#honestly it’s probably just pure exsaustion

[fulokis]

I’m feeling like this weird exhaustion feeling and it’s not quite depression but it’s also not quite not depression. And I’m not sure if it’s due to stress over just knowing I have a shit ton of stuff to do before I go back up to school, being drained from over socialization, or just in general work because while I love my job this is not a great time of year to be trained and on top of that people can go out to eat for the first time in over a year. And maybe it’s that my shoulder hasn’t gotten the chance to heal and I keep doing stuff because I have to keep working. And maybe some of it is how busy of a location and how understaffed we are, or maybe I just need some time to get used to it, because after all I’ve only really been working consistently for a couple weeks and not only is it my first line cook job but also my first full time job. But if anything this is reassuring me that I do enjoy doing this and teaching will be well worth it.

#honestly it’s probably just pure exsaustion #I’m pretty tired at the moment and I never think straight when I’m tired #that and we just came down from a horrible combo of graduation weekend and Memorial Day #I don’t think it would be so bad if they didn’t schedule me Monday mornings after Sunday nights #but part of the reason I’m at work so late on Sunday nights is because of this dude who doesn’t work #and I do love my job I know it may seem weird but it’s a good fucking job #like there are several people there who’ve been there for over 3 years #which is insane for the industry #and boh gets tips which is extremely rare #and they just raised the pay #I’m both sad and glad I have so little in this job #glad because I want to go to school and they hired me so I’m making some money before I go up #but sad because it’s a great job #anyway i should sleep