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sugar-and-spite · 9 months

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i've been considering recently that i might have ocd, but i'm like. not sure it's even possible to have both ocd and adhd? i've tried doing a bit of research on it but i can't find anything definitive - just that they have almost exact opposite patterns of brain activity. like, there's definitely something going on with me but i definitely, absolutely have adhd, so if it's not possible to have that and ocd then this must not be ocd??? idk

#like i was talking abt it with my friend who has ocd #and they were like idk man that sounds like ocd.#and i've thought before that it might be but then brushed it off bc i thought it ''wasn't bad enough''#but now i'm starting to seriously consider it and i'm like. idk if it's even possible to have both #and i was reading abt kids with ocd being misdiagnosed as adhd and i'm like no i for sure have adhd #and honestly these things i'm noticing now didn't start until i was older #whereas the adhd stuff has been as long as i can remember #i'm working on getting in contact with a therapist/psychiatrist abt it (and also for other mental health stuff)#but idk if i'm gonna look like an idiot going in being like hey i might have ocd?? and they're like that's just physically not possible #rey rambles #ocd #adhd

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mattodore · 9 months

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🎶✨ When you get this, you have to write down 5 songs you actually listen to and post them. Then send this (ask or tag) to 10 cool ppl✨🎶

tagged by @fizzytoo @rottengurlz in this little music game that took me three days to actually get around to but here we go <3 i just decided to show what songs are currently in my on repeat playlist :-) not tagging anyone bc i honestly don't know who's done this sdkfjngskd it's been a few days sawrry </3

#river dipping #i'm not kidding when i say that well. these................... are literally just songs from theo and matthias's playlists #ACTUALLY silver by astra king isn't from either of their playlists it's just my ocd fixation song #futile devices is number one currently bc i like to listen to it and think about theo laying on the couch while watching matthias read #sick...................#you can honestly tell from the names of these songs which song comes from which playlist kjnkhgf #dark matter / pill to crush / keep your head / where is my mind / kaleidoscope... theo i promise we're gonna get you some rehab #anyway i’ve been on tumblr too long so i’m off 🫡 i need to get back to fixing my cc #it’s gonna take me forever to delete all of these duplicates hfbsjhfjf #watch that not even fix the issue i’m having tho 😂

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helpfandom · 4 months

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Yandere! Batman Rouges Gallery x Platonic OCD! Reader PT.1

TAS Version! I have OCD and this is off of MY version and experiences with OCD. I would be most grateful if anyone had other ideas or plots (like the episode Lock-Up but with the reader.)

Reader's kind of... angry? I don't know how else to explain it.

TW//CW: Suicide (Mentions of, not anyone doing) Canon-typical violence, cursing.

Been sitting in my drafts for like months so might as well post it.

God, you couldn't believe it came to this. Honestly, why were you here anyway, it's not like you belong with the criminals. This was just so that they could try and teach the insane to be nicer, to not be criminals.

Honestly, they shouldn't have chosen you, you kind of belonged in here. The way that people would look at you when you twitched, a singular mis-fire in your brain made people think there was something wrong with you. Like you belonged with the freaks of Arkham. Well, one too many jokes about suicide and jokes of your trauma and BOOM! You've been chosen for our unpaid internship at Arkham, too bad you have to stay here you freak! God. It pisses you off to feel their stares of judgement on the streets.

To feel their pity. Batman saves you from a bridge too many times and you're involuntarily put in here.

You walked, two guards right beside you. Their shoes clacking against the tile. One of them was touching you and it made your body feel off. A misfire, and your head jerks to the right.

"Please stop touching me." They give you a stern look. Panic filters your brain. "I can walk myself. I'm a big kid." You crack a smile at the last part, makes it easier to tell when it's a joke.

They keep staring at you, you misfire, and then the second guard takes their hand off of your shoulder. Great. Now more people think you belong in here. Misfire. Misfire, this time nodding your head. Misfire. Jeezy creezy. "Sorry." You continue walking with them, but you can tell that they're staring at you. Or is iy the phenomena of Spotlight, where you delude yourself into thinking that everyone is staring at you? Nevertheless, you can feel them looking at you.

Not just the guards, but the inmates too, the other ones. The ones you belong with. Not the fucking insane criminals. They watch you, a teen, get walked- misfire -to the criminal side of the asylum. It's quiet, but there are whispers. Of course, part of you says that they're talking about you, but is it just because you're being moved to the criminals, or is it because you -misfire- look like you belong here? The other part says it's narcissistic to think they're talking about you. You reach the doors, steel, heavy steel to make sure that they don't cross over to the section you belong in, misfire, to the people that can be helped.

#platonic x reader #platonic yandere #yandere x reader #x reader #platonic #tw yandere #yandere #yandere batman #yandere twoface #yandere two face #yandere riddler #platonic yandere batman #yandere joker #yandere johnathon crane #yandere harley quinn #Helpfandom's writing

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foggyfanfic · 5 months

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Bruno's Health After the Walls

This has probably been done before, in fact there's an analysis of the long term effects Bruno's terrible posture has probably had on his spine out there somewhere, that lives rent free in my head. But I wanna do it anyways!

So, let's talk about how living in the walls for ten years probably affected Bruno's health.

First and foremost, let's talk about what isolation does to a person, particularly lack of human touch. Because Bruno was probably ok listening in on his family's conversations, but he has gone a decade without a single hug. I'm sure most of us have heard of that one study where they took a couple of orphaned babies and just didn't give them any physical contact. The babies almost died. So yeah! Bruno is not ok.

