#honestly i am so angry and frustrated and i know i should be happy that my friends are safe now but i am just bitter about it

[utilitycaster]

i think it's telling that so many of the responses to imogen's convos with liliana and laudna were 'this is kinda fucked up and i am fascinated by it and am enjoying it' and but the response to THAT was like 'STOP trying to make everything toxic, ugh fandom never should've learned therapy speak'. like. ignoring that's NOT what that is, people are pretty clearly interacting POSITIVELY with these moments but because what they're enjoying is the parts that are messy, that's somehow bad too???

YUP! There are definitely people who use therapy speak inappropriately, including about Imogen and Laudna, and honestly I pretty specifically avoided using the word "toxic" (or "codependent") about their most recent interaction, but like...there is nothing wrong with enjoying the relationship for being messy! A good deal of the people who are calling it toxic or messy are people who support it and enjoy it! A good deal of people who don't particularly like the relationship for being flat and bland and the conflict constantly fizzling out into nothing, myself included, perked up at yesterday's conversation! It was fascinating: Laudna went to comfort Imogen and told her she loved her, and Imogen's response was to say "oh, you love me? well then why did you go running off to Delilah the second we were apart? why did you lie to me a second time [Laudna did not lie to her the first time, which by now Imogen knows]?"

I don't actually think Imogen's opinions re: Delilah are inconsistent - I think she very specifically started becoming uncomfortable after encountering Delilah in the middle of the night in Whitestone (and I think Laura said as much on a 4SD too), and so her previous assertions about digging into their power sources are not hypocritical. However, yeah, I think we should talk about how both of the two big kisses between these characters are specifically Imogen trying to cut off an emotional speech from Laudna - I don't think it is intended as manipulation, but rather coming from a place of profound fear, but that's still something you need to deal with because this is now three pretty significant cases of kicking the can of conflict down the road and it's only snowballing. I think we should talk about how actually maybe it's valid that Imogen, who has had to make a lot of difficult decisions regarding her engagement with Predathos's power and could be risking losing her powers through her actions, is frustrated that Laudna hasn't done the same with Delilah, but neither of them are working it out. Imogen is letting an assassination of her mother go forward - and I agree with her choice - and Laudna hasn't done anything to extricate herself from Delilah in 30 years despite expressing interest early in the campaign. Imogen is about to lose her mother because her mother declared her reliance on a potentially evil power as an inevitability and wouldn't listen to her, and Laudna's now doing the exact same thing.

And on the other hand, again, Laudna hasn't lied to Imogen. Imogen cut off Laudna's angry, hurt, and extremely valid rant about being betrayed by Bor'Dor by asking to kiss her and so Laudna, trying to make Imogen happy, never worked out these feelings and they've just been building up. Laudna can't express her fears to Imogen because Imogen will demonstrably cut her off. If Imogen is disgusted by Delilah, and that's not going away, what does that mean? Like, is the love enough? I don't know? Could be, but not without actually having a means of resolving all of these extremely valid hurt feelings, and they don't have that. And maybe some of us would like to have some resolution, and are getting real tired of the particularly dim children going "uwu let me have my cottagecore stardew valley dream you all are such MEANIES let people like things" which. Again, if the fact that other people want different things from this relationship is genuinely preventing you from liking things, that's entirely your problem, because I like all kinds of things other people dislike. If you cannot stomach any dissent from your personal interpretation and perceive it as an attack, that says a lot of things about you and none of them bode well.

There is a deeply frustrating tendency that is not limited to this fandom, nor to discussion of Imogen and Laudna, to deny that traumatized characters can hurt other people. You see it with some of the dumber discussions of Ludinus that presume he is specifically a survivor of Aeor (valid as a theory, but unconfirmed); his (hypothetical) trauma does not negate how many other people's lives he's ruined. Percy is deeply traumatized but he did still introduce the gun to the world. Fjord is traumatized but had he willingly completed Uk'otoa's unsealing that would have caused untold damage. Astrid is traumatized but she's still done terrible things as a Volstrucker. FCG and Yasha are both traumatized and both were not even in control of their actions when they caused their worst harm, and they both feel terrible about what they've done. I mean, touching on this episode, it is not actually a contradiction to say both "Liliana is traumatized and has been indoctrinated by a cult and is a victim of said cult and genuinely believes she is doing this for Imogen's benefit" and also "Liliana is a fucking shitty mom." These are both true. This is what cycles of abuse and generational trauma look like. This is what that "blorbo-centered morality" is; suddenly when it's your favorite character they can do no wrong and every explanation becomes, instead, an excuse.

I've been talking a lot about the harassment in this fandom and it really is like...look, I don't know if this harassment is coming, from some of those partaking in it, from a personal trauma. I do not want to ascribe shitty behavior to mental illness, because some people are just assholes. But if it is - it doesn't make it okay! If you are lashing out and sending hate because you project a lot of your own trauma onto Imogen or your own relationships to that of Imogen and Laudna and you perceive every bit of criticism as an attack on you, guess what! You're being a fucking asshole by trying to hurt other people and it does not ultimately matter that it might come from a place of your own hurt and you need to stop.

I've been going off about this and related topics all morning and so I do want to step back and say that I believe this is a relatively small group of people with an outsized toxic impact. I do think that many people are enjoying the relationship for its complexity and unhealthy, messy aspects, that most people would love to read more Imogen meta that covers her as a whole, complex person and not as a tee hee just a silly guy girlfailure. But yeah, I think everyone is getting increasingly done with the group of people who throw a tantrum and retreat into the most idiotic See Spot Run-levels of conflict fantasies whenever there's actual grit and friction and mess in the relationship.

#answered #Anonymous #cr spoilers

[beanghostprincess]

Bughawk is soooo underrated and it makes me so sad. Please tell me you see how grand this vision is

I am personally more of a Shuggy/Crocobug shipper but that's mainly because Mihawk isn't doing it for me much?? I love him and his gold autistic eyes staring into my soul and his classy attitude and vampiric looking aesthetic, but I wish he had more screentime to figure out his personality better and enjoy him more. But I do like him! I swear! And tbh one of my favorite ships is Cross Guild, like, the three of them together, even if I have a bit of a preference inside of the trio. I do love them and tbh I think Mihawk and Buggy's relationship would be really funny to explore. Especially within the fanon portrayals of the characters because god forbid Oda gives the cool edgy swordsman more than three minutes of screentime and more than five words per episode.

Okay, so doing a mix between fanon and canon and "whatever the fuck I want to see these characters as because I am the princess of this blog and I can do whatever I want": I think their relationship is fucking hilarious.

Unlike with Crocodile, Buggy doesn't really know what to do with Mihawk. Crocodile at least is easy to read and he's usually the one to make the first move, but what the fuck is Buggy supposed to do with the swordsman sitting in front of him, legs crossed and staring into his soul like he's about to bite his neck and suck him dry. Scary. And also very hot. But mostly scary. But turns out Mihawk is like, way more peaceful than what he thought. He likes reading. And classical music. And swords in a very weird obsessive way that the clown should not speak about. And not much, honestly. Cooking, too, apparently. Buggy keeps learning new things about him every day and the guy opens up little by little, because even if he's quiet, the very few words he says speak a lot for himself. He's also a fucking sadist and loves teasing Buggy all the time to the point of making him cry of frustration, but, well, when he's good he's really nice to be around <3

They both have history with Shanks. You know the movie "The other woman"? The one about this girl who discovers her boyfriend is married and then becomes besties with the wife and start hating him together? That's the energy I'm getting from this triangle. Stop making Mihawk cry over Shanks not loving him and a past love!! Make him go "Oh. Yes. Red Hair and I had something. Pretty sure he still felt something for you, clown, so I am not happy about that" / "What?! Why would you be angry at me for Shanks' shitty feelings that have absolutely nothing to do with me, by the way, our thing ended years ago when his stupid-" / "No, no. I am referring to him. Moron. I like you" / "You do???'' / "Sometimes. Sort of. Maybe. Your existence confuses me". And then they start dating because nobody can tell me Cross Guild isn't just a poly relationship doing business together.

I think Mihawk likes Buggy because it gives excitement to his boring life and also he's fun to bully. Besides, he's more than what he looks like and he actually has a dream and pirate spirit, so maybe he's not as useless as he used to think. He's still annoying, yes, but oddly comforting. Mihawk can't quite figure out what he wants with this clown, so he just sticks around with him. Buggy is like a chihuahua. A very loud chihuahua. Mihawk is definitely a black cat. They don't match. At all. Not in the slightest. And yet, Mihawk likes his company. And Buggy actually loves seeing all the soft and interesting sides of Mihawk and realize that he's not as scary as he looks like. I mean, he could slice him in half if he wanted to and he's still scary and hot but, y'know, he has a very domestic side that Buggy likes.

Thinking about them being established is pretty sweet because I think Mihawk would like reading out loud to him and Buggy would make the funniest comments about the story. And they would cuddle. And it would be so uncharacteristically soft of them and it's something they only do in private. Crocodile stares at them from the corner of the room and,,, He likes having them there. He's not alone and it's kind of sweet.

Also overprotective Mihawk with Buggy my beloved. In the sense of: He cooks for him because his eating habits suck. He makes him go on walks and do a bit of exercise. He makes him read, too. Listen to music that it's not only commercial pop or circus music or musical/Broadway tunes. He takes care of the clown when he's not bullying him. I think Mihawk treats Buggy like Sharpay Evans treats her dog.

And following the Shanks thing to end this post: Bughawk is really cool because I think it would break Shanks' heart and I love angst.

#yayyy cross guild asks make my day #i love them i love them i love them #sorry for saying mihawk wasn't doing it for me i realized while writing that i absolutely love him too #i just wish he had more content #one piece #dracule mihawk #buggy the clown #bughawk #cross guild

[sugar-omi]

Can we know some Baxter thoughts on the scenario with MC leaving Cove and Baxter and MC eloping after the split? I'm invested

bro i think we're all mentally connected bc i just mention is this post that i forgot to add some stuff abt how baxter acts. tysm for sending this and omg i find it so funny everyone's so invested in this little story!! i never knew itd end up like this lmaooo

tags : Angst, (emotional) cheating, y'all live in delulu land, multiple choice dialogue, your moms distance themselves/disown you

[read "leaving cove for baxter" here]

synopsis : how does baxter act when you leave cove for him?

baxter feels so bad...

honestly he doesn't understand why you're doing this, he's so confused

he's happy that you still love him

but he see's how great of a man cove is and it kills him more than anything

he begs you not to do this

"y/n please! be rational!" baxter's fingers dig into his palms. he's trying to keep calm, but he's heard the best and worst news of his life.

you sit across from him, hands in your lap and crying. "i am. i... i love cove, and he's amazing. but you are everything i want."

baxter gapes, watching you cry with wide eyes. "i tried to forget about you, but I just can't.. I love you. I love you so much more than him!" you sob, hands covering your face.

baxter's hands are shaking.

he's happy to hear that you love him but you're engaged.

you're supposed to be married soon, all that's left is to pick out your outfits and the dance lessons and now...

baxter swallows. "and you've... thought about it?"

you nod.

baxter sighs, rubbing his sweaty palms on his dress pants. "...okay."

baxter is waiting for you that night when you break it off.

and when you walk through his door, with tears in your eyes he wraps his arms around you as you cry and tell him about how it went.

cove was distraught, to say the least. and after much crying and "why"'s, cove stopped crying and was just mad...

a quiet man's scorn is a scary thing..

