybe that was just me but it had me riled up the entire episode #honestly woried it'll make nxt wk's phonecall feel less “whoops so shes definitely unable to meet me for lunch ?” and more “WHERES MY WOMAN #masters of the air #spoilers #harry crosby #shit i put the wrong name in the post #fuck it im not changing it now #they can pry 'Landra' out of my cold dead hands i guess #hbo war #MotA: Ep 7 #MotA #sandra westgate #whoever the fuck that is (obligatory snarky tag)

[gayraccoonthing]

How does my brain make this stuff up wtf. I just had a dream where Five was wearing cargo shorts. Five Hargreeves, wearing fucking cargo shorts. There was nothing else to the dream except the fact that he was wearing goddamn cargo shorts. But that's not even the best part, nonono, the pockets in the cargo shorts were like a fucking Mary Popins bag. Like, mans pulled out two backpacks twice the size of the pocket and then some.

#honestly concerned for my well being #actually kinda want this as canon #old man five with his Mary poppins cargo shorts #the umbrella academy #tua shitpost #tua memes #tua five #five hargreeves #umbrella academy #tua incorrect quotes

[frostlineprince]

day 1 of assigning random pics i have in my gallery to bsd characters

#bsd s4 #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bungou gay dogs #osamu dazai #dazai #bsd dazai #dazai osamu #bsd dazai osamu #bungo stray dogs dazai #dazai bsd #bsd memes #bsd headcanons #bro im honestly kinda concerned for dazai's well being

[ramshackledtrickster]

I was genuinely surprised that black flag actually had a really solid tie story wise in with grief and regret and had good quiet moments to just,, process. I wasn’t really expecting much of that going in to be honest so I’m pleasantly surprised? It made the ending so much stronger

And I love how it all circled back (Edward returning to England with Jenny, and the final cutscene at the opera house, where the first mission in ac3’s animus began). It made me wanna play ac3 again just,, I love narrative circles coming to a close,,,

#assassins creed #honestly it ended so well it makes me even more concerned abt Rogue #and it being the final in the kenway trilogy and how it would kinda #reduce? some of the emotional impact? I dunno?

[makkie-is-screaming]

don’t have to worry about my mom thinking I have an ed cuz she just told me she “loves the way I eat.” Why does this make me want to beat my head in with rocks.

#She said it’s cuz I’m “so good” about eating fruits n vegetables + taking my vitamins #Ma’am those are the only things I’m comfortable eating most of the time #and I only started taking my vitamins cuz my best friend was concerned for my health #She’s been doing it kinda often tbh like saying other teenagers just eat shit all the time and I’m so good about eating “clean food” #Honestly makes me want to die I don’t want any comments on how I do or dont eat #n it makes me feel stupid for the times where I wan to admit having an ed cuz everyone thinks I’m fine so why would they believe that #Screaming