Then there's lack of sunlight. It's possible that he's been sneaking out to get fresh air every once in a while, so we'll say this is minimal. But a slight vitamin D deficiency still means lethargy, insomnia, bone/muscle pain, and his OCD would be worse (sunlight helps boost serotonin). So, Bruno is not ok.

He's probably malnourished, even if he's stealing enough food from the kitchen quantity wise, his cooking limitations and reliance on scraps probably means he's not getting a balanced diet. Depending on what nutrients he's not getting this could lead to muscle loss, decrease bone density, affect his immune system, and cause heart problems. And if he's relying too much on a certain food group that could lead to all sorts of long term damage to his digestive system, think things like an overworked liver. Bruno is not ok.

Sanitation is another thing, we see that his living space is overrun with rats. They are a remarkably clean animal, but they still have to poop and stuff. Overexposure to feces of any animal exposes you to all types of disease, viruses, bacteria, mold, you name it. Combined with how dusty it is back there and Bruno is probably breathing the grossest air in human history, possibly doing permanent damage to his respiratory system. Bruno is not ok.

Finally, add in the physical activity required for him to navigate in the walls. There's that big ass hole in the floor that he's apparently been vaulting over for years now. While running is good for your cardiovascular health, it is hell on your joints, and if he already has all of the problems listed above it’s a miracle his knees haven’t given out. Some have suggested that Julieta’s food only heals people if she’s the one giving it, let’s hope for Bruno’s sake that’s not the case, because otherwise… Bruno is NOT ok.

In conclusion, Bruno is not ok after spending ten years in the walls and he is going to need some serious rehabilitation. Honestly, realistically, I would expect him to have scurvy, or be missing hair and fingernails, or something; but it’s a kid’s movie so let’s just handwave a little and say the miracle has prevented the worst of it. The good news is he seems to have held up remarkably well mentally speaking, and is only a little crazy, so with some love and support (and healing magic) he’s still able to have a happy life.

#bruno madrigal #encanto #bruno encanto #bruno headcanons #Bruno Madrigal analysis #foggy rambles

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system-of-a-feather · 7 months

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For realsie though, I really wish I could look at the people who are diagnosed with DID and get upset at people "making it look like a fun disorder to have" with some level of sympathy or empathy, but I really honestly think that rhetoric is really honestly destructive as a means for self soothing and one I really just can't stand personally.

Like this disorder sucks ass and the reason it happened sucks ass and recovering with it sucks ass, but I don't see that rhetoric as any better than stating that "anyone who went through that could NEVER recover or live happy".

And I get where that comes from, I do, but at a certain point in trauma processing, stabilization and recovery, things start to click that trauma is over and PTSD inherently is referencing an event that has already passed. Trauma sucks. Severe chronic trauma SUCKS, but that's the past and - while its a LOT more difficult than it is to just say - that past REALLY doesn't have to define the present even a quarter as much as trauma makes it feel.

Of course, I understand and get those who feel like DID is horrible and a hell disorder - I 10000% understand that and its a valid feeling / opinion / statement to make, but to claim that it is impossible to have fun, be happy, and make casual content and just genuinely make the best out of a shit situation; or to claim that anyone with DID would be totally dysfunctional and miserable and unable to do XYZ - it's just... really self depricating and a huge negative self fulfilling prophecy don't you think? Also not to mention a LOT of projecting?

Other people don't deserve you forcing your self loathing and pain onto them. You are allowed to hate your situation, you are allowed to hate your disorder, you are allowed to feel and think and experience your experiences however you want, but a line is drawn when it comes to displacing that hatred, those feelings, those thoughts, and those experiences onto others and demand that they should meet your standards of misery.

I apologize, but I'm not going to pretend like DID stresses me out when I'm really not stressed by it anymore because most of our regular parts are actually decently connected and coordinated with one another. I'm not scared of them and they aren't scared of me. I'm not fighting them and they aren't fighting me. We got trauma but we also got, ya know, a life going and the trauma gets less and less prevalent and intrusive as time goes on so, life's honestly pretty lit and I really love to see other systems heading in that direction.

I think everyone should aim to be happy and at peace with their disorder. I don't understand, empathize, or support the idea that someone had to meet a standard of misery to be "real".

(TW: suicidal ideation and physical abuse mention)

If I take medication that makes it so I don't scrub my hands raw and have panic attacks over having not eaten a salad "recently" thus meaning I am going to rot from the inside out and die, does that mean I am faking having OCD? If I take medication and improve my life so that I only pluck my hair once a month, is my Trichitillomania faked? If I stop having suicidal ideation, does that mean I was faking being suicidal the whole time? If I stop having bruises, does that mean I faked being beaten as a kid?

(TW cleared)

Recovery and peace should and does not ever invalidate the truth of the pain suffered and the struggle overcome. Happiness and joy can co-exist with the truth of hurt, pain and suffering.

Trying to hold the two as mutually exclusive is a huge part of why a lot of people get stuck being miserable. If misery is vital for honoring your pain as real, it is very hard to let that go and let yourself be happy again, because if you are happy, what will attest to give your pain justice? But pain, justice, misery, and happiness - they can all co-exist and honestly, that's a really important thing to learn and understand in my healing journey as it really opens up doors to letting trauma go.

Your pain doesn't define your truth.

Your truth is your truth.

It will stay true regardless of if the pain persists or leaves.