"get out." cove doesn't look at you, he can't. if he does he'll actually combust and explode.

you gape, "..what?"

cove looks at you, suddenly enraged by your oblivion. "I said get out!" cove stands up, hands fisted at his side. you didn't believe he'd hit you or harm you in anyway, but you've very rarely seen him angry.

"why are you sitting there looking dumb? you just said you love someone else! our fucking WEDDING planner at that!" cove yells. "what? did you wanna stay and play happy family with me while you fuck him!?"

cove laughs humorlessly. "I can't believe you... don't you wanna be with him? you should just leave." what cove says next shakes you.

"or maybe you want to fuck him in our bed, in our home!" cove is crying again, frustrated and angry.

you start crying, "no! i-" you don't know what you're trying to say, if anything at all and your sobs cut you off.

"then leave, get your shit and leave!"

cove storms to your bedroom as you cry. when you finally get enough strength in your legs again you go upstairs to see him roughly packing your things into the bags and suitcases.

you shake, starting to grab some of your other things and packing them shakily into the bags.

cove starts hauling the suitcases to the car, quiet as can be.

once most things that can fit into your car are closed up, cove stands on the porch of your home. or what used to be your home.

you stand in front of him, shaking.

cove stopped crying awhile ago, and his anger fell off him awhile ago too. now he just looks calm, but if you know him worth anything than you know that once the door closes he'll break.

cove hands you his engagement ring. "sell it, or keep it, propose to your new boyfriend."

cove hands you his half of the $20 bill. you gape at him, god you made a fool of yourself today. "throw it away. burn it. I don't care anymore, so don't hold onto it."

cove crosses his arms, "sell the ring. i don't want it."

cove hands you his engagement ring. "sell the rings, i don't want mine. marry your new boyfriend instead."

he slams the door.

baxter lets you weep. he doesn't feel upset that you're mourning the relationship, you've known him for 15 years and even if you wanted for him, you loved cove everyday until now..

when your family cuts you off and distances themselves, he watches you fall apart.

you just got off the phone with your ma, who chewed you out for choosing baxter of cover. he could hear her yells through the phone since you had it on speaker.

you were going to grocery shop together and cook for a date, but with your shaking hands and puffy eyes, you're in no shape to do anything.

so he lets you cry.

when miranda calls you, he watches the shock on your face morph to shame and pure emptiness.

miranda is screaming, cussing you out for hurting cove.

"why did you have to ruin everything for him?! what's so good about him?!"

you just cry, mumbling sorry's in between miranda's yells.

he holds your hand while you curl in on yourself, tears soaking into the rug under your feet...

baxter helps you pack away the last of your furniture in the house.

when he first entered it, he could tell the love had been ripped off the walls...

there was so much decoration missing.

there weren't any pictures on the walls.

in fact, he found your photo album and your sister takes it from his hands, not looking or speaking to him as she packs it into her bag..

many of the photos he saw were of cove with you and your family. too many memories you won't want and will hide in a dusty corner anyway if you did keep it.

he just carries the boxes to the u-haul, watching the house bleed with everything that comes out of it.

something about the dark house in the distance kills him, and he sits silently in his shame...

over the next few months you finally stop crying.

the phone calls stop coming and you're cheer comes back.

it's definitely different compared to when you were younger, and a far cry from what it was when you were still with cove, but you both act like it never happened.

maybe you're deluding yourselves, but when baxter wakes up and his heart bumps in his chest, it increases his anxiety and he feels like his throat is closing up..

baxter throws the covers off himself, getting up to wash up and find you.

whenever silence comes to him, the shame always finds him...

after changing into new clothes, baxter goes to find you in the kitchen, and when you greet him with a brilliant smile and a kiss, the shame melts away.

this is okay.

baxter stirs, warmed up by your hand caressing his face.

he blinks through blurry vision, smiling as he admires you. "good morning.."

you smile, running your finger along the angle of his nose. "g'morning handsome..." you lean forward n lay a kiss on his cheek.

baxter lets the warmth of your palm sink into his skin, sleep creeping back into him.

"let's get married."

baxter's eyes fly open, gaping at you like a fish.

"w-what?"

you sit up wordlessly, reaching into your nightstand and pulling out a dark purple fabric box, cracking it open to present a ring.

"i love you, and i wanna make sure i keep waking up to you everyday so.. baxter, will you marry me?"

when you come back from your short honeymoon, just a small weekend trip a quick run away from home, to match your quick wedding, your joy seeps through the floor..

for the weekend you didn't look at your phones, or at least didn't check social media and there wasn't any missed phone calls or messages.

but when baxter comes home from work he found you crying softly on the couch, trying to wipe away your tears before baxter could see but it was useless.

he crouched in front of you. "whats wrong?"

you show him derek's message, and once he finishes reading that, you show him one more...

COVE: hey. COVE: congrats on your marriage i guess... just wanted to tell you the house is sold, i gave dad back what he gifted for the down payment and the rest is yours. COVE: bye [you can no longer send messages to this user]

baxter blinks at it slowly... even though he's been so badly betrayed, cove still wishes you congratulations.

cove is a better man than baxter will ever be.

...

baxter sets your phone down, pulling you up and leading you down the hall.

"what do you think about me washing your hair, and after i'll prepare us a nice meal. what do you think?"

it's fine. shame is eating baxter up from his head to his feet, but everything is fine.

even when he pets your hair while you sleep, and whispers into the night. "i'm sorry... you've lost you're family because of me..."

even if he frets about how you've given up everything for him, it's fine.

you're happy together. maybe you can be happy with just the two of you? maybe. maybe...

#our life: beginnings & always #olba #our life baxter #baxter ward x reader #baxter x reader #baxter ward #baxter ward x reader angst #baxter ward x mc #angst #baxter ward angst #baxter ward x mc angst #baxter our life

[cherryjuiceblues]

Honestly don't waste your time and energy on anon haters. You and i don't know each other and our only interactions if we can call it that is when i reblog your fics and send anon concepts and message but ii don't resent you just because you don't read my fics. Supporting your friends doesn't make you entitled, quite the opposite. If you didn't, you'd be a bad friend

I'm assuming the person who sent you this is an angry writer who probably doesn't get enough visibility and recognition for their work and i, as a writer myself understand how frustrating it is to not feedback or just encouraging messages, but it's not a valid reason to send anonymous hate to someone successful. If i stopped liking someone i follow, i would just unfollow and leave them alone

Anyway, keep up the good work bestie, part 5.1 of mb was perfect as usual <3

thank you :’) it’s very very kind of you to send this in. i know i probably should have just deleted their ask but i felt such a strong urge to defend myself in the moment. i’m lucky in the sense that i don’t receive many negative messages but it does mean i am less sure what to do with them when they do happen.

i understand the frustration of pouring hours of your time and being so passionate about something for it to not then receive the appreciation you were hoping. i reckon everybody has dealt with that at some point, especially creative people. it is so so deflating but i’ve never wanted to direct my anger at someone because of it.

thank you so much for being a reader, and for sending in concepts, and taking the time out of your day to say this. it means the absolute world to me. i overthink everything but you’ve definitely made me feel better so thank you. i wish you all the best with your writing! and if you ever feel comfortable direct messaging i’d be very happy to thank you more personally <3

#anon #that sounded kind of suggestive HDJSJSJS #i won’t be thanking you That personally :D

[kentray]

May I ask your thoughts on the finale as a fellow RoyKeeley shipper :( I was genuinely so disappointed (with the exception of Roy going to therapy becoming Richmond’s manager and Keeley having the idea for a Woman’s football club! ). I just have a lot of feelings and NEED to know why they weren’t endgame?!? Sorry just curious your thoughts.

Thank you for asking. I'm all over the place - angry, sad, resigned. I feel like they purposely wrecked a wonderful storyline and couple who could have worked through their issues together. I question everything about this decision & it impacted my view of S3.

There are some who think the end is actually Ted's dream - a sort of "It's a Wonderful Life" in reverse - how great things will be now that he's gone - all his idealized hopes for his friends. And the way the show framed those things - between the time Ted takes off and lands - makes that plausible. If that were the case, the only possible silver lining is it was done to create a Season 4? Ted didn't look at ease at the end of the show and if you take away the "dream" part, there was lots more story to tell.

The Jamie & Roy bar scene enraged me. It was a kind of toxic masculinity that didn't exist between them during the whole series until that moment. They'd always both respected Keeley's agency. Now they're two boys fighting over her, using their sex exploits as a yardstick? Gross. I felt it was out of character for both of them. And I felt it was only done so we could have the scene where Keeley "chooses" herself, which I found forced and a cheap way out.

So what do I think of Roy & Keeley? I think we haven't seen the last of them. This was a "season" finale, and no definitive answer has been given about the future. All the actors are contracted for a S4 so they're all signed on if it happens. And if "Ted" isn't back and Roy was the lead? Maybe they created this breakup for this season to move the good Roy and Keeley content for a S4. Maybe that's wishful thinking though. Not much has been said and there's a writer's strike so that complicates things.

I wish I had an answer. As a viewer I am just really angry at being given no real explanation on the break-up or their feelings on it, plus the lack of interaction between Roy & Keeley was so frustrating. They wouldn't let them speak! We're all still in the dark and honestly I am still unhappy with their individual story arcs this season - I don't think there was much growth. It was all just depressing.

It breaks my heart. I know Roy seemed to be on the right path but he still didn't look happy and all I really wanted for Roy at the end of the show was for him to be happy. He's had so much anger and sadness in his life. And he and Keeley made each other happy. I don't get hooked on much tv anymore and I was really hooked on Ted Lasso and this couple in particular, so, yes, I'm heartbroken. There may have been behind the scenes factors that impacted the show's arc as well, but I'm not privy to that. We just don't know.

I'm not a young fan. I'm married with teen children. I've consumed a lot of media and these two really spoke to me so I feel really cheated right now. I think we all should feel that way. So I empathize with you. ❤️

#roy x keeley #reeley #keeley x roy #roy and keeley #roy kent #keeley jones #ted lasso #roykeeley #keeley and roy

[sunny6677]

Spookytale

(An Undertale x Spooky Month crossover)

Chapter 17: Home.

Summary: After an incident involving the whole town getting hypnotized(besides Skid) and falling into a hole, all of them find themselves in a place that will change their life forever.

TWS: NONE.

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Jack and John went quiet, out of their own slightly surprised silence. For the house that she must have been emerged from must have been her house, the place she resided in. Toriel didn't seem to notice them for a moment, nearly standing there as her red eyes sparkeld with slight worry. Toriel then slowly pulled out a phone from behind her, and clicked on the screen with her surprisingly large thumb. It was honestly weird that she hadn't broken it already, considering how weirdly big she was.

She then held it up to her ear as it vibrated, letting out a ringing sound(they heard another ringing sound from behind, most likely Roy's phone). Though.. Toriel then glanced to the side, and she blinked. She had noticed them, for they were standing there in her sight. Toriel then immediately lowered the phone, and clicked on it again, looking at the both of them in a concerned manner. John opened his mouth to speak, though before he could, she rushed forth.

As she rushed forth, she then stopped, standing before the both of them. In a gentle voice, Toriel said, "How did you both get here? Are either of you hurt?". Jack nervously scratched the back of his head, along with John who merely looked away in slight shame. "Uh.. no. Don't worry. We just.. uh.." Jack seemingly wasn't able to find the words. "I.. I decided it'd be best if, uh.." John seemingly couldn't find the words either.

"Oh dear.. do not worry. I should not have left you all there for so long. Where.. where are the others?" Toriel inquired, her voice soft and gentle, as if comforting a child. John and Jack glanced at eachother, quiet for a moment.

"They're uh.. right behind us. Let's just go and get 'em real quick, alright, Jack?" John looked up at Jack, swiftly turning around to face the entrance they both walked into. Jack simply replied, "Uh.. alright."

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"Jeez.. why were you gone for so long?! We went through so much because of you!" Roy griped, crossing his arms as he stood next to Toriel. The height difference was clear, for he seemed to almost be as tall as her lower legs(if they were even visible anyway). Pump and Skid had been clinging to Toriel's feet, seemingly a little happy to see her. Susie merely awkwardly stood beside Pump, seeming uncertain of something. As if anticipating Toriel to be irritated or angry with her little brothers behavior.

Ross and Robert had been conversing with one another. And both Lila and Jaune had been standing behind Toriel with relieved but uncertain facial expressions. Ethan and Streber had been standing a few feet away from Toriel, while Kevin stood beside the both of them. Jack and John had been quietly standing to the right side, mumbling things to eachother.

"Dear.. I am sorry, my child. I do not think I should have thought about even leaving you all in a place like that for so long.. you could have all encountered a monster, and I would not be there to protect any of you.." Toriel spoke sadly, looking down at the ground in her own motherly guilt. As she did, Skid looked back up at Lila, and suddenly rushed to her side, clinging to her legs in an attempt to hug her. Of course, Lila hugged him back, giving a thankful smile to her son.

"Its fine, Toriel.. we wouldn't have left if it wasn't for a certain someone running off.." Susie snarled, giving Pump a frustrated look. Pump merely raised a brow in response, as if puzzled as to why Susie seemed so frustrated with him. And yet, of course, he did know why. He just didn't see why it was so important that she'd still be angry about it minutes later.

"That does sound quite troublesome.." Toriel said, gently patting Pump's head with her paw. In response to this, Pump smiled up at Toriel, closing his eyes in the sheer relaxation of the motherly gesture she was giving him. Toriel then sighed, looking down at the ground with a still guilt-ridden look, her velvet eyes still shimmering with shame. "Still, it was irresponsible of me to try and surprise you all like this.."

...

Everyone gave a somewhat puzzled look, not exactly knowing what she was talking about. A surprise? "...what surprise?" John tilted his head in confusion

Toriel blushed in slight embarrassment, as if realizing she had said something she didn't intend on saying. She then nervously chuckled as Pump gently pulled his arms away from her legs. "Well, I suppose I can not hide it any longer..". She then slowly turned around, and smiled back at everyone with an eager look in her eyes. "Come, everyone."

Everyone in the group gave eachother a puzzled look as she began to slowly walk around the tree, and toward her home. Pump did however begin to follow her though, grinning up at her. He held out his hand, as if in an attempt to hold it as he stumbled after her like a toddler. "W—Wait! Get back here!" Susie yelped, rushing after him. A few snickered, finding this sight a little charming.

Then, they all began to follow as Toriel had instructed. The house came into view, and seemingly it looked as ancient as everything else that had been down here. It was a rather big house that nearly reached to the very ceiling of the entire room. Piles of red leaves were on both sides of the entrance, and on both walls beside the entrance were dark shadowy windows. The brick walling was purple, just like everything had been down here so far. And above the entrance, there was a sign, but it was hard to read what it said.

"Heh.. it looks kinda old." Ethan commented to himself quietly. "Yeah, like everything else down here.." Streber quietly replied, rolling his eyes playfully. And yet, despite their comments.. seeing such a cute, tidy house in this strange place filled them with slight determination. Or happiness. They weren't sure what it was.

Still, they then walked into the entrance, unsure of what to expect.

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"Woah.." Skid said under his breath.

The house was bright, and due to the light, it was slightly hard to make out the features of the interior for a moment. But as everyone's retinas began to hurt less from the sheer light inside of the interior, they were able to see what laid before them.

Before them was a sight not similar to the very appearance of The Ruins, but just a regular house. It was brown and peach colored, the peach color being on the walls and the brown color being on the floor. The flooring was wooden, and it seemed firm yet not too firm. There was a large staircase that presumably led to the basement or another floor, since it seemed to be going down.

And beside the staircase was a rather withered plant, yet it seemed to go with the environment of the place even so. Before the staircase was a frame that held nothing. And on the right side of the staircase was a short light on the wall, with a blank picture next to it. And there was even a short shelf of old-looking books on the floor. And there was a cozy but sweet smell wafting through the air.

Toriel seemed to be standing before the staircase, looking at them all with a patient smile. She then spoke in her feminine voice, "Do you all smell that? Surprise! It is a butterscotch-cinnamon pie! Well.. two of them anyway. Since there were so many of you, I decided to make two of each. I was thinking of making of a cinnamon pie and a butterscotch pie, but I was worried that there wouldn't be enough for any of you with specific preferences since there weren't many slices.." Toriel gave a nervous chuckle.

Yet, she continued to speak. She cleared her throat, "Still.. I thought it would be nice to celebrate everyone's arrival. I want everyone to have a nice time living here. So I will hold off on snail pie for tonight.." (At that, some gave her a disgusted look, or they merely awkwardly smiled at her so they wouldn't seem rude.)

Robert nervously smiled. "Snail pi—"

"Oh! And I have another surprise for you all." Toriel said. She then turned around, and began to slowly walk into a nearby corridor, of course gesturing so everyone knew to follow her. Everyone silently agreed to do so, but as they began following her, some were quietly whispering to eachother. "This place is nice.." Lila was heard murmuring. "Yeah.. but snail pie? I don't really know how to feel about that, girl.." Jaune murmured back. "Well, she said she'd hold off on it, so.." Lila replied quietly. "But still, that's implying that she—" Jaune and Lila just continued to whisper to eachother. Ross quietly and accidentally heard most of their conversation, but it was fine.

Though as some followed her, they had oddly.. appreciative smiles on their faces. They were grateful for Toriel, truly. It was strange.. none of them had ever met anyone this nice. Not in a very long time. It was set this very day that the nicest living being they had ever met was oddly enough, a monster. A sentient goat lady with fire powers.

Still, they continued to follow her.

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They walked into the corridor, which had mustard-yellow walling and light yellow flooring. There was a rug in the middle of the hallway, along with three sets of doors. There were two plants in the middle of the hallway sat right before a wall, along with some weird thing that either looked like a blank brown canvas awkwardly framed on the wall, or perhaps it was a mirror. None of them really knew. There was even a light on the wall a few feet from the first door.

"This is it.." Toriel stated. She then took Pump's hand. Roy found himself giving Pump a somewhat angered look, but he wasn't sure why. Either way, it didn't really matter. He was always angry, so he sort of shrugged it off.

They all followed her, and then, she stopped before the first door. Toriel then spoke, "A room that will belong to you all. For now, at least. I do know that there is only one bed in there right now, but I am sure I can move a few spare ones into here. Maybe just for tonight, I can find you all different places to rest until I manage to set enough beds into the room for all of you. It might be a bit crammed though.."

A few gave an awkward expression at that, though they still managed to smile at her either way. "But at the very least, I hope you all like it.." Toriel sighed. She then looked down at Pump,,and extended out her arm. She then slowly rubbed him on the head.. well, mask. But still. Pump looked up at her with a shimmer in his eyes, as if he had never felt that sort of touch before. He even let out a small laugh, "Hehe.."

Toriel then stopped, retracting her arm. She seemed to notice something. Hell, even a few others noticed something too. There was a faint.. burning smell.

"Is something.. burning?" Toriels expression turned into that of slight horror. "Um, make yourselves at home!"

Before any of them could even speak, she quickly rushed out of the corridor and into another room. Dashing forth and onward to wherever the burning smell was coming from.

Ethan then said while closing his eyes and giving a relaxed smile, "Uh.. well, I think I'm gonna go and help with that." He then began to walk in the direction Toriel went, though in a more quicker manner than he usually would. Awkwardly, Streber than said, "Uh.. me too." Of course, Streber followed after Ethan, seemingly to help with whatever was causing the burning smell.

"...I think I will too. Hold on.." Kevin stated, before following after Streber. Seemingly, they had all gone after Toriel. Skid and Pump then grinned at eachother for a moment. Afterwards, Skid looked up at Lila and asked, "Hey, mom! Can we go look around the house?"

"...sure, son. Sure.." Lila replied, knowing full well that even if she had said no, her son would probably somehow explore the place anyway. "Yay!" Skid and Pump cheered in unison, before running in the opposite direction, making loud crashing sounds. "..I'm just gonna go after them and make sure they don't break anything." Susie said, before walking after them in a quick manner.

"...I think I'm just gonna go ahead and check out the room first." Ross sighed. "Yeah.. me too." Robert responded, looking down at the ground.

Jack and John looked at eachother. This place was nice, but.. could they really stay here? They had family and friends up on the surface. Lila and Jaune did too, though they smiled instead. At the very least, they were grateful for Toriel's help.

Even so, Roy looked down at the ground like Robert had done. Could he.. really call this place home?

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#spooky month #read the tws #spooky month au #kevin spooky month #skid spooky month #skid and pump #pump and skid #pump spooky month #streber spooky month #lila spooky month #jaune spooky month #susie spooky month #john spooky month #jack spooky month #hatzgang spooky month #undertale #toriel undertale #ethan spooky month #spookytale

[yesyourstalker]

Neta: ikkan.... You still awake?

Ikkan: mmmmm I am now

Neta: Oh I'm sorry. I'll tell you when we get home

Ikkan: I'm already awake now. You can just tell me...... Is something wrong? You've been fidgety this whole day

Neta: No there's nothing wrong I just I just have stuff in my mind.. is all

Ikkan: mmm............ Come here......

Neta: ok.......*sigh* this is nice.... You should get a chest tattoo. Maybe something that It goes with your scars. Maybe like vines or something plant related. You've been really good with your plants lately it's impressive

Ikkan: That's something to think about. What's on your mind?