#alter: riku #ptsd #c-ptsd #cptsd #actuallydid #dissociative identity disorder #ocd #physical abuse mention #recovery #healing #syscourse #discourse

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mico-evelyn2 · 1 month

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WHY YOU SHOULD BE A YOTES FAN! (or at least like them) (Pt 1)

Social Media admin: the yotes social media admin has lost their mind and honestly i think they're on crack

2. Our jerseys look fly as fuck a.k.a when we lose we lose in style 😎

[⚫Home, ⚪Away, 🟣Alt]

3. Clayton Keller (sean avery's opp): No. 9 is the yotes superstar. He's the unofficial-official captain and his hockey is so fun to watch (also he's a pretty white boy with dimples, you🫵will love him, you have no 🙅‍♀️ say in this) (btw i'm never getting over that second picture)

4. Travis Dermott is an amazing person🤩. The NHL banned the use of pride tape and Travis Dermott gave the league a massive middle finger (he is literally my hero) (his interview where he spoke out against the NHL) (Via The Athletic)↴

5. the future: Listen i understand we might not be in Arizona in the next 2 years but idc. I'm here to talk about our draft picks. they currently have 34 picks in the next 3 drafts with 20 of them being in the 1st 3 rounds (this is fucking insane and I cannot wait for the future)

5.5) 2022 round 1 draft: This photo isn't relevant but it is to me because I love how short Maveric Lamourex (6'7ft, 2.01m) and Conor Geekie (6'3ft, 1.93m) make Logan Cooley (5'10ft, 1.78m) look

6. like every team you need someone who looks like their mascot and arizona is no exception. Allow me to introduce No. 29 Barrett Hayton and Howeler the Coyotes

7. No. 39, Connor Ingram my precious goalie🫶. He is important to me because he's open about his struggles with OCD & past addiction. And also he's a good goalie (that saves the yotes ass a lot of times) read more here

8. @/did_the_coyotes_lose on Insta or @/didtheyoteslose (twitter) is small community of yotes fans :) and also sometime the main title card is posted by the arizona account

(usually they lose two games after and go on a horrendous losing streak. When will the yotes admin learnt that posting did_the_coyotes_lose is a curse)

9. MIKE SMITH GOALIE GOAL!! HE SCORES WITH JUST 11 SECONDS TO GO! It got in the net with 0.1 seconds remaining on the clock. Needless to say, best goal in yotes history.

10. Father a.k.a Nick Bjugstad (No. 17) and his wife Jackie have a foundation called Goals For Kids, "Provides youth from all backgrounds with the skills to be successful" <- paraphrasing what their website says

11. Travis Boyd (No. 72) he is literally just a family man. That is kinda his whole thing, it's sweet.

12. Michael Carcone (No.53) knows how to serve on and off the ice because his grandfather owned a bar and a pizza joined (but genuinely i need to know if MC53 can serve drinks, it would be great if he can)

13. Logan Cooley my goat 🐐 all you really need to know about him is that he's just a little guy and is good at hockey

14. speaking of little guys clayton keller & logan cooley are both the second shortest (michael carcone is the shortest) but i would like to bring your attention to this photo, it's beautiful 🥹

15. barrett hayton & clayton keller are in love (bromance) (to add more BH29 profile picture on insta is a picture of them)

16. Lawson Crouse (No. 67, Alt captain) his nickname is "the sheriff" because of his style of play (not important but he's ginger and i felt the need to mention this because they're a very rare breed)

17. Dylan Guenther - another little guy (he's 6'2💀) - scored THE game winning goal for Canada at world juniors in the gold medal game against czechia (it was a beautiful moment)

18. Barrrett Hayton serves cunt on and off ice (i mean look at this goofy ass hat, only someone with confidence can pull this off)

19. Harvard graduate Alexander Kerfoot (No. 15, alt captain). He did a Q&A with The Athletic in 2019 and I think it say all you need to know

20. No. 63 Matias Maccelli, oh i love this man. He looks like a teddy bear and if you squeeze him for long enough he will squeak. And also he's good at hockey and is going to beat his season high points scored (49)

21. Jack McBain (No. 22) if i'm being honest idk much about him and i couldn't find out much. But something i know is that his insta is private and i respect that🫡

22. No. 38 Liam O'Brien or Big Tuna. He's an enforcer with the most penalty minutes in the league (133) (he's a ginger, a very rare breed) also he's going to be a girl dad 🔜

23. One Step Coyotes is a program that allows adults with special needs to play hockey (@/onestepcoyotes on insta)

24. The short leash line was a line with Keller - Schmaltz - Garland in the 2020-21 season. It was nicknamed this by rick tocchet and it has got to be my favourite line name

25. this video is actually everything to me 🥹

Lawson Crouse saying, "You go baby go ahead." changed my brain chemistry.

And the Cooley repeating to himself, "don't fall, don't fall, don't fall..." 😭😭😭😭

#not making a part 2 #i'll make a part 2 when i have time 🫶#arizona coyotes #nhl #logan cooley #clayton keller #lawson crouse #dylan guenther #yotes lb #nhl imagine #nhl hockey

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bunnydexterloveselvis · 2 months

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My ECU husband list because I'm bored (this is partially a joke) (please don't send hate I'm beggin) (might update if this gets a bunch of notes)

Dr. John Carpenter (Change of Habit, 1969) <3

Husband qualities:

-good with kids

-smart

-doctor (he can heal you)

-hot!!!!

-not perfect but he tries his best

-sings very well plays the guitar!! (good for bedroom time ;) )

-clean, he keeps his hair combed, face shaved, and skin and nails washed. i bet he smells nice. if he don't use cologne then you would smell hand soap probably. idk i feel like he's a compulsive hand washer (ocd??????? idfk)

-cozy and nice fashion sense

-genuinely wants to help people in need

-did i mention hot (look at the way he's staring you down in the above pic. lawdy!!)

Jess Wade (Charro!, 1969) (current brainrot as of writing this) <3

Husband qualities:

-pretty smart

-hot as hell!!!!!!!!!!