Neta: I've been thinking do we get married after you graduate and we move or do we get married before so we don't have to plan anything and just settle down and adjust?

Ikkan:................................................................. um I don't know. I didn't really think about that........ I didn't really think about marriage. Haven't thought about that since we .........hm... Did my mom say something to you?

Neta: yeah she did.......I do want to get married. Do sill you want to get married?

Ikkan:........... Yeah. I do want to be married, but right now I think we should just focus on our lives. You deal with your store and me, with everything going on. I think we can put wedding planning on hold for now but I do. I do think we should renew our engagement.

Neta: that's good. I'd thought you'd say no

Ikkan: why would you think I would say no?

Neta: I don't know. I just get into my own head sometimes. I remembered moments when I was a lot to deal with. I don't think you'd want to deal with that the rest of your life.....not with me

Ikkan: That's not true. I would gladly live with you, be with you and love you through every moment of your life. Including the bad moments.... [Kiss].... Besides, I have bad moments too and you deal with me...... Remember when I couldn't find my guitar pick and just completely melted down... and I didn't speak for two days.......you stayed, most people wouldn't stay when I'm like that.... A lot people didn't

Neta: that's different.... Those are one time things and it could be preventable most of the time..... You just had a bad day.... When I have a bad day that extends to a week and then a month and so on............ That doesn't sound like a good life to share with someone. It doesn't seem like it's worth it. {Taka: it's not worth it... You're not worth it}

Ikkan: It is... It is worth it. You're kind, you're generous, you're attentive, you're nurturing, funny, smart........ You have pretty eyes.....[kiss]..... It's a good life...... You're giving me the best life Neta and I'm happy that I'm living this life with you.... You've change so much.

Neta: yeah like physically... Mostly just looks

Ikkan: no.... well yes,... But your physical changes also came along with a lot of other changes......More mature in a way. More vulnerable and affectionate. You're more calm, less angry when frustrated. Not on edge like you used to.....*sigh*....You let your guard down a little that a good thing..... You weren't like that when we met.... Or when we were first engaged..... I think at that time it wasn't the right time. I don't think you were ready. Honestly neither was I...... I think this time.... This time right now I think we're both ready for this kind of commitment

Neta: so It's a yes... Ikkan... Will you marry me?

Ikkan: hehehehe.. yes... I will marry you.... hehehe

Neta: yesss.... [Kiss] [kiss]... We're back...... [Kisskissksskiss]

Ikkan: Neta! Heheheheh stop! Hehehe

Neta: hehehe.....*sigh*...... Maybe I should have waited...

Ikkan: why?

Neta: I have this whole thing planned.... Where I was going to give you back your bass and tell you that I didn't want it anymore and you were going to ask why and I was going to explain that I didn't need it anymore because I played it when you were away.... and when I started to miss you but now that you're back in my life and it was this whole thing-

Ikkan: why don't we just forget that we had this conversation.... We go home and you get to do your little planned out proposal... Okay?

Neta: yeah..... That's a good idea....*yawn*..... We need to go to sleep........ Our flight is in the morning.........*snoring*

Ikkan: hehe how do you fall asleep so fast?... [Kiss]...

Next day

Mahi: you think it's weird that we're still at his place?... Maybe we should have went home.

Warabi: why? our whole side of the city including The mall's power is out... The hottest day of the year no less.... I'm telling you that zapfish is on its last leg..... That thing has been powering our city before it even was a city. When my grandfather was my age That's pretty old.

Mahi: yeah.... They live quite a long time and it's only 100 and what 5 years old? I'm pretty sure it can like live for maybe another 100 years

Warabi: their life span is 200 something. That's half of their lifespan gone. They're also powering underground life too. the war is over everyone has free power source. It's not just surface dwellers anymore.....

Mahi: They're going to have to get another one.. maybe a younger one..

Warabi: I'm not not one for making predictions, but I feel like this might be the first time inkling and the octarian military are going to have to work together and-oh shit hide hide hide

Mahi: *oof*

Neta: home at last! my own food and my own bed..........*gurgle*....... And my own toilet..... Brb baby.

Ikkan: where's my Nibbles! Nibbles! You miss Daddy??..... nibbles! what did I tell you about jumping on the counter! Come here!

Mahi:..............

Warabi:......... Shhhhhhh.... crawl to the bedroom when Neta leaves

Mahi: ok....... They left the front door unlocked

Ikkan:.. .. Babe did you eat my walnut shrimp!? That's been in there for a week before we even left!! ....... See this is why you're in the bathroom now. You just eat shit you shouldn't and then you pay the con-.......hehehe what are you doing?

Neta: I'm giving you back your bass... I don't need it anymore

Ikkan:...... heheh... Why I thought you wanted my bass.

Neta: I did. I used to play it all the time when you weren't here when I started to miss you. It was during a time when It was a lot harder for us to be in each other's lives.... When I played it I realize that I didn't want you to just be a little glimpse in my life. I want you to be a part of it . I want to be a part of yours...... I love you..... I-I don't really have words to describe my feelings for you. I just know that when I'm around you.... I feel safe and secure and wanted....... I didn't want to cry... *Sniff*.....I never thought I would get to this point......... where I'm actually happy..... Truly happy and I don't think I would have gotten there if I didn't meet you....... That's why I want you to have your bass back....... I don't need to keep with me all the time, it'll always be there when I need it like you. if willing?

Ikkan: if willing what?

Neta: if you're willing to marry. Ikkan......... Will you marry me?

Warabi: *gasp*

Mahi: *silent screaming*

Ikkan: hehehehe...... yes .... I will marry you

Neta: hahahaha yes! Nailed it! Hahahah [kisskissksskiss]

Ikkan: hehehe Neta!..... Cut it out! Hehe...............

Neta:................................

Ikkan:.............................

Ikkan and Neta: [kiss]

Warabi: aw....so sweet

Ikkan........*moan*....

Warabi: oh.... uhh

Mahi: we need to go NOW. They're not looking go.. gogogogogogo..... Before it gets worse..... Gogogo

Warabi:........ Oh my Cod........ Can't believe they didn't notice this!

Mahi:.......... Hahahahahahaha!

Warabi:....... hahahahahahaha!

Mahi: let's go. This was...... Wow!

Warabi: you think that the new rice place is open?... I heard it's good.

Mahi: let's just hope. The power is on over there...... You ate two week old shrimp by the way.

Warabi: but it tasted like one week...

Mahi put together with rubber bands and silly putty by @fish-at-fish-fish-resort

#They are no longer long distance boyfriends they're a long distance fiances #they broke the internet when Neta posted it on squitter and Inkstagram #taka is big mad but he won't come back..... maybe... I don't know I should write something that has neta tell him off #i rewatched the one episode of Fionna and cake with Simon and Betty and I got feelings #Neta gave two assholes his address and now he's paying for it #Warabi ate two week old shrimp and survived #Neta eats anything past the the expiration date or is a little too greasy he's one step closer to death #he does it anyway because he hates waiting food #when inkling parents tell their kids to eat there are starving kids underground. they were talking about him #it's honestly ingrained into both cultures not to waste food for very different reasons #octarians is because food used to be scarce and you had to eat it all cuz you never know it might be your last #inkling is because you should be grateful for what you have because there are others who don't have it #yeah their city is having power problems the great fish is either on its last leg or it's being overworked probably the latter #Neta might have to go on a emergency “business” trip to fix the problem #i don't think they would want a wedding they'd just sign papers and just have a reception or a party

[imdefyingmavity]

Finished Circe and I am so frustrated because, yes, I was lied to by BookTok that kept recommending this to me as #sapphicfantasy and that is the biggest lie. There is zero wlw content and all of Circe's relationships with other women are antagonist with the exception of Penelope who for a moment I thought "oh is this where the sapphic vibes come in?" but no it's just a friendship, not even that strong, and it's her son that she gets with. Even Circe's daughters at the end aren't named and are mostly there as afterthoughts for the happy ending. The whole book barely passes the Bechdel Test and is all about Circe's relationship with men from her father to lovers to her son etc. Most of those relationships are toxic af so there is lot of Feminine Rage which is honestly some of my favorite parts of the story and what kept me hooked. But yeah that's not enough to equal sapphic when she's still clearly just into dudes.

"It's Greek mythology though, you should have known how it goes." - first off, I was never taught Greek myths in my school, it's not a universally taught subject, and it's also not one of my special interests so, no, outside of the basic stuff or what Disney butchered, I don't know much about Greek mythology. But also, it's an adaptation, so I have no clue how close it would stick to "canon" or do its own thing.

With that said, I'm not knocking the book itself. It's BEAUTIFULLY written and like I said the vibe for Circe is totally "I support womens rights and wrongs" throughout the whole thing. And one thing I do know about Greek myths is that the tone is usually bleak and cruel with the faintest glimmer of hope, so it does encapsulate that. A lot of the last part however did feel more like Circe having other stories told to her rather than being involved with them herself, like she wasn't the main character for a while. The romance with Telemachus also felt like it went from 0 to 60, which was why it felt like more of a whiplash that the focus wouldn't be her and Penelope bonding, Circe having her first true female friend or possibly more, rather than just another lover (I can't bash Telemachus though because he is a sweetie going by this book).

So yeah this isn't me being angry at Madeline Miller, just me ranting at BookTok. All I can think is that people read Song of Achilles and just assumed this was her wlw equivalent without reading it.

Now if someone does have any actual sapphic / wlw Greek myth literature to recommend, please do! Because it is a genre I'd like to read a bit more of.

#lgbt literature #circe madeline miller #sapphic books

[ladybellissima]

Forgotten Love...

Botw Link x Reader

Calamity Ganon was defeated and Hryule was slowly recovering from the damage. People were happy and felt excited that traveling wouldn't be dangerous anymore and Princess Zelda could start her new life with her lovely guard, Link….if he was there. Quite ironic. Wasn't it the princess herself who prefered being alone, than having him following her?

For Link, life should be better now, but honestly it wasn't. The heavy burden of clearing the land from evil finally fell off of his shoulders, nevertheless he felt intriguid. Like something was wrong, not right or maybe missing. An unfulfilled task? He started to travel again, focussed on gossip for informations, but everything was fine. Even if he should be happy about it, it honestly felt exhausting. Frustrated he stopped at a hill and watched the sunset in the distance. ''How beautiful…'', he whispered and got a warm feeling around his chest. It felt like a deja-vu. Maybe he got it all wrong and it was just a missing memory that he didn't found yet. Making him restless and impatient to find it.

''I should ask Impa…'', he thought, while his serious gaze wandered across the beautiful landscape, slowly starting to move to his next destination. Kakariko Village. Impa was helping him with his memories in the first place and for Link she was his last hope.

''Maybe i am just imagine thinks and there is nothing.''

It took him quite awhile to get to the small village and he was worried that Zelda would be angry at him. Sure she was. He sighed of the image of a shouting and complaining princess, frustrated of his change in behavior. He trusted in her abilities and gave her more freedom. Wasn't it that what she always wanted? For him it was getting really exhausting to deal with her nowadays, but as a Champion and personal guard it was his duty to protect her and follow her orders. He felt bad for being kind of annoyed about her attitude. She was lonely. Sure was afraid to lose him. He could relate how empty and terrifying she must felt after realizing that every dear one was now just a memory. There was this stinging pain again in his heart after thinking of his past. ''Is it because i miss the company of the others?..their support…or do i miss something else…'', a starting headache let him push these thoughts aside, while finally reaching Impa's house. Slowly stepping before her, she gave him a warm smile of his visit.

''Link. What a pleasure. What brings you here? How is your life with the princess going?'', her raspy voice called out to him.

Uneasy he watched the old lady, while scratching his head in frustration. In an instant she could feel that something was wrong. ''Tell me.'', she ordered and watched him with curious eyes. Link sighed and sat down in front of her.

''Honestly i am not really sure myself. I thought that i got my memories back, but there is this feeling deep inside my heart that something is missing. It's quite bothering me.. I don't know…are there any unfullfilled tasks i had to finish?..did i miss something important?'', he whispered uneasy, while avoiding her intense look on him. Impa's eyes widened for a moment. Realization hit her hard, after listening to the hero's words. Her mind was racing, thinking of a way to explain him his situation. ''Impa? Is there something wrong?'', Link watched her with an worried expression.

''Link…i am so sorry…'', she started, while a tear rolled down her face. indeed there was still something unfullfilled. Link got back up to his feets with a horrified expression. ''Oh dear. What's wrong. Please don't cry!'', he stuttered helplessly. but stopped after meeting her sudden serious expression. Quickly she wiped the tears off of her cheeks, while sighing deeply.

''(Y/N)…''

She whispered and for a moment it seemed time stood still. Link touched his chest where his heart was beating faster, after hearing this mysterious name. ''(Y/N)…'', he whispered himself, thrilled how familiar this name sounded.

''I am not surprised that you feel a deep hole in your heart. A missing piece to get back to your older self. It was an order to stay quiet about her to protect her for any harm. (Y/N)…how i miss her.. I am really sorry for that Link…We had to focus on saving Hyrule. This wasn't part of your mission..'', she watched him ashamed.

Link couldn't believe what he was hearing. The puzzle was starting to get solved and he was furious. How could they do that to him, after what he had been through? ''That's not a reason to hold back important informations. Getting my memories back was part of it..'', he said annoyed.

''I know Link…i know…but we didn't know if she would be in the same state as you and how her condition would affect you in your actions..", Impa explained and made Link's look narrow slightly, but soon it turned out frustrated. As hard as it was. To be successful was more important. They were right.

"Back before the war had started, you were announced to be the guard of the princess. You and the other Champions were the best warriors of Hyrule and we, the sheikah tribe were helping you in every way possible. There was this one girl of our tribe. She was helping with organizing your missions, caring for injuries to support Mipha and she was searching for informations to get better weapons. Her name was (Y/N) and if you would ask your friends, everybody would say that you were madly in love with her.'', she smiled softly.

Link's face was burning. He would leave and hide somewhere of embarrassment, but he wanted to know more.

''How i missed the days, where you always came here to Kakariko Village and tried to speak with her or just be by her side. It was so adorable. You placed flowers on her doorstep and hid in the bushes, because you were too shy to confess. Hilarious.'', she laughed out loud and Link couldn't believe that he did that.

''And is there an happy end?'', he tried to change the subject, but Impa wasn't finished yet. She smirked. ''What do you think, handsome knight. Did you get the girl of your dreams?'', she asked in a mocking tone. Link couldn't answer and was a stuttering mess. It took him some minutes to calm down.

''Why does it matter…after forgetting such an important person in my life, i wouldn't deserve it. I am glad that i was allowed to experience such a feeling…'', he watched the ground hurt.

''You see. There was this festival at our village. You and the other Champions visited and had much fun. I can remember it like it was yesterday. (Y/N) was wearing a traditional kimono like every woman at this time and she looked breathtaking. You couldn't speak without to stutter, because of her beauty. Defeated by your shyness you wanted to leave, but after seeing that another boy was speaking to her and started to get close to her, you changed completely. Furious you took (Y/N)'s hand and told the boy that she belongs to you. And that wasn't all, you…''

''I dragged her away from the crowd and told her how i loved her…i remember…'', he finished Impa's explanation and touched his lips. The memories flodded back to his mind. Her beautiful eyes…hair…body…everything on her was perfect. The feeling of his jealousy, his anger and his deep love for her. The feeling of her lips on his…..the moment they confessed to each other…it was amazing…it was..

''What happened to (Y/N)…'', he asked with a demanding tone. Impa's expression got serious. ''Calamity Ganon appeared…you know what happened with you and the others. (Y/N) got hurt as well…it was terrible. I decided to let her sleep and regain her health like you.'', she explained.

''So she is alive!!!!'', Link shouted surprised.

''Yes. I found her hurt and about to die, but we were able to bring her to a shrine in hope to save her. Zelda ordered that we let her sleep, till the time is right. I've thought she would explain it to you now or maybe she was about to soon.. I couldn't tell you anything…but to see you in this state now..knowing why…i had to tell you.'', Impa explained and felt relieved that the secret was out.

''She didn't tell me anything…She always speaks about how beautiful everything is now and about our future…how could she…'', Link growled in frustration.

''Link…she knows about your love for her. She acted angry and frustrated, because she knew that after your duty you always traveled to Kakariko…She is blinded by the wish to win your heart.'', Impa tried to calm him down. Link thought about the new circumstances. She was right. He knew that Zelda was in love with him and if she would confess, he would tell her that he didn't feel the same. Then maybe she would tell him about her. He also planned to find the last shrines, so he would have found (Y/N) sooner or later by himself. In every way he would have found the truth. He was glad that he knew the reason of his feelings now. It would have been awkard to find her at a shrine and don't know how to handle the situation. Now he was prepared.

''Yeah Impa, it's okay. I am glad that i know the truth and i am not angry anymore. I am happy to hear that i am able to see her again. How can i find her?'', he asked ready to find his forgotten love.

Impa was happy to hear that and explained him the way to the shrine. Link couldn't wait any longer. He had to see her. Ready and burning with passion he started to head to the shrine. Day, Night, rain or a storm, nothing was holding him back.

After weeks of traveling he reached a shrine, hidden, deep in the mountains of Gerudo Highlands. Exhausted of the cold weather he stepped into the tube and got inside. His heart started to beat faster and his mind was racing. Step after step he started to watch his surroundings. A familiar blue light caught his sight and he took a closer look. Eyes widened and mouth agape he watched the young beauty before him. There she was, lying in a tub of blue elixir and sleeping peacefully. He couldn't believe that he kissed a girl like her. She was perfect in every way. Breathtaking was an understatment. She was more beautiful in reality.

Nervous he touched her cheek and felt the warm and comfortable feeling again. He couldn't believe that he was able to have her back, but then he froze. Would she remember? Would she still love him? If he hadn't got his memory back and met her, he would have fallen for her again, but the way around? He had to find out. Carefully he leaned down and whispered her name into her ear to wake her up. The tension got unbearable.

''….''

Link's eyes widened and he stared at the young beauty. Slowly she moved and he was met with beautiful eyes.

He didn't care, if she wouldn't know him, if she forgot about their love and he was a stranger to her, he would fight for her again and win her heart.

''(Y/N)!'', he smiled brightly.

''You are awake!''….

#breath of the wild #legend of zelda #link #fanfiction #romance

[funkymbtifiction]

Hi Charity! Is it common for non-Feelers (I don't think it's really important if the person in question has low Fi or Fe but maybe I am wrong here) to be uncomfortable with negative emotions of other people (and self)?

I feel like I get very frustrated when people in public act like "too much" or are being too loud or, worst of all, try to get an emotional response out of me. I really hate giving emotional responses in general but it comes out at least genuinely when it's people for whom I already care deeply about, but when some not close friends or acquaintances try to "play on my heartstrings", the only thing that comes out of me is annoyance and resentment. Honestly, I kind of hate that telling them truthfully that I don't care or that they are burdening me is deemed inappropriate, so I have to fake compassion and just try to cut contact with them. I also can't stand when people try to get me to "open up" or be more emotional. I know it's not normal and that I am not supposed to get angry and frustrated when someone asks me how I feel but I just can't help but feel this way. I feel very grateful that my friends understand that even if I am somewhat closed off emotionally, it doesn't mean that I don't trust them or that I don't care about them,

I have trouble expressing my emotions (even if I am happy, it looks somewhat "unconvincing" to other people), and I honestly don't like to "dive" into my emotions either, so when someone tries to forcefully get me to think about them, I have a pretty negative reaction that I can't control, so I usually try to get away until I cool off. Recently my friend told me that guarding my heart that hard won't actually help me avoid feeling pain, and I guess she has a point. But I don't even know how to feel comfortable with my emotions anymore nor there really is a reason to chose them over not feeling them? I mean, I don't get that sad or that distressed compared to people around me (some are even amazed at this ability and wish that they were "just like me"), and I seem to always "keep myself together", but I think that my positive emotions also aren't as bright and colorful as emotions of other people around me. Sometimes I even think that it would be nice to be allowed to be emotionally negative right in someone's face - like crying in a presence of someone else or allowing myself to be comforted  but at the same time this kind of thought terrifies me and makes me uncomfortable. I think from "not feeling negative emotions" I became somewhat untouchable but I also don't think that I can fully connect with someone in emotional level because in order to connect both parties should entrust their raw emotions in one another and I can't do that yet.

Is it like... a common thinker struggle? Sorry that I wrote so much. I hope you get well soon and have a fast recovery! :)

Thanks for your well wishes. I am so "over" this cold. So sick of it. Ha, ha. It took me three hours this morning to write/edit a thousand words and that pisses me off.

Anyway... what you said is pretty normal for a thinking type. They are somewhat uncomfortable with other people's emotions and tend to find emotional 'displays' to be too 'big' or 'intense' (particularly TPs). My ISTP friend says she knows what she's feeling and can deal with it on her own, she doesn't want to share it with other people or have them try to coax her into opening up if she doesn't want to. She also will 'fake' sympathy to calm other people down and/or get through an emotional event (she is not sharing their outrage or whatever, but will go along with it to make them feel more at ease around her). But things just do not affect her on an intense of a level as they appear to impact other people.

As you get older, your will become more in touch with your emotions -- if that is something you choose to focus on developing. Learning to be more open with people and to share when you feel ready can help facilitate emotional growth between you and another person, but you shouldn't share more than you feel good about sharing, and you shouldn't compare yourself negatively with people who more easily open up and talk about their feelings. You would be surprised how many people don't register their emotions as being 'bright' or that intense; they seem to be that way for feeling dominants more than any other type.

There may or may not come a time when you feel okay crying in front of someone else -- and it's okay if that happens and okay if it doesn't. You are fine just the way you are. :)

#question #istp #intp #istj #entp #estp #estj #mbti

[samsamindisneyland]

In Defense of Cordelia Carstairs

I haven't finished reading the book but because I am incredibly impatient, I have read so many spoilers that it feels as if I have. (For reference I believe that I am almost half way through.) That being said, I may change my mind on this take after finishing the book. 