-cowboy (save a horse ride a cowboy)

-beard (sorry this gets a category on its own)

-can be mean when needed to and can protect himself

-good lord he has a veryyy high pain tolerance (good for bedroom time ;) )

-scars (some people like that right?? i do. someone please hear me out)

-i feel like he has a high body temperature so if you ever get cold he is there to warm you

-also fashion sense (he's a cowboy)

-is a sheriff so he can protect you (can protect you in general honestly)

-good lord he is hot!!!!!!!!!! sorry

-daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy? sorry. daddy-

-rough and would probably slap you if you wanted him to (also good for bedroom time ;) )

Ross Carpenter (GIrls! Girls! Girls!, 1962) <3

Husband qualities:

-smart

-h h h hh hot

-fisherman, he can bring food to the table

-he can cook full-blown meals!!! like dinner and breakfast and stuff!!! just imagine him cooking dinner for you.. i wouldn't know what to do! now who's gonna write the fic?? /hj

-young (ehh i mean whatever i love dilfs but ross is hot af)

-knows how to operate a boat

-can fight and protect

-sings!! very well actually!!! he can sing upbeat and happy, to slow and sultry, to, well, anything really!!

-knows how to treat a woman right

-can dance, normal upbeat dancing, or tango-like slow dancing

-btw did you see that "walls have ears" scene?? look down. good lord it isn't big it's huge (good for bedroom time ;) )

-pretty good with kids. he can tolerate them at least. if they listen well

-a bit protective actually

-love love love the shirts and pants he wears. and that hat. oh god i love him so much

OVERALL QUALITIES

-pretty smart

-hot n sexy af!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! good lord!!!!!!

-have jobs

-great fashion sense

-pretty good with kids

-outstanding in the bedroom

-can sing and/or play guitar

-unique in their own way

-all have their own imperfections but still try their best (lookin at you jess /lh)

-overall pretty loveable and husband material

-blue eyes and long eyelashes (yes this gets its own point. i like eyes. esp blue or brown eyes. and they twinkle at the right spot, oh yes im on my knees. love your eyes sm honey)

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bitemegamer · 2 months

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Log 01: A Note and Meeting Qiu and Tamarack (Long Post)

Something about this intro... It makes my heart ache in the best way possible. It's the start, the start to a new section of a new life. It is the Fall, the air is cooling down and I can feel it hitting my nose.

*Forgive me, I shall be using MC thoughts as that of my own and basing things off of how I would react, I shall be using first person writing

I decided, since my MC is 10 and I was a little bit of a nut at this time, I would have him believe that it was a ghost that poked him instead of him being rational about it.

He gets greeted with this paper, and... Honestly, how WOULD your little kid thoughts (esp that of someone who did believe in ghosts) think this meant?

*I blurred the last name for my own reasons, thank you very much*

I really, truly wished to be Nancy Drew or one of the Hardy Boys. I spend so much time watching mysteries with my mom. Probably way too much time.

Too bad I am going to break those rules, Mother! Muahahaha! I am a little troublemaker. Just kidding. However, it's okay. I have a way to bend the rules... Just a little bit ;)

*Proceeds to go to the woods, which to me feels like straying even further??? tbh, knowing myself as a kid, I would have done this without thinking too deeply*

Oh where shall I be going? On a cool quest! Off I go to the amazing and great unknown!

WHAT??? Man... :( I know for a fact I would have been so upset, yet a little relieved. Had I gone further into the forest, I might have freaked out just a little bit.

The ghost inhabits this building.

Also, random thought/feeling/vibe that I am feeling... This reminds me so much of when I was a little kid doing my own thing, just wandering about and feeling like the whole world was amazing and whimsical. As a kid, I would always go out of my way to have some sort of fun and adventure... Even if that meant getting lost or making something out of nothing.

A RACCOON!

If I end up dying, let it be known that I met the end of my life with the coolest animal ever.

I'm sure said kid feels very different about a total stranger being in their backyard climbing up their fort.

lol, he thinks I'm quirky...

I mean... You were the one who sent the note... Right? Right? Oh God, never mind--

Don't look at me like that *SOB SOB* I'm trembling over here as if I am some sort of scared little grey hound!

Nice to meet you as well, Qiu!

*Snorts*

OCD Autism meeting and seeing someone with ADHD for the first time be like (joking):

I decided to be a little more nicer to him and politely just point it out to him:

This honestly does beg the question for me... How often has Qiu lost something simply from people just not telling him that he dropped his pages.

That's it, Bud. You. Me. We're going to be in it together. You're never going to lose something like that again while I'm around you.

He'll listen to me, but he will have no idea what I am talking about. At least he tries.

Making art out of trash... I see.

Yeah... Maybe my joke about ADHD might not be as much of a joke as I thought it was.. Hm...

Oh... OH... She's so cute, she makes me wanna cry..

Tamarack really went: 'Wow, okay, *bye*.

Well... Since I have exceeded my image limit for this post, I do believe that I can have this a closing moment... As of now, my MC has met both of the wonderful romantic/friend interests and I think they're both so wonderful!

I know that I am currently playing the Demo at the moment, but goodness this is so cute. This reminds me so much of my days after school and spending time with my friends around this time period.

I can't wait to finish this intro out and write more about my silly little thoughts... Until then, I hope you guys have enjoyed my little comments. I love doing that when I play games.

#our life #gb patch games #our life now and forever #olnf #game logging #qiu lin #our life qiu #our life tamarack #tamarack baumann

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sharonisthebettercarter · 3 months

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I need the Gen-v kids and writers to fold Billy's ass because they're not like Maeve, Kimiko, Ryan, nor Starlight to take the disrespect from Billy. I need the to go off on his monkey ass because he not finna disrespect them, like he disrespects the former. Fuck around and find out.

oooohhhh i wish. but i can't picture it honestly, i get the feeling he will absolutely trick and hurt them as per that usual game of his

billy's been fucking awful from the get go and very good at it, it's only now that his team is getting fed up with his bullshit but that was a long time coming. i love this motherfucker to death in all the wrong ways but i ain't fittin' to turn a blind eye to all the shit he pulls and how grossly manipulative he is, even with hughie

ESPECIALLY with hughie. AND STARLIGHT.

like it's very concrete clear *what* he is from the start, something a certain darling mentioned to me was that billy technically never actually lies about who he is to the reader/viewer (don't get me wrong, there is a bit of deception and the build up and showcase is also def there, rather i should say, he lies to those around him and this is made clear to the reader/viewer)

he is awful, makes it clear he's going to be awful, and then does awful things that line up perfectly with the total piece of shit he is

but it is SUPER consistently clear.

*it's the characters around him that don't see the truth in what he is, give him the benefit of the doubt, or at the time being, don't see through the lies he gives them*

astonishingly enough, even when he's *actually* honest with them.

mallory said it perfectly

"you're only here because you're desperate and fucked and you want something!"

mmmmmmmmmmhmmmmmm~<3 mah FAVORITE kinda billy bean<3<3<3

and mallory in both settings is one of the few people able to see through butcher's lies but i have big doubts those poor kids are gonna be on mallory or starlight's level, or even kimiko, because they just don't have that experience with him or what he brings to the table, especially if he starts promising 'jUsTiCe' for them. (it's not, it's never about justice, it's just straight up revenge porn. billy bean is a revenge porn addict--)

but hell, he drags mm back into that whole mess and mm won't blame him, but i sure as hell will because *mm has ocd* and butcher fucking *took advantage of that fact*, AND THEN--even mm says it

"always about becca with you." and "you are so hot for homelander right now"

LEIK--... i'm not gonna go into mah regular trash butchlander rhetoric (hey~<3) but leik, homelander literally does not give a damn about this man, there is always a legit *reason* or bargain that is *the* reason he *lets* the mofo live.

first time was becca cutting a deal with him, next time was blackmail, but like this mofo DID NOT hesitate to try to kill butcher when they met at herogasm which just shows how thin that ice is or how flimsy the 'scorched urf' deal was and how he's itching to be done with butcher, third time was RYAN. who got his attention and pulled him away before he could kill butcher when he very clearly wanted to, and now we're gonna get the euthanasia offering??? OOH--

yeah, homelander gives no shits about butcher beyond him being an inconvenience and it's pretty clear the main reason he hasn't bothered killing him is because he still doesn't perceive billy as any sort of threat to him... but butcher?

butcher is OBSESSED and yeah leik i know i say it every goddamn time but like he's really REALLY obsessed to the point where his brain rot for homie is 1000x WORSE than anything ANY of the girlies in fandom *COULD* have for homie--

oops look at that accidentally threw in a little more butchlander garbage lmao

there's def always a part of me that blames fandom misogyny for giving this boi a free pass half the time (motherfucker spends all his time shitting on becca's memory for his revenge porn fantasy+the way he treats all our lovely lady supes--)

amazingly, the framing is actually really well done because even though we know billy is fuckin' awful beyond any reasonable doubt or redeemability, it's still enough in what the characters around him believe to lead people astray and have them wishing for him to do the right thing even when we know he won't (with the rare few exceptions it's something that benefits him...)

altho deep down i think they know billy will just disappoint them because his whole ass job in the story is to make things HURT lmao.

the boi does know better... he just *chooses* to do *worse*...

i do think that because these kids have less experience with billy and aren't completely alone for him to be a vulture about, it also means they might be quicker to learn especially if they get help from starlight or the others. but unfortunately, i don't picture these kids being able to handle this crafty slimeball. maybe make the attempt but...

gawd, i do not have high hopes for these poor youngins...

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doubledyke · 4 months

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Hello, Double D for 1, 2, 3, 10, 12, 15, 16. I'm anxious for this.

i'm gonna group these together since they're both for edd and there's some overlap. thank you guys 😁 also as far as my corny ass mood boards, maybe! it's super embarrassing for me but what isn't at this point?? anyway let's see what we've got here for the lizard man

1. why i like or dislike him: i love edd! for many reasons. he's a genuinely kind-hearted person who, much like eddy, usually can't help but show his emotions. i think he's really funny, whether it's his notoriously sassy wit, or just the weird ass shit he does. i LOOOOOOVE his hamminess. he's such a drama queen. oh and he makes a lot of really strange noises that always make me laugh.

2. favorite canon thing about his character: edd is courageous as hell. i think it was moth that mentioned how quick he is to nut up when the time comes to defend his friends. i'll never, ever, ever, ever recover from him standing up to bro. like... what a guy.

3. least favorite canon thing about his character: dude talks too much. and his voice can be a little grating at times lmfao but honestly it's just part of what makes him who he is. and we love him for it!!

6. what's something i have in common with him: oh lord. well i've harped on it a ton before, but definitely the anxiety and ocd. i also relate to his abnormal fixation to headwear as you'd be hard pressed to see me without a bandana or beanie. no idea why, but i feel naked without something covering my dome. there's other stuff of course, but i'll keep it brief.

7. something the fandom does with edd that i like: i'm glad that people are more normal about him these days....lol.

10. could i be best friends with him: y'know i'm not sure. as if it's not obvious, i have a bit of an inferiority complex, so being around people who are super skilled and smart makes me low key want to take a fucking dirt nap lmfao. also i have no interest in bugs and amoebas and shit. BUT i do think edd is a great friend to ed and eddy.