*WARNING SPOILERS FOR TLH AHEAD*

Cordelia is catching a lot of flack right now. People arent liking her in this book as much as they did in the previous ones and while I understand that in some instances, I dont think people are looking at her situation as a whole while reading. In the past several weeks she has (spoiler alert, seriously stop reading now if you haven't read Chain of Gold, Chain of Iron and/or Chain of Thorns):

Lost her father who she had an extremally complicated relationship with.

Witnessed her mother begin to experience a high risk pregnancy because of the stress of her father dying

Witnessed her brother get his heart broken which, she has shown concern about on a number of occasions (people keep saying she doesn't care and to that I say: you seem to forget that she was literally running interference every time Charles so much as looked at her brother in Chain of Iron and encourages him at several points in Chain of Thorns to pursue happiness with Thomas.)

Believed she was being singled out to become a hero and was doing something great by swearing alligance to Wayland the Smith and having that thrown back into her face by discovering that she is now the Paladin of a greater demon. 

Lost the future she thought she would have in becoming Lucie’s Parabatai because she is now the Paladin of a greater demon.

Begun to hope that James had feelings for her but then witnessed him embracing the women that she believes he truly loves, thereby having her heart and hopes crushed.

Thought she was going to Paris to heal and take her mind off of things only to be immediately lied to by Matthew which she finds out about at the same time that James comes to tell her that he loves him. Which given what she knows about the situation must be incredibly confusing. 

You guys... that's a lot for a single person to go through. Imagine the worst moments of your life, all compiled into a span of a few weeks and ask yourself: do you think you would be on your best behavior? I know that I wouldn't be.

I will concede that the Cordelia/Matthew/James love triangle has been incredibly annoying to read. Out of all the issues she is facing in her life, I would put “which cute boy do I love?” at the bottom of the list. However since this is a romance novel of sorts I wont speak too much to my annoyance on this particular plotline being overly focused on.

I will also concede that her treatment of Matthew is just shitty honestly. I dont think that she feelings for him at any point. Matthew is a distraction and honestly the way she lead him on was incredibly mean. The moment she started thinking about James while they kissed she should have said something. I will say Matthew straight up lying to her about the drinking was shitty as well. He should have been honest with her but I can understand his thinking more than hers. He is an addict which is a sickness.

As to the whole James situation: she doesn't have the benefit of knowing what we know as the reader. Yes, it is incredibly frustrating for us to watch her hem and haw about her feelings for James because we know the truth of the matter. She does not. In her mind, James’s feelings are sudden and confusing. Just a few days ago he was in their house embracing Grace and thanking god that she wasn't going to marry Charles and now, suddenly, he hates Grace and loves her. He offers her absolutley no explanation on why this would be. What would you think in that situation? I dont know that I would jump to “he only wants me because he cant have me,” but I would be angry and confused.

I'm not saying that I think she is right in doing and saying the things she does in the book (especially towards Lucie) but I also dont completely blame her. She has also been lied to so many times (her fathers alcoholism, Jame’s feelings, Matthew’s drinking, etc) that I am not surprised that she is suddenly suspicious of everyone’s motivations. Which I’m sure she would have debunked herself if she had the time to really stop and think about it. Her life has been thrown on its ear and I dont think she knows how to cope or is taking a moment to stop and think. Nor has she really had the time to do so with the whole Belial/Lilith situation. 

I know that there are more grievances that people have but again I haven't finished the book so I dont really have an opinion and I may change my mind about all of this later on. Kudos to anyone who made it all the way to the bottom of this rambling post. Let me know your thoughts :) 

#chot spoilers #chain of thorns #cordelia carstairs #james herondale #matthew fairchild #spoilers #chain of thorns spoilers #cassandra clare #tlh spoilers #tlh

[pbandjesse]

I am comfortable in my hammock. I'm having a pretty nice day. Even if other people are bringing me down a bit. I am trying to let things ago. Let myself be happy. But it is very hard. This is why I like being alone up here.

I slept alright last night. It was hard getting up but I honestly felt fine when I got up. I hugged on James. They had brought my stuff to the car already because they are great. Love my husband. Very quickly though I was on the road.

I stopped for breakfast. Gave a person begging what I could. The woman at the window commented that they were just going to use it for something they shouldn't. And I said that my character is judged by what I did to help, where my heart was, not what she did with it after. That's on her character. And the woman at the window agreed with me and said I had a good heart.

I got to camp at 8. Someone driving out, the entrance, gave me a dirty look. And there was a baby bunny I had to stop for. But it was normal beyond that.

It was chilly. I got out of the car and found that the art building was musty but it was fine. I was not happy about the tent was not out back

I had to move my tables. And there was trash. But the thing that made me angry was my table cups, that have materials like colored pencils and scissors, were left on the picnic table so they were filled with water form the rain and a bunch of supplies were ruined. I was furious. I sent a very cursey text to CJ just because if I didn't say it to someone I was going to say it in the group chat and get fired.

Ty would come go to tell me that there was trash and mess at homestead and the very old chicken, grandma, was injured!!! We were worried that it was children in the enclosure or something. So we decided to go to the office to talk to Alexi.

Alexi was understanding. She is hopeful that it wouldn't be the kids who hurt grandma and was maybe a fox. But she is discouraged that the areas aren't being treated appropriately.

As we were talking and going through complaints and ideas to make it better Kieran came in and told us that the chef claims that there was a bear in the trash!! So now we're like was it a bear??? Wild.

We headed back to arts and crafts. And it would be a fine day. Tati was great and super helpful. She would be in charge of the hot glue and would get so good at it by the end of the day. Like we were figuring out how to layer yarn to look like hair and she really has it down by the end.

I would read a little. Work on my knitting. And we would talk about the weekend and our projects and the plan for the day. And the group would be late but they would come soon enough.

And the project is going pretty well so far!! I'm glad I didn't put all the markers out because they would break some. But overall they were great with the materials and I loved what they made. Not everyone did a person but I said animals were fine as long as they had faces. And it was just really fun to see what they came up with.

Both my morning groups did well. And then it was lunch time. Which ended up being a bust. They had hot dogs. I wish they did vegetarian hot dogs but instead we got some kind of stir fry. Which I was not feeling so I had a hot dog bun and went to make Mac and cheese. I was nice sitting with friends though. But at noon I went to make the Mac and cheese at the office.d

Tyler would join me to use the microwave. And he would give me a cinnamon twist from his dominos leftovers which was excellent. We ate on the porch and we were able to get some paperwork done that camp needed for the reaccreditation that's happening this week.

Speaking of that though. I got very frustrated later in the day because Cody would come up to our building and he gave me a paper that he said we should have been filling out and he was surprised that I had never seen this before. Basically it's an entire list of materials that the programs use. I don't know if you guys can picture what the art building looks like. But it would take me days to document all of the stuff and quantities of things that are in here. And he wants it done by tomorrow. That is impossible task and not fair that they are asking of me two days before the accreditation is happening. This shouldn't have been given to me now it should have been given to me during training. When there was actually a chance of me having time to do that. So I'm very overwhelmed by that but I'm trying not to let it bother me and I'm going to try to have Tatiana just list everything she can see in the room and will make estimations of what things are. Because man am I stressed out about that.

After lunch though I had my two-day camps and my older kids. And it went really well. I brought the metal stamping kit with me and a couple people made coins today and that was really fun. A couple of the counselors got really into it. And everyone really likes painting on the wood and so because I do not have enough spoons I texted Joe and asked if he would mind cutting wood for me just to have more pieces. And he said he would and that was really great of him.

During my half hour break after my day camp but before my older kids Dad called and we talked for half an hour and I wish we could have talked longer. It was really good to hear him and he sounded really strong and healthy. I know he started physical therapy again today and I really hope it helps him regain some confidence and balance. But it was nice to talk and I got to tell him all about Jess's house and some stuff at camp that's been drama. But it was just really nice talking to him even if it was just a short period of time.

And like I said the older girls really enjoyed making bracelets and beads and one of the girls made a stamped coin and then their counselor was really into it and made a couple. Including one that said on Wednesdays we wear pink. And I thought that was so funny. So at the end of the day I would sit down and I would stamp out the whole quote about being crazy in a rubber room with rats. Because the younger boys say it all the time and I thought it would be funny to show that to them. It did take me a while to make though.

My last group was with Trista and I love Trista. I was very sad that I missed their class last week when I had to go to the doctor. And we had a nice conversation while the kids worked and talked to Tatiana made sure that the kids pieces didn't look bald unless that's what they wanted. We had this bit going with this one child who made there character green with very sparse orange hair and we kept going. Oh my God. How did you do that. It's like a mirror. You you did that so well. And just being so dramatic about it. And she would go I know like no one believes just I made this That's how good it is. It was very silly.

But at 4:15 I said goodbye to everyone and I grabbed my pool bag and I headed out. I was going to go swimming because it was really hot out. And it was the hottest time of the day.

There were so many kids in the shower though so I couldn't get changed in the bathroom so thankfully no one was using the laundry room and I wouldn't change them there after chatting with the lifeguards for a few minutes. I checked in with CJ as well who had to be a counselor today because Candela is not here from Spain yet. Something happened with her flight but she should be here tonight. And then I got in the water. And it was beautiful.

I was just kind of sit in the cold for a while and eventually would get most of my hair wet. Celia did not remember her bathing suit again. I'm actually just texted her to tell her to put her suit in her backpack so that this does not happen again. So she would just sit with her legs in the water but eventually Antonio and Annabelle joined me. And it was fun watching the kids do pool canoes and I just floated for a while and it was a good temperature and I felt very happy being in the water.

At 5:00 I decided to get out. The kids were going swimming again after their canoes and I went and took a shower. Max was in the bathroom trying to clean but because of girls bathing suits they just bring so much water and that it's impossible to clean it because it's all wet. So he had to wait a while anyway and I went to go take my shower and felt so much better afterwards.

I came back up to arts and crafts and I felt okay. Kind of uncomfortable but fine. I would hang out for a while in the outside hammock and was reading. I did my rubber rat crazy stamp thing. And then once it was closer to 6 I took my book and went down to the lodge.

I got lots of pillows from wonderful children on my way there. And when I got there I sat in the back corner and I read for a while. The colts book is okay. I've decided I'm going to skip the ones that I'm not super interested in right now but I think I would like to go back to a narrative book tomorrow. We'll see. I have a couple still that I would like to read on my shelf this week. Got nothing's really calling to me yet. I was not really looking forward to dinner when I heard that they combined the vegan, vegetarian, gluten-free, and allergy concern dinner into one thing. Again. I don't understand why the chefs don't understand that they should just be making whatever everybody else is having as close to that as possible. Because for some ungodly reason today we had turkey patties for dinner, which apparently work gross. But the vegetarians had ratatouille. And it wasn't even good. It just tasted like stewed tomatoes with undercooked zucchini in it. I hated it and I was very upset. The one saving Grace was I asked Charlotte if I could have two rolls and at first she was like well if another child doesn't get a role coming out of your pay. But she gave me two rolls. And then I ended up getting a third roll. I wish it had butter but at least it was carbs. And they know I'm supposed to be even less carbs but they're the only thing that makes me feel not shaky. I'm trying. I'm not trying that hard but I am trying.