12. what's a headcanon i have for this character: too many to name, same with the other two. trying to think of one that i haven't shared here before... oh i think his parents are loaded and he'd have a big ass trust fund or whatever it is rich parents give their kids. i think that's the only thing his parents would ever do for him that would actually show a modicum of consideration for his well-being. but who knows, they might go back on that if he "annoys" them. or maybe he wouldn't accept the money out of principle? 👀 also, there's at least one instance in the show where it's implied that edd has money to spend on stuff he wants (a case of ed, he bought books at the library), which is REALLY funny to me because if that's the case he could just buy some goddamn jawbreakers... and what, ruin the plot? i know, i know. i'm just saying.

15. what's my favorite ship for this character: him and the pink bastard are the couple of all time

16. what's my least favorite ship for this character: besides the obvious one involving a certain red-head whose chin resembles a tool used for digging, i gotta say eddmay does nothing for me. they look too similar 😂

#thanks again!#i feel like people might think i dislike edd or something which couldn't be further from the truth #text

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brokenfoxproductions · 7 months

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I'm honestly so obsessed with these little plastic trays that were like 80 cents at Walmart. They're great for people who don't like their food touching, but the spots are still big enough to fit decent portions. These trays are for each of my kids but I would be lying if I said I didn't use these for myself. They're good for my OCD and autism, they make my brain happy.

Happy little breakfast for dinner 🥰 breakfast for dinner is also probably one of the best things ever for my brain. It makes my brain feel like 🥰❤️✨

#tw food #parenting #autism #actually ocd #ocd #actually autism #actually autistic #breakfast for dinner #also yes I understand the irony of having organic ketchup with Spam #I understand also that organic is BS and I don't do the whole organic thing I just got it from the food bank and it's ketchup

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knickynoo · 4 months

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Since it seems you’ve watched a lot of his stuff I was curious on what you would rank your top 5 favorite MJF performances? whether you wanna get specific with certain scenes or more broad with just a movie/character it doesn’t matter to me I was just curious!

Ehehehe...this is a fun one.

1. Marty McFly: I feel like Marty has to be number one, ya know? BTTF was one of the first major interests I had as a kid, Marty was one of my first big crushes, and, of course, there's this blog. Marty's my main guy!

As for a specific scene, that's a tough one. Maybe the hug at the clocktower? There's just so much emotion on his face in that scene.

2. Alex P. Keaton: Honestly, there are days I flip back and forth between him and Marty as my favorite MJF character. I just. I love Alex so much. He's a mess. He's a conceited know-it-all. He's allergic to emotions. He loves his family so much that it overwhelms him. He's so annoying and so good at his core. He's autistic. Very blorbo shaped.

Favorite scenes? There are a couple. Anything from "Speed Trap," particularly the leap over the banister Monopoly scene and then the one toward the end where he's going through withdrawal and fighting Steven. Also, "A, My Name is Alex," particularly the meltdown in the kitchen and his "I can be gentle and loving and forgiving" speech. Oh! When he declares his love for Ellen at the train station!

3. Jamie Conway (Bright Lights, Big City): Listen, some people think MJF was miscast for this role, but you know what I think?? Those people are wrong. He is brilliant in Bright Lights, Big City. Brilliant. One of the most heart-wrenching performances I've ever seen. Do you want to watch a man be just...so so sad for 95% of a movie? Then this one is for you.

A standout scene for me is the one where he's having the argument with his younger brother and resorts to just throwing himself against the door. But another great one is his phone call to Vicky toward the end of the movie. The absolute panic and sense of "everything around me is completely falling apart and I am BROKEN" Jamie is feeling is so raw and well acted.

4. Dr. Kevin Casey (Scrubs): I'm not even all that familiar with this actual series, but I've seen Michael's two episodes a handful of times. He plays a brilliant surgeon who struggles with severe OCD, and the subject is handled very well. There's just the right amount of humor to keep it light without turning the condition into a joke, which is hard to do. MJF channeled a lot of his personal battle with Parkinsons into the character, and the end scene of his first episode is incredible.

5. Ugh, this is difficult! I was originally gonna say Michael Chapman from Life with Mikey, but I think I might put Eddie Simms from Night Court here? I mean, it's not a particularly special performance or anything, but I do love him in that role. Eddie took up a lot of space in my brain last week after I rewatched the episode.

Favorite scene is the one at the end when Eddie is yelling at everybody and then gets hugged until the judge squeezes all the anger right outta him, lol.

Thanks for the ask!

#asks #michael j fox

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helpfandom · 6 months

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Sneak peek at something probably posted in like 4 months.

@yanderefangirl

Yandere! Batman Rouges Gallery x Platonic OCD! Reader.

I have OCD and this is off of MY version and experiences with OCD. I would be most grateful if anyone had other ideas or plots (like the episode Lock-Up but with the reader.)Reader's kind of... angry? I don't know how else to explain it.

TW//CW: Suicide (Mentions of, not anyone doing) Canon-typical violence, cursing,

God, you couldn't believe it came to this. Honestly, why were you here anyway, it's not like you belong with the criminals. This was just so that they could try and teach the insane to be nicer, to not be criminals.

Honestly, they shouldn't have chosen you, you kind of belonged in here. The way that people would look at you when you twitched, a singular mis-fire in your brain made people think there was something wrong with you. Like you belonged with the freaks of Arkham. Well, one too many jokes about suicide and jokes of your trauma and BOOM! You've been chosen for our unpaid internship at Arkham, too bad you have to stay here you freak! God. It pisses you off to feel their stares of judgement on the streets.