I was kind of sad though. Dinner just made me feel depressed. Tyler was also feeling depressed. I don't know why I'm switching between Ty and Tyler in this post But they are the same person. Just in case you weren't sure. But he was not happy either and we left and went up to the art building together. Where he made his own coin and memory with Grandma. Who is not dead but has gone home to her owner to heal. He also told me that he did find a bird net to go over the enclosure so hopefully nothing else can get in. And I hope that the office buys it ASAP.

I decided to fall back on the things I used to do when I was sad and grad school and I made a tote bag. I'm really proud of it actually because the fabric on the outside is the same as the inside and I made sure that all of the pattern is going the correct direction so all the pictures are facing the right way and it has velvet handles and a flat bottom. I'm really proud of it. It's a little oversized and floppy And I really like that. And I sent it to Jess and she made a big fuss that how beautiful it was and now I want to make more tote bags to possibly put it in my market table. So that's a consideration right now. I'm not that concerned about it though but maybe I'll knock out some cutting and that's always the part I hate the most anyway and I have big tables here so we'll see.

Tyler would head out And I would finish sewing my bag. And then I would take a walk to the nurse. I had choked on a roll as we were leaving the dining hall and I had upset myself from coughing so hard. But some water on my face helped and then I came back up here after chatting with PJ outside of the building for a bit. The air quality was very bad today and I guess we've all just given up on caring about that because I never even got an air quality alert on my phone. Even though it was at the same numbers it was the other week when we were all forced to be inside. So that's cool. I'm not annoyed by that at all.

And when I came back up here I hung out in my hammock for a while. The mosquitoes were eating my legs for the first time this summer and I hit a mosquito and blood got everywhere. I have no idea if it was my blood or somebody else's blood I was not happy about it. So I came inside and put on more bug spray and started winding down.

I closed the door at 9:00 and brushed my teeth. And I've been laying here for a while now. I hope tomorrow was a good day. I hope that my stress is of today lesson. Because honestly I had so much fun with my groups I just hate how much other people's energy brings me down. And so many people are coming to me. And it's not that I don't enjoy that I want to be a rock for people I want to be here to listen. Tatiana even said today that I was famous because every time I'm not here a million people apparently come to the door looking for me. But I just wish that it wasn't always negative. I don't mind some negative. I want to hear when things are wrong. But I also need to be positive about camp. I like this job. I like being here. I just don't like all the other crap outside of it. Fingers crossed that I can just be happy. Despite everything else.

I also really hope I sleep well tonight. I'm pretty comfortable right now and it's not supposed to be rainy or anything tomorrow so I'm hoping there's no big spikes and humidity. And I just hope it's a nice day. I hope you all have a nice day. I hope you are safe out there in the world. I also found out that my very first friend in Baltimore, Ben's husband passed away suddenly today. So I just want to remind everyone that you never know when things not going to be over. And to tell the people you love how much you love them. Until next time.

[kitsunesfandomtime]

His escape from hell - Ch 1

Characters: Yoichi Shigaraki, Second One for all User, Third One for all user

Warnings: Hallucination, truama response, and Yoichi just a bit frazzled.

Summary: Sequel to Treasure Vault. Yoichi has escaped the vault with the help of these rebel forces but he is still suffering the truama and effects of the vault. He refuses to let that stop him, one way or another even if no one on his side. He has a goal he wishes to achieve.

Yoichi had escaped his prison and it was supposed to be the start of a new life. The beginning of his story of finally becoming a hero despite what his brother says.

He was more than happy to tell the rebels everything they wished to hear. They fed him, they clothed him in something other than slacks and even were kind enough to give him a doctor. When he wasn't a mess it was only natural that he wanted to help they were even saying he could join the fight if he trained.

They were a group that was angry at the lack of government action against All for One instead claiming he doesn't exist. Just random groups that weren't at all related to each other all because the leader was hiding in the shadows or possibly too afraid to admit someone that can gather so much power in one person existed.

So Yoichi learned that the government would rather cover up and hide All-for-One existence. They were trying to bury his brother but as a result, it allowed people to get hurt in the crossfire constantly. It left a bad taste in his mouth unsure if he should be more repulsed at the government for their indifference or his brother for not backing down.

He could understand how a rebel group unaffiliated with either could form. Though they didn't tell him everything as it seemed, they had different intentions when they broke into the base. There was still distrust and they hadn't even told him their names. It was a chance to connect with them.

So why...?

"Ah...." his voice seemed to crack when they asked for his brother's name. A strong feeling of dread hit him as if suddenly everything had become real.

That these men he called heroes were in fact after his brother's life for all the terrible crimes he had picked. They looked at him puzzled at his reaction but his hero seemed kind enough to move on.

"How about your brothers main location...?"

Another thing but this time one he doesn't know. A strong sense of helplessness at the fact he has no idea how to help. That if he could have given at least something maybe they wouldn't feel like he was a waste.

The one who extended his hand to him stared intently waiting for him to tell them just as eagerly as he had his name. The weapon at his side gleamed reminding Yoichi of one thing he tended to ignore.

These men likely wanted his brother dead.

They told him how many atrocities his brother had committed and how the government did nothing. How their goal was to stop any more victims from being made by this power-hungry man.

They were honest. They didn't claim the title of heroes even if saved Yoichi out of the goodness of their hearts they exposed the blood on their hands.

"I'm sorry," Yoichi can't provide them with anything despite how much they were risking to help him. He was useless to them. Nothing more than a liability just like his brother always acted like he was, "I don't know."

The man besides his savior let out a loud frustrated groan. Yoichi honestly agreed feeling frustration and annoyance at himself as well.

"Are you SERIOUS? Nothing? Nada?" His hands dramatically gesture toward Yoichi as he looks at the head of the rebel command, "What are we suppose to tell the others? They will definitely be recognizing him and they are going to throw a fuss."

The white-haired male can't deny that. Even though Yoichi was grateful to be saved he hasn't done anything.

"I promise I can help! I will fight for your cause I am against my brother," Yoichi was quick to interject wanting to make it clear that he wasn't useless and can still contribute.

He couldn't bring himself to say his own brother's name. As if saying it would make this reality more real that his brother was right about joining those that 'wish him dead'.

Even though his brother was the reason he went this far! If his brother just stopped no one would be here in this situation!

"I really don't know anything else," Yoichi's voice was firm yet uneasy unlike when talking to his brother he didn't know how they might take this.

He wasn't on his brother's side maybe at first had thought it was good. But he now knows it was a lie that he refused to be a part of still he expected more contempt. More harsh words and interrogation.

Unconsciously he looks over at the man who reached out his hand to him. He wasn't much of a talker though he had been quite clear that Yoichi wasn't to be harmed. Saying he's as much of a victim as anyone else under AFO.

"Come on we need something. The other guys aren't going to believe you are on our side if don't say anything," the ponytailed man sighs as though it was clear he was losing faith.

His hero finally spoke up in that calm and stern tone, "He was locked in a vault for who knows how long. You can't expect him to say anything after that even if he did hate the man."

"I don't hate him!" It was a knee-jerk response. Standing on his feet as his hands slam on the table, "He's an asshole, and a villain that he needs to be stopped but I don't hate him!"

Liar.

His body was shaking as the two stared at him like he was insane. Yoichi then realized how he must sound, not hating the man that literally locked him away from the world while destroying his sanity.

"I-I'm sorry. It just... This is a lot," Yoichi moves his hand through his hair feeling like an idiot.

"...Are you guys going to use me as a hostage? Make deals with him?" Yoichi mutters softly feeling uneasy.

The two glanced at each other then his 'hero' gets up and walks over to his side to place a hand on his shoulder. Their expressions were of concern almost worried even which he hoped didn't mean they had been considering it.

"You should go rest we won't ask you about your brother anymore. We really appreciate you talking to us and don't worry we know you are genuine," the interrogator seemed to have softened his stance looking at him with something akin to pity.

...Even though Yoichi wished it why did it feel like he shouldn't be treated so kindly? Able to feel himself about to shout about how they can't just trust him when they don't know him. "You-"

"Go rest, Shigaraki-san. You need it if you want to get better," his hero stopped him with a firm voice as if somehow able to know exactly what he was about to say. Cutting him off before could end up making the conversation worst.

There was no arguing with them. Slowly he leaves the room but he couldn't help but stop just outside the door. Leaning against it after closing as he felt like he needed to hear them.

"He really got fucked up by his brother huh?" It's the second in command, "Like yikes talk about stockholm, family or not I would be running for the hills. Man was basically skin and boneswhen we saw him! Even if we done some terrible stuff even I couldn't bring myself to shoot someone on death's door even if was the plan."

Yoichi feels his heart drop learning that the original intention was to kill wasn't a surprise. Still remembering the weapon pointed out his face staring down the barrel as his 'hero' had been moments from pulling the trigger.

And yet it never came. Instead, that weapon lowered and held a hand out to him despite knowing exactly who he was. In their eyes, it likely really was just childish and nativity to be unwilling to hate his brother despite everything he has done. Especially since his brother has done so many things that crossed the line. His big brother was bad but it because...

"We don't know their relationship prior to him being trapped but we know his name and he is sincere. We will just have to convince the others he deserves to be here and help him out," his hero was kind. "If he wants to help, he is allowed too."

Yoichi takes a sharp breath as his chest tightens knowing he is being a burden unable to trust them it is only natural no one would.

He needs to make himself useful. He needs to make sure to eat and get stronger with the stockpile quirk he should get strong. He just needs to train.

...He can't listen to any more of this.

With this in mind, Yoichi straightened himself up feeling a surge of determination. Returning to his room he was going to rest and make sure that he was ready in the morning to eat and possibly train.

And then kill me?

That voice keeps plaguing him!

Despite leaving that vault he could still hear the whispers of his brother always in the corner of his eyes. Watching and looking at him with pity or amusement.

"You're not there," Yoichi whispers mostly to himself as he returns to the room his heroes were so kind as to give him. Least anyone sees him talk to these hallucinations that have not left him since entering this rebel camp.

He walks toward his room as he suddenly feels like everything was too loud. His hands moved over his ears as he wanted to turn back and ask why they weren't pressing harder. Why aren't they using him like he expected? Why are they being NICE!?

Seriously, do you believe they actually care about you? It's called buttering you up

Hiding in the room at first sight he slams the door to finally look at the assailant out of his mind. "Shut up! You aren't here, did you steal some telepathy quirk!?"

God he hopes not. He didn't want that to be real. He doesn't want it to be because of him that everyone here dies... But the figure that looks like his brother just hums.

The whole place felt different. Dark, gloomy yet so very very real just like that vault as if was still trapped there.

"Who knows," his brother feels... too real. Yet also not at the same time slowly looking around with a lazy smile. It felt... Like this was a version of his brother from long ago his presence wasn't as terrifying. So familiar-

"Get out of my head!" Yoichi shouts and like that suddenly he was back in his room feeling his chest aching while his vision was blurred. Feeling almost shaky knowing the doctor told him his condition was bad.

He takes a heavy breath as he stumbles to his bed barely able to resist throwing himself upon it. Tears in his eyes as he slowly realized he had lost his mind every part of his body ached and hurt. Wondering if it was even ok to relax knowing so many others might die.

He has to ignore that voice.

His brother wasn't there. He was going to make sure his hero didn't regret taking him in.

He was going to escape this hell of his brothers making one way or another. He will become a hero.

#yoly's fanfics #all for one bnha #all for one mha #yoichi shigaraki #Second One for all user #third one for all user #his escape from hell

[morievna]

A bit of annoucement

Hello,

Something different this time 😅

I got into BSD over summer, trying to catch up with all content. Frankly, I tend to stay away from shounen genre as usually these stories bore me after some time – action feels repetitive, some disappointing character choices and so on. But since BSD was always in my orbit as series with ‘other Ugetsu’ xD I decided to give a chance and oh my…….. it is really good.

Ofc it would be better it was more queer, but I guess intense male friendships are part of shounen xD Totally not written like romantic relationship xD

And for real they have such similar looks and vibe XD

And since I have a lot of thoughts, probably I will start writing down when I will have some free time.

I know you follow me for Given content so I am not sure if I should put it here or create something new account… if you have any suggestion feel free to write to me^^ or you can simply like this post if you don’t mind me writing here.

If you want to know where I stand when it comes to bsd – here are some my opinions^^ - also some spoilers here !!

Fav characters: Dazai, Chuuya, Akutagawa, Fyodor *plays Anti-hero in background*

Characters that grown on me: Atsushi, Fitzgerald, Yosano, Kyouka, Ranpo

Characters that I like just because xD: Poe, Mori, Tecchou, Gogol, Rimbaud, Verlaine, Adam

Character I wanted to like but nah:/ : Kunikida (because his character arc builds up but leads nowhere - it is frustrating to me too much)

Character that I am neutral on: Oda (imo he is good character, but it was very predictable to me what will happen to him and kids - it was hard for me to get invested)

Characters I dislike: Tanizaki (like literary I can’t find anything interesting about him xD), Shibusawa (imo he was meant to be cool villain but felt too much typical in the end)

Character interactions I want more: 

Chuuya&Akutagawa (I was happy for changes in DA stage play even though Chuuya was a bit too mean xD)

Kyouka&Lucy (they have lots in common and could be good friends),

Chuuya&Verlaine (SB needs follow-up)

Gin&Higuchi (imo more female friendship would turn out good for the story)

Kouyou&Chuuya (imo it is weird how mentorship was teased, but we got nothing substantial)

Fyodor&Sigma (I want more creator/creation dynamic as it is always fun and that betrayed Sigma’s look- oh boi)

Chuuya&Dazai (I simply want Chuuya to punch Dazai for that attempted drowning xD)

Fav arc:

Stormbringer (perfection, I loved everything)

The Perfect Murder And Murderer – I love deduction time xD and how it is like breather between more action-packed arcs. Ranpo-Poe duo is just so much fun^^  Mushitarou’s story was great and I loved his theatrical antics. I liked how Ranpo was developed in this arc – the consequences from feeling guilty from mistakes in Cannibalism

I also love all parts where ADA and PM has to cooperate xD so much goodness. Shin Sokokou and Sokoku are really heart of story, Fukuzawa-Mori and Yosano-Black Lizards were highlights too

Most disliked arc:

Azure Messenger in anime (it was so bad on every level xD I didn’t read LN version and I don’t feel like it honestly xD)

Dazai’s demise in Beast (I was so angry when I read it *throwing-book-kind-of-angry* Honestly I like better that from spoilers movie version sounds more ambiguous on that)

What I like about writing:

Compelling characters – really Asagiri and Harukawa have knack for creating interesting characters

Symbolism – you know it is my jam xD Especially I love ying-yang relationship between ADA and PM – it is soo cool how there is basically light side but with bit of darkness (represented by dark past and trauma) and dark side with such selfless motive like protecting peace in city and comrades xD I like how story makes them cooperate together and this being shown as ‘the way’ and how characters are getting karma back at them when trying to antagonize/distrust each other xD it is really cool that there is no simple PM = evil and ADA = good guys, but more complexity is going on.

Message – imo story has heart in right place. I like how characters have agency and can be who they want - not defined by their dark past, but the will to be better person. I also liked theme of humanity in SB and how it was handled that origin matters less and the most important are ppl in which eyes someone is human.

My issue with writing:

more spotlight on female characters pretty please *siigh* honestly I just want more all of them

when strong competent character is conveniently disappearing from main action XD I mean I understand that is for plot reason, but it is so often and weird sometimes – imo it would be better to just make short notice that Chuuya/Kyouka/etc is just somewhere else doing something

Theories time (I wonder if I will got something right😄):

Chuuya tearing down Meursault completely, alliance with Fyodor on his free will (imo it would be more interesting this way, but opposite is rather more possible)

Fyodor’s ability will be opposite to Dazai (something like ability control like Rogue from X-men) and his backstory will be parallel to Chuuya/Verlaine (because paralells are fun xD)

Fukuzawa will die this arc (maybe Mori too if story will go for soulmate vibe xD)

PM taking over Bram’s skill and staying as vampires, Bram living normal life

Redemption + Atonement arc for DoA (yep, all of them – actually imo it would be neat if Fukuchi founded theatre as irl – art for healing~~)

I hope loose threads will have follow up – Steinback and Fitzgerald confrontation, Mitchell and Hawthorne reunion, healing arc for Q, Verlaine in PM, Tachihara and Yosano’s arc lack proper conclusion too…

#bsd #bsd opinions #are they unpopular i wonder? #still wonder it i should start new account or if i am too lazy for that #i didnt expect to get invested that much but i guess time for new obsession xD

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tmi ahead ig but i always overshare anyway but i actually do feel like i am such a burden bc of my back pain like it's been going on for this entire year and the more it goes on the more i feel like i have to hide it cause everyone is tired of hearing abt it tired of asking how i'm doing and getting a negative answer tired of trying to accomodate me sort of n tired of me not being healthy. i feel like i'm.making other people's lives miserable even if i am miserable myself probably more than others are from dealing w me. but it's so hard not to feel like i'm a huge burden. not to be frustrated and sad and angry at myself n my body for not working properly. and truth is none of this help this feeling of guilt this self loathing. but it's hard to work thru it and i'll admit i'm hoping there'll be a solution soon so then it's all solved. amd i can work thru the reasons behind all of these feelings with a clear mind and less at stake if that makes sense. ik that's bullshit tho cause well. i need to work on it now. i need it now i need to be more serene and at peace w my current condition Now even if it will pass i still owe myself and honestly other disabled ppl too the work needed to be at peace w the fact that if someone needs accomodations and support then they just need it and should get it and deserve to get it and it's not a bad thing cause we're just all on this earth to be as happy and comfortable aa possible at the end of the day. which is damn hard under cspitalism but it is still a truth i live by. there is no one who deserves to live uncomfortably bc they don't fit what society decides is normal and respectable and comfortable. this is getting long and nonsensical probably. cause i'm in pain. it's just basically this is so hard especially cause like i can't even. like i don't feel like i can call myself physically disabled cause like i'm not ? but then what is being in near constant pain for almost 5 months called lol. but rly it comes back to the whole hoping there will be a solution and i won't have to worry abt any of this anymore. even of i think in the end i will forever be changed by all of this but will i forever be what could rn be comsidered disabled ? idk. does it matter i also don't know. do i make sense rn. the pain in the right aide of my body is so bad even after a strong painkiller so i am not very clearminded rn. i think whay i wanted to say is that damn this os so hard i feel so bad for not being able to do things like i used to i deel so bad for not bding like i used to and having to rely on others even more and having to ask for more things more help i feel bad to the point that i avoid talking to ppl s9 i don't have to bring anything up abt my pain so i don't have to sayi am still doing badly to the point i just laugh and go eh it's okay i'll livw. and yeah sure i will indeed live but will i live in constant pain for a lotlomger? for how long? wnat do i do in the mieamtime? i just laugh ot off and pretend it's not happening as if thT will help. well no it won't but i cant seem to make myself stop doing it cause asking for more help is soooooo so so hard and i don't want to make ppl uncomfortable and inconvenience them. anyway i need to sleep forever bye

#delete later #maybe #we'll see

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You disliking Luke and Lorelai gives me life! I watched Gilmore Girls for the first time during the pandemic and hated almost every character but was especially stunned by Luke and Lorelai because for years I'd heard about what an incredible 'best ever' ship they were and it turns out they are terrible in almost every single way. Once they got together, what little chemistry they had seemed to disappear, but the problems run so much deeper than that. Once they went from friends to dating, they literally don't even seem to like each other, they are always deeply annoyed by each other, they have LESS than nothing in common, they constantly lie to each other or at least 'omit the truth', they are completely incompatible, they seemingly can't connect or even have an actual conversation about ANYTHING. And maybe this has to do with the actors supposedly not getting along but the characters just never seemed to click or make each other happy once they got together. As much as I am not a Rosschel fan for all the reasons you named (and love Rachel/Joey, which I will always believe should have been endgame!), Rosschel's below average communication skills seem practically stellar compared to Luke and Lorelai's unwillingness to have any sort of real conversation at all outside of Lorelai blathering about nothing like a flailing, attention-desperate standup comedienne and Luke grumbling about how much he hates every aspect of life. I love Friends despite its problems and despite wishing Ross and Rachel hadn't been a thing past season 2, but even thinking about Gilmore Girls annoys me, lol. I see why people love it, but for me the "ugh" outweighs the good :) Thank you for letting us vent!

I agree with everything, haha! I got so angry and frustrated with those two as well. They don't get any better in A Year in the Life (spoiler alert). They're honestly terrible apart too. Between Luke's anger issues and Lorelai's selfishness they were a match made in hell.

Gilmore Girls is definitely very frustrating. I understand! I sometimes think about rewatching it because I love Logan, Paris, Lane, Emily, Rory, and Rory/Logan - despite these characters' flaws (not Lane's, she's perfect) - but it's so hard to watch the show... So, I understand, though I used to love it! I was a bit less frustrated by Friends too, but a lot more indifferent. I loved the GG universe despite everything. Just thinking about the characters and relationships makes me want to rewatch. They're so familiar and comforting to me though I don't know the show as well as I do other old favorites.

What did you think about the other characters and pairings? Where do you stand on the Logan/Jess/Dean debacle lmao?

You're welcome to vent anytime! Thanks for the ask!!

#ask #gilmore girls #friends #anti lorelai gilmore #anti luke danes #anti java junkie #anti javajunkie #thanks for the ask!