To feel their pity. Batman saves you from a bridge too many times and you're involuntarily put in here.

You walked, two guards right beside you. Their shoes clacking against the tile. One of them was touching you and it made your body feel off. A misfire, and your head jerks to the right. "Please stop touching me." They give you a stern look. Panic filters your brain. "I can walk myself. I'm a big kid." You crack a smile at the last part, makes it easier to tell when it's a joke. They keep staring at you, you misfire, and then the second guard takes their hand off of your shoulder. Great. Now more people think you belong in here. Misfire. Misfire, this time nodding your head. Misfire. Jeezy creezy. "Sorry." You continue walking with them, but you can tell that they're staring at you.

Or is the phenomena of Spotlight, where you delude yourself into thinking that everyone is staring at you. Nevertheless, you can feel them looking at you.

Not just the guards, but the inmates too, the other ones. The ones you belong with. Not the fucking insane criminals.They watch you, a teen, get walked- misfire -to the criminal side of the asylum. It's quiet, but there are whispers. Of course, part of you says that they're talking about you, but is it just because you're being moved to the criminals, or is it because you -misfire- look like you belong here? The other part says it's narcissistic to think they're talking about you.

You reach the doors, steel, heavy steel to make sure that they don't cross over to the section you belong in, misfire, to the people that can be helped.

#platonic x reader #platonic yandere #x reader #yandere x reader #platonic #tw yandere #yandere #headcanon #yandere batman #yandere harley quinn #yandere joker #yandere scarecrow #Yandere Bane #yandere batfam #Yandere Batman #yandere dc #yandere killer croc

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number1villainstan · 1 year

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I judge you based on which bnha villain/antagonist you kin

Disclaimer: kin. not simp. also not everyone is here bcuz i'm lazy and also don't know all of the antagonists that well

shigaraki: you're caught between a desire to be taken seriously and your ingrained people-pleasing tendencies

dabi: you either have daddy issues or you judge a character's merit based solely on their aesthetic. also you're gay as fuck

chisaki: maybe it's OCD, maybe it's autism, but you sure as hell ain't neurotypical. you also definitely had a 'not like other girls' phase. don't @ me here, i'm calling myself out--

kurono: you've had a massive crush on your best friend from age, like, two. go confess already you gay disaster

setsuno: you're depressed af (honestly this goes for almost any hassaikai character)

toga: you thought twilight was peak romance

lady nagant: you're stuck in a mind-numbing, time-consuming job. you can't afford to quit. you're so tired at the end of the day that you can't do anything but collapse into bed, and that's if you don't have any work to take home with you. you live alone. it feels like months since you've last hung out with friends. it feels like years since you've last seen your family. when was the last time you had fun? when was the last time you felt happy? you can feel the crushing weight of a system designed to commodify and neatly package human labor, human minds, human hearts slowly forcing you to your knees, bowing your head, bending your spine. when does it end? will it ever end? you're slowly dying under the weight of this machine and you don't know how to break out of the endless cycle. god help you.

compress: theatre kid

#shitpost #bnha #cw swearing #bnha dabi #todoroki touya #bnha villains #chisaki kai #toga himiko #lady nagant #bnha overhaul #tsutsumi kaina #kurono hari #bnha chronostasis #mr compress #sako atsuhiro #setsuno touya #shigaraki tomura

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imagineanime2022 · 1 year

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Kid With A Germaphone S/O

Death The Kid X Reader

Requested: Anon

Request: Okay honestly I just think it would be funny but how about death the kid with a significant other who is a germaphobe? Like they absolutely hate being touched by other people, they wear gloves constantly, they get anxious whenever they are around dirty areas. The works lol this is something I actually struggle with quite a bit and I'll admit it's hard not being as close to my partners as I want to be but I've been working on it slowly. But Death and how he'd react to the reader suddenly kissing him, hugging him, or even holding his hand without the gloves. If you'd like a scenario to put that in you could say Death helped them out of a particularly anxiety inducing situation like multiple people congratulating the reader and patting them, being in a gross area and not being able to leave, or whatever you'd like. <3

Warnings: Germaphobia

🛹 Living with Kids' own disability came with a level of cleanliness that was beyond that of people your age, so there were some things that you didn’t have to worry about. 🛹 If the germaphobia comes with a level of OCD then the only thing that he asks of you is that you choose an even number or symmetrical set for everything. 🛹 Honestly the way that Kid lives could bring a lot of order to some people’s lives, when he wasn’t stressing about something. 🛹 Kid would likely know what to do when you gave him a look, the one that said a crowd was a problem or something that someone was doing was making you uncomfortable. 🛹 He’d likely ask you what your preferences were about physical touch or cleaning routines and would meet where you wanted to, to make sure that you were most comfortable. 🛹 Kid didn’t have a problem with you wearing gloves or being less physically affectionate, he wasn’t the best with physical affection either. 🛹 The problem usually came when you added others to your pair, if Lizzy and Patty came along or when the group got even bigger with Maka, Soul, Tsubaki and Black Star with you as well.

This was one of the days where the others joined you, you were walking towards the back of the group laughing at their antics as you all headed to the basketball court. You knew that you wouldn’t be able to play but you would stay to watch. “Are you okay?” Kid asked. “Mhm.” You hummed as he glanced at you for a second before looking at the group. “We don’t have to stay if you're uncomfortable.” He said softly. “No, I'm enjoying myself.” You smiled.

You watched as they all played, and you smiled as you called out instructions on how to win from the side, it was when everything ended and Black Star walked towards you with a purpose that you realised that there might be a problem. Black Star never really understood the problems that you dealt with but at the moment you couldn’t think of anything worse than him touching you while he was all sweaty and gross. Kid saw you freeze up and moved in immediately to intercept whatever mission Black Star was on. “Don’t.” Kid warned him. “Don’t what?” He asked, “I was just going to talk to them.” “Talk from here.” Kid ordered and you relaxed as you realised that he wasn’t going to let him get any closer to you. “You gotta stop helping them, it's not fair!” Black Star called and you smiled. “Okay I’ll stop.” You nodded as Tsubaki laughed next to you.

That evening you headed home with Kid, given the time you decided to just stay at his place because it would be easier, you were waiting for him in the living room, he sat down next to you and smiled “thank you for coming out with me today.” He said softly, he always waited for you to touch him, he never attempted physical contact unless you initiated it yourself. “It’s okay, I like going out with you.” You shrugged as you leaned over and pressed a kiss to his cheek, his eyes widened before his face went completely red. “Oh.” You leaned over him and pressed a kiss to his other cheek before nodding to yourself. “Symmetrical.” “I love you.” He blurted out and you looked at him and smiled. “I love you too.” You smiled cuddling up to his side, gloves discarded and a smile clear on your face.

Request Here

#soul eater oneshot #soul eater imagine #soul eater #death the kid #death the kid imagine #death the kid oneshot #imagine #oneshot #one shot #reader insert #x reader

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chaos-and-ink · 15 days

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It's honestly crazy to me how I seemed to have had OCD for like... a couple years and then it just went away somehow? Like I'd never claim I have OCD but if I were evaluated when I was 10 years old I would 100% fit the literal diagnostic criteria.

I had a frequent severe obsessions that I was going to go to hell if I didn't pray every single hour at xx:x5. I'd wake up in the night just to make sure I could get my hourly prayer in in case I died in my sleep and would then somehow go to hell??? I was so terrified that I would set alarms on my watch every hour to get my prayer in because I had this irrational uncontrollable obsession that if I died and hadn't prayed in the last hour I would be going to hell. Like that is an obsession and compulsion I'm like 99% sure. And this happened for years.

I also had this obbession that if my daily count of prayers equaled an odd number I would be killed. So anytime I did pray I had to pray twice so it would be an even number still. Which meant I was praying a fucking lot lmfao.

Then I had a huge fear that my prayers didn't count unless they were said aloud and that meant that once every day I'd have to say it aloud. But only one per day because that was enough to 'save' me.

Like a lot of kids I had this huge fear of stepping on sidewalk cracks. But it wasn't because I thought I would break someone's back. It's because I was convinced a car would hit me if I stepped on the cracks so I always always always avoided them and if I ever did step on a track I became an anxious wreck.

I also had this obsession that if I chewed my food unevenly on the sides of my mouth that I would choke when I tried to swallow. So I had to count how many chews I had on each side of my mouth to make sure it was safe to swallow. Which meant I was a really really slow eater.

I had a SEVERE obsession about death and that I would die in my sleep or have a seizure or a stroke and the only way to prevent this was to keep the doors open. So when I used the bathroom or took a bath or went to bed or did anything I would always keep the door cracked open.

I was terrified of walking an uneven number of steps on each leg. I thought something horribly bad would happen if I stepped too many times with my left leg so I was always trying to keep track and make sure I never took too many steps with my left leg. To the point sometimes I would purposefully walk with just my right leg to 'make up for any miscounts'.

There was also this huge fear that I left a light on and that my house was going to burn down which meant I needed to constantly check and recheck lamps and lights all the time.

I had this irrational fear that if I wore my watch on my left wrist for too long something hugely terrible would happen like my dog would die so I would constantly switch the wrist I wore my watch. Even though I'm right handed and my watch belongs on my left wrist so I can manoeurver it better.

Oh and also I had a fear of certain numbers. Like a terrifying fear of numbers and I always thought I'd throw up if I used them. Whenever I put things in the microwave it had to be an odd number but not a multiple of 5. it could be an even number ONLY if the numbers were the same like 22 seconds or 33 seconds, etc. I always thought I'd like die if I put them in wrong.

And the last one I can think of is that I had this intense fear that if I spelt certain words the wrong way I would summon a fucking demon. I honestly don't understand how that even works but in my head, logic doesn't exist. so 'color' turned to 'colour' 'behavior' to 'behaviour' 'favorite' to 'favourite' and so on. I don't type like this because I still hold this fear I just literally have it engrained as muscle memory so I can't stop. So if you ever wonder why my american ass is typing like a brit it's because when I was 8 I thought i'd summon a demon lmfao.

I also cross my 7's and Z's but that's because I thought I'd get struck by lightening if I don't. I don't fear that anymore but I still write like that just because I've been doing it for soooo long it's hard to stop now.

So yeah. I would never claim I have OCD but like... as a kid I really do feel like it was very prominent. And it completely wrecked my life. I barely made any friends, I was always anxious, I wasted sooo much time fulfilling all my compulsions and what not. Like I'm pretty convinced a psychologist would've diagnosed me with OCD.

The weirdest part is that it seems to have disappeared???? Like I literally don't understand what happened but I don't have those obsessions and compulsions anymore as far as I'm aware. I really don't get what changed because that whole ordeal plagued me for like 8 years and then just randomly disappeared. I didn't do anything to change it, I don't think.

Sometimes I fear maybe it's still there and just matured and manifests differently now that I'm older and I don't even realize it because I have so many mental problems what's another. Like maybe it never left..

#idk why i rambled so much about that but like yeah #just things on my mind #i really don't understand how it just left #chaos #vent post #anxiety #actually anxious #ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder

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